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bits of grass poking up from the grave

what's with the frogs?!

haha ashley drew this for me today. :) and gave mre fruitella! :D

winnie came today, so i became invisible. the kids get along very well with her.. and she can scold them. i can't. hmmm.

they had computer lesson today, so it was pretty slack anyway. no assessment today. :) spent most of the time packing the library.

aunty agnes caught a grasshopper and the kids were torturing it. it's smaller than grassy. or maybe it's grasso.. i can't remember which one's the bigger one. i told them about grassy and grasso, then huiling asked me to bring them to the centre haha.

i wonder what's happening today. ah well it won't be the first time anyway. i don't know what happened on tuesday. but doesn't matter.

going to the spectacle shop to get contacts later. :) maybe i should test my eyes again.

i am very TIRED.
if i can't get a dress i'm NOT going to prom.
at most wear wedding clothes. CHINCHOW say one.
i got my self-enrichment book, i feel like a weirdu.
SCANDAL YOUR HEAD.
tomorrow i'm not going blading or ice-skating, sorry people.
if i don't go sleep NOW i will just keel over and ___.
because tomorrow's different.
janessa isn't going to be around, i'll meet winnie instead.
when will i stop dreading this?
and yes i'm going to SLEEP.


llost without you

stomachache. :( sighhh.

okay let's talk about work. i was late for work today haha. by 15mins cos army kept getting lost while trying to get there.

met janessa, chari's friend. and the kids.. i only like the girls actually. haha. the guys are so rowdy and keep climbing and throwing things and disrupting aunty agnes (mrs lee).

had a tour of the place (which is quite small). then hung around waiting for more kids to come. helped to type out a list of the kids names. and arrange and disinfect the books in the library. my hands smelt of dettol after that heh.

devotions. sang some songs. the guys were really uncooperative, especially the oldest one, weilong i think. ashley was good though. she's already my fave kid, and i think she's aunty agnes' and janessa'a fave also. :p after the songs, aunty agnes told bible stories. from the beginning of creation (recapping yesterday's devotion for those absent) until the great flood and when people started worshipping weird things like the sun and trees. then they learnt the memory verse (john3:16), but i don't think any of them learnt it, except maybe ashley.

toilet break, or whatever break. janessa went to collect the worksheets from the photocopy shop. stapled them and the kids got out the tables and chairs and set up the place like an exam hall haha. i was helping the lower primary kids. was actually only supposed to help like 3 kids but ended up with quite a few more. siongyong kept complaining that he didn't want to do work and that i didn't teach him. but i didddd. :\ just that mavis needed more help. :
halfway through they went to have lunch and i left. took LRT to bukit panjang and went to the library. got 3 books! :D ahaha was so happy. then took 75 home.

opi made prawn mee for me. :D she makes the best prawn mee in the world. just like mama makes the best pomfret and chicken soup in the world. oh and red mee sua! :D

wasted time and watched tv until 6, when all the relatives came. we celebrated ah tai's birthday today. i have no idea how old she is (probably 80+), but it's quite sad cos my great grandma doesn't really remember us. like our names and who we are.. :(

anyway. everyone came lah, the usual. my cousins/ aunties/ uncles have grown a lot since i last saw them. i'd like to visit aunty josephine's house sometime. she has one dog (shadow the border collie has cataracts :\), two chinchillas, two gerbils, one rabbit, one guinea pig, and 6 dwarf hamsters. a zoo! haha. i want a gerbil.

i just wish the cage would disappear because i can't help staring at it and thinking about what used to be in it. oh we gave all the chinchilla supplies to aunty josephine. she said if her pair has a baby she could give it to me. i don't really want one though.

we're going to get a golden retriever sometime next year. and aunty josephine said her friend's gerbils just had babies.

okay i have nothing much else to say. hope i grow into the job. hope i have the patience to teach mavis math. hope tomorrow's shopping goes well. hope it doesn't rain too much. thursday's whatever is so.. i don't know.

tomorrow afternoon at fareast (i'm scared of that place but rong insists). i'm lazy to wear proper clothes, especially since i'm going to work first. i go home and change first lah hor. :p

CHINCHOW~ awww rong. :D


you're just the best i ever had

Life DIY by pete cohen
half an hour every day

i suppose it's what i need, being accountable to someone. you're one of the precious few people i know who's seriously trying to help me be a better person. still, i wonder what i'm getting myself into. opening myself up to you? what if you're the wrong person?

today was quite eventful haha.

lunch at SIM, saw shane goh there. but didn't say hi lah, he didn't see me anyway. SIM's the one and only place in singapore i've seen good advertising. i'm tired of all the stupid meaningless ads i see everywhere else.

went home to drop mark and isaac off and get daddy, then they dropped me off at dover mrt (because it was raining and i didn't want to take 171). took train to orchard, then hung around waiting cos ren and rong were late.

then out of the blue, CHING HOW walked past! while i was leaning against the big pillar haha. he waved to me hahahaha. rong came a few minutes later. :D and she went to lean against the same pillar hoping he'd walk past again hahaha.

walked around wisma. topman, daniel yam.. tried on a few haha. called diana to try to figure out which one her dress was. but in the end couldn't lah, so many blue dresses haha. then ren came. :) first time seeing her in months! haha.

went paragon, ate at spagheddies. then went to novo and tried on shoes haha. super funny lah, rong can't walk in heels! :D you should ask her to try one day. okay she should just hurry up buy a dress/gown and then find heels to match and practise at home! :D

then went to x:square (or something). the A31 guys were there! haha so weird. clement owen junchen daniel.. and one or two other guys i didn't know. only talked to clement though. tried on the rope dress again haha. i like it but kind of don't like it also. cos it's so clingy. :\ and i'm so FAT haha. rong never let me see hers lah.

GG5 haha. poofy dresses and the nice-ish pregnant one. haha all the zips a bit not working one.

forgot what else we did, but anyway. OH YEAH. maxstudio, where we tried on $279 (or something like that) jackets and stuff.

heeren to meet yingma. went daniel yam again haha. then yingma and yayun came to BOO! us. then ren went with them. walked around a bit more with rong. went chaos! hahaha. tried on a chocolatevanilla coloured tube top and rong tried a retro-ish dress. then she came over to cubicle 1 and called peiyu to try and decide if we were wearing retro. haha we stayed in there for like how long lah. then i got the top. :D yayyy.

walked around a bit more. then went giordano taka. nice jackets! ahaha. rong's sad that she isn't living in australia. :p she wants to visit me in autumn so she can wear the jacket haha. anyway after giordano went topman so she could get her tie haha. and try retro sunglasses. :p

then went home. i've been encountering quite a few staring incidents since i got back lah. something wrong. SO IRRITATING SOME PEOPLE. stare and stare aiyo.

had dinner in opi's room, watched the 9pm show with her. :) but she went off near the end to fetch tata.

okay i need to get black pants! and a prom dress. :\ and i've decided not to learn driving here. yay. :)

they going to blade tomorrow? haha. sebas still hasn't replied lah. :p

AND I START WORK TOMORROW HOW FREAKY IS THAT. haha diana! it's a job at a student care centre, helping my church friend's mum lah. $5 an hour. :) 8am-1pm only heh. [very good cos some people sleep until very late haha :p] i'm quite worried about it but oh well. i'll find out everything tomorrow i guess.

i've become very unaffected by a lot of things i think. :\ like how i can take hours or even days to reply smses. or not reply them at all. or how i just can't be bothered with a lot of things. i can't be bothered by how certain people think about me. i can't be bothered about the ugly eczema patches on my legs.

and here's another weird thing: i don't feel as if i fit in here. i mean in singapore. maybe it's just the staring incidents, i don't know. yeah i just wish people would stop gawking as if i was an alien.

so you stole my world
now i'm just a phony

maybe tomorrow after work i'll go to some bookstore and spend more money. and maybe the library, to get a few much-needed novels. dinner tomorrow? hahaha.

the orang asli team's back! they had lots of fun there. so how do i feel? bitter/sweet. i'm glad it was a good trip. :)


i could try to pick you up when you're in pieces
unless you cut me so much i have to give up

breakfast at pp macs. i forgot what a sausage mcmuffin with egg was called. -.-

peiyu didn't go church today. :( awww.

couldn't really concentrate either. :\ don't know why.

eleanor can TALK. hahaha. elkan looks exactly like her.

didn't really have lunch. saw gail again, but she was too far away to say hi.

went to j8 to get a shirt for mark for the wedding. and ate shihlin heh. it's amazing how fast it's gone when three people share.

grand copthorne to find out more and to pay up. northbank place. [it's supposed to be a secret, shhh!] i want the room with the attached bathroom and the view overlooking batman park and the yarra river! :D haha if i even stay there. army promised she'd go over to help me pack. :p

went tangs. i don't know why. and i hate lucky plaza okay. hate.

came home and watched half of zack and cody. :D then had laksa for dinner while daddy borrowed my laptop.

so today was quite unproductive. except maybe that i thought about why i don't like myself.

is the whole world learning to drive?! hai.

work looms. :
i can't deal with you, you cut too deep, too close to the heart.


what can i do
paul baloche

when i see the beauty of a sunset's glory
amazing artistry across the evening sky
when i feel the mystery of a distant galaxy
it awes and humbles me to be loved by a God so high

what can i do but thank You
what can i do but give my life to You
hallelujah, hallelujah
what can i do but praise You
every day make everything i do a hallelujah
hallelujah, hallelujah

when i hear the story of a God of mercy
who shared humanity and suffered by our side
of the cross they nailed You to that could not hold You
now You're making all things new by the power of Your risen life

what can i do but thank You
what can i do but give my life to You
hallelujah, hallelujah
what can i do but praise You
every day make everything i do a hallelujah
hallelujah, hallelujah


rain rain go away come again another day

haha today turned out not bad after all. :D

slacked around the house reading the fahrenheit twins and eating heaty food that's bad for my throat. but who cares lah seriously. my throat's getting better anyway. the worst is over. :)

oh and celeste and i were laughing while she was doing english assessment. reminded me of the times i used to do those edit-the-passage kind of thing. haha but hers was even more hilarious, the mistakes. gosh my english is going down the drain.

afternoon. showered, then it RAINED. SO HEAVILY. UGH. i went out anyway. wearing dri-fit SAS tee, haha. dry very fast what. :p took 173 to outside bukit timah cc there. then walked around a bit. then walked to buy bread and go to ian's house. very very wet. but halfway through the rain lightened to a drizzle lah, so not that bad.

his mum made tea haha. i don't drink tea. but between tea and coffee, tea was the better choice. obviously. evaporated milk and sugar. i felt like a swaku haha. just because i don't drink tea. and don't like dark chocolate.

went upstairs and slacked. shared the germs. he's sick too. everyone is sick lah. poor yurong. :p

hmmm listened to music and basically wasted time. but it's better than wasting time at home i guess. it gets boring. haha.

30th! :)

OH OH we talked about magicland at the old marina square! the TRUCKS RIDE. oh my gosh i think it's so cool that we still remember that. cos that was the only ride i rode haha. jason and ian also. hahaha and that was like how long ago lah. ian thought it's still there haha.

walked out to bukit timah plaza for dinner at pizzahut. :) i'm eating all the stuff that's bad for me, but hopefully i get better.

oh and it's so sad. :( i've lost my sense of smell. so i can't smell cranberry anymore! :( DO YOU KNOW HOW TORTUROUS THAT IS. haha.

yeah it's only a tent. but still..

the next time, i'll try walking home. or maybe walking there. i don't like 173. :\ even though it goes diana's house. :D haha wrong direction also.

church tomorrow sis, please wake up on time. :) BUTTERFLY.

YURONG GET WELL SOOONNNNNN


[edit 26nov 8.23am]

i forgot to mention the two weird women i saw yesterday. they were sitting next to my family at pizzahut. when i walked in, they both turned their heads 90degrees to stare at me. and it's not just for a few seconds that kind. i think they stared for a full minute lah. then throughout the meal also. SO WEIRD. then army said very loudly "it's so rude to stare" haha and i stared back at them for a while. but a very short while lah. out of practice haha. and it was a bit intimidating cos they were right beside me. haha.

talked to celeste last night for quite long before sleeping haha. i sort of missed that. since before O's lah gosh. that's a long time. okay mostly we were trying to figure out where to get clothes for rena's and ben's wedding. and trying to guess what we're going to do as a family today. it's mark's turn to decide. and we have to go pay the deposit for the northbank apartment anyway, if we're going to buy it. (northbank's on flinders street in melbourne, by the way. and it overlooks the yarra river! :D)

please tell me what the point is because i can't really tell. and i can't possibly do anything unless i know, right? it's so scary, the way things like this always happen. i'm not really being un-me, it's just how i am with you. :\


HAPPY BIRTHDAY YURONG

stuck at home, one more day. i can't take much more of this. :
how long does it take for grass to grow, i wonder.

spent the whole morning watching tv. again. gosh.
watched the suite life of zack and cody for the first time haha.

so you could give me wings to fly
and catch me if i fall
or pull the stars down from the sky
so i could wish on them all

i feel so detached.


true to life, true to me
the way it's got to be
so simple, so simple, so simple
live to love, love to be
absolutely free
so simple, so simple, so simple

yes i know how you feel. so many times.

i suppose i'm just under the false impression that.. nevermind.

i can't bear to think that i have to start work soon gosh. i want to be a taitai. or at least only start work after i graduate lah.

i've come to realise that i've been spoilt rotten. by you. separation is good because it forces me to do stuff on my own. make some decisions for a change. you must be tired of it by now.

CIMC, the chance is gone now. i can only wait for the next one, however far away it may be.


tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up, where do i start

i'm feeling better. emotionally.

physically, there's still the headache, aches, sore throat, blocked nose.. and on-and-off fever.

in between the trees. and then it rained.

thanks everyone. :)

my fever went away then came back again. spent the whole day at home, an amazing feat, ha.

watched tv mostly. and slept a bit. the life of a COUCH POTATO.

army made sushi. :) and i had to drink barley water (ugh).

keep praying for everyone else who went to pahang.

church with sis on sunday! :)

4dec sfc j2 gathering at holland v. i hope there's no last-minute prom stuff to prepare. :
2 weeks to results! there really is no choice.

and maybe this is a chance for a before december.


tear-stained ________
remember, remember, the 23rd of november

today (yesterday) has been the worst day ever. and this time i really mean it. all the previous times i said it was the worst day ever? this is 50000 times worse.

thank you for calling though. and trying to help. wasting your phone bill on me and having to live with the knowledge.. and offering to come. thank you. i feel bad. :
but the underlying feeling is much stronger. i wonder why it happened. why it happened tonight. i didn't expect it to be so soon.

death. lifelessness. i didn't quite know how it felt. cradled in my arms. i wanted you to jump. something i never wanted before because it meant you'd get away.

and now i have a fever too. 37.4? it's only one degree up from my usual.

from chinyi's timely sms:
eph 6: 10-12, 14-18a
finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. for our struggle is not against the flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms... stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. in addition to all these, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God, and pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests.

sus, basil, pastor ben, amy not feeling well.

please PRAY. and have faith, that He will bring His work to completion.


SICK. please pray for me. thank you.

the day before a mission trip. he's just trying to kill me so i can't do anything. or can'y go or something. UGH. YOU STUPID IDIOT.

it seems like i can never compete against you. maybe it's just the happy-go-lucky thing.

woke up early to go to school. dropped by the family practice to say hi to aunty mary (the nurse/ receptionist), then n&b for breakfast. they were discussing the paper of course. ammonia is more soluble than urea. :D at least i learn stuff that's useful in australia.

SAS LT for briefing. learning malay words, insurance, icebreaker, groups. three jonathans in my group. hmmm. malay songs. or rather, songs in malay.

bought loyfatt and gomes dri-fit tees from SAS. lunch at kongpeng bak chor mee. :D then off to rena + ben's house. OH MY GOSH SO NICE. haha i love the colours. so bright and cheery. the glass panel in the kitchen where we can write nonsense. the LOFT!! in the library. we just sat there and lay there, talking and dangling our feet over the edge. i'm going to make something like that in my house next time. :D

went sus' house for a while. amy packed. then went to take mrt to orchard to meet rong caleb kevin. swensens, then sebas and peiyu came. it rained. went to taka and peiyu sebas kevin ate. then walked around. sorry if i was being weird cos i was really dying.

took 171 home. slept a bit on the way.

my throat is burning and my nose is perpetually running. i haven't been sick in such a long time that this time really sucks. add that to the fact that i haven't packed, and the fact that i can't stay over at rena's because of the flu bug, and you've got one ________ me.

oh anyway i found my passport. and my bag. it was just behind the door ha.

and another very important thing i'm veyr worried about. BUBBLES. last night he didn't want to eat pine nuts, and even though i left them in his cage, he hasn't touched them till now. he hasn't eaten any other food either. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. :((

i hate you, YOU EVIL THING.


gotta pick myself up, where do i start
cos i can't turn to you, when it all falls apart

and i'm so on the verge of freaking out because i can't find my crumpler bag. actually it isn't so much of the bag that i'm worried about right now. it's the fact that my passport is in there, and i need it to go to pahang on friday. i need it tomorrow, in fact.

tomorrow should i go to school at like 9am just to say hi again? it's the last paper for most people. and the briefing's at 10, so it's only an hour to kill, not much. can always go for breakfast at the very worst.

that means i'll have to wake up at like 7am gosh. okay i should go sleep. and wake celeste up at 8 before i leave home. okay i can do this.


undone. unbring.

trying to PACK. oh my gosh. packing again.

woke up late and went to ps to meet chari sus amy. walked around and had yoshi for lunch. then headed to carrefour to get stuff for the mission trip to pahang on friday. cocktail sausages! :D haha.

dinner at pastamania, then sus left for school. then went to lavender with amy and chari- army market. then took mrt and 852 back home. just in time to catch the 9pm channel8 show. :D

sorry sebas haha.

RUBBY EYES. ugh. why do i only rub my eyes in singapore? :
i really miss some people in melbourne. and i realised today that it's only been a week. one week.

tomorrow morning briefing at 10am, then lunch? i don't know. something's happening. then go home and pack, have dinner, shower. then go to rena's place to stayover before setting off on friday morning. :)

insect repellent, mosquito coil. haha. i give up packing for today. let's be last-minute, as usual.

conferences, haven't done this in a really long while. chari amy sus josh.

i'm not going to see youuuuu.

last paper guys, YOU CAN DO IT. :)


i promise
stacie orrico

will i always be there for you
when you need someone
will i be that one you need
will i do all my best to, to protect you
when the tears get near your eyes
will i be the one that's by your side

will i be there when you call me
in the middle of the night
will i keep the rain from falling down into your life
i promise, i promise
i promise i will

will i take tender care of you
take your darkest night and make it bright for you
will i be there to make you strong and to lean on
when this world has turned so cold
will i be the one that's there to hold

will i be there when you call me
in the middle of the night
will i keep the rain from falling down into your life
i promise, i promise
i promise i will

will i be there when you call me
in the middle of the night
will i keep the rain from falling down into your life
i promise, i promise
i promise i will

yeah, and i love you more everyday
and nothing will take my love away
when you need someone
i promise i'll be there for you
(there for you) i promise

will i be there when you call me
in the middle of the night
will i keep the rain from falling down into your life
i promise, i promise
i promise i will

and i promise (and i promise)
i promise (oh i promise you)
i will be there when you call me (when you call me)
i promise, i promise
i promise i will



you know i just can't delete them.
and it's 16 days to results!


will i be there when you call me in the middle of the night

reasons vs. excuses
and broken trust

i tried on more than $30000 worth of gowns today ha.
renee day. it was such a joke.
she squeezed my feet into size 36 heels.
HELLO TOO SMALL. ugh.
not to mention privacy.



if you don't have it, fake it.
if you have it, flaunt it.
*rolls eyes*

it's difficult to mix with secondary school guys.
especially those from an all-guys school.
i think.

why do we wait for something that's never going to happen?

tomorrow i'm going to meet amy chari sus for lunch and shop for stuff for the mission trip.

today was not my day. it was only a 45-minute time difference! ugh.


once bitten, twice shy
and still we never learn
and still i never learn

i have a curious knack of pissing myself off.

and so i have decided,
no more.

don't even dream of asking.


best i ever had
vertical horizon

so you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
now i'm here to stay
love can be so boring

nothing's quite the same now
i just say your name now

but it's not so bad
you're only the best i ever had
you don't want me back
you're just the best i ever had

so you stole my world
now i'm just a phony
remembering the girl
leaves me down and lonely

send it in a letter
make yourself feel better

but it's not so bad
you're only the best i ever had
you don't want me back
you're just the best i ever had

and it may take some time to
patch me up inside
but i can't take it so i
run away and hide
and i may find in time that
you were always right
you're always right

so you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
now i'm here to stay
love can be so boring

what was it you wanted
could it be i'm haunted

but it's not so bad
you're only the best i ever had
you don't want me back
you're just the best i ever had
the best i ever had
the best i ever


tell me what do you when it all falls apart

t i m e
yes i still can wait it out. i can. and i will.

went to cut hair this morning. it's okay i think. :\ i think.

going to vivocity again with sebas and rong i think. sebas needs to spend more money.

YURONG HOW WAS BIO?

december december december

i hope the you's aren't referring to the same person. i am not going to relive that.

wakeboarding after A's? hahaha if i'm free. :p it's scary okayyy. :\ and please lah it has to be after A's. do something safer like tanning at sandtoesa before A's can. later wakeboard in shorts and t-shirt then get ugly tanlines before prom then HOW. hahaha. for rong especially. :D wear her bikini and tan haha. :D

and it's 18 days to results! hahaha. what if i don't get into medicine? die. i also don't know.

and sebas now has a secret blog. eeyer. not that i don't, but at least i have a public one too haha.

gahhs this is so difficult.


oh and i forgot to say something.

the strawberry shortcake song is stuck in my head! hahaha. because celeste is hooked on it. and she keeps playing it on her handphone. and so i keep singing it. oh my gosh.

she is so sweet, just like her name
straw bop bop bop berry shortcake~

i miss sleeping in my own room, on my own bed, with my own aircon. tonight i get to sleep in my own room with the cool aircon. :D yayyy so happy haha. okay not my own room in the sense that celeste is sleeping here too. but it's still my room. :)

smell like cranberry :D and aloe vera, which i've discovered i don't like. in face products, at least. in drinks it's fine. especially apple aloe vera.

we should really go back to paragon to see if the limsters paper is there haha. i bet it isn't.

i miss annie. WHERE ARE YOU. i think she went back to hongkong yesterday. :
tomorrow vivo again?


and i can wait this out.

sunday. family day. it turned out better than i expected, except for a few glitches here and there.

mark had band camp, so his legs were aching from running around. celeste also said her legs were aching. in the end, both still cycled.

my brother's grown, and grown up too. i hope he doesn't waste his looks.

went to church. i love the stained glass. saw the church people for the first time. felt a bit strange. aunty helen gave me another seventeen mag. :D ahaha. thanked aunty grace for sending me all the church bulletins over the past few months. :) i like amy's bag. passed amy and josh the rock candy and got a starfish and saints lanyard from amy and a starfish necklace from chari. :)

had lunch at broadway. saw gail! :D haha. and some saints also.

went to east coast park. rented bikes and cycled around. isaac used a bike with trainer wheels haha. and we picked up a caterpillar because isaac wants to see it turn into a butterfly. it's quite funny cos we have two grasshoppers at home also. grassy and grasso. :D hahaha. and tortoise (my terrapin) changed his name to ninja, apparently.

saw gail at east coast again. :D

after cycling went to macs and had fries (trans fat) and mcwings. then went to town. taka, to get bionicle for isaac (his birthday + christmas present from me). and the body shop stuff. i got the cranberry body butter yay! :D hahaha. and some other stuff.

went home for dinner. homecooked food still tastes the same, except that the fish is nicer (but it still can't compare to mama's) and i ate more veg than usual.

after dinner went to IMM with daddy army celeste to get ipod screen protector. celeste ate shihlin XXL chicken and i ate a bit. walked around. IMM is a place catered to aunties okay. eee.

very tired and i'm sounding cranky. :\ it's all because you told me i have to wait until.. forever. :(

okay that's it.


and then it flew away, into the shimmer light

today was not bad. even though i still woke up sweaty. and at 7+am. but then i slept until 9+.

kanesh smsed, so i met him for lunch at ps at 11.30am. surprisingly, he wasn't very late. :p haha. ate at swensen's. chicken baked rice! :D then walked around a bit. then he had to go.

walked around on my own for a while. but i was wearing the butterfly slippers, so my feet hurt. :\ so i walked to somerset mrt station and took 106 to holland v. my 4th time there in the 4 days i've been back. at the rate i'm going, i'll dislike holland v as much as i did in sec school haha.

ashley yurong rong hanfei dennis. haha so weird. ate jellybelly with lots of weird flavours. poor kor was the guinea pig haha. yurong kept making him try the scary-looking ones. :D then they only keep on eating orange haha.

studied a bit about the thyroid gland, then gave up. i have no clue lah. it's important for me to listen during lectures heh. ended up reading the fahrenheit twins. the stories are really weird and i don't understand them.

i got a crown haha. one two three KING. :D

i'm supposed to use yurong's name repeatedly in this entry.

kor left at 6+, then at about 8pm the rongs and i went to crystal jade la mian xiao long bao. twice in two days, wow, it's as if i'm loaded. haha. ate the pork chop thing. yurong ate the sichuan thing. and xiaolongbao, which she burst haha.

yurong uses clinique! :D

i want the cranberryyy.

i realised yesterday that i missed the grandfather clock.

and i was pangsehed tonight lah, how fun. i think my curfew might have had something to do with that, ha. i wonder if i will still be able to live under this roof after studying in melbourne for another (hopefully) 5 years.

and yurong was randomly asking questions. will you give your kids a curfew next time? haha. and rong was asking random questions about prom. go who's house before prom? and what about after-party?

countdown: 20days


i'd love to know what goes through your mind.


caution: dies when distant
sigh. i also say. :(

i can't go to sentosa on sunday because sunday is family day.

i'm going to leave it at that for now. but if what happens on sunday doesn't happen to us as a family, i am going to have a lot to say. [okay army said go east coast to cycle. i don't mind that]

went to fetch isaac from school, then had lunch at bukit timah plaza. went to reapply for my atm card and buy food for bubbles. found out that he no longer eats kaytee forti-diet.

went to school. walked around trying to find people other than sebas cos he was with hockey people. the first people i saw? caleb lim and chaoyuan. :D haha. then yingma kairou pohxuan. then caleb brought me to find val. and then rong came along. went to cafe and sat with peiyu. saw quite a few people before the paper. chenchen johnny natt guna shaun alison veevee sarah aloy jeremy etc. after they went in i went down cos i heard more voices. found huiru! :D she told me xiex was on the 3rd floor, so i rushed up. just in time. :) xiex anna pris marj nic sharon joy janice etc.

walked around for a while. mr silas is scary. :\ went to cafe and got soursop ice and sat at the far end of the cafe reading the fahreinheit twins. after an hour, went back to outside the hall to wait.

edward called today. from melbourne.

ren disappeared cos she had a fever. :( get well soon ren!

walked to the mrt station. they were discussing the chem paper. platinised? 0.5? haha i had no clue. so out of my league.

took mrt to dhoby and transferred to orchard. caleb left at boonkeng, and rong left at dhoby. [peiyu sebas kevin me] went to pacific plaza fossil cos sebas wanted to get his watch fixed. in the end he found out that it would take like 1-2 months, so he decided against it.

walked to heeren cos kevin wanted to look at flipflops. green ones. haha. he wanted a blackwhitered square bag also. but in the end didn't get anything.

went to holland v for dinner with sebas. crystal jade la mian xiao long bao. the aunty stopped to talk to sebas hahaha. :D and rong suddenly msged lah so scary. SPYER.

got back at about 8pm. showered in opi's room cos my old room's being used by opi's friends. i like showering in her toilet because the showerhead's more powerful and it doesn't take forever. went upstairs to watch tv in the mess made by my irritating cousin. ate starburst fruitfuls with celeste, taught her how to maximise the taste by eating it in a rather disgusting way (you don't want to know). haha but she couldn't do it, not even after standing in front of the aircon and making the gummies cold.

joke of the day:

sebas: "the only time it feels good to be a heartlander is when you're eating this kind of icecream (the kind you buy from uncles along orchard)."
kevin: "actually what is heartlander ah? policeman ah?"

HAHA :D

the ridiculous aircon finally died today. it kept tripping the entire house. stupid thing. so i'll go up and sleep on mark's bed tonight. good thing he's in band camp ha.

i can't believe it either. this can't be happening to me.


and i am Yours forever

followed army to pick isaac up from kindergarten. he's super cute can. :D went to dover park view to pick mark up from math tuition with mrs ng. his voice grew deeper. oh my gosh my bro's growing up.

army dropped me off at serene. hung around waiting for sebas cos it was too intimidating to go in myself haha. mcwings! :D and ice milo. ahhhh. xD lilian and sebas' friend came. then we left.

took 855 to vivocity. listened to my ipod on the way, with sebas mouthing every word. okay not every word, since he can't remember most of the lyrics haha. but he tries anyway. avalon~ it was weird because it used to be his mini. now it's my nano.

vivocity is big. but we didn't go everywhere lah. only esprit. [ask sebas to tell you the loophole cos the guy said we couldn't blog about it HAHA] zara, topman. walked all around trying to find coffee bean cos we saw it. in the end it was too crowded. so we walked to harbour.

I MISS HARBOUR.

ate shihlin XXL chicken! :D sat at starbucks and drank some mango tea thing. nice. :D thankyou sebas. :D read one and a half stories of the fahrenheit twins. tabitha warren is good.

this is how a cat thinks:

time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. time before, here a mouse was. grass rustle. mouse? mouse? not mouse.

walked around harbour. fila and u2. then went to the bus stop. took 61 to holland village.

passed by malan road on the way. heartache. :( to see all the colourful pillars painted over, the SAINTS on the gallery gone, and everything whiteredblue. :(

saw peiling at holland v. went to coffee bean to find huiru. :) dinner at the noodle place. then the windmill and home. saw diana (sebastian) also. :)

came back and saw some people for the first time in a long while. opi, aunty siewhong, uncle whyequine. and two of opi and tata's friends who're staying here for a while. ate fruits, a normal thing to do in my house after dinner.

went upstairs and found ian (my cousin lah, what are you thinking) and tata. :)

i love seeing real smiles on people's faces. :)

talked to opi and aunty siewhong about korean shows. opi said NEVER WATCH cos you can't stop haha. :D aunty siewhong said i should watch dachangjin.

went upstairs to watch the 9pm channel 8 show. i think the scene was quite typical. three/four of us on the bed, eating while watching, and commenting on the show. celeste is officially taller than me, how sad is that. OH WELL. deal with it. i'm not too bothered, actually. :D mark is going for band camp tomorrow. and i'm glitterized because isaac split glitter all over the bed while trying to do an art attack.

and then daddy came back. :D haha.

isaac said i lost weight. my sister said i gained stomach fat. OH MY GOSH. i am fat. hahaha. i want to be heavy enough to donate blood. it seems like that's my only motivation. maybe that's why i still can't go over the 45kg mark haha.

daddy said the malaria pills are optional. i guess that means i'm not taking them. which also means i am going to trust Him to protect me from the evil mosquitoes in pahang or wherever we're going.

sebas says go bintan holiday! :D oh man please can we go please please please i wantttttt.

going to school tomorrow at about 2pm.

soooooonnn. please.

i am so dead tired. the aircon in jib's room (where i'm camping) is retarded and i am perspiring profusely. gahhs. okay desperately need to sleep. goodnight.


unfailing love
chris tomlin

You have my heart
and i am Yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and power

and everything You hold in Your hand
still You make time for me, i can't understand

praise You God of earth and sky
how beautiful is Your unfailing love
and You never change, God You remain
the Holy One, and my unfailing love
unfailing love

You are my Rock
the One i hold on to
You are my song
and i sing for You

and everything You hold in Your hand
still You make time for me, i can't understand

praise You God of earth and sky
how beautiful is Your unfailing love
and You never change, God You remain
the Holy One, and my unfailing love
unfailing love





i wonder what's going to happen today. i feel very sian. :( YOU KNOW WHY? sigh. this is so ridiculous.

and i desperately need new clothes. rahhhhh.

lunch with sebas. and then i have nothing to do. i should read the farenheit twins. but still quite nothing to do. oh man.

on account of my transgression
will you welcome this confession


home sweet home

wow, i'm home. can still hardly believe it. it seems like only a few weeks ago we were still counting- 100 days.

it's so overwhelming.

woke up early- 7.45am. showered, did laundry, then went to melbourne central to fetch ian and help him carry his guitar and laptop bag. then went back and packed. bought stuff for uncle ho, then packed some more.

did the room check and filled in the forms and returned the keys. the stupid trolley was broken, so ian helped me carry everything down. so nice. :D

there was hail halfway, when i was standing outside with syahir and some other people haha. i felt hail for the first time. :D but the bits of ice were so small they melted so quickly anyway.

somehow managed to stuff everything into the car. uncle ho drove us to the airport. uncomfortable silences.. thanks for trying to break it. :)

checked in. window seat! :D haha. had nuggets at macs and filled in the immigration form. drank bigM chocolate milk. talked to chacha (who went to send richie off). went through the glass doors.

there was this lady who bought krispy kreme, so ian asked her where she got it from. in the end, we ended up talking to her quite a bit.

eden chocolate. present after present. complaint after complaint. i was happy but i was complaining haha.

the flight was alright i guess. the entertainment system went screwy after a while so they had to restart it. watched the devil wears prada (which i thought was good) and da vinci code. i'd have watched pirates of the carribean 2 as well if they didn't have to shut the system down.

the view of the sunset from the plane is one of the most beautiful things i've ever seen in my entire life. spent quite a while just staring out the window. my leg is not a pillow.

and the feeling i got when we touched down was really wow. it's like, finally home. but the plane had to taxi really far. they must have used a really ulu runway.

immigration. the lady thought ian was my brother haha. must be the specs heh. baggage claim. it was scary to see people waving at you from outside. stressful haha. rong peiyu sebas kevin caleb. daniel joel ian's mum. and of course, my own family, but they were sort of hiding behind.

i think it was a bit awkward at first. i don't really know why. but after that i guess nothing much has changed. everybody's still (almost) the same, except maybe a bit crazier cos of exams? haha. had apple crumble, banana crumble, and banana split at swensen's. i think the banana crumble was good. :D

and i have this really cute monkey called kirouchi (the milk monkey). he has a pink mark on his butt where caleb (supposedly) kissed it haha. and a guineapig thing which was supposed to be a chinchilla, and charles and keith! :D ahhh THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH. loves.

mrt back was alright. singapore's less warm this time as compared to june. i guess it's cos melbourne's weather isn't too bad now. okay actually it is. sometimes worse than winter days heh. and it's supposed to be the end of spring. summer's coming!

everyone gradually left, then army sent rong back. i don't like her new car. :
i left my DBS atm card in melbourne, how smart is that? haha oh well. sebas said get a go card or something like that. see how.

coming home to a place that's so different from home. the furniture's been rearranged. bubbles looks a bit different, though i can't quite put my finger on it. he's still soft though, and he still loves being scratched under the chin. i'll give him the pine nuts tomorrow. :)

showered, then called sebas. breakfast has been called off cos we probably won't be able to wake up. lunch, maybe. and movie also maybe. i desperately need a new wallet. a and chain for the cross pendant. yeah, and find my singapore keys.

sebas wants a macbook too haha. :D

thank God that my ezlink's still on student fare. loopholes haha. too bad for them.

hmm maybe it's a bit stupid to say this. but i miss some stuff in melbourne already. flagstaff, the cool breezes (excluding antarctic winds), looking at the train departure times every time i walk past melbourne central station. sushi, safeway, the state library. i'm gonna miss those times.

please don't let it be too far away. i don't know how i'm going to survive otherwise.

now i have a new book to read: the farenheit twins (michel faber). apparently it's good.

okay it's now almost 6am melbourne time and i'm dead tired. need to sleep. in my bed in a room that's not my own.


all the goodbyes ): and hellos (:

part of me screams at you for dumping the whole responsibility onto me, the other part screams at myself for screaming at you. my life makes so much sense.

i'm afraid that everything won't be able to fit into the car tomorrow. looking at the growing pile of stuff i have left, and thinking about the unwashed laundry and two guitars plus ian's stuff? oh gosh. :\ it'll be a tight squeeze.

i don't want to think about it! but here i am panicking. i feel like some 40+ housewife gahhs. this sucks.

i hate being forced to grow up. i'm not ready!

and this is such the wrong time for a stomachache. i wonder how much i'm going to be able to sleep tonight. i hope syahir comes back faster and returns me the weighing machine. WHY DO I HAVE SO MUCH STUFF. which brings me back to the question: what am i going to do with the clothes i wash tomorrow?

count yourself fortunate that you don't have to worry about shifting house. because that will be your biggest nightmare. it's stressing me so much more than finals did. i want to SCREAM.

haha if i see people there to meet me tomorrow i will be so happy hahaha. :D sebas said he'll go yay! :D


stay the same
joey mcintyre

don't you ever wish you were someone else
you were meant to be the way you are exactly
don't you ever say you don't like the way you are
when you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far
and i hope you always stay the same
'cause there's nothin' 'bout you i would change

i think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
if you could realise all the dreams you have inside
don't be afraid if you've got something to say
just open up your heart and let it show you the way

don't you ever wish you were someone else
you were meant to be the way you are exactly
don't you ever say you don't like the way you are
when you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far
and i hope you always stay the same
'cause there's nothin' 'bout you i would change

believe in yourself
reach down inside
the love you find will set you free
believe in yourself
you will come alive
have faith in what you do
you'll make it through

don't you ever wish you were someone else
you were meant to be the way you are exactly
don't you ever say you don't like the way you are
when you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far
and i hope you always stay the same
'cause there's nothin' 'bout you i would change
no there's nothin' 'bout you i would change


..and she breathes a silent thankyou.
tell everybody i'm on my way-


TOMORROW COMES TO TAKE ME AWAY
CAN YOU FEEL THE ANTICIPATION?! hahaha

quick one about today.

woke up
showered
packed
uncle ho came
went to school to sell books
got suga + smiggle stuff
rested
packed
went to school to sell math book
packed
taught nike how to make friendship bands
took glen waverly train to syndal
indian buffet dinner
lots of calls in between
pine nuts + banana crisps :D
rain
uncle ho's sending ian to airport too

ahh people are so nice to me. :) i'm feeling so blessed right now haha. LOVES.

and it's sad to say bye to people whom you may never ever see again in your whole life. gosh. today's the second time i felt this way. only the second. i doubt there'll be a third. okay, actually there will be.. a few more. but it'll be a different feeling cos i'll be gone then, too.

KANESH CALLED ME. :D i have to call him back. and use up my remaining credit. okay leave a bit in case optus decides to be nice and give me an extra day. if not i'll have to find some way to survive without a phone for a day.

and just in case,

QF 9
terminal One
9.30pm

:]


i wish i could say the same for myself

daddy called me this evening! :D haha.

i don't know what's happening tomorrow night. but i never know, should have gotten used to it by now. dinner, yes.

tomorrow is gonna be such a rushed day. but i think i'll enjoy it. :D hahaha.

10+am; uncle ho's coming to pick up boxes
11am; go to school to get rid of textbooks
in between; go get smiggle + suga stuff
3.30pm; nike's coming to learn how to make friendship band and to say bye ):
5.35pm; train to syndal for dinner

then the day will be over, and it will be almost time to go home! :D ahaha. I CAN'T WAIT. you know even people in NS get to be home more than me?





oh throw the withered rose away

i'm so confused. oh man. yes i just spent like hours sitting in front of the comp searching and clicking and reading. and flipping also. i wonder if there's any point at all in speculating. will it all happen in my lifetime?

found out some rather interesting things though.

tired, need to pack. pack pack pack pack pack. i have too much junk.

okay after staring at the word 'pack', i've decided that it's a weird word too. just like 'pillow', 'spoon', and 'umbrella'. if you stare at the alphabets long enough, you'll find that it's just weird. it doesn't look like a word at all.

BUT HEY YOU DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS.

uncle ho's coming by tomorrow morning to pick up some boxes, then on wednesday he'll pick me up at 1pm. so i have to tell the supervisor to come before 1pm and check the room. fill in the form to cancel the internet connection. reach the airport at 1.30 (?) and wait it out. gosh that's a long time to wait.

A LEVELERS PLEASE KEEP GOING OKAY!


and i can't find the words to say
i'll never say goodbye-

gosh.
i never want to do this again.
n e v e r.
next time i will stay in one house and never move.
ugh.
i'm sitting in the middle of a war zone now.
i hope my luggage isn't overweight.

i don't want to continueeee. :(


i don't quite know how to say how i feel

i'm hoping tomorrow won't be too rainy so i can get stuff i desperately need to get. unfortunately, the weather forecast says showers. oh well, maybe it'll be like today- a dreary morning and evening, but a bright and sunny afternoon. :)

packed one box of stuff haha. junk off my table. fine, not really junk. soft toys etc. things that basically take up too much space. the rest of my table's still a mess though. i pity the person helping me move my box of jc stuff. i guess i should go borrow the trolley thing from reception.

i need to make lists. yes, lists.

all the best for physics tomorrow, to the physics people!

haha there's supposed to be hail on wednesday.

okay i shall go do my lists and then go sleep, it's a bit stupid to be awake packing at 2am.


i'm already there, take a look around
i'm the sunshine in your hair

finally, blogger loaded properly.

today was a day of going around in circles, literally. we walked around in circles, and took trams around in circles. gosh.

yup and i'm still waking up at 5+am, i have no clue why. body clock a bit off. :\ but maybe it's good cos i'll wake up at like 8+ in singapore? which i think is a really good time to wake up.

and because of the intermittent sleep, i'm still not rested enough. :\ and maybe i've been walking around too much.

but oh we found krispy kreme today!! :D okay we asked someone. corner of spencer and collins, which is really far by the way. walking there and back burns the calories you gain from eating the doughnuts (and chocolate milkshake).

queen victoria market, food was selling cheaper cos they were almost closing. it tasted a bit weird though. and we had too much sweet stuff today. quite scary.

church. watched the video about a guy who was clinically dead for 15 mins and had an out-of-body experience. he was surfing and got stung (three times) by box jellyfish, so his entire right side was paralysed (for a while). he got saved while in the ambulance on the way to the hospital, but the scary thing (to me) was that when he first woke up, he found himself in total darkness. and his hands could go right through himself. and there was this scary thing watching him from the darkness. but then the light came and brought him up.

are there animals in heaven?
and if there are, do they die?
is there grey colour in heaven?
do the people who know you who've died before you and are already in heaven, know when you die?
what do we do in heaven?
and what will our new bodies look like?
are there cars in heaven?
are there insects in heaven?

why did He make people on earth and not in heaven since He wants us to be there ultimately?
[and the whole free will thing again]
why did He make that tree if He knew she was gonna eat the stupid apple?
why did He make flies? (they're the most irritating thing at the moment)

i'm too tired to continue.

i called liwei for like a minute and he said i sounded womanly?! oh gosh. :\ i don't want. and i don't want to be grey either. really really why am i grey? :( i'd rather be white than grey.

two full days, i hate biding time. and if only i had a fairy godmother to pack my stuff for me, now wouldn't that be nice.

okay i'm not really functioning well today, so i'm just going to shut up now.


reminding me of all the times i've tried before and failed

this evening's trip to flagstaff was quite sad.

i saw a dead possum. :( oh man.

and to top it off, the sunset wasn't that pretty, and sitting on the swing gave me a headache.

the place i love most in melbourne, and it has to do this to me on one of the last times i get to go there. :(

hearing depressing news isn't exactly making me very happy either. yeah man, slap that guy. he deserves it.

i really want to be, but i can't. not when it's you, and not when it's pertaining to ______. :\ sigh.

and i was thinking while sitting on the swing. (there's a reason why it's called the swing-think park) i think i know how she felt when it happened to her. or maybe not exactly and entirely, but a bit at least.

i'd probably do the same thing. you cut me out of your life, i cut you out of mine too. sometimes i find that there's no point, really, in chasing after something which someone else doesn't really want. just like there isn't really any point in talking to someone who doesn't want to talk to you.

and that is the answer to your question.

REALITY CHECK.

i just realised that i don't want next year to come. :( it's SO SAD. ahhhhhh. :( i'm really scared of entering uni. but that's not it.

haha listening to tmbs podcasts made me laugh. :D

okay i really need to sleep.

go away, rainy season!


i'm not here for your entertainment

tired. well, who isn't?

loyi left this afternoon. i wonder if i will ever see him again. he said he'll be in singapore in december. hopefully i won't be somewhere else then.

i hope they hurry up build the whatever 90min train from kl to singapore haha. then yeemun can come visit. :D

you thought that all that stuff couldn't touch you. you thought you were beyond it. yet it still hurts you.

i'm very blessed to know some people. perhaps not so blessed to know others.

ANDREW THOMAS LEFT WITHOUT RETURNING ME $30 (S$37+). i think i have a lower chance of getting that back as compared to my physics checkpoints. at least ashwin's going back on 19th. but nah, actually, when i think about it, i probably won't get either back. :( will people stop living off me already. and of course, andrew's going back to do NS. so will i ever get to see him again? i doubt it. but sometimes i think you'd be better off not seeing some people.

you take away my firm belief
and graft my soul upon your grief

i hate detest abhor packing. UGH. i am going to throw away a million things, and try to squash whatever's left into tiny boxes. i'm never going to make it at this rate.


sleep debt! headache.

went to lots of places today. caulfield, clayton, glen waverly. granduncle alan drove me everywhere. brought me to see places, not really houses. had lunch at malaya cafe at monash caulfield.

conclusion?

well there isn't really one. i only know i don't want to stay in clayton. glen waverly is quite nice but it's ulu and very far away (but not that far from monash clayton). caulfield would be ideal, i guess. somewhere within walking distance of monash caulfield, so i can walk to the free shuttle. but apartments are scarce there. i don't know. :(

would i mind staying in the city? spending two hours travelling everyday? that's even more than the amount of time i spend travelling in singapore. and bear in mind the fact that i've been spending ten minutes walking to school everyday the whole year.

oh well i have three months.

and (grand)uncle alan is super funny lah. he said that sometimes he still has nightmares about exams. haha and he's got to be what, 60+? :D haha so cute.

what sort of _______ person leaves their comp on playing some retarded korean show at FULL VOLUME on LOUDSPEAKER so the whole world can hear while they go out?! UGH. super irritating i tell you. i can't wait to move out.

i should start packing, i suppose. problem is, i have no idea where to start. :
and i'm not using blogger beta. i didn't even know there was such a thing heh.


only one thing to say:

oh my gosh (!!)

okay really nothing else to say about that, because. i still don't believe it.

anyway. i'm still very tired but i have to get ready for house-hunting (ugh). need to buy newspaper and find places also. AIYAH. so ma fan you know. :(

but nevermind, at least i'm going out today. because today's a pretty sunny day. :) i should enjoy it, since tomorrow's gonna have thunderstorms (totally bad day for shopping, but hey, i'll go anyway), and i think it's gonna be rainy all the way until wednesday.

smsing was quite funny last night. i think you did something right too. :) ahhh so nice to me. x) MELT YOUR HEART haha.

okay no time already.

STUDY HARD :)

5 days to home sweeeeet home xD


this body is only a tent

today was a rather eventful day. woke up to the alarm- 9.30am. yeah and found an sms asking me to wake up. got ready etc, moisturised my toes! :D i have pretty toes now haha.

then went to melbourne central and got a zone 1 daily metcard. walked to the nearest tram stop and hopped on the next tram, hoping it would take me to flinders. it did. of course lah, flinders was like straight ahead heh. walked to the entrance. right on time. :)

at that time, i still didn't know where we were going. okay YOU and I.

walked to the tram stop, only to find that tram 16 (or whatever) was having problems, and we'd have to go to bourke street. so we trammed to bourke street and waited for 96. we just missed it. ate expired hazelnut wafer and chased pigeons while waiting.

96 came and we went to st kilda beach. :D ahaha. the beach was quite nice. different from what i expected though. but thanks to somebody (who didn't tell me we were going to the beach), i didn't bring my camera. :( and i felt that my phone camera wouldn't do justice to the scenery, so i guess memories will suffice.

walked up and down.. kind of. stopped at beachcomber cafe for lunch.


$20 lunch special and er, some $16 pizza. it was quite cool, having lunch right beside the beach. :) with seagulls around and everything. lunch lasted one and a half hours. it was really relaxing, knowing that you don't have to rush to eat because you have to go study. it is the beach, after all.

haha i'm being so unfeeling towards everyone else, but hey. your time will come. :)

shiraz and half a dozen oysters (eww)

trevally fillet (mediterranean style) and pizza


talked about type A and type B personalities while we ate. i want to be a type B. but i don't quite know what i am. :\

walked out along the pier, all the way to the breakwaters. really pretty. :) the boats and all looked like something out of finding nemo. :D saw penguins in their nests. wanted to find the rakali (native water rat), but couldn't find any. sat on the edge of the wooden pier and dangled our legs down (not into the water though, our legs weren't that long).

the sun was shining on my left, and so i'm half-tanned now. :\ haha it was worse just now cos my left arm was redder. but now i think it's okay already. :) SUPER FAIR. oh well, sentosa! i love you. :D

wanted to get icecream, so we walked back to mainland. in the end we took 96 back to the city, then 72 to domain interchange, then 8 to toorak/ chapel street.

walked around looking at clothes, shoes, cars, food. time passed really quickly today. went to esprit and got a pair of white knee-length pants/shorts whatever. free tee, but i gave it to you instead. :D it doesn't really matter.

and here's a random cool car we saw at chapel street.

wanted to eat at some jap cafe, but we couldn't find it in the end. so after much grumbling and complaining and everything, we ended up at some thai restaurant. we were too tired to care much. and today was expensive food day. dinner cost $44+.

had thai curry and some fish thing. both were really good. :) and coconut rice, of course. took some photos but because of the dim lighting (well, compared to outside), they definitely don't do justice to the food.

don't know why we started talking about the rapture and everything. all the let's says and but thens. we have a lot of questions.

waited for the tram and almost froze outside hungry jacks. thank God for a personal heater haha. and yeah, i'm willing to tell you what i know if you have the questions to ask. :) and lend you left behind. i think daddy said something like this before: if you would just apply what little you know, it's already good enough. :)

waited (we waited a lot today) for the train at melbourne central. and then missed it. wow (wow is a really over-used word today. just like 'good shit'). so waited for another half an hour, roughly. talked a bit more, but we were both too tired for much. the train came, and i walked back to hostel (hostel will never be called home).

yup and i am exhausted now. tomorrow uncle alan will come fetch me at 11am and we'll go house-hunting. actually i'm really not looking forward to it, but i guess there isn't much of a choice. when grandaunty margaret asked me if i still wanted to go, i almost said no. :\ but of course i couldn't. i hate growing up and having to do these kinds of things on my own. :\

oh yes, and this was reinforced to me today:
my body is only a tent. so it doesn't really matter that it's not perfect. and i shouldn't be harping on all the imperfections of my body (which to me are a lot), because it's the spirit that matters. :)

but still, i should really put dermasone on all the rashes and everything. although sometimes i wonder what's the point, since it can only get worse when i go back to singapore. :( the heat and the sweat? i'm really thankful for the cool weather here, even though sometimes the wind gets irritating.

today passed so quickly. it's both good and bad. good because i'm going home soon. bad because it's one day gone, tomorrow's coming, and i don't want it to. but more good, because today was a happy day. :)

strength and stamina

ASHWIN SUPPIAH YOU HAVEN'T RETURNED ME MY PHYSICS CHECKPOINTS. DID IT EVER OCCUR TO YOU THAT I MIGHT HAVE NEEDED IT FOR THE EXAM HUH.

youtocomefindme

and i forgot to mention something about the physics paper. during reading time, i flipped all the way to end, and there was no question on radioactive decay in the modern physics section! i felt SO CHEATED i tell you. those questions are free marks. instead, there were 6 marks of the photoelectric effect. :(

anyway that wasn't really the point.

i'm feeling accomplished! :D because i filed all my notes and packed the school stuff! :) threw away my multiple math final/trial papers and all the retarded english stuff (except my research project). you can't believe how good it feels to throw away english stuff okay. study guides and all. haha.

wonder what's going to happen tomorrow. can't wake up too late because.. hmm. i also don't know. but something's gonna happen.

i'm feeling exhausted and it's only 12! huge eyebags are quite repulsive. i should sleep more. goodnight!


haha EXAMS ARE OVER. :D

you know it's just that feeling. it's over. the kind of feeling that can't be brought down even by a nonsensical physics paper. ha.

okay so sorry to the A level people. heh.

anyway. physics was a bit. hmm. don't know. some questions were reused. some were really weird like out of nowhere, never see before kind. i don't think the paper was really tough but i didn't know how to do a lot haha. and some explanation questions which i didn't know how to do, i just gave some half-hearted answer. or i just stated something, didn't explain. sigh. and the mass of the rock, i just anyhow wrote something lah.

stared at the police car and speeding car question for the longest time. then ten minutes before pens down, i think i figured it out. :D yayy.

some teachers are really weird. when students go to the toilet, they'll stop them and talk to them for a while before letting them come back in. and sophie was whispering to herself again. :but other than that the paper was quite uneventful.

okay there isn't really much more to say.

STUDY HARD PEOPLE. KEEP GOING.

to lygon street guy:
if you keep this up i am going to scream at you soon. and that will be followed by ignoring you for the rest of my life (or yours).


hours fly and days go by

physics!
i need to get rid of this i don't care attitude. :
10nov- sleep + i don't know
11nov- house-hunting
12nov- church + waste time probably
13nov- pack
14nov- pack + sell books (my last time ever in college)
15nov- FLY

haha can i pack in two days? i wonder.

juggie! that vid was made in aussie. :D

and i need to go memorise formulae now. especially that weird gravitation one.


FREE HUGS
are good for you

i want a free hug heh.

sometimes i wonder why such things happen.

why this happened to you today, i don't know.
but i do know that something good happened to me because of that.
thank you.

give more than you take.

cmw verse
gal6:9 let us not grow weary of doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up

:)

spent the night talking, eating, listening to tmbs podcasts, thinking, listening to the sick puppies song, smsing, reading.

i have to go and sleep now if i want to be able to get up in time to study tomorrow morning.

remind me to write your letter, kor. :)


all the same
sick puppies

i don't mind where you come from
as long as you come to me
but i don't like illusions
i can't see them clearly
i don't care, no i wouldn't dare
to fix the twist in you
you've shown me eventually what you'll do

i don't mind, i don't care
as long as you're here
go ahead, tell me you'll leave again
you'll just come back running
holding a scarred hand
it's all the same
and i'll take you for who you are
if you take me for everything
do it all over again
it's all the same

hours fly and days go by
'til you decide to come
and in between
it always seems to move on suddenly
but i have the skill
and i have the will
to breathe you in while i can
however long you stay
is all that i am

i don't mind, i don't care
as long as you're here
go ahead, tell me you'll leave again
you'll just come back running
holding a scarred hand
it's all the same
and i'll take you for who you are
if you take me for everything
do it all over again
it's always the same

wonder why
black or white
if i close my eyes
it's all the same

in my eyes
the compromise
i'll close my eyes
it's all the same
go ahead, say it
you're leaving
you'll just come back running
holding a sky in hand
it's all the same
and i'll take you for who you are
if you take me for everything
do it all over again
it's all the same


free hug



can i just ask why.

huh? WHY?!

why today's bio paper so hard? (well, harder than the rest anyway)
why the paper so long?
why only 20 mins left to check through?
why the proving hypothesis question only one mark but got so much space to write?
why the 4-mark question so little space to write, when it covers translation, transcription, gene expression?
why they ask about introns and exons?
why the last genetics question so ambiguous?!
why the respiratory system question also ambiguous?
why the yellow lethal gene hypothesis question so weird?
why the teachers talk so loudly while we're having exams?
why they hang around outside and eat sweets while we're suffering inside?
why so many people go to the toilet?

part of me was smirking. all the topics you spotted, came out. kidney, immunity, leaf structure, human evo. everything you know. almost every short answer question topic. the other part of me was screaming, SO WHY DIDN'T YOU STUDY HUH. TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME WHY.

sigh. okay sorry for over reacting. this is like the first bio paper i'm not happy after taking. :( i only wanted to enjoy the paper sigh. OH WELL.

ha let me talk more about the genetics question. it's like impossible to know for sure if the genotypes of the III-2 and III-6 are HH or Hh lah hello. so stupid ask cousins to have kids for what. but in the end i think everyone wrote Hh because otherwise there wouldn't be any kid with -um- hypercystinuria (hh).

felt better after checking answers with syahir though haha. but still! today's paper not fun. :( they asked a lot of weird questions. if only they exchanged, trials for this. they tested all the nice topics in trials lah. this paper was totally uninteresting. sigh.

tell me, where does my 360 come from huh? where? besides the fact that syahir says the extra 10% can make up part of it too. still. 360 leh.


oh well. it's over. SMILE.

and now there's only one left! ONE. o n e. wheeeee~ :D

too bad it's gotta be physics. hahaha. at least it's only physics. not like people who have physics and math b. but not as good as those people who've already finished lah. can't wait to remove my lock from the locker tomorrow haha. that signifies the END of college.


i just want to enjoy taking this bio paper.


i just wanna waste some time with you;
i don't know why :(
i just cannot study anymore.
I'M ALL BURNT OUT.
this is really scary.
i wish it was like trials,
when i could even go to state lib to mug before the paper.
now i can't even pick up the book to read
even though i know i don't know the stuff well.
RAHHHHH. :(
2hrs+ to bio.


aww, so sweet. x) thanks for relieving me of my guilt and letting me take tomorrow's paper in peace.

okay not really in peace, cos i don't really feel prepared. oh gosh. bio paper and i'm not prepared. x\ AHHHHH.

telling sus about melbourne is quite funny haha. her friends are coming here for summer school at melb uni/ trinity. haha so cool. but i can't explain the tram ticket/ metcard thing properly lah. :\ oh dear.

and so ________ (i don't know what word), you figured out the exact thing i was thinking about (and which i blogged about that day). about not putting down phones first and not liking be walked back.

bubbles is really lucky to get a double present of pine nuts haha. one's not from me. lucky duck. i still have to find dried apple.

can't wait to go home and eat banana. you'd have thought the hurricane damage would've been over now, huh. how long does it take for bananas to grow? and you go to safeway and see bananas- $11.98 per kg. madness.

i think i'll go sleep early tonight. after tomorrow, physics will be my greatest nightmare.


teach me to think before i speak.


2.8 just remember that these things will never change for us at all

i found money today. in an envelope labelled "operation other bikini" haha.

other than that, the day was pretty much wasted. i studied like 4 hours? kept falling asleep. i totally cannot make it when i study on my own. someone please come save me next year! heh.

so i came back at like 3.30pm. which is so early. wanted to go see cute little puppies and mice to make myself happier. BUT. today is melbourne cup day so everything was closed. :(

i wanted to get pine nuts for bubbles and someone said i was "so loving towards bubbles." haha. if you realise, i haven't so much as talked to him since 1july. the most i can do is get him some food and fatten him up again? cos i'm sure he's slimmed down again. :\ okay fine maybe he's gotten used to me not being there. :
i drank like one litre of milk yesterday. haha.

just now i knotted my ipod cable. then i looked at it and said to myself "that looks like a glomerulus" my gosh. study too much already. :
yeah and i forgot that math was today also, until sebas complained. :\ oh well. all the best for chem tomorrow!


all the best for bio!

spent the whole night listening to wasting time, looking through photos, and remembering things.

oh, and erasing all the pencil marks off my chem checkpoints so i can sell them. for a meagre $10. how much did it cost? i can't remember, but i'm sure it was much more than that. how stupid to have bought the physics checkpoints (which are still with ashwin).

removed random post-its from my bio and chem textbooks too. physics textbook was a real waste of money too. $55 from $80+? ha, i am throwing money away.

i'm sorry, but tonight wasn't really the right time to make me think about such deep issues. my brain couldn't really process it. so what happens now? :
i think it's really difficult to apply things you learn.

on saturday granduncle alan's going to bring me to go look at apartments or something. should be fun. but maybe a bit weird. sure, they'll be nice to me. but i tend to run out of things to say.

guilty enough for slacking the entire night away? i should really study properly tomorrow. no more company, but well. state lib's only open until 6 anyway.

only three days more.


wasting time
thirsty merc

all is fair
i'm trying to make you notice me, but you don't care
you play me like a broken game of snakes and ladders
or cards or piano or a record that's been thrown in the trash

i like you
i've liked you since i saw you walking down my street
i like your little vibe and your clothes and feet
and your hair and your eyes and your nose
and your face and your life

i know your name
and i've got your number
i don't wanna save the world
i just wanna waste some time with you
we're both so young
we might as well face it
i don't wanna change nothing
i just wanna waste some time with you

three blind mice
i may as well be asking them for stable advice
instead i'm on a seesaw all day and night
and all week and all month and all year all my life
i'm only human

if only you could see
you do some pretty crazy little things to me
and i don't wanna change the course of history
i just want you to be, next to someone like me
and be free

i know your name
and i've got your number
i don't wanna save the world
i just wanna waste some time with you
we're both so young
we might as well face it
i don't wanna change nothing
i just wanna waste some time with you

wasting time
wasting time with you
wasting time
wasting time with you

now you know
my thoughts about where i would like the story to go
i feel that if you'd really like to play it cool
we should do it, do it, do it, yeah

i know your name
and i've got your number
i don't wanna save the world
i just wanna waste some time with you
we're both so young
we might as well face it
i don't wanna change nothing
i just wanna waste some time with you


haha this song is so cute! :D


CHEMISTRY IS OVER WHEE~

haha. chem was not bad. i mean the paper. except for a few here and there.. like does sodium ethanoate dissolve in water to give a neutral, acidic or alikaline solution? and i didn't know what assumptions also. that was like 4 marks. hmm. hope i get some marks for senseless rambling ha. but other than that, it was okay. :)

yay chem is over! that means 3 down, 2 to go! and chem was like the most important (english also) because it's the one prerequisite. heh.

hmm okay but there was some stuff that was not so okay about today's exam. the guy sitting next to me, for example. so restless, don't know for what. sit with his chair 45degrees sideways, keep looking around, even behind him, noisily scraping the sole of his shoe against the carpet, noisily throwing his stationery around the table, saying "oh shoot" so loudly everyone could hear it, drinking water loudly.. sigh.

and then sophie sitting behind me. whispering to herself. you know it's more difficult to concentrate when people are being so noisy all around you. heh but oh well it's okay.

for bio paper i'm sitting right in front. i don't know why. the sitting arrangement for finals is really quite weird, i have no idea how they do it. they shuffle everyone around i think. draw lots or something. i don't like sitting right in front. but that also means that there will only be two people sitting close to me, fewer people to irk me during the paper. heh.

and how come everytime i walk past nutshack i can't see you! haha. oh well. the petshop has scary kittens now. like whole day stick out their claws to scratch the glass kind. eee. haha. i want to see manja! hurr. when i go back? i hope. anyway. there were also daschunds x mini foxies. they're always having cross-breeds. but those were the cutest little things i saw today! haha really cute. i can't wait for church and wyn to come over! :D

and i managed to print my e-ticket in school today (finally), without the comp logging me off once i logged in. maybe they fixed the thing. i still have $2.50 worth of print credit (can print 25 sheets of black and white stuff), so wasted.

going to touch down at 9.30pm. so cool, fly at 5.10pm and reach so early. haha gain 3 hours by flying. kind of.

and ian's mum met my mum today haha so funny lah. PIE people like doing this kind of thing one, very weird. i miss going to tzone though. haha.

there are so many things i want to do.


NERDS

chem paper today! haha.

i know that whatever i'm running on isn't from me, because if it was, i'd have collapsed a long time ago.

THANK YOU, i'm still running. :)

four days more, and it'll all be over. the next 4/5 years of my life, decided for me. and about a month before results. wow.

haha was just talking about how deprived i feel cos i haven't tried ben&jerry's or island creamery. SIGH. nevermind i've tried trampoline and il dolce freddo. :D

okay i shall go do stuff and study organic chem and then i shall be ready. :)

and then ONLY TWO MORE. yep. self-pyscho!

i seriously hope 3 hours is enough for physics though haha. what am i going to do if it has to be one of four best? oh well.

study! :)


i found this song on jem's blog. it's really quite a scary song.

oh my God
jars of clay

oh my God, look around this place
your fingers reach around the bone
you set the break and set the tone
for flights of grace, and future falls
in present pain all fools say "oh my God"

oh my God, why are we so afraid?
we make it worse when we don't bleed
there is no cure for our disease
turn a phrase and rise again
or fake your death and only tell your closest friends
oh my God

oh my God, can i complain?
you take away my firm belief
and graft my soul upon your grief
weddings, boats, and alibis
all drift away, and a mother cries

liars and fools, sons and failures, thieves will always say
lost and found, ailing wanderers, healers always say
whores and angels, men with problems, leavers always say
broken hearted, separated, orphans always say
war creators, racial haters, preachers always say
distant fathers, fallen warriors, givers always say
pilgrim saints, lonely widows, users always say
fearful mothers, watchful doubters, Saviours always say

sometimes i cannot forgive, and these days mercy cuts so deep
if the world was how it should be, maybe i could get some sleep
while i lay, i'd dream we're better, scales were gone and faces lighter
when we wake we hate our brother, we still move to hurt each other
sometimes i can close my eyes, and all the fear that keeps me silent
falls below my heavy breathing, what makes me so badly bent
we all have a chance to murder, we all feel the need for wonder
we still want to be reminded, that the pain is worth the plunder

sometimes when i lose my grip, i wonder what to make of heaven
all the times i thought to reach up, all the times i had to give up
babies underneath their beds, in hospitals that cannot treat them
all the wounds that money causes, all the comforts of cathedrals
all the cries of thirsty children, this is our inheritance
all the rage of watching mothers, this is our greatest offense
oh my God, oh my God, oh my God


a calendar, just 'cause i felt like it.

NOVEMBER;
6- chemistry
7- cup day/ mugging day
8- biology
9- physics
10- sleep it all away
11
12
13
14
15- going HOME
16
17- going to school + dinner date with ren
18
19- church!
20
21
22
23- last paper for a lot of people
24- going to MALAYSIA
25- malaysia
26- malaysia
27- malaysia/singapore + last day for bio S people
28
29
30

DECEMBER;
1- tata's birthday
2
3
4
5- retrospect! + sebas' birthday
6- going to GOLD COAST
7- gold coast
8- gold coast + RESULTS
9- gold coast
10- gold coast
11- gold coast
12- gold coast
13- gold coast
14- gold coast/singapore
15
16- ben+rena! :)
17
18
19- nsc appointment
20- fan2's birthday
21
22
23
24
25- CHRISTMAS! + jason's birthday + amy's baptism! :)
26- going to KL (tentatively)
27- kl (i get to see uncle chongjin and aunty karen!)
28- kl
29- kl/singapore
30
31

yup, today is the 5th of november.


I DON'T WANT SUNDAY TO END :(

sigh. i'm sorry i was cranky today.

and to make matters worse, my roomie used my comp. again. one of my convo boxes wasn't orange. and everytime she uses it, it becomes dirtier. :( i so want a pretty white mac! heh.

went to flagstaff at like 10am. woke up early just so i could go. next year if i stay in some ulu suburb i won't get to do this anymore. please take me once more, at night, so we can feed the possums, one last time.

flagstaff was pretty. the last time i went, i noticed how green everything's become. such a huge difference from winter. one of the things about living in a country with four seasons i guess.

talked to a lady with a dog which was being harrassed by another dog. there were so many dogs at flagstaff this morning.

went to sit at the stone memorial, just looking at everything and everyone around me. then after a while, i got a call: "eh which part are you at?" and then breakfast came. :) brumby's stuff, the same chocolate eclair thing and some fruity bread thing. :) quite nice. and nerds! haha i haven't eaten nerds in too long. so sweet. x)

we were a bit late for church. :\ sat with cheryl and heather. the sermon was about eternity, quite interesting. do we get our new bodies immediately, when we die, or only at the second coming? do christians who die go straight to heaven, or do they hang around until the second coming?

at next week's 6pm service there'll be a video on some guy who supposedly had an out-of-body experience. should be interesting.

had sushi at QV. okay i didn't really have anything. then went to domayne and harvey norman. looked at sofas and beds and electronic devices. haha. there was this cute little girl who kept staring at me. :D so i waved bye.

went to safeway to get coke. then walked to lygon to go to the safeway there. apparently it has a lot of stuff that the QV safeway doesn't have. looked at vegetables and herbs and garnishes, then got eden chocolate in the end. haha. went to look at bargain books at andrew's books. i want five people you meet in heaven. and anita shreve books. when i go back to singapore i will borrow. hopefully can find.

was so tired of walking by then. but still walked back to city. the apple shop was closed though. haha exchange comp for a day. :p

went to david jones and bang&olufsen. sometimes it's entertaining enough watching people who love what they're looking at. if i'm making any sense right now. after that we went to myer basement to look for retro dresses. haha. quite funny. they have rope dresses here too.

walked through melbourne central to the train station. then there was like half an hour left before the 6.45pm train, so i finally gave in. i don't like being walked back to hostel. i don't like being the one to turn my back and walk away first. just like how i hate putting the phone down first.

throughout the day i was revising chem even though i wasn't studying. loyi kept asking me chem questions. and koney asked one. it's stressful.

yeah and i'm dead tired now. really don't feel like studying. i really don't want tomorrow to come.

and on top of everything, i have to help you do your english homework.

i worship at Your throne
whisper my own love song
with all my heart i'll sing
for You my Dad and King
i'll live for all my days
to put a smile on Your face
and when we finally meet
it will be for eternity and oh,
how wide You open up Your arms
when i need Your love
how far You would come
if ever i was lost
You said that all You feel for me
is undying love
which You showed me on the cross
i worship You my God
i worship You my God
i love You, i love You
forever i will sing
forever i will be with You
be with You

it's eleven (okay by the end of the day it's like ten) days to going home, and i'm really looking forward to it.


daddy called me this morning!

i just had to do this, even though i'm supposed to be studying.

today was slightly more productive, but still. did 5 mcq sections of the final/trial chem study guide. sort of. redid them, with the workings right in front of me. yep. studied evolution. learnt more from state library books.. like how horses used to be dog-sized?

side-tracking a bit- i think the most beautiful horses are black beauties. either that, or cream-coloured ones with a white star. :) like thowra, from the silver brumby. ooh i'd love to actually see a wild horse. :)

heh okay. lunch at yoyogi, where we found three strands of hair in the bento. wow. supposed to have discount, but in the end didn't. we're not going back, which is okay (for a while), since we've been there like 6 times in the past 2 weeks.

dinner at lygon, the same place we went when kathryn came here. interesting pasta, chicken and avocado, and some seafood pasta. i actually ate all the chewy things. amazing.

late for the train, so oh well. went to hostel to check the bus timetable, but the thing was down. so ended up studying mitosis/meiosis while someone played guitar and complained about the noise outside (blasting chinese music). we're in the same boat, except that that one's korean rap. haha.

walked to melb central and saw angela, jelline, jacky and evelyn. :) waited for the delayed train, then came back. showered, supposed to be doing chem now. haha. righttt. i shall go in a few minutes. like maybe one.

if there's one thing you read here, let it be this:
everybody please study hard! :) jiayou for the next paper! i still don't know when arts fac paper is, so just in case there's one before bio. ALL THE BEST! <3

haha i'm in love with it because it's pretty and white. what sort of reason is that? x)


not a trace, of doubt in my mind

there's a happy "i cannot take it" and a depressed "i cannot take it". today (yesterday) i experienced both.

actually managed to study bio! :) after everything went okay. it's so easy to twist me around.. :\ anyway. studied topics that gave me a sense of security, ha. it's possible to say that (at this level, i mean mufy level, obviously not A level) i know (most of) it inside out. :) like i don't need to know much about organic molecules, don't even need to know alpha/beta glucose, i doubt the teachers even know what a glycosidic bond is, much less an alpha(1,4)-glycosidic bond? haha i can't remember. but i know that dr gooding didn't know when syahir mentioned it.

tomorrow i'm going to do chem and evo. haha evo is the most fascinating bio topic, even more than my pet topic (digestion). even though i don't quite know what to make of it. but there's someone to flip through state library evo books for me, and find out interesting things about lucy. yay.

i still think scientists/ paleontologists are stupid to anyhow come up with the idea that those ancient 'people' had lots of hair or whatever. you can tell that they were habitually bipedal from their footprints, but not how much hair they had from their bones, right?

hurr, evo is still interesting. :)

yup and i have to sleep now.

TWELVE DAYS TO GOING HOME, by the way. :))


running on hope

uncle ho, aunty lucille, sharon and rachel dropped by at about 7pm with the boxes. :) i realised that the boxes are really quite small. and it's quite interesting to read what's on them, like "MALAYSIA DURIAN" haha.

aunty lucille helped me carry some boxes up. she said i became quite tan. hahaha. i wonder how, since i go around everywhere in a jacket? can't wait to go home and tan haha. yeah, let's all become chocolate brown! :)

rong got new arena ONE-PIECE swimsuit but she doesn't want to model it on webcam HAHA. and yurong says she'll go jesc with us! :D YAYYY haha. i haven't been there in years (better than rong, she hasn't been there before).

boo.

haha i was just saying that i was going to study tonight. or at least, read bio (for want of anything else to read, ie a good book. and it is the exam period, after all). and here it's almost 10pm already. haha where did the time go? (talking to rong and spying friendster, tsk tsk)

okay i shall go read about the scientific theory and cell structure now! :) and maybe organic compounds too.