♥ brenda
Hello, my name is Brenda by birth. I really like dressin up. I love books and photography. I hate lizards, insects, things that slime or crawl.Neither do i like gore or violent films. AM WATCHING MY LIFE FROM FIFTY FEET. And nope, im not delusional. not yet
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If you don't want me it's ok. I don't want you to leave with a misconception of me or what I was. It's not nice and it's not fair. If you chose to listen to whatever or whoever, I have nothing much to say. My conscience is clear , this I can tell you .
Grey.
I wish I knew what was going on. My head is all messed up with bits and pieces of everything.
You say that we are dating, I'm not pushing you to proclaim to the world, I just need to feel a little acknowledgment. I don't want to go on and be a psycho bitch. I want respect in a relationship, I need you to respect that I am a date. And your attention should be on me, even if you have to digress it to someone else. Please let it come back to me ultimately.
I feel loved, and I know you care. I want you to reassure me that it's there. Because right now, I have no idea what I am to you. You do make me feel unimportant, and neglected. I just want to be someone that you'll admit to, or isit too much to ask for.
I am going through tough times at work and I feel like I'm fighting a war. You are worrying about the relationship outcome of 2 friends and how they feel. I tried to relate, I tried.
The sky is grey and sleep is calling.
( and reading back, my thoughts are non-collective)
Suddenly i have so much to say, but my thoughts are everywhere. I cannot seem to consolidate it no matter how much i try. Its as if the string that held my beads together snapped suddenly, and now all the beads are in a bottle, not lost but just mixed up.
SUNDAY 12 FEB 3:27am
I have no idea what just took place in the last 2 hours. I just ditched my friend in the midst of a mj game for you. The same you who told me to leave you alone. Then you went missing for a whole hour and there was a wave of panic. Your sister, Yali, Jamie and even Germaine.
I really have got no idea how to feel towards this. I don't even know if you are here by choice or did you accidentally land yourself here. I don't know anything anymore.
Walk the talk - talk the talk
The name 'Brenda' stands for 'sword', which I perceive as being linked to violence. But no, I don't see myself as a violent person. The most I do is curse and swear like a sailor, and perhaps punch a few pillows and kick a few walls. But I'd never lay a finger on people(or so i claim).
And also. according to bestf, i'll combust without guys.
To top that up, you will have not problem trying to spot me along the streets.With my not-exactly-very-toned-down hair, and my shorts,yes, Singapore's way to hot to be in jeans.
Personality wise, I'm close to being crazy. I drive people nuts when the inner bitch release.So in short,you can either say that I brighten up your life, or that I drive you up the wall. It can only be one way or the other. No in-betweens.
Basically, I have a problem with authority.I never liked being told what to do and when told not to do something, all the more i'd do it-just to annoy the person (like,duh.)
Yours truly,do not believe in rules-strapped life, strongly thinks that life should be lived the way you want to and no compromises made.Of course minus the reality chunk.Partying is like a hobbie to me, just like how stamp collecting is to other, but partying is much more fun!
Not only does it allows me to meet interesting personas of all kind and yes, grooving to the music is a great workout- keeps me very much in shape.My girls are the bestest people to club with,ever
In case you failed to figure, my girls are one of the greatest thing that happened to me in life.Friends are a whole big deal in my life, plays a huge part in major break-ups and events.By and by, i love them to bits and they know it.
I have the tendancy to forget what i want to say mid-sentence,so just let me finish.I'm not as dramatic as so many friends claimed.I hate crossing the roads, proudly proclaimed my love for whipcreme,icecreams and cakes. I can be completely bought over by sweet treats, Starbucks and surprises.Small details matters alot to me, a little gesture, a smile, and kids warms my heart.I love that warm fuzzy feeling i get when watch kids play.
I'm not exactly the most random person you will find around and am totally,erm, not a bimbo.
Meanwhile, please make do with the photos untill i get better ones.
If you don't want me it's ok. I don't want you to leave with a misconception of me or what I was. It's not nice and it's not fair. If you chose to listen to whatever or whoever, I have nothing much to say. My conscience is clear , this I can tell you .
Grey.
I wish I knew what was going on. My head is all messed up with bits and pieces of everything.
You say that we are dating, I'm not pushing you to proclaim to the world, I just need to feel a little acknowledgment. I don't want to go on and be a psycho bitch. I want respect in a relationship, I need you to respect that I am a date. And your attention should be on me, even if you have to digress it to someone else. Please let it come back to me ultimately.
I feel loved, and I know you care. I want you to reassure me that it's there. Because right now, I have no idea what I am to you. You do make me feel unimportant, and neglected. I just want to be someone that you'll admit to, or isit too much to ask for.
I am going through tough times at work and I feel like I'm fighting a war. You are worrying about the relationship outcome of 2 friends and how they feel. I tried to relate, I tried.
The sky is grey and sleep is calling.
( and reading back, my thoughts are non-collective)
Suddenly i have so much to say, but my thoughts are everywhere. I cannot seem to consolidate it no matter how much i try. Its as if the string that held my beads together snapped suddenly, and now all the beads are in a bottle, not lost but just mixed up.
SUNDAY 12 FEB 3:27am
I have no idea what just took place in the last 2 hours. I just ditched my friend in the midst of a mj game for you. The same you who told me to leave you alone. Then you went missing for a whole hour and there was a wave of panic. Your sister, Yali, Jamie and even Germaine.
I really have got no idea how to feel towards this. I don't even know if you are here by choice or did you accidentally land yourself here. I don't know anything anymore.
Walk the talk - talk the talk
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