20120531
internet too slow to do my job applications haha. contemplating going up to nambour one day to do all that stuff in the library. after i ask james to be my third referee and get his details so i can put them in my cv. ratna submitted my referee formmm. :) 2 down, 1 to go.
did my cover letters today. was going to do 16 but was unsure of whether some places actually have HMO2 positions so ended up only doing 12 haha. i just did one and copied and pasted to 12 documents - used the ones from last year too. ;p "intern" → "junior doctor" etc haha.
but they're not done yet.. i don't know what criteria some of the hospitals use and my mobile broadband isn't fast enough to find out, so. next week, maybe. hopefully i'll see james at work soon.
my mother asked me to bring my broken specs home to see if they can be fixed. they can, but only with glue. -.- then she put the idea of a new pair of specs into my head... hmmmm. there might not be enough time anyway since i'll be back over a weekend.
8:41 pm
20120530
porcelain
lazy day. :| did not even open my cv/ cover letters haha. cannot make it. howwwww. actually i still have a lot of time (like 2 months) but i just want to be a bit kiasu. :3
went out for a walk (to take photos) but then it started raining. -.- but it was mostly just a drizzle. finished my roll of film and drove to get it developed haha. lazy.
still haven't checked out the my little ponies at maccas. mainly because maccas just doesn't appeal to me as much as kfc does.. plus i didn't see any on display when i went the last time (so i went to kfc next door).
would like to do something touristy tomorrow but the forecast is for rain. it's pouring now too, perfect weather for sleeping!
11:35 pm
good morning. :) woke up earlier than usual today even though i'm not working haha. i get 3 days off and then i'm working mornings on the weekend. think i'm actually working all weekends except the weekend i'm back in sg.
dreamt about work. D: was trying to work up 2 patients with strange shouldertip pain or something, looking at CTs and things. the CTs were normal.. was about to wake up but then i kept thinking, no i need to work this out first! and then i realised that i was
dreaming, i should just wake up! :( really dislike dreaming about work.
went for education yesterday, finally handed in my mid term assessment. death and the afterlife, and prescribing errors. i haven't had to certify anyone dead yet.. or do a death certificate. i wonder if i'll be able to cruise through the year without having to do one.. i doubt it.
dabaoed red curry from thai canteen. :) yay for thai. the shift started off relatively alright but then it got really crazy in the evening. just keep going, patient after patient. i still insist on writing all my notes after seeing each patient though, rather than waiting till the end of the shift like some people. i'd just forget everything. eg. at handover last night, i was asked about my patient. all i could say at first was "err... i can't remember..." -.- ended up only having dinner after coming back.
apparently friday is a public holiday?
i really need to finish this ancient roll of film. :| i want to see the rest of my melb photos! it's a nice day out too, after the torrential rain last night.
and another thing i really need to do - my cover letters! :| shall attempt to finish my cv and a few cover letters today. need to be kiasu and submit everything early in the hopes that someone in vic will give me a job next year. :3
17 days to home! :) kaung keeps asking me (like literally every day at work) how many days till i go home haha.
have pretty much decided how much hair i want to chop off when i go home. but i'll miss the flowiness as usual. i think mabel's new hair is nice, i should copy her haha. but i don't really want to perm my hair again, it just kills it (hence my need to cut it now).
9:42 am
20120529
a day of interesting patients. 3 down, 1 to go!
had a 49yo guy with a nstemi, an elderly lady with hepatic cancer, an 83yo lady with a retinal haemorrhage, and a guy with olecranon bursitis and cellulitis (who we think was septic as well). sliced the guy's elbow open with a scalpel without using any local - he has a ?chiari malformation and has no sensation in his right arm at all. and also that was my first heart attack ever. i've seen so many chest pains in DEM but they've mostly been msk/ angina.
also we saw a patient die in DEM yesterday. well, technically she was already dead when she came in.. but they continued to do CPR and give adrenaline etc. she was in PEA i think. interestingly, it was the wardies who did all the CPR (two of them took turns). all i did was help eve do the iSTAT bloods. she was really grey. the granddaughter came in to watch but then her mother made her go back out.
forgot to bring my mid term assessment home with me. should set an alarm to text eve to get it from my folder for me tomorrow so i can hand it in.
the 4th of june is fast approaching! i can't decide who to ask to be my third referee. james.. or damian? i think damian has said "well done" to me more often than james has haha. might go with damian. though according to eve he hasn't been able to find her GP referee email yet. :|
my list of hospitals is divided into two groups - whether they have O&G or not. does anyone know what southern wants in their cover letter? :\ sigh. really need to start writing them (or editing the ones from last year). shall aim to send in all my applications before i go back to sg (in 18 days!). it's possible right?
1:20 am
20120528
the new roster is (sort of) out and i'm not rostered on on thurs 14/6! wanted to try to change my flight but it's already sold out haha. will have to stick with the 15th then. am rostered on on tues 19/6 but eve says she'll swap with me. :) i hope she remembers this time!
was a nice slow day in DEM today. had a chest pain lady whom d wanted to send home very quickly (it was probably a muscular pain) but i was rather annoyed because if i came in with 7/10 pain i wouldn't want to leave with 7/10 pain right? zz. anyway her pain finally eased a bit with some endone and i sent her home.
jenny told me to please don't change, even when i'm a consultant with minions (though i highly doubt i will ever be a consultant). i think she was just happy with me because i personally went to administer the patient's regular nocte meds haha. she kept exclaiming, "she does things!"
there was also a drug seeking patient whom i prescribed endone to. -.- another girl overheard him on the phone telling his gf that he'd gotten what she wanted. -.- EVIL LYING PATIENTS.
got to leave work early. :) and got home at 12.07, not bad. am hungry now though. :3 trying to have a slightly more healthy lifestyle by actually having my meals when i'm at work. but i just end up being more hungry..
bailey outgrew his collar again. or rather, he keeps scratching at it and it warps and becomes too small. need to find a new one which is made out of a different material hmm.
my army specs died this morning. twisted it so it would be level on my face (because of you know, my super asymmetrical face with different ear heights) and it snapped. :( it wasn't even really that slanted today, sigh. should have just left it. but oh well. that left me with two choices - the giant raybans or the contacts. my eyes are tired enough after a 10 hour shift so i didn't want to go with contacts. besides i hardly have any. so i went with the raybans. didn't have too bad a headache, which was good. they just keep slipping down my nose.
12:48 am
20120527
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:30-31
don't think i have ever been this tired after work! :| started at 2 and slacked for the first hour cos there were hardly any new patients. got a terrible tension headache at 9 and finally gave in and stole 2 panadol from the drug room. had dinner and a cuppa at 10.45 and felt better after. was just really tired for some reason. was so glad to hand over my last patient to alain and go home!
had to refer a patient to surg today, after a long hiatus of no surgical patients. was glad that it was the nice nick. :)
decided to take that advice and start having more positive input in my life again. and klove now has an iphone app. :) goodbye 106.5!
it's been cold lately. :( i am freezing. locking the cats out of my bedroom tonight because they're going a bit crazy - running around the house crashing into the balcony windows etc. though i may relent and open the door before i sleep - becks still likes to curl up on top of me. i wish the other sliding doors in my apartment were as stiff as my bedroom one.
i have my doubts, and i don't really want that to happen. hoping to just avoid it... home has lost much of its allure after all these years.
lengthy conversations about cider haha. the apple blackcurrant one is not bad, it just tastes like carbonated juice haha. with a mild alcoholy aftertaste. ;p perryn found kopparberg at brewerks today. maybe i won't need to bring (ten bottles of) rekorderlig back for him after all. ;p
1:24 am
20120526
just realised that i'm flying on june 15th again, hmm. six years since the skybus and matching blue converse allstars, and the phone number scratched onto salt/pepper sachets in roman numerals.
12:47 pm
20120525
i'm at a payphone trying to call home
all of my change i spent on you
updates from home:
- my brother got into ntu (and may take over the use of the orange car)
- my sister got into sim (and may do her last year in rmit)
- my cousin is going to trinity next year (after j1, like me)
- my father is seriously considering the maldives as a possible holiday destination (even though he cannot swim)
- he also said he would get OCPs for me yay!
dee is sick so eve and i modified our plans. lunch at the pig 'n' whistle, mani + pedi, and then a stupid movie (the dictator). :) she said she wanted to bring us to dream world! hahaha. but the forecast was for rain, sigh. and it did rain all day.
i want to go to the wet n wild though. or whatever it's called. who wants to visit me in summer? ;p
had a nice conversation with the manicurist haha. she's from vietnam. her colleague thought eve was my mother?! which was so embarrassing for eve. D: oh no! she thought i was like 14. :| and then when i went to buy rekorderlig from bws the guy asked me for ID. -.- hello i am like nearly 24! anyway eve and i chose nearly the same colours for our fingers and toes haha. woes of being a doctor and wanting to not seem unprofessional. ;p
working lates for the next 4 days zzz.
9:02 pm
20120524
again, on fb: keanguan doing a monash (sunway) graduate survey-
What were the main tasks or duties in your job?
For example: engineering design for bridge construction, teaching primary school children, internal auditing.
Answer: Saving lives.
;p hehe.
going to soave for lunch tomorrow with dee and eve. it's a 46 minute walk, according to google maps. i just don't want to drive because i might want to drink. :| i'll drive if it rains though. ;p will attempt to (finally) finish my melb roll of film. highly doubt i'll have the patience to wait till sg to get it developed though.
had a strange conversation with lester. but they seem to be getting more amicable all the time. our conversations would bore tae now haha. i have been sending my little iphone note with the pmcv important dates to everyone. weird that i know but they don't? (except for charm, who's the blurrest of them all)
trying to convince my mother to let us go to the maldives for our family holiday this year haha. or greece. but at this moment i'd prefer the maldives. malaysian airlines has $830.90 tickets! the parents are going to barcelona too.
but i don't think the maldives will happen. :( my father is apparently saving up for his porsche 911. THERE IS NO SPACE TO PARK ANOTHER CAR (there are already 4 cars and only 1 lot). so they'll buy an apartment in bukit regency. wah like that don't need to go for holiday already lor. but it's good also lah. so my grandparents can move there when they can't walk up stairs anymore. :|
should i attempt to smuggle my cats up to bundy...
8:10 pm
saw this on facebook, mavis found it on thoughtcatalog.com-
"So you look at your life, and the two countries that hold it, and realise that you are now two distinct people. As much as your countries represent and fulfil different parts of you and what you enjoy about life, as much as you have formed unbreakable bonds with people you love in both places, as much as you feel truly at home in either one, so you are divided in two."
so true!
was an alright day yesterday, hardly did any fast-tracking (GP cases) and had mostly patients requiring main ED beds. had the cutest old lady with infective exacerbation of COPD, and the nicest older couple - the wife had RUQ pain. we hadn't found a cause for it yet (she'd had a cholecystectomy 10 years ago) when i left. surprised myself by successfully cannulating her despite not being able to see the vein haha.
it's nice when patients tell you you have good bedside manner, hmm? :) makes me dislike my job a little less, ha. i'm still counting down though. 4.5 weeks till the end of term 2! that means 18 work days.
think i should ask my father to get some OCPs for me in sg. i'm just too lazy to go and see a GP to get a script. -.- wonder if he will give me sleeping pills too haha.
woke up in the middle of the night and saw a fb invite to a 4A gathering, which edwin and daniel faithfully organise every year haha. checked the date, 23 june. i'll just miss it! unless they bring it forward by a week. hmm. would be nice to be able to go. i think i've missed quite a few.
supposed to be going out with dee and eve tomorrow but dee hasn't made plans yet. she says there will be some good food involved though! :)
you know how when you listen to a song too much for a period of time, it will always bring you back to that particular time in your life? or a particular place?
when superstars and cannonballs are running through your head
television freak show cops and robbers everywhere
- mdm xu hui's classroom in fairfield, studying for O's (which reminds of dover you mian and those strawberry chocolate things. and the rocking chair ashley and i used to fight for)
for as long as i shall live, i will testify to love
i'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
- flagstaff gardens in 2006 (and loyi saying i can sing ;p)
save tonight, fight the break of dawn
come tomorrow, tomorrow i'll be gone
- my 40 hour famine furniture fast in 2006
i hope you find a love that's true
so the morning light will shine on you
and
i have been searching all of my days, all of my days
many road you know i've been walking on, all of my days
- my hostel room in hk ;p
there's gotta be more to life
than chasing down every temporary high
to satisfy me
- the balcony in SAJC malan road, listening to sebas' green ipod while studying
i don't want to save the world
i just want to waste some time with you
- walking down bourke st in melbourne
22 days to home. :)
9:07 am
20120521
so you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
now i'm here to stay
love can be so boring
what was it you wanted?
could it be i'm haunted?
woke up to rain. it stopped by the time i had to leave home though. :) felt so tired, so not used to waking up early now haha.
was a good day at work. :) a bit busy at the beginning but then it levelled out a bit by the time the 12 and 2pm people came. saw 9 patients, which is my record to date. ;p
got to cardiovert a patient today! :D how exciting! he was in AF and didn't revert despite having had 240mg of sotalol. so his cardiologist said to cardiovert. i got to press the buttons and say "all clear!" hehehe. ;p
also got to use a needle to bore holes in a guy's nail. he had a subungual haematoma and cellulitis. david did the first two holes and let me do the third. he was really david's patient cos he saw him last week.
the new roster is out but it still ends at 10 june. -.- working alternate days is kind of annoying. don't know what to do tomorrow again..
7:54 pm
20120520
still trying to decide whether i should get a fujifilm instax haha. can't decide. don't want to end up with a(nother) camera that i hardly use.. and 200 films haha.
5 weeks till i have to drive myself up to the land of ginger beer (as yurong calls it). eeks have to massive pack again. :(
working early tomorrow. 7am is the only time there is real hope that the waiting room could be empty.
the green (now orange) market is under renovation and the tailor is thinking of not continuing?! where am i going to alter my clothes for like $4! D:
need to start making a list of food to eat when i go back.
7:06 pm
now you're standing in my doorway
with a suitcase on your back
and it blows my mind
when you do things like that
tired. stayed at work for an extra hour (11 hours in total) because the annoying royal brisbane ortho people kept trying to divert my suspected cauda equina syndrome patient elsewhere!! cannot take it.
"send her to nambour for an urgent MRI."
"nambour doesn't do MRIs over the weekend."
"um.. we'll talk to the nambour radiology reg and get back to you."
nambour radiology shuts down after 10pm!! grr. the reg wasn't even there anymore! plus the rbh radiology reg was quite happy to do the MRI overnight. zz. waste my time.
a said it was probably because it was ortho covering for neurosurg.
plus it was a really busy day. the list of patients waiting to be seen was like double the list of patients being seen. :| d was really nice though, he asked me to go have dinner twice. so i did.
g did my mid term assessment with me today. actually he just did it and then gave me the form haha. it always surprises me when my supervisors think i'm doing reasonably well. seriously, a "performance consistent with level of appointment" is all i want to see. it's a relief. he hasn't supervised me much at all (mainly because he has a lot of admin days, being the director of DEM), but he's discussed my work with the other SMOs, who seem to think i'm doing alright. maybe i can get one of them to be a referee after all. ;p
cat sitter settled for june. another $100 flying away.. the good thing is that i'm leaving on the 15th morning, which means i don't have to pay the cat lady for the 15th. and i'll be back on the 20th morning, which excludes that day too. so instead of 6 days, it's only 4. :) i save $50! ha.
shall make macarons again tomorrow. stole a couple of tea bags from work haha. i don't even know what kind of tea it is, but it'll do.
i hope the 25th is on.
have started making my list of things to bring back to (and from) sg. ;p 27 days to go! i want to eat bbq prawns too, sigh. :( reminds me of the awesome grilled prawns in barcelona. best prawns ever!
1:10 am
20120518
forever new dresses hmmm.
another lazy day off today. went to jb hi fi but they didn't have the $98 gps. so i ended up buying it online instead.
wanted to make macarons but was too lazy. -.- might make them on sunday instead. have to buy tea leaves heh.
got two calls early in the morning.. didn't know who it was, but then i got a text. haven't replied, it's kind of weird..
was on skype today. aww moments, sigh. it's difficult to remember them these days. almost like it was a lifetime ago.
7:59 pm
yay another day off. am tired. and sick of work. nearly done with week 7. 5 weeks to go! still haven't done my mid term assessment though. :\ dread.
today wasn't too bad because there was education (which took up like 2.5 hours). referred my last patient to zin. ;p SHE IS PREGNANT.
shall go buy my tomtom gps tomorrow. shall also buy the southeast asia map so i can drive in sg without (as much) stress, ha.
i hope my online things arrive soon. :3
dreamt that i went to hk! was in a tram, and i saw jason (yeung chit sum). he was standing outside, beside the tram tracks, and when the tram went past we hi-fived. ;p haha.
daniel (tsang) also dreamt that he was in hk. with james and i! ;p hahaha so funny. apparently we were both working there and we spoke very good canto. ;p and we went to eat lots of food..... omg delicious kitchen. D: i want to go back to hk!
was looking through my hk album trying to get names of places to recommend to rong. sigh. that's probably why i dreamt about hk haha. it's slightly disturbing to think that i spent 6 weeks there but now can hardly remember shop names, street names, and canto names.. at least i still remember mtr stops. :\ pretty sure i'd still be able to navigate around central quite deftly though. ;p i remember where the film shop is, where the film developing shop is, and where the egg tart shop is.. i just cannot remember any street names (even the english ones).
want to try making the honey buttercream macaron filling. but it's a bit zzz to suddenly keep bringing macarons to work right.. :|
yurong is going to gold coast/ brissy in aug! ;p i will be in sg for part of that time haha, but i think i'll try to drive down from bundy to meet her the next weekend. ;p
i think my aunty is trying to reconnect (or rather, connect) with me after playing scramble haha. the one who said i am a formidable opponent. ;p she's going to be in gold coast in sept and wants to have lunch or dinner. i don't think i have said anything more to her than "hello aunty karen".. but okay! ;p
12:49 am
20120516
am really glad to have the day off tomorrow. big sigh.
was talking to my mother about going back and she was so excited haha. i'd have happily (willingly) paid for my tickets myself but she said she (my father) would. ;p but i'm flying scoot so it's cheap anyway. $418 only! will be back 15-19 june. :)
perryn wants me to bring 10 bottles of rekorderlig back for him haha, siao. he's on call and he had to tell his friend that her grandmother died, and then has to operate on a ruptured spleen and a perfed duodenum. how glad am i to be working in australia!
feel bad about not going to perth to visit charm.. think i'll try to go in end sept/ oct. the queen's birthday's on 1 oct (monday) so it'll be a long weekend anyway. maybe i can use my rostered days off? though i don't understand how it works. how does the team function without the intern? ;p who does all the paperwork? ;p
it feels weird to win scramble against sebas. when he wins it's like the proper order is restored haha.
should i finally drag myself out of the house tomorrow to the dfo? hmmm...
1:48 am
20120514
busy day at work yesterday. patients on trolleys in the corridor and all. i don't really like d but i thought the way he organised the ED was impressive.
my first patient was a 24yo guy who'd had a seizure. it's a bit weird when the patient is your age. i don't know. had another patient with strange pleuritic and then dull chest pain. his initial TnI was 0.00, repeat TnI at 6hrs was 0.15? but the blood was taken through the cannula. repeat repeat TnI taken from another vein was 0.00. the nurse said she'd never take blood through a cannula again.
saw this guy who'd cut his finger with a big chopping knife while chopping sweet potatoes. while cleaning up the lac (which didn't even need suturing)-
n: "so where do you want to end up? what sort of specialty?"
me: "oh i don't know.. i don't actually want to be a doctor anymore, haha."
n: "wow really? so what do you want to do?"
me: "bake, actually.."
n: "haha okay you just made my day, seriously."
(i don't really understand why i made his day, but it's always nice to make someone's day! ;p)
eve said that after seeing my latest macarons that she would support my decision for a career change haha. ;p which reminds me that i need to send kunam the youtube link.
still dislike late shifts. hope they'll finalise the roster so i can book my perth tickets (i know i have been labouring on and on about this) (or maybe i should just book them anyway since i requested the days off already). the initial roster says i am free from fri-tues! :D 5 days off sounds good to me (esp since perth is so far away). but it's a bit weird cos there are periods where i work one day, have the next day off, then work another day, then have the next day off again. rather annoying. ultimate momentum buster can.
had a good htht with huiru yesterday before work. :) glad to have such friends, even though we don't talk often (and we haven't met up in ten thousand years), we can still talk about everything.
and it was mother's day yesterday. was reminded of it every time i googled something.
my grandmother had a syncopal episode the other day. she says she's okay though. :\ she said she hopes to see me soon. :( i feel guilty, like maybe i should book another trip back? i don't know. :\ maybe i should look at tickets again...
11:20 am
20120513
dislike late shifts. :( but oh well. one down, three to go.
met priya (one of the locum regs) today. he thanked me for looking after his aunt haha. she'd come in last week with chest pain.. turns out she had triple vessel disease and had a bypass yesterday! or something like that. not really continuity of care.. but at least i know what happened. that's one of the things i dislike about ED.. not fixing people up properly and sending them away, then not knowing what happens to them after.
my macarons are all gone. :) people said they were nice! and that they looked like they'd come from a bakery haha. :)
nurse: i've been hearing about those things you made, are they fattening?
me: haha well they're full of sugar..
(15 mins later)
nurse: hey i had one of them, they're good!
;p
ranjit brought his two sons (one is literally like 1 week old) in! so cute! and someone brought in a rainbow cake too. it was yum. :)
i like bonding with patients who have connections with melb. ;p i always tell them, "i studied there for 6 years! i loved it there." :) saw this 82yo lady with a terrible migraine. 5mg of IV morphine later, good as new. (why did we use morphine? don't know. :| but it worked..) she was from melb but moved up here 20 years ago. she was meant to fly to melb this morning to see her son (for mother's day) but couldn't because of her headache. imagine having a 10/10 migraine for 12 hours..
still getting horrible coughing fits where i cough violently like i'm going to die, then have to pause between coughs to take a huge breath because if not i will die, then cough violently again. D: it is terrible. i don't feel sick but the cough is bad enough. :( it was dry the last two days but today i am coughing stuff up again. why isn't it going away yet! :( it's been like 1.5 weeks!
eve doesn't think she has anything on on the 25th so looks like we're going to go out! :D dee said she'll plan a day out for us haha. yay!
wanjie gave me an idea for my CV/ cover letters haha. ;p thank you!
2:00 am
20120511
irrational penny cruisers
i think i have pretty much given up on that. the proportions are changing, anyway. but then they've always been dynamic, sigh.
finished watching all my warehouse 13 episodes. wanted to go shopping but every time i wanted to leave the house the last 3 days, i've had coughing fits and wound up staying in instead. but staying in doesn't equate to not spending money, unfortunately. endless online shopping galore. trying to find a dress to wear to michael and rachel's wedding haha. but i don't really know what i'm looking for.
tara sent me a fb msg saying we're going to be in one of the 2 bedroom units next rotation. i wonder if i can sneak the cats in.. haha.
dee is trying to arrange a dinner with eve and i.. but our dem shifts are all over the place.
have to work lates again. :( feels like such a long time since i worked lates. really like the earlys a lot more. :( 2pm-12mn is not a nice shift.
shoulders are super aching. :(
8:23 pm
20120510
baked macarons with ida's recipe yesterday! success! :D but they taste a bit weird. hmm. filled them already too. :) shall bring them to work on sat and hope they magically disappear.
contemplated going to the dfo today but opted for online shopping instead on the account of my hacking cough. D: i think i'm dying.
cat lady will come to return the keys tomorrow instead. maybe i'll go to the dfo tomorrow? but going out means spending money.. and going to the dfo means spending a lot of money heh.
i hope charm gets st v's or alfred so she will go back to melb next year. and i hope i get southern or eastern! :\
attempted to do up my CV. don't know what to write lor. and i need another referee.. sigh. don't know how to write the cover letters also. last year southern had a specific question but i don't know about this year. can't find anything about it anywhere. :|
my internet appears to be too slow to upload my instagram photos..
booked my tickets to sydney (did i already mention that?) and to melbourne (in sept). :D this is my 4th time booking air tickets this year. it's becoming a hobby. ;p barbara says the roster for my last 2 weeks of DEM should be out next week then (hopefully) i can book perth tickets too! :D
5:30 pm
20120509
started watching warehouse 13 because i had nothing else to watch. it's a bit weird.
slack day yesterday. think i only saw 4 patients haha. ;p but there was intern education. didn't have to do the simulation, yay! :)
got ida's macaron recipe. :D hers look so pretty. though she said some were tough and chewy? she suggested i get an oven thermometer.. think i should. excited to attempt it again. though i really shouldn't till tomorrow or friday.. the guy in the youtube video was funny- "the chocolate is already half melted.. because of the power of singapore."
dennis said he got my email and "it should be done by next week." the deadline is 18 may... i feel like giving up and not even bothering to get my stat dec/ documents certified. zzz.
talked to dee at intern education, she's applying to melb! :D told her about how annoying pmcv is haha.
feel like shoppingggg.
8:38 am
20120507
but that was love and that's an ache i still remember
it's nice when your consultant asks if you're feeling better.
jt: so are you feeling better?
me: yeah i'm starting to feel better.
jt: drinking lots of water?
me: err....
haha. though thinking about it afterwards, i was pretty well hydrated yesterday. i just drink a lot less when i'm working.
first patient of the day was a lady who was 32 weeks pregnant.. who had a deep lac on her foot. i thought to myself, 7am is too early to be suturing a lac..
busy day (as predicted, it being a public holiday and all). was glad when the 12nn and 2pm people came to work. :) eve said i still look sick. i think it's just my red nose.
working again tomorrow but there's intern education! but there's also simulation. D: horror, terror, and all that. PLEASE DON'T PICK ME. only 2 people need to do it i think. PLEASE DON'T LET ONE OF THEM BE ME.
have pretty much resigned myself to the whole stupid pmcv thing. i suppose i will still submit my AGPT application if i manage to scrape everything together in time. i have like ten days?
don't know why they are taking ten thousand years to send out the new roster, particularly when they were free enough to send a new one out every day or every other day a couple of weeks ago. -.- i want to book my tickets leh.
it's just annoying when you're trying to not know anything and then someone comes along and happily tells you things you've been trying to not know. i don't want to know lah can you just don't tell me! :(
reading about that makes me... on one hand, it makes me think, maybe i should... but on the other hand, i'm like, are you serious? isn't it a bit quick? sigh. why am i so slow.
9:52 pm
20120506
by the way i tried to say i'd be there
mornings and nights are cold now. afternoons are still warm though.
am still coughing my lungs out. and everything requires a bigger effort. don't want to go to work tomorrow. :( working mon, tues, sat, sun. don't know what to do on wed/ thurs/ fri also, sigh. gary said public holidays are double time and a half?
it feels weird being the one to start conversations about job applications. -.- being the one who doesn't want to be a doctor and all. looked at pmcv, pmcwa, and pmcq. none of them have opened for pgy2 jobs yet but i've registered haha. kiasu a bit.
bailey is like a dog. in that he comes when i call him.. it might take a while, but he always does! :)
just bawled my eyes out watching 10 promises to my dog. D: going to have puffy eyes tomorrow.
7:40 pm
20120505
sniffle/ wheeze/ cough = me all day today. D:
plus it was a bad day at work. by bad i mean busy. it was just busy all day.. :( there were even 2 cat 1s (a rarity in caldem). dislike working weekends and public holidays. public holidays are worse. and i have to work monday (labour day). :( at least i get tomorrow off.
not only did i forget to bring my lunch to work, i left it on the counter at home = can no longer be eaten. if i lived in melb i'd probably eat it. but it's warm here. sigh. but greg did a maccas run so i wasn't food-less. had my mcnuggets in medical imaging, while watching my patient get CT-ed haha. must remember to pay greg.
have been using my ventolin several times a day. infective exacerbation of asthma. it tastes weird though. thought about stealing one from the hospital. i think mine is running out soon..
wonder if i'll make the GP training deadline. maybe i'd better start looking at pmcv again. -.- bane of my life. plus the slow internet makes it difficult. zzz.
becky has a new habit of sleeping on top of me, all night. makes it difficult to turn in my sleep haha.
went to buy subway for dinner and the boy serving me was so cute! hahaha. he looked like he was 13 years old or something. and he convinced me to buy cookies haha.
my aunty said i am a formidable scramble opponent. ;p hehe.
so strange to not have a new junior staff ED roster in such a long time. i think barbara must be on holiday. i hope they hurry up and send out the roster for the second half of the term. i want to book my perth tickets!
so glad to have tomorrow off. :) hopefully mon won't be so crazy.
8:48 pm
20120504
the stupid car rental alarm is going off again. -.- second time already this evening. and i think it went off last night too. slept early (being sick and all) and woke up to the alarm at 12+. remember thinking about calling in sick.
when i woke up my voice was so ridiculous that i really did want to call in sick. but then i thought i'd better go in anyway. besides my voice became more normal after a while (lots of talking to myself). then even worse, started coughing. really sounded like one of the patients haha. paul saw me once (people don't usually look up when they hear coughing - it's so common in hospitals) and told me to go outside and clear my lungs haha.
gary: "how're you?"
me: "good.."
gary: "so how's life.. in general?"
me: "i'm getting sicker (sad face).. from melbourne!"
gary: "are you sure it's not just homesickness?"
i'm disliking ED less now. work days are going by more quickly. :)
picked up my last patient a bit late (4+) and ended up doing things till 6 (he needed a CT and things). still had to refer him to a private physician but eve offered to do it for me so i could go home! :) she said i looked like i should be at home in bed cuddling my cats haha. i hope i didn't look that bad. :|
the SA lady called me to ask about my visa and stuff. turns out i need to get another letter from dennis.. but he'd already gone home and monday is a public holiday (labour day). -.- i wonder if i can just do another general year, then apply to AGPT again next year? if next year can still be counted towards my GP training? and maybe i'd be a PR by then. :3
need a massage. being sick always aggravates the shoulder aches. :(
8:41 pm
20120503
love, love will keep us together
think of me, babe, whenever
some sweet talkin' girl comes along
singin' a song
(downloaded this song after rewatching outsourced ;p)
HMM. i think i'm getting sicker. which is bad. :( since i have to work the next couple of days. have a pulsatile headache which is aggravated by coughing. :( also seem to be blacking out every time i get up from the bed (where i have been spending most of my day).
anyway, it was a lazy day. emailed some RTPs and got a few replies.. mostly people saying no. sturt fleurieu said okay though. but they're in SA. kind of overlapping with southern, if i'm not wrong. they all confuse me.
went to develop my photos. they only printed 30, though from the negatives there were bits and pieces that i'd have liked.. so i guess i'll go back and ask if they can print those as well. i'd forgotten what photos i'd lost but i remember now after looking at the negatives. :( my name on the brick wall outside manchester press, sigh. :( :( plus the bicycle quote and disco ball. :(
showered my cats today. sustained a few scratches on my legs. they're bigger now so it's more difficult. but now they're squeaky clean. :)
asked min about where to go in perth. ;p she said swan valley, margaret river, augusta, fremantle, claremont, subiaco. think i might be wandering around by myself half the time (unless wj is there) (and if charm has to work that weekend, i'll be wandering around by myself nearly the whole time), which i really don't mind. wonder if alvin will be there too. he hasn't replied.
tara wants to be my housemate when i go up to bundy! haha. that's still 7 weeks away though. haven't heard from the admin lady so i don't know where i'm meant to stay. i suppose if i have to live with someone i wouldn't mind living with tara. :)
coughs. :(
7:26 pm
20120502
have requested my days off! :D planning to go visit charm in june. :D:D eggcite! she doesn't know her roster yet (it'll be rotation 3 for her) but i'm sure i'll get to see her anyway. plus she has a car now (egg). ;p
busy day at work today, though i only saw 6 patients. 6 is already more than i've been seeing for a while, cos the ED's been quiet the last few shifts i was on. my last patient had a laceration on the base of his thumb from trying to kill a chicken haha. dislike suturing. plus the disposable needle holders have such a tiny mouth, i keep missing the needle. -.-
shall go develop my photos tomorrow. :) and buy cat food. and do my GP stuff. :| so annoying, these applications. started looking at it properly this morning (because there were no patients) and realised that there are other things i need to do. -.- zzz. so now i am stressed again, like for job applications last year. -.- maybe i should just do another year in hospital here. really don't want to go through the whole process of applying to pmcv again. pmcv = the worst thing ever.
teaching bailey to jump up when i pat the bed/ chair. ;p like tuna does. the other day i dreamt that tuna died. D: i hope that isn't true.
my hair keeps poking my eye today, so annoying! particularly when suturing. -.-
my sister finally uploaded barcelona/ uk/ paris photos. lots of them are unglam though. :| looked through them briefly before work. better weed through them again later haha.
oh and i'll finally get to collect my mail tomorrow! haha. haven't checked since.. 20 april. because i've been working early's and am never around when the car rental place is open. they must be wondering what happened to me haha.
and again, i am super excited about visiting charm. ;p another break in the year haha.
jan - melbourne
feb -
march -
april - melbourne
may -
june - perth
july - sydney
august - singapore
september - melbourne
october -
november - singapore
december - melbourne
nearly a holiday a month. ;p lots of flying. melbourne 4 times this year, yay!
6:28 pm
20120501
was a rather GP-ish day for me. which is good. i like. ;p things like migraine with vertigo, small lacerations, tonsillitis, thrush.. okay i could do without the thrush.
there were no new patients at all during my first hour of work. ;p just sat there checking my email and stoning. then jeremy asked me to go and review a patient with cellulitis in CDU. but her knee hadn't been marked...
drove nicole up to nambour for intern education. ;p i don't even know what car it was haha. some hyundai. was super jerky at first but then i got the hang of it. did a super parallel park right outside the hospital and was complimented on it. ;p hahaha. my practice has paid off. ;p
anyway, forgot to write about how angry i get whenever i hear about such things. D: it never fails to ignite a (i wanted to write spark, but spark is too small).. well it never fails to cause a surge of fury. which in a sense is good, i guess. reminds me that i'm still looking at things through rose coloured glasses. maybe i need more of those slaps.
my meows obviously miss me. ;p they keep hovering haha. and bailey even ventures into the bathroom now.. means it's been too long since their last shower.
got an email today asking us to hurry up let john know if we want to book days off before he finalises the roster for the next 6 weeks. trying to convince charm to let me go up and visit her. ;p especially since she has a car now! :D
it's kind of nice to just slack now after work.. it was a busy holiday haha. ;p quite a tiring one also hahaha. ;p but it was really nice to get to meet so many different groups of people in such a short time. ;p makes me feel loved! haha.
7:59 pm