Merry Xmas

Eating fries and drinking beer at home on Xmas eve with the favourite boy instead of dressing up and going out. 

This feels like true love. 

Jaded. Already.

Survived 3 months.

Back full of arrows. Brain full of deadlines. Heart full of hate.

Emotional Wreck

Sunday night mayhem before work starts.

No one for company except a very fast moving clock and shitloads of work.

Grown older, yet younger

In the past few months that I didn't blog at all, I hit a really rough patch in life.

When health problems kicked in and my self belief went kaput with all the negativity that I was constantly surrounded with. I felt like doing nothing but cry. I felt useless. I felt so jaded with life that I thought I was never going to get better.

I never remembered being such a weakling. A few years ago I remembered there were more stress, and I shouldered more burden. I never wanted to give up, I have never lost my self belief once.

Now I feel like I've gone back in time to become the kid that would always hole up and cry alone, instead of facing the fucking reality.

Mm.

I feel awkward putting up a new post because I haven't updated this blog for such a long time.