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exam stress....stress!

and stomach pain again today~dunno why....i wan someone to hug on...but...forget about it.......

js when i'm about to be ready for everything...crashes happen! i reli hate it, hate tis so much...i guess i reli need time to be alone wif myself.

well.... after exam hoilday for one week then goin to ipoh-tanjung rambutan!!!!...so nervous about it~i thought of taking the pictures there but cant...too bad:(

back to studies...stop and.

-pnee~

Miracle of Life~

have u ever thought of having a disabled or handicapped child?or have u ever thought of their feelings?

yesterday,i went to Taman Megah's Special Needs Center in Kelana Jaya~i was greeted by few kids who their features were slightly different and few who are normal looking...

the moment i step into the living room, i was so dumbfounded...the children with cerebral palsy were all lying together on a big piece of yoga mat...all this while, i was only noe wat is cerebral palsy and dint expect that to be tat bad...the most oso i saw it in pictures that those people always bring around asking for donation...to be exact, i never ponder about them whether how they feel or even how they will carry out their activities of daily living before...but not until the visit...

this is how a few of them looks like....

they were all together sleeping on a big yoga mat...

they looks normal and cute...but did u ever realised that their feet can never touch the ground?

this is how they were placed so that they won't fall off...and it's also a kind of therapy, hoping that they could sit up without support one day~

do u ever expect a 12 year old kid who supposed to be running around and going to school to be just lying down...where they cant even lie straight...and u can see all their bones...

i can feel this boy's rib cage...and he was flexed like this all the while~...

some who are just like normal kids who are supposed to be going to school and communicating, playing with their friends were just retained here...this is due to those premarital sex without PROTECTION which are esclating now....don't they ever think about all the consequences?....these kids who are settled here are because they don't have birth cert!...they have to stay there, wait for their birth cert to be done under the home name...

-i met with one boy who is 14 y/o...i chatted with him for a while and this is how it goes....

me: boy, what's ur name?b

boy:ng kah how...(looking at his magazine)

me:how old are u?

boy:14...(still flipping through his magazine)

me:hmm...why are u here?

boy:no one in the house....

me:hmmmmmmm.....so who send u here?

boy:my mom....(looking at the magazine)...boring!....i wana play games...

me:hmmm...wat games u wana play...i can help u find~

boy:boring lar...(slammed the magazine on the floor and walked off!)

i was so shocked and din noe what to do...probably i asked too much questions till he was kinda frustrated....my lecturer saw it and she also got a shocked...she asked me why and i told her...she said those are abandon kids...they are usually more aggressive...but i do feel they need care, love like what other child has...worst of all, they are staying in a place with strangers who cant talk or behave properly...it's such a stressful life for them~i felt so helpless again...din noe how to help these type of patients...wanted to do so much to help them, making them happier but...kids are difficult~

these are also kids who are abandoned with no birth cert...practically they were staying there js to wait for their birth cert to be done~so that they can go to school like normal kids....all of them wanted to study so much~

this how it looks like....all of them were js sitting on the floor....some were lying....

the white shirt guy is the one who i was talking about js now~

this boy's body will never be straight like normal kids anymore....see how curvature it was~

lil vivian~

this lil gal, i love her so much....even thought of getting her as my adopted gal...she was also a cerebral palsy patient, if u can see the first pic has her whole body picture...her both legs were curved in....she cant talk, can only babbles, smiles....her parents were divorced...and she was sent there since she was one year old...currently she was 6 year old...i reli din noe how to help her besides doing much of the things for her...but would she feel happy?*my lecturer said that probably they will feel happy when we thought they are sufferring...maybe to them, having people to massage and do everything is a happiness~*....sounds quite rite tho~....

everyone want to have a beautiful life....beautiful family n sorts....everything perfect....but how many are there...but things are on our hands...we can try every possible way for things to be perfect or more precisely i would say...things goin on smoothly~

-pnee~

10months~

another week....i'm having my test later!.....aiks, i supposed to study but cant go in anymore....

let me update everything....

it was 10months and was a real good surprise one for me....i never expect anything from him cause he was so busy wif his work...but i was surprised he send me a sms wishing me happy 10th month anniversary in d middle of the nite....wat surprised me d most on tat day was his email~...i almost cried when i was reading the mail...i js felt like hugging him tat moment and cry...

then, when i went back mlk for mid autumn festival...he gaf me even more big surprise~we went to dp...but as i noe is for no reason...all i noe is i need to use their toilet to do big business...then we went to carrefour and bought few things~....oh we bought eggs then i cooked herbal eggs!...hmm, i din noe whether it taste nice o not cause his mom said i put too much water....so not nice~....but hay said it was okie~:P

back to his surprise, when i got in the car...i was wondering why my books were in the back seats as i open the back door to put the things...but i din think much...later i open the front door...i saw a voir paper bag...i was so shocked, i asked him ....but he js ignored me...he made me open it and i saw it was d shoes that i wanted to buy...

he went to buy it when i was in the toilet~....i was so touched and gave him a warm hug...but his nottiness....hmm,was too cute~hehee....

darling, thanks for everything...i reli do appreciate it~...i loved every bits of things that u had done for me:)

p/s:i shall take pic of the shoes...hehe...okie....then i shal post up:P

luvs-pnee~

catch ups~

weeks gone....

stil i dont know what am i supposed to do...

well, mid autumn festival is coming!!...yea..lanterns n mooncakes....*but should i go back?i felt i just want to stay here and study for my upcoming tests on mon and fri!..but i will kinda miss celebration of tis festival!..i wana take lanterns!...actually bought it d but waiting to play....*

and not forgotten,i'm totally broke now!....went out whole day during the weekends to do so much things...went to try wendy's...wendy's...better one than mcd, the portion is super big...their medium is equals to mcd's large~~...and they even haf the potato like the kfc wedges...overall,it's nice~...but i stil prefer mcd's mcflurry oreo mudpie~*superb*

went to watch money not enough 2 and death race!...

hmm,money no enough is funny if u reli understand hokkien, for me it is not a problem at all as hokkien was wif me since young...so the jokes are funny but it was potraying more of filiality of the children towards their mother...it was kinda real in showing attitudes of the youngsters nowadays, how they actually treat their parents~...it was touching!....

death race!...cars are super duper cool, not sport cars but more of those transformers' type...but wif weapons...the main actress is S-E-X-Y!:) well,basically it was kinda gruesome tho~

met up wif ml and eugene oso...went to zen in mid valley to haf our dinner...zen in mid valley was pretty bad because...1)bad service!....2)food is cook using microwaves and toasters!....3)is in the middle of everything!....so hmm, not that so preferable to go....

then yst went to klcc...and end up in sakae sushi~....hmm,not the first time i tried but that was the first time i sit inside!....last time i went is to the curve's and i haf to sit outside wif pouring rains...and is also because of my boink boink who wanted to be d addict!:P most impressing was they haf their own computer for u to order food, which means they dont need to haf so many waitress and you no need to raise your hand for them to come and take order for u....food there...portion is big but definitely cheaper than sushi king in some terms!....

tat was another weekend gone...i felt i kinda bad gal nowadays...knew that money is not enough d, stil wanted to enjoy so much!...how to earn money at this stage?anyone know?...haiz~

-pnee~