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Thursday, June 11, 2015

#pH28th

I swore that I would let June be the best month ever, that I wouldn't let anything spoil my birthday.

Oh well..

I tried my best. (:

Today had been full of ups and downs.. But through it all, I realised that I have really really really awesome people by my side. Though I really feel like crying now (again), this time it is happy mixed with sad tears lol.

The day started off great with the usual dept bday celebration of the month :D then lunch treat by sissy with ah bu. then I went to KKH for my check up and to set op date. It is a sibeh minor op la.. One so insignificant that I felt Paiseh telling ppl haha. And even sissy (from insurance agent POV) also says it is a minor thing.

I don't know if it is a govt hospital trait or what.. But when I told the doc I wanna go for the op, she started to say really scary stuffs (worst case scenarios) and I felt dizzy all of a sudden. Worst thing is that none of them in the room speaks mandarin, and hence I had to keep my emotions in check PLUS translate what she said to mandarin so that my ah bu can understand what was going on. It was damn difficult -.- and when my ah bu's face turned green upon the worst case scenario, I knew that I had to reassure her that nth bad was going to happen to me.

BUT how to reassure her when I myself wasn't assured that everything will be alright? Seriously I felt that the doctors used a super wrong approach to give us info on sth that might not happened. The way they said is as if it will CONFIRM HAPPEN LA. Even sissy got quite a scare I think.

Then ah bu started tearing which got my waterworks started la. #superCryBabyPls

When the op date was set, we then realised that the next day is Bro's convocation -.-

And ah bu, who had been waiting to go to her baobei son's convo since 3 years ago, said "papa and meimei go can le la. I stay in hospital with u"

I SWEAR THAT I WAS FIGHTING TO KEEP MY TEARS FROM FLOWING OUT AT THAT POINT OF TIME.

If u all know me, u would have known that my ah bu dotes on my bro like sai lol. For her to say that....... Makes me wanna cry now also :")

And then I was like, shit who should I tell arh? I dun wan make it sound like I AA and want people to visit me.. But really la I wan ppl to visit me cos I need to stay in hospital for a couple of days and it is gonna b so boring plssss.

IF I HAVENT TELL U HOR, it is cos I no chance to say or dunno how to bring up this topic k. Not cos I dun wan let u know horrrrr. I will say sooner or later one la cos I can't keep my mouth shut on big news one rem? Lol.

I told kit cos I was already msging her and she said she will visit me aft she knocked off. Sibeh gandong pls cos I know she usually just wants to lie on her sofa and faint aft work (she starts work at 6am- BEFORE THE SUN RISES YO).

Then I told zh cos he already say what bestie must tell each other everything and already scold me for not telling him sth (#hope lol). Plus he (and my bro) are the only close guys (excluding my papa of cos) I know who wun be scared off by tears one. Then Aiya, cos this bestie hor, can say anything to him one so I dump all my negatives on him and he was like "I GO FIND U AFT WORK TODAY EVEN THO I WORKING 12hr shift OKIES. DUN DIE".

He didn't say it like Tt la haha. And I was like OMGSOTOUCHEDIWANNACRYALLOVERAGAIN.

So CZH, I wanna take this chance to tell u, no u didn't mess up my life, and thank u for treating me like the best bestie ever and being there when I wan cry. But hor I see your face I never cry Liao I dunno why AHHAHAHAHHA.

And I'm super thankful to sissy who keeps helping me find info to claim from insurance blahblah and helping me think of solutions *touched*.

Plus also special thanks to Lyndia lindaiyu because she helped me set up appt at Thomson medical cos her aunt works there la. Den she was also the one who told me to get a second opinion of this thing so I can be more fang xin.

有你们真好 🙆🏻

pH scribbled @ 7:34 AM

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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

I am my mother'a daughter after all

Spoke to mommy jus now for abit with regards to work. And I realized that I am my mommy's daughter after all :D

The way we handled work stuffs is the same!!!!! Hahaha. In a good way (: And I'm so glad that my parents brought me up the correct way..so that I can now work with no guilt and no regrets (:

Glad that I had that mini htht with mommy jus now. Wanna blog this down so that I can remember how it feels like - the simple and quiet happiness of knowing that the integrity that I have is passed down from my parents..and mommy, too, will handle things the same way if they were me. Soooooo glad that I am my mommy's daughter!!!

Labels: #mommy #htht

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Thursday, September 19, 2013

this is the first random entry in 2013 and there will be more to come

HELLO BLOG, long time no see.
Blogger has changed so much that I'm abit confused now o.O Havent been blogging for ages and I kinda forgot how to blog (hurhur).

I remember in the past, when i saw something interesting, i'd go "hmm.. I MUST BLOG THIS YO!" Yes I said "YO" cos i was young and cute and innocent then. Now, I'll go "hmm.. I MUST INSTAGRAM THIS!" ya no more "YO" at the back cos I'm old and cuter and not so innocent anymore. SIGH. time changed..time flies... fruit flies too (gua guaaaaa..)

I CANT BELIEVE I JUST REMINISCED THE PAST LIKE I AM 50 YRS OLD OR SOMETHING.

Okayyyyyyyy.

Time for a bit of updates for the past few months. or years. lol. I still remember that I wanted to blog about the mochi korea trip.. and that was in 2011 dec! 2011 seems like eons ago ph-leaseee.

NEWS FLASH: I just bought the latest Nicholas Sparks book - The Longest Ride!!! Ive bought ALL his books (except one which is a non-novel) and this makes it the.. 16th book. Considering that I ALWAYS buy the book when it first came out (and costs the MOST EXPENSIVE), I think i spent an average of.. $20 ($26.95 is the price of the new book..but some of his older books costed quite cheap =x) * 16 books = SGD$320.

Dear Nicholas Sparks, I spent so much on you leh.. when are you coming to sg to sign all my 16 books?? :( I hope some nicholas sparks' agent can stumble upon this nice little blog and arrange an Asia (SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!) tour ya? :D yala the fastest way is to email them I KNOW.. but i am a cool fan, and cool fans dont do tt =p

ok i've had fun blogging this entry lol. think I'll come back and type nonsense again :D

it is now 1237am and i got to wake up at 6am for work cos i got TONS of stuffs not finished *sigh*. BYES!

Loves - Minions, Nicholas Sparks, Iphone 5s
Dislikes - diets, fats, somuchworkigonnadie

pH scribbled @ 9:39 AM

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Monday, January 7, 2013

Happy 2013 :D

I think my post title is kinda cliche but oh well, first post in 2013 is like that de right?
Next I'll be posting new yr resolutions wahhahah :D

For the past year...
i would like to think that I've matured.. at least a little. Yaya i still get mad when BSG refuses to tell me his facebook (i've asked him a million times), but i concluded that I have the right to be mad cos im generally an angry person wahahahaha *excuses*

And it isnt my fault that I get mad at friends who love to act secretive (read: feng) and refuse to tell me anything though they've basically known the story of my life cos i answer every single thing that they asked while they skipped my qns to them. IF IT WERE U U WILL ALSO ANGRY RIgHT!!!

And it isnt my fault that stupid and evil ppl just have to bully my loved ones, making me very angry at them and at my loved ones for being so silly to be bullied.

ok i think i need anger management courses -_-

Apart from that, I think i've become more matured :D *self-delusion*

And I am happy that I've managed to stay happy throughout the year.. despite some disheartening news and downs in 2012 (read: mochi :().

It had been one of the most fulfilling years of my past 25yrs of existence.. with graduation from uni (for me and sissy!) and 5th yr anni @ work. Apart from that, the friendship from my strategy classmates is still going strong, even though classes had ended almost a year ago. So proud of us yo~

and I guess that the people and relationship makes up EVERYTHING in 2012. (and passable grades for me to grad =p) SO thank you to all my family and friends - for being there in one way or another, for being such awesome creatures in my life, for helping me to jian fei in one way or another..

which brings me to my dearest Mochi.
I know that you guys care the most, and are the best everrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
I'm trying.. though not very hard.
But i will succeed soon, i hope :'(
Cos I really miss you all alotzzzz.

and to my dear lunchtime friend.
i havent forgotten about you..though the time we know each other isnt long, i'm really glad to have you in my life (: forever. haha.

ok that's all about 2012.
In 2013, my resolutions....

1) jian fei (seriously.. i wanna take this off the list next year -__- cos this has been top of the list for the past 10yrs haha!)

2) stay happy and treasure everyone i love (:

3) earn and save more money!!

kthanksbye!

pH scribbled @ 7:54 AM

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Thursday, November 1, 2012

test test

blogged one entry here and it cant be posted *pulls hair*

test test. this entry better be posted or ill slap the app.lol.

pH scribbled @ 5:23 PM

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Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Just to update, Sissy and I have both graduated! WOOHOOOOOooooo.
ok la im a show-off.. but this is really smth to show off okies :')
years (hers 2yrs, mine 3) of hardships juggling work and study and we finally did it :''''')

papa and ah bu sure seem proud of us :''''''''''''''''''''''''')
Lol. but them being them, they will never go show off to other ppl de la.
sometimes i wish ah bu will, then she wun have to listen to those san gu liu po showing off about their sons/daughters *pui*.

I mean, one even showed off cos her son went straight to 2nd year in uni (cos he frm poly ma). like hello? alot of uni courses are like tt de what. For poly kids i mean. even my own bro goes straight to 2nd yr uni and i dont find anything amazing about that -_-||

So I told ah bu to show off to that kuku woman that her (my ah bu i mean) de son is from commando, has good figure (omg cant believe i type tt -_-) and smart brains. On top of it, he has a good character (eh.. i cant vouch for that though heh).

then this other woman kept going on and on about her son being the most guai son on earth OMGGGGGGG. i sure hope his future wife has a "good" time with the mom-in-law lollll. oh and she says her son is apparently in some top-notch army sector (or whatever you call it la im too mad to go think of the exact terms). when asked what is the sector her son is in, SHE DOESNT KNOW -__-|| just kept saying it's top-notch blahblah.

wa lao. i been ta-haning her since sec sch days lo. in those days she kept comparing her sons' grades to my bro's. den damn happy cos her son won my bro by a few marks. like WHO CARES YO. both their marks in the 50s leh wa lao. no matter how you compare it's still lousy right -_-||

Anger aside, I am thankful for such wonderful parents who bring my siblings and i up CORRECTLY and HUMBLY (ok la i not very humble i know =P) and here is to a better future, pay rise high high and good health! (:

pH scribbled @ 9:19 AM

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Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Next phase of life?

After my last paper every semester, i would nv fail to tell myself "___sems to go before grad!!" That had served has a silent cheer for me to push on, to continue pursuing my p.t degree without quitting my ft job lolll.

3 years.. it seemed so long ago but yet, i could still remember the first time i went to pay e sch fees with my hard-earned money, and the reluctance to hand e money over to e cashier + e sound of my heart being smashed cos my bank was left with $1 aft the sch fees lol.

I could still remember e first time i went to class, feeling lost and scared that no one will wanna grp with me for projs(tt nv happened, btw. Cos im a lovable and cute and friendly girl okie. Wahahahahha. Plus the fact tt for a couple of modules, my fren jessica will very friendily de intro her frens who r in my class to me heh.- so thnx to her for tt:))

i could still remember the adrenaline rush at the beginning of every semester and the promises to work hard. And of cos the laziness and procrastination that took over my body.and mind aft e first 2 wks haahhaah.

I will always remember the nice ppl who fetched me frm sch when i went to collect my txtbks(damn heavy ok im a weak and frail girl, i can't carry so many bks hehe). Thanks to jessy, mr.policeman and oldie heh.

I will always remember the late/overnights at Jessy's house lollll. The last min uploading of assignments and praying that it wun hung or we would be deadddddd.

I will always remember the ppl who nagged/ encouraged me when i was slacking or feeling like i wanna give up or wanna die lollll. And the jia yous tt everyone have given me during my exam period ^{they r of cos my frensssssss and jessy(thnx for scolding me to do assignments hehe) and angel (for e help w my assignments and ur naggings and... naggings hhahhaha and advices) and and and my papa!! He will always ask "how is ur exam???" And be more worried than me abt how i fare lol. And i still rem his disappointment when i failed finance e first time.. *dont wanna think abt it or ill cry again* and thnx to cheny for studying with me haha. Tho we always ended up chatting more than studying heh. I will miss changi airport t2 staff canteen de!!

And lastly, i will always remember the little friendships that were created. Sadly most of e friendships died lollll cos we nv cross paths aft tt haha. And lao niang is not a very small talk person so i nv find em small talk la. Haha. Super thankful to have jessica who stuck with me throughout the 3yrs, and to friends who r still in contact w me - siew may, irene, huijun, and my strategy classmates- esp jackie, daphne and alan haha. They really rock, btw. Thanks to my tutor cedric!!!! He is really one of da best teachers ive had in my life.!!!

yesterday, was the last paper of my degree life. there wasnt anymore countdowns to grad. Cos, I HAVE GRAD.

(Though there is a very high chance that I'll fail one of e modules WAHAHAHAA).

and so ive seen alot of my friends fb-ing tt they are going to the next phase of their lives( cos theirs is ft degree ma.)

Then i went... "next phase? Simi next phase? "

cos im still at my current job, doing the same stuffs. What i feel is that a part of my life has been carved out( the sch part) and now i feel so empty and lost cos i dont know what to do to fill in that missing part. Haha. Some tell me that I've chionged so much for e past 3yrs, juggling both sch and work. It's time to rest. But the truth is, i dont know how to sia. I guess ill learn:D and i bet it will tk me no time to learn at all. Cos slacking is in my blood heh heh.

I guess i will work hard on finding a new goal to achieve} jian fei! Hehe.

pH scribbled @ 8:25 AM

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