:D


aigooo. this song by 2AM is stuck in my head during my EG exam cause i kept replaying it while i was studying. oh wells, exams were long over , just hope that i wont screw too much of my exams because i expect they will be screwed. but i got my short breaks for now ! :D had steamboat dinner with my lovelies on the last day of my exam - 3rd DEC ! and shopping spree with my beloved limmmy. alright, not considered lah. But i really have the urge to shop during exam period. and then we gave my beloved wodeairen esther soh a birthday surprise ! :D cant wait to meet darlings tmr :D finally my sakae sushi craving is gonna be fulfilled ! :D

Don't you think Human are weird creatures ? They have the urge to do something (like slacking , shopping , etc ..) when they are not allowed to do so. And yet, when they have the time, they don't find these activities enticing anymore. okay , maybe it is just me.

I used to rant that i dont have sufficient time to relax, chill, sleep as much as I want. But now, I have the time. But I'm lost. I'm not exactly a workaholic. It just feels so weird not doing anything at home besides chilling . using laptop. watching television. Wanted to go out yet feel guilty for spending money without earning them back. Maybe i should find some skills to learn or whatsoever !

and i feel like painting my room GREEN . what do you think? haha. something random !

Falling for you-Colbie Caillat


I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'till I
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you


As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards yu
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me
I'm trying not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So i'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
holding this inside my head
I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you



Oh i just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out
I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I can't stop thinking aobut it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
Ooohhh
Oh no no
Ohhhhh
Oh I'm fallin' for you



sweet songgg to brighten your day :D i'm taking a short break from webcast lecture and i'm off now !

Hold on - David Choi

You fought your way up to the wall
But you haven't gone past at all
While gazing with tear filled eyes
You just can't help but ask why?


Trying hard is what it takes
Then why does it feel like a mistake
The world has taken its side
You just want to run away and hide


It's tough
There's no one to turn to
I hear, screaming inside you,
Feels like hell's all you've been through
Hell's all you've been through


Hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams and
I feel them too


Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and praying for you
For you
For you


All your peace seems far away
But you know there comes a day
When everything's so bright
All the darkness you feel subsides


And in the rising of the sun
You can finally say it's done
The world will take your side
And your heart will start to shine

I will be
Holding onto you
There is
Nothing you can't do
I will try to be strong
Try to be strong


So hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams
And, I feel them too

Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and praying for you


I'll never let go of you
I'll never let go of you
I'll never let go of you
Of you


Hold on
Don't stop your breathing
I see your dreams
And, I feel them too


Hold on
Don't lose your faith
I know you can't break
I'm hoping and waiting for you

it suddenly feels so weird to update my soon-to-be dead bloggg ! oh well , it seems like i've got many things to work on on my to-do list . midterms are over for me ! :D something to be glad about after having all the tests cramped in a weeek . But there's still many many steps away for me to attain good grades. SO JIAYOU BAH everyone. so here goes my very very short and boring post.

I'M A :( :( :( :( GIRL WHEN:

i get crappy feelings sometimes because things don't get solved :(
i feel bad as I've not done enough as a friend, daughter, girlfriend , sister
i get mood swings
i 'm unsure of what to expect from the new environment !
i find myself fat and ugly
i have breakouts !
i have nothing to do



I'M A :D :D :D GIRL WHEN:

i get new Korean songs in my phone
i manage to dig out and get to borrow jodi picoult's book in the library
i have wonderful & gay friends who willing to go through extra mile to do things for me
i have a crappy and concerned bf
i get to go out with people i love during outings
i feel healthy when i go for a jog
i have a gay sister when we don't quarrel HAHA
i'm letting things go as ignorance is really a bliss
i have the privilege to study
i get to sleeeeppppp
i get to drink my favourite yoghurt drink
i get to eat foods that i've craved for
i bake things that are nice (which is impossible lol.)
i get to make new friends
i get to camwhore (with people of course. )



OKAY. so i'm not as grumblyyy and unhappppy as i think i am ! :D:D :D :D

EHH ! miss Pan shiying has been behaving like a very very very free person for the past few weeks :D (JOBLESS mah ) she watched Shinee reality show, read storybook . she went to join sheares hall camp with kuku and limmy last week and enjoyed playing the games very much , cause it was very different from those experienced during jc orientation. And she managed to make friends there :D but then , she didn't meet anyone who took exactly the same course as her EH ! BOO. and everybody was like saying for engineering , the males proportion is very much greater than females - like 70-30 ?? AIGOO, cause she 's going to study in a male-dominated environment. fortunately she got her gay REDDDDDYY with her (:

hopefully there will bioengineering camp eh, which she don't think have. She won't be going to other random camps bah cause she thinks it will be sian if she keeps going to camp and play the same games over and over again.

She behaved like a suagu tourist because she went to visit jurong birdpark with botakboy and nightsafari with part of the gang :D And she also behaved like a pig too because she slept around 10 hours each day :/ the shopaholic side of her disappeared as she didn't bought anything when she went shopping with wobble like a tofu , banana and bimmmy !

LASTBUTNOTLEAST , she got her new laptopppy and being an un-ITsevyperson. she's still figuring out their functions :)


the above mentioned is her mundane life updates and she guessed nobody will be stalking her blog anyway :D

joblesss update

i'm jobless starting from tomorrow =x ,which means i will earn lesser because i will just survive on teaching tuition and will be so free because tuition kids are going on the holiday too ! i'll be so bu xi guan . hoho , mogu said i'm going to the mould-at-home club lol. the job of being afterschool care teacher is challenging cause you need to constantly remind them to do their work , reprimanding them when they get too rowdy and rough , being called "selfish" when we didn't let them play catching LOL , and dealing with unreasonable remarks from lao ah pek. now we're praying hard that we still get our pay from him .

Moreover, i've once doubted my childhood ambition of becoming a good teacher because its not as easy as it seemed. sometimes it gets pretty hard controlling a bunch of rowdy boys and they merely turned deaf ears to your instructions . and maybe because of our age, they treat us more like jiejies rather than teachers . haha but childish me still laughed at some of their funny and cute actions and played with them (: at least its not a stagnant job after since i can slacked and dealing with all sort of weird things without stoning somewhere.

Anw, i've choosen to take bioengineering at nus instead . and i'm going to experience 4 days hostel camp on 9-12 june (: and i'm going hongkong at the end of june despite having swine flu there. hopefully it will die down during that period bah.

So during my super free/ san nang period , I'm going to do things to enrich myself before entering into university bah.

to mug for korean since i'm always so slow at learning language
to read up on A level biology since i don't have the prior knowledge
to read storybook & become nerdy
to have catchups with the wonderful people !
to exercise =D (swimming , jogging , gym , anything ! )
to learn some skills? ( Like cooking? LOL )


hhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm. hopefully i won't rot at home. HAHA.


one more weeeeeeeekk (:

hoho. for don't know what reason, i've been listening to ShiNee's songs for the past few days eh =D . had 2e bbq gathering on good friday. its cool reminiscing the past eh , we thought of the things we used to do and nicknames we used to give each other =B

yayyayyayyayyayayayayay, i received letter from ntu to study bioengineering eh . don't worry kong-goon , you will receive yours sooon ! maybe we ended up in the same course and in the same uni eh ! (: now still waiting for nus's letter then ii shall decide !

and hopefully the idea of asking gang /part of the gang to go malaysia (genting/cameron highland ) is finalised . we have been deliberating over this for so long and have yet to ask the rest cause it is not confirmed yet. Places we will be going doesn't matter because its a rare opportunity for us to gay and have fun !

and MAYBE i'm going vietnam with my sister (the tourguide!) and mummmy for relaxing (nono. not shopping) trip. tentatively, but not confirm ! and as usual, gayed with my sister as she often suan-ed me eh !

went to marina barrage with mrleezhikang yesterday. night scenery is beautiful , for suagu like me. its a great pity ii didn't bring my camera along =x .

i'm going to meet my dearest jc clique for dinner next sundayyy ~ and gang steamboat outing next next sunday ~

ooohno. need to work out more to shed all those sinful stuffs away. as promised , going to the gym/ swimming pool at least once a weekday after work ! :)


oh no, pardon me ! my blog post is super rojaked and random and so un-adult.

sinful !

hmmmm. yummmmyy.

uhm.

ghem chek.

free cotton candy.

stationmate =D

funnnnnny video by the gay !

US (:

syaffy !

kuku =D

kongggyy

limmmy !

we're taking care of the watermelons .

=D , i finally updated after so long ( a month only ! haha) now i've lost track of the things that happened around me and hmmmmmmmm.. i finally submitted the uni application after many considerations . i wished i made the right choice lol !

work- i'm getting powerless over the kids lol ! its tough getting them to do more work cause they will complained that we're torturing them , which is true ! haha . there are some seh moments because sometimes its draining to tell them rationales of adults and young adults (like me !) for asking them to do homework , because for them , they just wanted to play and get rowdy with each other. fortunately there's someone out there who always listen to my rantings :) but i don't want to deprive them from childhood memories lah, so i also played with them during their play time. especially for the past few days, i've been playing monopoly and english chess with them =x so i wished the newly hired teacher will be able to control them lol !

went to volunteer at ig camp with the gays last last weekend ! this time is much more relaxing compared to last time because we get to stay at chalet and free entries to wildwildwet.

many people whom i know had their birthday last month (march !) and today (shihui =D) . happy birthdayS to lailai, danai, mummmy, limmy, chingching and xiaowen ! <3

doubleraindows- its semicircle somemore and ii saw it twice at my workplace (:

inpromptu gathering after receiving the result. seee! tofusao so busy eating tofu and never meet up with us twice ! haha (:

and some photos taken few weeks before...

ii don't like its nose !

gay !

the animals are too tired to let me look at them move

topone with the girls (:

bunsen/matong !

chingching

and mogu ): i never take individual photo with you leh !

lunched at pizzahut with some of my classmates at tampines mall before heading back to mj to receive the A level result. i saw the result on school portal in the morning , but i don't dare to believe for fear that the result slip states otherwise ma. and so , looking at the result online doesn't seem ease my anxiety.

and whaaaa . congrats to all who scored many many distinctions for their A level . for those who are disappointed with their results , life goes on and things will eventually work out :)

overall , i'm contented and happy with my results already . and i'm glad that gangmates , jc cliques and my loved one make it. and i'm thankful to those who helped to shape my jc life in one way or the other - my friends , tkdmates , and the teachers ! (:

i'm going to buy and reward myself with a new running shoes (cos ii lost mine ! haha) and a bag (if ii saw a desired one ) and the gay kuku purchase bigbang (obviously because of her seungri !) online to reward herself =D