Today is the last day of 2012 and I would like to count my many blessings for this year..

1. Thank God for everything and everyone in 2012
2. A new career with good pay n no stress
3. A debt free wedding
4. A cosy, simple house with min reno cost
5. A loving and happy relationship with zw
6. Good health for me and my family
7. Good frens that even though we don't meet in person but we keep in contact online
8. A new old car that is stable n cost saving
9. Trips to new places like Perth, Bali, Abu Dhabi and Yangon
10. And many more.. Too many to list..

As I get older and older, my wants and needs become different. So long as everyone is happy and healthy, it is a blessing already. Last time, I want to see the world.. As much as I can, as quickly as I can. Now I want to enjoy my life one step at a time cos time pass by too quickly. Even staying at home, cuddling up and watching tv is as satisfying as an adventure overseas.. Maybe I have become lazy or that I have become less ambitious or that I don't have the resources to travel much but I like the way it is now. I love to travel still but I like to stay at home too. Home is where the heart is. If my heart travel with me, then I am travelling and at home at the same time too.. I like that!!

Food I had at La Barca at 60 Goodman Road.. Very very nice Italian food and best thing is.. It is not crowded on Sun afternoon!

It's Christmas Eve and I'm really pissed off! We just passed some presents to Zw's nieces and nephews and the nephews attitude totally pissed me off! First, they never greet us when we entered the house. The older one (11yo) is engrossed in his computer game and the younger one (7yo) came to us and said hello. What hello??!!! What? You think you are an American ang moh or what?! Dun need to greet elders ah? Then we pass the gifts to the nephews then I have up say what must you say? Then he said thank you. And then I said thank you to who? Then he said shu shu n Shen Shen. Then all these while the older one just continue playing games. Then I walked to him and I said Wah ppl buy present for you, you dun nd to say anything? Then he say thank you. Then I say to who? He said Shen Shen n shu shu. Then I was like your shu shu is nt here, your shu shu is the pc ah? Just then Zw walked past then he said shu shu. Wah!! I'm freaking mad lor! I was telling Zw this is the last time I'm getting anything for them! And I asked him to return the money I paid earlier for the presents. Then he said u cannot blame them for being rude, is the parents' fault. Then I say so the parents fault then too bad lor. Why should we reward spoilt n rude kids with presents? It is not the right way wat! I rather give the presents to orphans or wat lor then e ungrateful brats! I told him next tm I'm buying just for ur nieces. If they asked then I just say I'm nt buying anything for kids that never acknowledge our existence. Why should I be so thick skin buy for kids that won't appreciate wat I buy?

Kids nowadays really like shit man!

I had an excellent dream last night!! I dreamt of my 2 most favourite korean artists! The super cute LT and super funny EH from SJ! Hahaha

The dream is too wat to be shared in public so I will keep it in my heart! haha.. But I confirm got hug both guys n I get to kiss LT! It was a bit of a two timing them kind of feeling. Haha.. so bad. Only in my dreams then I can do this kind of stuff.. But strangely in my dream, LT's body is pudgy.. instead of his normal fit self and his hair is all tousled and messy and not like his real self. All I can rem of the dream is more of LT and very little of EH but he confirmed did come into my dream. Haha.. In my dream I was damned happy! I hate my alarm clock! Damned!

If I tell zw about this, he will say I fa hua chi again.. haiz.. Not my fault that I want to dream of them and not of him what.

If there is a chance to do wat I can do in my dreams, I will do it in a heartbeat!

I baked my first batch of butter cookies on Sunday. It was a success but I find it a tad salty. However, all that ate the cookies said it was alright. Maybe they are just being polite? Haha

Baking in the oven, very nice buttery smell filling the house..

Spot the char tar cookie... haha

At first when I finished putting all the ingredients together and they mentioned to chill the dough, I was like ok.. So I placed on lump of the dough inside the fridge. Then the more I think about it, the more I feel that it is not right. Then finally after one hour, I took out the dough and it is too hard to roll it out flat!!! So I went back to read the instructions again and they mentioned to roll it flat before putting it into the fridge! No wonder la!

So I had to wait for it to be less frozen before I try to pat it flat.. And since I do not have any cookie cutter ( you know those cute cute shape thingy to cut cookies).. I use my kitchen knife to cut it and thus the squarish shape.. HAHA.. those that are a bit brown is cos it is placed at the edge of the tin and I think the oven is much hotter there and thus the chao tar-ness. Oh and also maybe cos it is a bit flatter and thus it is cooked too well. It is definitely more crispy then the whitish cookies.

With my last small lump of dough, I wanted to make a heart shape cookie for zw.. but it failed.. I cannot mould anything out of it, so it became a weird heart shape lookalike kind of cookie. Of cos I told zw about it and he asked me where is it and when I passed it to him, he ate it promptly.. Haha.. Even though it is not heart shaped, it is still filled with love..

31 years old is such a strange age. I don't feel like a person in her thirties and yet my IC tells me that I am. My experience in life is not that rich and my thoughts and actions are somewhat childish at times. How can my birthdate dictate my age?

Ah but I feel aches when I dun sleep well and I feel sleepy much earlier at night. And my weight does not go down no matter how little I eat.

I hate that now the chances of me getting pregnant is lower than those in their 20s cos my age starts with a 3.. what the? How can one year make such a big difference? And those 35 and 36, the chances drop even further!! DS! You got to hurry up and get a sperm donor leh!

Being a woman sucks, so many things to worry about. However much I try not to worry, doubts and unsettling thoughts will come into my mind.. shit man!

Now I got one more thing to worry about.. the giving out of ang baos next year.. when I think about it, chills go down my spine!! I cannot imagine.. so many kids, so many unmarried cousins........

Oh.. I am getting my closer relatives to my house next Sun.. unveiling of my new house.. Shit! We got to clean it up before they come.. and clean it up after they go.. so irritating!

I just went to Myanmar for a business trip. I do not know how to describe my feelings towards that country. It is a mish mash of the old and new. They do not have phone network but they have wifi in most hotels. They have old run down cinema but it is showing new blockbusters in English. They do not have high mobile phones penetration but I see a lot of young people carrying iPhones. They do not have MRT but they have a lot of expensive Japanese and Continental cars on the roads.

It is not a place that I would pay to go but it is definitely an eye opener. And a bit of reminiscence of the older Singapore. Wooden bridge, red carpet n metal railings in cinema and old spinning weighing machines.. so nostalgic..

The food over there is not bad.. with a lot of Thai influence and Chinese influence. On the first day, we had a bar chor mee alike noodles and it is very fragrant because they use onion oil inside the dish. We also had a dim sum buffet at Traders Hotel on one of the days.. it is only USD20 for each person. I think it is quite worth it.

 The rich and the poor there are obviously quite easy to spot. The rich hanging out at hotels with new iPhones in their hands and big expensive cars with chauffeur. The poor are sitting at the bridge, streets and market and begging for money. One local told us not to give them money as more and more will come once the rest knew of it. I think it is quite a sad sight to see young toddlers at the roadside with their handicapped parent.

As always, when you go to such places, you learn to appreciate what you have in Singapore.

I made another cheese baked rice on Sunday. This time round I use the normal mozzarella cheese and it turned out to be fantastic! Not wanting to praise myself but I think I am an excellent cook! HAHA

 This time round, it is a tomato based cheese baked rice with ham, mushroom and crab meat.. We just used what was in the house. First, I dissolved half a cube of chicken cube into a pan of water and after that I added in the rice in to cook. At the same time, I cut a small cube of butter into frying pan and added in garlic to fry and then I added in the ham, mushroom and crab meat to stir fry for a while. After that, I added in black pepper and sea salt to taste. I also heated up my oven at the same time. Then I put the half cooked rice with the chicken stock into the oven pan and I stir the ham, mushroom n crab meat in and I just get the spaghetti sauce and pour like 2/3 of it to the top of the rice.. and finally I added in the cheese to cover the top.. and bake for like 15mins? Once I see the cheese like chao tar, I know it is ready.. haha.. And zw said it is GOOD! I guess his tastebud is pretty simple.. haha.. His only comment, the garlic pieces are too big.. next time chop it a little finer..

It is actually quite fun to anyhowly cook something and when it turned out to be nice... u feel happy!