2012年7月7日 星期六
2012年7月6日 星期五
Love Locks@ Juliet's House, Verona Italy (emailed to bao 18.06.12 from Italy)
Nice or not this pic? Lolz!! I took myself Lo!! Cos nobody help me take pic.. I should bring u this pro come here & help me take pix.. Lolz! All these love locks placed on a gate which inside Juliet's house at a town named Verona@ Italy... U know Romeo & Juliet? That's Juliet house.. They sold lots of locks.. I bought u a lock! Lolz! Not this small small locks oh! Is the one we used at our house.. Got write Verona.. Very romantic like that! Pls put the lock at our Vipod! That's my 1st thought.. HahaahU
对自己和你宽容些....因为一辈子并不长 :) (emaile to bao on 06.07.12)
I can be ur partner with invest in funds support only.. No names as am a banker..but all under ur name & shares.. Cos I hope u become the major shareholder.. But only YOU & ME KNOW... this is our plan & dream last time.. Time flies...u r almost complete & approach all the dreams.. 很遗憾的我以经不是在我们梦想里的一份子了...每一次, 回想我们一起努力的过程...你还在读书...你join bank..晚上你还要去卖烟...有时半夜三根要去开锁...陪你晚上一起去见顾客...为了陪你打Dota, 我去学..学到自己都上瘾..哈哈! 当你告诉我...你买戒指给我是一个 commitment , 哇噻,记的我很感动的有泪光...告诉自己为了你..我一起和你努力! 也许我是一个不温柔的女友...但是我知道我是一个永远都把你排在第一的女友...我是一个口硬心软的人...我也许不会说好话...因为我以为用心和行动可以让你感受到我的爱...行动比较实际...因为我不是一个表面温柔的女人...但是我相信傻傻的我有时应该都会可爱一点吧... 呵呵! 我像我的妈妈...很loso...很小气...又很爱哭...但是我像她一样可以为了我们很爱的人...不计较辛苦...虽然嘴巴说说...还是会去做...因为看到自己爱的人开心...心里就很幸福了 :)
I still remember the first time we broke was when I was at Aussino & u still at internship..I was so upset.. A night.. Suddenly I received a SMS "come down now".... That was from u!! I was so so happy... Just grab my bag & rush down!! Heheh... I know u owez very like act cool .. Juz like a little kid :)
朋友说我变了...变得安静了...变得更沉默了...变得常常发呆...Mandy & Vanessa 常常骂我...说每一次叫我出去...我都不爱说话... 都是安静的看我的电话...按住我的电话... 因为我每一次都在读文章...都在写我的心情记录...呵呵..妹妹们都说我不再理他们了...我变得没记性了...屋子乱乱的我都没骂她们...不再唠叨她们了...
我只是变得爱和上帝说话...因为只有他理解我...也只有他相信我 :)
我感恩上帝一直那样爱我们....我相信因为有他的眷顾所以我们一步一步走向我们的梦想....我深信每一个事情的发生...都是上帝给我们的考验....我知道他希望我们都会在每个困境中成长....
Hope 1 day.. U will be back to church for your own good! :)
Happy Friday!! <3
Looking forward for my Sunday Service!!
I wrote this email last night... Lolz
Cheers,
Pii
2009年8月22日 星期六
saddest night....
i'm feeling damn terrible....& upset now...that i have again & again...................... hurt bao....
why.....why......why.........i owez jus cant control my temper....i jus too care & mind about what he said about me....yea, i know whatever i have say now...nobody will believe & trust me...the more explanations that i gave,,,,the more bao will hate me....actually i dont meant to said that...i just feeling so hurt when he mentioned that i'm old...it is really hurt me inside....yea..i'm an old lady with bad tempere...no wonder bao also cant stand at me....i nvr meant to do that twd him.....
sometimes i asked myself.....if i really love him...why i wanted to hurt him....i duno...i really duno...BUT...i know that..i nvr meant to make him hurt & sad....
i'm over stress recently over my works.....i wanted to work hard...coz..i myself know the reason to work hard....i dont meant to c him so sad...& tired...
i know....i'm not the one he willing & wish to share & work hard in the future.....but i just wish that at least....i have the chance to work hard together wit him now...i'm really appreciate the chances....i jus wish to share all his happy.....unhappy....stress & everything......
" i know i may not be the one u wish to being together forever in ur life...but i wish that i could be the one beside u...when u needed someone & helpless....even it is only for an hour..."
If you wanna know how much i love u, try to catch rain drops, the ones u miss is how much i love u...
until it flood up my heart & there no more space for other only U......(this quote is owez only for U....now & forever)
i'm thousand sorry for everything......i'm a failure in my life....to treat u bad...even i've really trying hard.....i jus owez lost control...but i never wanted to hurt u....
why.....why......why.........i owez jus cant control my temper....i jus too care & mind about what he said about me....yea, i know whatever i have say now...nobody will believe & trust me...the more explanations that i gave,,,,the more bao will hate me....actually i dont meant to said that...i just feeling so hurt when he mentioned that i'm old...it is really hurt me inside....yea..i'm an old lady with bad tempere...no wonder bao also cant stand at me....i nvr meant to do that twd him.....
sometimes i asked myself.....if i really love him...why i wanted to hurt him....i duno...i really duno...BUT...i know that..i nvr meant to make him hurt & sad....
i'm over stress recently over my works.....i wanted to work hard...coz..i myself know the reason to work hard....i dont meant to c him so sad...& tired...
i know....i'm not the one he willing & wish to share & work hard in the future.....but i just wish that at least....i have the chance to work hard together wit him now...i'm really appreciate the chances....i jus wish to share all his happy.....unhappy....stress & everything......
" i know i may not be the one u wish to being together forever in ur life...but i wish that i could be the one beside u...when u needed someone & helpless....even it is only for an hour..."
If you wanna know how much i love u, try to catch rain drops, the ones u miss is how much i love u...
until it flood up my heart & there no more space for other only U......(this quote is owez only for U....now & forever)
i'm thousand sorry for everything......i'm a failure in my life....to treat u bad...even i've really trying hard.....i jus owez lost control...but i never wanted to hurt u....
2009年8月17日 星期一
happie ....but feeling down.....am i going to live longer?.....
dad & mom cuming 2 KL last Friday...i was so excited! 2day wake up early morning...brought dad & mom to Ikano...dad wanna go popular...books...books...& books forever...forever BOOKS huh! :) then i brought mama go bck hayley baby gal thingy...very happie when shopping with mom...feeling so warm & touch....there is a scenario i feel so hurt & sad...when i saw mama brought those heavy paper bags...i have told her not to carry so heavy things...wait me at the parking...& i can carry all of them...i feeling heart pain when i saw mama carry heavy things with her hand...where i have thought back...she has been holding me when i was child with her hand...now i shud be the one who holding her hand when she is getting older...
2day when chatting wit bao thru msn...i can feel that he was unhappy & down...hoping i can cherish him...but the way he replied...make me feel myself so annoying & extra...how i wish bao cAn shopping 2day wit us....wit mom & dad....so he wun be so lonely at home...i owez feeling bad when i get to know he is unhappy....o down....
i shouldn't care about his feelings so much dy.....i still feeling upset...when i know he is upset.....haiz....i've been caring too much....& i know he never know how much i care for him...even i owez like to tease.....o scold him.....sometimes i jst wanna cover my caring twd him...& hate myself why to care him so much..! as he doesnt even care at all...
feeling bad huh! :~( i know i'm not a good gal .....owez very impatient...& bad temper...sometimes i jus dun like ppl c the real of me....coz my 1st impression for ppl..pii is a tough gal right! :) sometimes i do feeling tired.....& sad....even i owez feeling helpless....
recently....i'm over stress...& i am so much worries about my hair dropping....& worries...am i going to hv blood cancer...i'm so worries after philips told me about the blood thingy...
i'm going to c a doctor soon.....but i'm feeling so timid & afraid....am i going to live longer...i'm asking myself this question every nite these few days...
if 1 day....i'm leaving soon....i think i'm not going to tell anyone...coz i don't want those ppl who love me...sad for me...especially mom...
but i believe that...i will live each day full of happiness....meaningful....& blessingss.....
if 1 day i leave....will bao sad? ummm....maybe he feel release without my existing.....coz i had brought him so much terrible memories....hehehe...
i love........ .... :)
"if i die before you then my love will linger forever around you..& when you change your mind, and wish to be with me, i will greet you at heaven's gate with the same love and the same loving arms we knew in life"....
2day when chatting wit bao thru msn...i can feel that he was unhappy & down...hoping i can cherish him...but the way he replied...make me feel myself so annoying & extra...how i wish bao cAn shopping 2day wit us....wit mom & dad....so he wun be so lonely at home...i owez feeling bad when i get to know he is unhappy....o down....
i shouldn't care about his feelings so much dy.....i still feeling upset...when i know he is upset.....haiz....i've been caring too much....& i know he never know how much i care for him...even i owez like to tease.....o scold him.....sometimes i jst wanna cover my caring twd him...& hate myself why to care him so much..! as he doesnt even care at all...
feeling bad huh! :~( i know i'm not a good gal .....owez very impatient...& bad temper...sometimes i jus dun like ppl c the real of me....coz my 1st impression for ppl..pii is a tough gal right! :) sometimes i do feeling tired.....& sad....even i owez feeling helpless....
recently....i'm over stress...& i am so much worries about my hair dropping....& worries...am i going to hv blood cancer...i'm so worries after philips told me about the blood thingy...
i'm going to c a doctor soon.....but i'm feeling so timid & afraid....am i going to live longer...i'm asking myself this question every nite these few days...
if 1 day....i'm leaving soon....i think i'm not going to tell anyone...coz i don't want those ppl who love me...sad for me...especially mom...
but i believe that...i will live each day full of happiness....meaningful....& blessingss.....
if 1 day i leave....will bao sad? ummm....maybe he feel release without my existing.....coz i had brought him so much terrible memories....hehehe...
i love........ .... :)
"if i die before you then my love will linger forever around you..& when you change your mind, and wish to be with me, i will greet you at heaven's gate with the same love and the same loving arms we knew in life"....
another touching quote i luv! :)
pii [17 Aug 09]
2009年5月7日 星期四
our last trip - Bali trip
finally, we still go for our last trip - Bali. It is a 4 days 3 night trip from 29 Apr - 2 May 2009....at 1st, i was thought bao will last min ffk pii again...coz his 'slut' will never let him go with me...frankly speaking, i never expect he will goes with me...coz i know for him...am jst one of his 'frens' ...i hv plan to go myself if he can't make it...it was a big suprised that he really did make it! i hv to admit that inside my heart...i feel so 'touched' of it...at last, he keep his promise to me....its a long long long times that he never keep his promises twd me...i know after the trip...he wans me to forget about him as he sms me on 7 Apr...haiz..i am trying so hard to do it...i'm trying..trying..trying..trying....i wanted to b cruel twd him....but i owez soft hearted when everytimes i c his innocent face..i'm useless right? i know that this guy has betrayed me...& hurt me deeply coz of a slut...he has choose to leave me.....
i dont know when can i get out from this hurt & pain....i feel so pain when everytime i think of how cruel he treated me on 14 Feb...enjoying tiramisu cake wif slut at Alexis..yet..i was driving alone crazy on the road...lost my directions...& non stop crying inside d car.....my feelings were so so so down.....& my heart was broken...i jst like an idiot....my bf was having fun with his new gf the next day we broke off....& i was like a mad woman...driving alone...& crying non stop...am i really not worth for his love? why he wanted to treat me like that....? sometimes i asked myself...is it becuz i never try my best to work out our relationship? no...i did...i treat & love him sincerely from my heart....mayb jst like vanessa said..he doesnt love me as i did :(
i knew he had arguement with slut the night b4 we go to Bali...but i wun care so much!! i tell myself...i shouldn't care so much about other's feelings...coz who is going 2 care about my feelings? when they both were hang out together & having fun....does they ever thought about how's my feelings? i was like an idiot....waiting for him until morning....
i'm seriously tired of this king of feelings...waiting...waiting...waiting for him to come back...sometimes i asked myself...why? why i love him so much.....is he worth for my love? i don't know....i have lost my directions & myself....i'm feeling blur these few months...i hv become more emotional & unstable....i know i shouldn't act in such way...but i cant control myself...sometimes i blame....i blame why god treat me like that....why he can't give me my blessings....why shub i deserve for all these...when i really did nothing wrong at all....
eMail to bao [dated 20.2.09]
你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？
喜歡和愛咫尺千里。當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己； i owez have this kind of feelings.. :)離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'...same feelings! ..hehe然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。dare not think so much...你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。u owez looks like cute baby for me..hehe..sometimes bodoh bodoh experessions...你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。owez curi curi c ur sleeping face, when i'm awake,,, then ^_^你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，very scare u even angry me..when i offended u..so i owez keep quite...scare u feel annoying...一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。owez feel bad & soft hearted when i c ur sadness expressions...& feeling xin fu even feel hurt...*crazy*!!!你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，Hmm...never oh..但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，only you...就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。ha..yeap! owez try to ignore your weakness & accept everthing of u :)喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！yea..owez feel homey & feeling to rush home & c u after work! coz every of my stress & unhappiness will gone when i c ur face...i owez feeling 'home' to c u..is tired 2 luv someone...but its worth for me at least :)
Ooiii....don't think i'm stupid or wat la...ok? just want to share you my true feelings
happIe oWez... & take good care urself! Don't owez make me (ur mommy) worry u oh! HUgs!
喜歡和愛咫尺千里。當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己； i owez have this kind of feelings.. :)離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'...same feelings! ..hehe然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。dare not think so much...你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。u owez looks like cute baby for me..hehe..sometimes bodoh bodoh experessions...你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。owez curi curi c ur sleeping face, when i'm awake,,, then ^_^你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，very scare u even angry me..when i offended u..so i owez keep quite...scare u feel annoying...一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。owez feel bad & soft hearted when i c ur sadness expressions...& feeling xin fu even feel hurt...*crazy*!!!你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，Hmm...never oh..但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，only you...就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。ha..yeap! owez try to ignore your weakness & accept everthing of u :)喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！yea..owez feel homey & feeling to rush home & c u after work! coz every of my stress & unhappiness will gone when i c ur face...i owez feeling 'home' to c u..is tired 2 luv someone...but its worth for me at least :)
Ooiii....don't think i'm stupid or wat la...ok? just want to share you my true feelings
happIe oWez... & take good care urself! Don't owez make me (ur mommy) worry u oh! HUgs!
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