hmm.. saw tiny and mini today.. i cant believe tat they can be so fat.. a lot fatter than my roben and hammy.. i tink they are overweight thats why they have no babies.. lmao.. >.<

tired today.. okies.. not realli in a good mood either.. i tink through a lot when im on the bus home todae.. xingwei told mi a story.. he said that there was once 2drawfs a guy and a gal.. everytime the gal makes the guy angry, the guy eats bitter gourt to make himself feel better.. well.. i continued for him that the guy became eddicted to bitter gourt. Even when he's pennieless he still buys bitter gourt to eat. in the end, he became under nutrition. haha.. wad a story rite?

well.. im realli been wondering why im taking alll the blame to myself. perhaps u are also taking mi as an excuse for doing some things.. but which is not realli the real reason for doing that. i always thought im the cause of it. when im on bus jus now it suddenly strike mi that im actualli not the cause of it. u are influenced wen ure working. i advised u for long.. but u wouldnt listen. u got irrated jus now. u warned me.. but i din stop holding my anger and persuading u ok.. i didnt. its all for yr own good. but since u don listen.. its ok too.. the life is yours.. since u lik it this way.. let it be.. what for mie being angry too.. -.-''

live the life you want..

its yours..

lol..nice pic that i took huh.. lol.. from a army shirt.. i find it quite style.. haha..


actualli i don realli know wad gto blog today.. simple nothing interesting or amusing... worked the whole dae, and went home for dinner cos my mum cooked.. supposely i should be meeting the gals.. but seemed that in the den the dinner is cancelled and yingting pearlyne and liyan had a great time playing majong for the rest of the day.. haha.. i went off watching movie.. and thats so about it.. >.<

tomorrow's a off day for mi.. so what should i do? actualli i hav the urge to go down town to get my book. but traveling so far for such a small purpose is so -.-!!! so i was thinking if i should just say at home and charge battery again.. haha.. hmm.. ZzzZzz.. sleeping soon..

buaiiiii <3


live life happily and you'll be happie
<3

 

thursdae off... yeah... so i can hav dinner with the charbors.. lol.. im asked to go clubbing after tt. still thinking about it.. but i guess most probably is no ba.. cos sure ill b tired after a day of work and fun after that.. >.<

this month is ending soon.. wow.. so fast huh.. ive been working for.. a month.. haha.. looking forward to class chalet.. but i will mean skool reopening soon.. so :(( haha.. okies.. its getting late..

gudnitex.. =]

life's lik a diary..

so never lost yr diary..

oh.. realised that im realli a stupid person signing up for that savings account. so i void it.. luckily its easy to void it.. haha.. staying at home for thew whole day todae.. playing with webcam with frens.. oh thats fun.. hmm.. was disturbing my babi just now.. it was sleeping bodying facing up and i tickled it so mani time as it still lay there asleep.. lol.. but its cute.. haha..

will be working from tomorrow onwards.. wow.. it'll be 5 days this week.. haha.. so gonna stay at home todae to charge my energy.. haha.. =) gonna buy another book when my pay comes.. haha.. realli needs to save up money le.. im over spending a lot a lot.. hmm... so sad.. from now on no more spendings.. lol.. hhehee.. so bored.. but ni guess its nice to stay at home.. enjoy the freedom, relaxation and stressless. haha.. im happie now.. while waiting for my crab meal tonight.. muacks.. :))

happiness is all about freedom..

ronald's new hairstyle.. he dunch know i took this pic.. lol.. ^^
thats me with mr. skeleton in carrefour.. lol.. ((:

celebrated jiaxin's birthdae today.. well.. the thing wierd is tht we never took any photos.. lol.. lots turned up.. jj, nic, linda, wanying, peiying, richard, ben, ronald and chris..

blur me got the venue wrong. actualli i wasn informed of the change of the venue.. haha.. so i arrived at bugis finding them at the grand cathay. so i walked there instead.. watched movie. *Nice.. haha.. den the guys went off for their dota game leaving us to rot on our own.

well.. i did something nice while waiting. i helped a old lady to the taxi stand. she's been trapped in the basement of PS.. without knowing the way to go out. at first i thought shes a conn.. because she keep telling me she no money, no wallet all that and she wants to tak cab home after hours of waiting. i jus kept quiet and helped her to the taxi stand.. but in the end she didn ask money from me.. and that was.. heng^ perhaps i thought too much. she wasn even a conn.. shes jus a old and weak lady.. >.<

went suntec for dinner after that. nic was nice, buying a cake for jiaxin.. he's always the one buying the cake for everyone's bdae.. haha.. and poor jiaxin was forced to eat the cake although she don tak milk and cheese.. went arcade and home after that...

i was kinda of conned by the prudential man.. and signed 25 years contract of savings account with them. paying 70 dollars a month till im 42.. well thats quite old.. i wondered if im stupid.. hmm.. thats real stupid anyway.. but perhaps when im still young, save some money for the future.. hmm.... perhaps... -.-

unknowing what the world lies beneath me..

finalli got sometime off to blog today.. completed my book todae.. its a great book. by KIM ADWARDS. THE MEMORY KEEPER'S DAUGHTER.

this story is about a doctor who gave his daughter away after his wife delivered a twins on a snowy night. the gal was down with down syndrome and was not expected to live. to ease any future unhappiness for his wife he asked his nurse to bring the baby to a home which she kept the baby and took care of her.. and gal was announced as born and died on the same day. distance grew betweent the couple and the doctor felt miserable all the years. he took picures of al over the world to capture time. till his death the doctor kept his secret. he regreted but and no courage to confess to his wife. after his death the nurse came looking for his wife and told her the entire story. they reunited. the gal was over 20+ by then. :((

this story showslife as a moving image, unfolding and changing beyong our control. despite the sedire to go back freeze a moment or go back into the past to alter events, time presses us forward. its a great story..

rather than feeling miserable over the past,

why not move on..

down with flu from my babies.. i guess.. mum's right.. i got them too near me.. haha.. will b out soon.. get stuffs.. u know i'll b there when u need me.. u know..

To be happy, face it, accept it, overcome it and let it go... this has always been wad i say or write.. however i never realli do it.. onli till now, im facing things, accepting things, overcoming things and letting go of things.. to makmyself happy.. :))

xw called mi today. brightened up my night with stars..** thanks to another person that always try to cheer mi up too.. kekes.. lollypop twostick.. LOL..

nites..

its ok to be wrong..

but its not ok not to realise E mistake..

went home after work.. its lik tonado in a decade.. i stayed at home.. pushed all the entertainments away.. didn't went out. haha.. hmm.. tired.. exhausted.. time flies.. it has been so fast.. and school's going reopen soon.. heres another story.. aboutkindness..

Kindness
Some years ago, a tiny Korean orphan arrived in the United States to join her adoptive family. She was nine months old and weighed only 9 ½ pounds. She grew and blossomed in her new home, but remained a diminutive size. Her new name was Edie.

One day when Edie was in second grade, she ran home from school, crying. She was frightened. That day, three new girls had been enrolled in her class. During the first recess, they picked the smallest girl in the class as the object of their anger and frustration. They pinched, poked, and pushed tiny Edie and threatened to beat her up. Edie had spent an hour in the principal's office with the three girls and was assured the teachers would be watching. The girls were given a warning.

Edie's mother held her little one and comforted her. She learned later, after speaking with the principal, that the girls had been troublemakers at several other schools. They were being given one more chance at anew beginning.

"These girls must have been very hurt in their young lives to be so angry. Her mother said. "The Bible tells us, "Be kind to your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you. Edie, let's pray." Then they prayed for the girls and asked the Lord for a plan of action.

A plan began to take shape. "I can't go to school with you everyday, so you will need to stay close to a teacher when you are at recess or in line to go into school." said Edie's mom. "If the girls start to pick on you, tell them, "I'd really like to be your friend Are you brave enough to do that?" Edie's mother asked. "The Lord asks us to be kind to our enemies, let's see what happens, okay?

The tiny girl perked up, and with a smile, looked at her mother and said, "Yes, Mom, I'll try."
The next morning, and everyday before Edie left for school, she and her mom prayed for her to be safe and brave, and for the girls to be open to God's love. Everyday, the girls shoved into line behind Edie and called her names and tried to get in a poke or two.

Each time, Edie looked up at them and said, "I'd really like to be your friend." She did have to look up at them since they were so much taller than she was. The teachers kept an eye on the proceedings, but did not need to interfere as the girls were not hurting her.

After about two weeks, Edie came home looking so discouraged. She told her mother that she didn't think it was working. After they talked about it some more and prayed, she decided to keep trying and continued to faithfully tell them, "I'd really like to be your friend."

One day the following week, Edie ran home as fast as she could and ran into the house shouting, "Mom, Mom, guess what happened today? Just like I always did, I said I'd really like to be your friend, and one of the girls said, "Okay, Edie, we give up, we'll be your friend."

Edie and her mom thanked the Lord for His faithfulness.
A short time later, as the girls were trying to become friends, Edie asked the teacher if she could sit at a table with these girls in the classroom. She had noticed that they were disruptive because they didn't understand the lessons. Edie became their tutor.

Toward the end of the school year, when Edie's parents went to school for a parent teacher conference, the teacher told them, "Because of Edie's kindness, those girl's have completely turned around and are productive members of the class." She felt she had witnessed a miracle. And so did Edie's mom and dad.

How many people go through life never experiencing kindness? They don't see it in strangers, and some don't even find it in their own families. Without experiencing kindness, it becomes impossible to express kindness toward others. The result of this tragic lack is seen everywhere. What a different society this would be if everyone who has received kindness would be kind to others, especially the unlovely.

shedding my skins off..

woke up earli todae. did a lot of things. went a lot of places..
first.. sengkang to meet Jj (: n Jack, whereby they were later than i am..
took but to jalan kayu for breakfast, then rushed to seletar..

talked to Lam.. he's still the same.. old but strong. glad that wong is not there.. haha.. after which i went to my grandma's house.. stayed for an hour plus and went to bedok.. the trip to hougang was cancelled and i took 168 from interchange and headed for home. o.O

but i alighted in a while.. sat by the round seat for around an hour.. my eyes didnt try to close.. i was searching by the bus stops. hoping to tak a glimpse of him.. i didn wan to let myself down and go home tinking why din i alight the bus and wait a while.. no lost wad.. so i got down. although i didn't see him but i am glad that i did alight. muhahaha >.<

STORY
Gal sees boy, gal likes boy1. gal and boy1 got together but boy1 did not treasure gal.. after a few breakups, gal gave up. gal went away. her heart died..

Gal went to work.. gal saw boy2. boy2 treats gal well.. and they got together.. they went to many places, had many funs. they grow rich together, they spent till poor together. although they live afar, boy2 never fail to look up gal. but gal did wrong.. she didn treasure boy2 as much as boy2 treasure her.. she thought of boy1. in the end, they broke up after the 2 years of relationship.

Gal and boy1 got back eventuali. but gal could never forget boy2. she worried for him.. worried for his life.. but she wanted him to live well. wanted him to adapt to the life without her. she doesn want him to rely on her. so she cut contacts from him.

However gal and boy1 didnt last. they are not meant for each other. he can do well without her. now he tells gal that he realli loved her, wanted to be with her. but no.. perhaps its a joke playing on them. but they cant be together..

Gal finalli realised that the one she realli loves and need is boy2. but she will not go back to him. she will not disturb his peaceful life. she starts her life fresh and new. she lets the past flow with the river and buries them to ground. END

its time for supper with the gals.. bye... >.<

moral of the story.

don get affected easily

worked for 11hours as usual todae and went for facial wth liyan.. crapped all the way.. after that we met trish at cwp. shes got a new job.. im so glad for her.. haha ((:

reached home at around 10pm.. glimpse at my babies.. all four's mouth stuffed with food and they are all so REALLI fat now.. i guess in few weeks they'll b as grown as their parents..

its a busy day tomorrow.. gonna jalan kayu with GG jack n JK. den go club with JK and go visit grandma.. den perhaps go shop for xhuii's present, and go see see . i was wondering if i should go meet joc mic n xhui at orchard.. but it all depends.. =l

passed by a funnie video.. might want to see.. http://youtube.com/watch?v=R9TA8NVCNyY

well.. wishing xiaohui lim reena a happie bdae in advance.. =) all the best..

stucked up memori..

A Story of Hope
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. And every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old trees graced the landscape, and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene. One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Days and weeks passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone. Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the world outside. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it for himself.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even
see the wall. She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."


Epilogue. . . .There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations. Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled. If you want to feel rich, just count all of the things you have that money can't buy.

"Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present."

GPA:2.357 :((

kinda impressed with myself for staying at home for the whole day finalli after years.. ya.. it has been years ever since i realli stayed at home.. wierd huh. ya..
i always went out.
play.
work.
slack.
more..
it feels good staying at home too.. but i keep thinking of things.. haha.. maybe cause i got alot of time..
i slept.
i bath.
i brushed.
read.
chat.
changed the beddings.
played with my babies.
watched kids central..
haha.. things that i thought i wun reali be doing.. i thought too.. think a lot.. spend a lot of time thinking.. thinking of the past.. thinking of what ive done.. well.. tonnes of apologies doesn help. i shant repeat anyway.. its damm tiring.. however i realise whose good to me afterall.. ^('(oo)')^

jus wan to enjoy my life now. although i know i'll b boring but its good.. peaceful anyway.. jus tt i don hav people to watch movies with me.. perhaps thats a good way of saving money, which i spent on lotteries.. hahas.. >.<

somtimes dunch know wads wrong with me. but i simply hope nothings wrong.. haha... gonna work tmr n next... tinking of wad to do on fridae.. another off day.. wonders when my bao ying comes..

memory keeper

im bad.

don get near me..

slept real long todae... lost track of the time le.. but the results are coming out at 6am it thought its 12am though.. so thanks to Jj^ who'll b helping me check my result and sms to tell me.. +).. kinda bored at home now.. wondering should i go out.. actualli theres a lot of places i wanted to go.. i was thinking of goin punggol end, going visit my grandma, going bedok to tak a glimpse, go watch a movie.. but no.. i guess im trapping myself at home.. i was even thinking of what i should blog.. haha.. simply nothing.. so sians.. argh~ SIANS

oh me..

give me back my life..

its irrating going out with yanliang.. the usual questions and dots n dots.. pushing and persisting the same thing.. but i was calm.. glad.. in the end i left.. walked to orchard and did some shopping.. then went back cwp to buy stuffs for papa n mama.. i love them..

well.. tried to msg xingwei in msn.. wanted to show him the four babies.. the cuties.. but obviously he din wan to reply me animore.. well. i don blame him.. my bad anyway.. so i shoot a lot of pic and sended them to him.. i wonders if he recieves them.. well.. i want to thank him too.. for growing with mi.. spoiling me.. caring for me.. bought laughters and memories to me.. i wun disturb u animore.. i'll realli leave u alone..im sorrie and i swear i realli loved u in the 2years.. hate mi if u can.. i deserve it..

i want a new life.. free from all the past stories that lingered in my mind till now.. i'll try.. try my veri best.. ((:

stirring up lik waves in the sea..

i'll cover it alone..

myself..

so bored now.. should bo going our for movies or shopping but its all cancelled.. lame.. lao PM u lazy pig.. caused mi to rot at home in this veri of day of mine.. >.<>

played a fool out of myself..

pic of the day.. i realli missed my hair.. =(

u grew with me..

stayed by my side..

u may hate me but i'll never forget u..

i wunn..

found out that im losing memory these few days.. i simply forgot about the things that i wanted to tell people until a long time after.. thats bad.. haha.. supposed tog o movies with my classmates after work today.. but dunch know why its cancelled.. so i was wondering if should get a nap or jus go out and slack.. mon and tues is a off day for me.. glad and happie.. haha.. :)) finali i can realli rest.. but i guess i'll b bz for the 2days too.. muhahaha..

little hamster are grown now.. realli delights mi when i see the four of them cuddling with their mother.. so swit.. n they can now mumble foods and store them in their mouth.. im sure u would lik to see them.. haha. one of them is definitely a female.. bcos its jus lik her mum.. shouting and yelling their language when i tried to pick her up.. well.. i still cant distinguish the 4 of them.. all looked exactly the same as their mother.. goin spent some time studying themm ... -.-'

actions speaks louder than words..

i believe in bao ying.. haha.. chat with ronald jus now.. kept asking mi to go for dota games with them.. no matter how hard he tried, i said no.. and i figured out the reason i condemmed tat game its becos of u.. u'll read this, i know.. u noe who u are..

what comes round goes round..

my bad..

i accept it

Whoos.... finalli back from a day of work.. a week is passing fast. and im realli damm tired today.. dunch know why.. but as usual i switched on my labbie to msn n blog.. well.. now my legs are realli aching too.. hmm.. dunch know wan to pity myself or wad.. haha.. tired.. tts all for todae..

i'll b good..

bought new beddings for my hamsters.. going change them after this.. haha.. the four babies are now all learning to crawl.. they are munching into the dry foods too.. thats a good start.. haha.. all four have fur same as hammy.. hope they aren't that fierce as their mother when they grow up.. haha...

3 more days of tiring work.. yea.. m jus passing day by day.. without knowing what im rushing for.. haha.. perhaps for my parents.. its never living by yr own.. lol..

havin gastric problems today.. painpain.. gonna sleep now.. bye..

im jus one of the few..

i guess

another day of work has passed.. left 4 days for this week.. =) my babie's eyes are going to open soon.. hehe.. so happie excited.. but the beddings had run out long time ago. and i had no time to buy and change them.. =( haiii... times running out for me.. tao yan!

new life brings me new hope..

jus got home from work and is playing with my sister's webcam using her labbie.. lol.. its fun.. haha.. so tired sah.. feel lik sleeping now.. but was chatting on msn. hmm.. damm funnie la.. using 2 laptops at the same time.. hmm... 6 days of work.. left 5 days.. i'll jia you!! peiyin jia you!!

days passed..

time can overcome everything...

sentosa class outing.. these are the pic.. without the guys.. haha.. well.. kinda of sad la this outing.. cos it is quite boring n sian... didnt expect it to be so.. -.-!! and this is the fst time i go sentosa and come back feeling so sian.. and im not even a bit burn.. lol.. paid $22 for cab to fly there cos i was late and in the end i wasnt the latest.. dot dot.. but the movie after the trip is nice.. although the outing is not tt good, but i was happie.. =) gonna work for the rest of the week.. but i there's supper session, jio me hor!.. lol...

beyond the wide sea...
incredibles hidden..

 

soo tired.. went for movies after work with trish liyan spencer and jookiahh.. watched frost biten.. well.. although i felt that the movie was ok.. but i wa supposed to blog that the movie is realli "SCARY, INTERESTING, WORTH IT" haha.. m i supposed to encourage people to watch it? lol..

well.. within 6hours i should b waking up and getting ready for sentosa class outing.. was vusy wrapping their present jus now and was so tired..

tomorrow is the onli off day i had in the week.. will be working full 11 hours from tuesdae to fri and for sat n sun its standard as most know.. so sad huh.. but.. hmm... ^$$^ lol.. need to catch some sleep.. muhahaha...

i believe i can fly..

if i believe, i can do it..

celebration of spencer's bdae.. =) our group.. minus xueying.. lloll
this is the cakes we got for spencer.. lol.. nice huh... mani varieties.. whahahaha
this is the bdae boi n me.. =)
lastly, going home.. lol.. im so fat..


well.. had a tiring dae todae.. but reali fun.. =) hope we bought spencer fun and laughter and unforgetable bdae ever.. hehehe...




when the rain stops,
sun will shine..
rainbow will rise...

 

jus reach home.. will b rushing to celebrate spencer's bdae.. although its tomorrow, we're celebrating for him todae.. haha... all day rushing.. i began to wonder what im living for.. i don tink im living for myself.. all the problems and things ive to deal with.. doesn realli concern me... but im dealing with it.. from big to small things.. haha.. when can i live for myself? no life...

HAPPIE BDAE TO PEIYING... (SAT)
HAPPIE BDAE TO SPENCER... (SUN)
HAPPIE BDAE TO SANDRA.. (MON)

went out with liyan to shopping todae... bought one of the three books i wanted to buy in times.. haha.. after that we went to atrium for ramen lunch.. well.. the food there is realli average.. i thought ajisen ramen is nicer.. LOL.. well.. went off to bugis for shopping after tat.. we onli walked one lane of the streets and bought a lot of things already... todae is realli a shopping day for me.. haha.. =) well.. a lot of money spent of course.. lOL..

after tat went for telemarketer interview.. it can be counted as the first day job also.. managed to get a ledge.. but hope the person is realli selling. lol.. den i got money.. lol.. =)

tmr is working day again.. after tat celebrating spencer's bdae.. wahaha... okies.. tats the end of the dae... =)

life's unexpectful...

so live life to the fullest..

went off for facial todae.. after the session my face i realli damm swollen n red and i tink i realli got a outbreak of pimples suddenly.. now i realli got no face to face anione.. hmm.. tao yan.. hope tmr morning it wun be swollen.. ..

didnt buy anithing todae although it is supposed to b a shopping day for me todae.. realli went home empty handed.. when someone is down on luck, its reali this way... sian diao... got money aso nothing to buy.. time seems to ^fly^..


good news todae... my 4 hamsters are still alive.. they i can see their ears growing out now.. lol.. so happie.. and little shawn kissed mi goodbye todae.. so unexpected.. he's so cute.. =) how good if my son is tt cute in the future.. lol..
signing off..

when there's life,

there's hope..

one minute was all jokes and laughter.. the other minute u were jumping with rage on me.. what the hell have i done.. i admit i played overboard yesterdae but todae u were simply ridiculous.. please ask yourself what i did that pissed you off.. ask if you can answer that question before showing passing me unkind replies.. when i ask y u were so bad temper nowadays i was just showing concern.. so wat did i realli did that made u angry? i seriously cant tink of ani... there goes my mood for E night..

E more i gif, E more pple tak..

im not giving animore..

humans tend to tak things forgranted..

went to work earli in the morning while most people in singapore is still sleeping.. well.. today went pass nice and smooth.. i hope tomorrow will be the same.. time passed smoothly, and mi and mum did great sales.. unexpected from the quietness today..
got home soon after work.. took a good look at my hamster babies.. the mother is taking good care of them now.. all four survived today.. and i guess if i continue to separate roben from the rest, the babies will survive.. they shall met their father when they grow older.. =) because i onli got a bottle, roben is dehydrating when i got home just now and was gorging himself with water.. so sorry.. =( but they still hav to shall a bottle among the 2cages.. the new life of the babies realli cheered mi up.. heehee..
tomorrow will be another tiring day for me.. so i guess i better sleep early today toget ready for tomorrow's new challenge.. friends please stick together.. stop all the quarrelling and conflict.. its not worth it.. we've went through thick and thin.. although no one showed it out, each and everyone of us should know it deep in our hearts.. what past had passed.. why not jus move on and not lingering over there.. hope all these will go away soon.. tink through...
thanks sam for yr care n concern.. u're nice.. =)

new lives begin each day..

creating a new paragraph of a story..

16 hours of sleep todae.. time for my dinner.. wonders why my parents need to quarrel... makes everyone bad mood onli.. especialli me.. who needs to face them everyday.. n my sister, one moved out, one who simply don care n is living in her own world.. seemed that im the onli child in this family who needs to live in great responsibility n duty for my parents.. its simply unfair.. veri unfair.. it sux..

gonna work 11hours for tmr and the day after next.. how i wish i can go and find another job.. don need to meet up with the stress in working there.. so pissed.. hmmm......

it should have went up

not down..

met yl after work todae.. well.. he must b tinking i finalli agreed to meet up.. went marina square for my claypot rice.. n we did some talking.. i was asked to go back to him.. but i know i cant.. it'll b unfair to everyone of us.. xpeciali xw... i wanted start afresh.. anew.. i don wan my old life anymore.. those confusing and complicated times reali makes me moody.. i know i need not worri about yL.. deep inside me i was still worrying for xw.. hmm... perhaps yl is realli the one.. but heaven played a damm joke on us.. and this joke is long.. had lasted for years.. n is still playing.. hurting everyone whom love and cared for....



halp me psh...

cut my damaged hair at another cost of $10 todae. hmm.. den took a bus to woodlnds centre with puimun to meet yingting liyan n pearlyne for dinner. after tat we went to buy majong den went to liyan's house for majong game.. its quite lame.. because i spent more than 10 bucks on the set of majong n i lost $25 on that majong session... so it was a lot not worth.. sad..

ever since i cut my hair i had been sway till now.. todae when working, mum n dad had a big fight. realli sickening with all these shit. and those frens thing aso.. y need to hav so many problems sah.. but im not gonna care animore.. wad for drag myself into such problems that doesnt concern me ma.. rite? caring too much does not help..

who will realli care wen u got problems? definitely not gamers..
m jus a fat ugly clumsy stupid plump short idiot..

entry of E day..
wo wei ren ren.. you shui wei wo?
hmmm

jookiah yikun pearlyne michelle n me.. on train home..
me mic n pear.. lol
we r waiting for train.. i looked tired.. lol
we three again.. lol.. this is cute..


i was so tired today. but it was quite fun too.. went to meet cheryn leeyun they all at noon for lunch... well.. i didnt go back to any of the skools.. bad me.. haha.. simply too lazy and tired.. well.. had no one to visit too.. dunch realli like all the teachers..

after tat went to tak neoprint.. it was like 9 pple squeezing into a machine.. was so lame.. haha.. well.. but its nice to see so mani pple..after which the rest of us had nothing to do.. sat outside timezone waiting for ideas to some out from the sky.. haha.. in the end mi n pear went to seletar to meet jookiah then went to meet yikun at ps... im surprised tat pear n yikun had got onto good terms.. haha.. meet mic after that and went joking n walking around bugis.. went home after that.. my day.. haha..

hmm.. guess working days are going to be boring, if its a full shift.. that was 11 hours of work, 1 hours to get up n get ready n come home, 8 hours of sleep, 2 hours of tv, 1hour of com and lastly one hour for dinner etc.. wow.. 24 hours will jus b gone in a blink of an eye... haha...

* will update soon.. =)