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okay~ finally i hav my own blog... no doubt i'm a lazy person... tat is y i keep considering whether i'm "capable" to be a blogger or nt....haha....any way, i am a blogger nw.... xp Pie in the sky~ just randomly put tis name...mayb i wish those tragedies which happened in my life were just a dreamzz... everything will b alright after i'm awake frm my dream...will it b? well~ i noe that reality is cruel, i'll face it... To all of U : sometimes thing just out of our control, so y don't v master the things that can b control in our hand?? go0d Luck guys~

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Rejected "P"




Dear friends,

thanks for the motivation & support from u guys~ its sweet & warm.....
but something bad happen to me recently....

hmm... where shall i start?
To be honest, i feel depressed these few days, my mood is totally down...
Rejected Product.... Do u noe wat it feels lik? for being rebuffed?! ><

U r the 1 who gave me hope & bring me into the World of Fantasy,
i gave my vry best & tried so hard to fulfil ur requirements,
but now u''re telling me that it has been turn down....
now i'm hurt and feel dread....

I tried so hard   And got so far 
But in the end   It doesn't even matter 
I had to fall      to lose it all 
But in the end   It doesn't even matter 

I've put my trust in you 
Pushed as far as I can go 


for all this
There's only one thing you should know 






Fortunately, i've got more than just 1 dream~ =P
so i'm gona focus on my "Plan B" & hope it works as smooth as possible.

It doesn't matter if you fall down,
it's whether you get back up - Micheal Jordan






Rejected "P" (华)

  
亲爱的朋友,
谢谢你们一直以来的支持及关心,
因为有你,路途不再孤单。
可惜的是,最近发生了一些让我心碎的事……


你一次又一次地给我希望、让我有遐想的空间。最后我鼓起了勇气,走上了这个“与现实上有差距”的道路。路途中,我接到不少鼓励、正面的回应,但负面的冷嘲热讽往往来得较多,当然众人对我泼的冷水不至于让我放弃,反而更积极。
很遗憾的是,如今,一切都灭了…… 你绝情地把一切烧毁,那感觉犹如把我从天堂里推入地狱,很痛、很伤… 或许是我没有天赋,或许是我太稚气。
我再也不敢幻想了,想那叫我痛彻心扉的梦……也不敢去追寻了,追寻那叫我刻骨铭心的梦……
但是泪水冲不走昔日的记忆,也洗不掉过去的精神。过去的努力不会是白费的,我还是很感激提拔我的那位“伯乐”,在此向他说声抱歉,这匹千里马要朝其他方向去了。
我会很快地往第二个“梦”前进,昨日的记忆与精神将会陪我继续踏入人生的另一个阶段,虽然有点彷徨、有点忧虑……
Anyway,Life doesn't have a take 2 所以我会尽一切努力让它继续精彩~!!!

Thursday, July 21, 2011

22/7

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身边的友人似乎都过得不赖,替他们感到开心。
未来的方向似乎一塌糊涂,真替自己担心。
唉~!

虽然目前的计划不被多数人祝福、认同、甚至支持…
但,我还是会完成“它”。
我不是超人,会有灰心、低潮的时候…
难免会在寻梦的路途上,迷失了预定的目标…
只希望在一切还没落幕前,尽我所能,做到最好……

我会回到现实世界,循规蹈矩、按部就班地为我的人生画上美丽的彩虹
告诉自己,我需要的,只不过是一些时间!!
加油~!!

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

对不起我的朋友……

刚游览了数位好友的网站,惊讶地发现原来我久违的朋友最近经历了人生中
所有人都必须面对的悲欢离合……

很感慨、很抱歉、很愧疚……

Thursday, April 21, 2011

th3 Princess?!



i'm HOME...
i'm back to a place that provide me a warm bed + nice foods...
it even provides me laughters, happiness & comfyy~.
it's like a castle for me,
it's the only place that i could act like a "Princess".... or a "sleeping Beauty" perhaps?! =D


i believe some of u may feel the same way like me,
when u wake up in the morning, the breakfast r there for u~
when u feel boring, some1 will always b there to chat wif u~
when u feel happy, they will clap their hand & cheer wif u~
when u r sad or emo, they will hook u up wif classical crap jokes~ (绝世经典冷笑话)
when u feel lazy, some1 will give u a hand & ur name will b eliminated frm "housework schedule" =P




Being a "Princess" doesn't mean that i'll have 2k per month as my pocket money~
for me, it just as simple as daddy mummy able to pamper me when i need them,
when i feel lik wana eat "char kuew tiao" they just buy it for me,
when i feel lik lazy to hav my breakfast, they'll scold me & force me at least drink a glass of milk~
etc...
that's "princess" enough for me. =))
Even Disney princesses have different kind of lives + characters, it depends on how u view it
or shall i say:"which 1 do u wish to b~" 
Jasmine, Belle, Ariel, Cinderella, Aurora and Snow White? =P














mY perception changed through out these few years,
10 years ago, i would used "incomplete" / "unhappy" / "noisy" / "complicated"
those kind of words to describe my family.
i believe that people around me notice about tat... my changes.


"Do my Best & bring them to a better life" -- is my current mindset. =) i'll appreciate what i hav rather thn complaining "why i cant hav a simpler live just like the others?!"




We're gonna Build-up "things" on our own,
things that v acquire for but doesn't "currently" exist in our life.
Guys, life is full of challenges, that's y it's fun & colourful~
=D
Don't u agree wif me?! *wink



  phebe

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

13th April 2011

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13th April 2011

pheew~ wat a busy day~~!
though i am exhausted but i am superbly happy & satisfy wif my current life~

people, things r like tat.... 
if u wanna get something, then u'll hav to contribute (or sacrifice? =P) something....

tis angle doesn't looks like me huh? =)



B4 going to Studio~ =)
Erm, the main value tat i'm gonna share in Today's Lesson is~
noe wats ur Goal~ & just Go for it.....
during the process of pursuing ur DreamZz,
no matter how tired u r,
ur face will still put on a smile from.... the bottom of ur Heart....
P/S:
Peeps~ need ur help here.... 

& LIKE mY photo here.... ^_*v

=D
1 single click will help a lot~ thAnks~

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

i'm only me when i'm with u~

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28th March 2011
here's where the story begin....




bought her some "sweet pie" & share her a video =D
29th mArch hanging out wif my hOney~










mY Art-work XD

B'day card from miSs Ally~



it brings me lots of memories when i flash back those photos & videos... =)



Friday, March 25, 2011

24th March

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it wasn't a Gd day seriously....
but luckily i found a light which guide me to the right path....

i failed few things recently~ haha....
but 1 thing i'm gona stress here is "i failed to control my emotion"
i told myself tat tis is a very very negative behaviour & i need to work on it....

we shouldn't make others feel bad cause of ur own  emotion,
friends doesn't deserve to feel ur madness....


so people, EQ is quite a tough subject to learn in our life,
yet it's very important!
if u done "this paper" well,
thn u r able to manage ur emotion well....
sorry for those who "kena my madness b4" ~
i'm trying my best to study tis subject. =)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

最重要的决定~

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超感动的!!
从黑白配开始我就觉得他们真的天生一对了~!
超配的!好羡慕哦!

刚看完康熙(16、17号),整个哭到不行!!!太感人了啦!!!
 =')



♫ ♪ ♩   ♫ ♩  ♪   ♩ ♪ ♫


我常在想 应该再也找不到 任何人 像你对我那么好
好到我的家人也被照料 我的朋友 还为你撑腰
你还是有 一堆毛病 改不掉 傲起来 气的仙女都跳脚
可是人生 完美的事太少 我们不能什么都想要
你是我最重要的决定 我愿意 每天在你身边苏醒
就连吵架也很过瘾 不会冷冰 因为真爱没有输赢 只有亲密

你是我最重要的决定 我愿意 每天在你身边苏醒
就连吵架也很过瘾 不会冷冰 因为真爱没有输赢 只有亲密
你是我最重要的决定 我愿意 打破对未知的恐惧
就算流泪也能放弃 将心比心 因为幸福 没有捷径 只有经营

♫ ♪ ♩   ♫ ♩  ♪   ♩ ♪ ♫


我很疑惑,
我的脑海里所浮现的,
太复杂了,
我的脑袋负荷不了,
还是把它搁在一旁好了!

Monday, March 21, 2011

i knew it....


as wat i had predicted, those situations really happen....
it just lik Earthquake aftermath,which causes damage on human's properties + industrial facilities + development of particular countries....
the difference here is it affecting mY patience + mY happiness + mY family + mY friends & even mY life!!!



i don see any reason for me to show my madness & tears in front of the public,
but somehow i did cox i couldn't stand any more,
it only shows in front of those who close wif me....



although i had mentioned that i don care how people perceived me as a human being,
but it still affect my EQ in some way,
wat i'm gona say is, thanks for putting such effort & concentration on me, as a normal person, i feel the "prestige" & the spotlight around me.
 What a jOke....



any way, i stil retain the previous me!
i dono why some of those can't see the fact here...
when ur house is on-fire, fireman + water would b very helpful or it could be said that its necessity.
what if when there is a flood ??? & u still provide me fireman + water, does it making any sense?
the point here is when "the value" isn't a demand (or needs) thn it no longer perceive as "a value"....
similarly wif "u ask a doctor to defend innocence, while ask a Lawyer to conduct a surgery"





20th March
yesterday wasn't a Gd day for me,
some conflicts btw my dad & bro r still occur as usual....
it brings me to a more determined thoughts!!


people, life doesn't have a reset button & it doesn't have a take 2,
so pls appreciate ur precious time to achieve ur goals~!!!

Good Luck every1~! 

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Never hurt the heart that ♥ you

I'm so tired of obstacles that around me recently,
Lots of bad things happened,
sad news from Japan.... so many lives lost....
few things bump into me at the same time, make me confuse with mY PrincipaL~

i started to feel that "decision making" isn't that easy.... since when?
i always thought that it was just a piece of cake~ 
=D 
mayb i shall happy cox it indicates that my mind is growing-up & i see things differently. 
A piece of Pie thn... XP



16th March
just finish with my International Biz. presentation, i suppose to feel grateful & proud,
1 of my beloved tutor, Mr. Lawrence said something good on my performance...
but i found that it doesn't makes my heart smile, though its a good news for me... 
=(
i have been told that "ppl shall appreciate whatever u have in ur life"
does it means that we shall just sit back & waiting for something comes into ur life, no matter good or bad?!
i thought i'm clear enough with my aim & goal in my life,
too bad to say that.... i'm not actually....
people may lost in some way,
but i Do confirm that...
When my hope is fading & i'm losing the fight
some1 will definitely be there for me
: )
there he is~  mY superman!!!


U may love the heart that hurts u...
but never hurt the heart that loves you...
Thank You to Everyone
 who Loves me ♥

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

2011 March 8th



讨厌的心情……
复杂的心情……
是焦虑、是担忧、是不舍、是不甘……

我真的不是赌气吗?不是逞强吗?
姓蔡的,你好歹也拿起你的勇气吧?!
就这样……错过了吗?

熟悉与陌生的定义是什么?我不知道……
未来的日子,谁也不能预测,
再遗憾、再不安,一切仿佛已成定局……
我……还能扭转乾坤吗?
我……有能力吗?有资格吗?


就让一切顺着漂泊……
就让泪珠顺势飘流……
直到黎明……










9th March

昨晚做了一个恶魔,  
很真实,也很讽刺的梦,
但梦里的我却很无助……  
醒的时候,我仍然觉得恐慌,
忍不住,泪水涌出心头……
才发现,  
原来我的泪,是发自内心深处……

我真的害怕!

Friday, February 25, 2011

失去了才懂得珍惜


24th Feb 2011


........
not much to talk...
just feel doubt about myself,
am i doing things Correctly? am i still on the Right path?
which i hope it could lead me to the next level?

people dono what exactly in my mind,
& i DON'T CARE !!!
i do wat i feel it's right & put my 100% for it.
Yes, there is uncertainty & kinda risky,
 but u will never know wats the outcome, if u never tried.

i will still follow my own "mind map",
try my best to hit wat i aim for.
when the time i reach the next pit stop....
i really wish that some1 has already been there.


你真的了解故事背后的真相吗? *冷笑
你确定??
那好~就如你所愿……
不想理会一些“不必要”的嘲讽,
更不想因为那些“无关要紧”的人、事、物来伤心。
我不需向任何人交代什么,
但也得谢谢那些真正关心我的人。


Future might not be smooth as i thought of,
but whatever it is, the only thing i can say is :
i decide it, i deserve it !!



u may cry
but u stil hav to keep it on after u wipe off ur tears...

Thursday, February 24, 2011

一颗心的距离 ♥

为什么人会流泪?
真的只是伤心吗?当然不!
开心也可以是导致一颗颗泪珠滑落的原因哦!

为伤心、失望流泪并不特别,因为“人生不如意事,十之八九”
倘若有些事物,足以让你喜极而泣,那你就得好好享受这份快感~!!!
不是人人都能拥有的福气哦! =)

我就有啦!!还不止一次呢~!
不过我打算分享的这次呢,是与她有关的……





    
是你让我知道“施比受更快乐”!



a cAke wif Swe3t outlook
but taste just nic3~  like u~!!





友达以上,恋人未满

『好像很近 瞬间又远离,很难实现才叫梦想,才要决心 
我们终于一起 来到这里,当我激动不能言语……把我抱紧

我们隔着 一颗心的距离,有笑有哭地去回忆
夏天秋天 纯真蜕变的电影,会是一辈子做不腻的事情
静静隔着 一颗心的距离,交换最真实的情绪
庆幸 太不勇敢的纪念日里…… 你曾经 给我多重要的鼓励


♥ puRe FriendShip n3ver cAres For mOn3y~ ♥
喜欢你给我的这句话:
我们有泪水、有欢笑,我们会为小事争吵,我们会因为蠢事而冷战。但有一件事情我们绝对不会做、永远都不会做:*我们从不会虚伪地对待对方~* 



Saturday, February 19, 2011

2008五月的记忆



20-2-2011    3am


突然翻回一些旧文件…… 发现了这本“纪念册”……
这是他们带给我的记忆…… =)
谁也不能将它给删除……



我一页一页地翻阅,心情渐渐地愉悦了起来~
好怀念哦~! 其中,这一页埋藏了一些足以让我了解到……
原来我真的蛮凶的! XD





不是啦!
我想说的是,两年前和两年后的“读后感” 是有出入的……
也许是我的思维更上一层了吧?!















=) 无论如何,我会珍惜这本只属于『我们的纪念册』

Monday, January 24, 2011

bye 24th January 2011

25th     3am

from the very beginning til now....
it keeps pop up in my mind.....
my answer vary from every time to time....

guess..... i started to give up....
giving up to look for the answer which might see as a reason to maintain my current condition
a reason that cause me to stay in tis stage.....

ppl might blame cox i'm trying to give up,
but do they noe how much i've tried?!
i have been giving each n every1 lots of chances in a sufficient period
yet it still..... fail to deliver the valuable answer....

that's it.... time to ZZZ....
gd nite Every1~ gd nite phebe~

Sunday, January 16, 2011

thanks for th3 "christmas wish"......

as usual, i viewed ur profile again..... trying to "track" some of ur updates....
but u 're use to b low profile type....  :-)
yet i stil saw the X-mas wish.... thought it might nt for me.... but i'll take it as yes~!
u stil gt my attention..... dono y.....
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