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tired. another morning in GP land. well, with some discussion about contraceptives haha. more boring consultations in indo, more looking in ears (a lot of looking in ears actually), more BPs. one pap smear but she didn't want me to do it, didn't blame her.

a rep from monash ivf came to talk to the doctors so i had free food haha. then i went to the post office to collect my box (!!) and then mmc to talk to a patient. twins! but i didn't see the babies. :(

will attempt to start work a bit earlier tonight.

HELLO.


http://www.klove.com/ :)



compliance

sigh boring life. met my mentor this morning.. she's nice but a bit draggy. haha. her consultations are longer than my ex-GP's. and she sees a lot of indo/?malay patients and speaks to them in indo/malay and i have no idea what she's saying. one of those consultations lasted 30 minutes and i was falling asleep zzz.

did my first pap smear yay! 1 down 4 to go! ha. tomorrow is a half day (i think). might be my chance to.. actually probably my only chance to. :| better make the most of it. deadlines.

and i have to figure out when i can drop by the post office too. places like that should really open after hours.

i braided my hair today. several times. was in the middle of it when the fellow (i mean fellow like fellow, not just a person) whose library computer i'd hijacked came back and asked if he could use that computer. i vaguely remember him from mmc last year hmm.

i also met chai's friend, who is one of my mentor's patients haha. and another patient with a lot of relationship/ emotional baggage who said "a tiger never changes its spots. they only get bigger or smaller." she did this with actions for the bigger or smaller part. is that even true of a leopard?

i like ER but where is Gleeeee.

so there is something wrong with picky. it didn't shut down this morning (the light was still on when i got back), refused to turn on for a while, took forever to do updates then didn't want to turn on properly again, and when it finally started up properly the wallpaper is some default background! :( i am backing everything up before i sleep but i really need you to last till at least the end of the year please. :(

SPRING IN TWO DAYS. :D though that doesn't really mean anything because the weather forecast is still the same haha. still. :)

40kg! zzz. i'm not hungry but maybe i should eat now anyway..

i am so tired.


Spectators.

+ rice with long beans and egg at 9
+ finally started work at like 10
+ infertility index case
+ backache
+ reblogs

"That's stupid," she said. "You can never own a person."


well. church today.. it felt like a long time since i've been there even though it was only one sunday? weird. cds, i didn't miss anything because there was no cds last week. chris came over to do her preferences after cds because they are internetless at home..

watched ER. :3 now i am tired and don't feel like doing work. :| what's new? plus i am snacking too much. i am becoming KEVIN. omg.

and i have to rush it because i think i am already late. sigh.


come along and count with me 'cause it's a counting day.

went to the city with wanjie and had crepes at a french cafe. i actually wanted to bring her to cafe giraffe but they only opened at 5. :( anyway i think the crepes were not bad. :) then we got bubble tea at glen. :)

am going to get ER from chris tomorrow! :D:D

did the rotation 3 psych quiz. as usual, i got a lot of questions wrong and i don't know which ones, or the right answers. sigh.

daddy said the spinner wasn't expensive. :3 did i already mention this? haha. i bet he'll get one. he probably would already have gotten one if he'd known of its existence. i'll see him in 2 weeks!

and my sister got me a purple russian doll colour pencil because i said i didn't want a proper russian doll russian doll. :) apparently there are no souvenirs in russia besides russian dolls haha. russia isn't really on my list of places i want to visit.

interesting that mr fong only taught us for 3 months but we go back to visit him haha.

yes, i have wondered what it would be like..

i feel achey inside.

REMINDER TO SELF:
pay telstra bill.


woke up in the morning at 7, stood in front of the heater for a while, thought about the bed vs. 2 hours of o&g lectures, then opened the door and told yuwan i wasn't going today haha. climbed back into bed and slept till 12. -.- i am ridiculous.


interesting. i think it's an ego thing haha. okay it only works with certain people. i have never been able to last.. perseverance. ;p

i hate how i get so caught up in the emotions of a dream. i can't even remember the dream now. just that it was bad. :(

also, i think i have a rather fatalistic view now. so people generally can't make me do things. very bad... or not?

and another thing is that i was meant to do something but didn't follow it through. partly because people did not respond. how much easier it would be if your job would be done if you just asked. but then i'm weird so the things people find the easiest, i find the most difficult.

accident on the M1. D:

a lot of deadlines to meet. but i have done last week's health econs, this week's ebcp, and filled in all my preferences for next year (albeit a bit haphazardly). just have to do the psych quiz, this week's health econs, and index case stuff. :) cabrini lectures again tomorrow morning zzz have to get up early.


REMINDER TO SELF:
put in preferences for next year before sunday!


so i hope i won't feel nauseated tonight.

dragged myself out of bed this morning because i had a clinic. well, i thought it was a clinic. it turned out to be foetal diagnostic unit.. ultrasound. which was cool. but then the woman disappeared and i was tired so i went to sleep in the library haha.

after which i felt sick and forced myself to eat something before going to the GP antenatal clinic. which is my fourth and last antenatal clinic yay. palpated every woman's abdomen (except the one who was anxious and the 14/15 week ones). one baby kicked me. ;p and there was one breech baby. i kept measuring the sfh wrongly. :( the GP obstetrician was still nice though.

went to pinewood to get food and then came home and let charmaine in. waited for tae and yuwan to come back, then had osce practice. i dodged the doctor roles.

i haven't gotten over my sleep debt yet. hopefully it'll be better because class starts at 10 tomorrow! but i still have to go through the index case thing and possibly study for the tutes tomorrow afternoon. F is so scary. :(

BACKACHE.

i need more time
just a few more months
and we'll be fine


fell for the sky i should come crashing down

tuesday

managed to get up in the morning and went to holland v for breakfast with the frog at breko. we have never not had breakfast in all the times i have gone back to sg. after breakfast he sent me to outram park and i waited for ian to arrive.

walked around, found 25 degrees celcius but it doesn't serve proper food! :( how disappointing. so we went to some random coffee shop nearby instead. took a polaroid! :) then my mother wanted me to go home so we took 75, but realised halfway that it was in the wrong direction haha zzz so dodo. got off at marina square and walked to the esplanade and took 171 back from there. slept most of the way haha so tired.

ian said hi to my mother and brother and cats and then went home. and i spent some time with my parents and brother, watching some ridiculous show on nick. daddy was sleeping most of the time, but then he had to work that night.

left home at about 5, went to pick my sister up from tuition and then went to the airport. i am trying to remember whether i said bye to my brother.. i think so. met kevin, peiyu and ian. :) had soup and drumlets at pizzahut before going in. no longchamp bag for my sister because they don't sell it in the airport anymore haha.

slept almost immediately when i boarded the plane. it wasn't a bad flight and again there was a space between me and the next person, and i got the window seat. :) got up and watched Greenberg while having dinner, then slept again. but i had to wake up for breakfast and then i didn't have time to sleep properly again.


today

the luggage took forever to come out but it was still in one piece. yay! :) the jetbay person came to pick me up immediately, which was good. i was so tired but somehow managed to stay awake while driving home. quite a lot of cars leh for 6am? i think?

got home and did some random things, checked my timetable, showered, got ready and went to hospital for the antenatal clinic. was literally struggling to keep my eyes open. thankfully i was a bit early so i went to have tea. but i was still falling asleep in the clinic. :( good thing she actually let me do BPs and abdo palps, if not i would have just died.

met joce and yuwan and wanjie haha. went to the post office to collect something, pinewood to get milk and stuff, and home. uploaded my photos and tagged them and then slept from 4+ till 8.30. woke up still tired! :(

have to do my index case task rawr. i want to just sleep. and now that i am back in melbourne my backache is coming back.. :( stupid chair.


just got back and i am tired! and i checked my timetable and i have antenatal clinic this morning so i really should go. T.T but i don't even know what time it starts. hopefully not too early. zzz going to shower and see if i wake up after that. i'm pretty sure i will have enough energy to function, just maybe not at a clinic.

thank you everyone for making my holiday an awesome one! :D


TIRED. haha.

as you can tell, i was too tired last night to blog properly. was supposed to meet ian for breakfast this morning, but that never happened because i woke up at 7+ and promptly fell asleep again. until huiru called me at 11.20 to say she was already at vivo! grr.

rushed and cabbed down. amazingly it only cost $10.40. so cheap! haha. had lunch at some ramen place and then coffee/ hot chocolate at gloria jeans. :) then she had to rush off to catch the bus for her piano lesson haha.

went to meet kevin at harbourfront station but someone hijacked me and tried to sell me dead sea salt and nail things. i really liked the nail things. my nail feels so smooth now haha but i had no money and i was so late!

train to potong pasir, peiyu said:
HAHA wheee. I am gonna be the earliest for the first time!
haha. ;p she was too.

walked all around SAV trying to get into the jc, sigh. the OM even called security to tell her there were three people loitering around. :( so we unhappily traded our IDs for visitor's passes haha. kevin called mr fong and told him the pizza he ordered had arrived, and mr fong asked how much. then we sat at the cafe and talked. he bought us drinks! :) was sad that there was no soursop. :( mr fong's class people very weird haha. frankie. rowdy fong and danger wah! hahaha. ;p

met glow! :) and met gabriel chua and shi yun last night also haha. so random.

mr fong brought us on a tour, well, sort of. met ms ong, mdm kwan, and mdm lee! mdm lee said i was alien. :( and peiyu jeopardized her prospective job. ;p omg = one moment of glory. ;p mdm lee so funny.

went to our old classroom. :) so weird that classes start with 10- now. 05 is such a long time ago..

and it was so hot when we were trying to get into the college but halfway it started to pour. but ian was very nice and came to fetch us. :) dropped peiyu at the mrt station and kevin near his house. went to AC and found my sister haha.

then we waited for my parents to come so we could follow them to the dinner place. golden spoon at tiong bahru. dinner with the family, including the aunty and uncle and cousin. the crab was disappointing.. :( probably because i was hoping for swa garden standard! rawr.

went to town for a while with ian. :) then went back to his house to collect something (and i stole his team monash tshirt), then went to somewhere far far away. really bad because his car drinks petrol. and i feel so bad for asking him to drive so far. :(

so i took a bus back from his house. first bus ride! haha. it was quite quick. walked home from the behind my house bus stop.

haven't done health econs! ugh. haven't done my index case task either.. zzz. i am not supposed to be on a holiday...


church, lavender st food centre for wanton mee, ion/ wisma, home. crazy kitty, new clothes, scissors, planet bag, daily scoop, holland v crystal jade with da pao-ed xlbs. mandai, got to drive a merc for the first time ever, woodlands waterfront, foggy car, home.


long day. gave up on my sim and am using a spare now..

met kevin peiyu rong and caleb for brunch at Wild Honey. :) okay food at exorbitant prices.. i think the food in melb is better. ;p

then ian came to say hi but ended up staying for 2 rounds of monopoly deal at coffee bean. :)

i felt like a tourist today in town. :| so lost!

went to try to find the place rong and peiyu told us about but couldn't find it. :( and then it was too hot and i couldn't take it anymore so we went back to town and watched Despicable Me. :D:D IT'S SO FLUFFAY! :D

then to little india to find something but we didn't end up finding it in the end. again! but i didn't care that much because i was so tired and it was so hot. had dinner at some vegetarian place. very oily but the oil was surprisingly easy to clean off. but the curry gave us stomachaches. :(

went back to ian's house and said hi to his mother and porpor. waited for him to feel better, then he sent me home. :) then he sat in the car when i test drove my mother's car. :x SO SCARY. I WAS SO TERRIFIED. D: but then she gave her approval for me to drive on my own.

picked rong up and went to yurong's new house! :) had durian durian and kookie monster ice cream from daily scoop and watched yog reruns haha. and had durian! :D and talked. and took photos haha.

sent rong back and came home.

achievement of the day: driving my mother's car (which is really more like a van) in singapore for the first time! actually, driving in singapore for the first time. haha. ;p i have still declined all of ian's offers to let me drive his car. ;p though i feel like trying it haha.

need to sleep because there is church tomorrowww.


I AM HOME. for the people who did not know i left.

"this is the most impulsive thing you have ever done. you're even more impulsive than me." being more impulsive than ian is a big thing.

am really tired. i think it's because of the weird half night shift last night and slightly messed up circadian rhythm, and also because i haven't been eating properly, and i had to drive 1.5 hours to the airport. and i watched three movies before developing a headache and trying to sleep.

today i couldn't finish my lunch and tea. :( and i didn't have dinner! :( the guy who was going to serve me was nice, nearing the end of the flight he offered me lindt chocolate. :) and then i felt weak and nauseated sigh. and i am hungry but i don't feel like i could eat. :(

of the people at the airport for me, more were ian's friends! haha. but they left after saying hi (and nodding). then ian sent rong and kevin back. they were so fascinated by the car haha. sebas was pissed off. sigh.

kevin: "eh never hug your long lost jc classmate!"
me: "i hug you tomorrow lah!"

anyway, ian sent me home and came to say hi to my sister/ kitty/ tuna. kitty is really scary. she pounces on toes. i don't really like her. tabby was nicer. i think it's because kitty has demonica's genes.

passed ian all his stuff haha. really ridiculous things like canned artichokes, raw hazelnuts, almonds, jeans, his cr scarf, and his birthday presents. since he had the car, might as well pass him everything at once. thanks daniel. ;p

i didn't take any photos today. :(

few days left!


we stop still and the world rushes by

backache! :( ugh.

sometimes i think it's unfair that things like that happen. i mean, what if i didn't want other people to know? then again, i'm lazy and that means i don't have to tell people on my own. but still, it's my choice to make.

early satiety. :\ and a really uncomfortable abdomen most of the day. coupled with the terrible backache.. :( i really didn't eat much today. i'd be starving and then eat a bit of something and then i'd be full. why? :(

went through the index case notes. i really don't want to go tomorrow. :( boo 80% attendance. but nevermind. once that is over.. :) i hope we get through everything in 2 hours.


went to bed at 4.30 and woke up at 8.45. the sky was blue but the rain was torrential. how is either of those normal?

am tired and not going to birth unit. rawr. will probably go back on a saturday instead (if i am desperate to get proper births).

will clean the kids' cage later. and maybe bake, since i have owed people muffins since i can't even remember when.

i think it's weird that sometimes i can't tell whether i'm hungry or not.. and then i have to think about it. i think i am hungry but i don't really feel like eating? weird.

i actually really like baby rusk biscuits. :3

worst backache ever.


[edit]
so i finally decided that i was starving. but after like 1/3 of a serving i was stuffed. my body is not making sense. help.
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i have to agree that one of the best things about being a student is getting to decide whether or not you want to be there. for example, leaving a ten-hour night shift after six hours. ;p

G4P2, 34+5/40, IUGR, PROM with blood-stained liquor and a scary CTG trace (this means the baby was not happy). emergency caesarean, tiny little (but well) baby girl.

i don't seem to get many NVDs. and there were no more labouring women (in fact, there were no women at all), so i decided to come home. actually, there was one lady coming in but she was a primip who hadn't even ruptured her membranes or had a show so i couldn't be bothered waiting.

off to bed again. ;p


dywtd

tired! went to get things today. decided that it was too troublesome to drive to the city so i joined the throngs of people on the train. the train driver made an announcement that went something like "Good morning passengers, the train is now going to enter the city loop. Please remember to take all your belongings with you. Hope you have enjoyed your journey and that you will continue to travel with us. Thank you." haha as if there is an alternative train company right.

went around the world trying to find everything i need (at the cheapest prices haha). bought like a million timtams for kevin. he just reminded me that i haven't seen him in 2 years! and said we are long lost jc classmates. :( actually i want to go and visit mr fong haha he always complains that i never go back to visit him and his fb is always so emo.

i am sure people will make comments about my bag when they see it. :3

and yuwan gave me a brilliant piece of advice because i am so paranoid about getting a DVT (and a PE) that i am worried i won't be able to sleep because i have to keep getting up to walk around. so i will only start after. :) yay.

i actually need to go and sleep if i intend to go for m's night shift tonight... and reclaim my steth haha. goodnight.


play hide and seek with the boy next door
take a trip to singapore

zomg first time ever getting prescription meds here. actually, first time getting prescription meds ever in my life. -.- the doctor was quite nice though he seemed a bit curt at first. i think he just enjoyed talking to a med student haha. no, seriously. he hardly even took a history at all!

got the letter. :) yog stamp haha. and fsb! :D:D ♥

no babies todayyyy. too many midwifery students! and too few labouring women. i am going back to dandy hmph.

from the mr brown show (single in singapore):
And those between 31 to 35 will get additional dating leave. They need more help, because they are more desperate and condemned. Especially the women at 35, already past expiry date!

aunty linda is amazing. !!

going for last minute shopping tomorrow. hope i manage to get everything.


doctor's appointment tomorrow. and then birth suite pm.

orientation was quite useless today. they don't tell us what time anything starts (except birth suite), where most things are, how we are supposed to find things out.. sigh. on the other hand, it has a lot of things that we don't get to do at dandy. and i'm counting on my mentor week and colposcopy clinic (weeks 9 and 10) to get all my pap smears done.

pretzel.

found a present but it doesn't ship anywhere except the US. but then i realised that i have no money anyway. so after a long time (and a lot of scrounging around for inspiration) i came up with another idea.

awesome catch up with huiru. :)

it's 8.30 and i haven't had dinner.. neither do i feel remotely hungry. :\ there is something wrong with me.

am homesick. :(


difficult day.

anyway, i am still alive! and i would like thank
everyone who prayed for me,
yuwan for staying with me the entire time (and for getting help, if not i might have fainted and no one would have known),
julia for directing me to the sofa and bringing the dustbin to me,
javin for refilling the water bottle for me and for his jacket,
steph for accompanying me,
aunty daisy for sharing a lot of testimonies with me,
christina for the plastic bag,
everyone who asked me if i wanted hot soup or something to eat,
calvin for driving Skype home,
zepeng even though he felt guilty,
and everyone who asked how i was. :)

i really appreciated it! but i was too incapacitated to say/ do much just now. :| and i am better. :) though it's very on/off.

and i was dying and karen popped her head out of the kfc room and asked "did you just say you want to die?" and i thought what an unfortunate way to meet her! :(

hallelujah, You have won the victory
hallelujah, You have won it all for me


josh's beyond awesome ultimate cooking school. it's pretty good.

friday the thirteenth! well, not anymore. happy birthday rong. ;p

am so tired. 9-5 contemporary issues group presentations and three cups of hot chocolate. dinner at newton circus (finally!) with yuwan, chris, and graham, nearly died because the chilli was so hot. back to clayton to pick joce up with her dabao-ed food and to northcote!

the drive there is really bad. especially with the jam because of all the footy supporters. zzz. we were a bit late. and then we were struggling to stay awake. all of us (in my car) were totally zonked today. :| the drive back was equally bad because i missed a turning and got caught in the jam of footy people going home. thank God everyone got home safely.

dandy eye candy hahaha. we were all really pink, people thought our topic was breast cancer. the animation sound was really annoying though.

i want the polaroid flash but shipping from theimpossibleproject is, as always, USD50. and i think tip is not so popular so their products hardly ever get sold on ebay. that would make it so much cheaper (like lomo stuff haha).

time to sleep because i have to get up at.. 6.30 tomorrow.


they released the list of available rotations for next year! i still don't know what to choose. i think it's because i don't like so many specialties. 14-29 august.

finally decided to tell google maps that rusden place does not join samada st. i have to drive to northcote tomorrowww.

conversations about life and mental illness..

my mouth ulcer is now 5x its original size. whee.

half a heart.


i know i spend a lot of time belaboring my point.

once in a while i remember the hidden post it and take it out to read. it was a long time ago.

convinced myself to go to hospital at 9am and in the end the workshop was cancelled. :( had lunch at korchi with christina and tae, i really think people should learn english properly. i think "can i change it from beef to chicken?" is actually quite basic english. or even if you can't make everyone learn proper english, at least have one person who can speak proficient english working in the shop right?

crazy lectures, felt like it was 5pm at 3. tired. :(

I DON'T WANT TO STUDY. amotivated.


waiting for something beautiful;

rainy day. i lost my aeroplane phone case yesterday! :( thought it dropped out of the car or something (that's how i tend to lose things). today i looked everywhere and couldn't find it. :(

but then i found it when i came back this evening. :) turns out it was just under the passenger seat haha. but i am very thankful i found it. :) :)

i think kristen bell is very pretty HAHA. no really.

zepeng smsed me this morning:
Miss home man. Stupid kit chan song make me homesick.

haha i was wondering why he was so random, then he said ivy posted Home on fb. ;p yeahhh i miss singapore too. :(

was terrorized by a certain lecturer this afternoon. seriously. he asked the same questions as he did in second year but of course no one could remember the answers. who would remember that B-hCG is a glycoprotein? well of course now all of us will.. he thinks none of us should have passed third year. hmmm.

thirteen! sometimes i can hardly even believe it.

i hope no one will ask evidence questions on friday, because i will not know how to answer them.

two nights ago (i think) i chopped off a bit of my hair. i honestly don't think anyone has noticed, although i am still very conscious of its choppiness and weird curling habits. i initially wanted to chop a bit of all my hair off (because of the split ends) but then i realised that i can't because that would chop the nice curls off. zzz.

i get to go to spain next year. :) i can't remember if i've already written this. hmm all the more reason to get a spinner. :) (but my bank balance is depressingly low at the moment and i have already spent more money shopping and had to pay the stupid thing for the apartment and credit card bills and things like that).

i really think my legs are normal sized and it's just that my arms and wrists are skinny. also i have tummy fat which is really gross.

ANYWAY. rong had a falcon experience! :) how cool is that! though i am not a big fan of scary birds myself haha. ;p

the only time i drink tea is when the hot chocolate isn't free.

hmm i don't feel like baking any of the things haha. i suppose it's because they are healthy that they don't sound very appetising. maybe i will try the last one..


i have been writing... and then saving them as drafts.

i think i need some sort of negative feedback loop for online shopping. i am going to have no money again.

good weather today. :) warm enough to walk outside without a jacket on. :) made some vitamin D. but i bet i'm still deficient.

they had crescent and stars fireworks! :3 in true singaporean spirit, the other people watching the live telecast kept complaining about anything and everything about the performances.

now that it's O&G week i feel a bit less lost, which is a relief.

finally sold my metcard. i always find it a strange experience to meet a stranger to buy/ sell something.


the yellow handkerchief

the more i look at the spinner the more i want to get it! and of course, the more i can convince myself that i need it. ha. but i figure it's actually okay if i get it on ebay, compared to lomo. so.. maybe as a present.

i've asked ian if i can have a birthday present for his birthday since he doesn't want one. ;p hahaha. and he's started making it!! :D no, not the birthday present something else he promised like two years ago. haha. ;p i am honestly quite amazed that he actually did it. ;p

bummed around most of the day. did a bit of last minute mugging before charmaine and tae came over so i wouldn't be completely clueless. cannot remember anything! :| had dinner at yummy express with them. i figure it's actually quite economical for me to eat out all the time because for the amount i currently eat, one meal can be split into two! haha. and then people start making comments about my BMI and osteoporosis and lanugo hair. charmaine says i will be using a walking stick by 35 haha.

was inspired by jaslyn's fb post and painted my toenails red and white haha. yuwan says this year's national day song is not bad but i've stopped bothering about them. :\ i used to love singing national day songs in school haha. with yurong. ;p

ian woke up early to skype with me because he thought he wouldn't be able to catch me otherwise. ♥ he was barely even awake when he called haha. :) said hi to his mother and his porpor while he made them coffee using their newish machine. his porpor said she wouldn't be able to sleep the whole night (because her normal coffee is sugar water).


i am actually really stressed.


i am skinnier than my sister! so why do i have oozing fats when she doesn't? :(

anyway. am amazed by how some people can love people when they are so unlovable. when they are purposely difficult and selfish and demand things of you or try to emotionally blackmail you into doing something for them. i have never been able to do that. i know we are meant to love the unlovable; Jesus loves us (and how unlovable are we?). but to me it's like reinforcing a negative behaviour. if it goes on, the person will either see God's love in you and be influenced by you, or continue taking advantage of you. the outcome isn't within your control.. i don't like not being in control.

sometimes i get tired of everything that comes with owning a car too.

my fingernails are too long - the result of not being on the wards for a week. ;p

i saw my neighbour walking to her apartment just now.. i thought she was wearing pj's at first, but then i realised that they were scrubs haha. in fact, they look like sh women's women's health scrubs.. ;p

have to revise psych tomorrow. and i still haven't commented for ebcp. :| and also the entire paeds workshop week has gone by and i still hardly know anything about paeds! sigh. :(


"my porpor said 'wah your girlfriend so pretty!'"
haha. i hope she remembers me. :\

lectures. zzz.

had lunch at warung gudeg with charmaine and tae, $5.30 only! haha okay lah for rice and one dish. ;p and we gobbled it down because there wasn't enough time.

skipped the last lecture about research.

am relieved that the weekend is nearly here.

now for celup celup heh. hungry.


i keep looking at spinners.

i want to rant. about people not asking me when they want to borrow my things and demanding things of me or oh-by-the-way asking me to do things at the last minute when i can't say no. so annoying! :<

anyway. sent my elective application off in the mail! so eggciting! :D

went to pacific house for jocelyn and zepeng's birthday dinner, we made them wear blindfolds until they guessed who was sitting where correctly. it was quite hilarious cos zepeng turned around and said hi to the people at the other table and tried to molest the waiter. ;p

chilli crab was so good. :D

nearly backed my car into the car behind trying to get out. :|

still need to do ebcp! rawr. tomorrow during a break maybe. or not.

still contemplating going back to dandy on saturday morning. have to get my steth anyway at some point. :\ but i think i might be too tired.

zepeng came to make tiramisu (or japanese bread with cream). it was er.. an adventure, he says. i really wonder how it will turn out. haha.

AND I DROPPED PICKY. D: D: D: am very upset. :( but it is still working. the only damage i can see is a small crack in the border of the screen. and the side white bit was detached from the screen. but i just pushed it back and it's fine. figures, you drop a mac and it still works perfectly fine. but maybe it's too early to say? heh. that means one thing: i will be backing everything up on huckleberryfinn tonight.

wish there wasn't school tomorrow.


wow tiring day. though i got up late (late means 9am).

went around buying cakes/ candles/ going to the post office. had lunch and then went to mmc for two paediatric cardiology lectures. the first just went over my head, the second was better but i still can't remember anything.

picked calvin's friend up from huntingdale and went for nasi lemak night. so many people! not enough food. :( it was so gooood though. haha.

rushed off to cambro to surprise zepeng and jocelyn. :) left my bag there and only realised it after parking my car. :( went back to get it.

i hope x replies my email soon so i can get on with my application.


long day. lectures from 8-10, 11-1 and 2-5. charmaine and tae were so nice to go to clayton with me so i could mail my things out. :) then they had brunch at macs haha.

the 'surgery in a war zone' talk was really.. difficult to sit through. tae was going omg at nearly every picture.. :(

went to cook sayur lodeh at atlantic st.. i keep forgetting that jason stays at cambro instead of wellington. drove very slowly back to cambro with 3 magic pots and 1 rice cooker in the car..

my parents want me to apply for the grant. my mother gave me an added incentive to go back.. though i am still pretty undecided about it. one thing that appeals to me is that i will be guaranteed a job.. as in they have to give me a job even if i don't do that well at the interview. right? i hate interviews.

i thank God for peace.


tireddd. forgot to plug in my phone charger last night and it didn't even occur to me that the phone didn't make the usual sound when i plugged it in.. must have been too tired from reading the corrie ten boom book. ;p

but school started at 12 so i had plenty of time to charge it anyway. :)

my fan heater is crazy. :( it doesn't self-regulate anymore. i'm so scared it will burn the place down! heh.

my mouth is so dry and there's phlegm stuck at the back of my throat. :( been like that for a few days already. so annoying! :(

lectures from 12-5 today.. quite unbearable. i guess i'm not used to that anymore. plus that last one was so intense. my pre-existing knowledge of rheum is like.. non-existent. :| tomorrow is 8-5! omg. D: how to survive?

went to clayton after school with yuwan and zepeng to buy things for nasi lemak night. and zepeng is making tiramisu hahaha he says he will never do it again because the ingredients are so expensive. i think he should have gotten the baileys instead of the kahlua. oh well.

finally got ian's letter. :)

spent quite some time writing letters. will hopefully mail them all out tomorrow! i hope there's enough time.

just randomly. in primary school we did this exercise where we had to write a postcard to one of our classmates. so we were told to go home and bring our addresses so we could write them (but not actually send them out). i memorised my postcode but forgot it when i was in class! so i made one up. (i know this is random)

life.


decided to do it all at once. ;p it's easier that way.

1. your facebook profile photo
this was taken at harbour town at the end of 2009 when ian's mom was here.

2. a photo of yourself a year ago
with zhini, at one of the ccm events.

3. a photo of you and someone you love
the camera is invisible. :)

4. a photo that explains what you’re feeling

5. a photo of last summer
with lois and cheryl opposite henry park. :)

6. a photo that makes you laugh
a game we played at lg retreat.. can we all fit in here?

7. a photo of something you can’t live without
my cameras. ;p only the polaroid and the canon in front are mine. the other two are ian's and allan's.

8. a photo of your favourite band/musician
don't really have one? but i do like them. :)

9. a photo of your family
well, us and uncle cj, at port dickson.

10. a photo of you as a baby
no baby photos! not here anyway. this was at fmps.

11. a photo of your favourite film(s)
don't really have one.

12. a photo of you
in phuket at the end of 2009.

13. a photo of your best friend(s)
at sunway lagoon at the end of 2009. :)

14. a photo of one of your favourite family members
my sister, in phuket again.

15. a photo of someone you love
nine sending jason off again.

16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
well not the last one. but the last dress-up one.. with sudha as batgirl. ;p

17. a photo of you when you were drunk
well, i have never been drunk.

18. a photo of you at school
with rong and peiyu, in the upper cafe at malan road. :)

19. a photo of you on an adventure
trespassing on private property. ;p

20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
spending time with huiru and xieai. :) usually tanning at sentosa. :)

21. a photo of you standing up
the day we went to ecp with the sg lg people and my havis broke and i had to buy shoes from central. clutching my developed photos. :)

22. a photo of your town
the neighbourhood really.

23. a photo of your friend as a baby
why would i have a photo of my friend as a baby?

24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
well, sort of not really...

25. a photo of a night you loved
the tea party with nine. :)

26. a photo of your favorite weekend
not exactly a weekend but definitely one of my favourite holidays. :) going to gold coast with ian!

27. a photo of you and someone you love
matching tees at swee's surprise birthday celebration. :)

28. a photo of what you ate today
no i didn't eat this today.. but i wish i did! :(

29. a photo of someone you find attractive
;p tabby!

30. a photo of you when you were having fun
at sunway lagoon with nine. :)



ribbons

it's august! the last month of winter. and also a very cold day. :| the weather forecast said hail and winds up to 100km/h? driving at 100km/h was quite scary, felt like the car could fly across the road. or something.

mercy.

macarons disappeared but bryan didn't get to try it! again. :( oh well. the next time i make it i'll try to put the right amount of almond meal and make them smaller. ;p

went for a cds class i didn't actually intend to go for.. but i think i will stick with it. :)

rushed to brunswick, still made wrong turns even with the GPS. it's so stressful driving in unfamiliar places by myself. finally found my way back to the city and found free parking near melbourne central! sort of.

met shaobin at unilodge and had dinner at kaneda. then we wanted to have chocolate at koko black but it was closed. :( so we settled for max brenner's. haven't seen him for 3 years or something. i'd have thought it would have been weird, all things considered, but it was quite enjoyable really. haha.

drove home and unloaded the gigantic soft toys from my car haha. yuwan's are still there.

workshop fortnight starts late tomorrow.

i'm sad. :(