Today, during leader's meeting I cried buckets! cos i really could feel that I want the heart of a shepherd! I want it I want it!
I was reminded with full clarity that Acts 20:28 was spoken to me even before i was a helper.
This is what God has called me to do and what I will do from now on.
Now it's focusing on growing my group to 17 and strengthening my members!
Nanyang Girls' is God's!! It is HIS kingdom! They are his students! I proclaim that. I want that school God.
i WANnnnnt to lead not just 10s or 20s i want to lead hundreds!
In fact, just over these few mmonths, i realised my capaciy changed so ooo much. With 5 tuitions, a Cell group, church activities, family and studies, home is practically a hotel room. Talking to my good fren, i realised how much my time can stretch. But am I doing the right things? I havent done much in the past 8 months. Now it's time to DO SOMETHING!
But i need to make time for my first love and family too. No one else but YOu. What would i have become if u didnt die for me? I cant live without u. I just wont exist. I'll be crushed into thin air. I need you. Come near to me lord!
God O God! my closest friend, my saviour, my rest, my life, my breath, my strength, my refuge, my light, my revelation, my mouth, my eyes, my hands. You are everything i need and ever want. I could exchange the whole world to know u. I don't want to be so busy till i clutter myself and crowd you out of my life.
Yes, like what Pst Phil said, our walk is not based on feelings alone, but on discipline.
Who am I
that you wash my feet
Who am I that you call my name
Greater is He who's in me
Greater you are than all the Earth
My closest friend
I can only stand in awe
