20140331
okay so i've booked my other may tickets back to singapore. this is what may looks like at the moment:
1-4 may: singapore
5-8 may: melbourne
9-14 may: singapore
15-22 may: melbourne
22-25 may: sydney
;p so busy! can't wait for april to be over already. yes i am aware that april hasn't even started. hopefully the planes don't disappear.
i rarely find myself in a position where i can observe these things, so who knows if this is the norm. i don't know what is going on there but i really do not like it.
apparently people with biometric passports get to pass through immigration more quickly at the melbourne airport these days. i also want! i wonder if i can change my passport earlier (it's the old one and it only expires mid 2015 -.-).
did absolutely nothing today. woke up to send j to the train station. came home and read/ watched the good wife/ sleep. had scrambled eggs and then pasta for lunch. immediately after finishing the pasta, i got this horrible generalised abdominal pain. thought i was going to throw up but didn't. hyperventilated for a bit until it eased a little. took a nap for an hour and it was better when i got up, but it's still going on now. i don't know what it is.
picked j up from the train station and had dinner at home. went for a walk. he's at core team meeting now. tomorrow he has some AMA pmcv talk. wednesday he has some skit rehearsal. i might as well be in geelong, i reckon.
they're going to wilson's prom on easter saturday.
8:56 pm
20140330
what the hell.
10:11 pm
20140329
hello week off.
friday
went to annoying brother for brunch with mei, kelsey, and daniel. food was good; hot chocolate, not so much. we picked j up from the alfred on the way home.
bought peri peri chicken and chips from uni. had a craving after daniel mentioned it. but i still haven't really had it, so i might go again this coming week.
cooked my char siew and brought it to lg. it doesn't really taste like char siew and isn't red (i didn't put the food colouring), but at least billy knew it was char siew. forgot to add more honey to compensate for the lack of maltose.
there are so many people at lg these days. i know it's a good thing, but it just makes me want to climb into a hole and hide. too much social interaction.
saturday
went to little chloe for breakfast with j. their food is so pretty! and tasted good too. but again, the hot chocolate wasn't great. too nutty for my taste.
dropped by chaddy after to look for the forever new dress. apparently there's only one piece left in the whole of victoria. -.- and none in perth either, so i just bought them online. the denim dress reappeared so i bought that too.
since we were in chaddy and it wasn't too crowded, we went to check out wedding bands in t&co. ;p found one that i really like! haha. except that it is above our budget and the woman said they're going to increase the price on wed. D: so pretty though.
had kfc for dinner. watched the biggest loser. cooked more char siew while j cooked pasta.
we finally decided to go to nz for our honeymoon. that's really the only place that j wants to go to, so. he says we can go to the maldives next time when we have more money but i really think that if i don't go there for my honeymoon i'll never go.
also decided to go to the gpce conference in sydney from 23-24 may. tae was going to go but decided not to in the end, so i'm making j go with me. this means.. a holiday! :D
am going back to singapore 9-14 may since i have a week off. the tickets have already been booked. but now i'm still thinking about whether i should go back to lois' wedding on 1 may. that would mean calling in sick for 2 days (1 and 2 may) and paying another aud784 for the flights, but i would get 4 days in sg. but then i'd have to fly back to melb for 4 days of work and then fly back to sg again. not the best plan, but i don't see a way around it.
going to cook prawn noodles for dinner tomorrow in geelong yay!
10:26 pm
20140327
night 7 of 7. IT IS FINALLY OVER. :D for a week, anyway.
it wasn't actually too bad a night but it felt like crap. i think it's just the accumulated tiredness as well as this patient that i just didn't know what to do with. by the end of the shift the three of us were sitting in front of the tv watching the news (as we often do) - hinna thinking that a train was a car, yoshi having a conversation with siri ("you should be a psychiatrist, siri"), and me just laughing at them.
went home, had scrambled eggs, showered, and was in bed by 9.30am. slept till 4.30pm and then woke up to wash the dishes and finish cleaning the house (there's a routine inspection this week). went to pick tae up, then we went to the city for dinner. he wanted to eat at the black bull tapas bar, but they had two functions and no spare tables, so we ended up back at the wharf shed cafe. had pizza and calamari.
packed my stuff, hugged the cat, and drove back to melbourne. j took ten thousand years to come back from worship practice.
11:45 pm
20140326
night 6 of 7.
it was a pretty quiet night. didn't have to do any admissions. and there was only one met call, on a patient with end stage COPD who had a systolic BP of 60 but was not for resus. stabbed a patient 5 times trying to get a cannula in. D: gave up and got yoshi to do it in the end.
the fatigue really comes in waves. read a bit of my new jodi picoult book (The Storyteller) and took an hour long nap. confirmed both the photographer and videographer! and emailed another make up artist.
can't decide which conference to go to. :| don't really want to spend that much money and mostly i don't even care about the conference. i just want a holiday! the GP conference looks good though. and it would mean a trip to sydney! :) i hope j goes with me.
realised this week that i have yet another week of nights. D: but honestly it isn't that bad, especially considering that the alternative might be two weeks of ED. give me nights over ED any day. it also means that i get another week off! i wish i could swap all this time off around.
came home and let the cat out for a while. he nearly jumped the fence into the neighbour's yard but i caught him in time. got a postcard from diana! :D
only one more night to go. :)
That's the point where you have to leave the dough alone. It's silly to anthropomorphize bread, but I love the fact that it needs to sit quietly, to retreat from touch and noise and drama, in order to evolve. I have to admit, I often feel that way myself.
- The Storyteller (Jodi Picoult)
10:42 am
20140325
it's so cold! am completely frozen. and it's only mid march. D:
night 4 of 7
one of the busiest nights ever - with admissions, met calls, chest pains etc. did not stop moving until 7am when it quietened down. came home and slept from 11am-7pm.
woke up halfway because the courier came to deliver my dresses, which i am extremely disappointed with. -.- am in the process of trying to get a refund. and that also means having to search again.
night 5 of 7
went to work feeling like dying. yoshi mirrors my sentiments exactly.
thankfully it wasn't busy. 1 direct cardio admit and 1 met call, and a few other random things.
emailed the photographer and videographer to (attempt to) book them. hopefully they didn't agree to other jobs while we were deciding. so exciting. ;p
11:21 am
20140323
night 2 of 7
was completely exhausted after night 2. spent the entire night running around seeing patients. did 4 cardio admissions and there were other significant things like sats of 66%/ systolic BP 240/ temp 38.6 which couldn't be ignored. took a 5 min break to have a milo and later lay down for less than 10 mins before my pager went off again.
went home, showered, and had 4 hours of interrupted sleep. woke up at 1.30pm to shower and drive down to the city for the ccminstagramwalk2014. j and i wore matching tops. ;p though he later put on a sweater haha.
actually felt fine for most of the afternoon. had some sushi and then pasta for dinner at lygon. not sure if they went for freddo's in the end. so near yet so far. left early to drive back to geelong for work. was hit by a wave of fatigue at about 6pm and really felt like dying. but i somehow managed to drive back to geelong and didn't feel too bad when i actually started working. j didn't want to drive me back. :(
night 3 of 7
last night was much better than the previous night. only had to do one admission and a few other easy jobs like bloods/ seclusion checks/ writing up IV fluids and analgesia. spoke to a patient in chinese. can't remember when i last spoke chinese. didn't understand half of what he said though.
managed to get in 30 mins/ 30 mins/ and 1 hr 30 mins of sleep. :) though towards the end of the 1 hr 30 mins yoshi went to sleep at the other back corner and started snoring. couldn't sleep anymore after that but it was okay because i had to get up to do bloods anyway (the patient refuses to let the nurses take blood from her so i've taken blood from her every morning for the last 3 days). thankful that j doesn't snore. ;p
saw 3 cats on the way home. one was just outside my house so i went to say hi. :)
and now it's time to sleep! yay. 4 nights to go.
11:27 am
20140321
night 1 of 7.
managed to sleep for only about 2.5 hours during the day yesterday. went to work feeling like i wanted to die, as usual. doing nights evokes so much anxiety in me.
it was quite a busy night. i had maybe 1.5 hours down time - 1 hour was spent looking at photographers' portfolios and the other 30 mins was spent lying down (not sure how much i actually slept though).
did a few cannulations, one catheterisation (haven't done one in ages! plus this guy had obstructive symptoms and was awaiting a TURP, but it all went smoothly), several fluid reviews and IV fluid orders, two admissions, reviewed a chest pain, did three seclusion checks.
one of my favourite things about doing nights (there aren't many favourites about nights at all) is watching the sunrise. though usually i don't pay that much attention to it because it's when it's quieter and i spend the time horizontal. and when i walk out it's already bright. having to walk outside to the swanston centre to do the seclusion checks was actually quite nice since it wasn't too cold. plus i got to see the lovely sunrise. :)
another of my favourite things about nights is talking to j on the phone at about 5pm when he's on his way home and i'm just coming out of a cloud of sleep. :)
came home and had breakfast/dinner, and watched half of 27 dresses. went to sleep at about 11ish but only managed to sleep for 2 hour stretches, not sure why. got up at about 5 and haven't been able to really sleep since.
really hoping tonight will be (much) quieter than last night because i'm planning to go for (at least part of) the instagram walk tomorrow. oh the things i will do to get to see j.
8:18 pm
20140320
and so it begins: the week of nights. D: already going into withdrawal after spending the last week with j. :(
have been checking out the portfolios of wedding photographers and cinematographers. james doesn't want to be first shooter haha. ookay. i suppose it is all really expensive but it's one thing that i wouldn't mind paying a bit more for. though j and i prefer different styles haha.
from what i've seen, every single gatecrash involves wasabi. every single video that one particular company does, involves an aerial view of the couple holding hands and running.
sent j to the train station this morning. tomorrow he'll need to wake up a bit later. and unless we go for the instagram walk, i won't see him again until next thursday. :( we don't get to talk much when our days and nights are reversed.
need to drive back to geelong and attempt to sleep the day away.
i want you forever
forever and always
through the good and the bad
and the ugly
we'll grow old together
and always remember
whether happy or sad or whatever
we'll still love each other
forever and always
9:15 am
20140319
wednesday
woke up early again to send j to the train station. he asks if i can stay longer so he won't have to walk to the train station himself. ;p
went back home and slept for a bit more. got to chaddy at about 10am to avoid having to fight for parking. shopping! bought 2 dresses, 2 tops, and 2 knitted jumpers for myself, and 4 tshirts for j. had lunch at papparich with christina.
picked j up from the alfred and we went to have pizza near lygon. we were supposed to have freddo's but we were too full after the pizza, so that will have to wait.
came home and watched the 9 news about the missing plane. they ask such stupid questions sometimes. how would people know the answers, seriously. -.-
starting to feel stressed about how i'm going to switch my days to nights again. :|
10:22 pm
20140318
tuesday- happy birthday fath!
sometimes i can't quite believe that i'm engaged. and that by this time next year i will be married. ;p still seems so surreal sometimes.
last night i dreamt that my teeth dropped out (because i don't like to brush my teeth). j says that if i eat condensed milk they will drop out more quickly. D:
my father said that last night he had a nightmare that he lost his sermon notes just before our wedding haha. yes, my father is preaching at our wedding. ;p
was expecting the courier to come and collect charm's stuff in the arvo but they arrived at 9am. thankfully i was at home so there weren't any problems. that also meant i was free to go out in the afternoon. :)
j randomly called me at 11.30am asking if i wanted to have lunch. quickly got ready and drove to the alfred to meet him. had lunch at two birds one stone. we both had eggs ben.
parked and waited in the library while he went for a tute on hypotension. it was supposed to finish at 3 but ended up only finishing at like 3.40. went to chaddy after that to check out tshirts for him. i figured i'd go back and buy them tomorrow since there's the VIP sale haha. but he is so picky with his tshirts.
had sushi and froyo and got some groceries, then came home. my week off is coming to an end. T.T
paid for my car insurance today. decided to go with comprehensive instead of third party like i did last year. thankfully i just got paid, and it looks like doing nights really does pay well. so i can still go shopping tomorrow without feeling too guilty. though j has set me a budget haha.
found a
char siew recipe which looks so good! will hopefully get to try it out this week. or maybe next week, after i finish nights. and apparently pork "butt" is actually from the shoulder?! who would have known.
9:27 pm
20140317
monday-
woke up at 7am to send j to the train station. migrated up to the bed after and slept for another 3 hours. woke up with a bad backache. looks like the floor is really the better option for me.
lazed in bed for most of the day. had leftover porridge for breakfast and leftover vermicelli for lunch. took all the dishes out of the dishwasher. washed my own dishes.
googled some make up and hair people and emailed them. emailed a photographer/ videographer. decided that on wednesday i need to find some clothes for the photoshoot.
went to pick j up from the train station again. he was being super angsty about this other 5th year student. he wants to slap everyone's face. don't know why, of all things, he has to pick that up from me.
drove to the city to have dinner with shuwei. parked all the way at eades and walked in. ate at little ramen bar, this tiny ramen shop at the corner of elizabeth and little bourke. it was a bit salty, but otherwise not bad.
bought papparoti on the way back. walking through flagstaff in the dark reminded me of 2007.
j texted to say that he was hungry as i was driving back. dropped by maccas to get him food. i don't know why he likes to text me when i'm driving. i can text a conversation when i'm driving on the goulburn valley highway but not on the princes highway.... too many cars. besides, it's free for him to call me. -.-
wondering what to do tomorrow...
11:09 pm
this is turning out to be such a long weekend. ;p
went to church in the morning. ps ian was preaching today about living in revival. during set up a little girl told me i looked beautiful in my dress haha. she also kind of lifted it up a bit and mei screamed haha.
went for cds after church lunch. it's been a long time since i've been in cds. went for the class about conflict management. we thought it was interesting to see couples/ halves of couples there haha. it never really occurred to me that people could have different styles of dealing with conflict in different situations. i just avoid conflict in all situations. we'll except with j.
went to glen for chatime and then came home. people started arriving at 6+ and we surprised james for his birthday! though i don't think he was very surprised haha. got lots of compliments on the cake. :) shaun even told me that i should quit being a doctor because i was wasting my talent haha. ;p
sleeping on the floor tonight so j can sleep on the bed. didn't think it was fair to make him sleep on the floor for so many days (since i'm off for a week).. but i think i might move back up onto the bed tmr night. ;p
i love you. don't forget.
2:04 am
20140316
woke up at 8am this morning and went home to geelong.
had porridge and then baked. i don't often bake (or eat) chocolate cakes but i think
this recipe is really good. took a nap while waiting for the cakes to cool, then assembled it and did all the washing up.
skyped with zhilin also haha. which reminds about wedding prep, which we've kind of been ignoring for the past few weeks. :| forgot to bring my sewing machine pedal back again ahhh.
had dinner at kitchen inn in the city on the way back. dabaoed leftovers for monday yay.
the plane is still missing.
12:27 am
20140314
today:
managed to successfully revert my circadian rhythm. woke up at 7am to send j to the train station, then came back and pretty much lazed in bed till 11+. was supposed to go for brunch with daniel and james but daniel has gastro so we cancelled. decided to make porridge for him and graham since they're both sick.
watched modern family and pretty little liars, cut and painted my nails, then showered and went to clayton to get groceries. came home and started on the porridge - boiled and shredded chicken, chopped carrots, soaked dried scallops and ikan bilis.
picked j up from huntingdale and went to clayton for lunch and to get more food and stuff. dropped it off at mei's and went home to finish cooking the porridge. quite like how it turned out. except that i don't feel like eating porridge, ha.
went to uni for the ccm roti canai night. was glad that i could stand in the corner/ outside cooking roti/ serving dahl and not have to talk to people.
night 4:
went to work feeling that i didn't want to do any work at all. but it was actually quite a quiet night. did nothing for the first 3 hours, then had a few ward reviews/ IV resites for delirious patients who pulled their cannulas out/ one gastro admission. managed to get in 2 separate hours of sleep plus another half hour. could have slept more but it's not very nice to sleep at like 7 or 7.30am when people are starting to come to work.
handed over and went home. showered, had some breakfast, then slept for about 3 hours. woke up at 2pm to drive back to pick j up from the alfred. went home and rested for a bit. it's nice to not have to work on a weekday.
went to wellington to help chop onions and garlic to make curry for the roti canai night. made the whole house cry with the onions.
had a really bad headache which just kept getting worse. tension headache with a pulsatile right parietal component. i really hate having headaches.
wanted to watch the 7 news about the missing plane but i think they changed the timing. :( :( so i read about it online instead, ha. it's been a week now!
going back to geelong to spend the day with my baby (yes, i mean my cat)! :)
11:33 pm
20140312
night 3
yay only one more to go! :D for this week anyway.
by 9.45pm i had 3 admissions waiting for me and i'd just gotten handover after a code grey. so i was a bit worried that it was going to be a busy night. but it didn't turn out to be too bad really.
before i got down to ED to do the admissions i had to do blood cultures on a febrile patient. in his notes they wrote "continue tazocin" but it had only been charted up as a stat and so he'd missed a dose. -.- hence his temperature of 38.8.
thank God for phone orders. did several IV fluid and temazepam orders over the phone last night.
in between doing admissions i had to run back up to the ward for met calls. ended up having to organise a blood transfusion for a patient with malaena too. i'm now friends with most of the nurses on BC6N and HW2.
was really tired so i went to lie down at 4.30am. woke up at 5am when i was paged to do an IV resite. did a couple of fluid reviews and abdo/ chest pain reviews and then just stoned in resi's. the three of us night residents all on the couch looking like zombies haha. one more nightttt.
emailed one of the other o&g residents about a swap. the problem is that i don't think she's actually working here at the moment. if i swap my entire roster with her i won't be working thurs-sun when my mother is here, and also i will just have to call in sick for one day to go to lois' wedding haha. fingers crossed. :3
turning night into day. time to go to sleep, goodnight!
10:42 am
20140310
night 1.
survived my first ever night shift!!! ;p cause for celebration. am really thankful that it wasn't too busy, particularly since i didn't get to sleep at all yesterday, which means i've been up for 25.5 hours and counting.
e handed over a whole list of jobs, mainly chest pains on the neuro ward. did an endo ICU admission. treated a nstemi. went down to hw2 (onc) so many times to write up fluids/ potassium/ path slips. one of their patients has been on frusemide 80mg BD since saturday and has never had a potassium >2.8 since then. it was 2.6 so i gave her 3 mini bags and after that it was only 2.8. -.- and she's already on slow k 2 BD. made friends with the onc nurse in charge haha.
referred an abdo pain (most likely drug seeking behaviour) to the surg reg and he was all "i don't get it, what's your question?" which i totally understand. but then he still saw the patient and came to talk to me about it. it's nice to have nice surg regs around. not many of them are nice.
didn't sleep at all overnight, not really because i couldn't, but i didn't really dare to i think haha. there wasn't that much time between pages anyway. i guess if i get progressively more sleep deprived over the next few days i might take naps.
yesterday
went to church in the morning. sat behind.
fatigued.
went back to j's to get my stuff, then drove home. was really sleepy on the way and drifted a bit, but somehow managed to arrive home safely.
but after i got home i couldn't fall asleep. -.- it was really annoying. and it just made me more stressed about working nights.
j came over in the evening with food! :) had dinner with him, then he sent me to work. and came back to pick me up in the morning. :) came home and had bak kut teh for breakfast/dinner! :)
okay it's nearly 26 hours now and i am dying. goodnight.
9:50 am
20140309
saturday
woke up early and went to seven:am for breakfast. that feels like a long time ago now. had the earth to bella and j had the corn fritters. didn't think it was particularly good.
dropped by rusden to collect something but forgot to drop off the cleaning money. hope i remember tomorrow.
went to jell's park for keith and natalia's wedding celebration. the macarons got really soft. pastor's wife came to talk to me. i foresee a very difficult time ahead with attempting to open myself up. in all honesty i would really rather not.
came home and took a nap while j went out to check out a car with charlie. made my crustless quiche, which looks really ugly for some reason. the oven browned all the parmesan but left the patches of ricotta white. i hope it tastes okay.
j cooked bak kut teh for dinner, yum. went to the city with j/ j/ l with the intention of going to moomba (mainly for the fireworks i think), but we couldn't find a parking lot so we ended up just going to n2 for gelato.
oh and my screen protector arrived so i could finally start using touch id haha.
plane crash, so scary. D:
figured i should try to stay up late tonight so i'll be tired enough to sleep tomorrow afternoon, and j was supposed to keep me awake. but he's sleeping. -.- i think i'm going to sleep too.
12:38 am
20140307
day 5 - respiratory.
i am so tired! but there's only one day of rest before i start nights. oh the horror. D:
reg was late again today, so i discharged the CT guided biopsy patient myself. was quite surprised that he didn't self discharge as i'd expected. as usual, we did our ward round, then the consultant appeared and we had to do the round again. -.- plus this consultant likes to check my plan, ask me to cross out what i wrote (when i just wrote exactly what he said), and then make me rewrite it in slightly different way. -.-
then they went off to do bronchoscopies and i did a few ward jobs. there wasn't much. couldn't start doing the discharge summary because the patient's chart was down with him in bronchoscopy and i couldn't remember any of the story.
the reg came back after bronchs and we had lunch. went for clinic and felt rather useless because i had to wait forever to discuss my patients with the consultant so i ended up only seeing two. -.- in a clinic of twelve. how ridiculous. though i don't think all of them actually turned up.
went back to the ward to admit/discharge another CT guided biopsy patient, then handed over a patient to the evening resident to check his CXR and discharge him. i like how x-rays can be done so easily after hours here.
left work at 5.45pm. went home to pick stuff up and say bye to the cat. didn't even pick him up. :( and it's been more than a month since bailey's been gone. wonder where he is now.
arrived at lg at about 8pm. missed games yay. managed to talk in front of people. but not really to people. it's nice to have the old people back though. not entirely sure how i feel about having that many new people around.
apparently i look as tired as i feel.
came home, showered, and j is cooking soup noodles for me. :) tomorrow we're going to seven:am yay!
1:23 am
20140306
day 4 - respiratory
this.
i'm amazed that i've survived this far into the week. only one day to go, but there's a clinic with 12 patients, and a consultant that i don't particularly like.
we saw our two inpatients and discharged one. then the consultant came and we had to start our ward round again. went to icu to see the sickie too. then we went for coffee.
the reg went off on his half day off (i think he had an interview) and i pottered around a bit waiting for the cystic fibrosis patient to come in so i could admit him. he's 24 but looks like he's 30. :|
after i admitted him i was asked to admit another patient who randomly appeared on the ward after a CT guided lung biopsy. checked his first cxr - no pneumothorax. he was meant to have another one at 7.15pm and then stay overnight and be discharged first thing in the morning if everything was alright. handed him over to the evening resident. but i think he's going to self discharge overnight. not that i really care.
came home and made macarons. was just going to make a simple filling (eg. baileys white chocolate ganache), but j wanted salted caramel, so i made salted caramel. while he was having dinner with his favourite resident in the world. sometimes i think he underestimates how much i love him.
jane says gerberas mean
strength. :)
11:09 pm
20140305
day 2 - paeds
worked in paeds yesterday with one of the paeds regs i've never worked with before. he was quite nice. just let me do ward jobs and admit the CF tune up kid while he sorted out the sick kids in ED. but it was quite busy and i didn't get to have lunch till like 4.
j randomly appeared with flowers! :D because he finished all his modules and pia? something like that. and tae came over and cooked his bean threads with prawns, yum (though not as yum as the one he made last time). little bit of midweek sunshine. (okay not even midweek)
it's nice that the cat doesn't hide under the couch anymore when people are around. although of course he knows j and he's met tae a few times too.
day 3 - respiratory
this morning i got a text from medical workforce saying that i was to work in respiratory for the rest of the week, unless someone called in sick. yay! we had only one inpatient haha. and since the reg had me for the rest of the week, we took over the asthma guy from gen med 1 also haha. so now we have two. ;p though the asthma guy should be discharged tomorrow.
was meant to have my half day on friday but that didn't really make sense because there was nothing to do today and there's clinic on friday afternoon, so i took my half day off today instead. came home and watched tv and took a nap on the sofa with the cat haha.
cooked bee hoon for dinner. contemplating making a quiche for the weekend but i really feel too lazy to make the pastry (yes, even though i'd just use the food processor). so i might make a crustless one haha. if at all.
skyped with j, although it was mostly just him playing his guitar and me being bored. sometimes i think it's all about the timing.
oh the new phone arrived yesterday! :) we've switched over from the dark side. ;p but i really don't know how to use an iphone anymore. keep pressing the wrong buttons (or pressing parts of the phone that aren't buttons at all) and having typos hurhur.
being swept under the carpet.
9:25 pm
20140303
day 1 - gem
woke up at 5 and left before 5.30. got home at around 6.45 and fed and watered the cat, then took a nap till 7.10 (with the cat curled up on top of me) before going to work. i always find that it helps to squeeze a short nap in between driving and working.
just before 7 i got an email to cover gem again today. not sure what happened to the reg, but apparently medical workforce was looking for a locum reg for a week. they found one starting tomorrow so i'm not needed anymore. :(
after handover we did our own little round, then wanted to admit the new patient, but the consultant came so we went on a consultant round instead. that made doing the admission a lot easier haha. ;p the consultant keeps calling me "fiona" or "fion."
had the multidisciplinary team meeting in the afternoon, did a few jobs, then left at 5pm. unloaded some of the things from my car and had dinner, then lured the poor unsuspecting cat into the bathroom and gave him a shower hahaha. ;p after he rolled around on the dusty ground outside today.
my phone arrived! but it's at the depot. hopefully no one steals it tomorrow.
choped the blog address. it's been ten thousand years since i edited a blog template. :| i still think it would be much easier to just make a website using that appy thing but j doesn't want to spend money on it.
i keep wanting to eat chocolate when i have none. -.-
tae is coming over for dinner tomorrow and he's making bean threads! :D yum.
working in paeds tomorrow. not sure if i'm in special care or in the ward... i'm kind of hoping the ward, i don't really want to have to change to scrubs for emergency caesars and things. 4 days to go.
10:21 pm
20140302
the weekend is over and i feel like i didn't do anything at all, not even rest. not ready for another week at work, i hope someone calls in sick tomorrow so i don't have to work in ED. please. plus after i finish work this week i start nights on sunday. :( :( :( depressing max.
they invited some of the first years over for dinner. really did not like one of them. she went "okayyy" when she saw me lying on a bean bag in the living room when she arrived. and later when i served her food she didn't say thank you. slap her face.
mei pointed out the two thousand and four error haha. now i have to reprint everything. -.-
j helped me wash the yellow submarine today! every time i see my car so sparkly clean i fall in love with it again haha. ;p doesn't look ten years old at all. it has a new dent from a stone though. :(
decided to stay in clayton for another night because i was too depressed about going to work. and i wasn't sure if i wanted to call in sick. :| i doubt i'd feel too bad about calling in sick while i'm on cover.
the plan is to start driving at 5.30am so i have enough time to go home and change and check on the cat before going to work.
10:53 pm
20140301
most of the time, if i stop to think about it, i feel like i'm drowning in plain sight.
can anybody hear her
can anybody see
oh does anybody even know
she's going down today
yesterday at lg jane shared these verses with me:
There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. (Romans 8:1-2)
i don't know how to get from where i am to where i'm supposed to be.
i can barely make it beyond the first few words these days.
"don't jade already."
11:04 pm
day 5 - gem
sometimes i wonder if the things i think about make me weird, or paranoid. i try not to talk to myself when i know people are around, but sometimes they catch me by surprise.
so sad that summer is officially over. :(
12:18 am