Today is the last day of 2012 and I would like to count my many blessings for this year..

1. Thank God for everything and everyone in 2012
2. A new career with good pay n no stress
3. A debt free wedding
4. A cosy, simple house with min reno cost
5. A loving and happy relationship with zw
6. Good health for me and my family
7. Good frens that even though we don't meet in person but we keep in contact online
8. A new old car that is stable n cost saving
9. Trips to new places like Perth, Bali, Abu Dhabi and Yangon
10. And many more.. Too many to list..

As I get older and older, my wants and needs become different. So long as everyone is happy and healthy, it is a blessing already. Last time, I want to see the world.. As much as I can, as quickly as I can. Now I want to enjoy my life one step at a time cos time pass by too quickly. Even staying at home, cuddling up and watching tv is as satisfying as an adventure overseas.. Maybe I have become lazy or that I have become less ambitious or that I don't have the resources to travel much but I like the way it is now. I love to travel still but I like to stay at home too. Home is where the heart is. If my heart travel with me, then I am travelling and at home at the same time too.. I like that!!

Food I had at La Barca at 60 Goodman Road.. Very very nice Italian food and best thing is.. It is not crowded on Sun afternoon!

It's Christmas Eve and I'm really pissed off! We just passed some presents to Zw's nieces and nephews and the nephews attitude totally pissed me off! First, they never greet us when we entered the house. The older one (11yo) is engrossed in his computer game and the younger one (7yo) came to us and said hello. What hello??!!! What? You think you are an American ang moh or what?! Dun need to greet elders ah? Then we pass the gifts to the nephews then I have up say what must you say? Then he said thank you. And then I said thank you to who? Then he said shu shu n Shen Shen. Then all these while the older one just continue playing games. Then I walked to him and I said Wah ppl buy present for you, you dun nd to say anything? Then he say thank you. Then I say to who? He said Shen Shen n shu shu. Then I was like your shu shu is nt here, your shu shu is the pc ah? Just then Zw walked past then he said shu shu. Wah!! I'm freaking mad lor! I was telling Zw this is the last time I'm getting anything for them! And I asked him to return the money I paid earlier for the presents. Then he said u cannot blame them for being rude, is the parents' fault. Then I say so the parents fault then too bad lor. Why should we reward spoilt n rude kids with presents? It is not the right way wat! I rather give the presents to orphans or wat lor then e ungrateful brats! I told him next tm I'm buying just for ur nieces. If they asked then I just say I'm nt buying anything for kids that never acknowledge our existence. Why should I be so thick skin buy for kids that won't appreciate wat I buy?

Kids nowadays really like shit man!

I had an excellent dream last night!! I dreamt of my 2 most favourite korean artists! The super cute LT and super funny EH from SJ! Hahaha

The dream is too wat to be shared in public so I will keep it in my heart! haha.. But I confirm got hug both guys n I get to kiss LT! It was a bit of a two timing them kind of feeling. Haha.. so bad. Only in my dreams then I can do this kind of stuff.. But strangely in my dream, LT's body is pudgy.. instead of his normal fit self and his hair is all tousled and messy and not like his real self. All I can rem of the dream is more of LT and very little of EH but he confirmed did come into my dream. Haha.. In my dream I was damned happy! I hate my alarm clock! Damned!

If I tell zw about this, he will say I fa hua chi again.. haiz.. Not my fault that I want to dream of them and not of him what.

If there is a chance to do wat I can do in my dreams, I will do it in a heartbeat!

I baked my first batch of butter cookies on Sunday. It was a success but I find it a tad salty. However, all that ate the cookies said it was alright. Maybe they are just being polite? Haha

Baking in the oven, very nice buttery smell filling the house..

Spot the char tar cookie... haha

At first when I finished putting all the ingredients together and they mentioned to chill the dough, I was like ok.. So I placed on lump of the dough inside the fridge. Then the more I think about it, the more I feel that it is not right. Then finally after one hour, I took out the dough and it is too hard to roll it out flat!!! So I went back to read the instructions again and they mentioned to roll it flat before putting it into the fridge! No wonder la!

So I had to wait for it to be less frozen before I try to pat it flat.. And since I do not have any cookie cutter ( you know those cute cute shape thingy to cut cookies).. I use my kitchen knife to cut it and thus the squarish shape.. HAHA.. those that are a bit brown is cos it is placed at the edge of the tin and I think the oven is much hotter there and thus the chao tar-ness. Oh and also maybe cos it is a bit flatter and thus it is cooked too well. It is definitely more crispy then the whitish cookies.

With my last small lump of dough, I wanted to make a heart shape cookie for zw.. but it failed.. I cannot mould anything out of it, so it became a weird heart shape lookalike kind of cookie. Of cos I told zw about it and he asked me where is it and when I passed it to him, he ate it promptly.. Haha.. Even though it is not heart shaped, it is still filled with love..

31 years old is such a strange age. I don't feel like a person in her thirties and yet my IC tells me that I am. My experience in life is not that rich and my thoughts and actions are somewhat childish at times. How can my birthdate dictate my age?

Ah but I feel aches when I dun sleep well and I feel sleepy much earlier at night. And my weight does not go down no matter how little I eat.

I hate that now the chances of me getting pregnant is lower than those in their 20s cos my age starts with a 3.. what the? How can one year make such a big difference? And those 35 and 36, the chances drop even further!! DS! You got to hurry up and get a sperm donor leh!

Being a woman sucks, so many things to worry about. However much I try not to worry, doubts and unsettling thoughts will come into my mind.. shit man!

Now I got one more thing to worry about.. the giving out of ang baos next year.. when I think about it, chills go down my spine!! I cannot imagine.. so many kids, so many unmarried cousins........

Oh.. I am getting my closer relatives to my house next Sun.. unveiling of my new house.. Shit! We got to clean it up before they come.. and clean it up after they go.. so irritating!

I just went to Myanmar for a business trip. I do not know how to describe my feelings towards that country. It is a mish mash of the old and new. They do not have phone network but they have wifi in most hotels. They have old run down cinema but it is showing new blockbusters in English. They do not have high mobile phones penetration but I see a lot of young people carrying iPhones. They do not have MRT but they have a lot of expensive Japanese and Continental cars on the roads.

It is not a place that I would pay to go but it is definitely an eye opener. And a bit of reminiscence of the older Singapore. Wooden bridge, red carpet n metal railings in cinema and old spinning weighing machines.. so nostalgic..

The food over there is not bad.. with a lot of Thai influence and Chinese influence. On the first day, we had a bar chor mee alike noodles and it is very fragrant because they use onion oil inside the dish. We also had a dim sum buffet at Traders Hotel on one of the days.. it is only USD20 for each person. I think it is quite worth it.

 The rich and the poor there are obviously quite easy to spot. The rich hanging out at hotels with new iPhones in their hands and big expensive cars with chauffeur. The poor are sitting at the bridge, streets and market and begging for money. One local told us not to give them money as more and more will come once the rest knew of it. I think it is quite a sad sight to see young toddlers at the roadside with their handicapped parent.

As always, when you go to such places, you learn to appreciate what you have in Singapore.

I made another cheese baked rice on Sunday. This time round I use the normal mozzarella cheese and it turned out to be fantastic! Not wanting to praise myself but I think I am an excellent cook! HAHA

 This time round, it is a tomato based cheese baked rice with ham, mushroom and crab meat.. We just used what was in the house. First, I dissolved half a cube of chicken cube into a pan of water and after that I added in the rice in to cook. At the same time, I cut a small cube of butter into frying pan and added in garlic to fry and then I added in the ham, mushroom and crab meat to stir fry for a while. After that, I added in black pepper and sea salt to taste. I also heated up my oven at the same time. Then I put the half cooked rice with the chicken stock into the oven pan and I stir the ham, mushroom n crab meat in and I just get the spaghetti sauce and pour like 2/3 of it to the top of the rice.. and finally I added in the cheese to cover the top.. and bake for like 15mins? Once I see the cheese like chao tar, I know it is ready.. haha.. And zw said it is GOOD! I guess his tastebud is pretty simple.. haha.. His only comment, the garlic pieces are too big.. next time chop it a little finer..

It is actually quite fun to anyhowly cook something and when it turned out to be nice... u feel happy!

"Parting is Such Sweet Sorrow" - A pastel painting by Danielle McManuc

Zw just left for a 4D3N BKK trip this morning.. and I am feeling sian.. the whole house will be kinda empty.. I was telling him that he cannot go.. then he said see I told u, that you cannot live without me.. Other ppl need food, water and oxygen.. for you, you need food, water, oxygen and me.. And I of cos said no!

So strange that after marriage, I feel I cant let go as easily.. before marriage, I feel to have him or not, it is ok. Sometimes I have scary thoughts of either of us dying and leaving the other party behind.. and it will be so sad.. I think I am quite morbid.. and I think that maybe cos we are happy so there is bound to be a catch somewhere..

不在乎天长地久 只在乎曾经拥有

I rather have 天长地久.. then 曾经拥有.. haha.. 曾经拥有 is like kinda sad.. like a consolation to yourself cos u dun have 天长地久.. Last time i read this book called The Time Traveller's Wife.. it is so complicated yet so interesting. They have 曾经拥有 and 天长地久 at the same time.. ah.. I will recommend the book rather then the movie.. I have yet to watch the movie but I always feel movies will always lose out to the book as so many different nuances and meanings and hints will be lost when you pack everything in a 2hrs slot..

Strangely.. I dun feel this upset when I travel.. HAHA.. double standards maybe? I still miss him a lot but I am also filled with excitement to travel.. in Singapore, I will miss him a lot and I will not have any excitement.. just counting the days n hours until he come back..

I sound like a lovesick puppy.. YUCKS!

I wonder if anyone I dunno reads my blog.. haha..

I was thinking of what to write here since my life is so boring nowadays.. but I am seriously loving my new home.. I love my living room, my dining room, my kitchen, my wardrobe/office area and my bedroom! Yesterday just before I sleep I was telling zw that our bed feels like those hotel beds.. super big with super big and soft quilt and 4 pillows and white sheets.. haha! When I was lying on my side facing the window.. when I look out, I can see the moon high up in the sky winking at me! I was telling zw, hey look.. the moon is tao bioing me.. then he was like.. pls lor he will rather fall down then look at you lor.. KNS!!

I think soon it is time to invite ppl over.. I have not really posted any pics of my house cos looking at the real time is different from pics maybe? Haha.. Or it is just cos it is my house so I love it? Everything is installed with sweat and love ok by both of us.

I bought a nice cross from Precious Thots and I am planning to put it on our door.. It says Love (I think)..

Only problem with the house is that.. the construction of the mrt station is making our house so dusty!!! Argh! I think I have more pimples nowadays cos of it lor!

Ok.. hands up if you wanna come to my house for a visit?

I made another dessert yesterday and it is a semi success! Haha.. I got the recipe from noobcook.com and it is seriously simple. I did not even follow everything stated inside as I do not have a weighing machine to measure out the ingredients. For 100g of flour, I was looking at my 1kg of flour packet and thinking how much is 1/10 of it. Then I just heck it and dump a little in at first and keep increasing if I feel it is not enough. Oh and because I use a larger pan or dish so I used 2 apples instead of one and thus I felt the ingredients should be doubled. I also added in some cornflakes as I read that other recipes suggest we can add it in. So everything is like kinda not here not there liao. Measurements is not correct already.. but it turned out ok. The only problem is that the apples are kinda sour.. It could not be that they are spoilt.. I think it is just the reaction of the apples in the oven. I read other recipes and they mentioned to pour some sugar over the apples before we place the crumble mixture on top. Maybe this is the part where the apples will get sweeter. Next time I will try that.

Not so brown Apple Crumble..

And I think I will either make Choc Lava Cake next time or Butter Cookies.. cos ZW love both! I am such a genius in the kitchen!!

Now we are settle in the new house.. we started to cook and bake in our new kitchen and I kinda like it..

Over the last weekend, I had my first attempt at cooking fried bee hoon.. zw said it was 7.5/10 but I said it is only 5/10.. cos the seasoning wasnt enough and thus the bee hoon was tasteless.. After that I tried making choc chips cookies and it was fantastic!! HAHA.. although it is very easy to do (as wat ZJ said) but then it is still my first attempt and both of us liked it. Zw said he preferred it to be baked a bit longer so that it is crispier but I like it crispy on the edge and chewy in the middle..

My bee hoon.. looks nt too bad..

My cookies in the baking...

 Oh and my na shuo hao cai is this!!! Mee tai mak in soup.. HAHAAH... Zw preferred it over the bee hoon.. haha

All time favorites.. mee tai mak with minced meat!

 I am looking through those online recipes and see what else I can cook for the next weekend..

Today is my 25th birthday!! Yeah!! Happy anti-aging birthday! Haha.. I was telling my frens that my mentality stopped at when I was 25.. haha.. Or I feel like I am still 25.. Isnt it strange that time passes so fast..

I read somewhere that as you grow older, you will feel tat time passed faster.. and when you were young, time passed slower.. it is because when you are young, a lot of experiences are still new and fresh thus it made more impact in your life and memories.. and as you grow older, tings are kinda boring and mundane and thus time flies past with no new experiences or memories added in.. I think this is true.. it is like I remembered a lot of my first time.. but now that there are not many my first time anymore so everyday seems to fly past in a blur..

I guess I need to go for more exciting experience or unusual ones.. haha..

Hubby cooked chilli crab for the first time in his life for me.. and it was nice.. and he praised himself for being a culinary genius.. hahah! I guess it was good because there are a lot of love and thought that goes into it..

DS and ZJ also brought me out for brunch.. haha.. it is like one of our common activity now.. going for brunch.. feels so tai tai-ish.. Brunch was good! I was so full that I almost puke.. Think is the cake at the end.. haha.. cos too greedy so kept eating it..

Some pics of my birthday until now..

My egg benedict in different manner.. the bread is superb!

DS pancakes.. ok la..

ZJ big breakfast.. she said it was nice..

Different breakfast, Different coffee..

Looks nice hor.. haha

We look like some xian hu xia fan.. HAHA

I have no idea they planned this.. smmore ZJ still can say oh we forgot to order the cake hor.. KNS

Yeah! I think we can all grow old gracefully..

Better this red hat then a red big ribbon! HAHA

The present is for me! Not for DS! HAHA

3 nice coffees..

Starting to cook the crabs...

Reading the instructions from his iphone.. HAHA

My dish for the night, baked portobello mushroom with cheese n ham.. not so nice but taste alright..

Finishing stage..

Dinner for the night... with homemade Yakult Green Tea!

It is really quite spicy, juicy and nice...

Bday lunch with colleagues..

It's a good ting the rest of the company is in China for a big meeting.. haha.. else i go pok!

A new korean song I just discovered.. all thanks to Mr Brown's tweet..

These are the lyrics to the song..

http://koreansplash.blogspot.sg/2010/07/beg-narsha-im-in-love-lyrics-and.html

to be honest from the
first time we met
saying i like you
was not easy for me to do

if i don't approach you first
i was afraid of losing you

i wrote letters and prepare
small gifts for you

if my love for you
goes any deeper
it would only hurt me more
its true my mind is full of fear

i pray with all my heart
the person that i'm hoping for
i believe that person is you

i'm in love
i fall in love

there's no way around it
i can't hide my heart
you're so beautiful

i thought i never
gonna fall in love
but i'm in love
cause i wanna love you baby

thruthfully from the first time
i met you
somewhere inside my heart
you crashed like a strong wave

you're the only thing
i think about all day
i can be a good lover
wanna be your four-leafed clover
i will make you feel like
the happiest woman in the world

you gotta believe me
make you never gonna leave me
i won't make you promises
i will just show it to you

i'm in love
with you baby

i fall in love
there's no way around it

Love this quote:

“with short hair you begin to crave pearl necklaces, long earrings, and a variety of sunglasses. and you brush your teeth more often. short hair removes obvious femininity and replaces it with style. when it starts growing out a little and losing its style, you have to wear sunglasses until you can get it to the hairdresser. that’s why you need a variety. short hair makes you aware of subtraction as style. you can no longer wear puffed sleeves or ruffles; the neat is suddenly preferable to the fussy. you eye the tweezers instead of the blusher. what else can you take away? you can’t hide behind short hair… you may look a little androgynous, a little unfinished, a little bare… but your face is no longer a flat screen surrounded by a curtain: the world sees you in three dimensions.”

- joan juliet buck for american vogue, c.1988 

 

I got it from http://sweethotjustice.blogspot.sg/.. Been a long time since I had short hair again.. It feels totally unlike me.  And I have been envying those with long hair.. and regretting my choice of cutting my hair short.. However this quote lift me up again.. It's true.. I am more stylish n less feminine.. HAHA

 

Presenting new shorter hair..

This is me.. with long lifeless hair.. haha

He probably stated what I am thinking now http://joeljoshuagoh.wordpress.com/2012/06/27/on-the-kong-hee-scandal/

I give becos I love God and I obey His Word.. not cos I am forced to or being persuaded to.. I give when I have more than enough and also when I am poor.. It is up to me how I wanna spend my money.. If people say oh u know u give them money then the pastor use it for his own..blah blah.. actually, u are obeying God.. just as the pastor obey God.. if he did not obey God, then in the end, he has to face God. Just as if I dun give, in the end when God ask me.. why didnt you give? Don't you have faith in me? What can I say?

I felt disappointed, disbelief and I still cant fathom it.. Perhaps like it had been said all along.. we are humans.. when you are in a position to do certain tings and when the thought had formed and the initial step had been taken.. it is very difficult to stop..

Actually if he had just asked us.. all of us would have been agreeable.. problem is.. he never asked.. that is where we know.. accountability from him is not there.. and he is perhaps not as discipled as he thinks he is..

I wont defend him that much cos he really did wrong.. I wont abandon the church cos I do love God.. I will keep my silence and when people ask me about it.. I will tell them that I give becos I love God..

Do u think u will ever have feelings for an inanimate object? I do.. It's my 冠军小白猫. We just transferred the car to the agent and we are feeling kinda sian about it. It had been with us for over 4 years.. And it is almost 80% of our relationship.. And it is our first big commitment in our relationship. I can still remember when we first saw it at the car dealer. It is right next to a red Integra and we were debating between the 2 color and finally we chose the white cos it is auto gear.

The first day when we received the car, Zw was in reservist so his dad drove it out for us. And the next day I drove it to work at SK. And took the first pic of it and sent it to Zw. And tat had been his msn pic ever since.. There are so many things we did with xiaobai. Sometimes I hate it and most times I love it. It had always been a car with character for most time.. Full of dents and bumps.. But it had never fall sick with us. Always willing and always hardworking..

Goodbye xiaobai... Thanks for serving us faithfully for the past 4 years.

I am into Korean songs, shows and movies nowadays.. Although I have no interest into learning their language but I am very into their culture and people. And these are some of my fave songs from the Korean artists/groups..

1. Heaven by Ailee

Ailee Heaven feat Kikwang B2ST English Translation Lyrics

Where you are, I will be there too
Where you go, I will go there too

I smile for you every day, I pray for you
With thoughts of you, I fall asleep - I open my eyes as I call for you
You protect me by my side and you embrace me
You are my heaven

* You're my only one way
Only for you - I am thankful that I am next to you
You're the only one babe
You taught me love in this harsh world - I am happy with you alone

Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven x2
If we're together we will never cry never never cry
Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven x2
Forever, together - never gonna be alone

I breathe in your arms, we kiss in your arms
When I hear your voice, it feels like I'm dreaming
I can tell from your eyes, I can tell about your love
You are my heaven

* repeat

Heaven - my only person, yes the person who will protect me
Any sadness, any pain - if only I'm with you
I'm not jealous of anyone else - hold my two trembling hands
Because the reason I live is you

* repeat

Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven x2
If we're together we will never cry never never cry
Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven Heaven x2
Forever, together - never gonna be alone
Oh, so alone

Read more: Ailee Heaven English Translation Lyrics | InfoTaip
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2. Don't Say Goodbye by Davichi

Damned sad MTV.. but it is a very nice song.. Most MTVs now are telling a whole story instead of just random dancing or posing at gardens. I prefer MTVs with stories linking to the song lyrics..

TRANSLATION:

I saw your trembling lips for the first time
You try and you try but hesitate to say something
Just like the lyrics from a song- sad predictions come true
No, it can’t be- it’s not- it can’t be

You already left me, your heart has left me
Even your body has left me as well
I don’t know how to hold onto you- someone please tell me how

* Please don’t say those words tonight
Why did you leave me?
I’m so hurt, my heart hurts- tears are rising
We can’t say goodbye yet- don’t open those lips any wider
Don’t say goodbye

At your cold words, I sank down
As if the world crumbled down, tears fell

If this moment passes, if this moment is over
We will be separated forever
I love you, I love you to death-
Don’t leave me

* repeat

I don’t know what separation is- I’m just upset
I have so many stories, so many memories-
My heart is ripping
We can’t say goodbye yet- don’t open those lips any wider
Don’t say goodbye
Don’t say goodbye

credit:
video by LOENENT @ youtube
ROM by lyriclirik.blogspot.com
TRANS by popgasa.com

I hate loading pictures on the new blogger.. so troublesome!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hubby enjoying his mint choc ice cream.. his fave flavour..

Group photo.. dinner on the last nite..

At the vineyard.. self shot.. 

Mussels on 3rd nite.. it is as good as the one in Germany..

Reason why i always take my own pics? Cos hubby photography skills sucks! See this is his first attempt at capturing me and Koala Bear.. Head too big and Koala not looking at us!

Act cool.. BTH

Act pretty.. Haha

After complaining.. better pic..

His lousy shot again.. with one huge finger blocking the camera!

This is his ah peh look on second nite.. see the grey thermal wear with sandals? HAHA

Look like a badass couple!