oh yah. had lunch with some bunkmates today. prata at the prata place. damn good prata there i tell u. its Very crispy! almost melts in ur mouth. and oh yah did i mention i went there back when i still was a TSS at ATW? had thosai then. another must try. Damn nice. the sauces.
but dats not the important thing. jus realised something u know. its like... i've not made any real close friends in the army so far. its like... i've made many friends, yes, but none that i can really be myself, i guess. no its like im putting on a fake front or sth. its jus dat. i havent felt anyone could be a really close friend? its the environment i think. u've gotta get along well with everyone... to find jus a few friends who can hit it off with ya.. its jus difficult, i think. argh. dun know how to express my thoughts.
oh yah. an example. i have this bunk mate who i would Never associate with if im still in jc. he's. 1. chao geng. 2. selfish. 3. thinks he's damn good when he jus. can't make it lah, in my opinion. but cause he's my bunkmate and is gonna be for the next 2 more months i cant jus like ignore him or something. argh.
Saturday, January 31, 2004
Sunday, January 25, 2004
oh yah i finally bought a bass guitar. on ebay. 346 sing dollars. was damn f-ed up man. 100 US dollars for shipping. thought i got it for a steal at 75 US. damnit. there goes my angbow money.
and thats not the worst part. i've bid for another bass. dat one comes with an amp. 170 US. excluding the cost of shipping. if i really get it, i'm broke for the next month.
anyone wants to buy a bass?
and thats not the worst part. i've bid for another bass. dat one comes with an amp. 170 US. excluding the cost of shipping. if i really get it, i'm broke for the next month.
anyone wants to buy a bass?
Commisioning parade's in 3 days time. this wed man. this wed.
its not a nice feeling, wat im experiencing now, u know.
it damn right sucks man.
and im gonna feel worse as the day approaches. i'd feel damn f***ed up man.
i know, no matter how much i say about it being ok and all - heck, there are more things in life than being an officer and even if i were to become one i'd have been put in some crap job - its... it jus doesnt feel good, u know. like. u've sorta failed when others have succeeded. i can like convince myself dat the reason i failed was 'cause my physical fitness wasn't up there with the rest, yeah i mean average soc timing of 8 mins on the very first test compared to mine 10:27 after so many bloody retests... their aiming for gold... 9:45 2.4 runs compared to my trying so damn hard jus to pass... but the thing is. it doesnt matter that much to me now.
i still feel damn f-ed up.
argh f it man. i'm meeting up with my sec school friends... close friends... sister... i guess there Shuold be enough reasons to like brighten up my week ahead, right?
argh. f it.
its not a nice feeling, wat im experiencing now, u know.
it damn right sucks man.
and im gonna feel worse as the day approaches. i'd feel damn f***ed up man.
i know, no matter how much i say about it being ok and all - heck, there are more things in life than being an officer and even if i were to become one i'd have been put in some crap job - its... it jus doesnt feel good, u know. like. u've sorta failed when others have succeeded. i can like convince myself dat the reason i failed was 'cause my physical fitness wasn't up there with the rest, yeah i mean average soc timing of 8 mins on the very first test compared to mine 10:27 after so many bloody retests... their aiming for gold... 9:45 2.4 runs compared to my trying so damn hard jus to pass... but the thing is. it doesnt matter that much to me now.
i still feel damn f-ed up.
argh f it man. i'm meeting up with my sec school friends... close friends... sister... i guess there Shuold be enough reasons to like brighten up my week ahead, right?
argh. f it.
Thursday, January 22, 2004
today is chinese new year! and i dun hafta visit relatives!!! can slack at home haha. good thing is i've still got quite a lot of money from the relatives who have come visiting heh heh. visiting malaysia tomorrow. i think. suddenly having second thoughts abt the trip. i mean the chances of it happening. usually mum will be like packing stuff frantically the afternoon before the trip. its afternoon now though and nothing's happening.
its jus like any sunday u know. the feeling. jus slacking at home... only diff is i have new clothes on me! the shirt i bought at far east! yeah! and the pants i bought at jurong point. u know, each piece of clothing i buy... reminds me of something. i can like remember every shirt and/or pants i bought... when i bought them i mean. the circumstances. the place. not gone shopping alot lah. heh. did i mention i hate shopping? ok lah not really. jus.. dislike it lah. havent got the hang of it yet. wait i Dun want to get the hang of it. :P
its jus like any sunday u know. the feeling. jus slacking at home... only diff is i have new clothes on me! the shirt i bought at far east! yeah! and the pants i bought at jurong point. u know, each piece of clothing i buy... reminds me of something. i can like remember every shirt and/or pants i bought... when i bought them i mean. the circumstances. the place. not gone shopping alot lah. heh. did i mention i hate shopping? ok lah not really. jus.. dislike it lah. havent got the hang of it yet. wait i Dun want to get the hang of it. :P
Saturday, January 17, 2004
got poked on thursday!!! damn pain sia. thing was my buddy missed both times. ur supposed to strike a vein and infuse some solution into ur buddy lah see. u inject the other one when u miss once. then u inject some other poor guy who thought he got lucky when his buddy struck his vein the first time. haha.
but it was ok lah the experience. experienced like. Extreme pain man. no blood. jus sore muscles. Damn sore muscles. excruciating pain. oh wait. did i say it was ok? it was Not ok. damn pain.
Damn pain.
but the week was ok lah. its like... returning to school. except that all u learn is bio. more practical stuff. good stuff. like cpr. so next time i see a babe at the beach who's almost drowned i can perform cpr on her and be the object of her eternal indebtedness. haha.
oh yah! i learned cpr for infants too. very cute. the baby mannequins i mean. they're like so... cuddly! besides the heads which are damn heavy lah. reminds me of mrs teo's and mrs ng's baby girls. damn cute!!!!! ^_^
but it was ok lah the experience. experienced like. Extreme pain man. no blood. jus sore muscles. Damn sore muscles. excruciating pain. oh wait. did i say it was ok? it was Not ok. damn pain.
Damn pain.
but the week was ok lah. its like... returning to school. except that all u learn is bio. more practical stuff. good stuff. like cpr. so next time i see a babe at the beach who's almost drowned i can perform cpr on her and be the object of her eternal indebtedness. haha.
oh yah! i learned cpr for infants too. very cute. the baby mannequins i mean. they're like so... cuddly! besides the heads which are damn heavy lah. reminds me of mrs teo's and mrs ng's baby girls. damn cute!!!!! ^_^
Saturday, January 10, 2004
i really cant believe this week's horoscope came true. the thing about personal stuff affecting my concentration in the early week. grandad got sent to hospital for a fall. then meeting an important person in my life in late week. i jus went playing mahjong.
it was like... in the car where she sent me to the bus-stop, i felt completely at ease. u know when u meet people of the opposite sex there tends to have like this... tension in the air? at least for me lah. but in the car, with jus the two of us... i felt a complete lack of it. it was as though... yah. my sis (if she could drive) or mum was sending me home or sth. i didnt like feel the need to talk, to force conversation, or stuff.
i only have this familiar feeling when with my family or close friends, normally of the same sex, usually.
i guess... we're sorta fated lah, to meet each other. no i dont think we would ever become a couple, but hey. that feeling transcends like romance lor. i really wouldnt mind having a sworn-sister or sth, like my dad has a sworn brother. i feel like i could really be her brother, u know.
it was like... in the car where she sent me to the bus-stop, i felt completely at ease. u know when u meet people of the opposite sex there tends to have like this... tension in the air? at least for me lah. but in the car, with jus the two of us... i felt a complete lack of it. it was as though... yah. my sis (if she could drive) or mum was sending me home or sth. i didnt like feel the need to talk, to force conversation, or stuff.
i only have this familiar feeling when with my family or close friends, normally of the same sex, usually.
i guess... we're sorta fated lah, to meet each other. no i dont think we would ever become a couple, but hey. that feeling transcends like romance lor. i really wouldnt mind having a sworn-sister or sth, like my dad has a sworn brother. i feel like i could really be her brother, u know.
Sunday, January 04, 2004
Saturday, January 03, 2004
i jus attended this Fantastic gathering!!! ok so i sorta crashed it, wasnt my pri school class's one, but hey it was great!!!
it was like... haha i actually know so many ex-6c guys/gals! then they were like quite ok too. haha it was great, basically!!! cant describe the euphoria i'm feeling now. haha nevermind
it was like... haha i actually know so many ex-6c guys/gals! then they were like quite ok too. haha it was great, basically!!! cant describe the euphoria i'm feeling now. haha nevermind
oh yeah dat scene in LOTR popped into my mind again. cant get it out of my head lah. pippen singing.... faromir charging with his men... it really touched me man. really, i jus cant describe wat i felt when i saw dat scene.
wait i can.
waves, man. waves. (yeah i found out the author's name, DBC Pierre)
oh yah since i feel like writing let me list the movie scenes, any movie scenes, dat have touched me!
truman show. when truman finally decides to go out of his all-beautiful made-up world. and his battling his fear of the sea to finally get to the 'edge' of his world.
independence day. the part where the crazy old man drives his plane up the alien ship's.. erm... opening.
matrix revolutions. dat commander guy controlling his mech-warrior like thingy. going down against the machines. and dat scene jus before they go into battle. the mechwarriors i mean.
love actually. dat guy holding up all the vangard sheets. yeah dat scene.
children of heaven. yeah the whole running part.
school of rock. the part where he's forming the band. haha the whole movie, actually. but i Really cant stand the part where the cellist becomes the bassist though. i mean come on lah. 'jus play the G.' kau im planning to take up the bass lor im sure its much more than jus playing single notes :P
oh yah. and star wars. ep II. the part where darth vader found his mother dead. i could jus Feel his anger and agony i tell u. (i might jus become a Darth Vader one day u know, if someone really hurts me that much)
A.I. finding the fairy at last.
eh cant remember any other movie at the moment i'll add on as i remember :)
wait i can.
waves, man. waves. (yeah i found out the author's name, DBC Pierre)
oh yah since i feel like writing let me list the movie scenes, any movie scenes, dat have touched me!
truman show. when truman finally decides to go out of his all-beautiful made-up world. and his battling his fear of the sea to finally get to the 'edge' of his world.
independence day. the part where the crazy old man drives his plane up the alien ship's.. erm... opening.
matrix revolutions. dat commander guy controlling his mech-warrior like thingy. going down against the machines. and dat scene jus before they go into battle. the mechwarriors i mean.
love actually. dat guy holding up all the vangard sheets. yeah dat scene.
children of heaven. yeah the whole running part.
school of rock. the part where he's forming the band. haha the whole movie, actually. but i Really cant stand the part where the cellist becomes the bassist though. i mean come on lah. 'jus play the G.' kau im planning to take up the bass lor im sure its much more than jus playing single notes :P
oh yah. and star wars. ep II. the part where darth vader found his mother dead. i could jus Feel his anger and agony i tell u. (i might jus become a Darth Vader one day u know, if someone really hurts me that much)
A.I. finding the fairy at last.
eh cant remember any other movie at the moment i'll add on as i remember :)
i've this sudden urge to blog.
some thoughts on the bus jus now lah. on the way home from a sleepover at mark's place. yeah. sleepover. guys can have sleepovers too. and no we're both straight. im ramrod straight in fact. but dats beside the point.
was listening to jet lah. their music's so... infectious, u know. i said, ARE U GONNA BE MY GIRL?!!! doom doom doom doom doom do do do doom do do haha
suddenly thought of my time in string orchestra. in both chinese high and nj.
more of nj, really.
flashback : jus before our performance in syf. the conductor telling us, 'now i jus want to remind u that we're musicians. jus go out and play ur hearts out. it doesnt matter where we win anything or not.' he could see that we werent too confident of winning anything lah.
i will Always remember that statement. serious.
i tell u, the song farandole we played, it was a classic. i had NEVER, EVER, felt that great playing something before. i got high playing it i tell u. if u have the syf cd go listen to it.
it moved me, u know, his speech. i guess... the thing about making music, or listening to it, even, is the Passion u put into it. Passion. in chinese high i did like the music i was playing. some of it at least. they're the only peices i still remember, to be honest.
guitar, too. the only pieces i remember are those i really liked playing.
esp 'right here waiting'. its a song... i've only played twice. once in bmt to my section (couldnt resist lah) and once to a girl.
i'll always wait for the girl. as a brother, as she puts it. willing to do anything for her. (as a brother, i mus stress though, any other girls reading this im still single and unattached and my heart's still roaming so yah im still available :P haha)
some thoughts on the bus jus now lah. on the way home from a sleepover at mark's place. yeah. sleepover. guys can have sleepovers too. and no we're both straight. im ramrod straight in fact. but dats beside the point.
was listening to jet lah. their music's so... infectious, u know. i said, ARE U GONNA BE MY GIRL?!!! doom doom doom doom doom do do do doom do do haha
suddenly thought of my time in string orchestra. in both chinese high and nj.
more of nj, really.
flashback : jus before our performance in syf. the conductor telling us, 'now i jus want to remind u that we're musicians. jus go out and play ur hearts out. it doesnt matter where we win anything or not.' he could see that we werent too confident of winning anything lah.
i will Always remember that statement. serious.
i tell u, the song farandole we played, it was a classic. i had NEVER, EVER, felt that great playing something before. i got high playing it i tell u. if u have the syf cd go listen to it.
it moved me, u know, his speech. i guess... the thing about making music, or listening to it, even, is the Passion u put into it. Passion. in chinese high i did like the music i was playing. some of it at least. they're the only peices i still remember, to be honest.
guitar, too. the only pieces i remember are those i really liked playing.
esp 'right here waiting'. its a song... i've only played twice. once in bmt to my section (couldnt resist lah) and once to a girl.
i'll always wait for the girl. as a brother, as she puts it. willing to do anything for her. (as a brother, i mus stress though, any other girls reading this im still single and unattached and my heart's still roaming so yah im still available :P haha)
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