1. I need to learn how to stop being entangled in my crazy, evil and scary thoughts whenever I am alone. Its like being stuck in a bog or something.
What would I give to have the opportunity to immerse myself fully in a literary environment and learn about words-how they record pieces of social and cultural history and chart the progress of different eras and stages, and to continually discover never ending areas of interest that make me go, oh, so this is how the world around us works, so strange and wondrous and intriguing at the same time.
Man this is REALLY UGLY.
Tomorrow I will:
dinner + narnia was good :D thanks girl!zhiwei and zp :D
Sometimes you stay up late at night, listening to the silence, staring blankly at a fluorescent screen before you and indulging listlessly in an inane succession of random virtual activity. Sometimes you make decisions you hope you don't regret. Sometimes you are scared, worried and on edge. Most of the time you end up thinking about things and people and being more and more confused by life and people in general. You examine your dreams and idealism and all the things you have believed will come true and you realise that sometimes you are sorely disappointed. Sometimes you tell yourself that soulmates exist but other times you feel like you will be perpetually closeted and isolated. You are muffled and you can't verbalise your thoughts; either in words or on papers. You are scared to grow up because people expect you to have accomplished something by a certain stage and when you don't its a failure, at least in their eyes. Sometimes you are just a small child. Sometimes you are just a dream. Sometimes you are me.