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my brother says i am
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so i never have to worry
what tomorrow will bring
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in dreams and in love
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- jános arany
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20110226
tears fill up my eyes
i'm washed away with sorrow
and somewhere in my mind
i know there's no tomorrow
i see you're leaving soon
i guess you've had your fill
but if i can't change your mind
then no one will
2:59 am
20110225
really dislike the new(ish) fb photo viewer thingy. so ugly and annoying.
anyway. went to balestier (again) to watch Homecoming with the mother and grandparents. nice show. :) had popcorn haha. and found a butter dispenser omg. but i didn't dare to use it haha. though it was so tempting. ;p
we were going to have bak kut teh opposite but there wasn't enough time. so we went to ghim moh to da bao before picking isaac up from school. i haven't figured out which of those little roads leads to ex-home.
went to town after lunch to meet the rongs and mok. :) watched 127 hours, which was gruesome. though we were mostly laughing at rong for making so much noise haha. ;p then diana went back to uni to do her assignment and we went to ji de chi for durian puree! yay. ;p more talking...
bouncy castle!
what's the best thing to do?
a week seemed long at first but now it's already nearly friday. do i need to rethink this... i had it sort of thought out but now i don't know what to say. you make me nervous.
anyway. met cheryl and lois at tiong bahru and nick sent us to forty hands. :) pretty place. would have taken a lot more photos had it been daytime haha. except that i think it's a bit ridiculous to sell a mocha for like $6.50.
talked about random things.. it's nice to meet up with them. :) and after that nick and cheryl sent me home. :) thank you!
going to meet them again for lunch tomorrow haha. hopefully i can get my lab coat. but either way cheryl will get to eat her yong tau foo haha.
don't really want to drive tomorrow night but i suppose driving would make it a lot more convenient..
my eyes keep being so rubby. :(
1:14 am
20110224
dream without fear;
love without limits.
went to watch It's a Great Great World today with my mother. it was quite nice. :) old stuff haha. went to watch at balestier since most places aren't screening it anymore.. must go back there to take photos of the places i once knew. :) and there's also my 36 frames project..
followed her to shengsiong and to pick isaac up from school. and then to collect the samsonite luggage from btp.
dinner at home, then went to find yurong haha. watched Jesus Christ Superstar, which she needed to watch for school. it was.. weird. didn't pay full attention though since we were also talking haha. her iphone has so many apps. talked about things we always talk about.. and some others haha.
kevin reminded me about finishing my scraperfoil haha. i really should. and i wonder how whatsapp works.. weird.
tomorrow promises to be happening! ;p time to sleep.
3:14 am
20110223
so, not much thinking or reading today.. :| instead, went to the library and borrowed the book and did a tiny bit of shopping for things i don't know if i will ever use haha. but it was only a tiny bit. :3
also went to swim with the brother in the afternoon, but then it started raining so we came back. zzz. ate a lot of chocolate-covered sultanas.
the phone is a bit weird...
horror stories about the accomodation in jb. I WANT TO COME HOME EVERY DAY. it is only a half-hour drive (except that google maps won't let me cross the causeway, it insists i go by tuas). but with traffic.. :\ and early morning starts for surg.. :\ sian.
2:56 am
20110221
Now Faith is the art of holding on to things your reason has once accepted in spite of your changing moods.
— C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
okay so today i followed my mother and grandparents to town for my grandfather's chemo session. the nurse could only get the iv cannula in on the 4th try (really not her fault, bad veins). and his Hb is low and the doctor said he might need a blood transfusion. but he opted for the EPO injections for now.
watched some ugly betty, read a bit more of The Lost Symbol, compiled some photos.
must remember to scan and email stuff to the JB coordinator tomorrow. and possibly finally read the delirium workshop/ Allocate+ emails. :|
decided to re-prioritize and read other books instead. for this week at least... though now that i think about it, i think i left one of them in melb.. :( sigh. but anyway i've been reading other things randomly which have been encouraging. :)
10:52 pm
ian got his bb! and we sat on the window sill with our feet on the roof tiles. so tumblrish haha. and we had apple chips and snapple for dinner. not hungry. this happened yesterday.
according to the M1/singtel websites i can get sgd300 for trading my iphone in. i paid aud120 for it. that means i can earn sgd145 for a phone i've used for about 1.5 years.. not to mention how many times i've dropped it on the road. how is that not a good deal? ;p not that i would treat my future new phone much better haha.
people have been commenting about my tan. ;p want to swim again soon! would have gone today if it hadn't been cloudy all day.
one week of thinking. :| supposed to be thinking but i want distractions sigh. so sad. :\
just drew a map of my apartment for my uncle and aunty haha. just to point out where things are like the wireless router, pillowcases, blankets, GPS etc. used to do this kind of drawings as a kid haha. my dream home.. well, house, really.
my mother finally agreed to let me go for a massage if i go for the hour-long one. i really should, this shoulderache has been bugging me for more than 2 years.. :|
thought about drinking milk in melbourne this morning while i had my breakfast. milk, and brunch.
sometimes things that happen only once in a while stand out because they happen so rarely. but other times they're overshadowed by things that happen most of the time.. and their value is diminished.
only realised today what starting school will mean in terms of my social life (or lack-thereof). i think i will want to come home as soon as i can every friday afternoon/ evening..
wonder why that happens.
and why does fb not let you not display certain things on your profile page..
1:53 am
20110220
when i am down and oh my soul so weary
when trouble comes and my heart burdened be
then i am still and wait here in the silence
until you come and sit a while with me
you raise me up so i can stand on mountains
you raise me up to walk on stormy seas
i am strong when i am on your shoulders
you raise me up to more than i can be
there is no life, no life without this hunger
each restless heart beats so imperfectly
when you come and i am filled with wonder
sometimes i think i glimpse eternity
11:25 pm
20110219
it took me 1.5 hours to get to the airport by public transport. though most people live closer to the airport than i do, i really appreciate you sending me off and picking me up nearly every time i fly! :)
in other news:
- didn't meet/ haven't met my scraping deadline
- being in the airport gives me panic attacks
- milo for dinner
- forgot again today grr
- finally got a bubble envelope
- read a lot on the train ;p
- paid my school fees!
oh and monash abroad was going to reduce the grant to $750 for 2011 but they sent another email saying it will still be $1000 for us. :) and they finally sent us an email about starting in JB, which is a relief.
from have a little faith:
He told me a story. A man buried his wife. At the gravesite he stood by the Reb, tears falling down his face.
"I loved her," he whispered.
The Reb nodded.
"I mean... I really loved her."
The man broke down.
"And... I almost told her once."
The Reb looked at me sadly.
"Nothing haunts like the things we don't say."
2:07 am
20110218
eventful day.. hmm actually probably not that eventful? except that my life has been boring so in comparison.. ;p
scraped in the morning. and in the afternoon too. and in the evening as well. did a lot of scraping today. because i have a deadline to meet! :) have to finish scraping by tomorrow night haha.
went for a swim tan after lunch! ;p swam and tanned x3. tried to swim using my arms. it's so tiring. did get darker though. :)
had our family dinner at fei siong. didn't lo hei again, thankfully. food was okay..
went to holland to meet rong and kevin. parked in rong's house. :) sat in coffee bean for a while, then decided to go watch (another) movie haha. drove to town. again! went to cine. we wanted to watch 127 Hours, but i spoilt it. ;p but anyway there weren't seats so we ended up watching What Women Want. it was okay lah.. the fish was weird.
sent rong and kevin home! yay for driving. everyone driving and sending each other home (well, almost everyone ;p) reminds me of living in melbourne. where everyone drives and sends each other home. ;p
though now there's a problem.. i wish it would just solve itself. i'm glad i don't have to be there for it.
i need to pay my school fees and look at Allocate+ sometime soon.. i wish they would just send us emails with excel files. Allocate+ confuses me. :|
5:02 am
20110217
under the radar
anyway. spent the day scraping and watching glee and modern family. also went for a walk which turned out pointless... zzz. well actually i took a bus there then walked back. but it's too hot for casual walks in sg. :(
ian got to come out tonight! well, for a few hours. better than nothing. :) he told me at like 5.30 and i was out of the house before 6 lor. went to pick him up, then he made me drive to town by acting weak and tired because of donating blood, the dodo.
had dinner at Ippudo. got him to remove the pink smiley face bandage in exchange for a neon orange plaster. ;p forgot to say that i'm proud of him for facing his needle phobia! ;p
walked around 111 looking at jams and cheeses and comparing mandarin orange and orange lime plants. then he got his mocha and made me drive back. so i can safely say i drove to town and back, ha. okay, it was an achievement. ;p
sent him back to camp and drove home. hate seeing how the petrol gets depleted when i drive this car. :| got home as my parents' cell group was coming to an end. made small talk with the pastor.. about sultana aminah. :| played with the cat by pretending to lock him out when he was outside on the window ledge haha.
yesterday i saw a person board the bus with bread plastic bags tied around his shoes.
12:56 am
20110216
"cannot think so much. if not will be disappointed one."
i am taking forever to finish this roll of film. zzz.
went to town for lunch with kevin. ended up eating yakitori and popcorn haha. ;p watched Just Go With It, which was alright.. went to 313 coffee bean to scrape and have the usual. the yoghurt machine was working, and they gave a mountain of yoghurt haha.
took 171 home from 313, the journey took a full hour. win already.
finally decided what to get from vs haha. have to drag myself to the post office soon. and then more waiting.
saw timothy liau in the bus today. also saw sam and his gf in 313 yesterday. and bumped into aster in wisma one of those days. and saw jessica yap in the hv coffee bean. and met cheewei in the mrt station.
also finally connected my phone to the mba haha. now my whatsapp is optimized too. ;p
sometimes i wonder why i'm so obsessive-compulsive. not to the point of having ocd but still. and why are these things so off-putting when really there's no reason for them to be at all? ugh.
2:34 am
20110215
I'm finally broken, falling too far
Burned up in pieces from chasing your stars
With twilight approaching, all that I've seen
I could never get over what you've done to me
was supposed to go to the post office this morning but i was too lazy. so i watched modern family and scraped. had white ckt for lunch, didn't really like it.
went for a facial at adelphi with my mother. it was a "spa whitening" treatment. after the thing the lady said my face was whiter.. but it doesn't look whiter to me leh. which is a good thing, btw. my face felt so cold after that haha. weird.
met kevin in town, went to coffee bean at 313 to scrape. then we went back to taka to have modanyaki and yakitori for dinner. :) modanyaki ♥. then we went to holland coffee bean to scrape some more. yoghurt machine spoilt! the forum one also. kevin's world came crashing down. ;p
ian called after reading the card. :) then he said he was going to sleep soon. at like 8.15? though it's only 12.30 now and i'm already tired enough to sleep hmm.
"Hahahahahaha people will notice 1st loh if u start showing signs of scratching urself"
2:34 am
20110214
i think you're mistaken
i'm sorry to say
ian came over this morning and we had breakfast at fei siong, the usual. then we went to his church, my third time there. i'm beginning to miss something.. i think it may be the bass and drums haha.
decided to swim again since it was sunny. for some reason hardly anyone in bukit regency swims on sunday afternoons. he wore an old pair of fmss shorts to swim haha. ;p no time to go home to get stuff. tanned a bit but strangely i got more of a tan on my back though i only tanned the back for 5 minutes? rudolph. rudolf?
the parents finally came home so he could bai nian. then he drove my sister to kap to get stuff from cold storage. then we went to his house so i could bai nian. talked to his mother about spain. gave her the spanish oranges haha, with a warning not to eat them. and then proper edible oranges from my mother. the shirt fits. :) he finally tried the goji chocolate too haha. don't waste my money.
left after about an hour, walked to the mrt station and met kevin and caleb at cine. bought tickets for Black Swan, i still owe kevin a lot of money. :| partly ian's fault from pineapple tart day. need to remember to collect money from him.
the show was so scary! i didn't know it was a scary show! spent most of the time covering my eyes! as did rong and caleb i think haha. though in retrospect i think it was quite brilliant haha. also reminded me of ballet... and the pointe shoes i never got to wear. :( haha. all the things i learnt halfway, sigh.caught the last 174 home. my legs are aching from the swim! how lousy. :( need to find the motivation to swim more often.. oh and i only did 30 leg lifts today. :(
if a person isn't my friend on fb how come she appears on my home page? so weird.
have to agree with my sister on this: other than shoes for work, church, and weddings/ functions, i have no reason to own this many pairs of shoes. in sg i wear my havis practically everywhere. in fact, i'm wearing this pair out particularly quickly - they already have bald patches, and i only got them early dec!
i don't want to waste my time.
3:41 am
20110213
NO JUDGING
lunch at fei siong with the family, then went to town to meet kevin. i happened to be at art friend when he arrived so we bought stuff for a new coffee bean project haha. went to coffee bean. :) and toys'r'us to waste money.
am excited for scraperfoil. because i have nothing else to do haha. purpose in life.
decided to exchange the vs. which i means i will have to return it. i'm so unfamiliar with the singapore postal service, and so much more familiar with auspost haha. and then i will have to wait againnn. sian. though i suppose it doesnt really matter haha.
met the green stripey shirt guy twice today. at the bus stop when i left home, and at the shell bus stop as well. he lives in bukit regency haha. stalk.
drove to fetch my sister from mediacorp haha. okay her friend lives near there. mother drove back though. but it was still nice, driving. :) also partially satisfied my mcwings craving. :D only partially because i think i could have eaten another box haha.
finished what i have of nurse jackie. am sad because i caught up with community, tbbt, himym, glee, and gg, and have to wait a week for each. :( though there's still modern family.
i love my friends. ♥ wish the fairsians would be freer.
2:56 am
20110212
it's going to be a long weekend.
11:50 am
so this has turned out to be a rather atypical friday.
am depressed about three things. having chopped a third of my hair off, my mother always going out at night so i can't drive.. and a third.. thing.
haven't washed the oranges, i keep putting it off.
is it the look in your eyes
or is it this dancing juice
driving is therapeutic. i miss Skype and Skype therapy.
you said no flowers.
4:26 am
20110210
trying to decide between happy and sad. which i suppose is weird, but.. valid? appropriate, but sort of inappropriate?
our knitting days are over... i guess that means a plummet in my malibu dream intake and some savings for my pocket. ;p
we were all seriously fat in jc. D:
only just realised that tomorrow is friday. already? that means there's only 3 weeks left! :(
i know i need to reply some fb messages..
11:40 pm
just cos i love the scrubs so much.helloooo i am tired. :| going to sleep soon. but first-
woke up at 9.30 despite sleeping at 4. :\ watched parks and recreation (didn't really like it), nurse jackie (okay), modern family (not bad), and glee (!). :)
walked to btp to get the rest of my scanned photos. got stuff from popular. decided that it was too hot to walk back so i took a bus. which ended up with me being outside diana's/ edwin's house? but then i found 173 and went home. sigh.
115 photos from the trip. not bad leh, only one photo was too dark to be put on fb. and actually that wasn't even from the trip.. which means 100% success haha. ;p there are a few more in the AE-1 now but i don't think i'll be finishing this roll anytime soon. there are also three spinner shots and a couple of supersampler ones.. i think it'll take me forever to finish the supersampler roll. :\
met kevin, peiyu, and alvin for dinner at Ippudo in the mandarin gallery. ramen! :) then we went to ps for durian puree at 记得吃. peiyu says the one in serangoon is better! kevin says we have to go. ;p
was thankful for a seat on the 171 back.
would be nice if it could be like that, wouldn't it?
wow it's already the 10th again.
2:08 am
20110209
i can't count the reasons i should stay
one by one they all just fade away
so lots of community, tbbt, himym, and glee. tomorrow i will start on parks and recreation.. just because i have nothing to do. -.-
went to collect my photos.. didn't get to delete stuff off my thumbdrive before because we were in a rush. so there wasn't enough space and they didn't just burn the rest of the photos into a cd zzz. so i will probably go back there tomorrow with an empty thumbdrive. depending on when i wake up and the weather.
met kevin for dinner! though he was sick. :( get better soon! don't eat uncooked fish! sigh chicken. now i feel like eating chicken..
the cat keeps walking around me to jump off my bed. weird. and he's a pig, he sleeps all day.
and between everything i really don't know what's happening anymore.. neither do i really feel like making a big deal out of it (although of course in the end i will, as always). ugh.
talked to ian for the first time since i left for spain. on the phone that is. why did i have to come back on a monday... but anyway.
less than 4 weeks to school and counting. :( how depressing.
5:39 am
20110208
updates;
1. skype is alive again! apparently it was just the battery. i think jean marc is driving it around now.
2. my driver's license arrived in the mail while i was away and my grandmother kept it for me so it wouldn't get lost. :) finally bought the ugly triangles because the accompanying letter said that i would be fined $120 if i didn't display it while i drove.
3. monash emails are confusing me. is it okay if i ignore them until it's closer to the start of my semester? :\ and it seems they are cutting the grant to only $750. :(
4. the spain air dried my hair out so now it looks like hay. going to chop it off after cny but i can't decide what to do with it..
5. pinky died. :( now charcoal is all alone!
6. bob grew bigger. and now every time someone goes into the bathroom he jumps down from the rock and starts swimming frantically against the glass.
7. am too lazy to blog about the holiday. shall just post captions along with the photos when i get them (if they are any good at all). kind of worried about the expired film. :\
8. back to doing leg lifts. :) wanted to swim this afternoon but i got lazy when the sky was overcast. now it's sunny again but i'm still lazy haha. maybe tomorrow. ;p
9. forgot 3 days since i left for spain. what's up with that? decided to change the time so i have more of a chance of remembering. wonder though, if anything will happen if i keep forgetting like this. seems not so far..
10. who footnotes their own blog entries?
6:55 pm
20110206
hello. blogging from my aunty's brother's house in chiswick. will be flying back to sg tomorrow morning. basically it's been sg - heathrow - malaga - madrid - gatwick - sg. a lot of driving around and sleeping in the car and just a lot of sleeping in general. oh and shopping. and some sightseeing. didn't get to meet jason either. :\
finally got to check my email at some point in spain and there were 100 unread emails. just checked again and there were 110. i really need to unsubscribe to all that junk.
wonder if it's weird that i'm still bothered by things like that while on holiday. and also for the first time i've been too lazy to blog about what happened on a daily basis. and i haven't been doing leg lifts the entire holiday so now i feel depressed about my pot belly. :(
am dreading the long flight. 7.5 hours to melb is long enough.. 13 hours is just torture. can't wait to be home..
2:05 am