fawn
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(doctor!)
singapore/ sunny coast
melbourne! ♥
(would love to bake for a cafe/
?bird & brie)
wallflower
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my brother says i am
a cumulonimbus cloud :)

also

joy unspeakable that won’t go away
and just enough strength to live for today
so i never have to worry
what tomorrow will bring
‘cause my faith is on a solid rock
i am counting on God
♡
in dreams and in love
there are no impossibilities.
- jános arany
☼
You make all things
work together for my good.

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"Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.”

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.”

“Resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die."

apple pie. :D i spent forever making it though. and i have a sneaky suspicion it's going to be too sweet. :\ oh well. i didn't even put all the sugar the recipe stated. heh. the leftover apple slices were baked as apple chips! :D hurhur. of course they were relatively thick slices so they were soft inside. but they were still nice. :) just too sweet heh.

and i keep stealing pictures off other people's blogs haha.

(each worth 1 point)
1. trying to understand on your own
2. telling her you don't understand
3. letting her explain
4. trying to understand when she explains
5. understanding




and my daddy said stay away from juliet
+ lovely weather :D blue sky!
+ walked to hospital (finally)
+ PR tute wasn't bad
+ sort of did pbl
+ grocery shopped
+ need to learn how to drive
+ so envious of people who can play the piano
+ apple pie from scratch
+ chicken soup
+ it's labour day tomorrow, i want the public holiday
+ dfo on saturday
+ want a dress to match the gold heels
+ i want keynote
+ can't wait to be home (46)


i survived today! achievement.

- wintercold
+ myeloma lecture
+ breakfast
. pbl seminar on IHD
. cotw on upper GI bleeds
- bad
- i still haven't found my box
+ priscille saved my life today
+ kw tried to but i was allergic to her drugs haha
+ the cd asked me to skip the lecture and go home
. hospital malnutrition lecture
+ lunch
+ calvin & hobbes (plain truth was missing)
+ a bit of the law notes
+ sleep
- path GI lecture which was too fast, we gave up taking notes towards the end
- cold
+ beautiful sunset! :D
- i have to think of what to cook again ugh (i am evidently not suited to being a housewife)
- my room is heated up so much my eyes hurt but my feet are still cold
- need to grocery shop
- desperate need to study
- should stop asking myself the same questions over and over


because - so what?


too addictive.



+ new songs
+ burberry
+ nice smelling jacket
+ heater warmth
- the sky keeps alternating from grey to blue every few minutes. and it rains, too.
- weather sensitivity?
- my meals are very irregular (i had lunch before 11)
- i don't like hodgkin's lymphoma much


look out the window.
this is why i need to learn to drive.


dylan died. :( :( :(


I believe that He loves you where you are
I believe that you've seen the hands of God
I believe that you'll know it when
You're back in His arms again
I believe that He never let you go
I believe that He's wanting you to know
I believe that He'll lead you 'til
you're back in His arms again

slack day by choice. i only got up at 10+. :O pig.

and yes, the pig flu pandemic. your mother called and told me to sleep more and to be careful. oh, and to pass the messages to you. one being "ask him to call you first if he feels sick!" haha she is quite cute sometimes. (iapfht)

the wind is raging outside. and rain too i think. but i can't really see and don't really care to check. it's so cold. if it's like this tomorrow morning too i will really not go for ward rounds lor. rawr.

waiting for the stuff in the oven to be done. should probably be doing pbl stuff now. i spend too much time doing nothing.






#2501.

photos on fb.
don't quite know where to put the last one so i'll wait. ;p
will skip ward rounds tomorrow and go for preadmission clinic (surg bedside tute) tomorrow.
photo of the cheesecrater haha.
my toes are being frozen off.
mcr!


can't stay mad at you for long

- really cold and windy
+ white holey shoes didn't hurt too bad today
+ church
+ retaining, maintaining
+ jj's coat
+ michael was really nice, and he thought of things i hadn't even thought about haha
+ i don't know what i was doing also
- think i wasted a lot of time sleeping
+ at least it was warm ;p
- new stuff
- thought about other stuff
- invisibility
+ chopped veg and chicken
+ yummy dinner :D okay my favourite bit was the sweet potato haha ;p
+ talked to aunty cat haha so scary ;p
+ my new favourite song on guitar :)
- walked home in the cold, i really didn't want to step outside
+ there were stars in every spot not covered by clouds
+ 5 layers (was supposed to be 6 but i stole one hoodie)
+ yuwan helped me dry my clothes <3
+ thank you for walking me back even though it meant walking back alone in the cold
+ i have dessert too, but i don't feel much like eating it now :\ sorry
+ scrubbed nectarine
- opi isn't feeling too well
- i think she has febrile neutropenia
- i'm really worried about her :(

just by the way, our power supply died last night, along with the internet. which is why i haven't blogged about the wedding, and haven't uploaded the photos. also i slept at 10+ *gasps* and got up at 7 and was still tired haha. am so tempted to skip tomorrow.

"i should get your inheritance."
"that means you want me to die."
"i mean i should get your share of the inheritance."


okay i'm finally done. :)
i'm hungry actually. hmm.
my right foot hurts. it's a bit swollen also i think. :\ and hypersensitive. in the area equivalent to the hypothenar eminence in the hand. what's that called anyway?
rawr.
PANDA.
i bet i will take half an hour to put the contacts in because i won't be able to open my eyes haha.
i so need to sleep properly on sat night. and sun night.
i'm excited for them. :D
and yes i am praying that it will not rain.
guess who sent me a songggg. :D:D:D hehe you made my day dear. :D
even though it's like 2.30 in the morning and i have to get up in 4 hours. haha.
loveee.


all the blurry bits you wish would come into focus, and all the clear bits you wish would be blurred.
- windy morning
- contemplated skipping ward rounds this morning
- forced myself up anyway
- missed the bus
- caught the next bus after stoning for 15mins
- was still early
+ speed round with the regs
+ unit meeting thing
+ consultant ward round (which was ridiculous - imagine 15 people traipsing around the ICU and ED)
+ lunch with syahir (and chocolate muffin)
+ pbl - abdo pain
+ 2 cups of tomato soup (no hot choc today)
+ med bedside tute - GI Hx and Ex (only j and i were there)
- killed my shoes in the rain
- but that was fine since i'd decided to throw them away today anyway
+ pie
+ met mangyik, paul, and kym on the way back :)
+ the weather cleared up a bit
- my irregular eating habits are quite bad
+ i hope the weather's good tomorrow
- i still don't know what to wear
- i need to find anatomedia
- not worth it.



the cheesecake turned out uglier than all the previous ones. haha! oh well. won't tell you what happened to the little one. have to see it for yourself. ;p it tastes okay though. i just can't make it look pretty. i blame the oven. ;p my mum uses a turbobroiler-like thing and it never looks this ugly.

found something to put in my hair that will hopefully save it from the past few nights of blow-drying. i hate blow-drying my hair. so i don't know why i keep showering at like 10+. but today i showered early yay. :)

so lazy to study anatomy of the GIT for pbl tomorrow. i just want to sleep. haha. pig. but my eyebags are huge. wedding on sat! heh.

i don't understand why there are still flies around. shouldn't it be too cold for them by now! rawr.




76320.

boring day.
i wanted to see the whipples procedure but it was snatched up by the 5th years, sigh.
why can't we talk to CF patients?
med bedside tute postponed to tomorrow.
pbl tomorrow as well.
first summative MCR due 8 may.
cheesecake!

listography❤


i can't bear the thought of having to wake up at 6 (eh 6 isn't even like really early right?) and leaving home before 7 and having to be alive and like properly awake by 7.10. i don't get why i need so much sleep either.

this is really difficult.


there is a faith proved of more worth than gold.

+ got up at 7.30!!
+ cardiac arrhythmias made easy. ;p the lecture was so much more comprehensive than the one we had previously.
- some other lecture which i can't remember now. it was boring and too fast, i was falling asleep.
+ cotw by es, first seizures in adults.
- i've forgotten all the epilepsy stuff. should go dig out the pretty diagram i did haha.
+ lecture on food. low carb low protein diet. people in aust walk 3000-6000 steps a day. if you walk 2 hours a day you walk about 30000-40000 steps a day. imagine how many steps we take with the amount we walk everyday! oh and if you walk for 2 hours every day your weight loss is more likely to be sustained. don't worry i'm not still losing weight.
+ lunched in the muiss lounge. :)
- really boring law tute. the tutor was reading off the notes. like word for word! seriously. was so tempted to leave when they gave us a break. but i didn't lah.
+ went around campus centre doing stuff with kw haha. i've missed her, she's in isolation now (read: moorabbin).
+ path lecture wasn't too bad. the lecturer was the one who speaks very slowly. but still not too bad today.
+ walked home and cooked.
+ the girls came over for dinner. :)
+ nasi lemak! which was not very nasi lemakish. ;p but still nice. :)
+ teh tarik, courtesy of wanjie! :D
+ chris and wanjie are revising stuff here now. i am so amazed when i can contribute. ;p
- i am in UGIS but i don't know anything about GI hmm. need to studyyy.

+ jiayou people with assignments! and the first years, for their midsem on friday. although i doubt any of them read this. ;p
+ i am going to bake cheesecake on friday. :D (requested by joce)
- i need to buy a new springform baking tin. :\
+ my scholarship money is (almost) hereeee. :D:D:D God is good.
+ i finished the first chapter.
- it's very cold. everytime it gets cold i keep thinking to myself that i cannot live in melbourne.
- am lazy to stay in hosp for long tomorrow. :x although i suppose i really should go see surg. and put IVs in!! haha. poke people.
+ am putting myself in your shoes.


it must be exasperating.


- i am really tired.
+ (even though) i gave myself an extra half an hour of sleep by taking the bus instead of walking.
- the sky was grey when i got up. and it was too cold.
+ the sun was burning orange when i left the house.
+ was in hospital by 7.20am.
+ there were 3 of us at ward rounds, and we finally managed to find them in 34N (instead of 32N).
+ the 5th year, intern and reg all seem very nice. :)
+ d and i went to see a lap chole.
+ we got to feel a strawberry gallbladder too, before it was plunked into the yellow topped path jar.
+ nice music in the OT haha. i was so distracted by it though. ;p
+ studied about the gallbladder.
- took a million 3-minute naps in the library.
+ lunched.
+ hot choc. :)
+ met ivy haha.
+ studied pancreatitis.
- more 3-minute naps.
+ surgical bedside tute at 4.
+ examined a guy with mitral regurg and heard his murmur.
+ left hospital at 6.30pm.
+ the stars were already out. :)
+ walked to monash palace.
+ hung around outside waiting for people to arrive haha.
+ counted stars and watched the birds fly in formation. :)
+ happy birthday calvin! :)
+ full from dinner.
+ walked back with chris and joshua. :)

i can't explain something that cannot be explained.







i need more time
just a few more months
and we'll be fine

- dragged myself out of bed at 6am.
- was very tempted to bus to mmc but finally decided against it.
- walked to hospital.
- IT WAS FREEZING.
- by the time i got to the hospital i couldn't feel my fingers or toes.
- none of the upper GI surg people were around.
- none of them answered the pages.
+ the gastro med 5th year taught c, l and i how to put in IVs. :)
- i left their group after the rest of them arrived because there were already 5 of them.
- my group, as usual, is always absent.
- i gave up and went grocery shopping.
+ i was home just after 10am.
+ cooked lunch.
+ watched p.s. i love you. omg such a sad show. and it has denny in it. haha. okay i don't know his real name.

am gonna studyyy. haha. right after doing the dishes. whee.


this is hilarious btw:
http://cdn1.libsyn.com/mb/tmbs-090420-the_mosquito_song.mp3?nvb=20090420033444&nva=20090421034444&t=0798ad6d3b0ac7d6763e5


You are strong enough to take my dreams, come and give them wings.

+ church.
+ replaced jm/wk in the kitchen with zepeng.
+ aunty pansy said we should be happier because in the kitchen we get to worship and serve haha.
+ it was a blessing in disguise.
+ new people in kitchen. :)
+ aunty pansy said i have to stop telling myself that i cannot do it.
+ couple that with zepeng's book and.. hmm.
+ i told him "it's a scary book!" he said "it is. but you don't have to do all of it. just read it so you know."
+ people in church who haven't been here in a while! (eg. cherlyn valerie yisi) :D
+ collected daddy's camera from uncle kelvin. will upload photos when i have the time. :)
+ ignored the lack of tiara.
+ watched two movies (oh no i'm becoming like the evil twin). ;p
+ wildchild and kungfu panda.
+ read bits of The Screwtape Letters. i have to say i don't understand about 1/3 of it. :\
- don't know what to wear later for mafiprincess! :\
+ am rediscovering old songs. :)
- only yuwan is happy that the semester continues tomorrow.
- ward rounds start at 7.30am tomorrow morning. ;_: how to wake uppp.
+ mish is back in brisbane haha. PHOTOS. we should stay longer in brisbane next year. and fly to save time.
- it's really cold.
- so lazy to carry all the stuff down blackburn road sigh.


day #9

i have a day #9 in my holiday. :D:D haha. the little things, the little things.

+ half boiled eggs for breakfast. :)
+ kam picked me up to go to corrz's house to help jas.
+ love their house. like really really. :O so nice!
+ mocha hot cross bun (and the story behind it ;p).
+ wedding programmes.
+ paper, string, roses. :)
+ jas bought us macs for lunch. :)
+ punch holes.
+ left to burwood bowling club. ;p
+ corrz and her underhand methods of making me play!
+ lawn bowling (old people's game). ;p
+ my arm has no strength.
+ thank you for rolling the jack nearer that one game. ;p
+ millions of unglam shots of jas haha.
+ the sun came out. :D
+ drinks at michael flinders. :) i felt young. ;p
+ home.
+ wanjie gave us glutinous rice! ❤ it was YUM. x)

+ michael's picking us up for church setup in a while.
- i think i really need to start prepping for the next rotation.
- i don't have a tiara.
+ will most probably be baking tonight. :D hopefully i can give yisi a muffin tomorrow. :)
+ want to try making the pumpkin pancakes sometime! :D so yummy heh.
+ i've been listening to the same song over and over for 5 days and am not sick of it yet. :)
- i have to restart my project slurp.
+ am feeling more psychologically prepared for starting a new uni week whee. ;p

today was surprisingly good even though most of the people who went were people i didn't really talk to, or haven't really talked to before (not to mention, they were mostly older ;p). corrz brought the jack to my ball. :)

it reminded me of a pe lesson in jc when eenian kept throwing the ball to me (even though it was in the wrong direction) just to get me to play. handball. our pe teacher was a relief teacher, this young guy who let us bully him by just sitting on the grass and not wanting to play. eventually he made me play though. while xieai got to continue sitting on the grass haha. huiru got a diana splitzer and i'll get to play around with it when i go home. :) it's nice to have someone with the exact same toy to play with and exchange ideas with. :) even though we're miles apart. love you both. :)


"go with who?"
"go with your boy lah."
"my boy... he don't care one lor."
"haha why. you two broke up already ah."
"... (zzz) yeah we broke up."
hurhur people say the funniest things.





But things are different now. And doubt is a luxury we can't afford anymore, sweetie. You have more power than you realize. Don't think. And don't worry! When the time comes, you'll know what to do. It's in your blood.
- Elastigirl, The Incredibles

people in church (in singapore) used to compare me with violet incredible when the movie came out. they said my fringe covered my face and my character was similar to hers. so every time i watched the movie i'd watch her especially. (what exactly is my point?)

hmm. jas came over to scan stuff just now. she said "hello mouse." ;p and wrote on the wall haha. complaining that there was no space. and "ian's hand where got so fat." will be going to help her with stuff tomorrow before the party thing. ;p fun! haha.

went for cg. as we walked there the sky changed colour. there was still light out when we left, and by the time we got to atlantic st there were stars out. :) and that all happened within half an hour. so cool. x)

somebody keeps challenging me.

"this is not a stethoscope, this is ccm." michael keeps coming up with the weirdest catch phrases, the most popular one being "big circle, big things." ;p

didn't have dinner because of the weird late afternoon snack i had. we played polar bear and watched a documentary on dr ben carson. i want to read his book.

came back and washed up and i am feeling really tired. must be the 5 hours of sleep i got last night. this is what it's going to be like in the coming week. :\ i'm not ready for it yet.

haha i keep thinking that what the guys are doing tomorrow is so eggciting. ;p even though i can imagine it will be freezing. but so cool eh. i think that is doable. not like bungee jumping. haha.

wow once you start following other people it's like opening a floodgate, and suddenly there are all sorts of people following you, reblogging your reblogged stuff and liking your entries. interesting.

saying something out loud to yourself makes it real. saying it out loud to someone else makes it more real. saying it out loud to a bunch of people might make it unbearable.

my thumb is cracked in two places!


i like to ramble;

it's friday and the hols are almost over. :( (smtwmbiep) still, it was nice to have a normal holiday like everyone (read: first and second year med), without assignments to worry about just yet (read: the rest of the uni). ;p

it appears that the entire world (on facebook) is going for an exchange programme/ has gone for one. minus of course the old(er) people and people like us. eek. finland, paris, hongkong, california etc etc. and even the guys who have yet to start uni have gone for holidays to exciting places! like to visit jason haha. i am so envious. i can't wait for 5th year, even though it's just a 6-week rotation and i have no clue where i want to go. yet. ;p

i got rid of the stain on the dress. :D haha. doesn't mean i'll wear it, but. hmm. ;p i still don't know what to wear for the wedding! :\

yumcha with victoria sam keith kien lionel and uncle ivan. :D i am stuffed. keith got us huge discounts. whee. :D

have been watching shows i got from cherlyn haha. OH NO. i feel guilty for not prepping for upper GI surg. yet. maybe tomorrow. :\ in between stuff. heh.


But I know better than anyone that you can run away, even walk away, and it doesn't change the bottom line. I liked seeing the flowers bloom out there, liked knowing they can. If they can root out there, so can I.
- Angels Fall, Nora Roberts


would like that, very much.

- there is a HUGE spider above my bed.
+ today i ate the same amount of lunch as yuwan - achievement of the year.
+ i've spent most of the day reading, and the book has turned out better than i thought it would. :)
+ and i am a fan of coriandersea.
- stepped out of the house once today.
+ talked to zepeng in the doorway when he came to claim his doujiang.
+ he wants to lend me another book haha. the first book he lent me is still sitting on my shelf. i doubt i got through more than a few pages. :\
- i couldn't complete the sudoku puzzle today.
+ long shower.
- really feel like baking, but i don't have an orange!
+ sixty days before i am home again. :)


day #6

windy day. it rained too. but then the sun came out again. :)

+ got up reasonably on time.
+ the parents finished packing and loading and we went to pick ian up.
+ drove to essendon dfo without really getting lost on the way. :)
+ shopped separately. well mostly separately.
+ i bought a kids top. ;p i'm becoming like my sister. but i really like it haha. ;p
+ drove back to near the train station to have lunch at the same fish&chips shop.
- the scallops were disappointing. :(
- bye army and daddy! heh.
- i've gotten too used to this.
+ went to the city.
+ sent the film for developing.
+ went into the melbourne GPO for the first time (i've been in sydney's before, but never melb).
+ ben sherman and uncle shirts. ;p
- can't remember what else we did.
+ collected the photos. :)
+ walked around the underground arcade.
+ cool zine shop, except maybe a bit too abstract. they'd made really nice doodle books though. if they used better paper and left room for people to add their own stuff.
+ boost juice (the usual). :D
+ train to caulfield and bus to the bus loop.
- i couldn't finish the sudoku. :(
+ chicken rice for dinner. :)

- i realised that though it's getting better i still cannot talk about that without feeling ____ for at least a while.
- the parents' flight got delayed (3.5 hours) so they only flew at 7. but of course they still refuse to switch me to SQ.
- i have weird urges to do a pathology quiz. must be because it's already wednesday.
+ the other book i ordered online came in the mail yesterday. :)
+ i finished the sudoku. :)
- i think autumn temperatures are setting in. :(
- i don't know what to do tomorrow.





day #5

woke up late this morning. like 10+. :O haha. almost 10 hours of sleep. that's more than the amount of sleep i got over the entire OC haha. ;p still had to drag myself out of bed though, after yuwan left for mt dandenong and the parents went to clayton.

daddy fixed my new bookshelf. :D thank you daddy! i just half-filled it up. am happy to have a place for the books i've been shelving on the floor the past year. :)

they came back with groceries. and we went to the city, circled around while waiting for uncle alan and aunty margaret. had lunch in the casino, it was my first time ever being in a casino. :O talked about mostly general things, except maybe opi.

then we went to the property agent's office and met with the lady who kept trying to sweet-talk us. uncle alan kept trying to shoot her down haha. she didn't do a very good job of fighting back. heh. we went to see the new apartment. by ourselves. it was supposed to be locked but we just tried the door and it was unlocked. so were all the other apartments in West so we saw a few.

it's quite small. the living room is stupid because there isn't really space for a sofa. the tv console is on the wrong wall, in my opinion. the kitchen is kind of like the rusden house one, quite non-functional. the bedroom walls are angled because of the shape of the building. it's a bit noisy when the trains go by, but not that bad. i love the counters in the bathrooms. but i don't quite like most of the rest of it. some of the other units were weirder. the one at the corner had a panoramic view in the living room. like seriously, 270 degrees. and the windows were double glazed so it wasn't so noisy. and they had a big kitchen counter! haha. i took photos. :)

went back to crown to meet jem, then daddy drove us back to clayton. went straight to kotaraya since it was about time. then yuwan came, then sam and ian. dinnerrrr. not too bad i suppose. dessert. :D then yuwan went off for ctm and we dropped jem off at the train station.

daddy dropped us back and went to uncle kelvin's house again to talk to people about crisis relief. they're flying back tomorrow! and it doesn't feel like i've seen them a lot or spent a lot of time with them hmmm. :\ oh well. guess there will be more time in june.

i'm loving the hols, don't want to have to go back to hospitalllll. :3 grumbles. but nvm i'm going to enjoy what's left of it! :D essendon dfo tomorrow. :D


hello. :) am back from OC, which was good. :)
happy good friday and happy easter! :D


+ camped in a tent outside for the first time in my life. it was freezing, especially in the mornings!
+ my tentmate remina refused to wake up every morning at 6.30 and yuwan would shout so the whole camp could hear her "two minutes!" and "wake up now! N-O-W now!" and "10.. 9.. 8.." ;p
+ i really enjoyed warming up at the campfires every night with the bunch - remina mish ian sam jem stephen david jj yongpin/fishball matthew and random others who came along whenever. :)
+ really glad to have gotten to know some people better, especially people i haven't really talked to before, and even people from interstate. :) was good to have jem around, we hardly talked in brisbane last year.
+ spent the last night around the campfire toasting marshmallows (thanks mish, jimmy and remina!) and doing nonsense IQ things like "how many cows jumped over the fence", "open or close", "my grandmother likes.." and the train stations one. it was quite hilarious cos yongpin, ian and david took forever to get it, and when yongpin finally got it he kept going on and on. "sam's grandmother hates hate but she also hates love."
+ interesting experience of showering in a trailer around midnight, but it really wasn't as bad as some people described, and i never really minded showering in the cold at that sort of hour.
+ daily devotions at 7 in the morning, where none of us were really awake and ivy claimed that no one loves her. ;p
+ sessions, trying not to fall asleep because of the humongous sleep debt. moving in the Holy Spirit.
+ some things were revealed to me which i am going to try to erm apply in my life.
+ people were healed! :D (how did they know that lady was healed from diabetes?)
+ i had a grand total of 9 hours of sleep over the 3 nights. whee.
+ i seriously almost collapsed several times during the last session (while standing up), and once on jj while sitting. fishball and mangyik kept laughing at me.
+ keith saved my life by finding me chicken instant noodles on the day they served only beef (in our servery, and i was too lazy to go over to the other side to get chicken). :D
+ loved the lunch picnics. :)
+ baptism! :D remina jj mangyik and colin. :)
+ people did the flying fox, giant swing and canoeing! i just took photos. ;p which will go up hopefully soon.
+ anto took cool shots of us. :D can't wait to see them. :D
+ on the way there (uncle) ivan brought us to see the pelican feeding at san remo, where i went in first year on rural week. :D there was a huge stingray (like 1m wide). :O and yummy scallops.
+ i slept most of the way back. they had lunch at cowes and yuwan and i sat on the grassy part of the beach for 20 minutes. lovely. :)
+ we stopped by anzacs beach where people were surfing. it was beautiful. :D but there was supposedly a shark in the water (yuwan heard from the fisherman), so the surfers were being chased out of the water. most of them didn't care though.
+ am feeling less dead now. :)
+ 765 photos :O





before good friday-

i woke up reasonably early today. early enough to shower before going to hosp haha. ;p yes i walked. zepeng saw me from the bus and called. his self-declared holiday started on tues, even better than me. but then he's on breast surg. but today he was being guai cos he was chairing. ;p

chai, geetha, jenny and i were there for the non-existent rheum tute at 10. gene never turned up! so we sat there talking about how in moscow they're celebrating when the temperature hits zero degrees ("yessss! it isn't negative!!") and competitive dancing and how crowded singapore's getting. quite funny. ;p

only jenny and i were there for the CRF tute. it also lasted an hour but was much more comprehensive than yesterday's lecture. which was good. :) i'd intended to skip the second renal tute but since the other two weren't coming anyway, we decided to cancel it and join the next group instead. whee.

army and daddy picked me up from mmc. :D "so skinny!!" hurr. drove to ikea without the melway, got a bit lost but eventually found it. had lunch first ("actually she eats okay what."), then went to look at the sofa beds. couldn't get the one i liked (too expensive), so i finally agreed to another one. i don't really like it. we couldn't get it delivered today so the soonest would be monday, when we're back from phillip island. i got my bookshelf though. :) haven't fixed it up yet. maybe tomorrow. if i can get up early enough. :\

came home. army was saying the house was a disaster and she doesn't want to bother cleaning it anymore. which is actually fine since i don't think the house is a disaster haha. ;p but she did vacuum my floor (i drop a lot of hair, "worse than opi leh", and my grandmother is on chemo, so. yes i drop a lot of hair.), because daddy was sleeping on it. i'm bunking with yuwan tonight. she says when the sofa bed arrives she can officially move into the living room and i can rent her room out to someone else. ;p

daddy showered and collapsed on the floor. he's sleeping in my sleeping bag. army checked her mail, then wanted to sleep too. but i complained that since they were both sleeping i might as well have gone for cg haha. ;p then she said fine she'd talk to me. in the end we went to morton to get the hammer and pass ian his (huge) camera lens and door stopper. haha. ;p then he and sam stood outside talking to her for a while. ;p my mum isn't that terrifying lah. ;p

i think the cd thing is very sweet. xD although daddy already has it. haha. it was quite funny how he discovered it cos i didn't tell him, and he went to pump petrol alone. "something very strange happened just now." ;p i love my daddy haha. he's lost like 5-6kg! not as pregnant now as before. ;p

went to nando's for dinner. :) my first time eating at nando's this year okay! haha. met grace and jiunying there. ;p and then benny ben ben came out to return me the deep heat rub, which i wanted to bring to phillip island for june tomorrow. :) and he opened the door for us so we could cut through rusden and not have to walk outside in the cold. :)

packed. did random stuff. showered. used the hairdryer (i hate using the hairdryer). am tired although it isn't late! heh.

it is quite amusing to read that. ;p always one step behind. kind of like the exact opposite of my sister (she refuses to do most things i do, except maybe wearing my clothes haha).

and tiffany made sushi. :) thank you!

i miss the catssss. army showed me photos of them in isaac's new bionicle display shelf (which is huge by the way, he is so pampered. and fat). i want to hug themmm.

the friands were finished. :) hee.

oh the vivitar lookalike is actually a take one camera. will bring it to phillip island to try out. :) am wondering if i should bring the diana too. fisheye! :D i also got two disposable cameras. hmm. and a whole lot of expired film. and this really cool vintage-looking 120 film which i suspect may be black and white. :D

my paternal grandparents went down to singapore to help take care of isaac since opi can't do it now. i can't even remember when they last went to singapore. wonder how they got there. i miss the train rides with them when we were still kids. and i heard stories about what was happening at home. quite typical things i suppose, showing the petty, calculating, selfish side of ahem some people. sometimes i'm happy to be away from that. other times it just sucks to know that it is happening, still.

anyway. on to happier things. :) OC starts tomorrow! army and daddy are meeting shaoxiong on monday and we're going out for dinner with the guys on tuesday. :) they'll also get to see jeremy at OC. :) whee.

tomorrow (later) we're going to see pelicans! :D okay i already saw them at inverloch. but still. and i hope we see some friendly dogs. ;p

okay tired sleep goodnight!


HAPPY HOLIDAYS-


today i:
+ gave someone a muffin
+ thought the audio heart sounds were cool
+ drifted off during the CRF lecture
+ drank free hot choc :)
+ had lunch with the usual bunch
+ didn't have ethics or path :D
+ sent a parcel to the city (by post)
+ think the den changed their almond croissants :(
+ listened to pachelbel's canon in D :)
+ walked through the shortcut twice
+ studied a bit of path
+ tried to exceed my limit in withdrawing money
+ washed the mouse cage
+ (we) cooked everything in the fridge
+ got banana cake from cherlyn's mum! :D
+ talked about sydney
+ baked friands :)
+ was thankful for all the baking stuff celine left me :)
+ thought about how my handwriting is becoming more and more illegible every day but i don't really care anymore
+ am learning to be more grateful
+ started packing for the OC
+ did not tidy my room


i am
+ dehydrated
+ worried that i will get up late in the morning
+ wondering what to do after 1pm since everyone has ethics
+ tired


wimp.

okay i am back. pretend my hiatus entry doesn't exist. although i still don't feel 100% back. nevermind.

the last few days have been more happening than most of the semester so far. like, seriously. went to the glen for kaiwen's birthday dinner last night. :) i think i haven't actually gone out for dinner with meddies outside of cg. like, before. :O the realisation was quite. hmm. shocking. :\ but the dinner was good. :) except that perryn and i kept getting suaned and er. well. and laughed at. haha. but some parts were quite funny. ;p okay most of it haha. i can't remember where i put the card already heh.

THEN THIS MORNING I GOT UP AT 10+. omg. i set my alarm at 6 every morning in case i suddenly have the motivation to go for ward rounds when i get up. and before yuwan leaves the house at like 7+ or something, she pokes her head into my room and tells me to wake up soon and not sleep so much. and i mumble something about not wanting to wake up and promptly fall asleep again. sigh.

tute was postponed to 3.30. so i was free till then (too bad no shopping). ended up walking to clayton early, having lunch at some turkish place (loved the chicken and rice!) and ahem grocery shopping before going back for the tute. andddd it turned out that M had clinic so we hung around waiting (all 9 of us) and just talking nonsense until 4.20 when he was done.

the tute was on CXRs. and it went on forever. we were quite lost i think. poor matt kept getting targetted, like after every slide/ CXR: "matthew? okay?" ;p we were finally dismissed at 6.30. went to get chicken because there was no chicken at home. then decided to take the bus back since it was dark and cold.

but on the bus jason and sophie called and asked if we wanted to go out for dinner. :D so i dropped off earlier and went to his place hee. then we went to fetch yuwan and rachel and went to hoatran for dinner. :) finally had my vietnamese rice noodlesss. :D although i still prefer mekong haha. maybe when the parents are here.. :D

(i don't want to have to clean my room)


and also this:
(which none of us were very happy about)

we wanted to get someone to write back but eventually decided that it would make us sound small and petty, and there wasn't much point. "just go back and own them lor. that's the best answer what."




lots of love for bubble!










was just looking through old photos still in picky. and decided to put them up. :)





don't close your eyes
don't fade away

whee. okay i am back. don't really know why. my life hasn't been all that interesting. facebook quizzes are taking over. and i have somehow managed to not get any work done since before the weekend! i know. i am amazing.

this morning i refused to get up for ward rounds because it was pouring. how am i going to be a doctor! haha. i found myself wishing i could drive because that would at least mean i could leave the house without getting wet. but i'd have to park at browns road and still get wet later.. so i decided it was okay taking the bus. haha. nonsense.

j's email said the tute was at 9. i met A at 9 and he said the tute was at 11 (as i'd written in my diary), so.. went to the library. finally found out how to use the computers there (gasp) and did this week's pathology case, before it got to friday and i forgot again. like i said on fb, i am perfecting the art of doing the cases only using google and wiki. someone please tell me i need to do the readings.

only half the group turned up for the tute (read: two students to one tutor), but he was very nice about it. i'm still thoroughly confused about GN. actually i never knew GN was this complicated until this year. i think i didn't pay attention in lectures last year.

got some food and came back. the cold wasn't too bad once you got used to it.

since i finished The History of Love (within 42 hours), i started a new book, Angels Fall. i liked The History of Love better. i want Man Walks Into a Room. :) oh i tried stuffing myself really full for lunch because yes, i am worried about being 41kg. maybe one day i will disappear. i added more cheese to the fish baked rice haha. it probably tasted better last night. ;p

IT IS VERY COLD TODAY.

oh we are going to myanmar in the end. :) details were confirmed. i am excited about it! hee. :D i wonder who else is on our team.

and and and i really want to go for the kelong holiday in june/july! i hope it happens. it isn't the monsoon season this time. pleaseeee happen.

hmm. i like doing fb quizzes to see what the results are. and how sometimes the results can be so accurate. like i am from sajc haha (the logo they used looks weird). i doubt i'll become a pathologist though. i cannot imagine cutting up buckets of viscera from 9-5 every day of my life. :\ haha.

i'm bored and headachey.

you know how with the end of daylight savings comes the sudden realization that the days are getting shorter? that it gets dark earlier? even though we moved back an hour. perhaps it's just worse today because of the bad (or good?) weather. but i really don't like it. i wish it got dark at 9 every day! heh. i wouldn't even mind the 3 hour time difference.

(by the way we are 2 hours ahead now)

hmmm i don't like being the middleman. i like bedhead out of naps. ;p haha random.

ikea ikea! i can't wait. i can't wait for hols, and my parents to be here. OC is coming too. i have to admit i wasn't too excited about that. for certain reasons. but don't worry it's just me. and i'm starting to slowly, slowly become slightly excited about it. better than nothing right? heh. okay i can't wait for thursday. i am counting down. 2.5 days! and they can even pick me up from the hospital haha i don't have to walk whee. ;p

"you want to go ikea with my parents without me?" :D
haha i thought that was hilarious. ;p

remember: tea towels

i wonder why they can never compare.


subsist on water and air.




remind us all of what we used to be.

okay, to appease people who don't have blogs to read while at work (AHEM). ;p one entry!

did my MCR and handed in my CAT. it feels like holidays already, just that we have another 4 days packed with ward rounds (i bet they must be bitching about us for not turning up the last few days), 3 renal tutes and 1 rheum tute, pbl, the surg bedside tute, clinics (will i end up going?) and other random things you find to do around the hospital (like try to get free hot chocolate/ tomato soup).

i don't like people who talk when someone else is talking. the someone else being the person in front, the one you're meant to be listening to. i think it's really disrespectful. okay i know the politically correct thing would be to say i don't like it when people do that. but actually i really don't like the people. (shoot me)

the parents are coming on thursday (i think it's thursday), i really don't know how to entertain them haha. might skip GN clinic to go out with them. :D but that would mean i haven't been to even one in the 3 weeks i've been on renal. army got my notebooks and mujifilm and daddy got me a vivitar-lookalike, and he's getting me some film too. :) thank you! and they're going to get a sofabed for the living room too. :)

what else. oh i have discovered that i can percuss the abdomen but i can't percuss the lungs. or rather, i can percuss something horizontal but not something vertical. and i've palpated enlarged livers and balloted polycystic kidneys! cool beans. okay not for the people who had them..

why do i want to be a doctor..?

heh. home early on a friday night! this calls for either a) sleep or b) fiction. :D either sounds good. :D


hiatus;
a pause or gap in a sequence, series, or process.

will be writing elsewhere for a while, but i'll come back soon. :)

(don't worry i'm not off to kill myself or anything)