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Call her Katie Wingyee whatever, She's gonna put the boring stuff and here it goes, Victoria Junior College 09S33, Harmonica Band,
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She rants and she whines and she complains like nobody's business, but that's her blog.
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Date: 2.1.10 Time: 12:40 am
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Date: 21.12.09 Time: 10:46 pm
lol wth i feel very pissed now, this is totally crap. And seriously, you are full of flaws yourself, and you dare to say i'm a spoilt brat wth! i wasn't the one who took 1hr in the toilet bathing and changing! I showered my brother and got myself ready in 30minutes. Not to mention, i'm like a girl and you're a guy. Nice and thanks to that, apple pie for dinner, not bad huh. i scarified my sleep and all to tour ard singapore, and i honestly think a 3years old has got better manners than you, simple basic courtesy you don't know them. You could have help more, instead of just looking and pity my mum, freak. I'm just too disappointed to say more. Yeah i know, backgrounds, you think others have no problems, we walk out of them, we dont live them, if you want to know, that's the difference, i doubt you have tried like seriously. Okay i'm done complaining! Anyway yes nightmare's over! I'm so glad! I stopped asking for a break, heh i guess i love living on the run, more often that not, i found myself doing that, even if i keep promising myself i wont. Haha, overachiver! Anyway I'm sorry but i just can't carry on doing it. It's not right because i don't feel that way, I just hope it wasn't too late. It's not a matter of time, really. It's just not the way things suppose to be.. And for some other reason, i laughed alot today! :) |
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Date: 11.12.09 Time: 9:27 pm
Anyway after piano exam was like shopping spree @ Parkway, Vivo, Marina and Whitesands. I really shop till i drop dead. It was good hitting the malls after being cooped up for so long, totally free from this oh-shit-i-need-to-go-home-to-practice! feeling, Whew! Next day was well spent packing my room! :D And throwing stuff like wow. Friday, was the room makeover beginning, hahaa picture another day, i will need to get my brother's stuff OUT OF MY ROOM YUCKS, before i take nice shots! Alright, it's all the same except for the newly painted walls in the most bimbotic and gay colours and shifted the furnitures around! Then Friday evening was Shanice's bbq cum birthday party! It was a blast, haha shanice getting dunked! Haha bbq was great, corn was super! Hahaha, i swear i will never ever make adriel walk larrrr(even though he walk like damn freaking fast), stones in my bag tskk! And what the heck, i was trying to text Cedric and my phone was being idiotic and i realised he was just 3seats behind or something, who is the idiot now omgosh. Train-ed and i reach home at like 12midnight. Saturday i returned to harmoc after 2weeks, it feels good certainly! And haha then this week i have no idea what am i up to, harmoc-ing, movies, random stuff, no homework. but i should seriously start soon, ohwell after my camp! Carolling at marina was great! Okay i'm off for a few days! |
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Date: 1.12.09 Time: 10:26 pm
I didnt want myself to end up like that, but it's not as though i didnt try i tried hard, please tell me i'm right. PIFF. I need to sleep 12hours later D: OHWELL I am really out of mind |
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Date: 28.11.09 Time: 11:45 am
Okay im a full time whiner now seriously, i got so sick of myself whinning and complaining, and i choose to do it here where lesser people read, okay no link but whatever im just arghhh. I am making no sense already. Kay yes, i want a nice lunch. Sigh i need to get back to piano soon, i can't stand this anymoreeeeee. Just kill me now, i will be more than ever happy. Maybe i just want to stage a nice and happy performance, maybe i don't even want to pass because i simply don't think i deserve a pass. But, i dont know... This is a nightmare come true, one that i landed myself in. What happened to music, healing purpose, soothing, healthy for the soul. Defiance tsk. ): WEDNESDAY! |
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Date: 26.11.09 Time: 7:23 pm
But then again, can you just let yourself fail like that, i don't know, i meant like it's like my principle to give and try till the very end of it. But suddenly it dawns on me that this is kind of meaningless. I've came so far, yet so much more to cover. So what if i continue to follow my strict regime and practice like there's no tomorrow. And the worse of all, i don't know why did i choose to come this far, i don't know! Now, i don't know why i wanted to take diploma. So what if mum let me fail and retake, i bloody can't afford the time, and it's just like i can't let myself fail. Even if your mum is okay with it, can you just let it pass, and let yourself down? Argh every minute of it, you feel your strength slipping away. Honestly this is worse than promos, at least when i study i know im making progress, when i finish a chapter or something. Piano, no, i don't know what i fare and all. Argh and concert on sunday wthhh! Well, i look forward to wednesday 1100am! |
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Date: 21.11.09 Time: 1:45 pm
I have eleven more days, pretty scary, but i guess i will just do what i can, i know whatever the outcome is, i have tried to put in my best, at least i did for the past week or so, and going to for the next week or so. Hhahaha. I shall continue debussy in 10. Morals of a person, it does matter. Oh and i realised that recently, we've been talking alot about our future, universities and stuff like that. i meant like, hey we are really growing up, choosing a career, studying the last bit of dead academics stuff that make no sense sometimes to study them cuz it's like deem as irrelevant, but come to think of it, all these nonsense will end in a year. WOW. Yup, it's time to really stay focus :) |
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Date: 19.11.09 Time: 10:57 pm
I guess, this is really it, unlike the last wave. My throat still hurts, sshhh, i ate stuff i shouldnt eat this few daysss OOPS. today was ultimate, LOL. Oh body world today, it was nice heh, science centre trip was good, not enough time though, but the exhibition is really really nice. Regina and Shannen were super funny, hahaha. 13more dayssss. Another step, it gets easier after each :) |
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Date: 12.11.09 Time: 8:29 pm
I don't know if I'm the one, who can take up all these. I don't know what it will takes, how much tears, how much sweat to make it there, for i never walk that path before. But I'm gonna try, experiment with leadership, trust, faith, respect, humble, be sure to have it all. I don't know if I did the right thing, but I make that decision, to think that particular way, to defy the usual, the norm. And we're in this all together, whatever it takes. A leader is one who takes the plunge while others hesistate. |
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Date: Time: 2:27 pm
Piano used to give me melodies that calm my nerves, give me inspiration to fly higher, give me music that i can dissolve myself in. Not anymore. It gives me heartattack now, stress, moodswings, crap. I dont know what else next, Nightmares. Looking at all these complication that's coming up, well, it's like living in another drama. Just this time, you're in the show, not watching the show anymore Face it, life's not fair, not easy. |
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Date: 11.11.09 Time: 12:21 am
So next bomb, econs project, second december, piano exam. Argh, i know i'm totally not up to it, no matter what everyone says, that i can, but i know, i cant play well at this moment, 3weeks is really short, i don't know if i can do this right, i don't know how many people i will or will not disappoint. Sighh. Other stuff that is going on now is bad as well i suppose, things are getting really out of hand, some i don't think is my business actually, but you know the dilemma of saving and giving up. I just cant look at this i guess, ohwell whatever. I need something to release my emotions, and not like put them aside. The 30minutes walk to the very end of jalan loyang besar aint exactly helpful. The girls made my day at least :) A hug is what you need at these times. |
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Date: 5.11.09 Time: 2:24 am
Sometimes, things are better the way they are supposed to be. Sometimes, maybe we need a twist in the story. Either way, life goes on. Piano shall be my best friend :D I'm glad, i'm proud of myself, really am. |
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Date: 1.11.09 Time: 2:04 am
ThankYou Brandon for the gathering! Needs no more words, simply fun and enjoyable :D Today i had long bus rides, as much as they are unhealthy to the soul sometimes, i feel i needed them. Yet another round of self-reflection, over the past few months, stuff that have been going on and on. Discoveries that i've made, well probably not everyone realised it though. Sometimes stepping out of your own life make you realise there are better things out there, undiscovered, unseen, and unheard. Well sometimes, do we really deny the truth, when they face upwards, stare right into our face. A millions why, maybe not, maybe just a couple. Nothing, really nothing. Somtimes i blog my thoughts, nope, i don't even bother to decipher them byself, really messed up. Life is so not about labelling. Don't you think society just labels us too much, who are we supposed to be, how are we supposed to act, what are we supposed to do, the way we carry ourselves and all. Well, and we jolly well know it's not up to us to choose, we just follow them, blindly that is. Sigh. Goodnight. |
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Date: 30.10.09 Time: 6:48 pm
I'll confirm that fact later haha! Well sometimes things just tear us apart don't they. I shall continue rewatching gossip girl later! Juicy to the max, well to realise that's what happening too in real life, ohwell. BYE |
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Date: Time: 12:27 pm
I was supposed to start playing piano 5mins ago, and mum called 3mins after she left the house and asked why she can't freaking hear the piano, ARGH. i need to breatheeeee. Well we are losing it, if you can see. What you said the other day, think about it, maybe it doesn't make any sense anymore. It's just pure ignorance now, honestly speaking. I thought this would make everything better, maybe it does, but the compromise is too much sometimes. It was worth the fight, but now it isn't. one more month, is exactly how long i have. No, seriously i don't want to screw it up. It's been 14years, it should be in my blood by now, but sometimes i don't feel it that way. I wonder why. The pressure is great, now i can feel it, maybe on stage it's even worse. I just feel that faith is slipping away. You know, I realised sometimes when we can't do a thing, or we can't do it well, it's not because we don't have the ability to, but rather others don't believe we can. Sadly, that influenced us too much. And to overcome that mental barrier, very hard i admit. This post is just everything mixed together, i need a space to rant. |