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nearly all packed but my luggage is like, full. D: how to shop in hk like that? must ask my parents to bring a big bag when they come visit so they can help me bring stuff back.

typhoon in hong kong... hmmm.

went to watch friends with benefits with my parents. i know, it's weird. and awkward. but i just try to ignore the weirdness haha. free movie what. ;p and i had a malibu dream too yeay. :)

had lunch at cafe epicurious at rail mall. yet another brunch disappointment. :( sigh, singapore. the eggs ben was bad, particularly in comparison with choupinette's yesterday. :| oh well. at least the potatoes were nice. and the onion soup too.

considered swimming. but i was too lazy. :| my brother asked me again when he got home at like 4+, but 4+ sun doesn't do much i think.. and i realised that i needed to start packing haha. so i did.

no more father dinner so i'm going to town for dinner with the ex-melbournians. though i feel like eating chicken haha. i think i don't actually have to drive.. just that i'm too lazy to bus home at like 11+pm. lazy pig.


yay happy day. :)

had brunch with peiyu and rong at choupinette. i really like their hollandaise. :) then we had express mani's at coronation because rong kept bugging us haha. i think this is the first mani i didn't ruin immediately after. ;p cos we had our hands in the dryer for so long haha.

thank you for brunch at the skirt and the ring! :)

went to town and shopped. ;p didn't find anything to buy at h&m haha. oh well. met kevin and we had a caramel tart and an antoinette at antoinette. the ang moh couple beside us helped us take a polaroid and ordered the same tarts as us! haha. we had candles. ;p belated/ early birthday. ;p

went to scape. then went to kevin's. so nice to have so many cats haha. played with all of them. ;p lara and luna weren't so scared of me today. must be cos i've gone there so many times haha. ordered xo bee hoon and har cheong gai YAY. ;p craving. watched the middle and modern family. :)

looked up flights to melb/syd. :D yay please come visit! he wants to go on a farmstay haha. probably should do that before i move out of australia.

took 74/184 home. it's been forever since i took a bus home at night (i just drive).

watching the x factor. some of them are so so terrible, but some are so amazing.

shall stay home to pack tomorrow. then dinner with my father (i can't think of where to go), and fright night with the ex-melbournians. well, a few of them. going to be so tired when i arrive in hk. :| nevermind, it's pretty much a holiday rotation.. ;p


back in sg yeayyy no more jb yeayyyyy. :D

so we had a party last night in our apartment. pizza and kfc. it went on forever because of the 4th year aussies. :| i think everyone was really tired by like 12.30? but they stayed till 1.45. T.T

we all still got up this morning though. went to the ward and actually stayed for the round.

my mother picked steph and i up at about 2+ and we went back to sg. some alarm went off at the woodlands checkpoint and we couldn't move for about 10 minutes. but we have no idea what it was.

came home, then brought steph to holland for waffles at daily scoop haha. talked about med and non-med. went over to buy a cake from breadtalk, then came back. she met isaac, father, opi, and pastor kenneth haha. father and pastor kenneth helped us with the luggage, then i drove her to the airport. driving for half an hour in sg feels a lot longer than driving for the same amount of time in melb for some reason.. maybe it's cos the scenery is boring haha.

collected my photos along the way. they always look better in the thumbnails. :( i am always disappointed, rawr. need to improve.

came home again and had dinner. crayfish! yum. and pineapple.

need to bake 200 cupcakes later tonight..


strangely enough...

monday down, tues and weds to go! it's my long day tomorrow (bedside tute + showing my supervisor that i did my modules). my aunty and uncle were actually joking that they could pick me up tomorrow since they're in jb. ;p

the toilet light keeps flickering. i wish it would die rather than flicker. it would set off seizures in someone with epilepsy.

i am giving up on that. i don't think it's ever going to happen. :( but nevermind lah, also not very close...

wonder if i am reading too much into this other thing.

26 doctors, nurses, medical students, and nursing students on the ward round today (i was bored and couldn't hear anything, so i counted). i think there were 15 patients max. finished early. i hate when they ask me question i have no idea about. "what is cervagem? prostaglandin E1 or E2?" i don't know, i have never heard of it before. -.- (it's E1, by the way)

finished the last 2 episodes of breaking bad season 2. cannot let kevin catch up. ;p

going back on weds! have to help my mother bake 200 cupcakes for the efm. i said "i refuse to make 100 macarons for bratty acjc kids." so she said okay cupcakes. found out that they're really tiny anyway so i probably won't have to do too many batches..

su peng and david are bringing me to eat frog porridge later. ;p i really need to finish that module...


ever since this old world began
a woman found that if she shook it
she could shake up a man

have been slackinggg. leaving my derm and teaching till monday. :|

laksa for lunch! :) finally. i'd been craving it since before i had gastro haha.

feel like i drove a lot today. to town, to holland, home, to kevin's, to nus, to kevin's, home. was supposed to meet the jb aussies but they were late. went to kino and bought myself the hk moleskine. :D yeay. met kevin and we had dinner at ippudo! :D ippudo makes me happy.

provence. the tiny bread that i got is so cheesy. got a million shows from kevin to keep myself entertained in hk! :D watched part of the emmy's. and copied down his list of food places in hk. :) and played with layla! ♥ i love layla. don't like lewis. his stomach so fat omg.

the car refused to lock. turned out the spare key battery was low. :\

had my daily scoop of daily scoop. :) butterscotch pecan. yum.


:O haha. it's only grammar, but it seems like a big thing. you know, like an alot.

kevin sacrificed his sleep to save me from my boredom. ;p went to daily scoop! saw valerie there. :| avoided eye contact. saw the science papers haha. root hair cells and arteries and veins. i wonder how i'd do on that paper. :\

didn't get to meet the 6th cat cos sam went to sleep already. but apparently it is annoying.. as all kittens are.

drove home and the two lots were still available! opted for the longer one haha. nearer also. parallel parked on the right side of the road. am proud of myself because i've never done that before (and i am bad with L and R substitution). no one does that in melb cos it's the wrong side of the road..

tuna is such a pig. he has been sleeping on the armchair the whole afternoon. and he's still there. he only went downstairs for dinner.

want to get my tattoo lehhhhh.


why my life so interesting these few days.

was walking to hospital when this car stopped beside me. the indian man inside asked me if i wanted a lift to hospital. it amuses me how everyone calls us "doctor". even my specialist calls us that. anyway. thinking back now i really don't know why i said yes. hmm. anyway he's singaporean. and he did drop me right outside the back gate of the hospital. so. i'm still safe. heh. i don't know...

met dar ray and wen kai in the gynae ward. followed the round till 11.45ish, then we all got signatures from a houseman and left. i felt a bit bad.. dr ramadas really does teach. just that his rounds take forever (especially when the beds are filled up till cubicle 5) and he uses strange analogies.

went back to the apartment and had just started watching polo boys when my father called. ;p came home! yeay. fried rice for lunch because of the acjc exam food ministry. -.- they always say not enough food, then cook some more, then too much rice, then i have to eat fried rice. -.-

finally went to take my passport photos. also need random other things like a medical certificate stating that i am immune to hep b and that i am hep c and hiv negative. means i need to be poked. but my father's working. was sad to go to the photo shop without depositing or collecting film. :( realised that my spinner film is super old and i should really try to finish it soon. wonder if it's cheaper to develop film in hk.

talked to daniel about hk! got to ask more questions haha. i hope my supervisor is as slack as his. :3

watched community, modern family, the middle, glee, and big bang theory. downloading castle now.

i'm boreddd. :(


there's this lady in the gynae ward. she's 15 weeks pregnant but her baby doesn't have a brain, so she's going to have a termination. so sad! :( dar ray told me about a baby with anencephaly who was in the neonatal icu too. alive for 15 days! and anencephaly is supposed to be incompatible with life... folate supplements, people.

had dinner at ong shun with su peng before going to the clinical school for lg. yummy food. :) i have no more money now (okay i have like 6rm). true love. i'm really thankful to be a part of this lg for just a couple of weeks! :) mitch denies refusing to translate for me haha.

just bought something online yeay! i feel like i haven't shopped for such a long time (so far since coming back to sg i think i have gotten 2 pairs of shorts and 1 pair of shoes). have been trying not to shop because of hk and spain. but this isn't expensive. and i really need to start hunting for more presentable working dresses and skirts and shirts haha.

need to figure out how to do internet banking in sg. it seems so much more complicated than melb. :|

realised that i'm going to have to go back to doing my own laundry and stuff for 6 weeks. :( :( but on the bright side, i get to have my own room again. :) haven't asked daniel about the accomodation though. a bit paiseh to ask too many questions. :| so i just asked the most important one: is it slack? ;p haha.

yay it's nearly friday again!


note to self: remember to transfer money tomorrow!


oh yes. i don't know why, but monash gave me $2650. is that supposed to be my scholarship money? if so, WHERE IS THE OTHER $350? D:


finished my 800 word essay! yeay. :D also did my two online discussion group posts. which means i'm done with module 21. :)

talked to charmaine again. why so many people getting jobsss. eek. okay i better take my passport photos and sign my contract. tomorrow maybe?

secret tweeting.

i always check my blog archives to figure out when things happened. ;p i used to post a lot more photos.

shall aim to do derm tomorrow and teaching over the weekend. everything has to be done by tues afternoon anyway cos that's when i have to show my supervisor my modules.

met dar ray at the gynae ward today. "how come you come here today?" (neither of us is supposed to be doing gynae this week) "here faster what, antenatal so slow!" ;p hahaha. everyone is slacking (except for sher, she keeps going to assist in caesars!).

bought my grad ball ticket yay! well. i hope i entered the credit card expiry date correctly. i can't really remember.

feel accomplished today so i won't do anymore work HAHA.

would like to make the chocolate tart again, but with a properly rolled out thin crust this time. hmmm.


and long after i'm gone
you'll still be humming along
and i will keep you in my mind
the way you make love so fine


*
finished my nps modules. finished genetics. left with half of derm, 3/4 of international health, and all of the last one. eeks.


hello.

yesterday i met an interesting lady while walking to hospital. this ~55yo lady stopped me and asked if i was a new intern or student. she said she drew a portrait of another student last time and she wanted to draw one of me too. and she wanted me to visit a methodist/anglican church in melb and meet a paediatric cardiologist at the royal children's. in the end she gave me her number and asked me to text her so she can draw my portrait. :| i think i did a mental state exam on her haha.

thought i didn't bring my umbrella back from sg so i was trapped in the apartment when it rained like mad yesterday afternoon. it didn't look too bad from the 18th floor, but when i went downstairs, i realised that i couldn't walk in that. but the security guards were nice and lent me their umbrella. :) before that i went to the minimart and asked "do you have any umbrellas?" and the guy looked at me helplessly and went "lala? lala?" and i gave up.

found my umbrella this morning. ;p

went to carabao (a thai seafood restaurant) for dinner. i have no more money.... think i should just buy cup noodles and stay at home.

shared the slice of chocolate tart after dinner. the glacage wasn't shiny anymore! :( and i actually didn't like the tart haha. i don't know if it's because i don't like chocolate tarts, or because it isn't nice... but my mother said it was nice though. hmm.

i really wanted to deliver babies before i came here, but being in jb has knocked it out of me. the system is crap and no one cares. trying to avoid the labour room, sigh. went to the antenatal ward today.. strangely, i think i like gynae more now. maybe just because i know more about it haha.

reading millions of useless articles about HIV. the question: how prevention and treatment can be better integrated. none of the resources answer the question! zz. most only talk about WHY it should be better integrated.. obvious right. sian.. HOW TO WRITE MY 800 WORD ESSAY.

sitting in the clinical school with people sitting nearby complaining about getting their visas, 100 points for the police checks etc. "it's a lot of work k! it's a lot of work, it's a lot of work!" seriously... you got a job in melb already still complain so much for whatttt. don't want then give me lah. -.- i'd take it happily. southern health some more.

wonder if my mother will let me spend $760 on that. :| i bet not.

zepeng please organise something! :)


i think it's worth baking again. in melbourne.... but i have no pie tin there. :| hmm.

had lunch at black canyon at fusion with my mother and sister. walked into fmps to pick my brother up because my mother was too tired (or as my brother says, too lazeth).

came home and baked while my brother had tuition. tuna kept following me up and down the stairs haha. baking in sg so hot. D:

asked daniel about hk. he says it's slack until cannot be more slack. ;p every afternoon off, plus finish at 9am on weds and thurs? hahaha. i can start looking for sewing classes already. ;p don't think i can shop that much haha. okay this news makes me look forward to hk a bit more.. i was really all ready to go back to melb.

didn't do any work this weekend. :( forgot to renew my book too. :(

shall bring a slice to jb for the aussies!

my grandmother is currently toxic. she started her oral chemo.. and apparently we cannot even touch the box. $12k/month leh. and it goes on for 12 months. but there's some discount i think. pay for 4 months and the rest is free? :|


hey baby, i think i wanna marry you

(long entry cos diana so entertaining)

rested for a while before going out again. my GIT dislikes the idea of me going out. but i went anyway. drove to pick rong up and parked at lido. walked to h&m and queued up to go in to find diana. saw koh chieng mun outside (relevant to my life because i have been watching under one roof).

went up and down trying to find diana (who bought an $8 skirt). $8 skirts make me want to shop. but i shall wait till hk and spain. :)

walked over to cine to buy fries and collect tickets. met yurong. johnny english! killer cleaner omg. quite funny lah i think. vacuum cleaner.

couldn't decide where to go for dinner so we went to the flea market instead. we all watched rong get a temporary tattoo. i'll go get a real one. ;p

decided to go to applebee's. went there, sat down, looked at the menu. the signboard outside said 50% off appetizers and one-for-one alcoholic drinks after 9pm. it was about 8.10pm. so we left. ;p shameless.

went to orchard central to find sheer romance. but it was closed. wandered around trying to find other shops that might sell bikini padding. but no. ended up in the lift going down to B1 and met yuming! haha. mini reunion.

went to the fountain and took photos. ;p her parting words to me were: "please be a good doctor, don't quit!" haha. we agreed that of all of us, diana was the most career-driven and the least likely to be a housewife. though she wants to quit. then she danced to marry you.

yay 9pm and we were all hungrier. went back to applebee's and ordered. ate, talked, drank. diana went all red then collapsed. so we sat there until they turned off all the lights and stopped playing music haha. took a bus and walked through ion. they kept trying to lift my clothes in public. seriously. shakes head.

then i drove everyone home, yeay. the difference between driving people home in melbourne and singapore is that most people live close by in melb. ;p

diana needs to get a phone with whatsapp. so i stop smsing her in single lines. she kept pointing out red light cameras and speed cameras haha. blue light?

i am the glue?

am so glad i don't have to be in hospital tomorrow. :) but raihan is really sick. :| hope she gets better soooon. oh and sebas is also sick haha. but i think it's not reallllyyy sick. having a cold is not being really sick.

want to finish my film, this one has been in my camera forever. also should really go take my passport photos and submit my contract soon heh. later they don't give me a job.


slept in. had lunch at yet con. :) stomach felt unhappy after that though. :( walked around bugis for a while, then just sat at macs measuring each other's heart rates cos i was complaining that mine was 96. :( ran into chua en lai at the national library carpark.

why does tuna hide during the day! he's always missing. :( even coke is missing now. i have been calling her coach.

please settle down.

going to drive to town (ahh!). picking rong up on the way. will probably send everyone home after? haha. so scary. some more my car no music. :( i hope i don't get lost haha. everybody please be my gps.


so i ended up going out to meet nine! haha. or what's left of nine... which is.. four? we didn't even really start out as nine. when i was asked by someone, what about 9? i was like, huh, what is 9?

anyway. drove to rong's and she drove to pick peiyu up and we met caleb at salted caramel. daytona. and rong parked precariously at a junction so other cars had a hard time passing through haha. the salted caramel was weird (tasted like licorice jellybeans?). ate on a separate plate so as to not give everyone else gastro (after peiyu and rong demonstrated several times how to eat ice cream using a fork and knife without licking them).

black crochet toms!

came home and parked illegally. was sad because when i drove out, someone just came back and happily stole my lot. :( hope the neighbours don't call the police before my mother uses the car.

drove past the bishan bus stop twice. thought about bob the cat, among other things.

also drove past tct. suddenly felt like a huge chunk of my childhood right there haha. though it was really mostly playing outside kfc and eating chicken wings from the hawker centre. and before that, prata from the other coffee shop.

anywayyy. think i am much better! despite my heart still working at 90bpm rather than 60bmp, and having another bout of diarrhoea before i left home (oops, spoke too soon).

have not been up at this hour except when i wake up in the middle of the night (which still happens every night). i feel so old.

much love from sissy. ♥ :)


oh i just can't waittttt
to be king

made it out of the house wheee. ;p i feel better. my head still feels weird, and my stomach is still majorly unhappy about having food in it. but i'm getting better. :) hopefully i'll be back to normal by tomorrow. :)

suggested that i only go back to jb on monday night because i'm sick. my mother agreed. ;p haha so it's a 5-day weekend for me!

went to church and had dinner out. managed to eat half the meal. :) my father ate the rest, hope he doesn't get gastro too. but i haven't had diarrhoea in 2 days so it should be alright.

looking up apartments in paris. my grandmother says she'll pay for macaron classes for all three of us, and disneyland too! my mother initially said we could only pick one - disneyland or macaron class. i was more inclined to go for the macaron class.. and now that we can go for both, i still don't really feel like going to disneyland. maybe it's just cos i'm sick.


i'm feeling slightly better today. still have a headache, not sure about the fever. still feel a bit nauseated. my heart rate is about 80-90 (my normal is 60+). i would like to make it out of the house today.


i wake up to your sunset

i really wish i could have gotten gastro at a better time, eg. during the work week so i could skip ward rounds!

this morning when i woke up with a fever, my father told me i had stomach flu. i had no idea what stomach flu was.. after googling, oh, it's gastroenteritis. i diagnosed myself with that last night what. why do they call it stomach flu when it isn't just the stomach that's involved, and it has nothing to do with flu?

turns out the aussies didn't come to sg after all. tim's in borneo. steph still wants to come next weekend though. i don't know what to recommend haha.

missed brunch with sebas. :(

being stuck at home the whole day is terrible. :( i feel like my muscles are wasting away from lying in bed all day. :( hopefully i'll make it out of the house tomorrow.


so i have gastro. :( lousy timing too.
vomited dark coloured stuff: omg coffee ground vomitus.
after thinking for a bit, no, it's just the seaweed i had this afternoon.
think i've emptied my stomach out now.
i really want something to drink though. :( but i'm afraid i'll just vomit again.
dehydration. i want an iv!
showered even though i felt like dying.
going to sleep now.


striae. need to do something about my accumulating fats. :(

made it to handover this morning because of the lack of the usual morning issues. :) it was the right day to go (again) because the boss was there. ;p haha.

the consultant did the ward round, which meant that there was very little teaching and a lot of bahasa. went to the clinical school with raihan after that. the guy eventually managed to get the make it real dvd to play! so i sat there watching it for an hour.

had a debate with vijay about what singapore's national day signified. he said it was the day we were freed from the british. i said it was the day we became independent from malaysia. he's malaysian anyway. a canadian girl agreed with him.

the aussies are having dinner here and clubbing at zirca after. steph was still trying to convince me to go. "everyone's crazy, i need someone sensible." "tim falls asleep after like, 2 beers."

moth picked me up and we went to city square to pick up mini donuts from j.co. had a rubbish lunch. i've only had cravings for 4 things since i've been back this time: laksa, cold storage chicken, daily scoop, and lobster.

going to help with the acjc exam food ministry later (i don't even know why). want to eat laksa and chicken. ;p

it's nice to be back on a thursday afternoon! :) except that my favourite cat is missing. :(

and also, my grandmother's multiple myeloma is back. here we go again.. :\


stupid pimples.

skipped handover today. went to the ward at 9 and there were no doctors around.... so weird. but eventually people turned up. finished the round, got our signatures, and left. initially wanted to go to the clinical school to ask about the dvd.. but i was hungry. ;p

came back to the apartment, had lunch, watched tv, took a nap. when i woke up it was so hot i decided that the walk (and climb) to the clinical school would be too torturous. so i stayed in haha.

did some nps modules. only 3 left now! every time they prescribe something different from me, i go WHYYY. i hope i don't kill anyone.

did some research on paris since i finished the second season of the good wife (ie. i am completely out of shows to watch, yet again). it would be cool to go for a macaron class there haha. but the one i found was like 125 euros. :|

and i randomly found a lump in my neck omg. it moves up when i swallow.


managed to drag myself to hospital for handover today despite certain morning issues. :| and that is part of what makes today my longest work day ever.

was a good thing i went though, cos the boss was there today. so we got some teaching. and he announced that consultants can no longer give bedside tutes during office hours because they aren't allowed to be paid to do two things at the same time. which doesn't affect my group at the moment, because our tutor works for monash.

ward round. clerked a patient for the bedside tute. was so happy that she could speak decent english and i could take a history normally! :) i think that actually made my day, haha.

bedside tute. pre-eclampsia and menorrhagia. my poor patient has been having her period since 26 june! D: how torturous.

going for a call tonight also. supposed to be from 5-10 but we're waiting for raihan to break fast and pray first haha. so we're only going at 8 or 8.30. ;p at least i have people to go with. if not i'd just stay in the apartment and rot, ha.

no theatre tomorrow. there are tahbso's and a myomectomy on thursday. but we've both seen tahbso's so we just want to see the myomectomy. but i don't know if i will... cos i want to go home, heh.

the aussie bunch want to go to sg on thursday for dinner and to club. then spend friday in sg too. they say i have to go clubbing with them cos i've never been... i said no. ;p


went back to hospital but didn't find a case. -.- have to do it tomorrow.

searched the literature for articles on vitamin D deficiency in hyperparathyroidism/ hypercalcaemia. one article sounds quite promising (i forgot to put additional limits on the medline search so there were 320+ articles and i only looked through the first 30) but the full text isn't available. :( wonder if he's forgotten about it, heh.

did a couple of nps modules. 18 down, 9 to go!

walked out for dinner. grilled sotong and sambal stingray! yum. there were lots of cats and kittens there too. wanted to catnap one of the kittens. but then i remembered that kittens are really annoying.

it's the mid-autumn festival today but it's so hazy we could barely see the moon. no mooncakes either (but it's fine, i'm not a fan).

shall attempt to wake up earlier and make it to handover tomorrow. hopefully there's an english-speaking gynae patient with an interesting complaint.


it just keeps going on and on.... how long does a person need to rant before someone else gets the point, really?

city harvest at suntec, lunch at amici in holland. they overcooked the lobster. :( horlicks mcflurry at imm. bought supplies for jb. only need to count down 4 days this week. but i need to clerk a case for tuesday's tute, rawr.

so sian to have to back tonighttt. :( really wish i had a car so i could commute every day. :(

bought blueberries! :D blueberries remind me of the state library and all.

"no matter how old the car is, you'll still treat it like it's new when you first get it."


it's "not so nice" but i think it's the only thing that will work. :| though running away is really only the easy way out for someone who lacks self-control.


hello.

woke up at 8ish despite sleeping at 2+. couldn't fall back to sleep. ended up having the whole slice of secret recipe chocolate banana cake for breakfast.

went to town with the sister. went into h&m haha. the queue to pay was crazy. later in the afternoon when we wanted to go in again, there was a queue to go in. zzz. seriously? i'll just wait till hk. not a fan of h&m anyway. couldn't find a single thing to buy the last time i was there in spain.

wanted to try toms at rockstar. but it hadn't opened yet. so we went to have lunch at ippudo! yum. :D back to rockstar. thought the black crochet toms looked weird on my feet (less weird from a distance). and so ex. :| bought a new purse instead. ;p though i will still love my yellow purse because of the double kiapkiaps. ;p

came home. watched some the good wife episodes and did a couple of nps modules. had chicken! :D managed to grab it back from the annoying cat before she completely tore the bag to bits. watched a tiny bit of junior masterchef before my mother went to sleep and turned the tv off.

then there was this huge drama with the bmw breaking down in the middle of the road outside my house. partly my fault that it ended up being stuck right there right then, but not my fault that it broke down.. zzz. anyway, lots of shouting, door-slamming etc. poor tuna was so stunned he didn't even attempt to run out the door when it was opened.

escaped and drove to holland. kevin helped me buy mao shan wang junior scoop. still no butterscotch pecan. :( drove to his place. "dropping off.."

watched potc2, though we weren't really watching. played with the new cat! so cute! from the photos on fb i didn't really think she was that cute cos i thought she was big haha. but she really is cute. and her tail is long and straight like coke's. everyone hisses at her except for lenny. everyone had to have a shower haha. leo looked so skinny.

looked at our old photos and wondered why we used to be so fat (answer: we used to eat all the time in jc. not an exaggeration).

drove home. rong horned me on the way haha. i ignored her at first because i usually ignore people who horn me. ;p but then she drove beside me and we waved haha.

my weekend friends went out today! miss them.
"we are still having withdrawal sx from u not being arnd, & today tae excitedly brought us to the window of a macaroon shop & charmie & i just looked at each other, looked at tae, then lol-ed! we were saying the shop selling macaroons fawn wld have rejected, hahahaha!!"
awww. ;p


i'm tired of people not answering. not true friends.

had daily scoop when my mother went to pick my sister up. was disappointed that there was no butterscotch pecan. :( had macadamia, which was alright. but i wanted butterscotch pecan. :(

i really like the new car. ;p cos it's small and easy to drive and park haha. saw another 2 today, which i think is a rarity. hardly see them around.

making macarons (again). the italian version.. but the shells turned out crunchy. and they taste like marshmallow. quite like the bailey's and coffee buttercream though. but i haven't tried it as a sandwich. think i'll wait till tomorrow. even the feet look a bit marshmallowey haha.

so tired! have one more batch in the oven now. shall not make 100 for my mother. -.-

do i really want to know.... no. i wonder how these things come up in casual conversations.

should refrain from toxic things. but toxic things are so alluring.

skyped with daniel who said hi to my sister haha. but everyone has gone to sleep and abandoned me. :( except coke, but she's annoying. and he went along with wealthy old man clothes.

wonder if i'll be able to wake up to go to town with my sister heh. but i do want to go look at toms. but so lazy to go town also zzz. haven't even showered. :(

and i left my AE-1 on the counter in jb. :( :( :(

i'm starving.

and people are one by one getting jobs in melbourne i'm going to have no friends in sg. :( :( :( so many sad faces this entry.


..and it ended how it always ends.

old songs. :) heaven is in my heart! the core team just came back from india and had lots of testimonies!

also met 2 third years there.. people i met/ sort of met when i was doing surg haha. mitch dropped me off after. he was the third year in clinic who refused to translate for me haha. i'd forgotten his name. and of course david and gary and su peng.

moth and sit are picking me up tomorrow. having lunch at city square (i really don't know why moth likes to have lunch there), then going to phoon huat after. i also need to buy baileys, but i don't know what to do with it after. does it come in small bottles..

kevin has a new cat! want to go and see.

also want to swim this weekend. if all the "plans" fall through i suppose i will (there are really no plans anyway). provided there's sun..

shall be good and go for handover tomorrow..


it's strange to think about it.

okay. didn't go for the handover, tried to sleep in instead. had an interesting dream. went for ward rounds. no specialists/ consultants today, just the reg and mo and housemen. i got there at 9.30 and the round was done by 10. ;p vin tried to ask for signatures but the reg was like "it's only 10am!" so we hung around to see some scans and VEs. then he signed our sheets at about 10.30. ;p

he was really good though. a lot of teaching, and it was funny too. :) not like the current gynae consultant, who's so serious all the time and never teaches (and always speaks in malay).

went to the library and did my genetics module. :) yeay. tried to do part of the international health one too, but the cd didn't work. i don't want to do it, the malaysians don't have to do it. -.- HIV in africa.. i don't think it's really that relevant to sg anyway.

so i have half the derm module, half the nps module, and the teaching module left (and the international health essay).

been having bad throbbing headaches a few times a day the last few days. i hope it's just dehydration.

don't know if i should go. i mean, i should go. but i don't know if i really want to. so lazy also. :\ just want to sleep.


it's strange to think about it. but i didn't even take the time to imagine.. i know why i don't - it brings up uncertainties and hints of possibilities that are quite pointless, really. and i really didn't need to know that. :|

okay. didn't go for the handover, tried to sleep in instead. had an interesting dream. went for ward rounds. no specialists/ consultants today, just the reg and mo and housemen. i got there at 9.30 and the round was done by 10. ;p vin tried to ask for signatures but the reg was like "it's only 10am!" so we hung around to see some scans and VEs. then he signed our sheets at about 10.30. ;p

he was really good though. a lot of teaching, and it was funny too. :) not like the current gynae consultant, who's so serious all the time and never teaches (and always speaks in malay).

went to the library and did my genetics module. :) yeay. tried to do part of the international health one too, but the cd didn't work. i don't want to do it, the malaysians don't have to do it. -.- HIV in africa.. i don't think it's really that relevant to sg anyway.

so i have half the derm module, half the nps module, and the teaching module left (and the international health essay).

don't know if i should go. i mean, i should go. but i don't know if i really want to. so lazy also. :\ just want to sleep.


going to try a new macaron recipe on friday. :) i've got it backkk yeay. :) i decided before that i needed to improve my macarons with each batch. but being in singapore killed my passion for baking. but i am getting it back! whee.

met david lan on the way back! :)

dinner at ong shun. lots of spicy food. curry chicken, nyonya fish, sambal kang kong, and yam nest. i actually ate some veg too. :O

came back to the apartment and decided to have some durian. but it was frozen (in the shell) because we decided it was a better idea to put it in the freezer so it wouldn't stink everyone else's fridge food up. turns out tim had strawberry ice cream in the freezer. it's now durian-infused.

ended up microwaving the durian to try and defrost it. eventually managed to get the meat out using a small knife and a spoon. the durian was still frozen despite being in the microwave for so long haha.

just realised that i'm supposed to be on call tomorrow. -.- might go for like 2 hours and get a signature.

can't wait to drive the new car. :D


hump day. my work day is over.. two more to go. two bedside tutes over for the week. no theatre (but i'm meant to go next week).

abdomen feeling unhappy. :| and my brain has been throbbing. but i know that if i go home i'll just end up doing nothing or sleeping. so i'm in the clinical school.

jas intro-ed me to a blogger who makes macarons haha. want to try this! :D but sit and moth finished the 10 egg whites so i asked sit to help me age 3 more.

was stopped by another 5th year in the stairwell and i didn't know who she was at all, so embarrassing. :| doing gynae with her next week haha.

bedside tute with the 4th years today. and one third year doing an elective. was reminded of how to read a CTG, which was good. i had completely forgotten haha. all these foreign things.

think it's going to rain and i'm going to be stuck here for a while..





longest day of the week! well. i suppose i should do some on calls, then it wouldn't be.

handover was less boring today because the boss was there so there was some teaching, yay. didn't fall asleep. maybe also because the specialist was sitting next to me, ha.

ward round with tak yee and li lian. only did half the ward so it went by quickly though it started late.

went home, had lunch, watched the usual lunch time tv, had a nap, studied a bit of PPROM and cervical cancer. went back to the ward for our first bedside tute. PPROM and incomplete miscarriage. good revision.. though i'm tired of learning different guidelines for different countries/ hospitals. if i'm going to work in sg, i only want to remember sg guidelines.. don't waste my brain space.

she wants us to go for the 4th year bedside tute tomorrow and be "silent observers." but it's at 12.30 so it won't finish too late.

went to the pasar malam tonight and ate a ton of food. bought bee hoon home but i only ate like 1/6 of it. the rest shall be tomorrow's lunch. we got lots of random fruits like durian (!!), apples, rambutans, pulasan (which looks and tastes kind of like a rambutan), and some fruit that looks kind of like a longan but tastes like mangosteen.

had durian out on the balcony. ;p the aussies couldn't take it haha. except steph. yum. but we couldn't finish haha it was so huge. put it in the freezer so it won't stink up the rest of the food.

was told to introduce myself to the boss so i have to go for handover. :( was seriously considering sleeping in. :(


i am impressed. :)

admin stuff rawr. credit card bill, loan repayments, phone bill..

don't know why the melbourne internet isn't working. my first thought was: oh no did i forget to pay the bill or something? but i checked, and no. so i don't know what's wrong..

james and bernard might be staying at my apartment next year haha. that would mean we get to keep the wall.. ;p

really would like to have the car to drive to work every day. since i finish before 12 every day except tuesdays (bedside tute). rawr!

went out for dinner with the flatmates for the first time. met their friend eamonn, who's in 4th year. went to this weird place with like 5 vans selling the same food? so weird. lok lok. and rojak and barbecued tofu and youtiao. went to yasin after.

my friend introduced herself to a houseman:
s: my name is steph.
h: oh, like staph aureus!
s: i'd rather be called golden staph..

she wanted to dabao the coconut.
"hide it under your shirt!"
"then it'll spill out and you can be like, the baby's coming!"
"why would my water break over my abdomen?"
"it's not like in the movies!"
"i'll name it decoconut. or brayyden, with two y's."

minutes later:
"does anyone want some? i'm willing to sacrifice my child."

apparently there's a patient called Strawberry. what sort of a name is that!

news of the week (or day, since it's only monday): they are switching rooms! yeay!

my hopes of getting the car are rising rising rising i think they're just going to be dashed. :( should stop thinking about it.



this has been on the board in my kitchen for more than a year... one thing i dislike about satrdys is that we are forced to drink bali woter. :(


back in jb = sian.

in gynae this week. handover, ward round with the doctor who has circumstantiality. but the consultant came so it was shorter haha. but with 12 people in the round.. can't really hear much anyway.

found out that there are clinics in the afternoon but they're "reserved" for the 4th years. doesn't bother me haha. went home after we got our signatures. watched under one roof, chase, and a bit of triple 9. fell asleep after that. ;p migrated to the room with cool aircon to continue napping..

decided to go to the clinical school to do some work and borrow a book that's better that ten teachers (i'm sure most books are).

can't wait for the weekend zzz.


ahhhh. going back to jb soon, how depressing. :(

went to opi's church this morning with the brother. the sister had gastro? kind of. don't know. not a doctor.

came home, watched the good wife, had lunch. then made macarons in our room haha. with the aircon on. ;p

still not too happy with the results.. but i guess it's better than i expected? more than half of them had uncollapsed feet, and they all came off the baking paper really easily. they're just a bit tall and not very smooth.. but another thing is that they're too crunchy. which i don't understand... :\


my brother and cousin gobbled them up anyway. don't know what's going to happen to the rest in the fridge, ha. bet they will still be there when i get back.. but i don't think they're really up to standard to give to people.. heh. still got lots of egg whites though (i only used like 1/6 of the bottle).

if you all want just go to my house and ask my maid okay. ;p

ended up going to vivo for a while before dinner. my sister was the gps because i had no idea how to drive there, though i've been driven there so many times before... no more petrol zzz. don't like driving the loaf of bread.

didn't buy anything. :( but we went to see the KTM cats! the kittens looked like gremlins. the tuna-coloured cat looked like Scar (from the lion king). the ginger cat in the bottom cage had such a nice coat pattern.

was supposed to pick the parents up at 9.30ish but their flight was delayed by an hour. will pick them up at 10.30ish, then come home, change car, and go back to jb. zzz.

going gynae this week. hope it's slack...


i have no idea what you're talking about.





went over to swim and tan. :) my brother joined me after his tuition haha. he went around the pool in his skate scooter thing with his helium balloon tied to the handle. then he lost it in the carpark and i had to rescue it. think i got a shade darker? :)



steady feet, don't


so hot today. D: