I am the polar bear!

Was playing polar bear instead of kayaking because of the rain.

Being the polar bear is so fun
But didn't you know
My heart was beating so fast
It did a somersault when my name was called

The route to victory was so narrow
I had to lie low, that's all I know
Polar bear won, in the end

To myself at least, I know I couldn't lie
Because my consciences pricked me
And my heart was pumping like 60 beats per second

It's all over
And I'm a sinner
I killed and lied.

Kid's Prayer

S.I.C.K

Yes, I've been really ill last week.

Looking back at it, it started during my exams. In the midst of preparing my exams, with irregular sleep and long hours of studying, a little cold got hold of me.

Then there was this very 'xiong' TWM retreat, which makes me fall to my knees. After 'cutting the 10m tree', my whole body couldn't seems to move, every movement I make, a muscle gets stretched and I feel its ache and strain. Aww... painful.

I guess that's when my immune system is down. Cough bacteria invaded and I'm down with flu and cough. Still I went for my rejoicing baptism event, getting wet and running to the toilet asap for the swiftest relieve out of my wet clothes.

Then on Sat, I embarked on a door-to-door goody-bags-giving session. It was tiring. Running around the block especially when the design of the block is so 'unique'. And yes, after that we went to Bliss @ Punggol Park for some light entertainment. Never did I know, I was suffering throughout the whole night. We stay there till 6am the next morning. I wanted to go home but too bad, my pretty sister wants to stay and play. It was torturous for me. Feel nauseous over the drink, with my cough and flu acting. Terrible.

I need rest but there was no time for me to rest. The next morning we had our last training for Hutan Melintang camp and then at night a wedding dinner of my ex-colleague.

Monday morning came. It's the beginning of our Hutan Melintang trip. The first day was still alright. My body can still make it. But on the 2nd day, fever comes and I feel so weak that day. Not to say that my voice was getting worse.

I never knew how bad a lost voice can be. And now I know, the day came when we can go back to SG, I cannot even speak at all. Try this, open ur mouth and try to utter a sound, but your throat aches so painfully whenever u try and still there was no sound produced. Felt like a mute at that time, I can only use my body language. It's really a pity that I cannot have lots of fun with the teens in this trip. But it's good to see them grow.

When I was back, I went to see the doc. He says I can't go overseas. It was bad really. I didn't know I had been feverish the whole day till he measured my temperature. It was 37.8. Guess it must have been worse when fever first broke out for me cuz I feel much more terrible.

So there goes my Perek trip with the youth. I really wanted to go. And I couldn't. My heart really sank and I was so disappointed. Seems like I always miss out something.
But thank God, I slowly begin to recover with much rest and mecidine.

Right now, I still have a sexy voice with a little cough and flu.
But now, I really know what it means to rest in the Lord. It is to be obedient.
I was too playful. Hee. :p

My baptism day - 07Dec07

It was a joyous occasion! Finally, after many years, I can be baptised! Even though my parents were not there, I am still very grateful for my brothers and sisters and rebels to be there to witness this important event.

Rebels even surprised me! Initially, all of them either cannot come or will be tremendously late so I was rather disappointed, but yet (!) they came at 8.15pm! AW!!! I was very surprised though I didnt express it on my face. Your presence is the greatest gift. You know what? I prayed for all of you to come, and He answered my prayer!

I am so proud of my gifts that my dear fellow friends have given me.Take a look!

(left) card from Rebels!
(right) card from my youth cell!


(left) 'C' girls knew I dun like real flowers, so they bought me this. Sweet!
(right) Rachel's present from Korea! Though she wasn't here, I knew that I am in her mind. haha! =)


Both are calenders with verses for every day from (Gan Die DingLiang on the left and Pastor XiuZhu on the right). Pretty gifts for me to start my day.


(left) this is neat! 'Woman of the Bible' by Ann Spangler & Jean E. Syswerda from my beloved teens cell group. I am deeply touched.
(right) 'My Utmost for His Highest' by Oswald Chambers from 'C' girls, Shuhui & Raymond. haha! Initially when I saw weiying holding this book before baptism ceremony, I wanted to praise her for getting a good book like this to read. Never did I know, it's for me!


(left) little nice cute card that I really like, customised by RongJie.
(right) card from my teens cell! SenHui, this is a nice card! Thanks a lot!


This is from MinMin and JoJo! Hee. They're so adorable. They wrote a little note with this block for me. Nice ya!

(left) This is the gift that I want most! Bilingual small bible from my dearest mentors Daniel & Doris and cell leaders Cheri & YiHao! Thanks for grooming and letting me grow!
(right) Little piggy soft toy from Cindy, my Beatty Senior! She's really the best! She'll be a good wife and mother! Catch her if you can!

This notebook is from EnYing and Susan. I love this! I long to have notebook with different verses on different pages, and here it is! Thank you so much! This is an unexpected gift!

This is a box of little cards filled with bilingual verses by WeiLiang! When I was opening my presents, I was thinking would someone give me many many encouragement cards so that I can write for others? And here it is! Very thoughtful gift!


(left) Darlene Zschech's "Shout to the Lord' CD from Pastor JunHui. Was trying to ask him to lend me some CDs and haha! here I have one for myself! =)

(right) 'the Bible Promise Book' from LiYun. This is another unexpected present. =) Thanks for being so giving and thoughtful!

(left) Crazy tormenting youth cell group.

(right) Decently trainned teens cell group.

Just look at the difference! haha!

Fantastic Rebels! Always my utmost love. Your presence is all I need.

Before baptising. The water is cold and my passionate heart is bubblingly excited!

(left) Juliana, me & Pastor Hock Chye!

(right) a close up!

(left) Renewal Youth Ministry!
(right) everyone who baptised and is in the Renewal family!

Today is an extremely elated day for me!I thought I would be feeling just happy, but it was much more than that! I was like sitting on the tip of the rocket and I am flying to the end of the Earth, nearer to God. Oh! I love baptism! And the presents too. Can I baptise again and receive so many presents again? haha!Just joking!

I'm a newborn christian!

Juliana's birthday surprise!

She peeped!

Haiz...

But it was quite successful la.
They were all lying on the floor and doing some pre-skit exercise with their eyes close.
But Juliana PEEPED!!!
Then she saw me coming in with the cake but she didn't say anything.
When the exercise ended, then slowly all of them can open their eyes except Juliana.
Then we sang birthday song and cut cake for her.

Quite nice.

=)

Freedom!!!

Today is such a fantastic day!

When examinations are all over, I suddenly feel that I'm weightless!
Oh! How wonderful!

I sing freedom... FreeDoM... FREEDOM!!!
Haha! Too happy!
I can hear the echo in my ears...
freedom... FreeDoM... FREEDOM!!!

Hmm... But right now, I have a more important task to do.
I'm gonna surprise my sister, Juliana!
Because today's her BIRTHDAY!!!

She'll be in church practicing the skit for the teens trip,
and I'm gonna sneak in during her break
and
Ta DA!
Surpirse her with me appearing with a cake and everybody will sing her a birthday song!

Woo!
What a marvellous surprise!

Got to go!

Broke Up???

haha! Was just trying out something.

Does it look like Gabriel and I just broke up?

Aww... I'm so sad. Haha!

Introducing...

my beloved studying buddy!

He has 8 legs...

He can pose!
Here's me and my studying buddy!
Yes, we're geared for the last paper tomorrow!

Then we'll travel the world together!

Counting down...

8 more days to freedom!

A total break free from exams and my sorrows...

A BIG HURRAY to games, my as-promised video to YanXing, the drama series that I've missed, and BEST of all, my BAPTISM! Woo!

Can't wait!

While almost the whole world have finished their exams,
here I am...
mugging
mugging
and mugging...

I want to play...

8 more days.
can't wait!

okie... i know i know...

I should be studying right now.

But you know some things just can't be missed!
I'm so glad I came back early today!
Or else, I would have missed HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 on Disney Channel!!!
This is like my favourite musical!!!
None other musical can be compared to this!
The song arrangement, the dance moves, the actors, the setting and the PLOT of cuz!
Everything is just so wow Wow WOW!
Even though there are some negative rumours about 'Gabriella' in real life, I don't care. As long as it doesn't affect the show, what's the problem?

Woo! I feel so good now.
I've been longing to watch HSM2 but never have the chance.
But by God's grace, I accidentally get to catch it!
See, even such an insignificant request God answers.
How great is my God!
haha!

I can still hear the rhythm in my head!
...you are the music in me...

And you know what's next?!
It's Heroes(!) on Channel 5!
Wow! Another not-to-be-missed show!
Yeah!

Okie okie... I know... I got to study now.
But after my shows!

Catch them if you haven't!

psalm 23

In case you do not know what is she reciting...
Take note of the many times that she tried to suck back her saliva!


Ok, the Lord is my Shepherd
...look at the camera while i'm doing the bible verse
*breathe!* must i look in the camera too?

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,

He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

surely. surely?

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head?
*breathe!* You annoint my head with oil;
sure. surely?
(dad: my cup) my cup, ok. my cup overflows.

surely, yea?
*breathe confidently!* Surely goodness...
(dad: Surely goodness and love)
Surely goodness, goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

Incredible for a little girl to do this.
I will make my child memorise scripture too!

promises

they are never meant to be broken.

When I was young, my dad will promise me a day out to the zoo, a day out to fly kite, a day out to swim and etc. For that whole week, I will be excitedly looking forward to that day of fun and enjoyment! I would often imagine how much I would enjoy myself several days before. Having a good picnic lunch with my family, holding my dad's hands and pulling him around, and we'll have a fantastic family gathering.

Most of the time, we would go as planned. However, there are days when he broke his promises too. Those were the days when I was utterly disappointed.
When all your balloons of hope and fun burst with a loud bang, just because of a sudden meeting with a client, it would cause detrimental effects.
For the first time, it was still alright. So was the second, third, fouth and fifth time. But when his business strive, and we were all getting more wealthy, I could not see an end to his unfulfiled promises. And then, there was no more effort to even make a promise. I began to distrust my dad whenever he promised to bring us out.

Sometimes, an unintentional forgetfulness (that he had to meet his client for example),
an unintentional meeting and an unintentional event can cause a longlasting effect.

Thus, now, if anyone made a promise to me, I will expect them to fulfil it. If not, even so for a good reason, I will definitely feel more disappointed than normal. And mind you, that puncture in my heart is hard to be filled up once again.
Similarly, if I ever promise anyone anything, I will make sure that I will be able to complete it by hook or by crook.

promises are never meant to be broken.
if you do not have the capacity to make that promise, please don't do it to me.

thank you, rachel.

A post for Wong Shuli, Rachel.

I was feeling very bad over some things just now and God sent me an angel, Rachel Wong ShuLi!

haha. She's like a big sister to me, taking care of me, having a listening ear for me even though she's going through her A levels at this moment. =)

JiAyoU for your A levels!
Remember, you do your best and God will do the rest!
Hope that you, a proud-B3-chinese-with-distinction-in-oral student, can come to my church one day.


You want a hug?
I'll gladly give you one! In fact, I'll give you many!!!

Hope to see you soon. Miss you.

studying, studying…

Best companions during lectures

Cheezels, Soya Bean, 0.5 pilot pens, Stabilo markers & notes of course~!

Cheezels & Soya Bean help to keep me wide awake and satisfy my growling stomach!

heh heh... Sometimes Doritos does that well too.

McDonald's

McDonald's is my favourite place to study...

You can people watch,

stare in space (n people think that you're seriously thinking abt sth chim),

eat McFury! & Fries,

drink McCafe latte and

look out for cute little kids!

Oh oh my! They are so adorable!

I've got a little girl beside me, about 5 years old, using all her might to open up the tomato sauce by biting it off with her teeth, just to dip her fries.

Haha. Reminds me that I did that in the past too. Heh heh.

There's another girl, 6, pointing enthusiastically at the "Special kids toy with every kids meal" box near the entrance.

So cute!

Okie. Back to my essay… reproductive cloning and therapeutic cloning…

Darlin' Do Not Fear

In case you're wondering what song is this...

Darlin’ Do Not Fear by Brett Dennen

When I arrived in my old set of clothes
I was half a world away from my home
and I was hunted by the wolves
and I was heckled by the crows
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

Alongside my innocence I laid in bed awake
conflicted and in chains with the impetus of age
but like a phantom she crept across the floor and out the window
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

From its place on the mantel my heart was taken down
scattered in a thousand little pieces on the ground
and I below the streetlamp like an orphan with a halo
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

cuz it won’t last
worries’ll pass
all your troubles they don’t stand a chance
and sometimes it takes more than a lifetime to know
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

Your confidences fall as your faith etched in stone
neither could comfort you from the wild unknown
so bury your burning hatred like a hatchet in the snow
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

If you have a broken heart or a battered soul f
ind something to hold onto until they go
to help you through the hard nights
like a flask filled with hope
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

cuz it won’t last
your worries’ll pass
all your troubles they don’t stand a chance
and it always hurts the worst when it’s the ones we love the most
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

sometimes your path is marked in the sky
sometimes it falls too thin in between the lines
sometimes all you can do is say no
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

I said when I arrived in my old set of clothes
I was half a world away from my home
and I was hunted by the wolves
and I was heckled by the crows
Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know

I said Darlin’ do not fear what you don’t really know
We said Darlin’ do not fear…

look into your hands...

During tonight's prayer meeting,
Pastor HockChye told us to look into our hands...
what has God gave you?
Then draw a cross on one hand...

When I look into my hands,
I'm given nothing much.
When I look into my hands,
God says it's a pure heart.

When I drew a cross,
my heart aches.
When I drew a cross again,
God says I must take up the cross.
Taking up the cross on this uneven road.
(taking up the cross = facing trials and taking up burdens)

Then Pastor HockChye said
"We'll have a beautiful future!"
I said "Amen".
All things work for the good for those who love the Lord.

God gives me a pure heart, as pure as a child.
But also an empowered heart, to take up the cross.
He will not give me more than what I can bear.
At the end, the victory will be mine!
Because God is by my side.

Talk to your kid!

I had a psychology tuitorial some time ago and something was said, which disturbs me till now.

"My 3-yr old son ar, always watch tv one! Bad for his eyes..."
"Shh... Stop playing with the MRT pole! Sit down properly and keep quiet!"
"Don't disturb mummy. Mummy is doing things. Go and watch tv."

Haiz... Sadly, these are things that we commonly hear parents say to their children especially in Singapore.

Busy parents in Singapore often do not have time for their children.
They don't talk to their babies much. They rarely play with them.
Learning to play is part of their development, yea? That's why toddlers with siblings learn much better, because they got somebody to play with them.

Do you know that Singapore children learn language slower than children in other countries?
Why? Because nobody talks to them and they learn to keep quiet because they get scolded for speaking.
In fact, for children like that, I'd suggest parents letting them watch tv even more.

There is a critical period for toddlers to learn language. If you miss that, they'll have more difficulties learning language.
When parents don't talk to their children, how can they pick up language?

Haiz.
Hence, my tutor actually says that children in Singapore actually pick up language more from the tv.

Parents, please bear in mind that you have to speak perfect sentences to your toddler, correct grammar and phonics.
Shift your pitch higher, speak slowly and look at them when you speak.
They receive more better this way.

This is really tramatic for me. Even though I know children can learn too when they grow up, but isn't it better to start from young?

From this, I tell myself that I will be a good mother.
Listening to my children, talking to them, playing with them.
They are such precious gifts from God.
I think God's heart must has hurt when these little children are neglected.

Rebels Friday Night Out!

Aww.... I miss Rebels so so so much!

Finally, I got to see them on Friday night!

It was great!

We went to this u-lu and yet famous place, called Timbre Bistro.This is how it looks from outside. It's like a little rest&relax bar.

This place is real bad.

1. You cannot ask for ice water after 9pm. Even though you are almost dying from thirst, you still cannot ask for ice water.

2. Don't bring ICE MOUNTAIN! Alvin's Ice Mountain water bottle got CONFISCATED, because you cannot bring outside drink inside. But at least give us ice water la. It's just plain water. Even if you get it from the tap, I also won't know...

3. ONLY Credit Cards are accepted after 10PM!!! Which means that poor students like us cannot pay cash after 10pm. Stupid idea...

4. It is so very noisy inside!!! When I talk to Rachel, who is just beside, I have to scream like a mad woman before she can hear me! Aw... So tiring.

5. There is no aircon. It is an enclosed outdoor place. It is so squeezy and there's no aircon. So all of us are sweating!

6. Be prepared to place your order and wait till the 2nd coming of Christ before the food is served. They took so long to serve our food. Come on la, it's just fish&chips! Poor Mervy.

7. They don't have enough money to pay the rent is it? The location is just beside the new Fort Canning Tunnel's carpark. It's at a remote corner of the carpark. You might not realise the place until you see the long string of queeue outside the bar. I don't understand why it is so popular?!

BUT I really enjoyed myself a lot!

It makes my day, it makes my week.

I can hate the place, but nothing beats than having Rebels with me.

They are the best!

Thank you Rachel, for sharing with me your stories. And I really love the encouragements that you often give.

<- Rach & I

Thank you Jiamin, for always suanning me, but always care for me too. And yes! Your terribly cute Pooh bear plaster on my ugly scarred hand.

Thank you Mervy, for just being there. Despite the busy army schedule, you're still here with us and your funny faces really make me smile.

Thank you Weiying, for letting us laugh and tease you about Barry. In the end, we'll always hope that you'll go on well with him. Oh ya! And your lame jokes always make us laugh!

Thank you Yanxing, your words always bring joy to us. Without you, it'll all be different.

Thank you Melissa, for letting me taste your drink. haha! You're like the angel amongst us, always attending our outings and being there. I will always rmb us exchanging emails when I was in China for 3 months. Your emails always make me pop up for my seat and rejoice!

Thank you Alvin, for sharing your joy and woes. You're a great friend not to be missed. Whenever I need somebody, you'll not escape from my mind.

Alvin & I

Rebels,
Our friendship is 6 year-old now. It hasn't been easy especially all of our routes diverge to different lanes. Some to NUS, some to SIM, some to army, some to SR and some to Poly. But I know, deep in us, our investment in this friendship will be deeprooted and it will not decay. I always think about this: Will I meet anyone else like us in my future? I guess not. We are so closely knitted despite our religions, our backgrounds, our routes, our gender and our location. No matter how many times I fail to turn up fro our gatherings, you've never failed to invite me time and again. Never forgetting me. I am so comforted to have you guys with me.

I am indeed blessed because of you, Rebels.

Friendship with Rebels is like an investment, never losing always gaining.

I love my tuition kids!

Natalie and Nellis are so adorable!
I love teaching them and having fun with them!


Nellis always has so much to share about her life, which is movies, prank callings and friends.
But, I'm always happy to hear her share about God!
She really grew! Spiritually!
Oh! I'm so delighted for her!

She, or rather her mum, bought me a bag as my Teachers' Day present.
Here is the bag, wrapped with aluminium foil. haha!
The beads are done by Natalie!
We did it together after our tuition session.


Natalie is a p4 girl who is very smart.
She loves to sing, loves Harry Potter and loves tuition!
haha! Yea, tuition with me, of cuz!


Today, she gave me a drawing.
Here it is-->
Those are chickens.


I often teach her Chinese with Allie, the elephant, because she has difficultity concentrating when it comes to Chinese, the subject that she dislikes.
And she wanted Allie to go home with me after tuition.
SO here's Allie!

The little piglet wallet is a gift from her too.
She bought it in China during her holidays.


Tuition sessions are always fun and enjoyable, and I love it so!
However, it is always tiring too.

I've got so many readings to read and essays to hand up.
Church activities are taking up my time but they are always fulfilling.
I haven't seen Rebels for AGES!
I miss them so much...


zhumin is tired...

Mozzie Invasion!

Mozzie invasion!

Oh my!
What is happening?!
Why are there so many mosquitoes in my house? Every where I go, I see a few mosquitoes flying about!
They are causing my grandma, uncle, mum, bro, sis and I to have mosquitoes BITES! NOT just the ORDINARY ones!!!
You'll see yellowish pus coming out and it seems to be a hole in your skin.
Eww.. That's really horrible!

Those mozzies! I'm gonna get them!
Never seen the violent me?
Here I come!
Transform!!!

I sprayed insectides all over my house before I slept yesterday night.
The mozzies left and went to the kitchen and out of my house.
BUT! BUT!! BUT!!!
I woke up at 5.45am this morning to whack those mozzies again!!!
They are determine to invade my house!!!
My achievement: I whacked 3 moquitoes with blood oozing out.
And I have a sense of satisfaction!!! =D
WAHAHA!!! I know that the blood on my hands are mine! They should return it to me!

Heh heh... I'm evil...

Irritated by mozzies... Huuump!

'Red' Day!

A normal Tuesday with a touch from God and it makes today a 'Red' Day! (Meaning a happy day)

This song "Top of the world" fully describes my feeling.


Top of the World
Lyrics by John Bettis
Music by Richard Carpenter


Such a feeling's coming over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky, got the sun in my eyes
and I won't be surprised if it's a dream.


Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear, its because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen.

Chorus:
I'm on the top of the world looking down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I found ever since you been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world.


It's a Christian song, by the way.


I was feeling quite insignificant for the past few days because I feel that I do not have any gifts or usefulness in church and God spoke to me so so so so soooo loudly today.


I was doing my QT and it reminds me that I have a place in God's Kingdom; I am His princess.


I began to read a book "And the angels were silent" by Max Lucado, which I bought many years ago but never spend time reading it.
"Activities aren't a sign of maturity." I always think that I am useful or precious in God's eyes when I am doing something.


However, that's not fully right.
God will still see me as precious, as His princess, even if I am not doing anything but just keep my heart close to Him.


This is something that I bring home today.


And it really brightens my day! Hee.
So happy!
I'm on cloud 9! Wooo....


Some pics that we took today:



Huge Smiles .......................... & ..................Weiting's 'smiles'



We are angry! Hump!............... See no evil; Speak no evil; Hear no evil!

Individuality...