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29th Mar 09, Sunday

It's Our Last Goodnight
You Still Dont Know Im Leaving
It's Our Last Goodnight
You're Asleep And Dreaming
And You Wont Know
That I Mean Well
And It's Tearing Me Apart
It's Our Last Goodnight
Tomorrow I'll Be Leaving Before Dawn...

all i wanna do was to love you... 2:25 PM

18th Mar 09, Wednesday

went out to study...
haix...
till now, i've not sms ke ai yet...
kept thinking if i should...
and kept checking my phone if she did...
why am i doing such things...
sigh...
evening she smsed me if i was okay...
but i didnt know what or how to tell her...
so many things running through my mind...
so many things that i cant say...
it's smothering me...
i dont want to make her sad...
could she understand...
argh...

all i wanna do was to love you... 9:37 PM

17th Mar 09, Tuesday

Goal

went down to study at arif's house
near tampinese mart if that's what it's called

studied, slacked and played soccer with some young chaps
5 of my friends, including me, vs 8 of them...
wth??
played barefooted
and got my feet injured...
my hand got a cut...
and my ass bruised when i was doing my amazing high foot skill
and one kid knock into me...
the next second...i was lying on the floor
zzz...ass hurts so much
smsed ke ai...
then she started to talk about bi...
sigh..
for some reason, it affected me alot
practially my friends could see the change in my mood and facial expression...
zzz...
smoked quite alot...
and felt like being alone...
so i told ke ai that i wanted to be alone...

all i wanna do was to love you... 2:12 AM

16th Mar 09, Monday - Exam Results

Fail

damn...
got my exam results today
through the school's website
totally disappointed
haix...
failed two subjects...
edev and emaths2
wtf la...
depressed...

all i wanna do was to love you... 2:00 AM

7th - 10th Mar 09, Saturday - Off To Thailand

SIA - Boeing 777-200ER

[7th]Flight's in the morning...at 10+am on
a SIA Boeing 777-200ER aircraft
woots hahas! i know >.<
can bare to leave...especially my ke ai...
haix...
off to the airport at 8am
everything's packed and done...
checked in our bags
and hang out with dad and grandmom for awhile more
9+am, entered the departure area...
said goodbye to dad and grandmom...
when scanning our hand-held bags...
for some reason...i turned and took a glance at the outside crowd...
hoping to see a familiar face...which would never appear there...
at that point of time...i really wanted to see her...
but that's impossible...
rushed to the plane...and smsed ke ai...
and off the plane took off...
touch down in thailand at 12pm+
took private cab to the hotel - holiday inn salom
checked in, changed our clothes and off we go to the shopping mall
first mall to crash was MBK mall :)
ate KFC for lunch...uber cheap...
got a chiobu keep looking at me =.=" wth?
lameeeee...
ate and went upstairs to start hunting for stuffs
ahahahaha
shop till around 8-9pm
damn tired...havent sat down yet...
bought, jacket, shirt, specs, a pants, presents for joyce, weiting and goel
:D wahaha
went back to the hotel by public cab. mom and sis pang seh me when i was bathing...pff
they went to the streets to walk...so me chill in the hotel, eat cup noodles for dinner and watch tv
and smsed ke ai...
they came back and got invited to watch some sex and stripping show...LOLS
but they didnt got, just got pestered by some unknown dude.
haha, heng i didnt go :D
[8th]Woke up at around 9+am
cab down to the flea market
woah super big sia...
and the weather was f***ing hot...
made some wood thingy for our house..
bought some shirt, a pants and ke ai a bag :D
woots
cab back to MBK...
had chineseeeee fooood for lunch at a restaurant
shop again...bought shirts, converse hi-cut white leather shoe!! and got a haircut there...LOLS...
wanted to get some jeans but i was way to skinny to even fit into their smallest size Pff...
bought chicken fried rice back to the hotel to eat lols...took the toot toot cab! lols...so dangerous...
slacked, watched tv, smsed ke ai...
[9th]woke up around 10+am
cabbed down to paragon...
ate vietnum noodles
bought hankies LOL dunno why i buy them...when i dont use HAHA
bought ke ai panda cookies haha
didnt really buy anything from paragon cause it's a high-end place
and everything is genuine slightly cheaper than singapore only...
ate chicken rice too, and there were super alot of sissys holy shit...
i hope they were not attracted to me...eek...
walked to siam square, bought a bag, 5 t-shirts and a belt and 1 panda t-shirt for ke ai :)
then walked to MBK again hahas...bought another pants, t-shirts and a wallet for ke ai
hopefully she likes them all...
bought chicken fried rice and ate in the hotel by cab again haha!
smsed ke ai...slacked and watched tv
[10th]woke up at around 7+am...changed and packed our lugguage
checked out and took public cab to the airport...
airport service sucks like hell...
money changer also super far...
checked in our lugguage after doing the tax rebate thingy
walked around...had sandwiches...
and back to singapore...

~ it seems like everything i do...i kept thinking of you...i dunno why...although i thought this trip could make me stop thinking of you for awhile...i guess...it didnt...so afraid what i bought for you, you would not like them...that gave me a hard time choosing what to buy...and my mom thought you were my girlfriend......this trip made me listen a song...

There's so many reasons that I find to run to you
Cause there's so little loving in my life now I'm away
And thinking about it, I want things how they should be
Cause there's no way around it, nothing good comes easily
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
So I keep on waiting till I'm where I belong
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard it all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day
So many feelings emotions running away with me
Cause it's you I believe in and my love that runs so deep
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
Now I keep on waiting till I'm where I feel I belong
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day

all i wanna do was to love you... 12:06 AM

6th Mar 09, Friday

Photobucket

Yesterday ke ai fell sick :(
haix...hope she get well soon...
if only it was me who fell sick instead of her...
anyways...today, ke ai's alone at home
bought food for her.
sick liao still wanna eat maggie D:
cabbed down and bought food
slacked with her for awhile
cause she had tuition later in the evening
after that...trained down to simei to meet my friends
played tai di, win all the way lols
they all pek cek.
then ate dinner and simei east point had some event
about some chinese singer so super crowded.
alot of girls though O.O
bused home after eating then played dota till around 4am
tomorrow got to leave to Thailand liao...haix...left 4 hours to sleep... D:
plane's leaving at 10am+ tomorrow...
cant bare to leave ke ai...haix

all i wanna do was to love you... 3:13 PM

4th Mar 09, Wednesday

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Went out with joyce and weiting at 3pm...
took train to changi airport.
went to popeye's and ate
for like 2hours? i think
talk alot of stuffs...
then went to see planes lols
at T3 and T2.
mom bought tickets to thailand already...
2 more days i'll be back here again
but this time leaving on the plane.
sigh. feels so weird
not even sure if im looking forward to it or not...
feels so wrong...after that...went to EHub for dinner
at pastamania at downtown east.
so boring...wanted to go bowling but it was pack...
so cabbed home after that...
everything feels so wrong...
was hoping this short holiday could stop me from thinking of her.
but somehow...the feeling inside feels so miserable...
maybe this is a test for me...
but im very sure...i'll miss her alot...

all i wanna do was to love you... 2:59 PM

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Travis, Eighteen
Something has been taken from deep inside of me.
A secret kept locked away no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away.
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played.
Sometimes i remember the darkness of my past.
Brining back these memories i wish i didn't have.
Sometimes i think of letting go and never looking back.
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past.
All of the helplessness inside.
Pretending i don't feel misplaced.
Replacing this pain with something numb.
Facing all this pain here all alone.
If i could change, i would.
Take back the pain, i would.
Retrace every wrong move that i made, i would.
If i could stand up and take the blame, i would.
If i could take all the shame to the grave, i would.

self-actualization

The feeling of helplessness from my pasts.
And the things i've gone through once.
Are the things i'll never want my close ones to go through.
That's why i'm always trying to help my friends.
Mostly through their times of needs.
My actions do not have to be remembered by them.
Cause i'll be happy to see them able to move on.
It's natural for one to leave for the better.
Im just a friend's support.
That's all i want to be.
Noble or whatever nice words one can think of.
I dont wish to be classified as one.
Cause i dont wish to be remembered.
Picking them up from their darkest moments.
It's okay even if my intentions are stained.
Or if it's unappreciated.
What matters most is for each and every one of them to be happy.
When they no longer need me.
That's when i'll be gone.
After they leave.

Important People

★Sofu - Darling | My Darling.
★Cheryl Wong - Gan Ke Ai | The One I Care For Most
★Gzerrel Lee - My Best Friend(Gay Buddy) | Understands Me The Most. Knows Me From Inside Out.
★Stella Lew - Close Friend | Cares For Me Alot.
★Kitty - Gan Precious | Cares For Me Alot.
★Chanelle - Bah Kua | My Entertaining Bak Kwa Friend.
★Xu Qing - Friend | Cares For Me Alot. Always Calls Me BoyBoy...
★Jason Lim - Close Friend | Shares Experience With Me.
★Joyce Lim - Quite Close Friend | Shares The Same Past And Mindset.
★Sherylene Suen - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Kifer Lau - Gan Nu Er | Shares Stories.
★Rusky Wong - My Good Doggie Boi | Rest In Peace.

friends

Ah Boon
Donavan
Nakulesh
Shaun Chan
Jeremiah Neo
Cherine Fong
Amanda Tan
Isaac Sim
Jeremy Liu
Eugene Foo
Louis Tan
Daniel Tan
Qing Gui
Por Weiting
Kia Heng
Brian
Chris Ng

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ChoyYih(Nu Er)
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Amanda(XinGan)
Isaac(Smurf)
Jacq
Alexis
Veron
Kimmi
Sam
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Isabel
Amanda
Cheryl
★Sofu

lol lame

This Fucking Thing Is All Personality!
I Think Rock And Roll Is Really Funny When It's Serious.
Dont Hate Me Cause I Pretend To Be Happy.
Dont Hate Me Cause Im Miserable.
Dont Hate Me If I Make You Smile,
Or If I Go The Extra Mile To Make You Feel Better On A Really Shitty Day.
And If You're Hearing What Im Saying,
Then I Want You To Say, "Im Gay!" Say, "Im Gay!"
Put Your Left Hand Over Your Heart And Repeat After Me.
It's Perfectly Fine To Be A Happy Individual.
Isnt That Nice? Very Nice.
That's Right Ladies And Gentleman!
Pick Up The Phone. Cause Travis Is On The Line.
And You Dont Have To Be Sad Anymore.
We Can All Join Hands And Do Ring Around.
In Fact, Can We Get Some LA LAs Up In Here?!
Yo!, Where My LA LAs At??! La La-La La, La-La La-La La La La La

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Acoustic Guitar
Variax Microphone
New Dog
Lip Piercing
Car License
A Car
My Own Band
New Watch
New Shoes
New Shorts
New Hoodies
New Sunglasses
New Specs
New Hairstyle
New Bag
Highlight Hair
Contact Lens
Sony Bravia Tv
5.1 Stereo/Home-Theatre System
Renovated Room
Self-Composed Songs
Holiday With My Friends
Learn Snowboarding Tricks
Learn Surfing
Cheryl...(I'll Never Be Able To Have You.)

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