did i make a wrong decision?

i think i did.

i think i did.

i think i did.

the head is spinning.
how can i rectify the problem?

i'm trying my best.
waking up in the wee hours before them, to make him clean

i feel so guilty for bringing unhappiness.
its my fault.
stupid me.
so stupid.

but still complains.
are my efforts not justified?
its getting tiring.

爱到底

i like this song.
i dunnoe why. but it just feels so close to heart.

this is by 超級星光大道 楊駿文

爱到底 - 庾澄庆

我曾怀疑 你在不在我的怀里
为何幸福 你会哭泣
不忍相爱结果是你 失去自己
曾有一度 让你离去


风风雨雨 爱又让我们在一起
我知道 你受了委屈
不能否认 你我原本太多不同
就像日夜擦身而过 
用一生去寻刹那的梦

我已决心爱到底 决心不回去
就算一步 就踏进地狱
今生我决不负你 不负你一句
就算你会离去 我我爱你

我曾怀疑 你在不在我的怀里
为何幸福 你会哭泣
不忍相爱结果是你 失去自己
曾有一度 让你离去

风风雨雨 爱又让我们在一起
我知道 你受了委屈
不能否认 你我原本太多不同
就像日夜擦身而过 
用一生去寻刹那的梦

我已决心爱到底 决心不回去
就算一步 就踏进地狱
今生我决不负你 不负你一句
就算你会离去 我我爱你

我已决心爱到底 决心不回去
就算一步 就踏进地狱
今生我决不负你 不负你一句
就算你会离去 我我爱你

never has been, never will be.

thank you so much for making me feel so....

never is.

never will.

how true it is.

i've just felt it once again.

the reminders

sometimes,
we need constant reminders
a reminder for us to love the people around us.
people whom we take for granted.
irreplaceable people who plays the very important roles in our life.

sometimes,
we just get too carried away with our own life.
we become too self-centered
and we're only obsessed in achieving what we want.
in the midst of such, we forget
to care for and fail to
assure the people whom we love that, they are actually important.

i've constantly been reminded recently.
the fear of losing is becoming so real
such that it scares me so.

in my world of fantasy, nobody leaves.
not unless i say so.
the alternate reality is always beautiful.
and i wishes to stay within this fairytale.
forever
and ever.
but as i see the eclipses of time.
the whitening of hair.
the decisions to step into a next stage of life
i need to realise that dreams,
will ultimately remain as dreams.


learn to treasure.
learn to feel for the people around you.

learn to love. and show it.
llwei~

200 pounds beauty

've fell in love with this movie.

this song just tugged on my heartstrings such that 
i'll have this weird roller coaster feeling inside me
this movie is brilliant.


love. family. and loving yourself for who you are.


its not just a comedy, 
and i only knew that after i learnt how to appreciate films in my films module.
thank god its not too late! =)

18sept2009

心里有一股莫名的压力
不知道为什么
也不知道要如何去舒解它
只想逃避
跑得远远的

每个星期都是这样
对自己感到失望
心中的彷徨，久久都不可平复下来
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婚姻是爱情的天堂，还是爱情的坟墓？？

被幸福包围的我
因该感到一样幸福吧？
可是却不是如此

心里有的，却是质疑与害怕
这世上，真的有天长地久的爱情吗？
这世上，真的有无怨无悔的包容与付出吗？
一个人，对另一个人的付出，到底可以有多深？

可笑的事，
婚姻在这之前，对我来说， 是多么美好的一件事
它是幸福的象征
是对爱情的守候

我怎么可以对真挚的爱情失去了信心？
我相信爱情！可我还不能相信永恒的爱。。。

爱一个人，是多么困难的一件事
维持一段感情，更谈何容易
爱情的火花不会永远燃烧着
多么轰轰烈烈的爱情，有一天也会淡去，老去。。。
当它悄悄的， 无声无息的，熄灭时，
你该真么做？

努力 加油。
我为大家打气。

void of emotions

void of emotions
not angry, not sad, not happie.
there are moments in your life when your mind is just
plain blank.
nothing crosses your mind, nothing feels important
you dont feel yourself to be alive as a human and breathing.

i know i just pissed you off again.
i knows it fully well.
the mouth just couldnt open.
the eyes just couldnt shine.
sorry and i mean it.
it must hurt, cos i'm feeling it now.

void of emotions
i dont know why.
i dont know what.
i dont know how.
i dont know anything

what matters. what matters not?

void of emotions
it doesnt feel right.
somewhere.
no where.
whatever.
maybe its just today.
how come?

i actually dun get what i'm talking about on the above too.
so dun bother to decipher the meaning.

i'm lost too.
lost somewhere,
out there.
it happens rite?
when things get distant.
when things are no longer within ur control.
nothing could change anything.


i'm tired.
quite actually.
sweet dreams
the moon is so round today. shiny down on me.
it looks fake. like a yellow piece of paper pasted amidst the dark sky.
its seems to be watching me.
maybe trying to sing me a lullaby.


tomorrow is a fresh new start.
i promise to start it with a smile.

llwei~