as told by her.♥

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

dangerous freedom over peaceful slavery

People often expect or in a way imagine the future to be, i did too.

I've imagined the day I would receive the reapplication result from my school.

And today was the day.

What was different is that the decision wasn't theirs to make, rather it fell back into my own hands.

I dealt the cards and now I get to control the deck.

Maybe all along the choice was mine, just that I left it for other to dictate.

Now that its back here, i have to force myself to grow up and make grow up decision for my future.

This is probably one of the most major decision I had to make ever since the part 2 years ago that i decided to get out of school.

I must admit it was a tough decision to make with regards to the financial and commitment issue.

There was a conclusion.

And with that conclusion, I would be proud to say that this probably marks the closure of the love-hate relationship I shared with PDI.

The late nights and tons of drawings. The crazy amount of math and physics.

Yet nothing can fight the sense of satisfaction you get when you see your final prototype.

No more.

Now, there is a new goal in my life.

Although the previous guiding light dimmed, there is a new tunnel to dig through to find another light.

Till then.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Stages of Deterioration in the Human Body

The Moment Of Death:
1. The heart stops.
2. The skin gets tight and ashen in color.
3. All the muscles relax.
4. The bladder and bowels empty.
5. The body temperature begins to drop 1 1/2 degrees Fahrenheit per hour.

After 30 minutes:
6. The skin gets purple and waxy.
7. The lips, fingernails, and toenails fade to a pale color.
8. Blood pools at the bottom of the body.
9. The hands and feet turn blue.
10. The eyes sink into the skull.

After 4 hours:
11. Rigor mortis has set in.
12. The purpling of the skin and the pooling of the blood continue.
13. Rigor continues to tighten muscles for another 24 hours or so.

After 12 hours:
14. The body is in full rigor mortis.

After 24 hours:
15. The body is now the temperature of the surrounding environment.
16. In males, the semen dies.
17. The head and neck are now a greenish-blue color.
18. The greenish-blue color spreads to the rest of the body.
19. There is a pervasive smell of rotting meat.

After 3 days:
20. The gas in the body tissues forms large blisters on the skin.
21. The whole body begins to bloat and swell grotesquely.
22. Fluids leak from the mouth, nose, vagina, and rectum.

After 3 weeks:
23. The skin, hair, and nails are so loose they can easily be pulled off the corpse.
24. The skin bursts open on many places on the body.
25. Decomposition will continue until the body is nothing but skelital remains, a process that can take a month or so in hot climates, and two months or more in cold climates.

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

twenty-thoughts

sometimes i think the truth would make everything much more simple.

but,

I don't have the courage to reveal it.

so I shrink back into the safety of secrecy.

maybe i'll just take it to the grave.

Thursday, March 01, 2012

#just sayin