adulthood

1.financial independence - being able to buy things fir your family and buy thingals that u like. 2. you owe no one explaination but yourself. 3. nothing is right or wrong but u can make the best decision ; take charge. 4. can feel thhat u are giving. 7. learn muxht things

The Dutch Way of Birthday Songs ;)

Rejection and failures, only to make you stronger. If you do rejected by a company, try harder! There're 1001 good things in the world. Plan further with the right mentality! Everything has its pros and cons! Met a humble model, where she sent 100 over profiles ,only to get a reply or two at the very start.

sick, only to make you realise what's important and what's not.

change, for a better me.

I'm a sucker myself in making decision, never for once grow after 4 years. Was like that 4 years ago when making decision on courses , now it relapsed. However, I didn't regret on any major decisions that I've made along the way. That shows that regardless of which path you take, there isn't something which is totally bad or totally good.

However, I thank God for sending matured and friends with far-visioned in my life to assist me. I've learnt that to suceed, you need to see a bigger picture. Try to step out from your circle, talk to more people, and you should know what to do next. Also, if you wanna improve yourself, you really need to talk to different people, not friends who are staying in the same comfort zone as you. Yes sometimes you're very happy but in quest of happiness you tend to be complacent and forgets what is the real focus. Hence people ended up laughing hard everyday without doing anything till they wake up to the reality. We need to have a balance for that.

Was thinking very hard these days when reality hits in, when job applications process is long and lengthy.

I've spoken to JunXing and WeiLun respectively. They have thrown me very good questions which forced myself to answer them at the end of the day. He asked me, " Did you really plan for future?" I gave him a sub-par answer, even then, he asked me, " did you execute it ? " "You're very good in planning for events but not for your own future!".Yes I miss the link here.

I chose to speak to junxing because I think he can predict things accurately albeit all the conflicts we had last time. The best thing about my coursemates is they ain't as confused compared to me. Yes I can multitask but when comes to decision making, I'm totally gone. He thinks that the 6k salary is not that lucrative can always find it in singapore." If you have 2% of doubts, better don't go." "If you like the environment, then go. " " If you love to explore, then choose somewhere you want in the future, don't be desperate and succumb to the only choice you have," explore more!" " I dont think you will end up there cause your thinking process is too long , that shows that you're trying to convince yourself very hard." "If you want to be independent , then can always go to places that suit you more!"

- A Libra needs people to unblock her mind on and off!- I will pick up the skills along the way. For now, I shall concentrate on the next stage of process without being bogged down by the what-if questions!

Yes, I know what to do now! I should channel my energy to the right thing.

A short excursion in the jungle is enough for you to forget everything unnecessary and re channel your energy to the right direction.

Back to nature; back to basis is the right thing to do when you're in a puzzle direction.

Too much of IT gadgets sometimes will render you from making the right decision.

From today onwards, I'm gonna reduce my time on social networking website unless it's necessary :)

Those who are contended with oneself doesn't require show-off, either ways.

Be claer of what you're doing mag! :)

UKM, I can't foresee the day I will leave you.

From complaining to adapting to enjoying, I have really learnt a lot.

I learnt to choose my own friends, friends that carved a smile on my face always. Friends that encourages me and brings out the best in me. There's no point of being stubborn and resist changes. Changes, are always for a better you!

Because of the condition, it further enhances my confidence. My skin is comparatively thick and so I learnt a lot. I know I suck , still I try my best in different arenas, and the end product is amazing. Though I'm not as good as people who have already mastered it, but at least my passion is growing and glowing!

One week more, I gotta leave, I'll leave with a heavy heart, for all the memories I had in all these years. Everyone has to move on, regardless of sad or happy. Being happy is a phase, so as sadness.

For all the people I have met in these four years, my debaters who never failed to bring fun and colours to my life with their ever-creative jokes , my KKM girls who never failed to show their love when I need them, my music gang and my badminton mates; I will miss you all dearly, like really :)

Thank you for the memories, UKM :')

Aww, I feel so like shedding tears now but no no no! The feeling is just momentarily , I need to grow up! I hate the feeling of saying Goodbye. A feeling that I need to deal with before the day comes. sighh.

Whenever I start studying , there will be 1001 distractions and I don't know why. MY mind starts to be creative whenever I want to study. I will

1. feel hungry therefore take my own sweet time to munch on snacks before I start, 30 mins gone; worst went out for supper, 1 hour gone; ( my glucose consumption is exceptionally high on study week, especially when there's a paper on the next day :/  )
2. go to the social networking sites, 30 mins gone
3.start to organise badminton, start to call people and book court, don't care, this is damnn super fun, 4 hours gone plus makan
4.skincare plus narcissism , 30 mins gone ( looking into the mirror and smiling by myself OMG)
5.go to the library and read newspaper, 1.5 hours gone
6.go to Dectar and play the piano plus reminiscent of the nostalgia, 1 hour gone. Thank God my music gang has graduated , if not it will be a total of 4 hours.
7.lie on the bed and daydream, 1 hour gone
8.wash clothes, another hour gone
9. look at the previous photos plus reminiscent again, 30 mins gone
10.take a walk and breathe in fresh air, 30 mins
11. leisurely walk to the mini-mart and buy snacks, 30 mins gone
12.call to disturb my sister, 30 mins gone
13.future popes into my mind
14.goes to May Yee's room and share the jokes, 30 mins gone
15. play with the cats/ observe the monkeys
16.sudden urge of spring cleaning the room ( it will never happen in normal days)
17.blogging ( has never been that hardworking)

OMGGG MAG! WAKE UP! THIS IS YOUR LAST SEMESTER, CAN YOU PLEASE DON'T TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED AND DO YOUR VERY BEST!! Though you have already secured a job in CANON, but you want something more, isn't it?!! You don't want to be tied down there right?!

Abide all these, life is fun ! :D The 1001 distractions mentioned are my positive vibes, it is better than my formal days, where my mind was so occupied by only a single him. Beat and Isa must be very happy to know this! hehee I've improved! yay! :D

I've learnt something too. Never afraid of asking - jerm chong. By asking , only you'll get what you want. If you keep things to yourself, hell knows what is in your mind. Also, You can only respond accordingly after you know the responses of people. Then only you can plan the next step. Foolish people will think how people respond without even asking. They'll make decisions on behalf of other party based on their negative assumptions.

 OKAY, I REALLY THINK I NEED TO RE-CHANNEL MY ENERGY TO WORK NOW.


Signing out,

Maggie

I have a dream.

I really do have a dream.

I don't know how the future is like, but I do love to do something that I love to do, something that I really interested in. I wanna live life, I don't wanna be a slave of life.

I'm not sure whether it is practical or not, but care less.

Now that I hold a degree in Chemical Engineering, I would really go to Boston, Berkeley School of Music to persuade my interest in flute as major, piano as minor. Not today, not tommorow, but it will definitely be in the near future! :)

Someday, I would really love to perform in the London Orchestra, regardless of how old am I. I just love the feeling when I'm performing on stage, when all eyes are on you, when all the melodies beautifully complement each other; even the slightest softest note you played could be heard, because in a piece, none of the instruments supercedes each other. Every tone and voice is equally important. Though your eyes got tearful and painful because of the super bright spotlight which shone straight to your eyes. but that matter less when it comes to passion. sighh, I just miss it! Those days, those practices, those aura and those applauses !



 I never forget the moment when I performed in Konsert Diraja back then. Everyone is wearing suits and the long black gown, elegantly confidently playing their instrument. We play like a family, with proper guidance and coaching. Now that I'm graduating and this will remain the best part of my uni life.

I'm gonna reconnect with Christine, to get all the information!

I think the basic courtesy in life is to show appreciation, even by saying a simple note of Thank You.

I think people who doesn't even know the basic principle of life doesn't deserve respect at all.

I thought they have changed over time, since we haven't been seeing each other for ages and so we meet for lunch. I took the effort to fetch them but they never even say thank you, worst, complaint.

Oh well, those are in-born traits.

They are good but just, complaints are more than their appreciation. Like a simple meal, they will complain about the sponginess of the meatball, the taste of the soup, the temperature of the soup, the price etc. COME ON! You guys ain't professional writer who write reviews! For goodness sake! Hence,good food ended up sucky after their complaints. People who doesn't know how to appreciate basic happiness in life how to live a happy life?!

I'm gonna sit out. Will never eat together again. Byeeee my ex-friendss.

I like the after effect, it improves my skin complexion.

Yet again, things are at best when we are in control, don't get addicted! :)

I feel so loved nowadays.

A friend where we last spoken was a semester ago, visited me with a special Hokkaido cakes with her. and I love food, that's why hahaha

Another friend, daikajie purposely brought back her Kose emulsion for me, thinking that I might need it.

I have truly understand the feeling of by giving more, you actually gain more.

By initiating good deeds sincerely to people, they will actually share with you more. I was just happily sharing my joy of how FACE SHOP is giving free gifts to girls and I told them. Then she came back with greater news of L'Occitane and Japanese Sasa Mask.

A simple example of by sharing, by not being self-fish, you gain more at the end of the day. :) If you encounter cases of people who is taking you for granted, then that's a different story. Be smart to run away, but generally if people can feel your sincerity, they will be happy to do the same to you, or continue doing that to people around them.

Only if you are happy, you can spread the joy and love. So stay happy y'all! and I'm sure you know what makes you happy :)

I'm struck by severe indecisiveness again. It's already May now.

But Tonight ...tonight is the night that I'm going to decide for myself.

I must be clear with what I want. To enter the workforce immediately or take a break for work and travel. Even if, by staying on the field or changing field.

I'm going to have great monolouge tonight. I've scribbled two full pages of self-conversation in my diary since morning.

Men can only progress after they are firm with the decision. There're pros and cons in everything, taking too long time to decide will not bring you to anywhere.

A small positive remark is a great source of energy! :) Thnaks for praising me hahaha

Hence offer more compliments and praise your friends more if you think they deserve that! But do be sincere. People can feel it.

Don't be shy and spread the love -positive energy around!

It's satisfying to have carved a smile on people's face :)

thinks that should not take every problem to your own.

should have meet my supervisor earlier for his guidance instead of trying so hard sigh..

after all, he is there to help, nothing to be afraid of!

he is not that mean to hold you for a year more!

Has learnt that perseverance and POSITIVE ATTITUDE is the only way.

Complain and being panicky is the worst thing you can do. I'm so used to disappointment nowadays, till every data I simulated, I expected it to fail and came up with a back-up plan.I think it is better this way, expect the worst case scenario and take winning as blessings.

I felt that I'm not the only one when I walked out from the lab, everyone is still nerding in the faculty with their books, Glad that I don't have any mid-semesters now.

I hoped that when I return to the fac later, miracle will happen :/

thinks that sports person is the funniest person on Earth. They are sporty and sporting, smart to hit the ball back on time, legs are soo flexible, easy-going, dont take things personally, tactical, easily came out with jokes that are real funny.

I miss my MASUM days!! :(

I wish I can sleep in the lab however, to monitor my results closely :( THESIS, please be good!!

Self-Doubt: Your Best Friend or Your Worst Enemy
As an entrepreneur or anyone trying to achieve something, self-doubt can be your best friend or your worst enemy.

In my coaching, consulting and my own entrepreneurial endeavors over the last 30 years, I have noticed that while some people seem to have unflappable self-confidence, most seem to vacillate between self-confidence and self-doubt. By the way, I’ve also noticed that when you dig below the surface even just a bit on those who seemingly have “unflappable self-confidence,” they too have plenty of self-doubt, often times much more than everyone else. They just have well developed mechanisms for hiding their doubts from the rest of the world.

As it turns out, self-confidence and self-doubt are two sides of the same coin. Self-doubt and wanting more are an important part of the built-in mechanism that has allowed human beings to adapt and evolve over time. Self-doubt is also what fuels us to try harder and to learn more, so that we can feel that desired mental state of self-confidence, even if just briefly and periodically.

In the end, it’s really only possible to overcome self-doubt with action. You need to do something, overcome your fears and achieve something you never thought possible. That will do wonders for your self-confidence. You know how the story goes though: after a brief period of satisfaction with your accomplishment, you will likely then start to experience self-doubt again and feel the need to push on and accomplish more. If handled well, it’s what is often referred to as a “virtuous cycle.” If not handled correctly, it is likely to devolve into its evil cousin, the “vicious cycle.” Let me explain.

So let’s say you’re experiencing a serious bout of self-doubt. You’re in a funk, as the saying goes. You’re wondering if you’ll ever do anything successfully. Ask yourself a couple of questions: Am I a perfectionist? Am I always setting goals for myself that I have no possibility of attaining in the allotted timeframe? I see it all the time in the people and companies to which I coach and consult. They set impossible goals then wonder why they don’t reach them. I’ve certainly been guilty of it myself as well.

Here’s the key: set incremental goals that will allow you to reach your ultimate goal(s). Allow yourself to be successful along the journey to achieving your major goals. Will you still experience self-doubt along the way? Yes. But use it to your advantage. Use it to fuel your desire and give you energy to practice enough and correctly. Use it to motivate you to set incremental goals that will allow you to have successes and believe that you can reach your bigger goals. Use it to give you the determination you need to chart your own course to accomplishing your goals.

Don’t set yourself up for failure and constant self-doubt by setting impossible goals. Allow yourself to succeed incrementally along the way and you will be shocked how much better your results are, how much happier you feel and how much you enjoy those moments of self-confidence, even it they come and go as part of the virtuous cycle you’ve created.

dont gets angry with people who has no common sense, it shows that you are even worst.

chillll

dont get into my mind, dont get into my mind, people who are soo afraid of tiny minute mistakes they might make

do not want the last sem to sound pathetic.

shift the focus.

treasure every moment and indulge in things that you love doing!

last sem already ; play more badmin, play more flute, meet the debaters more often, must try things that I never tried before in the campus : cycling maybe? :)

dont even mind to prove to people who condemn you; people who adore and encourages, will always do.

do not focus on the pool of people, focus on the good onesss! forget about the bad oness! :) time consuming to even talk about them

FRIENDS

is very fun to talk jessie over the phone hahaha

at least I found people who understands me, who encourages and think of the same way.
I miss friends like these in uni. 30 mins of phone call really cheer me up, better than cracking jokes and initiate conversations he whole day.

we bragged and talked for 30 mins and felt that wasn't enough haha

friends who click can get close very fast

Today I learnt that

1) people who doesn't wear a smile doesnt mean that they are bad and vice versa. I was touched when Kak Yati noticed that my bag is still in the room before she left; another girl, while doing her work, is actually waiting for me to come back.

I was surprised, they didn't even say hi to me nor show their friendly faces when I walked into the room, hence I chose to ignore them everytime I come to my work station. Perhaps they just dont know how to show their feelings.

Lesson of the day : should say hi or should be more concern to each other . Never judge a book by its cover.

It's okay.

Don't get affected by the negative emotions.

Control, back to focus. Concentrate.

This is just a piece of shit in uni, when you done everything and back home, the atmosphere and environment will be different.

The difference are you're in uni now

Everything is at best when you've self control.

Don't get addicted.

Live a life of modesty.

Know what is beneficial and what is plain pleasure.

Plan your things ahead! :)

Boot Camp

This week, I learnt that :

1) You must be specific in your goal. Do not just build the castle in the air. Though this sounds normal, but you must really practise it to get the full meaning of it. Like how, what, where and when do you want it to happen. Plan out everything.

2) we're graduating soon in another semester thus everything seems uncertain and exciting at the same time. Hopefully there're many opportunities come along and we're able to seize it. what should I do? 1) work and travel? 2) to study post-grad? or to enter the corporate companies? shall I stay as engineer or join the management trainee programme. Those are the things that I really need to work it out in these months. Always read, read and read to get more information about scholarships or trainee programmes and not to procrastinate things.

Some words of wisdom from the professors : do not be really enticed by the first pay of the job. instead, search for job that make you grow that is going to upgrade your value. Job with higher salaries might become stagnant after years and job with lower pay may have huge increment after you gained enough experiences in the field.

I think this is the most crucial time of the year as we are going to enter a different chapter of life soon and every decision now dictates the future.

Also, to practise good habit is very important. Like stop procrastinating things and be more focus! Once you have set your mind on the goal, work out the steps and stick to it! I must get good good results next semester, my last semester!:)

3) Again, winning and losing is just a moment of fame. The results of this semester has motivated me to move further in my studies. Some of my friends are good and is happy on my behalf, they came and congratulated me and tell me that I deserve and worth the fruits of labour.

On the other hand, there're also people who jokingly, directly/ indirectly makes you feel that you got that by sheer luck or it's other people's hard work etc etc. They are persistent enough to bug you everyday just to bring you down. I am generous enough to still smile at them at the end of the day. Those people are so ingenuine and we should really keep a distance. A low self-esteem loser.

An example

Sometimes, it is very hard to talk to people who is bias, even if he/she is your close friend. It's very hard to get support from him/her because it would be better to ask the partner. Their foreheads are encrypted with : " my friend says that, therefore I also think that....."

Especially when his/her decisions and actions are always affected by someone else but not their genuine feelings and comments. I wonder how can people live for others until they ignored their own needs.

I wondered, are the comments/ justifications they are solely theirs? or merely just to follow or please the other party.

People who doesn't even know what they want and timid to voice out their opinions do not deserve respects.

Pathetic.

Stop being so good to me! Or I will fall in it!

So genuine and sincere..

Don't!! Control !

CHINESE NEW YEAR

Festive seasons has always been great because

1. best time to catch up with relatives and old friends.( whom remind u of your dreams)
2. different gang of people whom give you different inspirations.
3.food and sleep always in abundance
4.it could be better if the weather is not so hot.

Mann! I felt so motivated to dream now and to realize the dreams. The world is so so big and it is very pathetic to confine yourself in a very small space ; realised how much I wasted my time in complaining in UKM about those real real minute peanutes LOL I'm graduating and will be getting in touch with the real world soon! I can go wherever I want to go, do whatever I want to. Singapore, UK , famous local companies and programmes, summer programmes, scholarships, part-time , networking, socialising, bragging, sports etc ahhh There're just so much things to do!The world is only mimited, by your imaginations!! :)

First off, I must make sure I write a good thesis and get good grades in my final semester! I must take care of this admist the fun! :D

Again, I think he is nuisance.

Irrationality kills. By muttering hurtful words and sometimes violence. Showing signs of remorse or signs that try to mend the situation after that doesn't help to mend the wound at all. Not at all! What has been done, is already been; done. Very hurtful; sliced deep down into the heart. Lots of unhappy incidents will flash through thereafter.

I am always the one who get the most scoldings, even when having happy and fun conversations with my siblings. When we were happily chatting ; picturing things or imagining, suddenly I will get scoldings like ; "Can't you just shut your mouth? Your voice is damnn irratating! " Why? I thought 4 of us of are talking at the same time, why only my voice causes so much hatred then?

When confronted once, he will only say I treated everyone equally. I don't think so. Maybe he just doesn't like me subconsciously. Maybe he has way of showing love which we don't know. Anyhow, I got consumed by the scoldings more than the act of love.Time over time, I didn't really voice out my opinions much, just tell some when he is in good mood. It's better that way. The mood swings. I have to admit the fact that if I continue to think negatively like that, I will be someone who has very low self-esteem. I always have to fight this kind of situation, telling myself, it's ok, I still have people who respect and listen to my opinions and so. The world is big.

Even she get some unreasonable accusations; Maybe people who thinks that they are great and almighty will never admit their mistakes, thinks that the world is at fault except them. Order people even for some simple tasks. She has been understanding, or maybe numb?

I don't know. Having said all these, I knew that we will not meet again or so in the next life, I will still treasure the relationship God brought to us, there must be reasons behind they put us together in a family.

Anyhow, I am really glad that they brought the most funky people to me in the world : my brothers and sister! Yes, we will always quarrel; no doubt! ; sometimes over small matter or so; but nothing lasts more than a day. I just don't know why, after some time, we will get close. It's better than bottling up all your feelings by showing the good side of you. We will just shout at each other if we offend each other but after a while, we're sharing jokes again.

Man! I need someone who is patient to be my partner. If he is not patient, no point quarreling non-stop after the marriage, divorce is the only solutions then. I treat people like how I got treated. If you show me some act of generosity, patience; I will reciprocate a million. Else, vice versa. Bowing down to unreasonable accusations is pathetic. Poeple will only spread the love and joy if they feel so.

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year.

recap of 2011

1. Got better results - 3.51 (yay!)
2. MASUM
3.Indonesia ASEAN student exchange
4. Prague Programme
5. Phuket
6. SUKEM swimming yay! the idea of motivating and encouraging your room mate. winning and losing is just a moment of fame.
7. internships
8. playing flute in convocation
9. friends' graduation
10.FESKAB badminton
11. loves badminton :)

I want to do better next year; but concentrating on the goals.

A girl should always remain presentable and knowledgable.

By being presentable and pretty means :

1) No dark eye circles and weary eyes
2) Dry Skin Condition
3) No Messy Hair
4) No Obviously dehydarated skin and huge pores

All these are signs of you neglect youself due to busy routine or whatsoever.

So we must :

1) Eat more fruits. ( 5 servings per day)
2) Sleep before 1am! Target of the year!
3) Lotion your body thoroughly
4) Apply facial cream regularly
5) Swim regularly to remove the stubborn abbs!
6) Apply hair conditioner
7) Food supplements
8) Do things that excite you and ignore things that bored you or bring you down.

By being KNOWLEDGEABLE :

1) TIME MANAGEMENT. Do things faster! Don't slack here and there!
2) Make sure you acheieve your target of the week. ( Modelling and mesh independence!)
3) Expose yourself more by working part time or exchange programme. The world is always a playground.
4) Don't be stubborn and in denial.
5) Don't hover on the past, live on the presence.
6) Read more newspaper!

People are only interesting when they are clear with their directions, know what they are doing, and shows result at the end of the day by not having the worn-out face.Be presentable and knowledgable.

MOVE MOVE MARCH TOWARDS YOUR TARGET!

waohh, how can people be so smart to turn the table around just within seconds, leaving the person startled for a while before responding. He has no preparations to answer those accusations. Only those who are involved knew who is at fault, but the accuser makes it sound like it was the other party's fault in front of everyone. So intentional!

I've seen the real life incident, not in working life, but in university.

Never share any of your things to people like this because it's dangerous and they won't appreciate them at all though! Laughing hard and silly doesn't help to cover the mistakes.

write your resolutions after exam.

focus on studies first!

9 more days! with only 2 subjects :))