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woohoo~ haven't blogged for ages. and i really mean ages. cos my stupid comp died on me. so yeah. opi and tata are in china, that means i get to compete with mark to use tata's comp..! and i get it now. :p

hmm. where should i start.. have about an hour before we go out for mark's birthday dinner at swensens.. chicken baked rice yeaa~! :p madness..

good friday 250305
ungrounded! :p yeaa man. ha. went for good friday service.. then after that went kongpeng for lunch, then bishan with army isaac chari and amy.. walked around, met chinyi's brother and sarah, chari checked out handphones, then we wanted to make friendship bands.. so we decided to go buy string.. then while wandering around, we went to some slipper/sandal/whatever shop and there were these gorgeous sandals for $24. so nice but no money, hai.. : ( then we found army, i wanted to buy the hangten skirt, then the girl let me go to the toilet to try since there wasn't a changing room.. she gave me three sizes, haha.. then amy and chari followed me.. and we all decided to buy. :p haha.. then we chose the friendship band string colours and army bought them for us.. then we went macs to eat, drink and make friendship bands.. experimented with a few different ways but i ended up doing the normal way.. ha. spent most of my time untying knots i think.. : / haha.. chari said amy needs more hand practice.. :p dunno how to hold hands properly.. :p cos during service we had to hold hands for prayer, then chari and held hands the proper way.. ahaha. :p nvm. cute and adorable = fat and ugly but adorable and adorable. :p hahaha.. we got so irritated by the music and ads in macs lor.. wanted to smash their plasma tv, ha. but of course, being good citizens we didn't. bleah. blue yellow pink purple. took some funny photos.. :p haha.. then went home by mrt and 852.. reached home two minutes early.. :p

saturday 260305
met huiru and amy at phoenix at 11.15, rong came later.. went to yangtzekiang and bought celeste's martin t-shirt again.. the lady so nice. :p but she almost took back my blouse though.. ha. then amy [the ultimate imposter] bought the sajc skirt too.. if she wears the stickman tee she could pass off as one of us lor.. eee. :p then took 190 to cck mrt then went home and ate instant porridge. then daddy brought me amy mark to canberra sec, we kinda got lost on the way... but we got there. it was.. a bit weird lah.. : / there was this weird unexplainable barrier.... but nvm. : / kor was sick and he still went to play, haiyo.. then he puked. : / so scary lor, hai.. but today peter said he scored a goal.. :p anyway then amy chari and i went up to chari's house, looked through her photos and amy even went to check her email.. so by the time the panadol [panamol, but still paracetamol anyway] and plasters got down it was quite late.. ha. jo and daniel brought it down.. then we brought lotsa stuff down, they all said we went jb shopping.. haha.. and chari's house there got alligators! : / but we didn't see lah.. then they finished the game and amy and chari they all went to play frisbee for awhile... and then after quite long we went to some place and they played monkey or something like that.. and kor listened to my muvo.. using cheapskate batteries, haha.. what lah. then we went to block 406 for dinner.. forgot that my gums are swollen and i can't really bite.. : / but all in all it was alright lah.. then chinyi bought dumplings [made of gold :p] and they made daniel and jo mad.. and we walked to sun plaza, gabriel was mad cos he drank orange mcfizz, and amy asked stephen about mosquitos.. haiyo. everyone was going mad.. then we went to mos burger, ate strawberries.. : ) then amy caught the madness.. she luaghed like mad again.. stomach so painful, hai.. dunnowhat crispy guineapig : / and deep-fried and dunnowhat lah.. then they talked about playing captain's ball with fruits.. grapes.. haiyo. then we went home.. so amazing, i reached home with 10 minutes to spare! haha.. :p

easter sunday 270305
mark's birthday! :p ha. i looked so weird in that skirt. i think my outfit was completely and totally mismatched, but who cares.. : / forgot my waterbottle, so i couldn't take my medicine in the car.. but i guess that was a blessing in disguise, i wasn't sleepy during service.. :p army was so pro lor, she made isaac's milk while driving on the expressway.. madness, but she did it anyway.. haha then amy and i went to the toilet.. then we met chari and aunty agnes, so we helped her carry stuff to the sunday school room.. and guess who was there? haha.. :p chari said hi to him, then he said hi to her and to me, but amy claims that he didn't say hi to her and she was so jealous lor, she kept calling me pig.. :p hahaha.. then there was water baptism, but only two candidates, hai.. amy should go get baptised. :p then mark could go for holy communion, since he's fourteen today, but he didn't put his hands properly so the guy thought he's too young.. ha. :p oh yah, kor gave me energizer batteries.. :p haha.. then.. they had the EGM [extraordinay general meeting..?] to decide when to hold the AGM [annual general meeting..?].. i think i was supposed to be in there, but i didn't stay lah.. then after that i went in to borrow isaac's water bottle to take my medicine... then we went kongpeng with nat kor gabriel.. and then we went to macs, lionel and jo and kenneth and chari and susanna and carissa and joanne were there.. ate icecream.. haha amy talks first then processes what she says, or if there's no time she just doesn't process it.. :p haha.. then.. we went j8 again, walked around a bit, went to swatch.. army's gonna buy us each a watch, haha.. :p so nice.. ha. then we went kfc and ate cheesefries and drank lemonade.. then we went to pick aunty shanti and utami up.. then went home..

hmm.. tomorrow got induction programme, operation 2ble-I [pronounced double-I, don't ask me why].. haven't packed yet.. : / i'm borrowing mark's bag, which looks kinda like rong's bag.. but he says it's different. whatever.. bought the envelopes liao, sharing with xieai rong and huiru.. and tomorrow i'm wearing the sajc skirt..! :p haha..

oh yah, i've got dental on tuesday, hope operation2ble-I doesn't end too late.. : / then wednesday after orientation still got the acjc band concert.. : / maybe just wear school uniform there.. but i don't have the tie yet leh.. : / hai. then ashley asked me to buy blue hydranges to give him during the interval. haha.. :p i don't have a clue what they look like, must ask rong if she knows...

hmm. once again i wonder what i'm getting myself into.. : / yesterday i scared myself, thinking that i didn't really want that.. what i was doing. and i wonder if it's worth it.. and there're so many things i'm not sure about, hai.. i really dunno lah. i had this brilliant beyond brilliant idea that day while talking to amy, but i'm not sure if i should do that..

and mark needs to ghost the dumb comp so i need to backup everything. all my photos and stuff. hai, so ma fan lor.. : / irritating comp. bleah.

okay, gtg le.. blog more when i've got the time lah..

anyways. can't join water polo lah, i'll just die.. can't swim much... and judging from what they said, catching up on triple science doesn't leave me with much time.. : / all the spas, eee. : / i hate spas already.. : ( to rong.. what can i say? you're just plain mad.. :p



xieai - sa
huiru - sa
joy - sa
priscilla - sa
sharon - sa
kimlong - sa
james - sa
anna - sa
jayce - sa
josephine - sa
clement - sa
timothy - sa
adeline - sa
xinyu - sa
xiutian - sa
joel - sa
roxanne - sa
keren - sa
cheryl - sa
sheryl - sa
jael - sa
claire - sa
clarissa - sa
michelle - sa
eeli - sa
charlotte - sa
jean - sa
jeremy - sa
rong - sa
benita - sa
corlissa - jj
shuwei - jj.. sa! : )
huiling - jj
yurong - pj
sweetin - pj
darrell - pj
biwen - pj
ashley - nj
daixuan - nj
clara - nj
karen - nj
joanne - nj
joanna - nj
tiffany - nj
linda - nj
yuming - ac
shuzhen - ac
eunice - ac
diana - ac
mabel - ac
cheewei - ac
cheryl aw - ac?
steffi - ac
cheryl yan - ac
edwin - ac
jeremy - ac
joseph - ac
irwin - ac
samantha - ac
kenneth - ac?
jeanette - cj
jonathan - rj
cheryl loh - mi
may - lasalle :p
johannah - np


hmmm.. haven't been able to blog for a while, my stupid comp crashed so i'm blogging here in school..

tuesday 220305
i went out!! ha. madness.. went to bukit timah plaza only lah, but at least i got my banana icecream right.. :p it's a treat to step out of my house when i'm grounded...

wednesday 230305
the first day of school..! it was so weird watching the blur people step into school.. ha. waited for rong at the foyer, then we went to the audi.. then cheryl and her friend told us that we should go check our OG.. so we went. it took quite a while.. 10 mins..? anyway roxanne's in my OG!! : ) haha.. found out that her birthday's just one day after mine! :p then.. we went back to the audi for the last part of morning worship.. shu'ai wasn't there though.. after that we went to the plaza to talk to xieai and her friend.. haha.. baby elephant walk.. then we went to assemble on the track.. it was so messy lah.. but i think first intake was messier.. :p then we went to the audi.. OG 18-32 in audi... had boring principal's talk, was msging most of the time.. then i think it was break.. a one hour break.. so we ate.. hokkien mee and barley! :p and walked around i think.. talked to huiru xieai adeline xinyu.. so many 05A31 people are still in sa! james clement timothy sharon joy priscilla huiru me xieai anna junchen... josephine too.. :p but huiru's gomes guy isn't here though.. : / then we went for the boringest subject talk, huiru got victimised by mrs.ram, haha.. :p 'so retarded'.. :p then we went to C32 for civics.. it was so weird. actually i could barely understand what my OG tutor said. : / he's indian, but i'm not racist okay. it's just difficult to understand. hai. so anyway he got our phone numbers and appointed jean as the OG rep.. then we were dismissed. met 05A31 people at the plaza.. talked a bit.. then rong came.. so we went to the cafe to find xieai and wait for 12.45.. then we took 61 to harbourfront, then took the nel to chinatown.. to the yangtzekiang shop to buy uniform. :p but they didn't have stock of blouses, hai.. and the lady had an attitude problem.. or maybe she was just overwhelmed by the number of people there were there.. haha.. so many saints.. haha.. so xieai, her friend, rong and i decided to go to the teckwhye branch.. took mrt to choachukang and then took lrt to phoenix.. so long never take lrt liao.. so weird. and one of the glass panels was spoilt.. permanently white, hai.. not fun one, cannot see it change colour.. heh. then it turned out that there were only two blouses there.. rong and xieai tried the uniforms on first, then i tried on.. haha.. they let me buy the blouses first since they didn't have money.. : / then i had to walk all the way to the coffeeshop to withdraw money.. so poor now.. : / the yangtzekiang shop doesn't use nets, haiyo.. and the lady said dunnowhat chuanguoqu.. good thing rong went with me, otherwise i would've gotten lost.. ha. then rong and i took 190 to choachukang mrt [we went past the pj bus stop! but yurong wasn't there] then took mrt to bukitbatok and 852 home.. then we tried to load the movie into rong's muvo [we had to delete practically everything, it hardly has any memory :p] but my stupid comp was so darn irritating. restarted it like six times i think.. and in the end still cannot. bleah. so we gave up and went to have lunch.. at like 4+.. oh wells. instant meegoreng! :p sooo nice.. haha.. then we tried the comp again, but it was worse than before.. so yah. i'll send it to her sometime next year.. ha. then we changed into our new uniforms! :p aunty shanti helped us iron.. heh. then we took photos.. mine was neater than rongs..! :p haha.. we wore the sa uniform with fairfield tie, since yangtzekiang didn't sell ties.. maybe they're from bibi&baba, eee.. majestic: dress for success.. haha.. i figured out how to use the timer thing on my cam.. : ) heh, you learn new things everyday.. then i walked rong over in our sa uniforms.. i didn't wear the tie though.. then.. 75 came and she left.. then i went home, bathed, had dinner, then watched americanidol.. on.. starworld or smth. then i watched the 9pm ch8 show.. : )

today 240305
went for morning worship.. power of Your love and magnificent.. then assembly.. then audi again. we had the induction programme briefing.. what does induction mean anyway? well whatever it means, it sounds fun. : ) but the people.. are different. i miss 05A31 soooo much! : ( hai. then we had introductory lectures.. went for chem and bio so far.. later still got physics at 11.45.. then after that go home i guess...

my calendar..
friday - good friday service at 9.30am
saturday - chs football friendly youth vs adults 3-5pm
sunday - easter sunday! : ) mark's birthday
monday - induction programme
[non-residential but full-day]
tuesday - induction programme
wednesday - orientation. acjc band concert at the esplanade
thursday - orientation
friday - lessons start : (

hmm. now sa feels so different from how it felt before... it's like. i dunno. : / mrs.lim said 60% stayed on in sa.. the other 40% are new.. but it feels as if there are more new people, everywhere i look i see unfamiliar faces.. hai. i miss 05A31 sooo much! sure, i still go around with huiru, adeline, xinyu, but xieai's in arts, the only time i saw her today was before assembly.. and that was from a distance! : ( hai.. and i do see clement junchen kimlong pris joy sharon around.. but it's different from being in the same class.. josephine's OG is almost exactly the same as first intake, so good.. hai. oh wells....

rejoice in the Lord always


it seems so weird how primary school friends can meet up again in jc after being separated in secondary school... and how some people can go through twelve years of education in the same schools....

yurong - pj. eunice - ac.


sajc_

hmmm. got up this morning feeling kinda numb. it's like, wherever i go then just go lor...

had breakfast and read through the newspaper, so full cos of cheesecake.. :p then army was so eager to know my posting results, she actually switched on the comp for me... and i wanted to add a song to my muvo lor.. that means i need to restart the comp later, hai..

so anyway, everyone started asking where i'm going once i signed in.. the first time i ever saw daixuan online.. : ) ashley - nj. shuzhen - ac. pris - sa arts. biwen - pj. huiru - sa science. xieai - sa arts. : ) my two bestest sa friends are still gonna be in sa! : )

hmm. didn't think i would be that happy. : ) but hey, i am! haha.. indescribable peace~ bliss.

BUT today is still stay at home day. 05A31's having lunch at sakae sushi.. which is fine, since i don't like sushi anyways. but it's still quite sad though...

hmmm. so tomorrow is registration day. i'm so happy, i can still go for morning worship, haha.. : ) i love sa. : ) hmmm.. must we wear full school uniform..? : / i'm so used to going to school in t-shirt lor.. really really really hope rong and shuwei got into sa too.. then shuwei might be in my OG!! ohmygosh can she faster reply my sms.. i bet she hasn't even checked right. ha. eh now i can go buy another college tee, since they ruined one and i can sleep in it.. ha. no more sajc fbts.. :p and no more blouses with drawstrings. : ( hai.

awwww shuwei staying in jj. : ( hai.. so saaad.. but rong's going to sajc though... so i'll see her tomorrow. hmmm... : /

wonder where everyone else is going....

hai, kor is sick. : /


ugh_

my comp sucks. actually that is the main point. but whatever.

after blogging in school, xieai huiru and i went to write letters/postcards in the library [cos of the aircon, plus you can sms people if you're careful and don't let the teachers see :p].. xieai wrote to both of us, so sweet.. :p i kinda wrote to rong, but i gave up halfway cos my handwriting was terrible, and i wasn't making much sense anyway.. too random, hai. so i started writing something else.. for myself to keep. don't ask what it is.

then we went down to the cafe, huiru wanted to eat chicken wing.. :p xieai and i got drinks, i'm currently on a barley budget. :p plus i can get 5cents. :p haha.. saw some of the j2s studying in the cafe, wonder how they can study there since it's so noisy.. they look scary. : /

then we went to the sc to slack.. actually i think huiru wanted to go to the co-op, but it's closed for block test.. it'll only reopen on 4april for uniform sales.. : / so we just kinda slacked in the sc.. took photos.. played with the rafia [we were that bored].. then went home....

hmm. now i got to help amy do her bloggy thing....


tingles_

hmm. i think the school comp doesn't really like me. : /

not everyone's here today, but at least quite a few came.. even xinyi and lilian who hardly come! : ) just put ms.sab's card in her pigeon hole.. didn't see her at all today cos we were kinda clustered at the back during assembly [as usual] and james called her to cancel GP cos we all didn't want to go, and even if we did, it would be a complete waste of time.

hmm. i think i haven't blogged for.. two days? can't remember. and the comp won't let me view my own blog. so eee. bleah. anyway so here goes...

saturday 190305
hmm. went for the youth thingy at around 3.30.. helped army get water for the.. thingy. dunno what it's called.. there were two new guys, daryl [or is it darrell? or..? dunno lah] and.. basil..? haha i dunno how to spell both their names, but nvm. then we played animal game.. the daryl guy stole my crab! : / eee then i did starfish, haha.. :p amy and liwei did forfeit. :p the usual tell-story thing.. then.. we played aroundtheworldinonenight. that game lah.. hmm. group1 won..! :p haha.. then... hmm. we had worship.. it was a bit weird at first cos there were so many people upstairs watching us.. it felt as if we were goldfish in a fishbowl.. : / but then after that it was okay lah.. then.. ben shared.. and then we ate.. heh. steph suggested we play poisonball, then amy laughed like mad.. she just went on and on and on.. and we laughed too.. haha.. she's mad. then that night, whenever anyone mentioned poisonball, she would laugh.. haiyo. :p then we went to sit with the daryl guy and kinda chased him away. : / not our fault lor.. anyway then the basil guy came.. he's a bit weird lah.. a bit irritating.. : / well. hmm. nvm. haha, jamming is the process of spreading jam on the bread, using guitar strings to cut the bread.... haha. then.. i taught kor how to fold a crane again [but now i think he forgot. again].. and then he took all my paper. heh. then i left.. daddy sent me to diana's house.. it was an all-girls class bbq lah.. so dumb. not a single guy went lor.. joanne linda mabel joanna diana yurong may shuwei shuzhen daixuan karen clara cheewei rong yuming.. and mathew. :p he came later than me, and he brought icecream for us! :p so nice right, haha.. then he went to the condo minimart place to buy fruit juice for us.. :p yurong cheewei rong clara were playing bridge.. so i went to watch them.. without paying full attention as usual, so i couldn't really follow.. haha.. then.. may rong shuwei and i went to the deckchairs by the pool to talk.. then we went to the jacuzzi [i have no idea how to spell that word] pool.. and splashed around.. and hatched a plot to dunk mathew in.. :p ahaha.. so we got everyone to go to the pool.. and took a few photos.. then we dunked him.. :p haha.. he also splashed us lor.. then clara got completely dunked. : / she got cut too, hai.. then we went back to the bbq place and took a few more photos.. showed them a few photos from my cam, haha.. then we left at around 10.45 [mathew left earlier].. may gave me her autograph book to write.. I DOWAN TO WRITE LOR, IT'LL BE SO UGLY UGH. then yurong and i walked off.. thought i'd need a cab to get home in time lor, but the bus came once i reached the bus stop, and i managed to get home in time! : ) so amazing right.. : ) but i got locked out of the house though.. : / they locked the gate.. and i rang the bell four times! but no one heard, so sad.. : / so i called army and she came down to open the gate for me... then i went to bathe and sleep..

palm sunday 200305
got up at 7am to wake amy up.. then i kinda snoozed for awhile before getting up myself.. it's the first time i called her while still in bed, but celeste wasn't disturbed, so i guess i can do that next time too.. anyway then we went to macs.. didn't eat anything cos once again, i was full from milk and juice.. helped uncle melvin get the macs membership form.. and then amy came.. and chari called.. so i went to kongpeng with amy to find her.. and we walked in to church together. service was held in the school hall instead of the LT.. hmm... wanted to make amy sit with him, but she wouldn't let us.. haha.. so we sat one row behind. :p haha.. then... hmm. after service we went out to watch the bb boys do their thing.. :p so funny, we were laughing.. haha.. and we got palm leaves and chari and nat and i sang that song.. :p
*here comes Jesus riding on a donkey
hosanna hosanna hosanna to the King
wave the branches of the trees before Him
hosanna hosanna hosanna to the King
jumping up and down
jumping up and down
jumping up and down
shout hosanna
hosanna!*
: ) then.. chari went to hello them.. and we took a few photos... and then we went macs for lunch.. sat in the area that used to be the n&b thing.. then charissa said it was her party.. and her whole family came, so it was really her party, haha.. then kenneth josiah herman daren gabriel steph were also there.. : ) and i saw ms.toh again! saw her on sat playing captain's ball with the ascension youth, but didn't get a chance to say hi cos she was the catcher.. heh. and johan was at macs, but he was super dao lor. hmph. anyway then after quite long, ben.chong josiah herman amy and i went to the opposite mrt bus stop to take 133 to bugis.. saw cindy there, she was going to sam's house.. heh. and sam had been in bugis! :p anyway.. the first bus was too crowded, we couldn't get in, so we had to wait for the next one.. then.. hmm. we got there and met kor.. and just kinda walked around.. [my palm leaf was being irritating.. and it was dying : /] haha, i was like smelling all the pens in that shop.. :p then after that we decided to watch movie.. son of the mask.. hmm... [what can i say..] nothing. nvm. then after that i went home.. supposed to reach home by 6 but i reached home at 6.35, go figure. my mum grounded me. : / anyway then we went to the jurong hilltop restaurant, teppanyaki.. saw kelvin from OG5 there.. kinda waved.. at least he isn't as dao as johan, heh. :p hmm. i didn't like the chef guy, but he's really pro at cracking eggs.. i wanna learn how to crack eggs like him, haha.. :p then mark was like playing with his 'pet ant' which he caught in the car.. haha.. he called it ancy.. :p ahaha.. hmm. i was forced to eat salmon. : / IT'S AGAINST MY PRINCIPLES TO EAT SALMON! fine. salmon's just so.. fishy. : / eee. and it's against my principles to eat anything other than chicken, fish and pork. anyway.. then we had icecream for dessert [celeste and mark were kinda teaching nikki her maths assessment stuff] then we went home..

hmm. being grounded essentially means two things. on one hand, it means i can't go out. : ( even on saturdays [except with my family i guess]. that means.. no going out lah. i can only entertain myself with the comp, tv, folding cranes... but on the other hand, it means that i won't spend so much money either. no going out = no curfew = no need to rush home = no need to take cabs = save money.

and tomorrow's no school day. cos we're getting our posting results. hmm.. think i'll wake up late, have breakfast, laze around, then go online and check. maybe even in the afternoon.. no point waking up too early when i can't go out and there's nothing to do...

hmm i'm ponning every lesson today leh. we're just waiting for 12.45 when we can get out of school.. wonder what i'm going to do after that, since i can't go out.. watch tv right.. or blog again, haha...

hai.. sometimes i wish our human brains could remember every little detail.. then we would be able to keep those memories for ever and ever.... but that's impossible lah. anyway, some things are probably meant to be forgotten....

i lost my chiangrai star. the one in my phone. : ( hai.. cos that night i think some water went into my phone or something, then i opened the cover and dunno what happened to the star.. : (

hmmm. today might be my last day in sajc. it's quite sad.. : ( wonder where i'll go..? anyway i bet the j2s are feeling pretty down today.. first day of term2 [always a reminder that A's are coming!] and block test, while the j1s stay in the cafe and just slack.. poor j2s..

hai. bored..


bleah ;

hello.. : ) hmm. yesterday was relatively okay.. it seems like i never really blog on that day itself, eh.. i'm always saying 'yesterday'.

anyway. amy came over at.. 2pm. around there lah. so late right. but she's amy what.. :p haha.. then we had lunch [before that i was photographing church and wyn and bubbles. : ) so cute! haha] then we went upstairs.. and played payday with celeste after a while.. six months.. supposed to be seven, but we cut it short to play life with isaac.. and he quit after a while lor.. hmm i won payday.. : ) but i got the lowest for life.. which is only what you can expect with a constant pay of $20000.. isaac got $100000 lor, but he quit.. so oh well. eh when you change career can change salary also..? : /

anyway then.. amy and celeste kept bugging me about the bake'n'bend thing.. : / which still hasn't been found, haha.. :p too bad.. ha. then amy kept threatening me with my tattyteddy.. they played monkey with it lor.. : / and amy threw it against the top of my bed and the wall.. and she kept dropping it on the floor. : / hmph. all the more i won't tell you where it is lor. hmph.

then we went down to play with church and wyn again.. i love wyn. : ) church is so slobbery.. : / then amy took a photo of church with butterfly ears.. :p haha.. and they kept trying to get church to sit [wyn is 'illiterate'. seriously, she doesn't even know 'sit'. which is most basic], but mark has no authority, church never listens to him, haha.. :p

then we had dinner.. and then mark amy and i went to macs before prayer and praise.. amy wanted to order a regular plain water, haha.. but the girl said they didn't sell.. so we got a regular coke instead.. and mark said we should've gotten half a regular coke. ha. amy's always ordering weird stuff from macs..

crayon was at steph's house! :p he kept going around sniffing people.. scanning them.. haha.. then amy used my bag to block him from sniffing her lor.. and aunty elsie's scared of dogs. :p crayon kept barking.. heh. and rev.titus was in our group.. kungfu, haha.. :p

hmm. i miss sandy so much.. : / he's like the smartest dog i ever knew. he could sit and stay and lie down and hi5.. : / crayon can do a low5.. but sandy can do a real hi5.. without you even saying anything to him. you just put your hand there and he hi5s. church can only sit and stay.. and not very well either. he gets too excited when he sees/smells the beggin'strips.. and wyn just stares at the treat. ha. sandy... : (

ashley kor called me just now using william's phone, so weird.. i thought why on earth was william calling me, haha.. hmm. army can send me to diana's house, she said we'll leave when the thing ends.. or maybe earlier. hope everyone's still there when i get there.. : /

church and wyn left this morning.. : / i didn't even get a chance to say bye, i woke up too late.. hai. but i guess there'll be other chances.. hope aunty sandy goes overseas or something during the june hols. :p which isn't very likely. : / maybe december hols more likely lah..

hai, when i got up this morning and realised that it was saturday, i was like ohmygosh. the march hols are ending, and i hardly did anything at all. there's school on monday, hope everyone goes, it'll probably be our last time.. cos results will be released at 8am on 22march, tuesday. i think that means there's no school on tuesday.. then wednesday will be registration and appeal day, then what are we gonna do on thursday? so weird lor. unless there are two registration and appeal days..? : /

whatever it is, i am not looking forward to school again. term2 means real studying, real learning, and real consequences if i can't make it. : / it's scary! :S hai.

hope amy can go for the youth thing later. : /


broke.

hmm. amy's coming over later! : ) eheh. she wants to play the game of life i think.. or maybe something else..

anyway. got home at 10.30pm last night. and my curfew is 10pm. hmmm. got scolded, duh. hai. can't go out at night anymore. : ( not that i will anyway, once school starts. hai. : ( i hardly go out late anyway. bleah.

just played life with celeste and isaac, mark was being a pain in the neck. okay, i don't really mean that, but he was really being irritating. it's like isaac always ends up screaming and crying whenever he plays with mark or celeste. cos they tease him and shout at him. hai. i think he enjoyed tuesday though.. playing with people who didn't scream at him for once.

hmmm.. feel so broke now. seriously. i've been taking cabs the past few days.. ugh. and i didn't don't like taking cabs! and last night was the worst.. had to get home before 10.30, and chinyi helped me call a cab.. so now i'm broke. i should go on a diet or something. i know! be like xieai and bring food to school! :p haha..

after pizzahut yesterday, i went to taka.. artfriends opens in june 2005~! and it's so big, my gosh. can't wait for it to open, heh.. :p hmm. and i spent money there too. : / broke.

then amy called.. so i met her at cityhall mrt station, and we took 16 to marine[a?] crescent.. and walked to eastcoastpark.. i think it's quite amazing that we managed to find our way there, considering my lack of sense of direction, and the fact that we've only been there once.. heh. remember using the handphone light to look in the dustbins for daniel's OP bag..? haha..

hmm so anyway we rented bikes and cycled around.. talked a lot.. amy had lots of evil thoughts, haiyo.. and she kept bullying me, eee. bleah.

then we went to.. kennyrogers for dinner. saw yi'en while we were trying to decide where to eat.. [yi'en from OG5] talked a bit.. then.. macaroni and cheese. : )

oh yah. ideletedthemsges. the ones you yourself wanted to delete on tuesday. and.. nevermind.

later got prayer and praise at steph's house.. and tomorrow got the bbq thing, except that we're having cooked food instead. hmm. kor's doing the games.. i don't wanna play. : / bleah. and i don't know how to make an ugly pink crane either.. eheh. make tomorrow lah~

i almost had you
i almost loved you
i almost wished you would've loved me too




oh yah. forgot something. church and wyn came to our house yesterday! :p eheh. cos aunty sandy's got camp.. wyn is the cutest dog i've ever seen.. she's so fat and soft.. ahaha.. :p this morning when i went to scratch church's stomach and he rolled over, she came and rolled over too to have her tummy scratched. so cute! : ) haha.. they're staying until.. saturday i think.

anyway the class bbq venue's been changed to diana's house.. hillview green.. and she says around 20 people are going.. told her i might reach there quite late, but i should be going.. : / mathew should go leh. since he stays near there. i think. he better go lor..

i almost had you
almost wished you would've loved me too


almost

i almost forgot to say something else
and if i cant fit it in i'll keep it all to myself
i almost wrote a song about you today
but i tore it all up and then i threw it away

and i almost had you
but i guess that doesn't cut it
almost had you
and i didn't even know it

you kept me guessing
and now i'm destined
to spend my time missing you
and i almost had you
almost had you
almost had you

i almost wish you would've loved me too



i just realised that the word 'almost' looks weird.


hai.. so saaaad. : ( whatcanido? hai.

sighs

yesterday huiru called me and said i had to go for the bbq.. cos she was going.. so i went. the road was so irritatingly jammed, i might have gotten there earlier if i had walked. but anyway i met sharon, owen and kavick outside the main gate, so it was okay.. went to the tennis courts to find huiru and michelle.. jon and junchen were there too.. and chris, james' brother. and some other friends.. huiru showed me her 'LIVE FOR HIM' wristband.. sooo nice. : ) ian bought it for her.. the sfc guy we painted photoframes with.

then after a while we went to the bbq pit with michelle.. anna clement joyce joy james jon joy pris jeanette xinyu kavick..? forgot. then i went to walk walk with anna.. actually hillington green is quite nice lah.. in terms of the pools and the whole place.. but i still don't really like the look of the buildings though.. heh. then we 'poked' the crabstick and sausages and chicken wings [huiru's fave].. haha.. then the usual bbq stuff.. [too sian to write everything]

michelle brought us to find her maid.. we were supposed to finda baby called ashley, but she wasn't there.. then her maid let us try some weird drink.. gin + coke. : / i didn't like it.. don't like anything with alcohol.. then huiru kept going on and on about getting drunk and waking up with a hangover because of that one sip of.. whatever. and the guys in the pool were really boring to watch. and childish. hai.

then i went home.. walked over the overhead bridge again...

hmm. i was starting to like that don't-set-alarm and wake-up-when-i-do thing.. but last night i set my alarm and got up at 8.30am.. amazing eh.. :p i have no idea why, either. hmm.

can't go for cell outing today.. cos daddy dunnowhat specially arranged for us to have lunch together. : / at pizzahut. oh well.. not much appetite though. : / then after that.. i'll probably go taka. this may be my day to finally buy that and.. make something.

ashley's having band camp from today until saturday.. wonder if he'll go for class bbq.. : / i guess not. hai... you can't call me if i'm at class bbq leh.. bleah.

sighs. i wonder if a person can just live in memories. there's something seriously wrong with me. hai. help~!

why does that acrylic clay roller thing have to cost so much?? no money lah. : ( does artfriends sell something cheaper..?


hmm. don't feel like going for class bbq anymore. crisann isn't going either. : / i think i'll end up not going lah.. which means it's my third day not going out! almost. fine, i went to bukit timah plaza yesterday lah.. but that was for less than half an hour! not counted. heh.

so bored~ someone come save me... bleah. crap.

read the sly article in 8days.. he is so.. hilarious. and a bit weird lah.. haha.. [go ahead may, say whatever you want about him] but hey, at least he gets to travel to goldcoast right.. wanna go goldcoast~ :p actually the place i wanna go the most right now is.. chiangrai.

daddy's sort of planning a mission trip in june.. initially he wanted to go to jakarta, but.. the kids in gina's kindergarten are already above average, they don't really need help.. in chiangrai.. it's different. they aren't well-off, although most of them aren't orphans. what i love most about them is that they love you right back. even though we can't exactly communicate with them.. they're so warm.. iwannagoback~ anyway, so daddy asked me if i wanted to go back to chiangrai.. obviously i'd like to go back.. but just to be part of the team, not to lead it or anything.. i wonder if the road's completed..?

and you know what? i lost that pink crane. that one. i don't know what happened to it. : / maybe isaac fed it to bubbles or something. : / oh well.... i still have the roses though.

hmm. tomorrow is cell outing day.. we're going to east coast park i think.. : / amy's not going.. and mark doesn't want to go either. hai. don't feel like going for that either. it seems like i don't feel like going out at all eh.. : / actually i want to go to creativehands. and queensway. and artfriends. argh. maybe i can go creativehands tomorrow. dunno what time it opens though.. i'll check later. and.. maybe go jb on friday? if i'm too bored, i guess.. hmmmm do i have something on friday night..? : / can't remember.

aishiteru..?


hai.. today is eee. : (

xieai isn't going for 05A31 bbq.. : ( dunno about crisann yet.. but i don't feel like going lor.. hai. : /so ugh.

sometimes i really wonder why some things have to happen. and why now, of all times.. now i'm beginning to see how hard it is... : / hai. it must be tough. i've never gone through that before, so i don't really know.. i think it was some newspaper article that made me see.... anyway. i hope things work out.. : /

hmm. on a brighter note, ruth is getting married. to adrian, duh. not sure when though.. but i'm happy for them.. her, mostly.

okay. yesterday i went to meet ashley.. arrived there around 8.33.. then he bought his stuff and then we went down to bata.. where he bought his sandals cos his old pair gave way.. then we went home.

walking across the overhead bridge at night is so different from walking across in the daytime. you can look up without squinting and see the stars in the night sky.. it's beautiful. : )

hmm. forgot to blog about something isaac did yesterday.. i'm sure he didn't know what he was doing.. but it was a timely reminder all the same... amy was looking at me.. we both knew what was going on lah....

http://www.lcbtv.com/flash/movie/tonghua.swf
it's very very nice.. but quite sad lah..

there's some stuff i really want to believe, but i think i'll probably be disappointed if i do.. and i don't want to get hurt. and there's so much i want to do, but i know i can't. it's like i'm trapped in this cage and i can't get out. maybe one day i'll be able to...

ni yao xiang xing
xiang xing wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xing fu he kuai le shi jie ju


hmm. today's a good day. : )

got up at.. 9 something..? or was it ten? actually i have no clue. mark and isaac came into my room [which i 'owned', since celeste wasn't back from camp yet] and isaac came and lay on my bed with me.. anyway then i went for breakfast [the kaya thing again] and cleared bubbles' cage. isn't that amazing..? haha fine. :p then i changed.. and kinda just slacked around.. watching tv with isaac.. bananas in pajamas, haha.. my childhood show [it's the only thing i can remember having watched when i was little].. and then celeste came home.. she was sick. : / heard from daddy later on that she'd vomitted and had stomachache.. : /

then kor came.. haha.. isaac ran away.. as usual. then we watched tv while waiting for amy.. then.. hmm. we went upstairs.. to my room. which is, of course, in a huge mess. and kor went to mess up my bed somemore lor.. haiyo. played with my metoyou bear and my giant squirt.. :p and he still hasn't written the date yet.. haiyo. and he stole my class photos lor.. : / then i kept beating him haha.. :p then we went back down..

then amy came.. and.. i forgot. then we had lunch.. kor said grace again.. :p haha then daddy came back.. : / but it was okay lah..

after lunch we went.. up i think. is it? i can't remember, super short term memory lah.. brought them to mark's room.. which is a lot neater than mine. : / then we went to jib's room.. and played life after a while. haha.. then isaac joined in after the first game.. haha.. he didn't know what was going on lah, except that you're supposed to spin the wheel and move the car.. haha.. and he had the highest starting pay! :p then everyone kept switching salaries.. haiyo. and everyone started career, not college. my own rules. :p

then kor kept hitting me, and so isaac kept hitting him too.. :p haha.. who ask you to hit me lah.. :p ha. then [i need to stop using the word 'then'. but how else to phrase it, argh] amy did some jigsaw thing.. haha.. which we didn't complete.. then [argh] we just kinda hung around.. went downstairs for a while to try to get my physics textbook back [which was the main purpose in coming] but i couldn't.. : / kor was being eee.

after a while we all went back down.. slacked and watched amy teach isaac maths.. haha.. nursery tutor.. :p actually i think she's not bad leh.. haha.. and then they played with celeste's softball glove from camp [is it softball..?] anyway then daddy came down to go to work.. : / wrong place wrong time, i hope he doesn't say anything.. : /

then isaac gave us some paper, so kor made him an aeroplane.. origamiman, haha.. :p then kor made some more flowers using tissue paper.. : ) then.. i got my colourful origami paper and taught kor how to make cranes.. :p how can an origamiman not know how to make a crane?? ahaha :p [he just signed in] bleah.

then.. [hai, i'm too lazy to type everything.. anyway i got to go and meet ashley later] i walked amy and kor out.. a bit. cos kor was taking bus from the other side mah.. so then i waited with amy and isaac for 961.. then went back home with isaac.

kor vandalised my book, eee. haiyo. and he was supposed to go and work today lor.. but in the end he didn't. haiyo..

ahhhh i'm going to be late..! i think. but he said i could be late... eee so lazy to walk over and take bus leh.. : /


stuckathome

heh. mark helped me transpose his 'shout to the Lord' so now i can kinda play it. : ) yay.. haha.

hmm. still bored. why does it seem like i can never watch tv? i'm always doing something else at 9pm.. sighs. kinda miss the 9pm chinese show.. is it ending soon..?

hmmm.. okay, thanks may! happy hols too..! : ) to everyone out there.. hopefully they won't be as boring as mine yah? : /

i haven't set foot outside the house today. not even to the garden. feel so.. confined.

i've got this new eye ointment for my eye.. hopefully it works..? right now i'm putting modaderm [self-prescribed : /] and it's helping lah.. a bit at least. but even still, yesterday and today when i woke up i could hardly open my eyes.. haha.. like what shuwei said. :p

mark's practising piano now.. but i have no clue what he's playing though.. o.o.p.

something fishy.. haha. hope xieai goes for the bbq leh.. : / otherwise so weird.. then no one to talk to.. unless james hangs out with the guys.. then can talk to huiru.. or maybe i go find diana. haha.. hillington green and hillview green and summerhill..

wonder if there's school on monday and tuesday..? but my class has got to be the slackest class in the whole school lah. everytime like only half of the people go to school.. but the outing to sentosa was quite good though.. 20+ people at least.. hope everyone'll go on wednesday.. wonder if they're asking ms.sab to go also..? and why on earth are they meeting at newton mrt?? haiyo that's like so far away lah.. but i'll probably go there straight lah.. it's so near my house...

tomorrow is a weird day. : / ahhh i like that thing mark just played..! it sounds like the starting of that song...

army's going brasbesah complex tomorrow. artfriends~! wanna go lor.. but dunno how to go..

and i still haven't figured out the westcoastpark thing.. i wanna climb the spiderwebby thing! : ) haha.. that time the limsters went there.. heh. just sat there and talked for so long... hai, i miss those days.. the fairfield days.

i don't want a lot for christmas
there's just one thing i need~

i know that's totally o.o.p. but hey, that song's stuck in my head now.. ever since i got it from rong that day...

half of my life is spent on the comp, one quarter spent on the phone, and another half spent sleeping. they overlap, go figure it out yourself.


me-to-you 



sighs of whatever

hmm. today is such a boring day.. kinda expected lah.. but still.. : /

last night i wanted to go to sleep.. but ended up talking to ashley kor since he's going out today until late [around the same as yesterday lah] and he'll be too tired to talk to me tomorrow night.. then halfway through, his mum asked him to go bathe.. then amy asked me to call her.. talked for a short while.. the conversation wasn't exactly satisfying.. did i get my point across? but anyway. then i called ashley again.. talked about more serious stuff.. then we both went to sleep..

fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
isaiah 41:10

hmm.. got up at 10am.. then after everything, i went to look through my khaodee photos.. hai, joanne still hasn't developed her photos for us.. : ( i think she'll never do it lor.. bleah. so anyway i wrote captions for quite a few photos.. 7-10march.. but then i forgot some stuff, so i had to refer to the 'learning journal'.. but i couldn't find it. :' ( hai. dunno where i put it lor.. so saaad. hai.

then i went for lunch.. then i bathed and came online..

ashley says that sighing shortens your life.. someone told him it strains your lungs or something. : / haha.. then he said he should talk to me less cos i keep sighing when i talk to him.. haha.. pick up the phone already sigh lor.. :p haha..

this has got to be the most boring holiday ever. holidays in fairfield were never this boring. even study leave.. honestly, i'd rather have study leave than this holiday. holiday from what, anyway? it's not as if we even studied in school. so it's a holiday from seeing friends. in school. crap. feel like playing monopoly or cluedo or life leh.. someone come save me, quick..

hai. daddy doesn't want to bring us to phuket during the june hols. : ( why?? eee. so unfair. i wanna go~! hai.. then 10-13 june got church camp.. in.. forgot where. somewhere in jb.. i think.

ashley said [i know i'm being random, just bear with me k] he got assurance that he should go nj. but i still dunno.. but i think i'm fine with either sa or nj. he says it's partial 8, raw score.. then they'll pick people with better cca records.. which obviously i don't have. hmm. i think i want sajc now. hope shuwei gets in..

hmm. nothing else to say leh.. bleah. wonder what's going to happen tomorrow...

wondering


oh yah. something else bugging me today.

would you give up your job for God?

don't work on sundays lah..


since you've been gone

here's the thing
we started off friends
it was cool
but it was all pretend
yeah yeah
since you've been gone

you dedicated
you took the time
wasn't long
'til i called you mine
yeah yeah
since you've been gone

and all you'd ever hear me say
is how i pictured me with you
that's all you'd ever hear me say

but since you've been gone
i can breathe for the first time
i'm so movin' on
yeah yeah
thanks to you
now i get
what i want
since you've been gone

how can i put it
you put me on
i even fell for
that stupid love song
yeah yeah
since you've been gone

how come i'd never hear you say
i just wanna be with you
i guess you never felt that way

but since you've been gone
i can breathe for the first time
i'm so movin' on
yeah yeah
thanks to you
now i get
what i want
since you've been gone

you had the chance you blew it
out of sight, out of mind
shut your mouth i just can't take it
again and again and again and again

since you've been gone
i can breathe for the first time
i'm so movin' on
yeah yeah
thanks to you [thanks to you]
now i get
i get what i want
i can breathe for the first time
i'm so movin on
yeah yeah
thanks to you [thanks to you]
now i get [i get]
you should know [you should know]
that i get
i get what i want
since you've been gone
since you've been gone
since you've been gone


agape_sundayschoolcamp

hello. bleah. today isn't -wasn't- exactly a good day. dunno why i wasn't really in a good mood lah. : / one of my off days.. which is rare.

anyway. let's start from yesterday. went to tpy to meet amy, then took 142 to sas.. reached there around.. 2.20..? not sure. then we kinda walked around a bit.. and took two blue balloons.. :p then we went into the LT.. wrote stuff on my balloon.. then amy wrote stuff on hers too.. sittingrighthere* and they were having worship practice.. then we folded the bulletins.. and then was prayer... then was service. the bb boys came.. and liwei asked me to be the usher. : / so weird. and he wanted me to pass around the offering bag too.. but i didn't in the end..

sat beside amy during service, helping her with the projection thing.. quite okay lah.. but a bit scary also.. esp when you can't find the slide or you don't know the song so you can't really tell which slide it's supposed to be next.. or when the screen blacks out and everyone looks at you as if it's all your fault. and when people come and question you about it. : / he's scary.

anyway service ended early.. then we went to kongpeng for dinner, then took mrt to orchard.. [chinyi ben.chong daren nat fabian amy me] went to coffeeclub xpress at wisma.. and also bought jo's birthday present.. and tried looking for mark's, but.. well. we still have some time... then we walked around.. and met steph and aunty helen at the nike women's shop! [and i'm still in love with that tee. the white one's nicer..! or is it..? argh. no money lah] then.. i took 171 home. chinyi was so nice, she waited with me.. don't like being the last one to get on the bus when there are so many million people. eee. so squashed up. : /

oh, and i tried daoing kor. but.. well. i didn't really dao him for very long lah. bleah.

then when i finally got home, i went to bathe.. then opi made me icemilo and helped me blow dry my hair.. : ) then i went to do.. something. slept at around 12mn..

then this morning, i woke up at 7am to wake amy up.. then went back to sleep.. and forced myself to get up at 8.05am. sooo tired. as usual. then we left home at 9.. army went to buy hashbrowns from macs for mark and isaac.. then we went to church.

God is still speaking, and He has something to say to you.
God is so powerful, He created the whole universe, yet He's interested in simple things like helping you find something you've misplaced.
often God will not speak to us until we are willing to obey Him. so we have to make the commitment to obey Him first.
God is never late, but in our perspective, He's often last-minute. yet in reality, that's His perfect timing.
what you have or do not have does not affect what you can or cannot do.
hindrances from hearing the voice of God: 1. ignorance 2. fear 3. lack of fear and persistance 4. disobedience 5. wilful sins.
He is looking for you, will you spend time with Him?

oh i want to know You more
deep within my soul
i want to know You
oh i want to know You
to feel Your heart
and know Your mind
looking in You eyes
stirs up within me
cries that say i want to know You
oh i want to know You more

then after service, we kinda hung around for a while.. amy signed up for camp.. then we went for lunch at macs.. then sam and jem took our car to aloha loyang.. we got a bit lost.. but in the end we managed to find it lah..

didn't want to play at first.. felt so sian. and well. still badmooding around lah. but then aunty pauline said we had to set a good example for the sunday school kids. so blah. went to 'play' lor.. they did the pass-the-parcel thing.. only the 'parcel' was a glue bottle lah.. then must intro.. name age school and something no one knows about you. everyone just said their height lah. i am so short. : ( but by the time it got to me, we only had to say our name and age lah..

then after a while, we divided ourselves into 2 groups.. the agape kids already had their groups lah.. benchers and orange plum. like what weird group names lah. : / anyway. we were in orange plum.. then had to draw some 'masterpiece' [mine was drawn by sam.antha and some other stuff added by me] and use rafia to tie it to ourselves.. blah i'm so tired, don't feel like writing everything.. so anyway it was basically [ashley's influence eee] a waterbomb game. ha. there were 2 rounds.. and the second round, the kids were just spraying amy and i with the supersoakers.. haiyo. shoot in our faces lor.. and ben caught it on his cam eeee. : /

then after that we cleared up and drank milo and ate biscuits.. then we kinda just dried ourselves in the sun a bit [the chinese youth went outside to continue their water-spraying].. then after a while we walked out to the escape themepark bus stop.. walked past the 4a chalet place.. costa sands.. the swimming pool.. man i remember that time. everyone squeezing on the beds.. watching ironchef.. [oh my gosh isaac's head just got stuck under the tv cabinet thing : / but now he's okay] competing with the irritating and unhygienic people next door to start the fire first.. playing royal taiti [helping joanne play].. watching the stars.. bathing at 1+am.. watching the sky change colour at the rocks on the beach.. cycling.. talking to kor at the poolside.. bowling.. videoing.. hai. i miss 4a! but -yay!- we're going to have bbq soon.. : )

gosh i am so random. actually not really lah. just got flooded with memories. but back to today. in the end mark amy and i took a cab to our house.. then amy took 961. the ride cost us $15.70 [just as amy predicted], but army's paying. :p

hai. so well. now i've cooled down.. not mad at them anymore. but seriously. argh. i almost wanted to scream just now lor. ugh. : / i've not really gotten that angry at anyone outside my family for a long long time.. : / don't ask me about it.

hmm. my calender's pretty empty.. so sad eh. : ( bored bored.. school holiday's started! the second last week [or is it third..?] before school proper. next week it's getting posting results and registration, appeal, and friday's good friday! holiday again. then the following week is orientation, buying uniforms etc and lecture timetable [or at least, for sajc lah], then the next week is the full lecture and tutorial timetable. hai. so fast.

monday - bored.
tuesday - more bored.
wednesday - 05A31 bbq at james' house in the evening
thursday - cell outing..?
friday - bored.
saturday - punkt.com bbq and 4a bbq. : / how to fit in both? and how to go west coast park from sas? argh. eee so rush. : /

hmm. guess i'll just go.. out. myself..? yea. no money though. : / hai. so saaad. : (

bleah. fine. eee. oh yeah. it's not her number. : / but i guess whoever it is, it doesn't really concern me lah.. so whatever~

since you've been gone~


me.rong.. and plus ultra! ahaha 



sleepypig_

hai. can't remember the lyrics of that song liao. : (

anyway. yesterday i went to kallang myself.. met rong and shuwei there.. they had a passionfruit iceblend.. : ) with pearls. : / eee. still remember may boiling the pearls at fiesta. :p haha.. they were so ooey and gooey and eee. : / anyway. then joseph and cheewei came at 3.32.. two minutes late! haha.. cheewei said it herself lor.. bleah. then we went to cheers.. talked a bit.. then some other guy came.. and then we had to wait for irwin. heh.

then we shared two cabs to sis.. singapore indoor stadium.. it seems like it's been ages since i've gone there.. the last time was maybe the 2003 hillsong concert by newcreation church..? and everything was different then... anyway. and maybe the second last time i went there was.. when we were still in fcbc [faith community baptist church].. and maybe the third last time was for the unseen musical. : ) but anyways. cheewei thinks the cab driver cheated us cos joseph and irwin they all reached earlier than us.. ha.

then we queued up for ages.. talked a lot.. about jcs and points and fairfield and jc skirts and gilbert [the maroon guy. rong's friend who keeps hiding behind the tree.. haha. he wanted to cut our queue :p] and isaac and my eye.. and some other stuff. and i let rong listen to my muvo cos hers doesn't let her play the animal song and crash and burn.. heh.

amy called me and asked some weird stuff. it seems like the whole world is going mad around me.. maybe it's cos of me. haha.. ashley says that weird people know weird people. it's kinda true, i guess..

saw some other fairsians.. weiling and fiona.. [mathew called me fiona last time : /]

then we went in at around 6.. haha.. it was so funny lah.. ran around trying to find seats.. haha.. and amy had to call me in the middle of it to ask some other weird thing lor.. haiyo. madness. anyway we finally found seats in the north balcony.. directly opposite the choir [cheewei..! : )].. [my unseen exits were northeast and southwest] then we [rong shuwei irwin me] went down to buy food.. the burgers were gigantic and expensive.. i didn't buy cos my mouth is too small.. then they all forced me to eat some.. thanks rong.. :p haha.. :p then we went back up to wait..

hmm. don't really want to write much about that.. : / except that it was pretty cool.. argh i liked that song lor. but now it's gone. : ( flown away.. anyway. that old woman was so cute lor. :p she said God told her 'if you give Me your sins, I'll forgive you. if you give Me your sickness, I'll heal you.' : ) and she kinda ran around.. : ) so cute. :p haha.. then there was that woman whose right eye had been blind for four years.. and then she could see.. and there was that choir thing..

then after that, daddy fetched me home.. reached home at 12mn..

hmm. it wasn't as weird as i thought it would be. i don't mean the crusade. i mean.. something else. hmm. that time, we were like really good friends.. i remember always turning back to ask ___ [fill in the blanks yourself. if you happen to know who i'm talking about] how to do amaths.. in sec3.. and after that.. something happened. then there was that silence.. it was so awkward lah.. but then ___ wrote something in my autograph book.. something i didn't really expect.. yup. and i suppose neither of us ever made much effort before yesterday.. but i do appreciate the effort made by ___ yesterday before the crusade. : ) if only things could go back to what they were before. a friendship kept is better than a friendship lost, yea?

later maybe going for the sas family day thing [so copy fairfield lor. haiyo] with amy.. maybe only lah.. cos now she can't tell me what time she can go yet.. and she's only going just so she can see someone. this thing is getting so out of hand. eee. ugh. bleah. : /

hmm. would i..? honestly speaking, i guess i might. i would..? but if i think more about it, i'd say no.. because of a few reasons lah.. and it's just not the time.

haha.. yurong went to courts yesterday..? then she went to my house to deliver my pj badge haha.. so nice of weird girl! :p haha.. she attached a note to the badge also.. : ) haha.. there's no tree in my backyard lah! haiyo.. and my house is the pink house cos if the bouganvillea right [i don't know how to spell that lah. it's not important anyway].. haha.. thanks anyway! : ) eheh..

sleepy pig


aishiteru means i love you! :p that word is so cute.. haha.


harbourfront_

this is so weird. everyone's still in school i think..

must remember to email ashley.. i must, i must..

girls don't like boys girls like cars and money
boys will laugh at girls when they're not funny~

hmm. what happened yesterday arh.. oh. in the end, i didn't go to ikea lah.. just stayed at home and slacked.. read 'on my own' again.. my third time.. but somehow this time reading it was different.. some parts it really seemed as if it was talking about my own life.. : / i'm tempted to put some excerpts here.. but nvm. anyway, it was.. weird. hai. then after dinner army brought celeste and i to westmall.. cos we were dying of boredom.. then when we got home i called ashley.. or did he call me? forgot.. then.. went to sleep.

woke up at 5.40am today lor. so early, ugh. cos fmps having sports carnival [they scrapped sports day a few years ago.. but still. evelyn rocks! ahaha.. better than martin olson blackmore lor :p] so celeste needed to be there by 6.45.. so i reached school around 6.50.. so early lah. then i waited at the foyer benches.. msging xieai.. and then jean came to wait for her friend.. then i went out to the bus stop.. then xieai came.. and waited for me.. : ) she's so nice.. : ) haha.. then her friend kwanying came.. the long hair science fac girl.. then kenneth finally arrived.. at like 7.25.. he made me miss morning worship lor.. : ( the lastest morning worship of term1. maybe the lastest morning worship of my entire time at sa.. argh. : (

but anyway.. when we went back into school and went to the hall, we realised that there wasn't any arts fac person in school at all lor.. fine, not at all lah. joyce and her friend were there.. and james too.. and xieai and i lah. then mrs.tan came and talked to us.. then she said we could leave.. so we were going to go out.. then they played marikita. so we stopped just inside the door and put down our bags so they wouldn't complain.. then we went out. the teacher guy stopped us and asked us questions.. so we told him we were from arts fac and that we didn't have lesson [cos most of the arts teachers were on course], then he let us go..

so we took 93 to harbourfront centre.. went to eat wangjiao again.. it was so stuffy.. : / and everyone gave us this weird look like why are we ponning school?? haiyo. but there were other saints there too... then we went to the sofas outside macs and just sat there and talked and took photos.. and talked. and talked. [kor woke up so late today.. haiyo. sleepy pig :p] then i wrote in xieai's doodle book.. : ) and she looked through my bible and fmss handbook... then she walked me out to the bus stop at around 11.10am.. some foreigner guy stopped us and asked us how to get to the cable car station.. : / so we kinda roughly pointed him in the right direction..

then army came and brought me to dover.. passed sa and fmss.. : ) the lady's so nice.. : ) though her house has lots of.. ermm. weird figurines. : / and she cuts well. i like my new haircut! :p and it's so cheap lor.. so happy, i finally got a nice cheap place to cut hair liao.. : ) her daughter's celeste's ex-athletics friend..

then we went to fetch celeste.. then came home.. and ate instant meegoreng again.. it seems like i can eat that everyday.. haha..

hmm. later going to meet cheewei and rong.. rong hasn't really told me anything yet.. : / and i'm not sure how i'm supposed to go to kallang.. wonder if opi can send me..? if she's even home....

blarghs. bored. clement's right, boredom kills. oh yah. i forgot to buy the crossroads foolscap today. mainly because the co-op wasn't open when i left school.. i guess that's what happens when the co-op's run by saints instead of some elderly lady.. haha..

hmm. today ac's having internal founder's day celebrations. why they must celebrate so much arh.. like when's their actual founder's day anyway? haiyo. : / can't wait 'til 4august! army said they're having a big celebration.. and they're dedicating [is it dedicating..? or smth else? can't remember : /] the new school building then.. which is cool. cos it's my year! it's our year! hahaha.. hope it makes up for not having prom or grad night.. then yurong'll need to wear weird things.. hahaha.. :p

hmm... ashley wants me to pray that he'll go ac. everyday. no way man. ac is eee. : / sometimes maybe it's not what you want....

sheesh. so bored. fine, i better go reply that email now.. before i forget.. next time i'll write a letter and make him reply a colourful one.. :p haha..


slack_

hmm.. i ponned school today. since huiru and xieai aren't going.. and army agrees with me that it's a waste of time.. anyway, ponning school gives me more time to sleep. ha. :p i think i'm really becoming a sleepy pig.. : /

woke up at around 8.30.. then i just lay in bed and smsed until 9.10.. around there lah.. [jo was being weird. : /] almost fell asleep again lor.. hai. wonder why i'm so tired nowadays.. no energy.. : /

then.. stoned for a while before breakfast.. flipped through the home section of the straits times cos i couldn't find life!.. i think it's in tata's room...

anyway. later i might be going to ikea.. i don't really know why either.. but i can't stay at home the whole day.. i'll just die of boredom. : / which is so contrary to what i just read.. but -hai- dunno lah.. : /

the main idea is to get daddy and mark something.. for their birthdays. which are coming soon.. hai. dunno what to get for them.. and then seraphina and susanna too.. and then steph...

oh yeah! just now i realised that exactly one year ago, i was in c h i a n g r a i ! we were there from 7-13 march 2004.. hai. i miss everyone so much.. : ( goy, guy, fan, may, small may, monkey girl, sue.. hai. and the worship and the games and the food! gosh.. i miss sticky rice and fried pork! and even bathing in the freezing cold water.. and spending our free time playing bridge and snacking.. haha.. i miss the k h a o d e e team too.. ms.tay, ms.yow [operation well! :p still can't believe she laughed at it herself], 'dia, 'nia, 'ria, genevieve, steffi, yurong, tiffany, barbara [wonder how she's doing in melbourne now..?], eunice, joanne, edwin, jeremy, daniel, the other daniel, shawn, junhao... and everyone else.. : ( and goy's birthday is coming up soon too... 29april.

hmm.. it's so weird to have so few people online.. but i guess everyone's either in school or still sleeping.. bleah. should i wait for ashley? but then it'll be so late.. and i'll have nothing to do before that.. and i'll reach home so late. then i'll be even more tired.. and i need to go to school tomorrow! must buy the six crossroads foolscap pads for linda steffi mabel cheryl shuwei.. and pass the t-shirts to kenneth.. and try to give out the rest of the ezlinks..

and i still haven't told cheewei what time i'll be meeting her tomorrow.. i think rong said meet at 4.. but dunno meet where leh.. kallang..? or meet somewhere else first? and wear what?? haiyo. don't even know whether i'm going home first or not.. otherwise i'll end up going in my saints t-shirt lor.. but there's nothing wrong with that... hai. wonder if there's enough time to go cut my hair on friday..? : / gosh.. i'll reach home late on friday.. that means i'll wake up late on saturday.. hai. eee. don't like this cycle.

hmm hmm.. so bored now.. oh yah. supposed to go and name all my photos and movies so it'll be easier to send to rong... bleah. so lazyy...


yuming.shuzhen.tiffany.me 



jjc_sa_kor_dance

hmm. today was.. actually, today was quite a good day lah. :p

got up at the usual time, then opi sent me to jj.. we kinda drove along the entire corporation road before finding it.. cos we went to the wrong side at first.. then she had to u-turn. then when i got there, i just walked in and found rong.. and shuwei.. : ) then rong gave me my jj badge.. and we talked a bit.. and had some money problems again.. haha.. then cheryl came! haha.. and her friend that i saw on the bus that day.. haha..

then we went to the canteen [not cafe :p] to find the rest.. saw mabel steffi linda gabriel darrell.. oh no i can't remember.. then anyway everyone wanted me to help them buy the crossroads foolscap lor.. haha.. cheryl shuwei linda2 steffi mabel.. :p then we went for assembly..

heard the 'late song', haha.. but i can't remember what it sounds like.. their assembly is on the track, same as sa.. and it overflows onto the field too.. :p then so weird, must turn to face the flagpole when we sing marikita one.. heh. then mabel's CT quite nice, except that she kept saying that my CT would be looking for me and that i should go back.. and steffi and mabel didn't want to tell her that i crashed jj.. so i just stood there lah..

then they gave out prizes for some lame competition.. sorry lah, but it really is lame lor.. steffi told me about it.. haha.. saw cheryl go up and get the prize.. the other cheryl, i mean..

then after assembly, rong and i went to find darrell.. and we went for maths lecture in LT5.. i got jj maths assignment 5! :p haha.. on binomial series.. : / the lecture was alright lah.. but a bit boring.. and cooold. then the lecturer finished early.. so we went to eat with cheryl aw and jasper and.. dunno the other guy's name. he was in rong's OG lor, but she doesn't even know his name. haiyo. tsk tsk.. :p haha.. jasper is really weird. weirder than rong, if that's possible. :p ahaha.. ate chicken rice.. jj's chicken rice not nice one lor.. sa's is so much nicer! :p haha.. then juston treated us to banana milkshake.. it's sooo nice lor. :p really.. cold and sweet and bananaey. : )

then we kinda rushed back to LT5 for physics lecture.. sat with cheryl and jasper and that guy.. i seriously didn't know what the lecturer was talking about lah. collision.. what's the difference between elastic collision and completely elastic collision? : /confused* and when a raindrop hits the ground, is it elastic or inelastic? : / hai. then some teacher kept coming down and hanging around the side of our row lor.. so irritating, haiyo.

then it was chem.. sat with darrell.. and he told me about the mr.leeym thing.. : / heh. okayy.. anyway the lecture was on chemical bonding, the covalent part.. giant molecular structure and simple covalent structure.. then she taught us how to draw the simple covalent bonding structure.. so cute lor, haha.. rong kept saying it looked like a squid. :p then after that i went to change.. into my code of the saints tee.. haha.. but it's not that conspicious lah..

then i said hi to christie.. :p then we took a photo.. haha. and then we went to the jj cafe.. dunno what kaffa konnection or something like that.. : / it's alright lah.. but the location a bit weird.. must walk past the staff room one.. and it's quite small.. heh.

then we went out of the school.. took a photo of the plus ultra thing.. haha.. such a dumb thing lah.. no offense.. but seriously.. plus ultra..?? haha.. :p

then we took 198 to near fairfield there.. and changed to 166.. and went to sa. :p met joyce james junchen on the way in, haha.. james said now what time then come school.. what lah, he also pon history lor.. 12.45 already leave school.. haiyo. :p then i saw ms.sab walking to her car.. so i kinda avoided her.. can't let her see me when she marked me absent mah.. then we went to the cafe and met crisann and denise.. and anna and eenian.. eenian helped me settle the econs tecture test money thing.. avoided mr.lee too, haha..

went to the co-op and found out that it was closed.. it closes so early on wednesdays lor.. maybe cos of the protected chap's hour..? but no what.. that's later.. aiyah dunno lah. then i went to the office to collect kenneth's stickman tees.. ms.chia was in the office, so scary! : / but ms.ho is nice lah.. :p they didn't have black xl and xs.. so i had to call kenneth. and he was still in school.. : / then in the end his friend decided to change the xs to s.. so i went back to get it..

then.. brought rong on a tour of sa.. haha.. went to the sc, the library, balcony, showed her the gallery, drank apple-orange juice and banana juice, went to the scary place outside the drama room, showed her the secret passageway [and said hi to roxanne], went to look at two kittens behind the wall : / and showed her the dance studio.. she had to agree that it was a lot nicer than the jj one, haha.. :p

then we left school.. took 61 home.. and compared muvos on the way.. haha.. hers is white and black.. mine's all black. hers is 256mb.. mine's 512. :p eheh.

when we got home.. played with bubbles, fed him the papaya treat thing, then went up.. rong changed, then we went online.. then rong went mad.. as usual.. haha.. she didn't let me type anything lor.. haiyo. : / haha.. then we looked through blogs.. and i talked to ruth a bit.. and then i copied some of my songs into her muvo.. and some of her songs into the comp. :p and showed her photos and videos.. haha.. : )

then.. after a while we went down to play piano.. :p played the usual stuff [of my very limited ability].. like the entertainer [rong's fave song :p] and guanhuaifangshi and the first part of forbidden love. :p and.. some other thing. then rong made me play some songs from that thumbs up book.. which i couldn't play. i kept going 'all cows eat grass' and 'f a c e' and 'every good boy deserves food' and 'good boys deserve food always'. hahaha.. :p then i taught her about half of 'ode to joy'. :p haha..

then army mark and celeste came back.. then kor came. heh. went down to pass him my physics textbook.. and then he came in.. and said hi to rong.. ahaha.. :p then rong wanted to hide.. haha.. :p then i went up again to get the crossroads foolscap for kor... then after a while, he left..

then rong and i went back up and we d a n c e d !! :p oh my gosh. it was so fun lor.. :p at first we couldn't remember some steps.. i couldn't remember so much of the marchi dance lor.. : / but then in the end we could do it lah.. : ) i miss buskathon man. : / we danced twice first.. then we used my cam to video ourselves dancing hahaha.. :D it was so funny lor.. we kept saying dumb things.. and forgetting steps.. and i kept going out of view of the cam, then rong kept screaming and pulling me back.. haha.. and whenever we had to move and i had to be in front of the cam i would go ohmygosh.. haha.. really wish we could do something like that again... : ( i miss mass dance too! : ( chorichori.. :p oh. and rong told kor i was running around and screaming my head off. :D haha.. madness.

then i took lots of crappy photos of rong.. haha.. she put my silarius headthing on my me-to-you bear.. haha.. :p then she did her lookaway pose again.. :p and the usual peace thing.. :p haha.. then her dad came, and she left...

then i bathed and had dinner.. then came online.. again. hmm. so that was my day..

kor's going to vandalise my physics textbook i think.. : / which is perfectly alright, as long as he doesn't write anything bad about sly or anything like 'taufick rocks'. ugh *shudders* : / now my physics textbook's in original O level condition.. :p haha.. but i won't really touch it for the next few weeks anyway...

~boulevard of broken dreams~

hmmm. gonna put the videos in the comp now.. : )


hmm. newest plan: crash jjc tomorrow.

but the problem is that i don't really know how to get there.. and i don't know what to wear.. : / probably standing with mabel's CG.. wonder what CG she's in.. then either go for mabel's or darrell's lectures.. they say it ends at 11.30am.. so early lor.. can go out first before going sfc.. if i'm even going sfc lah.. : / don't want to miss the farewell thing lehh.

aiyah. what time to leave home tomorrow arh.. feel like calling rong. should i..? argh. *try calling* yay her mum picked up. :p and passed it to her.. and yeah. she reaches school so early lor. nuts. yay she's thinking of ponning her whatever and joining darrell and i. :p then got someone to talk to...

called shuwei too.. she said the bus stop's before a turn to the left.. haha.. and there's some police post, but you can't see it anyway.. then she said there's a sign saying 'jjc' or smth... i think i'll just alight when all the brown uniform people alight lah..

shuwei's crashing ac tomorrow.. at around 11.. that's a bit scary, cos i heard that joanne and linda crashed and got caught. : /

okay think think think. what time do i need to leave home..? and what time do i need to wake up? bleargh i can't stand this kinda thing.. but nvm. aiyah have to wake up earlier tomorrow.. : / oh wells.. for the sake of crashing my fourth jc. :p pj nj ac jj. haha..

goodnight world.. : )


exhausted_

hmm. okay, i'm home now..

anyway i didn't buy malteasers. decided not to spend that money.. so. i went to the co-op and bought the crossroads foolscap.. and then i dumped my bag in the hall and went to the office to order the other two stickman tees.. then i went back and -erm- talked to huiru a bit.. : / it was weird lah. cos she was there.. and well. she was crying. : / and.. oh nvm.

so anyway we decided to go for history lecture.. our class was the biggest, with seven people! haha.. but mr.yoong didn't scold lah.. he finished the lecture in twenty minutes.. then our class stayed in the LT and slacked.. james let us watch some weird thing on his laptop.. but i didn't watch lah.. talked to anna a bit.. and gave them their ezlink thingys. : /

then it was finally time for GP. so we went to D13.. and yiheng joined us. then ms.sab actually wanted to have a lesson, but we kept complaining, haha.. then she said tomorrow if we didn't want to have lesson then msg her or something.. haha.. so we talked about jcs and university and potong pasir and aircon-less classrooms. : / fund-raising again...

hmm. then i went fairfield.. went straight to tzone.. then ate a cheesedog and fried rice and drank qoo for free. :p army paid, heh.. then i just kinda sat there and watched people.. joanne was sitting outside at the bball court.. ms.ng was there too.. they were having interclass games..

still remember last year when we were having interclass games.. we won ms.ng's class in street bandy! :p hahaha.. then we shouted 'ms.ng, we won!'.. haha.. :p and we were like running back and forth from the field and the parade square.. haha.. captain's ball and street bandy.. we gave up on ultimate frisbee.. : /

anyway joanne saw me when we leaving.. and she waved.. : ) then yuming came!! :p i was like - oh my gosh. haha.. then she went to find joanne.. and we went home.

when i got home i was so exhausted lor.. and i have no idea why. i just plopped on the bed and slept for one hour.. then i went to bathe. and then dinner. then here.

bleah..


in school. like around 1pm.

gosh. and i wonder why i'm here. so bored in school.. don't know why i even came..

it's so stupid lah. and it's unfair too. no one said you HAD to listen to me right? you could have ignored me and just gone and did it. but you didn't. out of your own free will. so it's really your choice. is it my fault? hai.

something's changed.. it's really different. i think i know why.. but i guess it's a good change.. although it's only on the outside. how am i supposed to know if it's an inward change too? but if i were to hazard a guess... i'd say no.

anyway. i ponned everything except chinese and maths tutorial today.. only 6 people went for maths, and our chinese was combined with he.laoshi's sister's class.. we watched kungfu hustle. :p too bad we couldn't finish it though... i'm probably ponning history lecture too, but i guess i'm going for GP later.. cos i think ms.sab marked me present today.. isn't that the reason why i came to school in the first place? hmm.. then after that i'll probably go to fairfield and take army's car home.. maybe i'll see joanne. :p thursday maybe crashing jj.. i think i will lah.. if shuzhen wants. can't really crash alone, it's not fun.. and xieai's probably ponning on thursday too.. like today. she arh.. never come then never tell anyone lor.. haiyo. :p was supposed to crash science today, but then i was too lazy to go find roxanne.. then jeremy only replied my sms after the chem lecture lor.. so i gave up and decided to just pon everything.. almost lah. they were all playing badminton and bball in the hall.. i just sat there and watched and wrote stuff in my diary and smsed and went to order t-shirts for kenneth. which reminds me that i'd better go order the other two he just asked me to order. and buy the foolscap too.. hopefully the co-op will be open...

my eye hurts so much. it isn't healing. : / friday most probably going for the city harvest healing crusade.. with rong and cheewei.. huiru maybe going also.. cheewei asked me to go for the evangelistic service on sunday, but don't think rong's going for that one.. and if she doesn't go then i'll just go chs lor...

friday also maybe going to cut hair again... : / hai. so bored and so tired.. maybe tomorrow i won't come to school.. feel quite bad about not calling amy last night.. but it was late. hai. lame excuse.. : / but seriously. dunno lah. i'll just die of lack of sleep if i continue to talk every night. still remember last time rong used to call me all the time and we'd talk for quite long.. but then it wasn't as long as this.. and then we stopped...

i guess i'm not really part of that group.. but then, i'm not really part of any group.. that's quite sad lah. but oh well.. come term2, we'll have to make new friends again.. it's quite irritating cos it takes so much effort... hai. and sec school's over.. so does it matter that much if i'm not part of that group..? yea, i think it does. that twingey feeling inside... hai. but oh well. what can i do right. blearghs.

okay, i'm bored. going down to the office and co-op now.. then go find huiru.. and maybe eat. or maybe wait 'til tzone..? see how lah.. feel like eating.. malteasers. :p eheh. chocolate to take that guilty feeling away....


one way

i lay my life down at Your feet
You're the only one i need
i turn to You and You are always there
in troubled times it's You i seek
i put You first that's all i need
i humble all i am, all to You

one way
Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for
one way
Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for

You are always, always there
every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me
You will never ever change
yesterday today the same
forever 'til forever meets no end

You are the way the truth and the life
we live by faith and not by sight ... for You
we're living all for You


acjc

hmm.. guess i'll continue from where i left off.

after blogging, i went to look through other people's blogs.. then jinlih came and asked me to sign in for her.. cos she forgot her password, haha.. :p then i told her how i signed in [student. password. the computer] but they said the server was busy and couldn't sign her in.. so i let her use my comp and she called me an angel! hahaha :p i sound like rong. eee. : /

then huiru appeared.. then i went to find the book 'angels' but couldn't find it.. : / then found eenian and anna at the model of sav.. they were doing something for mr.yoong's history tutorial.. : / which we ponned. but oh well. then i went downstairs to find my bag.. at first i couldn't find it.. but then i finally did, with huiru's help.. then i went to change. into full school uniform lor.. huiru and xieai both said i looked weird cos they hadn't seen me in that for ages.. : / oh well..

then we kinda just hung around until 12.45.. when josephine came out, we left school.. but xieai decided to wait for her friend.. then i took a cab -my gosh- to ac. like my gosh. i hate taking cabs. don't ask me why. i just do. : / but that was the only was i could get there in time.. so i didn't really have much of a choice. it cost $4.10.. the uncle didn't know how to go to the main gate lor.. but anyway. it was so scary to walk in alone lor.. but i guess it wasn't that bad cos some people had just walked out.. i bet they ponned some lessons lor.. so i walked in.. carrying my bag in front... then when i got past the security guard guy, i called ashley.. sooo scary. then ashley came out and gave me the badge.. then he brought me to the canteen.. where yuming shuzhen tiffany edwin and zhiyao were sitting.. it felt so nice to see them again.. : ) edwin was so extra, he was wearing the ac uniform.. : /

then after talking a bit we went for the bio lecture.. the lecturer is so scary lor. : / she scolded us for no reason! 'are you fairfield girls or crescent girls?' bleah. : / so dumb. then the comp kept dying on her so she couldn't teach properly. ha. anyway edwin lent me a set of notes.. extra from his class.. but i didn't write anything on it lah.. copied on another piece of paper. i guess today was a good day to crash bio and chem lectures since they were both starting on a new topic.. and baljeet wasn't lecturing chem. :p i just want to laugh whenever i hear her name.. haha.. :p anyway. back to bio.. learnt about enzymes.. globular proteins.. highly specialised.. biological catalysts.. lock and key.. induced fit.. catalase: hydrogen peroxide --> oxygen and water. it's so amazing that i could remember that, ha.

then we changed LT for physics. the lecturer's a bit weird.. his hair's weird, haha.. and he's super boring lah.. almost fell asleep.. and i was totally lost when he went through the physics tutorial 5.. so i just read through a part of shuzhen's notes.. and i still don't really get the part about triple.. something.. point..? : / or maybe it's just triple point. oh whatever lah.. some of the stuff's from O level...

then chem. some people came in from outside.. then william looked so shocked to see me.. haha.. he sat in front of me.. almost lah.. then the chem lecturer also very weird.. she speaks with some weird accent.. but she's alright lah i guess.. the chapter's about chemical bonding.. electrovalent [ionic] covalent metallic.. hydrogen bonds and van der Waal's forces.. and i forgot what else. but i know i didn't understand some of the stuff.. : / wish i had notes. hai.

anyway then after that we took a photo in the LT.. tiffany's cam.. 'proof that fawn crashed ac'.. :p hmm. the LT opens up to join the hall.. and the chairs in the hall are arranged so neatly lor.. the rows are so straight.. and there are big colour photos framed and hanging in the corridor.. and the lifts.. ac is so darn rich. it's disgusting lah, the amount of money they spend. ugh. : /

then we went to the canteen.. i ate chicken rice.. again. yes, i aspire to try and rate the chicken rice in every jc. : / hai. but it was good lah.. heh. better than nj's and pj's. sa's is comparable. :p then shuzhen ate malteasers and yuming ate watermelon.. tiff left earlier.. then we went to the photocopy room and the bookshop.. this is where i'm proud of sa.. : ) our co-op rocks man.. :p really.. it's so much better lah.. and the eraser's so cheap. :p hahaha..

then we went back to fairfield.. then we sent shuzhen out.. and saw lois! : ) hehe.. she's really different from primary school.. but then that was ages ago.. anyway. then yuming and i went back in.. and she found joanne.. and i went up to the chess tables.. then i saw ms.mano.. talked to her a bit.. told her i crashed ac, haha.. :p she asked why everyone wants to go nj.. : / then she had to go.. then decided to go and buy the izhoukan cos got sly inside. :p drank green apple cooler too.. then went back and wrote stuff in my diary.. then ashley finally came..

hmm. the rest is quite crappy.. but in the end he didn't amend his registration.. :p but he says he'll disown me if i can't get into nj. : / it isn't my fault if i can't get in lor.. hai. so unfair.

played the piano, then mr.leeym came along.. he told us to sign in at the office.. : / he said he didn't mind cos he knew us, but other people might mind.. he taught me only in sec1 lor.. and he still remembers my name! so amazing.. :p haha.. he asked how we did.. and where we're going.. haha..

then i went to tzone and helped army carry the cheese sausages.. then we went home.. then dinner, then bathe, then here.

tired.. dunno whether i should even go to school tomorrow? don't feel like crashing science anymore leh.. too lazy... hai. dunno whether roxanne even remembers that i said i wanted to crash.. hai. and i don't think i can leave early tomorrow.. cos the last tutorial is GP. : /

hmm. the left side of my head hurts. it's got something to do with my ear. but i'm not sure what. i'm not a doctor. hai.

yuming shuzhen ashley tiffany edwin kenneth irwin joseph eunice william arthur karen clara diana lois john zhiyao

hmm. going to lend kor my beloved physics textbook. haha.. all my science textbooks are beloved lah.. :p but my physics has the most crap in it though.. blame ashley, he kept writing stuff in my book...

yawns..