I'm so addicted

to Jelly!

Here's Jelly!


He's my dearest pet in "Pet Society" of facebook.
Oh I'm so addicted to him.
He's my only worry throughout my whole exam period.
And now, when all exams are over, "Jelly! Mummy's back!"

You know you can race him in the stadium and make him jump over the hundles.
And he'll have flies all over him if I don't bath him too often.
He'll just fall asleep if he gets tired.
And he smiles!

I have to see him like every day!
Gosh! I think I am so addicted to Jelly!

Lights off!

It was so timely!
Just a few minutes ago, the bulb of my room just kept blinking and blinking, and then proof(!), it's gone!

Thank God that this happens just 1 day after my exam!
Woo!
Yes! My torturous exams are over!!!

I couldn't help but recall how many friends I've spoken to who totally agree that Uni is so much harder.
While I was struggling during my A's, the many older generations totally convinced me that uni is really a breeze. But oh man! It's like a tsunami! It's totally chaotic and tense throughout the whole semester. Never a chance to let yourself loose, you know, have some really good fun.
Not saying that they bluff me, but perhaps things change.

The education system is really stretching my limits.
Thank God I have God!
And congrats, Connie, Jasmine, Zhenhua and Chuanyan for completing your exams just today!
And Cindy's just tomorrow~!

Decision Making

Try doing these 2 questions below!

Question 1
Assume yourself richer by $300 than you are today.
Which of the following options do you choose?
A: A sure gain of $100
B: 50% chance of gaining $200, 50% chance to gain $0

Question 2
Assume yourself richer by $500 than you are today.
Which of the following options do you choose?
A: A sure loss of $100
B: 50% chance of losing $0, 50% chance to lose $200

You might wonder where did I get these random questions. I study them! Got this from my text & lecture note.
Prospect theory: The amount of joy when you gain $100 is lesser than the amount of sadness when losing $100

In question 1 & 2,
if you choose Option A, it is a less risky decision. (Risk Aversion)
if you choose Option B, it is a more risky decision. (Risk Seeking)
Are you the Risk Aversion type or Risk Seeking type?

Most of the people will choose Option A (in Qn1) & Option B (in Qn 2).
The rational is this, "if I'm gonna lose anyway, why not gamble my loss? I might be that lucky lass to not lose anything!"

But if you realise also, for both questions, if you pick Option A, you'll surely get $400.

Actually life is like a gamble. Sometimes you'll have to 'bet' on something and make a decision weighing the pros and cons. But I know my life is in control because I have a higher Power taking care of me.

3 Cheers for God!

Stop cyber bullying!

One of my coursemates played this during tutorial.

And it just made me cry. Aww...

And I really admire the father for his graciousness. Beyond words.

I should really thank God

Hee. Okie, I decide not to be lazy and write something on my "dusty" blog.
I feel so relieve and joyful nowadays that I basically skipped and hummed to school every day or just passed my day with a joyful song!
Life is really good...
especially after my hectic week.
Imagine me doing 1 project, 1 presentation, 1 assignment & prepare for 3 mid-term tests, best of all, complete all in 1 week, which is 7 days and 24x7 hours.

Awww... I really thank God for pulling me through. :)
Oh thank you LORD!

I wanna really thank God for today's teens teaching about worship too!
I feel no fear! And surprisingly I wasn't nervous on "stage". (Well, I realise I might maybe have stage fright.)

When we were practicing how to worship, with hands raised and beautiful voices heard, I suddenly felt so touched! It was like the first time I saw all the teens worship like that! And I totally believe God love that moment & the way they worship at that time! It was more than awesome! It was beautiful!
You know, every time when I'm on stage and I see people worship with their hearts, I'd give thanks for each and every one of them. And I'll be so moved by their act of worship.

I really wish that people can have more breakthroughs and be more bold in expressing themselves during worship. Myself included. :)

Do you know?
Greek word for worship = proskyneo = "to kiss"
Muack muackZ!
The video on "boy kisses girl" below is an illustration.

muack muack & HK piggy

A simple wish...

I want to meet rebels...

Should I "guitar"?

If I have time that I used to have, I would surely pick up guitar again.
It's kinda contradictory, you know. Or maybe it's just women.
Or maybe it's just me.

Every time I have this urge to "guitar" again, I would be determined (ok, for maybe 5 mins).
The intensity of my determination is great. But it doesn't last.

Now I wonder, if I can rewind time and go back to my primary school days.
Instead of moving house (well, I moved like almost 10 times until now), or staring at the black old dusty tv, or playing catching along the corridor & climbing pipes with my neighbours, maybe I'd learn to play guitar... provided that someone actually introduced me to guitar.

Or perhaps, i'll be crying for my mama, when I see the guitar, cuz it looks like a big crocodile.
I dunno. Some times, when I look at the guitar, I just find it a resemblance to crocodile.

Don't you think so?

fascinated

站在交通灯旁的我，
专注的眼神，
凝视着身旁的一些外国劳工在移动一架庞大的机器上一辆lorry。
不知为何我的目光完全的被他们夺走。
连红灯转绿了，我也不晓得。
迎面而来的路人都用奇异的眼神看着我，
我好paisei哦！

人生的小插曲，值得一提，值得一blog.
haha!

i dunno

Why am I blogging when I have so many things to do?
I also don't understand.
Sometimes I just have dozen of things that I feel I won't be able to understand.
Or should I even attempt to understand?

Oh I sound like the Taiwan comic artist Jimmy now.
His works are always filled with a tint of sadness nowadays.
Did something happen to him?
I remember him writing about happy things in his first few books.
But, now, no more.

“大树人越长越高，
有一天他会高过一间小房子，
高过一栋小楼房，
高过一座小山。
但是他的心永远停留在
小时候听莫扎特时那个幸福的时刻。”
--几米 《失乐园：寂寞上场了》

The 10 commandments of wedlock

We're getting....

nah... Not married. Haha!

I saw this "10 commandments" at her place and find it funny, but also something not to be taken seriously.

1. Marriages are made in heaven. But so are thunder and lightning.
2. If you want your wife to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say, talk in your sleep.
3. Marriage is grand - and divorce is at least 100 grand!
4. Married life is very frustrating. In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens. In the third year, they both speak and the neighbours listen.
5. When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing. Either the car is new or the wife is.
6. Marriage is when a man and woman becomes as one. The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.
7. Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about something you say. After marriage, he will fall asleep before you finish.
8. Every man wants a wife who is beautiful, understanding, economical, and a good cook. But the law allows only one wife.
9. Marriage and love are purely matters of chemistry. That is why a husband thinks that his wife is sweet before marriage and sour after.
10. A man is incomplete until he is married. After that, he is finished.

Genting fun!

I went to Genting last week with some really interesting people!

Animal Sounds

Today's devotional is beautiful...

Never Say Amen

by Jon Walker

Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping.

“Could you men not keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter.

Matthew 26:40 (NIV)

*** *** *** ***

Today’s guest devotional is provided by Jon Walker

–Read this devotional as a prayer:

Help me, Lord, to develop a strong prayer life.

I know you desire intimacy with me, and you want me to watch with you and pray

(Matthew 26:40).

Yet, I never seem to find the time to pray in a deep, fervent, consistent, persistent way.

What draws me to my knees the most is when I have a problem, when I want something from you, when I need your help.

I’m flipping through my calendar, stressing with commitments, and you just want to hang out – with me.

Help me turn my prayers into conversations with you that keep flowing throughout the day, an on-going communication where I never say “Amen.”

Keep me close to you, no matter what it takes.

I’m not sure I really want to pray that;

I have bruises and scars from “whatever it takes” discipleship,

but, then again, I confess the crush of these moments have taught me to throw myself on the stone before the stone falls on me.

And that has moved me closer to the love that compels my obedience, closer to becoming one with your heart.

So, I’m asking that you change me until my deepest want is to be with you.

With this I pray that you will create me worthy of my calling and that your power will fulfill every good purpose you plan for me and energize everything I do in faith.

My prayer is that your life will emerge in my face and in my hands, in my thoughts and in my words. I know your grace will make it so (paraphrase of 2 Thessalonians 1:11-12, NIV).

© 2008 Purpose Driven Life. All rights reserved.

101 things to give thanks for!

1. bo.ga.me ran so smoothly and I totally enjoyed myself
2. Leading worship with Kelly on 24Aug was so good
3. I got a 3-day week and my free days are on Mondays and Tuesdays (Super long weekend!)
4. I got all the modules that I want! (Abnormal Psychology, Statistics 1, Developmental Psychology, Cognitive Psychology and Singapore Society)
5. My tuition kids, Andrew and Nellis did really well for their CA2 (Band2 and A2!)
6. I met Weiying for lunch on last Wed!
7. I met Luoh Yiing (sec sch friend), Kyaw Kyaw (1st 3 mths SAJC friend) and Jin Wen (SRJC friend)! And they all know each other in army and signed on tgt and study Mechanical Engineering tgt! The world is so small!
8. God gave me strength even though I slept like 2-3am every night.
9. I have started my readings and is halfway through...
10. I just found out that my primary school friend, K Loun is a Christian!
11. My friendship with Yinghui is better and better
12. I am going Genting on 5Sept!
13. God is speaking to me, and I am listening.
14. I ate my favourite MOF on 31Aug!
15. I finished one of my assignments!
16. My primary school friends came for bo.ga.me!
17. I am sick but God give me money to see a doctor!

18. Junming is coming to school with me on 5Sept!
and etcertera

And if I manage to recover from this illness, that'll be another TG!

I have been having fever for 4days since friday night. There's muscle ache, fatigue, feeling of vomiting and etc. Thank God there is no rash.

I went to see the doc today and he suspects that it might be Chikungunya Fever (a new mosquito transmitted illness sth like dengue). So he drew my blood for a blood test. It was so scary! He poked the needle in, it felt like an intense pinch, then he twisted it around cuz there was no blood flowing out. So he twisted again and again until the dark red concentrated liquid flows out. Wooo... Scary.

So I've got to wait for the blood test before I know if it's Dengue or Chikungunya or just my body being rebellious at times.

God bless me!

Good-o-meter

Chomp Chomp

Last week, rebels & I went to Chomp Chomp & Ice3!
Super good food... Yum yum...


the tissue men.
look at the fried kway tiao...

+ samba stringray + hokkien mee + sugarcane drinks + chicken wings + carrot cake + waffles with double indulgence ice cream, chocolate with marshmellow ice cream, brownies crepe with green tea ice cream. Topping up with a packed mango beancurb home.

I can still taste the food in my mouth. Best!
It's a little teeny bit sinful but I dun care. haha.

Goodies Suprise!!!

It's such a fantastic day!!!

I was lugging my 1TON old textbooks (actually there's only 3, but they weigh a ton) to school to sell. Protect the environment - move 1.
After abandoning them, I feel so much lighter. :)
So happy.

While going to my next lecture, I was surprised by someone who sprang up in front of me. And she surprised me the 2nd time with a quick qn "DoYouWantAComplimentaryCoffee?" I was stunned for a while before I composed myself and say "Oh! Yes!" Then she babbled something really fast again like
"IsThisCoffeeMadeOf100%BrazilianBeans?" (pointing to a can of coffee she was holding)
"Hmm.. Oh yes."
"HereYouGo!"
"Oh. Thank you."
haha! I'm quite impress with myself that I reacted so fast. Yinghui was still caught in a daze at that time. Then I nudged Yinghui prompting her to get 1 too. Yea, and that's how we got 2 FREE cans of 100% Brazilian Beans Coffee!!! Yeah, coffee makes me awake!

Then after lecture, we saw so many people getting GOODY BAGS!!!
And I WANT IT! So we got 2! Woo!
It was full of vouchers, titbits, magazines and freebies inside.
haha! Gifts from Heaven. And I got another FREE can of Red Bull as well.
That'll keep me awake for my next lecture.

Today is a GOODY day!
I love schooling...

And you know what?!
I'm gonna buy an almost $200+++ of texts just for this sem!!!
(That's besides the notes printing...)
How am I gonna get the money...
"He will call upon Me, and I will answer him." Psalm 91:15
God, may You grant me the bursary for the books.

Being back...

feels so good!
Oh yea... Finally I'm back to school!
I was like late for my first lecture today. All because the bus driver went for a toilet break halfway through the ride. Nah, ok. I should have woke up earlier too. hee. But thank God that lecture just started the moment I stepped in, though I was 20 mins late.

Oh yes! I wanna so thank God!
I got a 3-days week!
But I must wait for the balloting results before all is confirm.
But still thank God!
I don't have to change my tuition sessions and I can go for prayer meetings, meet-the-pastor sessions and worship practices! Woo! That's cool, huh.

God has been really gracious to me. I guess God has been nagged by my prayers cum complains that the bidding period became so smooth-sailing. There were certain changes to my initial plan but ultiamtely I realise, it's not my idea of what I want God to do for me, but rather, God's idea of what God want to do for me.

10 things I did in my holidays

Holidays! Yeah!
I simply love holidays!
Who doesnt?!

Well, now, when my 3 months long holidays is coming to an end. And while everybody thought I was doing basically nothing and enjoying a Tai Tai life. Well, that's not completely wrong but I did some constructive things. okie...

8th May - my last paper!

01
And for the rest of May, I was frantically preparing RYM camp.
See See! (below) Evidence!
Haha! Seems like our own outing instead right?
But no, it's hours and days of hardcore manual work!


02
And not to mention, I was leading worship for almost every week.
Aiya, a lot of times la.
The hours of preparation: 10+
The experience and r/s with God: priceless

03
And of course, there was Rebels Chalet!
Woo! So much fun with the water balloons.
And poor birthday girl, Weiying was blindfolded and bombed.

04
And July, I was spring-cleaning my house.
Throwing away tons of things and spraying KIWI Kleen all over.
It's tedious...

05
And the bo.ga.me meetings are always on.
And bo.ga.me homework is always In Process.

06
And I caught up with my dear Rebels as well.
We went for Gelato, I went to Rach's house, PLL came over to my house for a Happie Day Get-together, BBQ at Rach's house, etc.
So happy, just like we were back to our secondary sch days.
I havent been joining them for many many many many many Saturday Outings.



07
My JC friends Kboxing too! I really haven't see them since 2 years ago?
Yea! We went to TopOne. It was rather good.

Miss those days.

08
易中天品三国
Heard of 百家论坛? Yea, this is it.
I'm so interested in San Guo now, and I've been spending my rest of the days to watch this. Very detailed and clear analysis.
Maybe I should take up Chinese History? Haha!

09
On 4Aug, I spent this memorable day with a handsome birthday boy. Or rather birthday man. :)

10
Books.
I can say that it's a dream come true for me.
I have been wanting to read books at my own timing.
And here it is!
I read "Tuesdays with Morrie", "Five people I meet in Heaven", "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus", "Boundaries in Dating", etc.

Good holidays, I should say.
But it's a bit too long.
Dying to go back to school...

主你永远与我同在

危难临到 我信靠你
深知你必领我度过
你信实 为我坚持 到最后

当暴风雨向我靠近
有你同在我不至畏惧
你是我的牧者 我所倚靠

每个夜 每一天
我知你永远在身边

主你永远与我同在
在你里面没有改变
你的坚定 从昨日到今日
一直到永远

靠你丰盛应许站立
我的未来在你手中
坚固磐石 全能真神
我敬拜你

其实有时候不知不觉，歌词里的某一句或某一个词会深处我心，特别的感动了我。其实最近我的属灵状况不是很好。总觉得主离我好远好远。
你真的存在吗？

这首歌的其中一句却感动了我。让我有一个新的看见。
“在你里面没有改变”
无论我觉得主你离我有多远，我似乎已经感觉不到你的同在了，但是你藉着歌词告诉我“主你永远与我同在，在你里面没有改变”。可能我觉得我与你的关系改变了，我感觉不到你。但是在你里面，一切一如往常，我始终是你的孩子，而你也永永远远的在我身边。即使可能我远离了你，但你却从不远离我。

其实变的人总是我，
不是你。

Basketball junket

I was somehow reminded of Thomas's post about the Sunrise when me and my boyfriend, Junming went on a basketball junket last night.

We were so excited about playing basketball after eating an inexpensive and sumptuous dinner, Rojak and my favourite Hokkien Mee. After which, we went to buy an air pump. Weather was good and everything else was good. On our way to the court, JM told me that sometimes the people will kick soccer instead of playing basketball at the bball court. And true indeed, there was the sound of ball-ground collision, but there wasnt any ball flying in the air above the 2m wall.

So we decided to move on to the Blk 3 bball court, just hoping for a loop unused by those competitive players. Haha! On our way there, I did something so embarrassing, which I better not mention. To our horror, both sides of the court were used! Aww... So we sat there and watched them play. It was like watching a free show.

In the end, we walked back with a basketball in one hand and a 100plus in another. It seems like we've played, but we hasnt. On our way back, the previously transformed-soccer bball court was back to its normal peace but the court lights were off, only left with some nearby street lights. We barged in! Bounced a little, jumped a little, "chop" a little and we were bathed in sweat and in fulfillment. :)

Well, ultimately it's the company that matters.

Laughing Baby!

I just can't stop laughing!

Interesting Videos

These are some interesting videos recommended by Alvin.

I had much so much fun watching at them!

1. Granny Vs Mercedes

The guys wanted to film their skateboard stuns but they chance upon something funny!

The granny is seriously so cool! Look at the air bag!

2. Me Singing A Whole New World Disney's Aladdin Nick Pitera

He's amazing. You'll be amazed with what you can hear!


3. Charlie bit my finger-Again!
Click HERE, it doesn't allow me to embed. :)

4. Beijing Welcome You [MV] 2008 Olympic Game 北京歡迎妳

Can you count the number of singers singing this?

And yea. From Singapore, we have Sun Yanzi, Ah Du & Lin Jun Jie.

5. Give me the evil look

I like this the best! haha!

what is torturous?!

What else can be compared to the grueling bidding system?
The agony of planning timetable again and again, just because there isn't enough points to outbid others.
But it's quite a brilliant way to train one's flexibility & spontanous planning skill.

I'm gonna getcha, modules!
Abnormal Psy, Devt Psy, Cognitive Psy and SSA, beware!
Aww... I need tons of prayers!
God! I wanna trust in You!

Patience... Be gentle in spirit... Pray!!!


Btw, that's Opis (Octopus) with shoes. :)

Growing up...

Facebook really helps me to keep up with my old friends. Even if I didn't get to see them face to face, at least I see their photos. I could barely recognise some of them. Through the years, many have changed so much. I wonder if they know I'm peeping at them. Or perhaps I'm being peeped right now! haha!

The magic of technology. Reminds me of one of the grueling GP essays I have to write. haha! Actually, many of my friends have become prettier and more handsome. I see many of them going to the clubs and wearing pretty clothes. Then I look at myself. hmmm... Seems like I didn't really change much. Maybe minus the two long plaits. :)

But I still miss those times when we had ugly hair styles. haha! We used to play catching at the back of the stage before the old BPS was taken away. And we played hop-scotch and crocodile and I miss the plain noodles with chilli and fishballs! Woo. Primary school food is like the best to me.

Well, I'm growing up. I love growing up and looking back at those fond memories. It's just a nice feeling.

Red Cliff - A John Woo movie

I've just caught the Red Cliff Part 1 movie. It leaves me some afterthoughts.
Above is the trailer of Red Cliff, I guess it includes some of the Part 2 elements.

I wasn't really that interested in the Three Kingdoms initially, and I couldn't understand why Junming loves the story so much. He'd tell me some famous phrases that illustrate the happenings of the story and etc. I shall not elaborate more because I really can't remember much of the phrases now. haha!

But after this movie, I'm setting my heart to comprehending the "chim-inology" of the Three Kingdoms. The reason for my urge to watch this really bloody and manly show is because of Tony Leung, my idol. haha! Not that I'm superficial but his charm is irresistable. Moreover, it's a John Woo movie and there are so many good actors, I just can't believe how bad it'll get. So, I'm for the good actors, especially Tony Leung! haha!

Things that I like about the movie:
1. Tony Leung as Zhou Yu, someone who has courage & wit. I mean I like the way he protrays Zhou Yu. A man of charm and humour. Well, supposedly, it was Chow Yun-Fat to take the role but since it's my idol now, it's even better.
2. I like their war scenes. Finally for one show I know who is fighting who! Their moves were nicely planned. And they had brilliant tactics thought by the infamous Zhu Ge Liang!
3. I like it when Guan Yu emerged and randomly threw his spear, which hit one soldier. After which, he grabbed hold of another soldier's spear and poke the soldier behind him. Then he took the poor victim's spear and poke yet another man, and then grab another soldier's spear and poke another, and...
He's like playing a snatch-and-poke game.


An amusing thing happen halfway through I watch the movie.
Suddenly, when it comes to Zhou Yu and others meeting Liu Bei, the screen was suddenly blank and a soft background music sounded. Everybody was shocked. I thought that was the end of my $10 movie! haha!
So there was an error made by the control people. But when the screen is up again, it wasn't any better. There was no audio from the movie and the soft music was still playing. When a dancer was shown dancing in front of Cao Cao, the music of "Beauty and the Beast" started to play and haha! the whole cinema broke into laughter!
But not too bad, I've got a complimentary pass now. haha!

my baby cousin

Huixin is so adorable!
Now she knows how to 'twist' when she takes pictures,
she knows her ABCs,
she knows how to fit those jig-saw puzzles,
she knows how to choose her diapers' colours,
she knows how to avoid '辣辣' (spicy) food,
she knows how to bully my brother and take away his computer chair,
she knows how to order people around...

haha. Such a naughty yet adorable imp.
Sometimes I really dunno whether I should be angry with her or to laugh at her.

Kids are just so lovable.

hope

I've just finished watching a HK drama series - 识法代言人

When I first started chasing after every episode, I secretly wish that I can finish watching the whole series quickly. I'd watch one esp after another with enthusiasm.

But now, after all the efforts, I am gald to announce that I have come to the end of this drama.
But somehow, ironically, I just feel a teeny bit of disappointment.

I often get this kind of disappointment especially when it comes to good books or good movies or good drama series. There seems to be a kind of emptiness within me when I come to the end of the stories. Is it because there is no more continunity of the story? I think so.

We always need something to look forward to. Something that gives us hope.

It reminds me of my serving as a worship leader.
When I first started, I am so on 'fire'. I want to serve as often as possible.
But after many episodes of serving, I feel like I'm coming to the end of the story.
But the truth is no, there's a continuity. And in fact, that's that that makes me tired.
What I lack is hope and passion. With these, I'm sure I can do better.

Worship leading...

"We, worship leaders, are just signposts to point people to God, in both good times and bad."

-Daniel Seet, 13/2/07

Being a Worship Leader is full of challenge.

To serve with passion, to serve with influence and to serve with power.

Recently, it hasn't been smooth-sailing for me.

The weight of worship leading has been heavy on me, so much that I get tired of leading.

Whenever I'm choosing songs, my mind becomes blank.

I realise I'm running on my reserve, not from the Source of Power.

Thank God that He persisted and never give up on me. :)

Lord will bless me in this Youth Sunday's worship!

But all is not too bad. The various times that I led, despite the process behind every worship leading, the results turn out to be good. Miraculously! God will never allow His worship to be a failure. :) Good, as in people are worshiping.

The best is still ahead!
每一个必须得胜的战场，就是我们的心。

I will soar victoriously!

YES! :)

今天的提醒

上帝放在你心中最美丽的旋律，就是赞美。

Post-camp post

Recalling about the camp, I really have much after-thoughts about it.
This is my first time participating a camp as a committee.
It really wasn't easy organising one. In fact, it is more than tedious.
It requires a very detailed plan of the whole 4days 3nights activities.
Even as I'm planning the murderer game with Sihui and Huilin, the details of the story are unfathomable.

I'm in charged of the budget for this camp. And I'm so afraid of have deficit in my cash on hand.
So I prayed very hard. Trust me, I really prayed so hard. haha! I dun wanna fork out money from my own pocket or let any money disapear without any reason.
But God is a gracious God! He really works miracles! Or rather did I pray too hard?
There was excess in my cash on hand! And it's not a small sum. I double-checked and re-verified, but there was just excess! Oh man! God is fabulous! :)

As for Rakkaus, I really have nothing to say!
I wasn't able to participate and stay with my family most of the time.
I tried my best to stay with them, know the new friends and really have fun with them.
But it was hard. It really is easier to have more fellowship with the rest as a participant. :)

i was really worried about Rakkaus. The team dynamics of theirs, whether they were able to enjoy the games and whether they feel comfortable in the group. But thank God, in the end, I see everyone enjoying themselves. And we even emerged as the champion! That was really unexpected! (even to me, when i was calculating the points!)

But still, Rock on Rakkaus!


A family protrait of the piggy Rakkaus!

Rakkaus seriously at work... on our beautiful flag!

Post exam activities!

Woo! Finally after those grueling days of studying and stressing myself, I'm all set for the holidays ahead! It's gonna be a great holiday because I am not intending to get a job! haha!

1. First thing on my mind, I'm all geared to planning Renewal's bo.ga.me! (board games day) and our church camp! I'm getting really excited for these events and it will be really fun planning them! :)

2. Time to get rid of some resistant fats... I miss swimming & jogging. I'm not really good in either, but it's just the satisfactory that I get after indulging in some healthy activities. And of cuz imagining that I'm a tiny bit lighter. haha! Well well, actually I just like being sweaty at times.

3. Oh yea, spring cleaning. 'Our house is like a garbage house!' That's what my grandma says every time. And I seriously think it's true. So I have decided! I am determine to clean up my house, keep it neat and tidy. I spent my 3 whole days of my previous week, concentrating on cleaning up just ONE bedroom. And guess what?! I threw away like 3 big bags of rubbish! Imagine, one big bag is as big as the black garbage bag that we always see in those rectangular big rubbish bin. Incredible! :O haha! So this week, it's time for my own room before I move on to the living room, the (AWWW!) kitchen, the toilet and bathroom! I think that will certainly keep me occupied for another month...

4. Of cuz, I love spending time at home. Once on a bus with WenQi, I was commenting on how similar his siblings are to him. And he said something which sounds intelligent to me. "It's more fun to have a noisier home." What he meant wasn't that quarrelling/chaotic noise but the talking, laughing, poking each other kinda noise. I would certainly agree with him. My family the kind that we'll talk and talk (a lot!). haha! But i love it especially when i'm not having exams. I would talk to my bro, tease him and play along with him, chat with my mum about anything, and we'll all laugh at my little toddler cousin when she does interesting things. A kid certainly liven up everything in a family. :)

5. More time to just r.e.l.a.x...

:) God is good, always. pre-exam period, exam period, post-exam period... always...

The Lord is my strength, my refuge and my source of joy...

Counting my blessings

The most effective way to happiness is to count your blessings.
Thank God...

1. I live in the middle of the buzzling city.
All the convenience and hustle-free moments, how can i forget?
I can walk to Cathay and catch a movie in the middle of the night; I can fulfil my urge of shopping just in 5 minutes at Bugis Junction; I can cross the road to SimLim and get my printer inks; etc.

2. I live in a 3-room flat with so many people!
That makes us talk to each other and spend time with each other more. Love it when all of us sit tgt and get amused by our baby cousin.

3. I have all I need
I don't have a lot of money, but by God's grace, I have my laptop, my clothes, my sleeping place, my own table and many more. I am fully fed and was never starved. I can enjoy many outings without much difficulties.

4. I have a bunch of heart-to-heart best buddies, which are REBELS!
Known them since Sec1, and never want to get out of this fun and heart-warming group of friends. They never fail to invite me to outings even after receiving tons of my decline due to church. Whenever we meet, we always have never ending stuff to talk about. They will understand my problems and sms me now and then to comfort me and encourage me. And I know if I ever need a friend, I can have 9 of them to rely on. :) rebels rocks!

5. Of course, my lovely boyfriend.
He looks rather fierce and is bad-tempered at times, but if you look beyond all that, he is actually a very gentle guy. His fantastic points: good sense of direction, understanding, spontaneity, fun-loveliness, good planning, sensitivity and etc. Often we spend time together, reminiscence about our childhood and doing things that we like. For example, going to the arcade as if we are little children, sitting in a cafe and reading our own books, shopping in a supermarket, eating deserts behind Bugis Junction, me riding on his bike and going to many places, etc.

6. my beautiful teens cell.
I still remember the first time I met all of them. I really didn't know what to do because I was still so lost getting back from Shui. They were not exactly gelled tgt very well at that time. Sharing time was hard. But gradually, I begin to feel for the cell, to start praying fervently for them. And I see changes happening. Little by little, hurdle by hurdle, my cell begins to grow. Not exactly in numbers, (but we do have some visitors now and then) but in spirit. They mature and begin to understand things. They begin to opwn up and share things that the cell can pray for tgt. They are often my reason for smiling.

7. my tuition kids
They're really smart. But careless. haha! Nellis, Xuanyun(ex-tuition kid) and Andrew, you're doing great in your studies. I love to teach them, whenever they 'get it', I feel so satisfied. :) Tutoring is tiring especially during my exam period which is also theirs as well, but I truly feel happy whenever they know how to do the sums. Brilliant!

The list can go on and on... But all in all, it is God that I want to say Thank You! Because of You, all these blessings are made possible. Because of You, I have joy, not just happiness, overflowing out of me, no matter what I face. :)

You are the best!

King Raja!

Adpated from the Snow White Legend, 'Blood and Snow'.

I am the King! What I want to know is, will my daughter perform the funeral ritual. And if she doesn't, I'll have to find a suitable excuse for the people... I'll just say...

So... you... Doesn't she look like... My word, Truthsayer, isn't there a striking resemblance?

What is your name? I am King Raja.

Haha! Yea man, I'm going to be King for my Theatre Studies module practical exam!!!

So... Here's my costume that I intended to wear... (Borrowed from my boyfriend. =))



Haha! And some funky poses.

Discoveries!

1. Amazing Vending Machine at Eussoff Hall

2. Stitch's girlfriend is ANGEL!

I think I'm too stress...

Calculator & Maluku

This is my favorite calculator. It was my first calculator as well.
I had been using it since sec1, but unfortuantely it has been faulty since sec4.
And I have to get a new one. But the new one isn't the same as the old one.
For anybody who minds about their calculator, you'll know what I mean.

Even though the new one has more functions, but still I cannot forget this calculator.
Till now, even though this calcluator has been spoilt for 3+ years, it is still with me.
And today I have decided to throw it away.

Sometimes it is good to be sentimental, but now there is really no use keeping it.
I suppose even if I keep it for the rest of my life, it will not be an antique worth even hundred.

I will miss you my dearest calculator.


Maybe my studies have really been getting into me, I'm rather crazy these few days.
Stress... Who says uni is easy?!

But still owing to a group of maluku dance teman-teman below, I have conquered the Cultural Night! Yeah!

Haha! We took Bahasa Indonesia and we have to select an activity to perform on Cultural Night. And all of us took Maluku Dance!
It's very fun, sweaty and risky! You never know when the bamboo is going to 'kiap' your pretty feet!

But it was really fun! That's our ibu-ibu with us.

This is bad...

It's easter week and I haven't got a chance to quieten myself out of the buzzy world.

I wish I can have a whole world of time.

As someone said

Work
as if you don't need money.

Love
as if you have never been hurt.

Dance
as if no one can see you.

Sing
as if no one can hear.

Live
as if the world is a heaven.

Aduh! Saya tidak boleh...

i love Bahasa Indonesia! Woo! Take it as a module this sem.
The Ibu-s are really kind. It seems like all Indonesian women are so softspoken and gentle.

But then it makes me realise the huge difference between my visual and aural abilities!
I can read and totally understand the language,
but when it comes to listening...
My gosh! It's like 'huh?! what?!'
If you doubt if I tried my best, I'm telling you i really did! every time!
But I just can't help it.

When the recording begins to play,
I will gear my ear towards the recorder literally!
And good news is I can catch about 30% of the words, so i can like guess the content...
But bad news is I totally miss the 70%... haha!

But when Ibu distributes the written copy of the recording, I was like 'Ah!!! So I see...' haha!
I can almost understand it immediately!

visual visual.
I'm a total visual person.

higgledy-piggledy

像透了一只小猪，这几天真的是让我忙得不可开交，乱闯乱撞！
环绕着我的是学业、补习和教会的事情，唯有休息的时间是属于自己。
因为几乎每一天都要从一个地方赶去另一个地方，从 Clementi (NUS) 到 Katong (Tuition place) 到 Tampines (Tuition place)。
最后终于到了自己的家的时候，我总是感觉特别的疲倦。

但是万事总是美好的，因有主的同在。
感谢主，我可以在忙的时候和我的组员会面、没有生病、没有跌到、等！

（你知道吗！我可以在平地走路的时候，不知为何的绊倒！根本没有任何障碍物！但是感谢主，我只是很尴尬的突然猛力的扑向前，而很大力的用我的右脚稳住自己，所以造成很大的巨响。惊动了四周的人。当然，他们也用一种很奇怪的眼神看着我。哈哈！）

冲冲茫茫
但却有种奇妙的平静在我心里。

Be still and know that I am God.

22 Jan 08

I have a desire to shop today!

Yinghui and I had 5 free hours in school today, and we were so bored.
So we went shopping in NUS.
haha!

So we tried on these clothes.

But I think in the end, we look more like waitresses.
Fashion disaster! (to me at least)

Actually, for most of the time, we were trying to ballot our tutorial slots.
I really have to say that I dislike this system. All the bidding and balloting are giving me headache.

Interestingly, I am quite calm even though I have some problems with bidding and balloting. Compared to my jittery self last sem, I was having peace in my heart this time round.
I am so happy. I'm slowly learning how to trust in God again.
This is wonderful. Even though this is just a small thing, I am so delighted about this.

I had a really rewarding time during prayer meeting tonight too. I was really tired and drained, and I wanted to take a rest, meaning to pray softly, just there to sing songs. But when I was prompted to pray for energy to stay awake by the Holy Spirit, I was receiving so much more.

God is good all the time!

Cindy

Cindy is a beautiful girl. Or woman I should say.
Yes, the Cindy that we all know in Renewal.

Her beauty flows out within her heart.
She doesn't seem to have any bad points.
Gentle as she is, she doesn't show her tantrum. (Or at least I haven't seen it yet.)
Considerate as she is, she does it through her actions and she doesn't voice it out most of the times.
She seems to know your needs whenever you're with her.

"Thanks a lot for sending me home!"
"You're welcome. anyway it's on the way ma, and it's late and also raining ma.
Just do whatever that is within my ability."

That's her reply when I smsed her last night after giving me a lift.
I like her reply.
It's like doing all that you can to help a person even when it's optional.
And she justifies it with "Just do whatever that is within my ability".

I'll absorb your ability! And use it well. =)

DONUTS!

A circle with a hole is a DONUT!

Live it your best!

钻石人生
活出美好

Both are talking about the same thing.
Live it! Make it your best!

I had been thinking about a lot of things recently.
In order for me to live my best life, I need to have faith.
Faith that does not come from the world or myself.
Faith that is firmly established in the Word of the Lord.
I need this faith in my heart.

Last year, Rev Chern prayed that I must increase in my faith.
This year, godma Rebecca prayed that I must not be afraid but to be bold.
Last night during prayer meeting, a pastor prayed that I must stretch my faith, know that I have a royal status and that all negative thoughts must be removed.

And the minute I reached home, there were many things that made me upset.
Negative thoughts came to me once again.
When can I get out of this cycle?
I thought I had just prayed and declared that all negative thoughts are to be away from me.
It is a terrible feeling. Not easy to overcome.
My faith has fainted.

You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You.
Isaiah 26:3

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
and Wisdom to know the difference.

Lord, in all things, take control.
I trust and lean on You.
I am re-establishing my faith, faith in Christ Jesus.
It is the first lesson of my beautiful life ahead.

birthday resolution

This birthday, many have celebrated with me. When I'm asked to make a wish before blowing the candle, I didn't know what I want.
Since young, I had millions of wishes even till my 18th birthday.
But for the first time, I didn't know what to wish for.

07 seems like a gush of wind.
Before I know, it's 1Jan, and I have to make a wish.
I begin to think.
What do I want?

I want to mature. More and more. In all aspects.

2007
Jan
-1st oficial job in an IT marketing company
-1st tuition taking
Mar-May
-1st plane taking experience by myself
June
-1st jamming session
-1st youth cell
-new teens cell
Aug
-1st Uni lecture and tutorial
Dec
-1st r/s

Looking back, 07 was amazing.
I had a lot of adjustments to make and yet I had joy throughout.
It wasn't easy.

Frankly speaking, 08 is a year of challenge for me.
There are many things that I want to do, to take actions to make a difference.
1. I want to build up my teens cell
2. I want to pull up my grades
3. I want to join a cca
4. I want to have breakthroughs in my serving in TWM
5. I want to do indepth bible study
6. I want to encourage all around me
7. I want to bring rebels to church
8. I want to read more
9. I want to listen more
10. I want to love more