Thursday, March 13, 2014
/5:27 AM
Probably one of the worst night I've ever endured. Looking back at all the post made in these blogs, I can only derive one thing out of this. Which clearly shows how hot tempered and stubborn I am as a person. Just when I thought I've learned my lesson but obviously I didn't. It's pretty disappointing and yes I have only myself to be blamed for all these. 2013 wasn't anything close to be called a good year. It was the lowest point of my life and I will not pen it down because it's something I wouldn't wanna look back. They always say that for every bad situation, there's always something good that comes out of it. Probably so. But definitely not for me. The first ever love I've loved is currently in a really good relationship with her bf. Which is a good news and after 6 years I can sincerely say that I do wish the best for the both of them because he had proven to be a really good guy for her. Someone I couldn't be. Well for the second love? She's really someone special and it pretty much ended because of my hot headed nature. What's new right? I can only hope that she have made the right choice and only time will tell if she has found the right guy. As hard as it is to say it out, I do wish that she finds the love she truly deserve. As for me, I wish the third will be my last relationship and be the one I'll spend the rest of my life with. I need to get my life back on track for the future her to enter. As for now, honestly I just wanna have fun and take things easy(relationship wise). Buck up Wei Ern. Wake up and start living the way you want your future to thank for.
P.S. to my future self, I hope when you read this you have accomplished something great. If not shame on you.
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Monday, November 15, 2010
i miss you so /9:43 PM
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010
/11:01 PM
Have you ever had a day when you felt so vulnerable, a day when you feel extremely moodless and you don't feel like doing anything but to just stay at home and ponder just about anything that had happened in the past? Wishing that some of the things you had done could be erased and you wouldn't mind redoing everything again just to get things right. Have you ever wish that those things right. Have you ever wish that those things said by your love ones are actually said by your enemies because it wouldn't hurt that much? Everything I had question here are those things that had been haunting me recently. No doubt everything that I had questioned myself had no answers to it and I know that it will be a waste of time to ponder it over and over again. Well I just can't help but to sulk at all those stupid decisions I've made in the past that results in the life I'm in now. :(
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Sunday, January 17, 2010
/2:01 AM
BUOM is my most favourite module of IT. Why is it so? BECAUSE ITS BUSINESS RELATED MODULE! Sometimes I do really wish that I could really study a little harder for my O's so that I could get into business courses. And when I tell anybody that my desire was to enter any business courses, everyone will be like "because you wanna be in the same class as all the hot girls right?!". Well that was a small portion of the reason why I wanna be in there! Okay fine, maybe almost half. BUT the main point was that I wanna study what I love most. NOT JAVA AND ITS FUCKING CODING! And I'm even more sad when I accompanied steph to SP open house. Because business courses are so damn tempting. That totally brought the "just got my O Level points and i wanna go business course" feeling. Well what's done is done and I can't do anything about it.
Lets talk about something more realistic then. I wanna study in SIM when I'm done with NS and do my business course which I'm dying to study. BUT I GOT NO MONEY! Gonna follow the footsteps of my brother and get a night course while working full time. :( Something I know I'm gonna be effing tired after the whole day of work. Man I wish I have superpowers of 'no need to sleep'. HAHAHA! Whatever it is, I am not gonna settle with that stupid IT diploma I'm gonna get. Because I don't wanna work at FUNAN! HAHAHA! :D
Lets talk something even more closer and realistic! Which is my driving! I'm totally dying to get my driving license so that I can get the fuck out of teban and pandan and SPIZE here I come! Okay maybe not so soon after all. Not because I suck at driving but being a private students means having to fight for slots with all other students that the private instructor is teaching. So equals to lesser time slot for me. And that stupid private instructor always have to go on a holiday! HAHA! I totally change my ambition from a pilot to a driving instructor!! HEHE!
All right. CIAO!
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Thursday, October 22, 2009
/7:42 PM
Oh I am so hating to be alone. This is suppose to be the prime time of my life! Damn I am thinking of all those negatives and its getting the best of me. Amidst all those flashing lights and smoking crowds, sometimes I just don't feel the sense of belonging to this place. I miss the old times when playground was my zouk and street soccer court was my butter factory. Catching was so fucking fun and you can never get bored of it. And it doesn't cost a single dime to play! I don't hate my life now simply because I know if I don't enjoy it now, I'm gonna regret when I turned 60. That's when walking seems to be a chore, let alone shuffling on the dancefloor.
And guess what? I'm thinking of tattoos and stuff now. If 2012 is a hoax, I'm gonna tattoo "Fuck you 2012". Okay maybe not. Until I can think of 'cooler' lines at least.
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Thursday, October 8, 2009
/3:43 AM
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
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Monday, September 21, 2009
/4:48 AM
I will never forget what happened today at my aunt's house. It all started as a normal gathering to celebrate early(x15) Mid Autumn Festival like we usually do. Everyone was pretty happy down there but something was boiling beneath all those fake smiles and laughter. Can you even imaging two 40 plus year old MAN argue to the point that they almost fight physically? And it was about a stupid Taiwan trip whereby that should be a happy occasion! I had never seen my aunt cried ever since my uncle pass away more than 10 years ago. She was crying and begging the both of them to stop arguing and fighting. It hurts me so much that I was on the verge of breaking down as well. I hate to see people cry. I hate to see my love ones cry. It really sucks knowing that you can't do anything to make the situation better. It is almost like tv drama except that it is for real and I hate it to the core. Please don't let it happen again. Let all those drama stay in the tv. No more real live telecast please.
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