Sunday, January 19, 2014
Note to self: stop being such a dumbass. Doing the same shit over and over again. I need to wake the fuck up and learn my lesson. It seems like there's always glimpse of hope, yes, it does.
P.s you don't get over one person with another.
Monday, December 16, 2013
For all these years that I've been trying to know someone else, I'm the only one that I need to know. The others could be somewhat significant in my life. They come and go. I need to know myself. When my close friend pass out a comment like, she's weird like that. I know I'm different, but I don't know how I can be so different that I'm weird. On one side I'll try to be normal, try to fit in, try to be like everyone else out there. And on the other side, I refuse to be ordinary. Life is just too short to live in the norm. See that, I'm struggling, cuz I don't know myself.Sometimes I want all the fucking attention that one could give. But when everyone is looking, I'll just wanna runaway and hide. I'm socially awkward when meeting new friends. But I can talk to anyone anything under the world! I wonder will I ever have a spilt personality or eventually on the road to psychopath.
Sometimes I don't even know if anything makes any sense anymore.
P.s right now I'm struggling to know what I want.
Monday, December 02, 2013
I've reached to a new phrase of life where I can't be possibly be honest abt my own age. Oh god. I can't bring myself to tell people how old/young I am. I'm living in the fear of people will pass judgemental comments. All these negative judgements are in my head. And I can't do a thing about it to make it positive.P.s When in doubt, question your own ability to be true to yourself.
Thursday, May 09, 2013
Had a dream abt us last night. It's so real I can almost feel your face. I wakes up to nothingness, you're gone. For an impulsive moment I almost text you about this dream. Just glad I didn't. You know you're the only one I believe I'll ever marry to. And now that there's someone by your side. Oh God. Why don't we treasure the things we once hold onto so dearly?P.s foolish beings.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
I couldn't help it but to spend my day thinking about my foolishness. Whole day same thing going over and over. I thought I can handle it, I ALWAYS thought I can. FML, I hope I didn't ruin friendship.P.s one more reason to be a man in my next life.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Like usual. I abandon my blog for much more fun stuff. Okay. It's been such a rushing year. 2013 you're way too fast. First it's the countdown, and then Cny now Valentine's day is over too. Man, what's the rush. Take a chill pill.Anyways, life has been on a roller coaster ride since the last post here.
I had so many FML moments for the past 6 months, that I lost count, and getting used to being fucked by life.
Maybe it's time to getting back with blogging life. Social life is almost none.
A song describes my feelings at that particular moment. A while ago, it was Lady Gaga-edge of glory. And current favorite is 明明就.
P.s I'm one mofo confused child.
Friday, April 06, 2012
Idk if my brain can handle everything that is going on.. If i can't. I'll crash and burn..not knowing what the future brings might be a blessing...P.s way overwhelmed..
