fawn
27
(doctor!)
singapore/ sunny coast
melbourne! ♥
(would love to bake for a cafe/
?bird & brie)
wallflower
☁
my brother says i am
a cumulonimbus cloud :)

also

joy unspeakable that won’t go away
and just enough strength to live for today
so i never have to worry
what tomorrow will bring
‘cause my faith is on a solid rock
i am counting on God
♡
in dreams and in love
there are no impossibilities.
- jános arany
☼
You make all things
work together for my good.

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turn around,
if you can let go.

surprisingly (or not), i understand my adverse reactions.

i need to be able to say something without feeling hypocritical. i need to be able to say something and really mean it.

amazing grace, how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me


if you visit someone's profile on fb often enough, it overrides the normal alphabetical order. i know this because..

hmm.

anyway, ivy brought me out for dinner. :) went to pancake parlour in glen waverley. i am sooo full. but the food was good. :) thank you!

actually i liked today's weather a lot more than the previous colder days (and the next few to come). even though it was a bit warm. i was indoors most of the time though. and my house is cooler anyway..

study lahhh.


deciphering me.

i killed two of my toes yesterday stubbing them on some concrete thing.

just missed the bus this morning, i saw it drive by. so i went back inside and contemplated taking the next bus.. or just not going for ward rounds. but i decided to go since the consultant was supposed to be there. but guess what. he wasn't! cheat my feelings grr. and i think out of the 4 of us in the group, g and s have only seen me haha.

followed them around. then went off for the radiotherapy tour with j. rt is really quite cool. it has to be so precise. thankfully the urology resident was there when i went to check, so i got the name of the patient. and the ward clerk was nice she helped me check his UR and told me where the medical records office was. and the people in the office were nice too.

went to chaddy. met jeremiah in the bus haha. shopped but didn't get some stuff i wanted to get. no size for the shoes. :( met edward coming out of 900 so i stopped to talk and then missed the bus haha. but it was okay i took 802. met sarah in 703. :)


YUCKS.

went for ward rounds in the morning with chai from 8 till 9, then went for the lung outpatient clinic with the consultant, who was nice.

the guy with urinary obstruction wasn't there anymore, and the urology reg wasn't around and stupidly i'd forgotten to take down his (the patient's) name so i couldn't get his medical records. nevermind i'll go again tomorrow. met matt and lachlan who were going for breast surg.

went to get groceries and came back, had lunch and watched ub3, baked apple crumble and washed the cage, sort of showered the mice too. but dandenong insisted on climbing up my hand every time and i was afraid she'd bite me so i didn't really do it properly. nevermind lah after nesting in the clean sawdust they'll smell nice again. :)

oh i also tried making apple chips but they didn't turn out great because of the different thickness of the slices haha. and they taste like seneca apple chips! :D except without all the preservatives haha. ;p


i keep putting garnier around my eyes because for the minute after i do, i can actually open them normally and it feels nice. caffeine for my eyes, which are really dying.



Friend, it's getting late
We should be going
We've been sat here beneath these flickering neons for hours
while I am cracking their code, you are deciphering me
for i am a mystery, I am a locked room in a tall tower

Oh can you feel the gravity falling, calling us home?
Oh, did you see the stars colliding, shining just to show we belong?
We belong.


'cause it's always raining in my head.

long day again. lectures from 9-1 (with a 1-hour break because we didn't have cotw today). lunched with people behind the ccm counter, then went to hal with jane to do this week's path case. without doing the readings. again. sigh i'm very behind. pathology lecture, i have to say that it was really boring. and i think he was jumping around a bit. oh well. ended early, yay.

hung around waiting for everyone else to appear, then had the trial run for the quest for the truth. was grouped with jane and megan. :) megan had to leave halfway though. ran (okay walked) around campus. the storyline was really good i think. just a bit wordy and complicated. haha. and maybe the instructions not that clear so we didn't really know what we were supposed to do. and some of it was just too hard! haha.

went off with michael to pick jj and remina (?) up for dinner at la porchetta with chris and joce. :) had (mostly) yummy food and talked about a lot of stuff. i think michael was quite lost when we talked about the series we watch. ;p and then we got lost when chris, joce and michael talked about anime/ manga. but it was good. :) rapunzel and creepy fairy tales.

michael sent us back, and lent me a cd haha.

i did actually want to come back and do the path readings. we're supposed to go for ward rounds at clayton tomorrow. but i did tell the onco resident that i'd be there tomorrow. so i suppose i'll go there. and maybe organise to do the first formative mcr on friday? hmm. or monday. haha. okay bussing down with d tomorrow.

and then i'm taking the afternoon off to grocery shop, bake, and rest. yay. cg in the evening. :) we'll be med again. michael was asking me this evening: if i want to know everything about medicine, what should i read? got a 'medicine for dummies' not? ;p hahaha.

crocodile tears.


okay i am really exhausted beyond belief. KO-ed on the bed for a while just now but forced myself to get up to finish the stupid ebcp thing. i think it's quite crappy. because i am so tired. but whatever lah i really cannot do anymore. especially if i intend to try and be awake during lects tomorrow. tired! goodnight.


tired again. but that's to be expected, since i got up at 6.30 and was in hospital from 8-6.30.

okay. ward rounds with g (reg) and s (resident) in moorabbin. g is exactly how the other group described him. s is nicer, she told me stuff and asked me a few questions along the way.

rushed off to clayton for an ECG tute with a 5th year. it was pretty good. since i couldn't remember anything from last year.

got a lift from chai back to moorabbin and had a GIT tute with our other 5th year, who is really nice. but this is her last week on this rotation so we won't see her anymore.

then i went to the urology ward to find a patient for next week's pbl on urinary obstruction. the ent hmo was nice and helped me call the urology reg, who came with the resident. i have to say that both of them were asses. seriously. but they were also really nice in that they gave me a tute on urinary obstruction in the cafeteria.

went back to clayton to eat/ drink free hot choc/ borrow a book. met the surg tutor, he was on time, gasp. revised CVS history and ECG again, then went to see a patient. finished on time too, another gasp.

PERRYN YOU BETTER HAVE BEEN THE ONE WHO TOOK MY HARD DRIVE. sorry it's just a bit scary to do things like this. :\

today i heard way too many profanities. and like swearing. and cursing. like seriously.

and. they like to use the word 'confronting'. but it was really quite confronting, to be there when the reg tells the patient that his cancer isn't responding to treatment, and that they have nothing left to offer. like a death sentence.

if i had 30 days left to live i'd fly home on the next flight.

walked to kanooka and joab picked me up (thank you!). went to church office but only caught the last little bit of the EGM. touching heaven. and i got my photos, thank you! :) you can deduct the money off the massive amount you owe me after all the etsy buys. ;p should i get the minolta! haha. crap.

okay have to do work. quiz first.


this is why my credit card bills skyrocket. without me knowing why. online shopping places are really the bane of my life haha. such a junkie.


am tired. i didn't do much today again! ah.

almost done with the ebcp thing, finally. just have to try and read the relevant parts of the article and justify and summarise it.

tomorrow is stupid. okay. i mean. the timetabling is stupid.

8am ward rounds in moorabbin
10am ECG tute in clayton
12nn some GIT tute in moorabbin
4.30pm surg bedside tute in clayton


breakable

woke up early. after sleeping late trying to read the pbl stuff.

the sun was red when i got out of bed, orange when i got to the junction of the big roads, and yellow by the time i got on the bus to clayton. what is it that happens to the sun when the moon turns blood red?

bruschetta for breakfast. :) and a plum. and then i took back that which was mine. although it is kind of like half a shu yu left hanging by itself. don't worry i'll probably return it soon.

IT IS VERY HOT TODAY.

hmm. met the tutor in the lift and went to open the door/ borrow chairs etc. then went back downstairs to find other people haha. pbl finished by 11.15 but we hung around discussing the different rotations and tipping each other off on what we should/ shouldn't do.

was a stupid time to go find a patient because they were going to have lunch. tried to find perryn but couldn't, so i went to uni. printed photos and came back. it's really too hot to walk. don't walk outside today please.

i can't wait for the diana photos. :D and more gg haha.

rehydration.

i think people who do secret things on fb are scary.


toast to the future, would that be a lie?

i had a good day. :)

church. was grumbling about being on kitchen actually. and prayer was started with me being ushered into another group hurhur. but that's how it works i guess. prayed for joy in serving. and yes i did have fun in the kitchen today haha. although it involved a lot of rushing and "oh no not enough food" and "this is just a nonsense combi lah" haha. ;p

went to the city with ian and zep. finished my roll of film and sent it off for processing yay. but we were late so i couldn't collect it today. but that's alright, tues. :) thank you for running errands for meee.

laguna, flagstaff (!!), elizabeth st, bourke st, music shop, breadtop (but i left the bottle in the train :_;) that random shop the 4a girls went to in chinatown last winter, around carlton, ricebar, melbourne central, flinders to meet the others and then back.

sparrows bathing in the sand! orange setting sun. flag flown at half-mast. random angmoh guy who knew practically every asian guy who walked past. almonds. lychee ice and the salt and spicy (?) chicken hee. :D the pearl purse on bourke st. random game shop. disgusting jokes by zepeng's cousins haha. my chinese is worse than ian's. :O i actually thought that was quite impossible haha. ;p but now i constantly need a translator. :\ what's the point of 13 years of chinese lessons?

met jacky at the bus loop also. he asked about the mice. ;p i think that one time i brought them to cg left a big impression in everyone's minds hahaha. ;p

my legs are aching i cannot walk anymore. i don't know why they're so tired! i can't wait to see the photos. ;p

read my eyes/ blinks. haha read my calendar too, but it doesn't say much. a lot of blue (uni) at the moment, no more red because i've been lazy. ;p

CLASS AT 9AM TOMORROW. eeks. pbl. i am very unprepared. and my tutor is quite scary. :\ but. that's all i have for the day haha. okay i suppose i should really go find some patients to talk to. my project slurp has been dying slowly..


my head is swimming.

okay i think this is taking 34308490304 times too long. it's crappy. i don't even know what a systematic review looks like. !! sigh. but i've found my potential article. and done half the presentation. whee. if i find out that i can't use that article i will bang my head against the wall.

hurhur i think i'm learning dramatization from my sister.

that wasn't something i thought i'd have to reconsider. but now that it's come up again.. hmm. maybe. :)

it's coming again. i really don't want it to. even though it's happened millions of times before, i find that i still cannot deal with it.


flew into them.

haha caleb looks cute in his uniform. ;p ahhahaha.

had competitions with yuwan while waiting for jason to pick us up for ccm packing. ;p i think anyone who saw us would have thought we're mad. ;p which we kind of are.. haha. i couldn't think of many girl names starting with S.

ccm packing at church office, packed the showbag things and had training and briefings. and renewed our membership haha. break at macs.

came back and cooked curry chicken.

thank you to the people who delivered my lunch. :)

neckache from sleeping in the wrong position. i assume. i have no photophobia, or rash.. haha.

i hate ebcp. and inertia! and the lazy-saturday-afternoon feeling. :x


if each star was a song
and every breath of wind, praise
it would still fail by far to say
all my heart contains

(a) be upset that you are always being asked to do things
(b) be happy that you have the opportunity to, and that you're the first person to be asked

haha if lynette does her positive pysch and becomes a motivational speaker she can motivate me. i think i need a lot of motivation.

annoyed at 3 for telling me i can give them my phone to send to repair, then telling me i have to bring it to the city to update the software on a weekday. hello i may be more free than other 3rd year meddies but i am not that free okay. grr.

came back and had lunch. then we went to help lynette move her stuff from morton to farrer, made two trips. didn't get to check on the burning magazine. we were saying how it might have caused a bush fire ha. and i haven't been checking the map.

i seriously did not do anything productive the entire day. :(

walked to wellington. met paul at the junction, he was going to the gym so we walked together.

paul: you're happy today!
me: huh why?
paul: you waved hi to me!

hahaha. he always complains that i don't say hi to him. or that when i do, it's very reluctant. ;p

damien drove past and waved hi also haha. weird that i recognised his car. stopped at the pool to get the pamphlet thing.

didn't touch my talley at all. did other stuff.

cg. signs and wonders. there were lots of new people today so the group was quite big..

okay i'm really tired.

there are questions i'm supposed to ask, i know. i used to ask them, too. so what's changed between then and now?


day#2 - where will i be when i stop wondering why

HAHA maybe i shouldn't have poked back. i don't think i even said that i did audibly. hurhur.

muffins and cake baking in the oven. :) although i don't think that you can make proper cakes out of muffin recipes. hmm. but i was lazy. okay no i didn't have enough ingredients. :3

more treasure in the 7370 sigh. haha and some of it isn't even happy, reminders, being scolded, arguments, sad admission. i think i'm crazy. gerbils, siblings, bionicles, paleface, pancake parlour. makes my phone seem ancient even though it's less than 3 years old. i'd rather use the 6100 but it rejects the 3 simcard.

spy. i want to drown in chocolate hazelnut brittle can.

i'm supposed to study todayyyy.

crap crap crap first mcr due soon.


then you do it over again

thank you wanjie for the bubble tea! :D
and thank you yuwan for coming up with a pico question for me. :) although i cannot get it to work. zzz.

haha went to wash car with jason and zepeng. at such a weird hour. okay i didn't do much. just helped to dry it haha. and had soap sprayed at my feet.

baby photo!

zz i'm very slack compared with everyone else. but i am still very tired. i don't even have the energy to read a book. :O which is rare.

wonder how long i can keep this up.


where's your picket fence love?

got up, reviewed respi history and exam, tried to think of a pico question for ebcp but failed miserably. walked to mmc, medical bedside tute, walked to uni and met ivy on the way. :) library session (searching the literature) and then back. to change and rest and wait for the hour to change before i go grocery shopping. whee.

really need to finish the film and get it developed. problem is that there is no one to take photos of.. and yes, it's starting to get to me that we don't see people in different clinical schools anymore. :( and even then, dandy and casey people only on weds. ah.

30deg. grumbles.





procrastination:







perfect measure.

yay survived today without keeling over. my pink heart-covered thing smells a bit chaota after i microwaved it in the middle of the night. :\ it smells like chaota rice. hmm.

lectures in the morning.

1. oxygen therapy (more like a physics lecture), the guy was very engaging, so even though i didn't understand everything i didn't fall asleep. ;p

2. diagnosing arthritis. didn't fall asleep either, but i think i will have to read a lot more before i can remember everything.

3. case of the week - 18-month-old boy with ITP. presentation by 5th years, but michelle kept asking them to explain stuff at our level, which was good.

4. sepsis. a 5th year lecture, couldn't catch much of it and was falling asleep towards the end.. heh.

went to read up/ slack/ listen to guitar/ think, then had fish and chips (without the chips) on the way to uni. iced milk tea. :) thank you, although yes, it was my money haha.

was terribly sleepy during the path lecture. but it was all stuff we'd learnt before anyway. was supposed to be 1.5 hours long but it only lasted 45 mins. zzz. went to hal with kw to find her neuroanat books, then went back.

am contemplating whether to sacrifice my 7370 for a few weeks to send my 910i for servicing.

too many things i don't know..

oh! was really happy to come back to a package in the mail. :) randomly bought things off etsy and it's really cool. :D they date back to the 1960's. ;p but the thing i love most is the safety pin that came with it haha. ;p okay i'm a vintage junkie.

hello vital exhaustion.


careful..

wow, long day. tired. and i think i killed my shoes walking today. :(

got up to the sms, was happy. :) did things in a very haphazard manner, ironing my shirt before washing up. read a bit of path but the hepatobiliary system is too complex for me, apparently. either that or my brain hasn't regained its function since leaving melb last year. :\ either way that better change soon. before i get out of slack rotations, hopefully.

went to visit the new arrival today, and as usual, the house has this way of making me feel completely nuah and not wanting to do anything or go anywhere, despite all the cobwebs and heat. so i was quite upset at having to leave, but by the time i got to moorabbin it wasn't too bad. positive thinking woot. (okay i don't have much of a choice). thank you anyway, i hope you're feeling better.

waited forever for clinic. then waited forever for someone "suitable" for me to sit in with. finally i gave up on the nurses and grabbed some guy (a medical oncologist), who was quite nice. he explained a lot and kept asking me to ask questions when i didn't know what to ask! saw two patients. only two! heh. but it was alright i guess. at least they're doing well with their treatments.

rushed back to clayton for the surg bedside tute, the reg was late again. and he wasn't even in surg before. he was being all philosophical again. but not as bad as last time. went through basic Hx taking and systems review principles. then chai volunteered to do the Ex on the patient but he said "no you can't do it because you haven't been answering questions. i only like people who like me." ?! he is so weird.

anyway we all thought chai did the Hx and Ex brilliantly but nooo apparently it wasn't. missed a few things i suppose, but still. first attempt okay. anyway. the patient was nice he let all 9 of us palpate and auscultate his subcutaneous emphysema, which felt bubbly ("you are studying medicine, you must speak in medical language. what is bubbly? it is crepitations.") and sounded crackly (crackles).

had a long and draggy feedback session in which he fired many questions at poor chai. i think all of us were tired and just wanted to go home. he made us write feedback on white paper too. sigh.

walked to bettina for dinner with lingling and her mother. :) they're very nice people.. haha. they have mice in the house though.. or maybe rats. hmm. walked back after that, with random weird people honking at us along the road. and blackburn road outside bettina was dark so it was quite scary there. but after that it was fine..

mhow amuses me with his random aiyooo's haha. probably because he's lived here all his life. but his dad is singaporean so i guess that's where it comes from.

zzz i want to sleep!


to clear the mess in my head from multiple emails/ smses/ change of timing.

mon:
- 9am pbl c
- 12.30pm breastscreen m

tues:
- no surg today yay! (this means no more surg for this rotation, and the next because it's oncology)
- 1pm unit meeting m
- 1.30pm outpatient clinic m
- 4.30pm surgical clinical bedside tute c

weds:
- 8am professorial medical meeting? c
- 9am-1pm lectures c
- 2pm workshop c
- 4.30pm pathology tute u

thurs:
- 11am medical clinical bedside tute c
- 2pm ebcp library session u

fri:
- i am freeeee! :D i love fridays.


EMOMOMO.

today i was fascinated by how the radiologist recorded his.. whatever it's called. and the surgeon too. and i stole one of the (unrecorded) tapes. haha. oops. i think hospital stuff is very tempting to steal. :\ i think my morals are going down the drain. :\

dinner at korean garden with soph ivy steph JANE chris yuwan ting amy joce rachel. :) spicy food though, i think the soup would have been very nice if i had been able to swallow it. ;p but like amy, i'm not a masochist. haha.

when jane picked ivy's phone up i didn't recognise her voice and i was trying to figure out who she was. hahaha. then when i saw her i was like OHHHH. ;p

went to ivy's house to cut cake! saw steph's teeth x-ray.. and her room. ;p then some guys appeared and i was reminded to write about the trees..

on saturday, jason helped us bring the friendship trees to church. they were actual trees (okay, big branches), so it was quite a big job (yuwan wanted us to carry them and walk to church). but he managed to fit 3 trees into his car boot! hahaha. with one of the backseats down of course. ;p we accidentally spilt soil in his car.. :\ sorry jason! thank you for helping us transport the trees, even though your car had to suffer.

am feeling lazy to go to hospital tomorrow.... hurr. project SLURP has been revised (2/day). i am also lazy to stand through anymore surgeries (and i have only seen 2 this rotation). but i do want to go for the IV cannulation workshop haha. ;p weds is so busy.

reading kenneth ng's note made me smile haha. okay besides it being so random that he would tag us. i think he did the note in a way that only he could have haha. i will admit that i understood like. none. of it. ;p

happy birthday michael! :D


back from hospital! which is kind of a relief. heh.

walked to mmc clayton for the 9am pbl, met rachel along the way haha, just after thinking that i might. ;p the pbl tutor is slightly scary. i don't have a task! haha.

had free hot choc with chai, then spent some time in the library. couldn't find the shuttle to moorabbin. or maybe it was late. or something. so i took the 703. waste my money. heh. waited around in bs, finally the radiologist came. he was in such a rush. i still don't understand how he can decide which is a mass and which is just normal glandular tissue.

sat in with the surgeon for 2 cases, she told them they had breast cancer. like breaking practically every single "breaking bad news" rule. the nurses were much nicer.

saw 2 core biopsies and a normal ultrasound. and then it was over and i went back to clayton because i'd left stuff in the locker. and then back. and then had lunch because i hadn't eaten anything the whole day haha.

going for sophie's birthday dinner soon. :)


weather forecast: smoke haze. :\


novelty,

my table is clean! dust-free. and reasonably neat. :D and so is my bedside table. haha. but my wardrobe is still in a bit of a mess. and the things under my bed are in a huge mess haha. but yes, one step at a time. :) satisfaction, is probably something i don't feel too often.

will hopefully wash the mouse cage tomorrow. depending on how many hours of sunlight there are by the time i get back tomorrow. ;p

apparently calvin's friend isn't staying here tonight. hmmm.

opened the box just now and looked at everything heh.

pbl tomorrow morning at mmc, i get to walk to hospital. ;p and drink free hot choc that the locals never drink (they are always at zouki). am wondering if there's any point in reading anything for pbl since the pbl case hasn't even been confirmed.

i realised that i forgot to submit something. !! oh dear.

monday blues!


vday service. i was so happy to see all the words and hearts still on the wall when we got to church haha. ;p was pretty busy most of the time. i have to admit that i wasn't really listening to the message. :\

thank you chris for helping to get rid of the muffins. ;p

zp bought one for me! ;p

zp: which do you recommend?
me: banana choc chip. but depends on what you like.
zp: okay that one.

then he points his finger in my face, ha! now you cannot say i never give you muffin. hahaha. ;p then after that he had no more money so i bought him one also haha. ;p

okay i think i'm glad it's over. other things to do..

megan was giving out the thorny yellow roses after service haha. it's pretty but i'm afraid the petals will fall out when/ before it's dried because it's already bloomed.

came back and finished lunch with yuwan on the floor. then i watched notting hill, which corrz mentioned in her testimony today ("and don't forget, i'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her"). hmm i liked the songs. ;p

cleaned my room. !!!
haha achievement of the day. cleaned the floor, vacuumed and everything. :) cleared most of the clothes off the chair too. i want to clean my table. but i think the mice are more pressing (they stink). i'm not looking forward to washing the cage because my fingers are dying! heh.

had a muffin break. ;p and on second thought, i won't wash the cage until i get more gloves. means.. clean table. :)


彷佛还是昨天
可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见

happy birthday sophie! :D

it didn't (still doesn't) feel like vday at all. yuwan and i were trying to find happy love songs to make it feel more like vday. but she hardly has any! all about breaking up, waiting for someone etc etc. haha. how depressing.

but she was saying it doesn't feel like vday because we hang out with people who aren't attached. for example, michael was grocery shopping and moving house (or maybe tomorrow), jason was having a CS party, most people were cooking/ baking for tomorrow.. haha. 1kg = 18 drummets. ;p housewife academy.

so most of the day has been spent baking and doing the very last min decor for tomorrow. and also trying to figure out how to make the trees stand. hahaha. yuwan is quite innovative. ;p i wonder how it'll all look tomorrow. ;p

then we cooked lunch at like 5. haha. and yuwan went to hannah's farewell, and i did stuff until 7+ when jason came to pick me (and the trees) up for set up.

set up! was quite errr because quite a lot of people weren't there. but shaun was very nice to help us stick the things on the wall! because we were too short. and he had to stand on a wobbly stool. thank you shaun! :) hearts all over the walls, yellow balloons and ribbons for the bush fire appeal. then joab sent us back. :) thank you kor.

had dinner at like 11+, which i suppose was okay since lunch was at 5. packed the muffins in a box.

i really want to bandage my fingers up. but at least they aren't hurting like last night. i'm thankful that i still have fingerprints on one hand.

tired..


mm banana choc chip muffin fresh out of the oven. :) haven't had one in too long. but. we're not done yet. grr. decided not to in the end. even though i really wanted to. and still do. haha. oh well. maybe i couldn't handle it anyway. i hope she goes though!

i just found treasure in my 5 yo phone.


it's already valentine's day. wow. and i've been here 2 weeks. and i didn't do anything.. if you know what i mean.

i'm actually very tired. i don't know why i feel exhausted at the end of the day when i hardly do anything. :\

okay. i baked 4 batches of muffins today. but they were smaller batches because each muffin was bigger. baking paper, which is a pain to use as muffin cups. but yes, bigger muffins. i really felt like eating one of the mixed berry ones just now. haha. it may be a slight problem that i don't know what they taste like. :\

have to continue tomorrow. and the paper hearts toooo because i'm too tired to do it now. oh dear. and ivy says next time i shouldn't give people free muffins anymore if they don't order one for sunday haha. but seriously, it's for a good cause. more than 180 people have died from the bush fires. how scary is that? :\ it feels like singapore during the SARS outbreak. and smells like singapore when indo had their forest fires. and the stories are quite scary. :\ ahh.


combined cg! lg. we played human mastermind, which was fun but involved cheating and lasted very long. ;p my memory really cmi.

michael's moving house so we can use his rental van to bring the trees to church haha. yuwan was actually intending to walk to church with them. :O

backache.. :( sleep.


i haven't done any work today. :\

ate
met steph in the bus! :)
grocery shopped
ate
read
laundry

time to do proper things.

the air smells like haze. :\ which is scary.





i promised you the world again.

703 doesn't like me. two out of the three times i've taken that bus to moorabbin, it's either had an accident/ broken down.

finished the path case. i still can't remember most of what i read. and yes i spent a very little bit of time in hospital today. :\ but there was no breast screen clinic, no breast surg, and only one br patient willing to talk to me (the nurse asked). so. i got bored and left. haha. i've found my place sitting in front of the list of patients in ward 1, poring through their files and making notes. ;p today i talked to this 52 yo lady who looked like she was 30!

it approaches, and i find myself backing away from it. but it will be the same as the last. and finally, i will dig those up to look at again.

i like watching bus drivers wave to one another as they drive past on opposite routes. i also like toilets with zigzag entrances so you don't have to touch a door to get out. and i like reading toilet graffiti, i wish the cleaners wouldn't remove it.

want to read ps. i love you.


how can i be afraid of something i have gotten used to? it is, after all, not the fear of the thing in itself, but that the effect and reaction will be different from what you're used to.

note to self:
- decor
- muffins
- coles on friday
- pathology
- lib book at hal
- project SLURP
- dfo?

i need to stop sleeping so much. but even after sleeping i'm still tired all the time! maybe i have anaemia. or maybe my ferritin tipped to under 20.


shop at coles this friday.

my two-hour ebcp tute lasted 75 mins. :) it was really boring though, but better than km last sem because we don't get arrowed to answer questions. about the same as epi i suppose, after we switched tutors. all in all, theme 2 is still the worse thing about med. oh i tried doing the first ebcp quiz just now haha and gave up halfway. my answers were like 1-3 lines, for a 10 mark question. -.-

i was very slack and didn't go to hospital today. most of the other people did. but most of the people from my group didn't. i think it's just moorabbin. there just isn't really much to do there. and we can't exactly go back to clayton and crash other people's wards. so.. maybe we'll continue being slack. i'm already bored of surg though. :\ but there isn't clinic tomorrow.

yuwan brought a girl and her mum back for dinner today, they'd been house-hunting. and they walked to uni from somewhere near brandon park haha. they had interesting stories and experiences to share. :) and then they went home.

last week time passed so quickly, we were saying "a few days ago" when we meant yesterday. this week seems to be passing much more slowly, it's only wednesday.

i have to do the path thing now. READINGS.


how wrong is it that your mother knows more about what someone is doing than you do?


i'm still really not a huge fan of theme teaching. and i miss my shows/ series. :(


and for the million hours that we were,

i was quite amused by a conversation i had with someone this morning:

after i said i'd gotten up at 9 and had to be in hospital by 1..
"if i were you i'd get out of bed at 11 or 12, and only then if i was really hungry so i would have time to lunch. i slept at 11.30! YESTERDAY! not this morning!"
and sometime later..
"i want to be able to skip lectures. sigh. i can't believe i'm missing lectures."
"haha very ridiculously happy to stone. maybe do some reading. wow. i'm so not like me. HAHA HAVE FUN IN HOSP, i'm gonna sleep now"

haha.

i really didn't know why i was so tired in the morning actually. had to drag myself out of bed (snoozed an hour) even though i finally got out of bed at like 9. contemplated going to talk to patients in the morning, then decided to just slack and go at 1.

went to theatre again because the other two decided to go to the clinic. it was a gynae procedure, and to be honest i had no clue what they were talking about. even though the consultant was really nice and tried to explain. and she asked a lot of questions we didn't know how to answer.

basically this 74yo lady had had a hysterectomy 3 years ago, but it kept prolapsing so she decided to do something about it. and they put in some mesh to stop it from prolapsing again. i still don't quite get it. but oh well i'm not doing gynae this year.

i want my-sized scrubs.

j drove us to clayton, waited more than an hour for the reg who was our surgical clinical bedside tutor. he was in theatre and there was some complication so he was held up. but he bought us coffee/ hot choc at zouki. :D now i'll be tempted to get zouki hot choc instead of the free one downstairs haha.

and he was very philosophical. and long-winded. he asked us to define "clinical surgery". but he's quite a nice guy lah. brought us to the different sort of wards after talking forever in zouki. surg, med, HDU, ICU, recovery etc.

was late getting to joce's house (left mmc at 7.25). but she was very nice to turn around and come back to get me although she was at the halls. :) thanks joce!

touching heaven. we were asked to pray a blessing for someone we couldn't get along with. and of course for the bush fires. and OC and the plans for the year.

heard an interesting story. and we grabbed bread on the way out haha. and joce sent us home. :)

doubt i will go for the imaging meeting tomorrow morning. crap i think i'm too slack. :\ but we don't have lectures tomorrow. :) only theme teaching. which is basically theme 2. :\


i feel so nuah today! and sian. :( and YES i am still at home omg. but nvm lah go early also just wander around myself. will go for the unit meeting i suppose. at 1. ;p and then clinic at 1.30 and then back to clayton for bedside tute at 4.30 and th later tonight. i don't even feel like stepping out of the house.


BLIND.


Q: after spending more than 10 hours in hospital, where do you think medical students can be found?

yes this is the sad state of our lives.. hmm.

i got up at 5.40am this morning. left at 6.30 and took the 6.38 bus with chris. at clayton the bus hit the railing on the side of the road, busted a tyre, and had to be sent to the service centre. so i waited for the next bus.

still managed to get there at about 7.30am. found ward 2, but there weren't any breast surg patients at all. so they sent me (and a 4th year on her gynae rotation) to theatre to see what was happening. met the 5th year and some regs and talked to some patients (sort of) before they were anaesthetized for surgery.

the first surgery (microdochectomy?) was cancelled. the second one was the removal of a portacath, which we didn't get to watch because we were talking to the consultant outside for quite some time. it was quite funny cos the conversation steered towards twilight, robert pattinson, and harry potter for a while haha. ;p

then we were reminded of how to scrub in. the third surgery was a bilateral mastectomy in the morning, followed by a breast reconstruction in the afternoon (yes i am on a breast surg rotation). because only 2 students were allowed in i didn't go for the mastectomy. went to talk to patients instead.

i cannot remember how to interview patients properly already lor. i think particularly because my patient was a gynae patient, i missed out a lot of things. :\ eeks.

waited in the lounge place and then g, p and l came. talked/ had lunch etc, then they left to go home. c walked past too with l, and then went home haha. j came and then m appeared (d and a hadn't appeared in moorabbin at all), and we scheduled some tutes. surgical bedside tute tomorrow afternoon at 4.30. ;_;

then m went home and j went to dunno where and i went to see the breast reconstruction. it took like 4 hours omg. i seriously nearly fell asleep standing up, somewhere near the beginning, because it was quite boring. but i was standing on a "stool". and if i had fallen i'd have fallen forwards onto the sterile field and then everyone would have just killed me haha.

they did a TRAM flap. thingy. there was an HMO anaesthetist (that's what he said) and he kept asking me to ask questions. and kept giving me looks like i was stupid when i didn't really know how to answer his questions. grr. but there was this really tall tech who was like the BFG haha. ;p and a malaysian scrub nurse who talked to me about lky. ;p

finished at about 5.40, and went to clayton, where i met zp and cy. compared notes about our days haha. zp's going to moorabbin tmr also haha. haem clinic.

i don't know what i'm going to do tomorrow. i know what i'm not going to do though: ward rounds! haha. since i know there's only going to be one patient.. and i just don't want to get up early again.

it's so COLD.

OH. i cannot tell you how happy i was when yuwan told me that we don't have lectures this weds. no path tutes either, only theme teaching. in UNI. :D:D:D hahaha. okay i am further emphasizing our sad state of affairs.

whee.

A: hongkong grocer!


dinner at keith's with christina, yuwan, derrick, tk, jas and chris. :)

i'm so sian i don't want to go to hospital tomorrow. :( :( :( particularly because today it was emphasized that everyone else is having fun and going out and watching movies and basically still enjoying their hols. we were just saying that we didn't expect it to be this hard in 3rd year.

pink. will continue with it another day i suppose.

i'm confused about how everything works in the unit rotation. but oh well i suppose we'll work it out in due time.

sleep by 11? hopefully. :\ okay not likely..

billy elliot the musical is showing at her majesty's theatre! i want to go! :(


got jasmine's pretty wedding invite today! :D

i was painting in my room and got paint on my quilt cover. :( thankfully the poster paint was white, so all that can be seen is a bit of pink (the red paint was acrylic).

i always, always go to of_mornings when i'm sad/ sian/ emo. the photos are all so pretty and yummy. ;p

skypeee.


i studied today!! :D
haha yes i am the kiasu singaporean (library book!).
i hope i manage to keep it up.


Lim has thrown a sheep at 20 people using SuperPoke! 10:50pm

okay i thought that was funny because Lim is my daddy! haha. ;p


it's a beautiful thing;

on days like these i'm so glad the house is cooler than outside.

went to southern cross dfo in the morning with charmaine, tae and lester. got some stuff. :) we were about to leave when we walked past one of the exits and almost died from the heat pressing in from outside. so we found the carpark exit, yay.

lunch at dessert house, walking outside was no joke. it's like baking. or being in an outdoor sauna. it is TERRIBLE. and suffocating. and just bad. please be thankful if you're (still) in singapore.

but anyway lunch was good. :) and being in the city suddenly brought back so many memories haha. i suppose it's always the novelty of first times. first time back anywhere always does this sort of thing. :)

went to tae's and sheryl's house in box hill after lunch, it's so big! sort of like a condo. with a swimming pool, sauna, and gym (with aircon)! we sat in the gym for a while haha. ;p

i love his walk in wardrobe. okay maybe not so much his walk in wardrobe. but i definitely want one in my house next time. ;p along with an open-concept kitchen (with a huge sink, very important), L-shaped sofa, and a loft like the one in bena's house. haha. ;p also, long countertops in the bathroom.

came back after dropping charmaine off. i'm going to miss both of them very much this year! :( and everyone else who's elsewhere. and even the people in mmc because i'll be at moorabbin. at least it's only the first 4 weeks.

BUT RIGHT. i checked metlinkmelbourne and i have to leave the house at like 6.30am?! to get there at 7.04am, for (optional) surgical ward rounds at 7.30. :O then i thought oh i can use the earlybird metcard! and travel for free in the morning! but then i found out that it's only for train trips. ugh.

okay but that makes me even more thankful for back to base days (weds)! because then i get to see more people, and i also get to eat periperi and be in uni (and get to see even more people). yay. :) although it's a 9-6.30 day. haha.

we wanted to try cracking an egg on the sidewalk (okay, pavement) just now in the midday sun! haha. but by the time we got back it was like 5 and it wasn't that hot anymore. i mean. not sunny. although i suppose it's the heat that matters..? hmm.

i know you'll say i should have done it. but it isn't fun when there isn't anyone around to do it with. you should've been here!





won't you sing to me your poetry
won't you take me to your home

breakfast: bread lightly browned on the stove with strawberry jam, scrambled eggs, banana and full cream milk. :D

okay moorabbin for the next 4 weeks, breast cancer surg 2 weeks, ward rounds at 7.30, otherwise 8.30. :O i am so going to become a panda.

i wanted to finish my film today but i doubt it'll happen. and i probably won't be in the city long enough to collect it either. maybe next time.. although i really don't know when the next time will be haha. i wonder if the photos will turn out nicer here because they use square film. maybe the fisheyes won't get cut off..

i wish i could dress like vrane. but yuwan says only not-so-skinny (read: euphemism) people can do it. i wouldn't mind being fatter for a day to be able to carry it off haha. ;p i'm sure it's more comfortable than the skinny skirts!

i will try to not be stressed today even though i'm still tired and have a million things to do. and i will try not to blow up at people who irritate me, although it requires superhuman effort.


TIRED.

hospital
hot chocolate x2
fall asleep x1
lunch with chris :)
walk
cardboard hearts
cg
interesting
no leaders
we managed
step out of comfort zone
hearts
sleep

moorabbin this coming week. :O


'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i could be

my fingers and thumb are peeling so badly i'm quite worried again. it's worse than last year and it's spread to the 4th finger. and dermasone doesn't help. neither does moisturiser.. thankfully i could use my left thumb to get through customs, my right one would never have cut it. can you imagine what all the chlorhex is going to do to it? :\

slept early and got up at a reasonable time, meaning i slept a lot. and i was still tired when i got up. had a (relatively) big breakfast and walked to mmc. almost died because it was hot (i got there at 11+). but i walked in havis and changed to the shoes when i got there. ;p

toured mmc etc. (free hot choc!) and then queued to get my ID tag thing done. but there wasn't enough time and i didn't know where i was supposed to go for my nursing shift so i ran off halfway. met other people in the lift so i knew where to go. :)

followed nurses around while they did their handover, checked the charts, did obs and gave meds, helped people to the toilet. they showed me how to page someone on both lan and phone pages, and how to view path results. one nurse asked me to read someone's file and kept asking me to refer to things in the medical dictionary. and someone taught me about aneurysm coiling.

towards the end our nurses had gone off for tea breaks so we all didn't really know what to do, stood around the nurses' station talking about everything we were supposed to know but couldn't remember. "that sounds familiar.." "we learnt that last year right?"

walked to ivy's house, forgetting to get the havis from the locker. thank you for lending me yours! :) walked to bus loop and decided to go to chaddy to get stuff. and then i spent forever trying to decide what to get.

900 and walked back from the bus loop. yuwan cooked dinner. :) thank you! mountain of pasta haha.


today gave me a glimpse of what a certain part of my life was like. and i hope i don't feel that way anymore.


people like that scare me. okay maybe not scare. but i really wish they wouldn't do it. verbalising somehow makes it more real. these sort of maybes, i can live with, but if they become definite then it's just so weird.


it was sandy's birthday yesterday. if you knew/ remember him.


i appreciate the effort.


oh yeah. the toilet in the med students' locker room is very weird:



skeletons in my closet
are too big for me to hide

i'd rather know.
"why do you choose to be upset?"
because what i don't know will hurt me anyway.


tired after a long day in mmc. got up at 7, showered, made lunch, lester fetched us to hospital. found our way to lecture theatre 1, waited for everyone to appear and sat there for countless lectures on MCRs, OSCEs, EMQs, case presentations, meeting the professors, clinical deans etc.

found out our groupings etc. i'm doing oncology/ breast cancer as the first unit. which is so.. hmm. nevermind. chai is my new "bff" (i hate that term it is so juvenile) because we're in most tutes (read: pbl) together. and i'm doing stroke/ neuro for my nursing shift tomorrow.

went to malaysia(n?) garden for lunch with most of the other singaporeans, we were late getting back. and still strolling.. heh. was falling asleep during lectures again.

met our pbl groups during a break. there's a guy who did his bmedsci last year, on breast cancer haha. but he isn't in my ward group. my ward group has like 4 people. so scary. and we have to do MCRs in front of the group! scary.

we were left off about half an hour early (4.45pm). went to the locker room to search for lockers, we kept changing and being kiasu and writing our names on the labels already stuck there.

walked to clayton to get groceries. then back, and it was already almost 7. thankfully i start at 11.30 tomorrow morning.

yuwan is making me eat 2 veg dishes tonight. the only non-veg is ikan bilis in the soup and pork mince in the kangkong. :O whee.

they're right.


myeloma

i hate having to sleep early, especially when it's 3 hours ahead. but yes. have to be up early again tomorrow, to be in mmc by 9. plus we're leaving really early (enough to walk). but i really shouldn't be complaining.

tried to read the study guides. gave up after the first paper pbl and patient pbl. i wanted to go try remember how to read an ecg haha. oh well.

"tomorrow's a new day"

watched it's a boy girl thing. i think it would be scary to find out one day that i'd finished watching all the movies i got from zp. :O haha. okay i probably wouldn't have time next week onwards.

yuwan's dog gave birth to 4 puppies! :D


woohoobabeh!!!: ITS SNOWING LIKE CRAZY HERE
woohoobabeh!!!: WOOOOOOOOOOOP
analogue.: haha
analogue.: SO COOL
analogue.: it's so hot in melb!
woohoobabeh!!!: its retarded
woohoobabeh!!!: schhol cancelled
woohoobabeh!!!: no one studyinge
woohoobabeh!!!: massive snowball fights
woohoobabeh!!!: snow man
woohoobabeh!!!: OMG.
woohoobabeh!!!: in feb
woohoobabeh!!!: HAHAHA


hypermitotic.

i'm tired. and :(


i feel like waffles.

day 2.

whee. i was falling asleep in lectures today. okay at least they weren't really lectures. more of briefings. better than eugene, who's perpetually comatose. ;p

SIS. my lecturer said "i was so incensed" today! ;p hahahaha.

anyway. briefings about PBLs, professionalism, case presentations etc. the PBL seminars sound quite terrifying (presenting in front of 40 students), but i think on the whole i'm happier that they changed most of the paper PBLs to lectures. yay.

we have to be back in uni on weds afternoons for path tutes, so i'm going to make weds my periperi day. ;p haha. yes i'm mad. the thought of fats clogging up my arteries doesn't seem to scare me enough.. yet.

i lost my police check. :( was trying to find it at like 2am last night but i couldn't. and picky couldn't open the application form. so i had to do it in uni today, after lects. also, they changed the police checks so you can't just fill in the form and get the money order, you have to complete the 100 point thing! grr. took me forever, trying to find someone who could validate all the documents. but yay it's done.

actually i started thinking that maybe i hadn't submitted it last year after all.. but then i have my results so that can't be the case.

to hospital tomorrow from 9-5.15. :O i'm going to fall asleep again. i should probably start sleeping earlier than 2am. grocery shopping. chaddy on thurs? have to get stuff. oh i think everyone's happy we don't have to wear formal clothes tomorrow and friday. ;p


hmm yet another day has zoomed past. this is what it's like in melbourne, the days disappear without you even noticing it.

i don't normally like instrumental music.

watched juno. and then went over to rusden for dinner with chris and wanjie, and chris' parents again. :) watched princess diana, bush fires, and a bit of the devil wears prada. :D

decided to come back earlier because we have to write our paragraph, and i want to do some (more productive) stuff before i sleep, which will hopefully be earlier than last night.

i know i'm always trying to get out of doing things. :\

where are youuu





shutter happy-



after today's briefing in uni, i feel like being a bum and watching shows/ sleeping etc. bumming, basically. rawrrr.

i'm hoping the year flies by. okay actually no. both. :\

met everyone again! :D hee. and also rachel and jason haha.

our notes are "half a telephone book" thick. and "passing exams are actually quite stressful.. because it means you have to go to the next stage.." how true. although failing would be considerably more stressful.

everyone's 3 plan has ended and they're all getting new phones! there were too many people there so i didn't ask about mine. oh well. tomorrow maybe.

start reading talley & o'connor! haha. right.

zzz


forgot to mention that i think it's a miracle my mice are still alive, cissy's fish died and calvin's plants are dying.. and i'm glad we missed the heatwave.

watched half of benjamin button before lying down and falling asleep in the afternoon heat, got up at 7+ to cook chicken, and then wanjie came over with veg soup. :) and yuwan cooked mushroom egg haha. it was quite a typical dinner i suppose. the i'm-too-lazy-to-think-what-to-cook type of dinner. ;p

before we knew it it was 9pm. :O the day flies past. rawr.

we put the living room curtains up tonight. and ironed shirts (and uniform). and baked chocolate pudding cake (it's brown but doesn't taste like chocolate). and as usual, two muffins to try. ;p new recipes must be tested.

it was nice to bake in this kitchen again.

uni starts at 10am tomorrow! in south1! which is the furthest away. again. so reminiscent of last year haha.

my bicycle bruise is almost completely gone. but as usual, others have sprung up everywhere.

everyone's homesick. i just wish people would come back quickly so it's more normal and less quiet here. and easier to get back to routine.. although it's a different routine. hmm.

i missed the convenience of my printer while i was in singapore.

now to finish benjamin button and sleep. :)

i cannot believe...


for lack of originality.

slept without a blanket for most of the night. in the morning it was still cool. still perfect. ;p until after church when i went back outside, and it was hot. again. but not as bad as yesterday. it looks like it's going to rain..

michael picked us up. :) after going to the airport at like 1am to fetch ivy and ian! haha. met jm and wk! yay. ;p was sleepy in church. i still have a big sleep debt. :\ which i hope to sleep off tonight.. or maybe this afternoon.

most people haven't come back yet. it feels weird. and steph was away cos her aunt and uncle are here. :( so was christina..

the first thing rachel said when she saw me today:
"hello! guess what's stinking up my place?"

haha. after church joab drove us to her house and we took the mice and yuwan's cactus back. :D i think they haven't had human contact in a while because rachel doesn't dare to touch them haha! neither does steph. ;p but they're all still the same lah.

came back and washed the cage, then gave them a shower. ;p quite funny haha. ;p

zp keeps whining about uni tomorrow. :( rawr. it's too soooon. :( the upside though, is that i get to eat periperi! ;p and of course, meet up with everyone i haven't seen in forever. :D charmaine and taeeeee. :D haha.

bye duck pizza.


and your eyes are watery red.

there are many ways to say the same thing.

i'm tired! spent the morning unpacking, cleaning the fridge (throwing out most of its contents) and dying because of the terrible heat. christina and wanjie started moving their stuff over to farrer too. then wanjie drove us to clayton to get groceries and lunch (rockmelon and grapes).

came back and picnicked in the middle of our living room, which was still full of other peoples' stuff. then cw cy ys zp kw d came with a rented van to move their stuff out. helped them carry stuff, my arms are aching now haha. so lousy, i know. they finished the cold water and put their heads in the freezer.

kw said i look like bakwa because i'm chaota and skinny. -.-

so the living room is pretty empty now. we just picnicked again haha. we decided to open the outside door, our apartment door, and our balcony sliding doors so the place can be ventilated. and it's working quite well. :D yay!

thank you rong peiyu sebas kevin caleb reo alvin for coming to send me off! :) and also for visiting opi before. :) thank you rong for the polaroid! :D i'll ask yuwan to scan it when we're more settled in and not so exhausted. thank you sis for <3<3 and thank you sebas for directing me to the biometric counter. even though i didn't believe you. ;p thank you alvin for being my friend and driving! haha. and fetching rong. and sebas for offering to repack my luggage haha. and rong for benjamin button! :D yayy.

temporary recluse. nap.

if yuwan hadn't woken me up i'd have slept till tomorrow morning! heh. went over to rusden, christina's parents bought us dinner! :) and cooked soup. and we watched willams vs. safina, rooting for the underdog. finished the grapes and rockmelon. and talked to her parents. who are quite cute haha. ;p

it only gets dark at 9. the day just flew past, we're all so exhausted. waiting for the neighbour to return my nokia charger/ for yuwan to get back and shower before i shower. the temperature now (22) is perfect, i wish it was like this during the day.

interrupted msn conversations. sorry! kept having to leave the house/ move around/ lie on the parquet (it's cooler).

i feel like chocolate hazelnut brittle oh no!

i hope that never happens. ever.

"hello deer"

hurry up come back.