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20101231
so today was nothing like i planned, but it was still pretty good. i think.
woke up at 7.45am, had dinner with father, then went to the green market to alter my dresses and pants. the lady actually managed to do them all by this evening even though she said she was very busy haha. and only $15 leh. :)
so misunderstood.
came home and then went to town with the sister. had lunch at the soup spoon, then went to zara in search of my black top for the family portrait. sale. ;p and voucher haha. yeay. then we went to cine to get ian's toms. then i went home. stomachache. :( felt nauseated on the bus.
felt better after a while. started knitting.. ;p and watching more himym. then ian came and i gave him his toms! :) no need to give him anymore presents next year already. ;p
went to kap to get food from cold storage, then went to vivo to watch rapunzel (finally). :) and we did actually end up having a picnic also haha. and i'll brush and brush and brush and brush my hair..
then he sent me home. it's become such a normal thing..
packed for port dickson. it's only 3 days but there are still so many things to bring. i blame the photoshoot.
it's the last day of the year... already. it's been an interesting year.
class.
3:09 am
20101230
hmmm i think it's actually happening. this is going to be interesting, seeing where this goes.
12:14 pm
nathaniel is so cuteeee omg. :D can't wait to meet him when he comes to sg!
went to dpv in the late morning to swim with kevin and rong. :) THE WATER WAS SO COLD. spy. showered and ordered zi char for lunch. watched zombieland. then kevin and i went to ntuc to get chocolate and sugar while rong slept.
baked chocolate lava cupcakes! so nice though we left them in the oven for a bit too long. :) passed two to ian.
walked to holland and had katong laksa with joel, then we took the mrt to bishan and walked to ian's house. talked and watched the vs fashion show with his porpor until he came home. talked more then he sent us home.
i showered three times today. -.-
have a headache.. time to sleep.
3:43 am
20101228
see the truth all around
oh our faith can be broken
yeah our hands can be bound
oh but open our hearts
and fill up the emptiness
with nothing to stop us
is it not worth the risk
is it not worth the risk
maybe i should just stick to 200 instead of 400 to avoid overexposing my film haha.
maybe i should just stick to 200 instead of 400 to avoid overexposing my film haha.went to bbdc for my BTT this morning. was early because we intended to go to the green market to alter our clothes, but it was closed (they are "sprucing up" the place). did it in 10-15 minutes and spent the rest of the time waiting to figure out what documents i need in order to convert my license. and also took passport photos haha. my nicest passport photos ever. i want to change my ic and passport photo haha.
then i went to meet daniel at jurong east. went to jurong point and had lunch at.. macs. ;p yum. then starbucks. oh and i finally replaced my lost fake pearl earrings. ;p
collected my thumbdrive and film from btp and walked home since the weather was nice. uploaded photos..
have to leave home in half an hour..
8:02 pm
after finally managing to load the page this morning, i found that the toms are almost the same price... hmm.
watched diary of a wimpy kid (for the third time) with my brother (for the first time). while knitting. ;p it's long enough to be wrapped around my neck once. and i'm on the third ball of yarn. i guess i may need to use all of it..
discovered that the mba has an SD card reader. :O how useful. ;p
walked isaac to his tuition place, then walked to btp to develop my film. ae-1 and supersampler. the poor guy was so stressed writing "SCAN TO TUMBTRIVE" three times. "can i scan it to a thumbdrive instead of a cd?" "um.. but there's no price difference." bought my apple chips from ntuc. $2.45 only leh, so cheap compared to $3.25 at cold storage.
went to raffles city for dinner with kevin and rong. as usual, just the knitting group. ;p finally decided on the hand burger. quite nice i think. then we walked to the singapore river starbucks and they crocheted while i studied for my BTT. then we climbed the 45 degree angle slope and were too scared to come back down so we climbed up instead haha and ended up in the middle of the road. then we waited forever for a bus (stalking all the while) and went to holland, and rong sent us home. :)
now i still have to study. rawr. so sian. i hope i pass though. even more sian to have to register again and wait again and study again. -.-
she looks like a cavewoman! hahahaha. keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer.
ian forgot to do his assignment cos he got back late so he thinks he can only come out on thurs instead of weds. :(
tuesday - BTT/ collect film/ dinner with amy
wednesday - swimming at dpv/ nuahing/ dinner with joel
thursday - ?kayaking/ ian
friday - port dickson
3:00 am
20101227
in your ocean i'm ankle deep
i feel the waves crashing on my feet
it's like i know where i need to be
but i can't figure out, i can't figure out
just how much air i will need to breathe
when your tide rushes over me
there's only one way to figure out
will you let me drown
will you let me drown
LITTLE SONG IS HERE. apparently he is not so little. ;p i always said he was huge haha. and i like his name! :) the internet connection is so slowww it is taking forever to load his photos!
went to chc in the morning, the drama was pretty good. actually shook the pastor's hand.. he said God was going to use me to bless many people (after hearing about me being in med school).
had lunch at din tai fung with the family, then met ian to try on his toms. he said they're too ex. i'll calculate how much they'll cost if i order from the girl instead..
went to braddell for dinner at botak jones, then walked back to his house. then he had to change and pack to book in at 9.01pm. they are so weird.
really need to study for my BTT.
3:22 am
20101225
and so i'll read a book
or maybe two or three
i'll add a few new paintings to my gallery
i'll play guitar and knit
and cook and basically
just wonder when will my life begin
woke up at 7 and ian picked me up at 8.20ish. went to sentosa. :) walked around resorts world, then went to the beach.. but then it was too hot and we gave up and went back to resorts world. candylicious. but no i did not buy a giant lollipop. wanted to use the pinhole photo lab but we needed a dark room (you need a dark room every time you load a new photo paper) so we couldn't. :(
after that we went to clementi woods for the buffet lunch at sakura with his family. his porpor's birthday! she's very cute haha. durian. :D and i was extremely terrified (as always), but it wasn't so bad haha. :) went back to their house after lunch for tea and durian cake. :) kevin is jealous. ;p
and ian drew stuff for my muji tumbler! :) and fixed my camera. :) oh and my ballet shoes got wet. :( and the rain is so scary i would not be able to drive in that. and he highlighted stuff in my basic theory book haha. the things they ask are so stupid please. things that don't at all help you to drive. zzz. i wish it made sense like in melbourne.
and he comes out again on weds and after 8 jan he has a holiday and then after that he will have more time for meee. ;p
managed to sleep through the night last night. :) though it was only for about 5 hours.. still feels good to have uninterrupted sleep. :)
11:11 pm
merry christmas!
doesn't feel like it though. but it hasn't felt like christmas on christmas day for the last few years...
i didn't ignore the elephant. but then i think it's still pointless.
and i can't believe ian dropped my cousin's rabbit haha. seriously. otherwise i think he did pretty well. ;p
i really miss my car! :(
third foreverrr.
one hour is all it takes for ocbc
one hour for easy credit (EASY CREDIT)
3:44 am
20101224
later on we'll conspire
as we dream by the fire
went to watch the acjc choir carol at the esplanade, then had dinner at the jap restaurant there. the food was good.. especially compared to the food in kk. -.-
my camera broke. :( :( :( okay lah only the bit that advances the film. managed to fix it temporarily so i could take a photo but i'll ask ian to look at it tomorrow.
i missed his call because my room has no reception. :( or rather, i didn't even know he called. :( usually when i talk on my phone in my room i have to stand on my bed as close to the window as possible. so stupid right. starhub.
i keep checking fb to see if little song is out yet haha! ;p
supposed to "sleep early" but i think i will knit a bit first haha. have been set back a few days because i gave up when i was sick in kk. time to continue. i don't think i will need to use all 5 balls of yarn though..
12:26 am
20101223
welcome to the real world, she said to me, condescendingly
home, finally. in a way it was better when i was sick(er). having bigger things to worry about (like breathing) so i can ignore other stupid little things.
when ian gets to come out, i go to port dickson. :( okay lah there's still one day in between. oh well. and i still can't believe she actually wrote that.
my social phobia is starting to act up. and it's still more than a day away! haha. eeks.
about 1.5 hours before we leave to see my sister carol at the esplanade. feel gross and want to shower but i'm too lazy to shower twice. will just find something to eat instead..
7:07 pm
no offense to malaysians, but as a tourist destination, i think malaysia really has to get its (her?) act together.
have been coughing non-stop today, but mostly feeling better. managed to do some last minute shopping after a rather rubbish day..
tired of not being able to eat nice food.
going home tomorrow! yay!
12:18 am
20101222
am thankful that today i managed to keep food and meds down. and i am starting to feel better. :)
went for a mani/pedi (a lousy one) then had lunch and window shopped a bit. then i got a headache and decided that it was time to go back and rest. went back to the room to shower and set up the router, then ended up on the mba haha.
went up to the lounge to meet everyone else where we had a sort of dinner. then we got more proper food and went down to the uncle's room for dinner etc. came back up to take my meds and rest.
downloaded tap tap revenge 4 because isaac requested it haha. and tapic. i think my phone might be passed around a bit on the 1.5 hour bus ride tomorrow. we're going to the kk park. suspension bridge and hot springs? something like that.
worst part about being sick now is having to stop eating to breathe. my nose is so congested that i can only mouth-breathe, which is noisy and annoying and just kind of gross. and having to stop between bites to breathe is even more gross.... :\
i have been trying to ignore (and would like to continue to ignore) this pertinent issue but it keeps rearing its head in my face.
#life
12:28 am
20101221
hello from kk. the first few days were not bad, shopping the first two days, and we went to sapi island on the third. parasailing, banana boating, snorkelling, feeding fish etc.
then my sore throat escalated into.. well. it's still a sore throat. the doctor says pharyngitis. i have no pen torch with me, so i have no idea what my throat looks like. it feels like the flu to me. rhinorrhoea, nasal congestion, pharyngitis, productive cough, fever, headache, muscle aches.. last night i couldn't keep any food down after 6pm and felt like dying. slept/ rested most of the day but i don't seem to be able to sleep for more than 1 or 2 hours. :( first time being sick for the year. i can't even remember when i was last this sick. and my heart is working overtime. :( i feel tired for it. so i am now on augmentin plus some other random things i have never heard of before.
will be going home in two days. finally. -.- it's just nicer to be home when you're sick.
oh yes. i passed! well. PGO, PGO, and P haha. so yes, i literally passed fourth year, but well. it's definitely better than being borderline/ clear fail. :) checked the morning before we flew off haha. then ian called. "how come you can use your phone?" "i'm hiding behind some chairs." ;p going for lunch with his family on christmas i think. his porpor's birthday. i hope that means he can come out!
just want to get betterrrrrr.
1:05 pm
20101217
before i pack the mba:
got up at 6.45 and went to mt elizabeth/ parkway for tata's blood tests/ CXR/ chemo/ pleural tap. his oncologist was daddy's classmate. 1L of fluid in the pleural space is quite a scary thought.
went shopping in between. convinced my mother to get me random muji stuff just so it would be more than $80 and we would get the 10% off haha. had lunch at grandma's, which kind of reminded me of eating out in melbourne. the food cost about the same. :\ for local food..
left town/ mt e at about 4.30. went home and continued knitting. had dinner with the family, then went to holland to meet kevin and rong to continue knitting/ crocheting. there's a gaping hole in my scarf. :( sebas pangsehed. kevin wrote a sign that said "knitting a present for my girlfriend. please don't judge me." HAHA. ;D
ian called. :) we have telepathy. ;p whatsapp wasn't working. but it didn't matter because of the telepathy haha. ;p hope.
it's nearly the end of 2010 and i am down with my first URTI of the year. :( but it's just an URTI. could've been worse. oh and results are not out yet.
calendar for yurong ;p
17-23 dec - kota kinabalu
23 dec - nine christmas dinner
24 dec - family christmas eve dinner
28 dec - BTT/ dinner with amy
31-2 jan - port dickson
free from 2 jan to 28 jan, though i will probably have to do stuff at NUH!
something i was made to think about today. i have been at the other end of the code names for years. i suppose at the beginning i wanted to know. but that was years ago. now it's just part of the semi-permeable membrane people build around themselves. it just makes you put more thought into how much of your life you're willing to reveal to them too. then in the end you just become hi-bye friends. or maybe not.
anyway. time to reply messages and emails and sleep.
2:55 am
20101216
good day. :) cabbed to holland with my sister and her friend. shopped for strawberry shortcake ingredients at cold storage with rong and kevin. there was a weird girl who kept walking around aimlessly talking to herself. kevin tried to eavesdrop haha. then he dropped a bottle of thickened cream and we ran away.
cabbed to his house. his landlord's cat peed on his bed haha so it was thrown out into the stairwell. the only cat around was the scary one which scratches. :( they made clam chowder for lunch. we made strawberry shortcake. :) in random shapes. kevin made a donut haha. then we watched diary of a wimpy kid and played boggle and some ps3 games. then we followed caleb home and trained to tiong bahru.
had dinner at bk. ;p and learnt to knit/ crochet. i think they are hooked. ;p for a while, anyway. i would be knitting everywhere i go except that i have to refer to the template, which makes it a bit more difficult. forced kevin to leave in case there were no more buses haha. wendy is very nice. :) i started off only knowing knit but now i can do purl and cable. gave up on the bobble haha crochet is more complicated.
have to get up early to go to the hospital! (will knit there ;p)
2:31 am
20101215
went to town since ian was stuck in camp. we bought the thin down jacket from uniqlo for spain. and i got my toms, which are the same as my sister's toms haha. furry insides. and we ate shihlin. :)
75 to holland v to meet nine. :) had dinner at (where else) cjlmxlb. had peking duck haha, second time in 3 days. and expensive indomie. saw javin there! haha. went to starbucks to play saboteur after that. then we stood outside cjlmxlb discussing our christmas dinner plans. hope i get back in time. then we split up to go home.. after walking 10 metres, we turned around and asked: want to have supper? then we went to the other cj to have dimsum haha omg. such pigs. we just didn't want to go home.
kevin was inspired by our spontaneity and decided to pon work again tomorrow. i told him he had the flu haha. we're going to be potato couches. ;p well, kevin is going to cook us lunch. and we are going to rent dvds. :) then we are going for my knitting class HAHA. i want to get the rest of tbbt from him also.
going to write a letter to ian! yay.
3:03 am
20101214
i hate the singapore army and i will hold a grudge against them forever.
6:00 pm
perfecting the art
went to pasir ris last night to meet ian and his mom. he was so smelly haha. went to his house. he showered and had dinner and then we rushed off to vivo to pick daniel and joseph (green man) up. went to dempsey and had dessert at ps cafe. then he sent them home, and sent me home. took an extremely overexposed polaroid but i think it looks cool. ;p
he has become one of those guys who only talks about army stuff. zzz.
the cat woke me up at 6. helped him up to the window sill again. this time i did eventually manage to fall asleep though. after more than an hour, but still. too tired from the previous night i guess. my tissue consumption has gone down as well haha. my nose is less blocked. :) though i am still sneezing my head off.
more things to think about at the re-evaluation.
and it's nice to be at home where food gets prepared for me, clothes get washed for me, even my bed gets made for me (though not the way i want). ;p
oh my mother wants to train tuna to be my page cat. i told her he might not be alive by the time i get married haha. i said i wanted a cat and a dog. she said cannot, 'cause tuna would be hissing the whole time. ;p
1:03 pm
20101213
my mother thinks i am jetlagged. i feel like i hardly slept last night. woke up at 2+, 4+, and 5+, and couldn't fall asleep after that. went upstairs to disturb the cat, then he came down to disturb me.
finally got up at 8ish to give tata his jab. :| felt stupid. gah. helped my mother with daddy's invoices. went through years in minutes.
we sent opi to her friend's house to play mahjong, then had lunch with tata at yetcon. :D yum. sent everyone home then went to kap to order a turkey. then to fmps to get isaac's exercise books. then to queensway to make my sunnies. :) then to bukit batok to cut my hair.
(i check my.monash and blackboard every day)
now it's back to waiting... it's already 4+ though.
6:19 pm
a conversation between my sister and i
f: can i ask you a question? why is there a terrapin in the toilet?
c: oh. it's the girl's.
f: do you have a hairdryer?
c: yeah it's downstairs in a mooncake box.
f: (whaaat look) and you have food colouring up here.
c: yeah 'cause we coloured the thing here.
ookay.
my baby brother is cute. ;p not to mention fat.
and my other brother is going to brunei tomorrow, for two weeks.
my father is working tomorrow morning, afternoon, evening, and night (as in overnight).
went shopping at vivo (my mother stopped me from buying clothes at zara because we're going to spain), had dinner at ikea, and ice cream at swensens. also bought the BTT book, which, in my opinion, is stupid. i think australia has a much better system. ha.
i do actually want to drive more this time. but it's scary. with the huge car.
am going to go for a knitting/ crochet class on weds! haha. my mother's church friend's class. am going to learn patterns, finally. :D
12:34 am
20101212
so hotttt omg. :( i think it's my house. so stuffy. should just move to some high rise building. (complain complain)
woke up at 6+ again. -.- then at 8+. had breakfast made by yati. :) should get a toaster oven again hmm. UNPACKED. it is strange unpacking here. i don't usually unpack; i usually live out of my suitcase. but since i'll be here for a while, i thought i might as well. my sister has a lot of clothes. looks like she has some nice books too haha.
the fingers on my right hand feel like there's no more skin left on them. :(
going for lunch with the grandparents, isaac, and the aunty + uncle etc. think i have to start taking photos with my digital canon instead. there are too many photos to take in sg and film would be too ex haha.
***
had yumcha at asia grand. :) i suppose it's called dimsum here. didn't have the siew yoke though. but there was peking duck haha.
tata invited me to go watch his chemo session on thurs. and he also asked me to give him his injection tomorrow. :| white cell booster? i have no idea what that is. but i will see tomorrow. he has instructions so i suppose i will just follow them. still it's kind of weird, him being my grandfather and all. he keeps talking about lung cancer.. :\
so far this week:
sun - dinner with the parents
mon - meeting ian at night (?)
tues - ian's MRIs/ dinner with nine (or maybe just sebas and kevin)
weds -
thurs - chemo in the morning/ dinner with amy
fri - going to KK till tues
4:20 pm
i'm home! :D
it took a long time. i left home in melbourne at 12nn. and got home here at about 12.40am. more than 15 hours! remind me never to transit again, unless absolutely necessary. :( the flight was delayed in sydney. waited in the plane for more than an hour. :( didn't even get to claim my gst refund! :( gah.
on the up side, the flights were not bad. before we landed in sydney the pilot did this curve around the coast. the view was so nice! though i couldn't find the opera house haha. and there were no major scares. ;p except for some turbulence after breakfast. there was a baby sitting in front of me and he didn't make any noise at all!
it's so hot in sg. i know i say this every single time, but it is. and i think i would feel a lot safer driving here if people actually kept to the speed limit. the cab driver was driving at like 120 on an 80km/h stretch?! seriously? oh and also it would be nice to have a smaller car. ian says i can drive his car, ha.
opi was still up. :) she made me birds nest! ;p tuna followed me around for a while. and came down to inspect my luggage haha. my mother says he runs up and down the stairs looking for her when she goes on holiday. i suppose i am the substitute for today.
decided that it was too hot to sleep downstairs because my sister doesn't sleep with the aircon on. so i'm sleeping in my parents' bed. ;p for tonight. the aircon isn't even cold though. :|
6:45 am
20101211
fb is annoying. first it asks you if you want to upgrade to the new profile. then it just goes ahead and does it anyway. :|
was too lazy to walk out so i drove instead haha. goodbye drive.
crossing things off my to-do list.
now ian says he can come out on monday! but i don't know for what, and for how long. but monday is pretty soon, considering. :)
it's kind of weird how we say we can't wait right. if it's something that will happen eventually anyway.. and/or you're not going to go for another option.. you will wait. it's not like you can stop waiting. you can distract yourself or occupy your time with things but you're still waiting.
want to borrow my sister's polaroid pogo. ;p
okay back to packing and weighing. need to get a more accurate scale.
11:14 am
hospital flowers
i miss char and pink already. :(
i wonder why growl only works sometimes. hmm.
need to get up early to finish everything before i go.
bye melbourne! see you in april, hopefully. :)
1:57 am
20101209
may angels lead you in
cleaned the mouse cage this morning. left them out for at least 2 hours haha. but they're fine.
zepeng came over and we went to caltex to pump zhilin's tyres. decided that one was leaking so we went to tyrepower to get it repaired. then he drove himself home and i drove home from cambro. each car feels so different. it feels so strange driving any car other than Skype haha. going to miss Skype much. :(
went to uni for joce's graduation! :D remina can't wait to graduate too. in three years haha. took some photos.. then she had to go.
going to send yuwan and josephine to the airport in a couple of hours. hope i don't fall asleep on the way back. :3 so sleepy! it's so hot.
figured how to sync the phone to the mba. :) but the mba refused to detect my gps. :( oh well. not going to bring it back then. save weight.
6:20 pm
20101206
allostatic load
it is so hot in melbourne.
decided to go shopping this morning. bought some stuff, but i am happiest because of the books. ;p i cannot resist $5 books.
the bank statement arrived so i went to uni to submit my jb monash abroad forms. for some reason it didn't cross my mind that i could photocopy the bank statement at home.. so i had to walk to hargrave to do it. -.- so dodo. also got more stamps.
ian's letter also arrived. :) though it is kind of depressing. there was also a letter addressed to him, but i opened it anyway. it was from waverley exhaust, reminding him that his car needed servicing. he doesn't have a car.. but anyway. going to service Skype tomorrow. :)
am so lazy to hand carry anything. i hope i can just stuff everything into the check in luggage and it will still weigh ≤23kg.
can't wait to go christmas shopping for the shoes! :D well not really shopping. just trying sizes. 3 days of mc seems highly unlikely considering what's been happening so far. too bad daddy won't be in sg, if not can just ask him. though i suppose if he was in sg it wouldn't really be necessary.. though of course it isn't necessary at all. i am rambling.
am so TIRED. and i feel like that the whole day! gah. :(
dinner later with zepeng and ziyan. i have no idea what's happening..
perpetual pout. skype is always so laggy. i do kind of look skinnier in this photo hmm.
excerpts from the foreword of fourletterword - new love letters:
A card may prove a touching example of someone willing to take the time to find a stamp, seek out an address and locate a post-box, but the letter - with all the noble attribute of the card and no space restrictions - is perhaps the supreme medium to befit a message of love.
Written on something highly flammable and sent precariously by post or slipped underneath a door, there has always been something slightly risky about the love letter. Someone delivering it to the wrong person who then got the wrong idea; letters getting lost and therefore never replied to.
Unlike a phone call or a conversation, a written declaration of love is a thing: a thing which exists in the world (often for a very long time) with the power to conjure up an emotional disposition, which is why, on occasion, we ask for them back, destroy them, prevent people from publishing them or keep them.
Like any published writer, the author of the love letter can never take anything back. Words - unlike the actual feelings they connote - cannot simply be loaned.... Because all writing is an affective art form - the manifestation of a voice meant to move the reader in a premeditated way - which is why love letters can be so exhilarating and so convincing; which is why so many people opened the 'Love Bug' email.
7:46 pm
so tired T.T why am i so tired. :( came home and napped after church (for about 2 hours). woke up when ian called the third time. and he asked me why i looked so grumpy haha. it was the hangover thing okay. gave him medical advice despite not knowing whether or not i passed the year. :|
woke up before the alarm this morning. but it wasn't too bad. 7ish instead of like 5+. but i am still tired.
i hope everything arrives within the next few days. :\ only 5 working days to go sigh. auspost is so slowww.
anyway, i will be going to spain after all! my parents holding up their end of the bargain, though i don't know if i passed or not. but the deal was that if i didn't have to do supps, i could go to spain. so i'm going. :) 29 jan - 6 feb.
a lot of it is spent waiting. and the time difference never works to my advantage..
one of these days....
2:15 am
20101205
i chose the right pair of shoes! :D :D and i think he doesn't even know his own shoe size. -.- so it will wait. i told him he has to fetch me from the airport because i'm baking cookies for him. ;p go insane lah, it's the best option.
why am i so tired? :( watched a movie halfway and gave up because i was too tired! but then i still stayed up to skype for an hour haha. hope i don't wake up at some ridiculous time again tomorrow (i woke up at 5.20am today).
I do enjoy my time with you
Making the best of everything we do
We're gonna try on something new
And we'll make it ours before the day is through
1:15 am
20101204
there was a cat outside the house next to the house in front of the wellington house. ;p it looked like it was going to run away but then it came towards me. then two more jumped out! haha. only got to pat one though, and it was a bit scared. came home and washed my hands in case it had fleas. ;p
am really looking forward to going home in a week. but at the same time i have no idea what i'm going to do there. singapore feels so foreign sometimes, especially since places and things keep changing every time i go back, i keep getting lost.
oh and aunty linda is no longer working in qantas! maybe now i can start taking lower risk flights. :3
lent ivy my swivel phone. i hope she doesn't read all my msges. ;p
next week i shall:
- hand in the monash abroad form (once the bank statement arrives)
- get more stamps
- ask about the sms thing
- send Skype for servicing
- clean the mouseys' cage and pass them to swee
- figure out how to disconnect Skype's battery
- finish packing and fly home!
2:13 am
20101203
TODAY IS THE DAY
You have made, i will rejoice and be glad in it ;p
ookay today is the day. sure enough, i was up at 6 again this morning. zz. managed to snooze till about 9. no emails yet. but then it's only 10. for some unknown reason i went to check wes. withheld, of course.
i suppose when people tell me things i should really try harder to remember them. rather than always being surprised by these random events that people seem to think i should know about.
seem is a weird word.
i hate those things screaming outside. it's almost deafening. things i hate about summer: flies, screaming things (?cicadas), and the 40+ degree days.
omg coursemate got married!
anyway, looks like the plan is going to fail. -.- oh nevermind. plan b then. it is probably a better plan anyway.
ian, please hurry up and come out of field camp so i can talk to you again..
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just got back from brunch with ivy, yuwan, christina, and joce at red rhumba. food was okay.. the sausage was distinctly beefy so i didn't finish it. zepeng smsed that supps notification was out! so we all checked. and we all don't have to do supps! zepeng included. :)
but now i am worried that i failed. :| ahhhhhh.
3:47 pm
20101202
been waking up early every day since monday. 6+ or 7+am? and i feel like sleeping now..
was going to be good and go for the talk in uni but then it started raining. so i guess i'll try to figure it out on my own.
watched The Time Traveller's Wife. so sad. :(
also started cleaning my room. and packing.. well. sort of. and transferred everything to the mba so i won't have to keep intermittently using picky.
zepeng kept calling me to ask if supps notification is out yet haha. no it isn't.
had popcorn and gave the mice some. ;p
..maybe that's where he gets it from.
9 days!
10:24 pm
these days i keep thinking that i will forget things i'm supposed to do.
thursday - jb talk
friday - brunch + lg
saturday - carolling
sunday - church
let's not talk about next week yet. there are no plans.. and i'm quite happy with it being this way. :| if you know what i mean. also i have to start packing.. and hopefully cleaning my room. ;p only because i wouldn't want to come back in april to this many surfaces covered in dust. :|
going to check my monash email a gazillion times. it has to be either tomorrow or friday. i foresee a million heart attacks.
so i need to find something to occupy myself with. hopefully that will work out so i can go shopping tomorrow. ;p
i really cannot stand it when people talk when the person in charge is talking. and to do that so many times? after being asked to be quiet so many times? between every song? seriously?!?!?! (yes this is how i felt)
watched episode 9 of glee. but i still love episodes 7 and 8 the most.
FOUND IT. now i'm so tempted to get one for myself haha. but no money! oh well. it's so annoying when things are in the US.
and i am so lousy i have to ask people because i don't know things i am supposed to know. :( haha i have never made any effort to remember (or even know) things like that though. for some reason that makes me feel like a guy. hmm.
"It came as a shock to me as she was a bubbly and energetic person."
being bubbly and energetic means you're exempted from having heart attacks? really?
jonathan chua said the med school hoodie has an air of arrogance about it haha. actually, if i graduated from med school, it's something i would be tremendously proud of. ;p
want to sleep but... i think i should wait for a while.. in case. it's been three days after all. or... i will play sudoku until i fall asleep haha.
also it is my tata's birthday! i can't remember how old he is. 73? he sounded weird on the phone, but he said that was the only side effect of the chemo, so i guess that's good. the next cycle starts on 10 dec. told opi about ian's plan and she laughed and said what she always says: we'll wait for you at home.
1:51 am
20101201
set my alarm for 9.45 but got up at 7+. tired of these angry dreams that leave me deluded for a few minutes before i gain insight into my deluded state. rawr.
went to the post office to collect my mba case. :) then to clayton to develop my photos. kodak shop guy remembers my name. yes, the one who is moving to cairns. i think my photos are so embarrassing i won't dare to go back to the shop anyway haha. went to spotlight. but i couldn't find what i was looking for. rushed home so i could change and walk to uni.
they've expanded the clinic! it looks huge now. my doctor gave me 2 repeats. and my BP is like 90/70? so low. :| it used to be 110/70. went to the bank. bought periperi. :D the drumsticks have shrunk.
went home, had lunch, went back to clayton to collect my photos. came home, glue-gunned stuff into the christmas stockings, scanned my photos and uploaded them, started making christmas cards. ;p
my shoulders are now aching again from sitting in front of the computer the whole day. :(
2:03 am