Crying out to You...

A breakthrough in life
comes when the heart is right.

This is what I've learnt over time. How true, O Lord.
As I have done what I've been convicted to do, Lord I believe that Something happened. Something that changed my spiritual level.

Lord, I prayed for my friends, you blessed me with one. And, so many more from the cell group. It's amazing. So simple yet powerful Lord. And I believe there's more breakthroughs to come. AMEN?

Yes. amen. I expect it, and I receive it.
Yet Lord, there is another thing which is on my mind strongly. My ministry. A while ago, someone told me to just join the music ministry. But, later Bro Ken talked to me, about my ministry, about whether I want to be a cell group leader. I didn't know-- which means I haven't sought enough yet.

So, I stood and prayed, sat and prayed. Silently prayed. I'm just asking Lord that you let your Holy Spirit fill me more than ever. Lord, can I hear your voice and know its you? Can I look into your heart and obey you? How I long to. To know the voice of God as familiar as the sound of water. the sound of music. Lord, hear my cry, you see my Heart. I pray and commit into your Hands.

.amen.

Friendship

I've learnt something so important in these two days.
Someone told me, in a friendship, perfect love isn't just about sharing the good times together. Its about confrontation and rebuke. Its so true. Especially for Ying. I've talked to her umpteen times about her life. About the importance of God, church, cell, EVERYTHING! Yet, she doesn't seem to move. But she will eventually just like will. I pray, I really pray that God will give her that teachable heart. A heart that will move her life toward believing in Him, reaching for Him, living for Him.

Lord, I really thank you for convicting me to live a life that is right for you. It may be difficult to live that life of healthiness and balance, but, I know.. that it is going to come to pass. For I shall work Hard, I will. I will. But more than I myself just trying, Lord, you change me! Make me ever so sensitive to your Holy Spirit!

And for all of the two friends ,A and E, keep their friendship so strong in your presence. Holy Spirit, fill their friendship always, and change it to be one that is centered around You. And Lord, you mould me, no matter how many times, no matter how long, to be that very purpose I came here for. That is my heart's Cry. No. Its a scream, a shout from my spirit man. Deep calling unto deep. Spirit calling unto God. Yes, Lord Jesus.

Lord I'm hungry, for a mighty move of God
Lord, I'm thirsty, pour out Your Holy Ghost,
Lord, I want to see the Hand of God move mightily inside of me,
I'm hungry, for a move of God.

:.The power of WORDS.:

Haha.. guess where I am now : NTU.. doing what?
On a research attachment.

Oh wells, trying to do sth productive on the com here,but apparently, nothing gets done and I drift away.
Waiting for the silica particles in the lab to centrifuge finish..until they are nice and separated. haha..
Its quite an eye opener really.
Get to use certain cool equipment like the magnetic stirrer and centrifuge.

Anyway, The LORD was so awesome, so wonderful, so beautiful today..
Had a bio SPA today in the morning, it was fine, good. Or at least I proclaim it!!
Haha.. many people don't understand why i'm "deceiving myself" when I say things like, "I'm not going to fail."

But, I don't think that way. Words can be the most powerful tools of encouragement, of proclaimation in faith, in hope and expectations. Yet, it can hurt others so much, that it leaves a scar. And which do I choose? The 1st of course.

What you say is what YOU become. If you are going to speak to the situation to come alive,it will. I promise. God promises. Because faith requires an action. It isn't just about thinking. It is about speaking to the situation. Jesus didn't say think about the mountain moving and it will move. He says when you SPEAK to the mountain, it will move! This is for Jill, my twin.. who always hears this, well I can't emphasize enough. haha...

And I never ever believe that it is about deceiving yourself and psychoing your mind into believing what isn' there. It has got to do with the spiritual. It's about believing in the supernatural. In the power of God. Many, many things happen in the spiritual when we pray, fast even though it may not seem so in the physical. And I always believe it. Just like I can say God has already healed me, like I can say, My friends are going to come to know you Lord.

And The DEVIL, can't hear what you think. So if ya wanna get rid of him, SPEAK to him in JESUS name! He will flee like you've never seen. I know that because Pstr Kong said it once. And now I know, I'm more ready to fight in the spiritual realm because I know the power of the WORD is with me. It is not just the words we can speak that carry the power, but the BREAD of LIFE that sustains us through.

I've learnt once that we all need to look beyond reality to the things we cannot see or imagine. It's the same with God. If we only look at Him in reality where we can see Him, we will never be able to comprehend his Majesty. And God is a BIG GOD. So, we must never put a limit on anything God is. Look BEYOND reality!

Amen. Jesus, I love you so much.I just can't express it in words.

My Dancing Soul

When all else fades, my soul will dance with you,
Where the love lasts forever.
I will be with you....

I was ministered by this song, especially this particular part of it.
I can just close my eyes and just imagine--
In my pointe shoes,
Holding the Lord's hand, dancing all day and night away, in the midst of all the wonderful gold in heaven.
It's amazing. Because I know, then I will be with Him, Worshipping him all the time.

But more than just me alone, I want to see my friends dancing too with My Lord. That our souls will dance in love, in salvation, in destiny.

Worship. The very reason I live.

Well, cell group was tremendous yesterday, I know God is moving more strongly than ever. His presence, more and more carried in our lives.

I had the wonderful oppurtunity, to lead games, but it wasn't what I expected. Probably I looked too high, and ended up so low, because the response was not there at all. I have to admit, one reason is about the choice of game. I chose the wrong one. I did. But that can be changed. And Bro kenneth told me that I have a very natural laugh.. so Praise The Lord! hah.. but that I still have to keep improving of course! Well, I know that without failures, we can never learn what the best is, and I know the God, is changing me, to be A SPIRIT-FILLED CHRISTIAN for Him! I know, He has changed me to desire to be a Healthy, balanced person, and I know, He will continue to make me so filled with the Holy Spirit! That the moment the Holy Spirit speaks, I move. Lord, I am hungry, for a mighty move of God in my life.

So many things happened yesterday, I talked to Bro ken about ministry, and he talked to me, how my attitude should be. He kinda gave me a short overview of everything a cell group should be.. and I began to start wondering again, God, where do you want me to go? I have a pasion for playing music yet, I know I have potential to do so much more for Him, perhaps in being a cell leader.

Lord, I said so many times, prayed so hard sometimes, all just wanting you to be in My life, to change me.
I really don't want to be in a place where I have walked away from your purpose. NEVER. Jesus, you will always be my king, And if I have a choice to trade this for all the riches in the world, I wouldn't. Because nothing beats your presence in my life.. and nothing can be better than your purpose.
I want to serve you, I want you to be the first in my life. Always.

Lord, cause me to know the way in which I should walk,
For I lift my soul to you!
Amen.

Where the love lasts forever

My friends. My hope forever.
Countless times I prayed, and hoped the person standing beside me at the altar call would be them. I see it. I believe.No matter how long it takes, I believe God has a purpose. He has not finished what He came here to do. And He will do it at His perfect timing.

Lord. you are my motivation, my inspiration and my king. Forever I will praise you.
Never let my heart grow complacent, worryful or just plain hopeless. Because Lord, you are the one I love, and always will I Sing your Name. And Lord, you put me here for a purpose. And all I wanna do is to fulfill that purpose in my life. That simple, powerful purpose. I don't ever want to be in a place where You don't want me to be in! Jesus, you are my glorious friend. I'm so thankful that each and every single day, I can receive your mercies, and that Lord I can grow closer to you once more!

Lord, I knowI have many areas I need to improve on, many things I've yet to understand! Yet, Lord, I know that you will guide me with Your light, your joy and your strength. That no matter where I am your glory is going to be my rear guard! AMEN!

So Lord, I just wanna entrust the very lives of my friends, the ones I see and don't see everyday. They are yours, I proclaim that. So Lord, I pray that you continue to help me pray more earnestly than before, to seek You like I've never known. I love You. You are AWESOME. amen.

Once More..

Oh.. wow.. its been two years since I had a blog. Apparently i couldn't get into my previous blog so here is the new BLOG..haha..

Well.. in these past two years (abt.) I think my life has truly been transformed alot.. many things have happened.. and i mean alot.. Maybe I should begin from 2003.. well apparently in November when I went for my checkup at HPB, the doctor, stern and serious, after checking the X-ray, told me i had to go for an operation to put steel rods in my back.. well.. i just sunk.. I didn't know what to do.. and in less than a month i was going to go for an operation. I remember the date.. 16 December. My parents and I were praying and praying for God to speak to us.

After taking all the X-rays like 6 or 10 of them, removing a pint of blood from my body for autologous blood transfusion, and having gone through what i know i never want to go through again, my mum felt that GOD was my HEALER (I believe!) and that he could heal me without the operation. I myself, was already resigning to the fact that perhaps God worked through ops, but then I was reminded that God was a HEALING God..so... we explored the different ways i could get treatment. ok..if you dun know yet.. my condition is scoliosis..means a curved spine..but anyway..we then found out, By God's grace, a osteopathic treatment centre which treated scoliosis...

Well..its been 3/4 of a year already.. and God has been wonderful, because I KNOW He is Healing me! and no matter how long it may take in the physical realm.. I believe that He has already healed me in the spiritual! Even right now, I have received good reports from my treatment centre.. I know I must continue to be diligent to do the things I need to do.. and through time, I will recover! And sth to tell you pple out there.. treasure your back, as I always say..haha.. but really..I can't emphasize enough.. oh well..
Ps 139:14 " I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, I know that full well."
This was the verse God gave me.. I am standing fast upon it.. Satan..you won't triumph.. I assure you...