life is.....

after so long din blog again....

well, it about a week i'm here in seremban....

i wana share few things wif u guys...everything happened to me yesterday~~

1) got one male doctor...he was doing some procedure and we observing him... unfortunately i was the one nearest to him...okiez...what happened is, the doctor was sweating like nobody business...and my colleagues went to took some tissues and hand over to me...i was like??....okies the staff nurse told me to wipe his sweat...i was like huh??...okie then i asked him, he said okie...i pat a piece of tissue over his forehead and his left cheek but not enough for his right cheek...so, i took the left over tissues which i tink about 3 to 4 pieces...and suddenly everyone burst out in laughter cause i was too clumsy~ *i was not meant to wipe his sweats le...so sorry for tat...* but if he is my patient then i noe how to do it in a more proper way~

2) finally, i got the chance to do tube feeding for my patient~*okie,u all must be wondering wat is tube feeding...a tube which is inserted thru the nose into the stomach...* and tat patient was 92yrs old d... i mixed her milk well but the milk was not flowing.. so i went to get help from my preceptor..she came and things were going smoothly after that..okiez,so i took over the feeding...my perceptor was asking me to observe the patient respiration in case the patient collapse, so i do...i saw the chest was moving very slowly and then no more, i tot i saw wrongly so i observe more but my preceptor kept talking to me...js before i told my preceptor that i din see her breathing anymore, the staff nurse came n told me the same thing..so at the same time, all of us realised there is no more breathing...the staff nurse rushed to take the ECG machine and there was asystole-no more heart rate...the doctor came n checked...she pronounced her dead...*omg...i was so unfortunate rite...*

i was so stunted at tat moment, then haf to do last office for her...(cleaning her up and all those la)...

life is so unpredictable~....

but one patient told me that i'm still young and wouldnt be able to understand what life is...she told me that she went through lots of ups and downs to bring up her children but now...her children dont even wana care about her....even tho she's in hospital, her children js came thr and stand around...she said she vry jealous to see the next patient's son came and hug the mother and tell her not to go....she is so so sad....all her children want from her is just money!!

but this is reli wat life and reality is...


-signing off..pnee-

confused over my reaction~

Currently I’m a year two nursing student… but I felt tat I’m extremely useless at times… yesterday there was a patient who is going for mastectomy, she was so scared but didn’t voice out only… the moment before she left, she told me, “nanti kalau abang datang, cakap dengannya saya pergi operation…”

What I can do is just assuring her by saying okie and give her a pat on her shoulder…I don’t know what else can I tell her… I felt that I’m extremely useless for not being able to help her going into the theatre calmly… when she came back, I really don’t know what to do again… she was in deep pain that I can see from her facial expression… yet I don’t know what can I do….

Another patient who has a bloated abdomen and underwent surgery…I felt very bad for her also…that day she told me that she had pass motion in her diapers, so as usual I will have to change for her…while changing, the dressings on her pressure sore at the sacral area(above buttock line) stuck at her diapers and I was pulling the diapers… I suddenly said, “oh my god….” Then I realized the patient heard it and she was very sorry for troubling us…but I really don’t mean that…I was just too afraid that her pressure sore will get the faeces and later got infection…but I guess I was over-reacted… and according to the staff nurse experience, she told us that this patient will not last long… I was so stunted to hear that…

I really don’t know what else could I do for this patient…she was at the end of her life, difficult to voice out, at times will be confused…didn’t know where she is, what’s her own name….

What can I do for this type of patient??

I just felt that I’m really useless at this point of time… even tho I tried my best to make her happier but what else can I do to make her happier?

How to make a person like this happier???

-confused…pnee-

(sorry for many jargons...)

life in sban~

finally got internet access....guess how we got it...i came to my landlord house in seremban here which is just beside our house....hehehe...
and the line is very limited which we cant use all the time...so sad rite?
anyways..my life in seremban...

so far, i haf been in the female surgical ward...

i have my own patients which is quite ill...she had her abdomen open(laparotomy)...and have the staples replacing the sutures...well,i guess i used too much jargon d....normally we will have stitches on an open wound right, but this she has the staples(looks like the one we used to staple paper)..i removed them!! it was very frightening cause after removing them my preceptor when and open the wound...according to her we haf to do it bcause there's a lot of pus and we haf to clean it first so that the wound can heal properly....i was shaking at that time but actually i did saw tis type of wound before...so it still okie for me...

and life here is not too miserable~

oh ya, today the blurry doctor who wanted to draw blood for my patient yesterday and also today asked for my tel no...my gosh~*u noe how he asked?.....*...he was asking me a lot of things, so just to entertain him a bit, i answered him~....then suddenly he said do u ahf handphone no?...i was like...hmm....thn he bring out his phone and passed to me...he said key in ur no...i was like...hmmm...how to reject so i just haf to key in(no choice)...how to reject when someone gaf the phone to u d??....*haiyo* and is because i'm alone there wif him as i haf to accompany my patient... i was so happy after that when one of my friend came in...relief~~...but i scared dunno when he will message o call....similar case happened to me when i'm in PD....well, i will update u guys soon...

okies, till then....pnee~

Blood Donation!

i donated blood today~~

i donated blood for the third time since i came to IMU....

the bag tat supposed to fill with my blood~
*my blood group is B*

after few minutes....the bag is finally full...my blood flow darn fast...hehe:)

my blood~

after a while...it turns out like this....
quite okie d compare to others:)

donate blood saves a life~

Joy Luck Club~

i watched this movie twice!...just for the sake of my assignment...
and can u imagine...it got so many compliments...it was the best movie of the year??
and i cant appreciate nor sees the beauty in it...some said is a very touching movie but...to me is the most boring movie...too culture based....haiz....anyway i stil have to struggle in watching for few more times before can understand what am i supposed to do...sigh~

if u're just too free, u can watch this movie...actually it's okie ler,quite nice as u need to be attentively listening to every single word...and believe it o not, some parts they spoke in mandarin...

well...yesterday went out wif kell ly and ting for dinner at kaki corner in cheras...supposed to meet up wif xiashien and gang but.....long story....(communication sometimes seems to be so important~hehehe)

then at last met up wif them at petrol station-esso?petronas?...*ops,i forgot...* joined them for "yamcha" session~refer to xiashien's blog as he said he will blog on it...(xiashien since u so free...blog!)...we have assignments*cries*

kler,till then...chaos...luvs pnee~

a lil sense of relief~

exams are over for me at tis moment....
moments of relieved but two assignments to hand up by fri!!
now currently only finish one but haf to do another one based on a movie named "the joy luck club"...who watch this movie before?...(anyway this is a super boring movie which i dont reli like it as i felt asleep when i watch it...but most of my classmates think it is interesting!...okiez, maybe i'm d weirdo~)

so finish exam that means the end of my stay in Bukit Jalil here...
i will shifting to Seremban on Saturday~ so sad... but there's something i'm looking forward...hehehe...*secret*

and i realised that my laptop's battery lifespan is reducing...so sad...one full battery can only last for 1hr now....charging it takes few hours...what happened...so so sad okie...last year just bought it but so fast spoilt d...maybe the fella knew i got new resolution- Apple MacBook!!...after my degree la of course...hehehe...

i guess i have to go now...currently still have no internet services at home...so i have to bring my laptop around and come IMU to online...so sad rite?
i think in Sban will be even more worst, no internet services anywhere, in the campus only have the computer provided which cant get access to most of my fav websites...those chatbox will never appear and no MSN...no wireless there oso....

anyway i try update as much as possible!

till then...pnee~

Manners~

How many Msians have good manners?? i seriously don't think there are a lot...

Even those who are highly educated are so no manners..(i mean they dun haf any!) simple manners like thank you, excuses me, etc cant come out from their mouth... i CANT stand this type of people~!~!

Those who arent so highly educated know the right manners... but currently so many people rushing into colleges and universities; publics and oso privates... (parents can support and mouth feed them even tho they arent qualified for it!) sorry, if i offended anyone...but there are reli people like this!...tat's why ending up like G-H-O-S-T!! whole country is full wif dumps of rubbish adding to social problems in the country.... should the government look into this? should they instill the teaching on manners to the kids nowadays...teaching and practicing it is actually different thing..they are been taught but how many take it in practice?

Now, i really realize the difference in everything... realistic o humble people...freaking my nerves out...i wana get out of tis realistic world immediately from now!!!! don't like staying people like tis....

just love to be HOME~

On the eve of merdeka, I went back to Malacca!... I just cant help myself or even wait any longer to be back…the clock stricks…3pm and yet my lecturer talked so much, went on and on… but my friend told her, “some of us need to leave cause we need to go HOME!” …to me is HOME SWEET HOME…just love to be home…

So I went off and got to Pudu…so many people as I predicted…. Went looking left and right….just in case…any strangers following..hehehe..(just in case)

My way home, thinking how to celebrate merdeka(so patriotic right?)…but actually just wanna go out wif frens…

So message soohui but she said she’s too tired to come out as she just came back from kl too….she wanted to collect her result, but unfortunately HELP din help her!...

Then as I was thinking…haiz…this is gonna be a very boring merdeka eve…

I thought of geo…who was shaking his legs(not currently anymore)…so I message him up…

Hehe…guess what, geo is free!...so we decided to watch ratatouille…

Unfortunately, we just cant make it in time…so there goes my ratatouille again…(I still not yet watch ratatouille!)…so sad,right?

Then we went to Wings café…we met up wif koksoon, joyce, englai and calvin….

Saw Steve and Jove(my ex-colleagues)…steve was singing there as usual…while jove was with his gf…

Celebration there wasn’t that great, but they kept singing birthday song and lastly they sang tanggal 31….(I actually requested that song and also negaraku…and guess what, I doubt in spelling out t-a-n-g-g-a-l!)so long didn’t use BM what do you expect from me although I got an A for it…hehehe..

After that, we went home…..

On Merdeka day I was extremely good girl~ I did my assignment… I knew I must do it now or else I will be half dead by next week…so I dragged myself, keeping myself in front of the comp whole day doing my “primary health care” assignment…at last, finish it by night time but….still need to reedit it later on….

On the Saturday, went out with MingLing, SooHui and Eugene…we went for satay celup in OngKimWee!...so many people but we got a nice place at least….

We went on talking till quite late…haha…(mingling is leaving to UK on the 15sept…)

Another friend going off overseas and almost finishing their degree….and me still stuck here~

But my Sunday was a miserable one…came back BJ but no internet access(Nasioncom officially announced bankrupt!)….so now cannot online d…even though campus has wireless, but what’s the use? Cant log in to msn…so stupid!...so I stayed at home, doing nothing…rotting whole night through….(so miserably sad and lonely….)

And I have another test soon-on Wednesday…haiz……

Well…I just update my blog that often anymore...

So, friends…keep in touch as much as possible,k….

I will keep myself up-to-date everyday…hehehe….

Till then….pnee...