Singlehood

I've officially prayed and decided.

I'm going single till 21!

Hah. maybe you think i'm weird but i dont wanna be distracted away from God.

He is my only focus and the most important thing now. I'm gonna focus and not let me mind wander!

Jesus is all I need. Of course i'm planning to get married and fall in love.... blah blah.

But for now, i wanna be secure in Him. That's all

HAHA(: I'm happy!
I shall enjoy being independent and single! Amen!

像我這樣的

This song speaks alot to me.
My life seems to have so many ups and downs,
and imperfections.
Yet, when i am weak, I am strong.
His grace, mercy, favour, spiritual blessings are sufficient for me!

But, sometimes am I doing it the right way?
I wonder to myself. Too busy for my own good?
I hope not.
I just wanna live life to the fullest, walk in His plan for me.
No other way except through Jesus.
But will anyone on this earth love me for who I am? for what I live for?
I can almost hear Sun's heartbeat when she sings this song.

Love myself! Walk on with courage!
I can do it!
I will bear the fruits that belong to me!

The heart of a shepherd

Today, during leader's meeting I cried buckets! cos i really could feel that I want the heart of a shepherd! I want it I want it!

I was reminded with full clarity that Acts 20:28 was spoken to me even before i was a helper.
This is what God has called me to do and what I will do from now on.

Now it's focusing on growing my group to 17 and strengthening my members!

Nanyang Girls' is God's!! It is HIS kingdom! They are his students! I proclaim that. I want that school God.
i WANnnnnt to lead not just 10s or 20s i want to lead hundreds!

In fact, just over these few mmonths, i realised my capaciy changed so ooo much. With 5 tuitions, a Cell group, church activities, family and studies, home is practically a hotel room. Talking to my good fren, i realised how much my time can stretch. But am I doing the right things? I havent done much in the past 8 months. Now it's time to DO SOMETHING!

But i need to make time for my first love and family too. No one else but YOu. What would i have become if u didnt die for me? I cant live without u. I just wont exist. I'll be crushed into thin air. I need you. Come near to me lord!

God O God! my closest friend, my saviour, my rest, my life, my breath, my strength, my refuge, my light, my revelation, my mouth, my eyes, my hands. You are everything i need and ever want. I could exchange the whole world to know u. I don't want to be so busy till i clutter myself and crowd you out of my life.

Yes, like what Pst Phil said, our walk is not based on feelings alone, but on discipline.

Who am I

that you wash my feet

Who am I that you call my name

Greater is He who's in me

Greater you are than all the Earth

My closest friend

I can only stand in awe

Looking back..

Looking back,
things have changed. So many things happened this year alone.
Sometimes I wish so hard that time will turn back, so that I can erase the hurtful past.
Yet, I still believe that everything that happens, happens for a purpose. It is in due season that I will reap what I have sown.

Darice, Aja ! Fighting! Courage!

(Got this from Nad's blog:)
FAITH to follow God boldly,
HOPE to carry on even when my heart is breaking,
And the love to enrich the hearts of all those I lead.

I think i need to remind myself of this as a leader!
Realised how long i've not kept in touch with Nadia, nor taken care of Natalia when I promised. But time flows away like the sands slip through your fingers. I really need to change the way I manage my time.

I need to do the important and not urgent things right now, so that when these things become super urgent, I would already have accomplished it.

Feeling so weird, happy but sad. Happy that CG was really fun, sad that I seem to feel so distant from my best friend, Jesus.
Maybe it's the incident. Sometimes, i really dunno what to do, except to hope and pray that God will do a miracle for me. Jesus, I trust in you with my whole heart.
I need a breakthrough! I need to grow. I need to change. I need to fight back for my freedom again. If only time would reverse, everything would be different now.

But no use whining. Just believe, God will provide sth better! Amen!
I gotta be more confident. This is my life, I WILL live it well.

Superband has changed my life!

Ya that's right, superband has changed my life. I'm not one of the contestants but i'm a wardrobe coordinator.WOW.An amazing journey i've been through even though my role may not be as big as an AP etc.

SUPERBAND isn't just a competition. It's like a family! With all the people i've met etc, the past 4 months of superband from the big jam to now, I think i've grown in my relationships alot with the pple working in superband. I've learnt so so much.

It holds for me alot alot of wonderful memories that i'll never forget. It's the one program in mediacorp that leaves a deep impression on me. Not only that, I have discovered more of myself in this programme, how creative I can be modifying all the clothes! I never have imagined I could do what I did, and it's such an awesome experience. Thanks so much to Annie, for brightening up my life in Mediacorp. Doing Superband with you has been a roller coaster ride. I never regret staying till 1am every monday or rushin like mad to alter things on sat before recording. I will miss those times really! But life has to go on. Anyway, there's something even more exciting to look forward to! Doing milk's solo album!! I am going to help annie do that album ahah! Be her assistant. wow.JUST
blows me off my feet. So excitin!! ahhaah can't stop thinkin about it!
Okok, think i've said enough. Gtg now!

Hey there!

Ooh!
A year has gone by, EMERGE 2006 has just finished. WOW.
Everything in the spirit is exploding! Ah!

And the best part is I'm working in Mediacorp, so fun! And...I'm learning driving! Hahah.
Driving is the most fun thing on planet earth. So exhilarating to sit behind the steering wheel!!! WEE! HAHA!

Can't wait for my next lesson. See you peeps. I'll try to blog more often!

God is amazing.what more can i say?

Hello again my blog! Its quite nice to see you talk again.hahah.. ok that's lame.

Anyway, I just felt inspired to blog once again.

YOUknow it's been really long.. and soooo many things have happened. CO,friends,God,life,family. well..everything.

Well.. today, I went to climb stairs! tomorrow it's swimming. And.. then...*drum roolll* ON TUESDAY IT'S EMERGE CONFERENCE! yeay! haha..i'm so excited.. lalalala...'

you know? emerge is the best thing that can happen to a youth. It's utterly riveting. IT's like an explosion on the inside of your spirit. Its superb.

Lord, I truly wanna encounter you in a whole new way this Emerge. Change me Lord, on the inside out! I need your touch... and Holy Spirit, i wanna do sth great for the Kingdom of God!

ok..suddenly no inspiration.It's as if I lost an ability to write online.Hhaha..