♥ brenda
Hello, my name is Brenda by birth. I really like dressin up. I love books and photography. I hate lizards, insects, things that slime or crawl.Neither do i like gore or violent films. AM WATCHING MY LIFE FROM FIFTY FEET. And nope, im not delusional. not yet
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Actually i knew it was over long ago.i just refuse to believe it. have been crying, and telling myself that this time its really over.i still believe somehow it was all out of good intentions when the hurting things were said, whatever the case, i guess this marks the end. The selfish choice was made, and hearts broken (maybe just singular noun). Tears streamed and have yet to stopped. Having to cry in the toilet while working is not only pathetic, it literally means that somehow,i lost grip of the control of my emotion. I wasn't supposed to let my feelings affect my work performance. And apparently ,it did. I wasn't concentrating at work, i was doing my job, but wasn't committed. My mind was pre-occupied with thoughts of the past, can't help but notice the stark comparison between then and now. And all the negative energy i generated seem to have been diffused to the people around me as well. Either i am being sensitive or the people around me are pretty touchy as well. Probably im the pricky one.
Continue more later,i feel like taking a long shower.i hope it helps. somehow.
p.s: BFF, if im not out in 45 mins, bomb my house phone.
and i hate the phone, but i wish you'd call..
And i know its easy to say, but its harder to feel this way And i miss you more than i should, than i thought i could i cant get my mind off of you.
And these photographs keep me alive..
ARE YOU GOING TO INCLUDE ME BACK IN YOUR LIFE AGAIN?(when)million dollar question that has been avoided.honestly,im feeling very shitty now.
been working alot recently.
i dont know the exact reason why, but,ya,i just have been working alot.
ad-hoc jobs also can.
whats up with me.
i dont know where or what i've been up to recently.
i wake up jut to go to work,and sleep when im real tired.
most of the time,i dont remember how exactly i slept.
im just too tired.
been having like,a meal a day.
im too busy to eat if you ask.
super keen on starting a jogging routine
and keep it going.
in life there are bound to be painfully pathetic people that you'll meet
those that just sepnd the whole of their lives licking boots,
hey you, yes you..you'll never make it far.
(i've met one,HAVE YOU?)
recently all about me me and me.
its been sometime back since my world revloved around me.
its has always been him
i watched it slip through my fingers.
and is hoping it doesnt disappear.
(still)
i caught myself throwing away tons of things from my room.
not all at the same time,
but day by day,
bag by bag,
i throw them all out,
like things that are never meant to work.
i believe that i'll be able to evict all feelings and the sediments of the relationship.
one day-hopefully
the day might never come,but as promised.. i'll try.
bff told me just now: "its better to love and lost then not love at all" leave it for tomorrow. i m trying to heat up milk in the microwave. gastric pain. and i think the dictionary should totally include a new word..
MICROWAVABLE(adjective); 1:fit for use in the microwave-this bowl is microwavable.
micro.wa.va.bil.i.ty(noun)
(L)
picture summary of what happened last week. i went out with MICHY and JESLYN though we were supposed to meet on a friday. i went to work instead. so.. we met on different days of the week. (its I met them on different days of the week.) and they met each other on friday and came to say hi to me.
then i got home late on friday,called CHUNFU to confirmed that we meeting for breakfast on Saturday morning before going to PHS for HPT. 7.3o am set and the next morning, 7.26am,my phone rang i just woke,so did he.. so change of plans... 8.15am, last cabin Yishun We've got Macdonald breakfast. and we are in red shirt!
yay yay!  we were super excited to wear red shirt! (cant you tell?)    no eye smile!  cheering module!
to end entry off..
im SEXY,PRETTY and BIMBO-TIC. (right...)
THANKS GIRLIES!justine,zoee,fiona,xingyue,siewting,jiayan and BFF!
i love my pressie to the max! UH! I FORGOT TO TAKE PHOTOS WITH U ALL!
went out with michelle MAKE IT HAPPEN. and no michy,sundress dont make you look fat.
i am officially online again. my lappy died a few days back for no apparent reason. the repairman just came and left. changed a new adapter. i think he could totally mailed it to me. right?
WHAT DEFINES ME?
i was on the train home, reading Michael Conelly's -Angel's Flight and thought through this question,what defines me?
the things i do? the food i eat? the way i behave? the way i talk?
just what is it? do people hate me for who i am? i guess many love me as well.
what do i do that might put people off?
face it, sometimes things that you do puts many off big time. BUT THE BIG QUESTION.. ARE YOU AWARE?
food for thought.
Labels: food for thought
 "i know your eyes in the morning sun.."beautiful photo,great photographer. (L)
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The name 'Brenda' stands for 'sword', which I perceive as being linked to violence. But no, I don't see myself as a violent person. The most I do is curse and swear like a sailor, and perhaps punch a few pillows and kick a few walls. But I'd never lay a finger on people(or so i claim).
And also. according to bestf, i'll combust without guys.
To top that up, you will have not problem trying to spot me along the streets.With my not-exactly-very-toned-down hair, and my shorts,yes, Singapore's way to hot to be in jeans.
Personality wise, I'm close to being crazy. I drive people nuts when the inner bitch release.So in short,you can either say that I brighten up your life, or that I drive you up the wall. It can only be one way or the other. No in-betweens.
Basically, I have a problem with authority.I never liked being told what to do and when told not to do something, all the more i'd do it-just to annoy the person (like,duh.)
Yours truly,do not believe in rules-strapped life, strongly thinks that life should be lived the way you want to and no compromises made.Of course minus the reality chunk.Partying is like a hobbie to me, just like how stamp collecting is to other, but partying is much more fun!
Not only does it allows me to meet interesting personas of all kind and yes, grooving to the music is a great workout- keeps me very much in shape.My girls are the bestest people to club with,ever
In case you failed to figure, my girls are one of the greatest thing that happened to me in life.Friends are a whole big deal in my life, plays a huge part in major break-ups and events.By and by, i love them to bits and they know it.
I have the tendancy to forget what i want to say mid-sentence,so just let me finish.I'm not as dramatic as so many friends claimed.I hate crossing the roads, proudly proclaimed my love for whipcreme,icecreams and cakes. I can be completely bought over by sweet treats, Starbucks and surprises.Small details matters alot to me, a little gesture, a smile, and kids warms my heart.I love that warm fuzzy feeling i get when watch kids play.
I'm not exactly the most random person you will find around and am totally,erm, not a bimbo.
Meanwhile, please make do with the photos untill i get better ones.
Actually i knew it was over long ago.i just refuse to believe it. have been crying, and telling myself that this time its really over.i still believe somehow it was all out of good intentions when the hurting things were said, whatever the case, i guess this marks the end. The selfish choice was made, and hearts broken (maybe just singular noun). Tears streamed and have yet to stopped. Having to cry in the toilet while working is not only pathetic, it literally means that somehow,i lost grip of the control of my emotion. I wasn't supposed to let my feelings affect my work performance. And apparently ,it did. I wasn't concentrating at work, i was doing my job, but wasn't committed. My mind was pre-occupied with thoughts of the past, can't help but notice the stark comparison between then and now. And all the negative energy i generated seem to have been diffused to the people around me as well. Either i am being sensitive or the people around me are pretty touchy as well. Probably im the pricky one.
Continue more later,i feel like taking a long shower.i hope it helps. somehow.
p.s: BFF, if im not out in 45 mins, bomb my house phone.
and i hate the phone, but i wish you'd call..
And i know its easy to say, but its harder to feel this way And i miss you more than i should, than i thought i could i cant get my mind off of you.
And these photographs keep me alive..
ARE YOU GOING TO INCLUDE ME BACK IN YOUR LIFE AGAIN?(when)million dollar question that has been avoided.honestly,im feeling very shitty now.
been working alot recently.
i dont know the exact reason why, but,ya,i just have been working alot.
ad-hoc jobs also can.
whats up with me.
i dont know where or what i've been up to recently.
i wake up jut to go to work,and sleep when im real tired.
most of the time,i dont remember how exactly i slept.
im just too tired.
been having like,a meal a day.
im too busy to eat if you ask.
super keen on starting a jogging routine
and keep it going.
in life there are bound to be painfully pathetic people that you'll meet
those that just sepnd the whole of their lives licking boots,
hey you, yes you..you'll never make it far.
(i've met one,HAVE YOU?)
recently all about me me and me.
its been sometime back since my world revloved around me.
its has always been him
i watched it slip through my fingers.
and is hoping it doesnt disappear.
(still)
i caught myself throwing away tons of things from my room.
not all at the same time,
but day by day,
bag by bag,
i throw them all out,
like things that are never meant to work.
i believe that i'll be able to evict all feelings and the sediments of the relationship.
one day-hopefully
the day might never come,but as promised.. i'll try.
bff told me just now: "its better to love and lost then not love at all" leave it for tomorrow. i m trying to heat up milk in the microwave. gastric pain. and i think the dictionary should totally include a new word..
MICROWAVABLE(adjective); 1:fit for use in the microwave-this bowl is microwavable.
micro.wa.va.bil.i.ty(noun)
(L)
picture summary of what happened last week. i went out with MICHY and JESLYN though we were supposed to meet on a friday. i went to work instead. so.. we met on different days of the week. (its I met them on different days of the week.) and they met each other on friday and came to say hi to me.
then i got home late on friday,called CHUNFU to confirmed that we meeting for breakfast on Saturday morning before going to PHS for HPT. 7.3o am set and the next morning, 7.26am,my phone rang i just woke,so did he.. so change of plans... 8.15am, last cabin Yishun We've got Macdonald breakfast. and we are in red shirt!
yay yay! we were super excited to wear red shirt! (cant you tell?) no eye smile! cheering module!
to end entry off..
im SEXY,PRETTY and BIMBO-TIC. (right...)
THANKS GIRLIES!justine,zoee,fiona,xingyue,siewting,jiayan and BFF!
i love my pressie to the max! UH! I FORGOT TO TAKE PHOTOS WITH U ALL!
went out with michelle MAKE IT HAPPEN. and no michy,sundress dont make you look fat.
i am officially online again. my lappy died a few days back for no apparent reason. the repairman just came and left. changed a new adapter. i think he could totally mailed it to me. right?
WHAT DEFINES ME?
i was on the train home, reading Michael Conelly's -Angel's Flight and thought through this question,what defines me?
the things i do? the food i eat? the way i behave? the way i talk?
just what is it? do people hate me for who i am? i guess many love me as well.
what do i do that might put people off?
face it, sometimes things that you do puts many off big time. BUT THE BIG QUESTION.. ARE YOU AWARE?
food for thought.
Labels: food for thought
"i know your eyes in the morning sun.." beautiful photo,great photographer. (L)
Labels: (L)
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"i know your eyes in the morning sun.."
