♥ brenda
Hello, my name is Brenda by birth. I really like dressin up. I love books and photography. I hate lizards, insects, things that slime or crawl.Neither do i like gore or violent films. AM WATCHING MY LIFE FROM FIFTY FEET. And nope, im not delusional. not yet
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Hey, it's 5 in the morning. I don't wake up this early. This might seem to be a surprise to receive a call from you at 5 am. Yea, right after a very bad night. I know we haven't had anything concrete. That doesn't mean I'll hurt you. I know you are hurt, I'm not rushing you into anything. You keep saying that you ain't the one for me, and that we are not going to be together. Why? Does it really bother you so much? Can't everything be simpler, taking it as it comes. Taking on one problem at a time. I don't know what to do with you. Too deep to walk away. Too lost to carry on. Just like you, I'm afraid. But I just thought you are worth the risk. I don't know where do we go from here, but I'll just take it as it comes. And to end this off, I love you.  Hey you -Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location:Home, bed
the hardest thing I ever have to do, is to pretend that I don't love you.
I wish you know 
Is this really it?
The whole cycle. Vicious? Not really.
Then again, when you build walls over a long period of time, you'll lose lots of things. I've become detached. Detached and devoid, as some may see me as. But i am only protecting myself, every-time i give my heart away, i feel like i am handling a glass with someone holding on to a hammer.
Even by the looks of it, it scares me.
*** I'm scared to death but i want it. Yes, you are not reading it wrong, i want it.
In fact, BADLY.
You have made me feel so comfortable with you that i cannot explain why, i admit you do drive me up the wall sometimes because of all the insecurities that you are going through and the ambiguous status of our relationship. I want to believe that all these will pass. For better or for worst,i don't really care.
i enjoy the present.
Thank you. <3
The name 'Brenda' stands for 'sword', which I perceive as being linked to violence. But no, I don't see myself as a violent person. The most I do is curse and swear like a sailor, and perhaps punch a few pillows and kick a few walls. But I'd never lay a finger on people(or so i claim).
And also. according to bestf, i'll combust without guys.
To top that up, you will have not problem trying to spot me along the streets.With my not-exactly-very-toned-down hair, and my shorts,yes, Singapore's way to hot to be in jeans.
Personality wise, I'm close to being crazy. I drive people nuts when the inner bitch release.So in short,you can either say that I brighten up your life, or that I drive you up the wall. It can only be one way or the other. No in-betweens.
Basically, I have a problem with authority.I never liked being told what to do and when told not to do something, all the more i'd do it-just to annoy the person (like,duh.)
Yours truly,do not believe in rules-strapped life, strongly thinks that life should be lived the way you want to and no compromises made.Of course minus the reality chunk.Partying is like a hobbie to me, just like how stamp collecting is to other, but partying is much more fun!
Not only does it allows me to meet interesting personas of all kind and yes, grooving to the music is a great workout- keeps me very much in shape.My girls are the bestest people to club with,ever
In case you failed to figure, my girls are one of the greatest thing that happened to me in life.Friends are a whole big deal in my life, plays a huge part in major break-ups and events.By and by, i love them to bits and they know it.
I have the tendancy to forget what i want to say mid-sentence,so just let me finish.I'm not as dramatic as so many friends claimed.I hate crossing the roads, proudly proclaimed my love for whipcreme,icecreams and cakes. I can be completely bought over by sweet treats, Starbucks and surprises.Small details matters alot to me, a little gesture, a smile, and kids warms my heart.I love that warm fuzzy feeling i get when watch kids play.
I'm not exactly the most random person you will find around and am totally,erm, not a bimbo.
Meanwhile, please make do with the photos untill i get better ones.
Hey, it's 5 in the morning. I don't wake up this early. This might seem to be a surprise to receive a call from you at 5 am. Yea, right after a very bad night. I know we haven't had anything concrete. That doesn't mean I'll hurt you. I know you are hurt, I'm not rushing you into anything. You keep saying that you ain't the one for me, and that we are not going to be together. Why? Does it really bother you so much? Can't everything be simpler, taking it as it comes. Taking on one problem at a time. I don't know what to do with you. Too deep to walk away. Too lost to carry on. Just like you, I'm afraid. But I just thought you are worth the risk. I don't know where do we go from here, but I'll just take it as it comes. And to end this off, I love you. Hey you -Posted using BlogPress from my iPad Location:Home, bed
the hardest thing I ever have to do, is to pretend that I don't love you.
I wish you know
Is this really it?
The whole cycle. Vicious? Not really.
Then again, when you build walls over a long period of time, you'll lose lots of things. I've become detached. Detached and devoid, as some may see me as. But i am only protecting myself, every-time i give my heart away, i feel like i am handling a glass with someone holding on to a hammer.
Even by the looks of it, it scares me.
*** I'm scared to death but i want it. Yes, you are not reading it wrong, i want it.
In fact, BADLY.
You have made me feel so comfortable with you that i cannot explain why, i admit you do drive me up the wall sometimes because of all the insecurities that you are going through and the ambiguous status of our relationship. I want to believe that all these will pass. For better or for worst,i don't really care.
i enjoy the present.
Thank you. <3
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