random post.like seriously.

Days has been pretty beautiful right?Or is it just me?..
I mean weathers been on our side.Sun has been generous.okay la.A little too generous maybe.I mean bright days make us smile don't they.hrm.I've been going thru hurricanes with a lil more poise and alot more guts.I'm likeing how things are.Very much.

I'm missing alot of people lately.
Old friends.
Cousins.
hrm.
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.sweet.

Our first was under the sky with a beautiful moon and shining stars, with beautiful songs, as we star gaze and talk about love.It was nice.Genuinely nice.It was purfect.Purfect for me.Perfect in the sense that it was as tho we were at the right place at the right time.Like it was made for us.Everything that happen was nothing bizzare and unbelieveable.It was honest and beautiful.Jus for a simple fact that it was YOU who is sitting next to me.

I thank thee for a lovely night.
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now tell me this isnt all just a dream.
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thank euu to my pakciks and makcik for a great day today.
haha.fadz,saba,izzat and hid.

belle

I open my curtains and let the sunshine in. It is a new day, I think to myself, it is a new life.I can't help it but wakes up with a smile.Nothing but a wide optimistic smile. Not concerning about what lies ahead of me.For i've so much to be thankful for..so much.

Life been beautiful..

Jus because of

capv nec capv?

Jeux D'enfants



Monsieur Julien Janvier and Mademoiselle Sophie Kowalsky

A Beautiful show.
i watched this yesterday with Ili.
and damn we can't watch another.
À la folie... pas du tout
(he loves me, he loves me not).

This two french movies are greatly recomended.

Merci beaucoup!

smooth sailing

it sort of strikes me when i think of it.
a conversation with another soul you hardly know
his words makes me realise something i fail to see.
not that the issue was subjected to me
it came through quite random actually

I'm trying to be contented.
And i mean not just happy..
but enjoy myself till my heart content.
smile like i mean it and continue to be who i am.

i love it the way it is...

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your sincerity goes a long way.
and thats the best give i can get.

oh' confection

Our inane and incongruous ramble tells me that i can talk to you about almost
anything under the grey/blue sky.
you and your effortless attempt to carved a smile on my face
give me the tingles.your compassion drive me wild.

You are witty and funny and that's a bonus.
your honesty and sincerity was a strike.

you are nothing but beautiful saccharine
for a sweet-toothed like me.
For that i thank thee.
For just being ur wonderful self.

i miss myself

People don't prefer rain to rays, crying to laughing, and analyzing to "enjoying the moment" without a reason. We try to attain perfection in life, but we secretly indulge in chaos because smooth sails and beds of roses scare us at times. Imperfection becomes soothing. Deep down inside, something of our past makes us believe that we don't deserve to be happy. Struggles make us feel more human somehow.We struggle and hope that there are someone to catch when we fall.We do that and want to land on a comfy sofa and sink in deep seeking asylum.Sometimes if you constantly like to identify yourself with darker thoughts, you will realise that you are unwilling to hear the truth because it tears at the core of who you think you are. It's not easy to leave a comfort zone and embrace different, to be real and spontaneous and to do what's right at the same time, but i'm giving it my best shot, despite myself. I confess that i'm really scared of changes sometimes, even if i know it's for the better. Self-denial. I wish the vending machines sell bottled courage. That would be 'more setbacks' per dollars, thankyouverymuch.

Yes setbacks makes us learn.
But it has come to not only a dissapointing state but a heartbreaking one
When you just feel that you've learn enough through mistake that you wish so bad that
life would be less callous on you.

It's like you've been pushed again and again on the ground knowing that's your limit because you're just human.
And then life kicks you up and tell you to get going no matter what state you're in.
It's sad.
Very sad.

magical moment that lasted a few

i had my magical moment yesterday with Dee.
Our precious 'quality time together' was definitely the highlight.

While enjoying the indulging cheesecake and the gift.

i smile and thank god for giving me her and giving me light for atleast that moment

yes love.it was definitely simple but magical.

thanks Dinee!

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now aside frm that
its been hell of a ride

and if its a rollercoaster i probably puke and die on the spot

but its not..so i'm just worn out

(so you can see at the rate of how often i blog and what i talk about)

now being optimistic doesnt help either, its just being in denial.

and it suck like fuck to keep pretending.

i need some break here.

I've so much to think about and much more things running in mind

i'm coping thing not so pretty well as euu can see

i saw things almost falling apart while i try so hard to save 'em

i try so hard to stand firmly on the ground

but at times feel my emotion swaying away..

now can i jus drop and cry?

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at the rate of how i speak on things

see how cannot be bothered i am

with things around me

opps!

In case i lost my train of thoughts where was it that we last left off?
Let's pick up pick up
Oh now i do recall, we just were to the part...