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20141029

so last night the pipe under my bathroom sink burst and caused a flood extending out to the kitchen. thankfully it didn't go all the way to the living area and the bedroom. :| woke a plumber up and he came to fix it in the morning. yay i have water again.

went to officeworks to print the programs. didn't print the tracing paper bits because it cost 30cents/sheet. contemplated going to myer to get shu's stuff as well but couldn't be bothered. went back home and washed the mountain of dishes in the sink, then started cutting paper. got hungry and had lunch, then randomly felt like eating cheese bread so i made some. let the dough proof outside in the sun. ;p

did 2 loads of laundry. made tart pastry and lemon curd, but i'll only actually make the tart tomorrow night.

decided to move back to rusden next year. didn't really want to because the bedrooms are so small (ie. put a queen bed in and you won't have space for anything else) and it is (really) far away from where i will be and moving into a new place is always more exciting but oh well my parents are giving us a really good deal to rent it from them.

going for brunch with kaiwen on sat! :D

11:18 pm

20141027

till we're seventy.
(53 days to go)

updates:
- applied for 2 pakenham houses but haven't heard back yet
- unmatched for semester 2 of 2015 and scrambling to find a job (kind of)
- don't even know where we should live now
- was on all yesterday and was called in for a 14 hour sunday spec med cover shift - the worst kind of shift there is
- and i still have to do another cover shift tomorrow
- managed to cannulate a patient who had to have u/s guided cannulation previously
- i have really bad otitis externa bilaterally - to the point where i cannot actually use my stethoscope
- all this is causing me so much stress that my face is covered in pimples
- maybe i should just take semester 2 off....
- j has requested a durian cake (or durian ice cream cake) for his birthday

happy 16 months!

9:40 pm

20141018

62;

highlights
+ post-engagement/ pre-wedding retreat in rye (too much socialisation for me but i think it was good for becky and it seems the guests and j enjoyed themselves)
+ electricity got disconnected for a stupid reason, and i'm going to write a long complaint email to AGL when i have a moment to breathe
+ nearly got to put an implanon in for the first time but the patient keeps refusing whenever she's approached about it
+ my reg brought the pre-intern and i out on an excursion to buy knitting wool for one of our aged psych patients
+ he also gave me a really useful GP-directed tute on antidepressants yay
+ becky was really good with toileting when he got back from rye but now he's started peeing all over the place again so i had to bring him back to clayton again


went to pakenham this morning with j for house inspections. we saw 4 places and didn't particularly like 3 of them. the first one was really cat-friendly (it even had purpose-built platforms and a cat door) but was quite old. the second one was right by the lake but was a bit expensive and i didn't really like the inside. the third one was old and unappealing. the fourth one, on the other hand, was brand new and we both quite liked it (no grass). figured we'd just apply, even though i still don't know where i'm going to be yet in the first half of next year.

came back and had my hair and make up done by ivy's cousin. there was some misunderstanding about where it was going to happen but she came over in the end and it didn't take too long. had to hang around in my wedding gown (it being zip-less and all) while having lunch etc. managed to not get it dirty before we left home.

went to morningstar to take our wedding photos. :D it was exhausting for both us and james haha. and probably chyiwei too. but i think the photos will turn out good. :) really liked the one he showed us where we were in the vineyard. :) can't waitttt.

decided to go to tgi friday's for dinner (using the entertainment book voucher). was disappointed with their ribs this time, oh well.

really want to eat some ice cream.

2 months to go aaahhhhhh.

11:51 pm

20141006

74;

am attempting to retrain the cat to use his litter tray because he has been peeing everywhere in the house to the point where i really want to just throw him away. j says i can't but he doesn't have to live in a house that smells like cat pee or clean cat pee off kitchen counters every day. so anyway, the cat is locked in the bathroom with his food and water and litter trays. i can hear him meowing and scratching away at the door, hope he doesn't do too much damage.

have been so exhausted lately, i'm really glad all this job application/ interview stuff is coming to an end. although when i do actually get a job, there will still be paperwork++ to do. one more phone interview this wednesday and then the match closes on sunday. got the warragul dip obs job for the second semester next year, which is both good and bad. good because warragul is pretty much the closest to clayton i can be, bad because i worry about not being good at doing obs.

daylight savings has started/ ended (i never know which), which meant we lost an hour of sleep on saturday night. saturday was also the day that i drove to geelong at 6am, worked 8am-10pm, went home to get clothes/ shower/ clean cat pee, then drove back to clayton, arriving at 12.40am. partly why i'm so exhausted. and also entirely why i didn't get up at 5.30am to queue for lune, which i was really looking forward to. :(

anyway, it means that when i drive back to geelong at 6am, it's darker than it has been recently. which also kind of gives me a second chance to see the glittering city lights as i drive over the west gate bridge, though it isn't quite as dark as it was when i used to drive back in winter.

sometimes it takes too much effort even to talk.

11:02 pm

20141002

77;

the numbers are going down too quickly now. D:

5 weeks in psych so far and i'm really ready to move on. things are getting more ridiculous, but i cannot disclose them for medicolegal reasons. the reviews for my teams keep clashing so i've been feeling really bad for missing the bellerine reviews the whole week.

and my poor long stayer depressed patient is running out of options because she has tried everything, including ECT, and nothing has brought about much improvement. we started her on parnate last week and now she's hyponatraemic.

and the ward is full of crazy people, most of whom use drugs. they were saying that there must have been a good batch of ice going around because we've recently had an influx of drug induced psychosis.

6 interviews down, 1 to go. i figure 7 is enough, i can't make myself apply anywhere else. j was so nice and took the day off to drive me to wonthaggi and then traralgon. i drove part of the way back. it's nice having this car. ;p so fuel efficient too. good call.

did the rye guest book! didn't really end up doing it how i wanted to initially, but i think it's better this way, less busy and chaotic. i'm sure there'll be many pages left over but oh well.

can't wait for a holiday.

11:42 pm