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20140831

last day of winter!!! :D though that means very little when the forecast for tomorrow is rain haha. still, there's no more of that harsh biting cold. :)

did my last gen med shift on yesterday. weekends are crazy. on the up side, my intern bought me hot chocolate from the geelong private without even asking me. :) so nice of him. it's nice to have some real hot chocolate instead of the watered down stuff from the hospital cafe.

drove to richmond for the DSG gathering at the house daniel rented for his family. stayed for a little while and then went off to pastor's house for our first marriage prep session. D: how terrifying. okay it wasn't as terrifying as i'd anticipated, but i really still wish i was in a big class rather than a 1 on 1 (1 on 2) class.

went back to clayton to get our stuff, then went back to richmond to stay over at daniel's. the boys used the hot tub up on the roof but it would have been too weird for me to join them. they ended up watching ocean's eleven (though j was trying to solve a cube puzzle by cheating) and i fell asleep. moved to the warm room (with the gas fireplace) at 2am.

woke up early to cook chicken for church lunch, then stopped by maccas for breakfast on the way to church. went for the last cds after church, then drove to mordialloc beach (where we sat in the car instead of going down to the actual beach). came home and j helped me wash my car yay. the yellow submarine is such a pretty car when it's clean. ;p

had dinner at Tataki in elsternwick - using an entertainment book voucher. food was good but a bit pricey. oh well, it's nice to eat out once in a while.

back to work tomorrow, starting on psych. :| can't wait for the weekend already.

9:41 pm

20140827

four more days of winter;

went back to sg for yurong's wedding over the weekend. received many comments about how i could just fly in for a weekend (this was actually my 4th time flying back for just a weekend). in actual fact, i've missed my fair share of events/ gatherings/ meals, either because of having to work on a weekend, or because i live too far away.

anyway, it was nice seeing everyone again. weddings are a time of reunion for everyone else, i suppose. she had a bouncy castle at her wedding! nearly couldn't believe my eyes. too bad it deflated before we could bounce in it. :( went for ice cream and waffles at Creamier after. it's nice to live near good friends who drive. ;p thanks dianana for always fetching me everywhere!! :)

this chest pain is getting out of hand. i think i may have cracked a rib, but j thinks it's just costochondritis. either way, it is definitely getting worse. i used to only get it when i coughed, but now it's definitely pleuritic and even hurts when i move. plus i have been coughing a lot more today, which really doesn't help. i feel like i need some big guns like endone.

the gen med patient list exploded over the weekend. as a department we usually have 90+ patients. today we started out with 130. the outliers team had 43 patients, but they got an extra reg and a couple of the other interns to help out. i hung out with my own team (15 patients) with the med4 student in the morning until dave (my intern) came back from his interview. we had 8 new patients over the weekend too. only managed to have lunch at 2.30pm and left work an hour late. doing the long shift tomorrow. :(



10:55 pm

20140823

sometimes i wonder, what for?

went to work this morning to a list of half new patients. one patient apparently surprised the team by staying alive after having a met call for a systolic BP of 60, and whose BP dropped even after being bolussed 3L fluids and being given aramine. this morning he was all "i'm still alive!" cutest patient really.

went on half the ward round and peeled off to do jobs as we went because i was on the short day. did lots of scripts and discharge summaries. gave the reg the job of sending a difficult (opioid dependent) patient home.

had lunch at home and cuddled the cat, then drove myself to the airport. checked in, got my tax refund, bought moscato for my mother (they didn't ask for my ID this time).

my chest pains are getting worse with the coughing.

missed the last combined LG2, which i was not too fussed about. i am not really a part of it anyway. i'm just there by association. not sure if i will go for the first LG4 either, and i don't think i will really be around next year when i start my GP training anyway.

busy day tomorrow, i feel exhausted already.

4:13 am

20140821

there is no point in doing something if the person you're doing for only sees it as a waste of time. because then it really will be a waste of time.


haven't been at work for a full week and it feels weird (flu swab came back positive for influenza A). since it was nice out today i decided to drive to point lonsdale and spent some time on the beach. it's beautiful there, and the drive reminded me of living in the sunshine coast, and bundy and bargara. i wonder if i will ever get to go back. figure i should make the most of my time in the bellarine peninsula, since i'll be moving back to the east next year.

was accepted by the SGPT, which means i will start my GP training next year! in gippsland, hence the move to the east. not sure yet if i will be GP reg-ing/ still HMO-ing, but hopefully i won't be that far away. i figure an hour is the longest i'm willing to drive each way. should be against traffic so it shouldn't be that bad right?

cooked lor mai gai and steamed egg today. was initially planning to bake for the last lg2 meeting and bring it back today, but since that didn't work out, i could only cook for myself.

going back to work tomorrow (half day) and then flying back to sg for yurong's wedding! looking forward to the mini reunion that weddings often are. hopefully everything runs smoothly and i'll be back on sunday for the last week of med 2.

it's nearly spring!

6:49 pm

20140818

4 months to go.

it's monday but i didn't work today. was really glad that i went to see a GP yesterday and that he gave me a work certificate for today and tomorrow. would definitely have not been able to work today. or tomorrow, being a long shift. not sure why my immune system has taken such a hit either. it'll be interesting if the flu swab really came back positive.

thankful for:
- a chance to dip in the hot springs before i got really sick
- j, who has been doing everything for me since i got sick
- paracetamol, which manages to bring down my 39 deg fevers
- mei, who cooked porridge and soup for me

went to frankston with j and daniel today to pick up the new (old) car - angmokio the tomato. still haven't driven it yet though. one day.

j helped me change all 4 of the yellow submarine's tyres this weekend. bit by bit my tax return money will disappear, i'm sure.

going back to sg in a few days for yurong's wedding! the first one in the group to get married. :) hope i'll be well enough by then. flying is bad enough when i'm well, hate it even more when i'm sick.

10:43 pm

20140814

127 days.

today is a good day because... i got my tax return!!! :D yay! wasn't really expecting to get that much back, even though that was what they estimated when i submitted it. :3 so yay!

this is week 1 of gen med 2 and it's been alright.. we get 2 half days, 2 normal days, and 1 long day each week. reg is a bit lazy bit i suppose dave and i can cope (we've only had 12 patients max). still have a bunch of discharge summaries which we inherited from the previous team, which is annoying.

over the weekend we:
- went for jane's grad
- brunched with nike and edward at stovetop
- collected james' film
- test drove the corolla again
- watched the ndp while eating bak kut teh
- went for church and cds
- watched Lucy (the weirdest movie ever)

interview on friday and maybe hot springs on saturday? i figure if we want to go during winter we're running out of time.

12:00 am

20140805

this is the first day of my life
swear i was born right in the doorway
i went out in the rain
suddenly everything changed
they're spreading blankets on the beach

yours is the first face that i saw
think i was blind before i met you
and i don't know where i am
don't know where i've been
but i know where i want to go

so i thought i'd let you know
yeah these things take forever
i especially am slow
but i realise that i need you
and i wondered if i could come home

remember the time you drove all night
just to meet me in the morning
and i thought it was strange
you said everything changed
you felt as if you'd just woke up

and you said this is the first day of my life
i'm glad i didn't die before i met you
but now i don't care
i could go anywhere with you
and i'd probably be happy

so if you want to be with me
with these things there's no telling
we just have to wait and see
but i'd rather be working for a pay cheque
then waiting for the lottery

besides maybe this time it's different
i mean i really think you'll like me

***


friday;
- half day!
- cooked siew yoke at colin house
- set off the smoke detector
- siew yoke was amazing though :D
- i could totally do this housewife thing
- supper at straits

saturday;
- went to work, finished late as expected
- drove back for worship team training and practice
- j bought me sashimi and egg tarts yay

sunday;
- freezing cold morning (1deg in clayton and -2deg in geelong)
- maccas breakfast (hot choc is surprisingly not bad)
- attempted to see cars but they were all closed
- went to for a walk around jell's park to break in our kathmandu trekking boots
- impromptu dinner at a lousy thai place with daniel
- dawn of the planet of the apes - first movie in forever i haven't fallen asleep in

monday;
- back to work in the freezing cold
- admired the usual view of glistening lights as i drove across the bridge
- happened to turn back and caught another magnificent sight - dawn breaking over melbourne city
- worked with laura, who doesn't like me to scribe for her
- admitted my own patients for a change
- paid $715 to renew my ahpra rego ugh
- slept early after the exhausting weekend

tuesday;
- a much more tolerable 8.5deg this morning
- admitted my own patients again
- need consultants as referees, but i never work with consultants -.-
- cut 96 pink hearts
- did laundry

diana please come and visit!!! siew yoke!!! ;p

can't believe we're already in august. where has the time gone?

can't wait to see these people again on 23 aug. miss you all.

10:32 pm