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Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Next phase of life?

After my last paper every semester, i would nv fail to tell myself "___sems to go before grad!!" That had served has a silent cheer for me to push on, to continue pursuing my p.t degree without quitting my ft job lolll.

3 years.. it seemed so long ago but yet, i could still remember the first time i went to pay e sch fees with my hard-earned money, and the reluctance to hand e money over to e cashier + e sound of my heart being smashed cos my bank was left with $1 aft the sch fees lol.

I could still remember e first time i went to class, feeling lost and scared that no one will wanna grp with me for projs(tt nv happened, btw. Cos im a lovable and cute and friendly girl okie. Wahahahahha. Plus the fact tt for a couple of modules, my fren jessica will very friendily de intro her frens who r in my class to me heh.- so thnx to her for tt:))

i could still remember the adrenaline rush at the beginning of every semester and the promises to work hard. And of cos the laziness and procrastination that took over my body.and mind aft e first 2 wks haahhaah.

I will always remember the nice ppl who fetched me frm sch when i went to collect my txtbks(damn heavy ok im a weak and frail girl, i can't carry so many bks hehe). Thanks to jessy, mr.policeman and oldie heh.

I will always remember the late/overnights at Jessy's house lollll. The last min uploading of assignments and praying that it wun hung or we would be deadddddd.

I will always remember the ppl who nagged/ encouraged me when i was slacking or feeling like i wanna give up or wanna die lollll. And the jia yous tt everyone have given me during my exam period ^{they r of cos my frensssssss and jessy(thnx for scolding me to do assignments hehe) and angel (for e help w my assignments and ur naggings and... naggings hhahhaha and advices) and and and my papa!! He will always ask "how is ur exam???" And be more worried than me abt how i fare lol. And i still rem his disappointment when i failed finance e first time.. *dont wanna think abt it or ill cry again* and thnx to cheny for studying with me haha. Tho we always ended up chatting more than studying heh. I will miss changi airport t2 staff canteen de!!

And lastly, i will always remember the little friendships that were created. Sadly most of e friendships died lollll cos we nv cross paths aft tt haha. And lao niang is not a very small talk person so i nv find em small talk la. Haha. Super thankful to have jessica who stuck with me throughout the 3yrs, and to friends who r still in contact w me - siew may, irene, huijun, and my strategy classmates- esp jackie, daphne and alan haha. They really rock, btw. Thanks to my tutor cedric!!!! He is really one of da best teachers ive had in my life.!!!

yesterday, was the last paper of my degree life. there wasnt anymore countdowns to grad. Cos, I HAVE GRAD.

(Though there is a very high chance that I'll fail one of e modules WAHAHAHAA).

and so ive seen alot of my friends fb-ing tt they are going to the next phase of their lives( cos theirs is ft degree ma.)

Then i went... "next phase? Simi next phase? "

cos im still at my current job, doing the same stuffs. What i feel is that a part of my life has been carved out( the sch part) and now i feel so empty and lost cos i dont know what to do to fill in that missing part. Haha. Some tell me that I've chionged so much for e past 3yrs, juggling both sch and work. It's time to rest. But the truth is, i dont know how to sia. I guess ill learn:D and i bet it will tk me no time to learn at all. Cos slacking is in my blood heh heh.

I guess i will work hard on finding a new goal to achieve} jian fei! Hehe.

pH scribbled @ 8:25 AM

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