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and just enough strength to live for today
so i never have to worry
what tomorrow will bring
‘cause my faith is on a solid rock
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♡
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☼
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work together for my good.

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just let me know if you feel any pain okay?

haha after an age, i still haven't finished going through all the osce stations.. i keep forgetting things. don't like jo/e and kate. ha. i used the talley and o'connor cd (tae's favourite) today. haha. everyone is freaking out over osce. alex says: 15 hours. can't wait for it to be overrrrr. really.

anyway. it's been a junk food day. haha. i can be like jo/e already. bmi 32 and little/no exercise, living on reheated frozen foods. except that i don't have high bp and i am still in school. and i don't smoke or drink. much. hahaha. (sorry i'm going nuts)

even though it's only the end of first year, the thought of having to study 4 sems of work at the end of next year is already killing me. can you imagine the fourth year via? oh my gosh.

there are so many windows open now, it's a wonder picky doesn't just die on me. :)

i forgot how to fold a straw heart, something my brother taught me. i think i will always remember that he was the one who taught me cos it's so rare for him to actually teach me anything. haha. apparently his O's have been going okay, he says he can get full marks for emath. how typical, but i don't really doubt it. haha. and my sister got 24 in level haha. all the trip science people. ;p isaac is going to have really high expectations to live up to. hahaha.

i miss coffee and kitkat. hope i get to see church and wyn soon. :D twenty days!






Saviour's love
hillsong london

Jesus, i surrender, my hopes and my plans
i place my dreams in Your hands, in Your hands

'cause i know who i am in You, no shadow of doubt
'cause it's the life You gave, and the life You give
it's the Saviour's love for me, so i live my life
and all the world will know, will know

it's my Saviour's love, it's my Saviour's love
it's my Saviour's love for me

Jesus, now i'm living all the dreams of my heart
i never knew life could be like this, Your faithfulness

'cause i know who i am in You, no shadow of doubt
'cause it's the life You gave, and the life You give
it's the Saviour's love for me, so i live my life
and all the world will know, will know

it's my Saviour's love, it's my Saviour's love
it's my Saviour's love for me

holy is the, holy is the Lord


learn to give without expecting anything in return. because anything other than that is simply giving a loan..

i'm still craving indomie. i might walk to uni and get lunch and indomie to keep myself sane/ alive.


and like a shooting star
we've come so far

pharmacology! heh i hope what i studied stays in my head.
and thankfully i have stopped smelling like fish sauce.
my BP is a bit higher today. ;p i want to test reflexes! haha.
we get to bring our own stethoscopes for osce. yay! i'm sure if i use the cmhse ones i wouldn't be able to hear anything. i still haven't gotten over the fact that it's a 7.30 osce. :(

加油 :)


whoa.

went over to roberts hall for a practice osce session with the malaysians and some singaporeans. :p it was quite funny, wanjie acted as a schizophrenic, and she let me try to get a biceps/triceps reflex so many times. i finally got one biceps reflex and i was so happy. :D they say i have hyperreflexia. haha. violent reflexes.

my blood pressure is 100/70, tested by perryn, christina and myself. haha. that is supposedly low.

went through a few of the stations, but i was too lazy to do all of them. so i just watched. ;p and asked questions. haha. the 7.30am (and the second session as well i guess) thursday osce people are the most disadvantaged because the rest of the world will know which 6 of the 10 stations are coming out. no rest stations! yay. i actually hope the first aid/ cpr station will come out because it's the easiest, like free marks. but they tested that for the first formative osce, so i guess it won't. heh. oh well.

but i'm really thankful that i could go for the practice. at least i'm not completely clueless now. :)

joel says my toes will be okay. haha. unless it's a fungal infection. how would i know?! :\

shifting back to the 3-hour time difference feels weird. i keep forgetting. called frog just now, he was blading with rong peiyu caleb. ;p and they all fell down and caleb crashed into the bushes. ;p hahaha. kevin is always mia, i never get to talk to him. :(

this is going to scare me very much.
3 days to osce.
11 days to finals!
AAAHHHHHH.

and he said
i went sky diving
i went rocky mountain climbing
i went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and i loved deeper and i spoke sweeter
and i gave forgiveness i'd been denying
and he said someday i hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying

你的微笑编织了每一个奇妙

okay i am blogging! because ivy complained that i stopped. ;p

i've been trying to study. but i'm tired. my legs are unstable because of excessive walking/ running. haha. my brain is tired from trying to remember things i read. still i'm trying to study. but i slept a lot today. hmmm.

my stomach makes a lot of noise. i don't know why.

my white capris got mud splashes all over the back! :( shouldn't have worn them on a grey rainy day. :( bleah.

yuwan blew encouragement balloons for us! :D mine is white. haha. then we did one for ivy and she was scared to drive it home. so she put it in the boot. ;p

i think the only way i will ever remember any chinese is to sing chinese songs.

okayy i need to have dinner. and study! 2 weeks! the stems were released today. they're testing all the difficult stuff. i don't have an opthalmoscope.. or otoscope. haha but at least i can test blood pressure. :D

jiayou people.


today is such a grey and dreary day.

i want to go to the beach. haha. cannot wait. :D and i finally have credit again. ;p

i want to finish epi today (one sem worth of theme 2). which is a problem since i don't understand half of it - all the math stuff. haha. my brain can't do math anymore. i've gone through 4 tutorials (out of 10). i realised that for all the katie khoo tutes i really have no clue what's happening. :( should've changed tutor earlier.

anyway. 9 days to osce and 18 days to exam. haha. and 2 days before the stems are released. hmm.

study!





but i hope that it gets better as we go

today was amazingly hot. shorts and tshirt! :D yes and i was on reception duty for the first time.

and rong etc got the random candy i sent banana. ;p

shutter happy; i am a 猫猫 pig /afk says: (9:45:41 PM)

THANKSFOR THE CADIES ZHEH

shutter happy; i am a 猫猫 pig /afk says: (9:45:45 PM)

SEBAS STOLE THEM ALL

shutter happy; i am a 猫猫 pig /afk says: (9:45:51 PM)

only left me one lollypop

yesterday today forever You're the same
Jesus Your love will never ever change
You are here with me, watching over me
day after day, You are my hiding place

You calmed the storm, You raised the dead
You caused the blind to see, the lame to walk again
yesterday today forever You're the same
You walk with me, You talk with me
You're pleased to hear my voice
each time i sing Your praise
forever You are the same


***

no more prison break. :(

16 more study days! there are 26 weeks altogether. means.. 1.625 weeks a day. hahaha. please tell me, how impossible is that? considering all i read today was olfactory, gustatory systems and cardiac and smooth muscle. :( that's only two lectures, by the way.

and i think i have onychomycosis in both second toes. :( rawr.

anyway, banana made my day by letting me see her haircut and playing the above song over skype. with actions! :D hahaha.





and that's just the start-

it's the end of the second semester. after the last lecture, someone said: "one down, four to go!" haha. and during cg dinner someone else said we're 20% doctors! haha. provided we pass our osce and exam. ;p SO SOON.

we had a crazy anat revision lecture today about the clinical applications of the lower limb. then gerry gave us 50 questions. with some really weird ones like:

'how many cervical vertebrae does a giraffe have?' (seven, same as us),
'what unique structures do giraffe neck arteries have?' (valves),
'which non-primate has a human-like appendix?' (wombat), and
'what is the only other animal to have a human-like foot?' (brown bear).

yeah those were the o.o.p. weird questions. chauwang got like practically every other question correct. his anat is crazy. seriously.

eugene and damien came for cg today. ;p pec major haha. and wanjie's best boy and nice boy announcement. hahaha.

after cg we had a big singing thing. haha. actually it was only made up of zepeng wanjie christina and me i think. we were belting out backstreet boys, westlife and A1 lyrics haha. at the top of our lungs. it was really quite funny. ;p

oh and before cg we saw shaun! he was going for 6biX's nerd/jaunty night. hahaha. and he really looked amazingly nerdy. haha. big thick-rimmed glasses, nerdy hairdo, home-made suspenders, pants worn at the waist, thick textbook in hand, backpack over both shoulders.. i should put the photo up. ;p sometime soon. ivy, yuwan and i ran to get our cameras when we saw him. ;p hahaha.

and lester drove us back in joel's car. i tell you ah. sitting the car when these guys are driving can give me a heart attack. haha. but oh well. back in one piece anyway. ;p

i have 53cents to last two more days. ;p okay make that 28, since i smsed yuwan. haha. i realised that this time i forgot to get the recharge voucher haha. so much for planning in advance. i will get another one before i go home though.

and we got all the loan stuff sort of settled. :) so i should be able to move after exam! yay. x)

happy birthday yuwan! :D
<3



hello goodbye

haha we spent 2.5 hours at the halls celebrating yuwan's birthday and discussing anat and osce stuff. ;p dermatome and myotome dances haha. wanjie: "say what i say, do what i do!" ;p it was quite fun. i miss these people. ;p then yuwan and christina were making bazhangkueh for dessert tomorrow! haha and i'm just frying eggs.

after two days of no school it feels really ugh to have to go back for a 9-5 day. :( it feels like study break already! but on the bright side. it's the last day of uni for first year. :D


sing a song of sixpence, a pocketful of rye
four and twenty blackbirds baked in a pie

today instead of studying, i packed my notes. not even all of them. just epi, anat, clinical skills, sensation and embryology (for this sem).

then i tried studying embryology for the first time in my life. and i was like. all i know is blastocyst and inner cell mass! even synctiotrophoblast is only vaguely familiar. then there's the notochord and neural groove and.. i don't want to study embryology anymore. :( it's cool, but it's an overload.

so i'll go back to happily making notes for anat. haha.

12 days to osce
20 days to exam

oh my gosh. like that i can just sacrifice my embryology already. plus there is still all the sem1 stuff which i've forgotten. rawr. :( oh nooooo. i never actually realised it was that soon. :\

and i got the 7.30am slot on thursday morning for osce. first slot! heh. i hope i don't get ivy ;p


and if i had wings i would fly

733 to boxhill. i sat through it without understanding most of what they were saying. except that it was about china. and they have 1.3 billion people. they sang a lot. but we were very tired. and we waved at yuwan. ;p

then we somehow found our way back to the boxhill station and took 700 to oakleigh, then 900 to the bus loop. and then the last shuttle bus back. it was freezing.

had quite interesting conversations today. and i got to talk to huiru too! ;p i hope things work out.

haha and banana got my box! ;p

quixotic; says: (1:03:32 AM)
happy birthday banananana
scooly says: (1:04:31 AM)
hey doc
scooly says: (1:04:39 AM)
thanks for the box of sweets
scooly says: (1:04:39 AM)
=)
scooly says: (1:04:55 AM)
it was erm... diabetic inducing



free
hillsong

would you believe me if i said
that we are the ones who can make the change
in the world today
would you believe me if i said
that all of the dreams of your heart
could come true today
and would you believe me if i said
that life could be all that you want it to be today

and if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need, You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'd still hold on
'cause You're all that i believe
and You're the One that created me
Jesus, because of You
i'm free

would you believe me if i said
that God can make miracles happen today
would you believe me if i said
that you don't need to wait for the answers
before you step out in faith
and would you believe me if i said
that nothing is ever impossible for God

and if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need, You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'd still hold on
'cause You're all that i believe
and You're the One that created me
Jesus, because of You
i'm free

just live your life with God inside
you won't regret one moment of it
give all that you can for God, for God


i quote from *ahem* someone's blog:

I know I’m always upsetting you. And hurting you. And making you cry. But I really care. And I really want you to be happy. I really think you look beautiful when you smile. I want you to be happy, not sad.

***
lj isn't that hard to manipulate after all. ;p the only thing is that i haven't started work yet. haha.

happy birthday banana! :D




today i sat in hargrave from before 1 until 5.40. i watched the sky change from blue with puffy clouds to threatening grey. i watched the raindrops trickle down the windows. then i watched the sky turn blue with puffy white clouds again. :)

i read the first chapter of captivating today, in between foot and shoulder anat (i haven't finished yet). i think it's a good book. ;p

i miss my songs that are in wma format. :( hillsong and planet shakers.

and this is interesting. commonwealth bank just sent me two new atm cards. haha. i wonder if both work.

i don't have lessons tomorrow! :D but i have to go to boxhill for yuwan's performance. ;p i keep forgetting it's tomorrow. and no class on thursday either because i doubt i'll be going for the walk-through quiz thingy in the anat museum. because i looked through the questions and i have no idea how to do any of them.

today is jean's birthday!
happy birthday jean!
she's disappeared though. :( no msn and no blog. and michigan is like forever away.

hmm i think it's late. oh well.


today i wondered about symbolism. i managed to get through today, it only happened once. almost, countless times. but only once, it actually happened. unfortunately, it was quite an inopportune time.

and i was asked, if what happened to job happened to me too, would i still be able to praise God?

i am struggling.

and not only that, i cannot study. and this cannot study is worse than all my previous cannot-study's. and osce's in half a month, and exam 7-8 days after. help.


baptism at mordialloc beach. :)





what else can you do, but to trust that, despite the tears and pain, whatever He has in mind is so much more beautiful?


well i hope that since we're here anyway
that we could end up saying
things we've always needed to say
so we could end up staying

moore is crazy. anat is killing my brain. everytime i try to memorise the muscles i get a massive headache. and the foot has so many! :( i'm going to wait for ian nguyen to teach us the neurovascular stuff, nothing else will go into my head now. and i can't even remember all the muscles and attachments etc. even flexor digiti minimi also got brevis one. so nonsense can. rawr. :(


come take a walk with me
let's pretend we're just two people and
you're not better than me
i'd like to ask you some questions if
we can speak honestly


95% confidence interval ;p

we wrote a story today, about peter, invalid-password (his evil twin), user-error (his pet dinosaur), snow white, cinderella, kfc and kfh. true to our reputation, it was about people dying (twice. and being eaten up too).

greek night was interesting. ;p tried everything except the lamb. ivy's eggplant thing was interesting. ;p

then we had this conversation about how we like to walk through ikea and flip through ikea catalogues. ;p but the guys didn't quite get it.

PLUS. ren called me today! :D:D

school was alright. except that i fell asleep multiple times during the one of the ANS lectures i think. and the anat lecturer was like rushing through the whole lecture. and i realised that this sem i've been slacking for pcls. but somehow always got at least something to say when i have to go up to present.

got back the epi assignment and i was quite happy. :) i forgot to say that just now heh.

we have a week left before we've finished 1st year med. that is actually quite a scary thought, like where did the year go? so fast. and apparently if we drop out after 3rd year we still get a bmedsc degree. haha. jocelyn was like: so tempting! ;p

happy belated, huiru!
and happy nineteenth, xiex! :D
we are due for a date soon. as soon as possible!

today i wondered if my phone was spoilt.

there will always be things to be happy about, and things to be sad about. so how do you not let the sad things get on top of you? how do you figure out ways to get things done such that they actually get done. in a way that doesn't involve being late. or not getting it done at all. rawr. sorry. this has been bugging me, and i can't wait. i cannot wait.

i want to be a person who does what i say i will do.

if only i could walk to flagstaff.



at the beginning
anastasia

we were strangers starting out on a journey
never dreaming what we'd have to go through
now here we are, and i'm suddenly standing
at the beginning with you

no one told me i was going to find you
unexpected, what you did to my heart
when i lost hope, you were there to remind me
this is the start

and life is a road and i wanna keep going
love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
life is a road, now and forever
wonderful journey

i'll be there when the world stops turning
i'll be there when the storm is through
in the end i wanna be standing
at the beginning with you

we were strangers on a crazy adventure
never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
now here we stand, unafraid of the future
at the beginning with you

and life is a road and i wanna keep going
love is a river, i wanna keep flowing
life is a road, now and forever
wonderful journey

i'll be there when the world stops turning
i'll be there when the storm is through
in the end i wanna be standing
at the beginning with you


take our hands and lead us.


so this is what i baked for caregroup tomorrow! :D cretan cheese-cinnamon pastries (kaltsounia me kanella or Καλτσούνια με κανέλα). they're greek. and they look so cute right. ;p



i met aunty pansy on my way back from the halls. she was sending grace, nike, and few other people back after cg. :)

i was just reading a random page in my archives. it happened to be sometime before cmw two years ago, and i was complaining about how we had dance practice practically every day. what was i thinking. i remember missing it so much after it was over. ha. but that happens all the time eh.

yeah. now when i see people studying i get so stressed. probably because i haven't exactly been studying for about a week now. i don't know if being sick was a reason or an excuse.. malaise. ha. anyway i am better now, sort of. i can talk almost properly now. ;p just don't make me laugh because then i'll start coughing.

but still i'm feeling accomplished today. because i did the dishes, threw the rubbish, cleaned the sink, did laundry, and cleared my floor so the lady could vacuum it for me. ;p haha oh yeah, i went for anat pract too. amazing.

i just realised that there are so many people graduating this year. *gasps* we're going to have so much fewer people on campus. but well there will be the new intake too i guess. i'm flying back to melbourne on 8feb heh. second day of chinese new year. that gives me 80 days in singapore. :)

safari refuses to let me load blogger, so firefox wins.

sometimes i wonder if all guys have violent tendencies. it's actually quite scary.



all in all

You are my strength when i am weak
You are the treasure that i seek
You are my all in all
seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord to give up i'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
worthy is Your name

taking my sin, my cross, my shame
rising again, i bless Your name
You are my all in all
when i fall down You pick me up
when i am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all


i'm stressed.
and before this gets too whiny, i will stop here.

if i can ever figure out how to make livejournal look nice, i will switch to it permanently.


you're my shooting star

i tried to study today. the leg is quite a small bit i think. but i still haven't finished. i studied during the break and after school. but i still haven't finished. i wanted to finish it by tonight because it's dragged on for too long already. but i still haven't finished. gahhs.

clinical skills tute was revision. charmaine examined me because i can't talk properly. what's worse, i realised at touching heaven, is that i cannot sing. my voice appears and disappears. it is quite irritating. maybe i won't talk until i lose my voice completely.

visited the post office today. ;p

after touching heaven a bunch of us went over to keith's house to help clean up. yuwan jonyong samt and i were in the garage. after a while chewy and rachel came also. it was quite hilarious. samt kept finding things that were considered 'heritage' and wouldn't let us throw them away. like part of the ancient ccm van. haha. and ccm things from like 2001. then their house got a lot of girls shoes one. haha. so we ended up with this huge pile of stuff lying outside their garage. wonder how they're going to get rid of all that stuff.

had a conversation with alex today in the epi tute about guinea pigs. pokey and tiny! he makes me want to get one. ;p haha.

christina says i have to sleep at 10.30. haha. i'll sleep soonish. quite tired also anyway. but i have to find my upper limb neurological exam notes first. and all the police check/ wwc check/ wwc card/ lanyard etc. and WHAT TO WEAR. goodness. going to hospital so stressful. can't imagine 3rd year. haha.

everyone's falling sick. get well soon people!

i want to eat sultana biscuits.


so many bright lights to cast a shadow

we had a very interesting conversation over lunch today. haha.

and my voice is going. i feel like talking until it goes completely. ha. i think when i go for my site visit on wednesday i will make the patients sick also. :| can't wait for selective to be over.

studied the anterior compartment of the leg. i think wanjie finished the entire leg during that time. oh well. slow. :\

felt so bad turning michael down. :\ but i'm sure it's better to be eating porridge when you're sick. compared to cheese baked rice. haha. plus my phone batt died. thankfully there was wanjie and zepeng to lend me theirs. :)

there's a ridiculous amount of notes for tomorrow's epi tute. but that's okay because we're crashing again. ;p

how to be nice, please show me how to be nice.

i might get a hamster (what in the world is happening to me). but a guinea pig seems to be a more appealing option. haha. army says whatever it is i cannot bring coffee and kitkat over. haha. i wouldn't want to also, later they die in the plane then how. and she said if i want a rabbit i should ask gerald and triffney how they trained theirs.

just realised that wednesday is a kingston/ clayton/ caulfield day again. :|


\\captivating

today marks the launch of my new red water bottle. i haven't named it yet.

my voice is all cracked up. i don't want to talk anymore. but at least it isn't completely gone like yuwan's last time. haha. i need more vitamin c.

i also need to stop sleeping so much. i'm turning into a pig. and the exam's so near! :| wake up wake up!!



we'll get there, eventually.

maybe i understand why something like that is happening. but it doesn't stop me fighting it in my head. i think i've taken it for granted, being able to walk there. and back. like so near. now we will become like everyone else (although i can't really say that because i don't know what everyone else is like). but it's okay. we'll get through it. work at a food place ;p

eh the quarantine thingy ah.
thank you lollipop. :)


paper bags and plastic hearts
all our belongings in shopping carts
it's goodbye

i did end up doing a bit of work (after about 3 episodes of prison break and a whole lot of honeystars). finished the selective assignment, printed it out. i don't care i'm not touching it anymore. it's so UGH. but it's over. yay. did a bit of stuff for pcl too, but this one's more of the indigenous health thing, which i have no idea about. so, we're depending on steph.

sometimes it's just really irritating, how the world has twisted things to make them ugly when they're actually perfectly innocent. with all the connotations that everything has, it can be so difficult to find the right words to say what you mean without giving people the wrong idea (it doesn't help that i often don't get it). people have spoilt language.

it was a wednesday two years ago, but i can't remember that day at all. instead i remember the day i got this huge cardboard sheet during morning worship. lilo and stitch. a ticking time bomb. ;p rong please use photo stickers next time haha. then at least the photos won't drop off. ;p


quixotic;
maybe.


i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow


(i typed this last night)
ah it's been a pretty good day. :)
to everyone who played a part, thanks for being a star in my life. :)

i walked to uni with taps today! haha. and i kept falling asleep in lectures today. the result of 4 hours of sleep last night.

charmaine baked apple crumble for me! :D but she kept insisting that it was inedible. and she, perryn and eugene really got a water bottle to stop me from drinking coke and lift. ;p a red adidas one. it matches my pencil! ;p

army and opi called. :)

spent the time before caregroup slacking since uni finished one hour early today. i feel really bad for spreading the bug. :\

it was raining like mad. i hope it doesn't rain tomorrow so they can be baptised in the sea!

haha chiwan night. we had a lot of food leftover. shaun must be happy. ;p wanjie's lormaikai was like WAH SO NICE. teach me how to make! ;p and then after cg christina helped me braid my hair! :p so nice. haha. and then there was another huge chocolate cake. with a banana (an attempt to recreate secret recipe's chocolate banana cake, which is unbeatable). :p haha so sweet. :D

frog called! :D miracle lah. haha. after i taught him so many million times he finally called. too bad my phone ran out of batt and died halfway through though. ;p sorry lah. haha. sebas and peiyu come visit me next year! :D

joel says i look a lot happier! that means not depressed anymore. haha. zepeng drove us back in joel's car. it was a terrifying experience. hahaha. ;p no signalling and sudden slowing down in the middle of the road and turning into the wrong lanes. and "i can't see!" haha but we got there in the end.

the only downside was that i started feeling sick during cg.. :\ head aches, except that i won't call it a headache because it doesn't feel like one. it feels like a muscle ache. all over my head. it hurts to look up and down, or move fast. and my neck and shoulders are aching too. :\ sore throat, but that might just be the effects of too much chocolate cake the past two days. ;p it might go away on its own. i thought of sleeping in but then i remembered - baptism! heh.


(i am typing this now)
baptism was cold. ;p they must have been freezing. but it was cool. ;p congrats val ida dorcas jocelyn grace elaine! :D

had lunch at choi palace after. then everyone split up. this morning i was feeling about half as sick as last night, and now i'm feeling less sick than that. i guess that's a good thing.

i am going to not care about work today.


:D even though i may be a million miles from home, i'm very blessed. to get a package in the mail with a pokemon sticker saying 'Isaac Lim', smses from people at home, and my favourite meddies who came to surprise me tonight. :D with a mudcake and balloons! haha. not to mention chinese jokes and riddles and facebook. ;p for a promised cheese baked rice! and for a birthday song right on the dot, and a sugar delivery. <3 see, i'm blessed. x) thank You God for these people. (although i think nineteen is really old)

'cause i am hanging on every word You say and
even if You don't want to speak tonight
that's alright, alright with me
'cause i want nothing more than to
sit outside heaven's door and listen to You breathing
is where i wanna be, yeah


i can see it in the stars across the sky
dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
now i've finally realised

wow.

this morning i felt quite bleah. medicine took a while to work. and by evening it stopped having its effect. that has never happened before.

anyway i dragged myself to school. sat in the basement of hargrave and did the selective assignment. i never realised the basement was that huge. i only have two little bits of the assignment left! finished the test and a bit of eval. haha. but now i am quite braindead already. tired. i don't want to do my own QoL test.

and i didn't go for anat pract today. sorry perryn. haha.
(waits for people to scold me and throw rotten eggs at me)

when i came back, i collected the parcel from carl's wife. and paid the rent. and then went down. AND THEN RIGHT. there were so many things on my bed haha. i was like, woah.

starburst sucks and suga rock candy (these ones aren't mine)
3 red apples
blueberries!
new zealand manuka honey
4 mrs fields cookies
a mars bar
khong guan sultana biscuits


i still don't feel like doing anything. but i want to finish the assignment tonight. then i can stop worrying about it (although i'm not actually worrying about it at all). can concentrate on studying.

i've realised that i'm terrible at figuring out what kind of gait abnormalities people have.

stop this train, i want to get off and go home again.

bye.


你的泪光柔弱中带伤
惨白的月弯弯勾住过往
夜太漫长凝结成了霜
是谁在阁楼上冰冷地绝望

雨轻轻弹朱红色的窗
我一生在纸上被风吹乱
梦在远方化成一缕香
随风飘散你的模样

菊花残满地伤
你的笑容已泛黄
花落人断肠我心事静静躺
北风乱夜未央
你的影子剪不断
徒留我孤单在湖面成双


that was like, whoa, the coolest tram ride ever. :D

i'm thinking of working during the hols. haha. although the pay is so little might as well not work. it's something to do at least.
this morning i tried doing all the math A stuff with my graphic calc and i couldn't remember anything. :\ okay i could get the scatterplot. but that was about it. haha.
haven't finished the knee! i am so thankful that there's only anat pract tomorrow. sleep a bit more and camp at hargrave.
found some useful stuff for the selective assignment, yay. i refuse to listen to that voice taunting me because i'm not done yet.
okay sleep goodnight. :)


high
james blunt

beautiful dawn, lights up the shore for me
there is nothing else in the world
i'd rather wake up and see, with you
beautiful dawn, i'm just chasing time again
thought i would die a lonely man, in endless night
but now i'm high - running wild among all the stars above
sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

beautiful dawn, melts with the stars again
do you remember the day when my journey began
will you remember the end of time
beautiful dawn, you're just blowing my mind again
thought i was born to endless night, until you shine
high - running wild among all the stars above
sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me

will you be my shoulder, when i'm grey and older
promise me tomorrow starts with you
getting high - running wild among all the stars above
sometimes it's hard to believe you remember me



***
so difficult to do any work tonight. it's so difficult to read epi. i'll do it tomorrow morning. or try to, at least. provided i can wake up.

michael cooked some horfun thing. :D and he gave me celine's choc-chip blueberry muffin recipe! which i promised to try baking after the exam. ;p and he says he will make cheese baked rice for me! :D yayy. don't fall sick ah. everyone's sick.

tried to do the black book but i wasn't working. how?


we're not dumb, and we're not blind.

as expected, i didn't survive until 5pm. mentos should be made the official keep-me-awake sweet. haha.

knee exam in pcl wasn't too bad. i think. formative osce cheat money one lor. in the end it's still among the same people.. alex was trying to kill me by repeating the 45mins thing a gazillion times. but it really isn't effective this way. because we just keep laughing and laughing. it's not like an actual osce at all. and i squirted water everywhere when i injected haha. i can never do it properly.

had lunch with charmaine, then lester, then wanjie. i was supposed to try and be nice but today was really. :| bleah. sorry.

exam debrief. they removed so many questions! i can't remember which ones though. and i can't remember if i got them correct. oh well.

tae smsed that the rural assignment results are out. we did not badish. :) yay. 5%. haha.

SELECTIVE ASSIGNMENT. boo.

anat pract. that was when i fell asleep haha. seriously don't know anything about the knee. or popliteal fossa. need to study. everyone went to the lib to study after uni today! kaiwen said until the lib closes! oh my gosh. these people so geng. HOW. i need to start studying too. just that today i think no point trying lah. wake up so early. haha.

and michael's cooking dinner for us tonight! ;p haha. "eh small girl."

i. must. read. epi. notes. tonight.
and find out if they're crashing another class again tomorrow.

this week is actually quite a slack week. if not for selective assignment. and exam. haha.

okay prison break. ;p and coke!
what am i doing.


empower me
like a rushing river flowing to the sea
Lord send Your Holy Spirit flowing out through me
'til i'm living as Your child
victorious and free
send the power of Your love
empower me


can i say that i'm sick and can't go to uni tomorrow? :( :( :'( UGH.