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20110831
country road, take me home
it's getting so bad i decided to start taking action. but my skin is super resistant to anything and everything. so we'll see. i wish my body would be more sensitive to drugs. that i would get away with less rather than more.
going around singapore feels different this time. (did i write about this already?) i'm still in awe of the changes (i stopped and stared when i saw that the blocked off part beside rong's house is now unblocked). but it just feels like there's so much time, there's no rush. i'm going to be stuck here foreverrrr.
steph was trying to convince me to move back to melb after a year haha. she says it's worth it, since i've converted (i really didn't want to stay in melb after my first year there).
melbourne's the most liveable city in the world. i haven't been to many cities but i do like living in melb. ;p except for the weather. part of me wishes i was there with them. my weekend people. sigh.
eeks. shall not blog about more emo things.
woke up at 6ish to go to acjc to help prepare for tomorrow's teacher's day lunch hosted by the parents. why the acjc parents so enthu ah. we never had anything like that in sa. not that i wanted it haha.
pinned skirting on lots of tables. set up 3-tiered finger food display things. had macs breakfast, fried wantons, and chicken rice for lunch (at imm). bought durian! mao shan wang! :D but my ulcer makes eating it torture. :( :( so sad. tuna came upstairs because he smelt the durian haha. let him lick it off my fingers. ;p coke doesn't like it though.
wonder what my hair would do if i didn't make any attempt to curl it after i wash it. the curls are already disappearing haha. my hair is too straight. but that's alright cos i didn't want actual curls anyway. ;p
did 2.5 more nps modules. 5 down, 22 to go zzz. shall do another one or two before i sleep.
finished the middle last night, started on the good wife today. i prefer the good wife.
11:06 pm
20110828
something mentioned in church today made me stop and wonder.
"sometimes we lose sight of the fact that God is very specific in what He does."
what was the purpose in that? it was very specific.. but i don't know what its purpose was. it just made stop and reconsider...
had opi's minced pork cheese toast for breakfast. ♥ though she said she took a short cut by frying the pork first so it didn't have to be in the toaster so long. still really good though. :) comfort food. :)
church was not cold. for once. :O
had lunch at lao bei jing. not fantastic.. but then i'm not really a fan of that sort of food.
went to the hair salon to damage my hair. :| it's now curly but feels even worse than when i did it the last time, ha. oh well. i hope it grows faster though. it's so short after it's been curled.
my parents went to look at cars! micra (march) vs swift. i prefer the march. ;p of course, since it's the car i wanted in the first place.. ever since i saw it in the mmc staff car park haha. there's an orange one... but it wouldn't be my car. so the problem remains...
found a fish flopping around on the ground when we got home. returned it to the neighbour's pond.
according to rong, the president should:
- not be ugly
- be able to speak well
- have a wife who isn't ugly
i am asking her to help me draw the picture. ;p but i don't know if i will get it yet. rawr. kevin get with meeee. ;p
one week of holiday. wondering if i should be good and go in on friday.. :|
10:14 pm
20110827
fb or twitter... hmm, actually it doesn't really matter, cos the problem lies with me! rawr.
woke up to rain and thunder. missed melbourne. went to vote. then came home to nap before going out again haha.
went to holland to get piping bags, cream, and chocolate. nearly died, it costs like double what it would cost in melb. D: and the cashier was SO SLOW, the express lane might as well have been a normal lane. -.- and she gave me so many 10cent coins! zzz. so used to the speed in melb. and self-checkout counters.
met kevin at phoon huat, then caleb picked us up and we went to House. the food wasn't good leh. quite weird actually.. and ex some more. not going back.
then we dropped sissy off at sim and went to kevin's house. attempted to make macarons but it was terrible. :( sad. got to play with the cats though. :) didn't whack lenny, but i tried to whack tuna haha. he didn't like it. neither did caleb's cat. ;p i think lenny is bigger than tuna lor. so huge.
went to holland to buy chicken. but it was sold out! ended up dropping by kap to get haha. they didn't have the honey glazed also.. had to settle for black pepper.
birds nest soup. :)
watching The Middle, which i just got from kevin. the mother looks like... zzz.
i think what's going to happen is that i'll become immune and then it'll catch me off guard. :|
11:57 pm
20110826
being in singapore makes me nervous. i still feel my heart sinking every so often. nearly there, but not quite.
skipped handover this morning but went for ward rounds. finished, went for wanton mee with khe cia, dar ray, daniel, and hui sze. :) then went home to finish packing/ read/ watch tv. ;p
mother picked me up, dropped by btp on the way back to pick my photos up. :) went home to get clothes, then went to the green market to alter them. dabaoed laksa. :) yum.
monash emailed me saying my travel grant has been approved. but they've already given me $1750 this year. thought they were only going to give me $750 for the jb/hk stint since i'm not going back to melb in between.. but maybe they forgot. ;p if they do give me the extra $750, it means a total of $8500. means about 17+% of my school fees leh. ;p hahaha.
did we win again? ;p hahaha.
had dinner with the family and watched old junior masterchef with my brother and mother.
my wrist is just getting worse but my father doesn't want to give me a steroid injection. :( :( :( whyyyy. he says nsaids might take a while to work. but i've been taking them for 5 days! second line treatment is a steroid injection.. :( i actually woke up in pain last night. not a good sign.
kevin doesn't want to age eggs for me. :( how to go around singapore with egg whites aiyoh. going down to measure ingredients now. hope i manage to find everything!
11:59 pm
20110825
who do you think you are
running round leaving scars
collecting your jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you're gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
who do you think you are
went for handover, then joined the consultant's ward round cos we thought it would be quicker than the other group we usually joined. but it turned out that she didn't have clinic today so she had more time so it took about the same amount of time anyway.
we were so surprised cos she was actually quite nice to us today haha. smiling and everything. and she taught quite a lot too. :) it was surprising cos she completely ignored us on monday. :|
went out for breakfast with daniel and khe cia. eggs and toast. :) they keep making fun of me cos i don't drink coffee or tea. "how can you live in melbourne and not drink coffee?!" ha. then we went back to the clinical school to meet more people. waited for the people who were having their safety modules (practical sim). then went for lunch. ;p but i didn't eat lah. just had more ice milo haha.
khe cia: here can park not, got double yellow line
daniel: can, got double protection
hahaha. he's going to hong kong also! yay got friend. ;p he's going 4 weeks earlier but he's staying for 8 weeks so there'll still be like 8 weeks of overlap. doing O&G also. and a bunch of the others are also going there to visit! but they'll be there around the same time as my parents i think.
ended up going to visit khe cia's and tak yee's place. penthouse leh. so big! stayed and talked about random things like psych.. then came back at 4+. so paiseh that they always send me back. :\ can just walk what, not that far. was scolded for cabbing on my own also.. haha. remember the days when i used to walk to the bus loop and back on my own at night. melbourne also quite dangerous lor. apparently.
oh yes, our bedside tute was postponed to tomorrow. was supposed to be today, but she confused us with the 4th years and doubled booked. zzz. but we were happy of course. ;p
came home and napped for 3 hours! :O should really study but i just want to sleep some more.
and amazingly, i managed to download pll here! hahaha. i hope i don't exceed my limit. going home tomorrow. ;p
everyoneeee is free for brunch on sat? :D how rare is that? haha. i hope everyone stays free!
11:45 pm
20110824
blogging from home! ;p haha.
handover and ward round this morning.. so boring. T.T kept trying to not fall asleep. sigh still haven't read up on placenta praevia and whatever. hope he doesn't ask the same things tomorrow. must find a way to stay awake during the handovers zzz.
went to the clinical school for a while. didn't know how to log in on the computer cos i've been using my mba. so i gave up and went home. had lunch and watched some under one roof and cid (i know right, so olddd), then decided to go home. ;p
took like 15 mins to get a cab? where are all the cabs when you need one! maybe it's cos everyone's fasting..? i don't know. finally managed to get one. $5.70 to get to the checkpoint. the trip on 170 was only $0.91? but then it only stopped at kranji lah. bought a buttered waffle and took another 170 home. quite fast leh.
did 2.5 of the 27 nps modules. so annoying when it doesn't click through. the last one i did, it just erased the entire prescription! and there were like 5 drugs on it! might have been overkill haha, but i did all 5 lor zzz. so i gave up and closed it. which is why i've only done 2.5.
spent most of the day with... the cats. ;p got my photos, the first roll anyway. my mother just dropped my second roll off today. will collect it on fri/sat. :) had b&j's strawberry cheesecake ice cream, and coke licked the bowl clean. watched the glee project. had dinner with my grandmother. showered so i won't have to shower when i go back to jb haha. am already in my pajamas. ;p or well, my sister's tshirt. and fbts i think are mine.
my wrist has been exceptionally painful today. :( why is it getting worse though i'm taking diclofenac now! :( :( think i should just have a steroid injection to save me from this agony.
my parents are going to drive me to jb so i don't have to take the bus (and cab). ;p going to grab some julie peanut butter biscuits before i go. :) yeay.
going to go for lg tomorrow haha. david won't be there though. and i haven't seen gary though he's also doing O&G.
am thankful for my iphone. :) (which i still call mine, though it's really my father's)
hope i don't wake up at 4am again like i have been doing every morning!
11:15 pm
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart
(I carry it in my heart)
E E Cummings
1:21 am
went "on call" from about 4 till 6.30. within that 2.5 hours there were 5 deliveries - 4 NVDs and 1 vacuum (where the baby was unresponsive and needed resus! but i didn't see it). khe cia and i caught one each. probably could have done 2 each but:
1. the nurses/ midwives don't tell anyone when the babies are going to be born
2. the women don't scream so the first thing you hear is the baby crying
3. they go from os 5cm dilated to delivery in like the shortest time ever
and i only half-caught the baby haha. but it's the first baby i ever half-caught! ;p though the experience was really much less fulfilling than even observing it in melbourne because there i had to wait with the woman, feeling and timing her contractions, talking with her about the baby and baby names etc. and i always say i don't like talking to people, ha.
went out for dinner again. apparently they never cook haha. and why would you, when you lived in malaysia...
am really not looking forward to 8am handovers every morning. all the mumbling and absolutely zero educational value. -.- but hopefully there's nothing on in the afternoon so i can go camp in the clinical school and do my nps module. ;p can i use myself for my derm module? haha. i've done everything except for the case.
had some spare time today so i could finally get my iphone working again. :) also managed to resync it so it's essentially clicky again. though there are lots of stuff in there i'm not sure i want to look at. zzz. that's why i restored it in the first place... but the good thing about having a working iphone now is that i can use the internet tethering function so i can use the internet in the condo! and also that i can just use it as a phone for my (borrowed) msia sim haha.
asked my sister to help me record junior masterchef. :D since i can't watch it on the masterchef website outside of australia. :(
wonder who got the warnambool spot.
oh and here there's a girl who reminds me of sheryl wong, a guy who looks kind of like damien and my uncle, a girl who looks like dorcas, a girl who looks like peiyu's sister, and a doctor who reminds me of joel yong. ;p
that kind of makes me nervous... which is something that hasn't happened in a while... hmm.
12:00 am
20110823
one thousand and one
handover this morning:
mumble mumble IE mumble mumble malay words mumble IOL...
could not hear what they were saying. the consultant speaks without opening her mouth and her facial expression is always blank. the guys just kept mumbling. zzz.
ward round. hopped around for a while, then eventually joined this indian guy who seems to be pretty good. there was this domestic violence case, she had cuts all over her arms/ legs/ back, and bruises on her face and abdomen. and she's pregnant. the specialist was like: "make a police report, they'll arrest him! this is against human rights..."
got our signatures and went to the clinical school. went out for lunch. :) then kg dropped me off at home. it was raining like mad. watched some tv. ;p channel 5 and 8 haha.
we were supposed to have a bedside tute at 2.30 but the tutor wanted to postpone it to 8pm. then she agreed to have it at 3pm but in the end she said she was "stucked" in a bad jam. and according to everyone, her tutes are just english lessons. -.- so anyway it was postponed to thursday.
going to go "on call" now for a couple of hours (or maybe just one) haha. supposed to be 5-10pm but we want to go out for dinner. ;p
5:43 pm
20110822
facebook makes me sad. :( but i figured out a way to avoid such things.. so it should stop making me sad. yeay.
yesterday
tuna came to find me in the morning. purred and dripped his nose juice on my bed.
went to ikea to get a new wardrobe! much needed if i am to stay in singapore for a long time. bought the cheapest one. probably have to share a bit of it with my sister. but at least my clothes will have a home where they'll be protected from my angsty cat.
had lunch at jack's place, super fail. my food came long after everyone else's food and the serving dish wasn't even hot (it was baked rice). and the lobster was overcooked. they probably just microwaved it. -.- never eating there again.
i think masterchef has made me a lot more picky about food, ha.
slacked at home in my air-conditioned room. unpacked and packed for JB. played with cats.
saw the mediacorp van pull up outside my house. went upstairs cos it was too hot. ;p went downstairs a couple of times and heard bits and pieces of the filming.. found out later that the show is called Point of Entry. my sister says it's the kind of show that no one watches, like Crimewatch. point is, it would be cool to see my living room on tv. ;p the other point is, they only paid us $200 for it! tsk.
went to JB, worried about my non-existent right index fingerprint, collected the keys, dropped my stuff off at the apartment, had dinner at some coffee shop, went to giant to buy stuff, went back to the apartment. met tim and steph. :)
the apartment is a lot better than the one i stayed in before. a lot cleaner, both showers have hot water, the flush works, the aircon works (at least, mine does). yeay. :)
today
orientation, got our timetables, said hi to old friends. :) i'm doing antenatal/ gynae/ labour. and a few labour on calls, starting with tomorrow. don't want to do weekends though. :|
next week tues-thurs are public holidays. mon is a public holiday in sg. the muslims get the whole week off (but they have to make the 2 days up). my new friends doing O&G with me now are planning to take the whole week off too. they are all super slack haha. nice. ;p oh and my supervisor is away the first 2 weeks. ;p
did a neonatal resus workshop in the morning. went out for lunch near pelangi with them. no one was going back to the wards except 2 people haha. some wanted to watch a movie, some wanted to have coffee. wasted a lot of time, it reminded me of us in jc haha. walk 10m and stop for 10 mins. ;p
went back to the apartment to get my mba, and will hopefully get this phone thing sorted out. iphone software update will take 3 hours omg. think i can just camp in the clinical school for the rest of the day. since i have no internet at home anyway. -.- until i get my iphone working again. hope my mba battery lasts. glad that there's wifi in the clinical school though. :) and that someone saw me walking here and gave me a lift up. ;p they are all so nice!
seems like everything happens too late for our batch.
shall attempt to start on a module now. so sleepy though zzz. please don't rain!
oh and they're having a burger party later. ;p
4:40 pm
20110821
so tired. T.T am used to sleeping by 11.30 and waking up at 6.30 haha. this is another 2am night. :|
woke up at 7.45am this morning, as i have been doing even on days when i didn't (have to) go to hospital. i hope my body clock doesn't function tomorrow morning because i don't want to wake up at like 5.45am sg time.
no church tomorrow. family drama. zzz. i hate coming back to things like this, seriously.
tuna sat on the table shelf wagging his tail at me and i started sneezing. :( he very obviously does not like coco being around haha. coco seems jittery. tuna seems on edge because of her.
yuwan helped me with my luggage and sent me off. ;p slept on the way to the airport. flight was delayed by about an hour i think. watched 4 movies: Kung Fu Panda 2, Soul Surfer, In Her Shoes, and Tangled. cried my eyes out the first 3 movies haha, especially soul surfer. decided to watch tangled at the end just cos i didn't want to cry anymore!
was nice that there was an empty seat between me and the next girl, so we could both put our feet up haha. disliked that the air stewardess gave me an immigration form to fill in. slept a bit towards the end of the flight (that was the time i usually sleep in melb) but then the baby started screaming non-stop.
no singaporeans at the immigration counters, yessss. happily went through but still had to wait a while for luggage. sian to have to go to jb tomorrow night. so tired. :( at least orientation's at 8.30.
thank you for coming! :) ♥♥♥ forgot to give you all macarons!
onion rings. and my sister showed me photos of her tonsilitis haha so gross. textbook photos! she agrees that the macarons don't taste like yam. i want a food processor.
mr fong is attacheddddd omg. ;p
2:13 am
20110820
last dayyy.
1. ward round
2. PIA
3. ECG tute
4. case presentation
the PIA was as expected. i was asked questions in the ECG tute (everyone was), and i was surprised that i could actually give an answer haha. the case presentation went well. just that i have to find out what happens to this patient.. when i get back for back to base. cool that he thought the patient was really interesting too, and he said i present very well haha. ;p compliments from the headmaster.
last lg! massive panic. everyone quietly studying their bibles but in panic. ;p haha! dinner, worship, revision, manthano quiz, skit rehearsal + feedback. the poor new people were so bored. :| purple macarons gone! everyone thought they were yam-flavoured. just cos they're purple?
said my goodbyes. also dropped by hal to return library books and said bye to tingting there! :) need to make a list of places to go before i disappear forever. :(
came home and packed. nearly done. shall attempt to wake up at 8.30am, which will give me about 3 hours to do random things like pump petrol, mail something, finish my milk ;p, finish packing.
why is it that the weather is crap right before i leave and it's bright and sunny all weekend and even monday? :(
but anyway. i think that's interesting. i just keep deleting them, but it is interesting.
found my keys and t&co. :) :) knew i stashed it away someplace safe. just forgot where it was haha (it was in the round box i decorated at chaddy!). :)
too tired. will sleep in the shuttle bus tomorrow. :)
3:47 am
zepeng's joke:
which people in the bible had meningitis?
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the pharisees. because they had stiff necks. ;p
haha i thought it was funny. ;p medical jokes.
1:07 am
20110818
i will find you when i fall apart
tae came over because he got locked out. and he ate 4 i think. haha. i've only tried one shell, and shells all taste the same.
am bringing 12 macarons home. ;p a few are tiny though. but yes. 12. ;p they should still be okay by sat/sun i hope?
ecg tute tomorrow, with a tutor who knows all of our names. :( please don't ask me anything, i still don't know how to read an ecg. :( fail.
ward round, pia, ecg tute, case presentation, lg and manthano quiz, finish packing, fly! ahhh so rushed.
i want to make a bomb alaska haha. i wish i had access to a kitchen like the masterchef kitchen. with things like blast chillers and tins and serving dishes in all shapes and sizes.
finally brushed all the dust off my diana. :) looking forward to using it again! :) though i need to find my normal lens haha. still have 2 rolls of 120 film but i wouldn't know where to buy more. don't know if the btp shop develops 120 film either hmm.
someone's in the bathroom so.. packing round #2.
it's already 9. D: my day has disappeared. two to go!
11:18 pm
so far today i have:
+ done my (second) last module
+ done my laundry
+ watched pretty little liars and 1 old masterchef episode
+ gone to box hill to collect my pia form
+ attempted to arrange a time for my pia tomorrow
+ had a yummy indo lunch, which i am going to miss
+ washed mousey's cage
+ attempted to make purple sugar
+ started packing some of my clothes, shoes, cameras, film, and books
yeay. tired already. ;p going to put mousey back in her cage now. :)
6:08 pm
typing up my last (well, second last) module. i don't know what abbreviations my supervisor knows and doesn't know so i have to keep deleting my abbreviations i auto-typed and typing the full term out eg. acute myocardial infarction. zzz. and i also don't know a lot of things about this patient so i am making them up haha.
the GP wrote:
"I think he may have some creps in the R lung base as well."
can you really write "i think..."? cos if that's acceptable i think i would write that all the time haha.
sometimes i think it's more of an obligation than anything else.
christina just emailed us the roster. she is still alive! :)
1:05 am
20110817
yay half day today. ;p
went to uni but the thing was cancelled. -.- postponed to fri afternoon. walked back home and drove to box hill, procrastinating along the way.
went for the clinic. tried hard not to fall asleep. i think one of the patients smiled at me in an almost laughing way because she saw me dozing off haha.
wednesdays have always been annoying because of the millions of 3rd years who hog the common room. :|
went back to the ward and found my reg there. she said she wouldn't be doing work for the next 2 hours cos she needed to make calls to hospitals (jobs are out on friday). so i decided to come home haha. and i asked if she minded if i took tomorrow off as well and she said of course not. ;p so yeay! though i still need to go to box hill to collect my PIA.
my supervisor said i have to call his rooms to make an appointment to do my PIA. -.- like a patient lor. he is the weirdest supervisor i have ever had.
made macarons but they were quite unsuccessful. my last few batches have all been crappy, i think i don't want to make them anymore! :(
want to sleeeeep.
7:46 pm
there she goes
there she goes again
racing through my brain
and i just can't contain
this feeling that remains
i feel like i'm waking up with barely enough energy to last each day. like it's 10+ and i'm tired enough to sleep right now.
ward round, some dividing and conquering. saw a patient with a K of 1.6. :O and only a short while before it was 4.4 hmm.
endo investigations tute was really boring. good thing he didn't ask questions though, weide was prepared to sabo me by announcing that i was doing endo. -.- furiously copied notes to stay awake.
went across to the gardens to take photos with shalini and yeusheng. :) the sun was almost gone by then though. tried using my self-timer and it worked! haha. first time. :)
core team meeting at wellington. quite possibly the last time i'll ever step foot in that house. D: yummy mango pudding. hope mangmang makes it for friday. :D
yay finished prepping for my informal case presentation tomorrow. hope he doesn't ask me too many questions. :| the upside to this is.. i get to wake up at 8am tomorrow! :D that's an extra 1.5 hours of sleep! bliss. :) though i'm sleeping a bit later tonight haha.
2:05 am
20110816
my supervisor doesn't understand why colorectal carcinoma can cause PR bleeding. he doesn't understand NKDA or abdo SNT. i don't think he understands what 1/7 means.
cannot find my soft copy of module 11 = have to type it all out again omg. plus the patient has been discharged and i cannot remember some details he wanted added in so i am making them up. -.-
think i'm going to ask my reg if i can take thurs off. then just spend the day packing and doing other random things like laundry and cleaning the mousey's cage. and baking maybe? ;p
i seriously wonder if this person just leaves all her lights on 24/7.
was telling eugene about endo and the nice reg and cynical resident and weird consultants. he's going to be doing that rotation next haha. then after that it's iris i think.
SO TIRED. i foresee my working life being: work, sleep, work, sleep. i can understand how there would be no time or energy to eat. :(
1:58 am
20110815
it's been going on for days.
was so relieved. much more relieved than i thought i would be haha. though every day i didn't receive the email made me a bit more worried. yes, i know my interview was on thursday and they were flying on friday and then it was the weekend and then it's monday today. ;p left my phone in the locker so i was thinking about it all morning haha. it's just been going on forever, this job application thing. so glad that it's finally over.
written in one of our patients' notes:
Replace K+ +++++.
yes, seriously with 5 +'s behind the potassium haha. my resident went: that's funny, i like that.
we had like 18 patients today. :( compared with the 4 we had on my first day? haha. though only 2 were ours and 1 was discharged this afternoon. our strategy: divide and conquer. the reg went off seeing half the patients, and the resident and i went to see the other half.
my supervisor is so annoying. he wants me to redo my modules because i used abbreviations like Cx and RF and didn't put the units for the investigations. -.- seriously?! who cares about the units? and who on earth thinks Cx means cervix?! you have got to be kidding me. waste my time and paper and ink rawr. :(
going to do my pia on friday also. wanted to do it on weds then i can slack already. I NEED A BREAK.
have decided not to go for the grand round again tomorrow. need to sleep more.
9:32 pm
see the market place in old algiers
send me photographs and souvenirs
just remember when your dream appears
you belong to me
sundayyy is over. :( back to the grind. five more days... feels like forever and an instant at the same time. if that makes sense.
service in caulfield. together... but not together, cos i won't be here next year haha. lunch at la porchetta, rather tasteless food.. and we immediately rejected the olive pizza haha. no one likes olives.
went home, did a module.. well, kind of. don't know how to do = print out some guidelines etc to make it seem like there are at least a few pieces of paper. sigh. i just can't wait to get my pia over and done with. hopefully i can get it done on weds, then i can escape after the tute on friday.
cut out 2 alphabets for the birthday 'cards' haha. bought citronella candles. ;p went to zhilin's place for her birthday 'surprise'. said nice things about her and zepeng. ;p only for today. ;p
random things i need to do before i fly:
+ laundry
+ clean mousey's cage
+ pack my bag
+ throw away unwanted things
forgetting to bring my lip balm out for just one day means i have to live with the consequences for a few days after. :( irritant contact dermatitis of my lips, rawr!
suddenly paranoid about something. :3 i hope not.
1:02 am
20110814
such a busy saturday! i was out from 9.40am till 11.50pm. :O but it was nice. :) just that i don't have time to do any work today haha. oops.
had brunch at Three Bags Full in abbotsford. really liked the decor, but i thought it was too noisy and i didn't like sharing tables (like that place in the mandarin gallery). shared the eggs parmesan (parmesan and poached eggs on proscuitto and toast) and twice cooked french toast with kaiwen, and perryn had the big breakfast. kaiwen says you can get $1 durians in geylang?
had a bit of time between brunch and tea, so we went to ikea. :) i love going to ikea. i especially love looking at the display kitchens and kitchen and baking stuff. ;p and imagining what my kitchen will be like in the future haha.
parked Skype near some cathedral and walked to the city to meet nike. :) had tea and cakes at Hopetoun Tea Rooms in the block arcade. thought it was alright lah.. maybe cos i'm not really a big fan of cakes and sweet things.. i just really like making them. ;p i was quite surprised by their macarons though.. or rather, by the appearance of their macarons, since we didn't actually try them. they had pointy bits! how can you sell macarons with pointy bits in a place where a slice of cake costs $9.50? really? pointy macarons?
anyway. was nice catching up with her and complaining about how uni has been a torture for us. and how people don't understand.. and how people tell us that it'll be different when we start work.. but we're already doing what we'd be doing when we work.. etc. :) and she was telling me about all her exciting travels haha. the "wah lao wah lao" girl. ;p i want to watch the lion king! :3
dropped her and edward off at caulfield, then rushed home and was immediately picked up by wanjie! dropped by glen to buy bread and milk, then went to weide's house for dinner. :) curry chicken! :) had interesting conversations about pots and people.
weighing the pros and cons.. i suppose i shouldn't. but i want to get advice from the person i know knows something about this sort of thing, and whose opinion i (surprisingly?) trust. sigh.
i somehow manage to work it into many conversations i have with people.
this time next week, i'll probably be at changi airport. :) strangely, i'm already starting to feel that anticipation... the anxiety i get whenever i'm about to go home.
i still want to watch the lion king! hmm.
and it's already the 14th here, so happy birthday rong! :) ♥
2:13 am
20110813
be careful, be careful
i really like the paper butterfly frames in 1east haha. i keep admiring it whenever we go there to see patients.
why am i so tired? :\
please let us find lots at three bags full tomorrow!
2:28 am
oh dear what have i done! haha. never mind, it will be a once-off thing.
practical sim 3 this morning. scenarios and osces. was worried about the osces but they weren't too bad.. except that during the bible conference i suddenly realised that i wrote adrenaline IV instead of IM ahhhhh whyyy i knew it was IM. :( :( i might have killed my patient. :(
so excited to tell people about my interview without clinical questions haha. ;p
have eaten the salted caramel, pomegranate, lemon curd, and strawberry macarons from la belle miette. i actually don't like all of them except for the pomegranate one. only have the raspberry one left.. we'll see.
tried making the donna hay ones today and they turned out terrible-looking haha. the egg mix was really weird and i probably really overbeat it. :\ but the texture of the shell was better than mine though. hmm. shall try to make my next (and quite possibly last) batch purple for ivy. ;p
went for the first day of our last bible conference at caulfield. drove round and round trying to find parking. why are there so many cars in caulfield on a friday night?
k.309 was where i spent a couple of afternoons when i skipped my own afternoon tutes in 3rd year haha. obviously i had no idea what the AFA lecturer was talking about, but i just did pretest EMQs and poked ian to wake him up. ;p my memories of the place are more fun than his.
when heaven invades earth.
also suddenly felt really sad during the BC.. about leaving melb. :( i've been here for like 6 years! long enough to have been around for the last census! :O 26% of my life! :(
1:10 am
20110811
so nice to be home early! :) though i feel a bit guilty because the girl who had her interview before me (from melb uni) said she was going back to the hospital after her interview haha. oops.
instead, i met daniel and we had lunch at hardware societe. which is actually the tiny cafe we walked past and wanted to eat at but ended up eating somewhere else.. but that's ancient history. seared scallops and pork belly. i keep conjuring up masterchef images in my mind. ;p but it was good!
went to buy macarons from la belle meitte after that. ;p for wanjie, who has never had commercial macarons but thinks my macarons are amazing haha. ;p then we sat where the myer bridge used to be.
i would visit every day. ha, yes i think i would actually... don't know if this is a good or bad thing. hmm. but of course i hope that doesn't happen! :x
bought dondon back for dinner. it really is amazing: i ordered, paid, put the change in my purse and zipped it up, and my food was ready! :O flabbergasted by their speed. faster than fast food!
Skype >>> metro. i will miss my car much when i go home. :( :( :(
forgot to write about the interview haha. they asked about what i want to do (i said family medicine), why i have 'skyjuice' in my email (on hindsight i could have answered the question better haha), why i came here to do foundation ("so you have been very focused from a young age ah."), if i am following in my father's footsteps, what i think would be the difficulties in going back to work, which hospital i want to work at (they said nuh?). no clinical questions! for which i am so so so thankful. i think they may have been rushing for lunch. ;p or just annoyed because of the drilling going on in the next room haha.
i hope they send me to nuh. ;p actually.. i hope they send us to the same hospital! then we can cry together. ;p the unimelb girl said there are more positions than applicants. so.. fingers crossed! heh.
the question that always comes to mind.. what do you want from me? i still don't know.. but oh well. it gets less unpleasant with time.
going to have brunch with perryn and kaiwen on sat, then coffee and cakes with nike in the afternoon. :) :) so nice to finally get to meet up with long lost friends! ♥
6:27 pm
"Do you know what hurts most about a broken heart? Not being able to remember how you felt before."
thinking about it, i only have less than 2 months left in melbourne. need to start appreciating everything more every day!
12:28 am
20110810
we were born and raised
in a summer haze
bound by the surprise
of our glory days
so tempted to hang around in the city tomorrow after the interview. go shopping.. want to go to hardware lane too. ;p but i'm already dreading the train ride. don't know where to park my car also.. though i suppose i could just leave it at box hill? and then go back to hospital later? though i really don't want to.
we should have just delayed going to see that last referral today. the second i finished writing the notes, he was discharged! zzz. some more his blood sugar control was like perfect. apparently there was a complaint made that neuro didn't refer anyone to us (endo), so they were told to start referring. but doesn't mean you anyhow refer anyone who has diabetes what. his HbA1c was like 6!
and the cafeteria was selling ridiculous food today. i nearly got a heart attack just looking at it. fried chicken, bacon, chips... and it's in a hospital! goodness.
my mother is coming a couple of days early to help me pack. it's going to be such a nightmare. :( :( i hate moving house! moving across continents is a thousand times worse. :( need to hunt for boxes hmm.
i don't know what to study laaa. want to sleep nao.
10:49 pm
while the consultant was saying smth to the reg, the resident points census forms on the ICU boards to me haha. it was census day.
heard about interviews, eeks. starting to freak out a bit.... need to study tomorrow! :O
finished another module. did 75% of another one haha. always halfway.
listened to the ndp with the window in the background behind my pages/ keynote/ pdf/ msn windows. ;p it seemed to go by really quickly. probably because i was doing work. pledge moment... continue doing modules haha.
sian got clinic tomorrow. :( on the bright side, it's the second last one! though i really wish i could sit in with the chor lor lady rather than my supervisor. :( she teaches a lot more and she's so much more entertaining.
time to sleep. :) eleven days to go!
2:16 am
20110809
never mind, i'll find someone like you
i wish nothing but the best for you too
don't forget me, i begged
i'll remember, you said
sometimes it lasts in love
but sometimes it hurts instead
someone like you by adele. kept hearing it on the radio yesterday and today. listened to a few covers on youtube but adele is still the most amazing. :) and it's such a nice song to sing too haha.
a rather crazy morning, with each of us off seeing patients on our own. was a bit worried about my patient (he was disorientated to time/person/place, and the ED notes said he was orientated 4 days ago. delirium? wcc not elevated though). but apparently he has bouts of confusion. hepatic encephalopathy..?
was nice to get to stop and talk to people since i wasn't with my team haha. :) seems like a long time since i talked to them.
zx said if i go to the interview and say i want to be a GP/ geriatrician/ pathologist i'll confirm get a job. ;p i actually don't mind doing GP or geri's. but not pathology. even though it would suit me the best (no talking to people) haha.
"everyone's vomited and survived it."
reg to me: you can stay with scott (the resident).
resident to me: or you can just go home.
lung function tute. the lady was so animated haha.
happy national day. :) just thought that i could have made some effort to be patriotic today haha. remember how when we were in taylors we all drew a crescent and five stars on our cheeks. now it's all fizzled out, but i still watch the parade online haha. despite it being full of nonsense performances. hope they haven't tried to jazz up the nice old national day songs.
the most annoying thing about this is not being able to do what i want when i want! :( so tempted to bitch here. but i shall not. but it's so annoying! :(
9:49 pm
this spark is shot to the heart
You are the hope that leads me
out of the dark
we had 7 patients on our list today. 2 were discharged but i think we added another 2 referrals. left after the consultant called to say he wasn't coming.
went to uni and bumped into lots of people! zepeng, ling ling, wai keung, joab, shona, and of course charmaine and mavis, who i was going to meet anyway, and kevin, who's always at john medley. and charmaine met tae at jm also! we totally need to take our grad photos there. :)
had periperi! ;p haha but only one piece.
ancient computers and logarithmic rulers? he's not weird what. okayy, when i put it that way..
walked back to rusden with c and m and we drove to seascape to pick wj up. parked Skype at huntingdale and c drove us to the city. :) parked very far away and walked to her house haha. stayed there with wj quizzing us on random things for our interviews (freaks out and dies). then we walked to sofitel for the mohh info session. met other friends there too.
ho/ residency. i think if i don't end up doing GP (and am still practising as a doctor), i'd end up as a resident physician.. don't need to take exams! heh. the psychiatrist was very nice and warm and homely. she said we don't need to prep for the interview! but it's so scary. what if i can't answer the clinical questions? :| ahh!
and 60-80 hours/week = just kill me now. D:
think i'll sleep in a bit tomorrow and only go at 8.30 instead of 7.30. :x
12:22 am
20110808
went to mang mang's house to watch the masterchef finale! we were both rooting for kate. ;p yay! the snowman was like wow.
judge: michael, i scored your dish.... 9
me: noooooo
but kate got 2x 36/40! quite amazing really.
mangyik: i want some (snowman) too..
me: you can try to make it
mangyik: i need liquid nitrogen
me: go to your GP and borrow some
i still have a tiny scar on my hand where the GP in maryborough put liquid nitrogen on my hand. :( and that was in 2008! it's going to stay there forever.
and we both can't do mental sums anymore. this morning we were trying to calculate petrol + entrance + citylink prices and we needed christina to be our calculator. and we have matching lacerations on our hands haha.
did work while watching masterchef and the renovators. didn't like the renovators. managed to get a bit of work done. :) i am so much more efficient when i'm not at home haha. that's why i used to study in the library..
going to shower, finish up another module, print them both, pack my bag and sleep. :) feels so good to have had ten hours of sleep last night but now i've got to go back to six.
12:16 am
20110807
8- hospital, meeting, sg info session
9- hospital
10- hospital
11- hospital, sg interview
12- practical sim 3, bible conference
13- brunch, ?dinner
14- bible conference
15- hospital
16- hospital, core team meeting
17- hospital
18- hospital
19- hospital, lifegroup
20- sg
21- jb
7:33 pm
i feel like there's no time left. only 13 days and so much to do in that time.
i wish there would be something definitive. not a lull and a reappearance here and there.
i want to sleep now even though i slept for nearly ten hours last night.
and of course, at the back of mind is the thought that it's monday tomorrow. and it's a terribly busy week too. consolation: i get to see some of my friends tomorrow, and i can finally go for brunch on saturday. i've been craving brunch foods. and also mekong's pho. though i don't think i'm going to get to eat that before i go.
"people don't know because you look normal right?"
"what am i supposed to look like? unkempt? stop paying attention to personal hygiene?"
4:35 pm
20110806
day trip to the hanging rock today! woke up at 7.30am thinking: nooo i don't want to go to hospital! then i realised that it was saturday and we were going on a road trip. ;p
FIVE ONION RINGSSS. all the way, seriously. i think it only stopped when the boys were asleep. ;p they were even sticking their hands out of the windows to signal to us when we weren't close enough to see them through the glass. and whatsapping it, and singing it on the phone, and while hiking... think it's going to go on for a long while too. ;p
..and a fire-breathing dragon just for me! ;p
patted a wallaby with a joey in her pouch! :) lots of times haha cos i kept going back. we fed her organic apples too. ;p the joey kept sticking its feet out! haha. was quite surprised that the mother let us pat her.. usually mothers with young babies are quite.. hostile?
had a bbq lunch of sausages, onions, chicken wings, bread, marshmallows, and chips. ;p had to fend off ridiculously bold rosellas that kept swooping down and trying to eat our food. the stuck rock.
went to the memorial cross and sat around, playing indian poker and singing songs like: at the cross i bow my knee, where Your blood was shed for me, there's no greater love than this... it was so cold! shivers. james' camera looked like wall-e sitting on its tripod. so scary when we were taking photos on the rocks!
drove home with james and john sleeping in the back. no more five onion rings! haha. got home at like 5.40pm and felt so super tired. baked muffins for church tomorrow (last weekend to bake for church before i go off!) and showered, and felt less tired. ;p watched the glee project (oh no cameron! D:) and talked to people and am going to sleep soon!
masterchef finale tomorrow oh no! so scary! can i go to someone's house to watch so i don't have to wait for it to be put on the internet? ;p
11:57 pm
hello. glad to have the coke bottle off my head. ;p only 3 people could guess who i was! ;p this is who i was dressing up as. ;p this isn't from the part where she was wearing the red cape but i only managed to get that photo off the video and the quality was terrible.
but my hair was too floppy on top because it was too long/ the coke bottle was too short. ;ptaylor momsen is scary anyway.
practical sim 2 today. was stressful but actually a lot more fun than sim 1 haha. because i had FRIENDS with me. :) yeay. today mostly revolved around using the defibrillator. "stand clear, all clear, i'm clear, shock now!" and then andrew shocked lin haha.
plus bag and mask, CPR, and adrenaline/ amiodarone. cannot hold the bag and mask effectively. my hands are too small!
all my lava-less lava cakes were eaten up! :) yeay.
had terrible LIF pain for most of lg. gradual onset, sharp and stabbing in nature, about 5/10, alleviated by leaning forward, aggravated by standing up. i think. based on my vegetable-less diet, the diagnosis is... diverticulitis! rawr!
but the pain is completely gone now. :) happy because it means i can go tomorrow. ;p don't even mind having to drive haha. i pumped petrol when it was cheap and i have 2 dockets left! i don't even know why i have been spending so much money at coles. :|
after 2 days of lovely spring it's gone back to winter. :( just as well. my reg thinks that lots of new T1DM cases pop up in the spring haha. we've had a couple of DKA patients in the last few weeks. the 97yo lady had gastro and her GP said to stop her insulin unless her BSL was more than 30. what?
hope i won't fall asleep while driving tomorrow!
1:59 am
20110805
just spent a ridiculous amount of time doing something. but i'm quite happy with the result haha. just hope whoever it is will be too. ;p
watched masterchef and pretty little liars while working. kate and michel! i keep having to change who i support haha. i think i'll choose kate now. she seems like a nicer person haha. i don't know!
so tired. D:
practical sim 2 tomorrow, ewww. :( :( :( but oh well, just have to get it over and done with. then osces next week. next week is a really busy week. hmm.
s finally did my referee report. sighs of relief. though i know my chances aren't great haha. oh well.
okay too tired need to sleep now! will be glad when saturday arrives. :)
2:08 am
20110804
here's to fairfield, to fairfield
to every student here
to every happy fairsian
and to every teacher dearrrr
happy 123rd founder's day! :) it's easy to remember which anniversary it is because it's 100 years older than us. ;p
+ i keep forgetting to bring measles out with me.
+ finally sent my hk stuff out. sh ho person is quite unreasonable. :|
+ was a not bad day today, considering i had no friends. site visits!
+ saw a patient who has lost half a finger and five toes. diabetes.
+ walked up and down a million times.
+ 97yo DKA lady in the ED.
+ curious george learnt my name and was eternally grateful to my reg.
+ i hope i documented everything properly. :\
+ zx and his resident went out to buy kfc haha.
+ i think hudson's hot choc is really lousy! still nice to get free hot chocs though. ;p
realised that i've been using soft icing mixture all the while. wonder if using pure icing sugar will make a difference?
i think with our lg everything needs to be planned in advance. at least a week earlier. if it's too last minute how will we find the time to do thingsss. :(
8:25 pm
i think it's rubbish to have to sleep by 12 to be alive for work the next day.
1:40 am
20110803
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still need to get my bank draft for my hk visa. why do banks close so early!
:)
no job still! rawr! but i think i am resigned. shalini got a job! she got 3 offers in fact. and i think david tang also. i hope chai and lynn got jobs. :|
sat in clinic with my supervisor today for the first time. he didn't really teach much. i think i prefer the super chor lor woman. she's a lot more entertaining. and she also sees a lot more patients haha. but my supervisor seems nice. my reg really likes him. and i really like her, so. ;p
one of my supervisor's patients (who sees him only once a year) gave him chocolates. he said he didn't eat chocolate so he gave them to me. ;p dove dark chocolate promises. there are random quotes in the wrappers! so i happily handed them out to people at lunch and eagerly waited to see what theirs said. ;p mine said "happy ending guaranteed." haha! like a fortune cookie.
dread.
decided to just go with the credit card thingy. will mail the things out tomorrow hopefully.
made part of my costume for friday! :) though i think i did a better job on my alice in wonderland apron haha. now i need to find a reference picture so people will actually know who i am. ;p yuwan is going to be a christmas tree HAHA. and zepeng has some brilliant idea which he refuses to tell me about (because i refuse to tell him my idea). and i told chun hoong he could be a shepherd. ;p
decided on the lava cakes anyway! :) hope they'll still be nice not hot. or maybe i shall make everyone eat them first. ;p
11:14 pm
20110802
so tired! and i came back early. :x
reg to resident: you can be the reg and fawn can be the resident.
resident to reg: if she hangs out with me too much i'm going to impart some words of wisdom to her (ie. teach me how to slack off).
reg paged resident: where art thou?
resident: what is she like, stuck in the 16th century?
we go into a (difficult) patient's room to get the drug chart and say hi, we'll go look at his numbers then come back.
resident (once we leave the room): that counts! we've seen him!
my reg says my notes are good haha. ;p though a lot of the time i'm just writing what she says..? hmm.
chocolate lava cakes vs. cupcakes with candy cane icing? hmmm. i'm more inclined to go with chocolate lava cakes but they won't be warm and there won't be ice cream to go with it. :\ unless i bring some. and we have dessert before dinner. ;p
and i also found a costume idea! but i don't know if i have time to go get the stuff and/or am able to pull it off. hmm. but other christmas costumes are so boring. santa claus, elf, rudolf, characters from the nativity, christmas tree? haha.
finally made my appointment. :x next week is going to be a busy week! eeks.
i'm so happy everytime i look at my shiny car. ;p
9:20 pm
dream documentation:
we were in a shopping mall that looked like a dfo with high ceilings and cement floors, probably before or after an event. walked through a shop we'd been through before, with a large fake wooden board wall. then we went upstairs to watch a movie but two people stopped at different cafes.
trying to understand my mind by trying to understand my dreams.
(it's too early to be awake)
8:37 am
20110801
bridges remind me of ireland, where my uncle once pointed out bridges he designed as we drove past.
i forgot to submit my elective application and monash abroad nonsense to mbbsadmin! :x just scanned and emailed everything. hope it's okay..
just have to wait for cedars to reply my email, get the bank draft, and mail my stuff to hku. i hate paperwork. such a pain!
need to be more productive rawr!
my consultant came in at lunch time for a ward round. but we only have 1 sick patient (we have 11 patients, but only 1 is sick sick), and there isn't really anything we can do for him (no one knows what's wrong with him, and he's been in hospital since like april).
reg: do you want to go see him?
consultant: not really, no.
and so, he didn't see any patients at all. -.-
my reg calls the patient george of the jungle. and my resident calls the patient's son curious george. and they are forever complaining about the previous consultant on ward service. in fact, curious george also said that consultant worried him haha.
brought macarons to hospital. :) the nice-looking ones from saturday haha. let shalini, yeusheng, weide and bryden try them. :) yeay got good feedback. :) bryden said his gf tried to make them before but they didn't get feet. but they are such finicky things. :| i have a feeling it'll fail miserably in sg. :|
forgot to show people rong's eye. except my resident, because he was sitting in front of me when i got today's picture. poor hygiene haha.
postnasal drip++. :( :( so uncomfortable. and my mouth becomes so dry. :(
still dislike. hmmm.
don't know what to make (as in food) or wear (as in costume) for friday! plus i have sim 2. :( eww.
10:51 pm