I so feel like Moses!

I am so excited that I HAVE TO share this with you!
God has been so wonderful and amazing!

Throughout the years, God has been telling me my revival begins with the Word.
I know that clearly. But somehow, I lack discipline to read bible every day. And nowadays, I decide to re-read my bible starting from Genesis. And as I move forth to Exodus, amazing things happen!
I feel like I am the female Moses in this century!

You know, Exodus begins with Moses and the burning bush. It talks about how God wants to use Moses even though Moses feel so inadequate. I was feeling like Moses too, very inadequate in serving Him. Then God sent Pastor Hock Chye to pray for me during a prayer meet.
He says "God wants to use you!"
I said "AMEN!"
And I thank God that He gave me opportunities to lead worship in GDOP, One Love Awakening, Youth Sunday, and now I can even serve in Korea! Remember Junhui hoped the youths will all have a burning-bush experience.
And, God, I had it!

Then when I reading about Moses leading the Israelites out of Egypt, the Israelites complained about no food, no water, and even blamed Moses. And all Moses did was to obey God! How unfair is this? And you know what! God made me experience this just 2 days ago!

There is this Module Preference Exercise in NUS, which you can get your modules for free, if they allow. I missed this totally in my Year 1, so I told myself that I will not miss it for the rest of my years! For people who know, it is a torture to miss this, because you will have to "fight" a "war" against hundreds of people for every module without that.

So this year, I waited for my friend to confirm with me a module, since she said she wants to take it with me. So, I reminded her many times before the dateline and she said she will get back to me. BUT when I accessed the exercise on Wed night, to my utmost horror, I dropped my jaw when I saw "NOTE: Module Preference Exercise is closed." I was like "GOD!!! WHY!" Then I was reminded that my friend might have missed the dateline too. But (aw!) she did it already, and she forgottened to tell me. I was so devastated! I was asking God, why did He place me in this situation when all I did was to be nice?! Why did I have to face this just before I'm going Korea? I was on the verge of breaking down and nothing can seem to applease me.

Then I heard a voice calling me to praise Him. "God, are you kidding me?" I was reading a book titled "Extravagant worship", I stopped at the story of David. When all the kings decide to stir a war against him, instead of gathering his armies, he used praise as weapon! So I began to praise and sing to Him, but it was really the Spirit in me that was singing, it was very hard for me to ignore what is in front of me. But I really thank God because I really never have any misgiving against my friend. If not, that would have broken out friendship.

So, the next day. I was still very upset, but God sent me a very timely and apt online devotion. After I read, I was like "Oh God! What are you doing to my life?" The devotion was titled "How God builds your faith: difficulties" (attached below). I was so comforted by God because I know He clearly understands!

He is turning my sorrow into joy!
He is turning my dissapointment into hope!
It's a 180 degree emotional flip!

I am so excited about what God is doing in my life now!
I can really experience what Moses was feeling then.
How exciting it is to walk with the Lord, in both good and bad times.

I want to encourage all of you, when you feel that u're deeply rooted in the bottom of the deepest pit, God can fire you up like a firework, making you sing explosive praise to Him.

Thank you, Lord! =)

O God, Why??!!

O God! Why?!?!?!




Please be my deliverer in times of agony
Please take all my disappointment away
Please help me see a glimpse of hope in darkness



I will praise you in all of my days, be it good or bad.
Lord, Your grace will be sufficient for me.

I trust.
totally.