celebration season~

my blog was neglected since so long~...

okie,i shall keep this up!!
hmm,my holiday so far...kinda stupid and frustrating....things kept coming up like nobody business...i knew that a lot of people cant be trusted, things tat i wanted to haf is just good frens...some acted as,but in the heart and the back of me wasnt...so forget about it~shall not mention it anymore.

okie,things in my life was not so easy goin nowadays,it was so bumpy,so many humps...but thank God for giving me an Angel who gave me hope for not breaking down...she is my hope to move along~ tho in her heart,i was her Angel....but fact is she's mine,giving me hope~ thank u!*not to mention her* and my reli good fren who is in Canada right now...haha...may u enjoy ur xmas holiday~ thanks for hearing me out all these while, thanks for being there for me all this while...reli appreciate it~*gonna hug u when u're back! miss ya*

well,i hope i will be stronger next day....

my xmas....haiz, it was kinda disappointed~ only able to see some fireworks, tat's all~ sad sad xmas but still happy because i found a way to my life~

dear santa,i want a happier life...a stronger n peaceful peinee....santa, show me the way of being a kind person too....thanks santa~

new year is also js around d corner....hmmm,any plans anyone? .....hehe....

well anyway, wish all of u....a merry xmas and happy 2008!!! haf a great year ahead~

Finally it's over~

finally finals are over!!!

well,guess what happened during my second paper....i did d most stupid thing on Earth that i,peinee will never do!!!....

i have at least 45mins extra...and i was like wasting my time staring at the clock and dreaming~~...and tat subject i scored the lowest marks among my other subjects during my class test...so to get a better result i have to get a good grade here since my assignment was quite okie....but...i checked everything and i tot i finished...well,it's true that i finished doin....when my lecturer said, "pens down...";to me it's stil so fine...until she was collecting the objective paper....i looked back at my paper....OMG!!!..i did darken the last four questions!!!!i started to do so,but she saw....she said,"peinee, i said pens down means pens down!...u cant do this!!!...."...my heart and mind was crushed to millions....i wanted to break down n cry but i knew it was my mistake!....i hold it....the next day,my lecturer saw me while i was on my way to my exam...she called me and said,"peinee, i had told prof about yesterday incidence but everything is too late to take any action...the result had already key into the database and nothing could be done..."...in my heart, i was like thank God!....but she continued,"this time it wun affect ur grades...why?u have enough time...."...i kept saying sorry and okie....haiz...dunno how wil i do for that paper....butterflies flying around my stomach.....

i cant imagine that i did something stupid like this!

well,exams r over....yet result coming out next week...mon will be the viva call and wed wil be d commencement of our result...fast rite?

anyway,i'm BACK in mlk....
tat's wat i always wanted and i haf more more free time now!!....can do a lot of things and mind are finally clear at least quarter....thinking and decision making will be more wise now...
hope to see friends during this holiday too....
well...off to go now first~

stressful exam period!

exams stress is killing me...i hate exams...
i have 6 subjects to study but only finish one....sigh~~
how m i supposed to finish it in time?haiz....next week is approaching but i'm more in holiday mood rather than in study week mood;P

everyone is having holiday but i'm having my exams....wat lar,imu shud arrange it properly,always like this...haiz...actually i'm afraid i will screwed up my exams;P..(well, i guess other will be thinking tat i'm saying the same old things but...seriously, each time exam i wil have those doubts that freaks me out....tho i'm not alone but fears are there..)i seriously wan holidays~~

oh ya...tat day went over to tesco to find geo to buy contact lenses....geo was so shocked *i tink*...haha...wanna noe y must ask him....but he was so professional~he checked on my eyesight but all the time was interrupted by someone...haiz....wanted to ask geo so many questions but ppl kacau~...
life has been so colourful for me once again....but at the same time,drops of water are sprinkle on my colours....colours were seen so fade and not clear....but behind those shades,i saw shadows....shadow brought me here and giving me strength to be who i am...my acts doubts a lot of people,i noe...proving it to others is not wat i want to do,but proving it to myself is wat i wana do...everythin i'm doin is for myself...so,i guess i really knew wat m i doin but i knew the consequences too...any consequences i wil bear it for myself,i knew the pros n cons...i might not be good n perfect as others...i dun like comparison either...i wil be who i am and i am who i am...
-pnee~