had lunch buffet @ Copthrone Hotel yesterday.. was our teacher's day treat by the school.. the food..hmmm, not totally unpalatable, but it wasnt really fantastic either.. was expecting better tasting food, wahaha... afterwhich some of us went for recreation..LaserQuest @ Bt Gombak.. we were split into 2 opposing teams via 'OABAS'.. darn, the good ones are on the other team! i was the only one who was completely clueless and had no idea how the game was to be played.. cos i jus joined the school like 2 months ago and my colleagues had actually played it a few times before...so i became what u would say..the walking casualty. heh... heh
set off after positioning and straping the sensors and stuff.. wow, was it dark man!! was left all alone after my team members ran off into the different directions. felt a tinge of fear cos of the dark, the blasting music.. and winding maze..u'll never know who's on the other side of the wall... scary.. ehee.. I picked a very good spot to snipe unknowing prey.. but alas, i squarted and waitied till my thighs got all aching...and haven got a target.. hmmm, perhaps it wasnt too sound a spot to ambush..
as i was looking out for the yellows (enemies...I was reds), Jeffrey appeared.. i tried to duck his 'shots' but 2 others, Herwin & Raizal, flanked me from the side and back! I was cornered!! There I was, trapped, the 3 of them taunting me and shooting at me. Desperation loomed over as fear echoes in my head.. i ....SCREAMED... hahhaha...tat worked!! Jeffrey said "aiyah, let her off lah, enough liaoo" and even helped me up by the arm.
gee..
as expected, the first game which lasted only a mere 10 min, i was ranked the last.. this made me determined to go all out now.. heh, dun u dare terrorize me again!! so we set off into the maze the second time.. i decided tat squarting @ a corner wouldnt get me anywhere so i ran to find my enemies.. first was Herwin.. spotted him quietly shooting at me from the back. i turned and charged towards him stronghold with my lasers ablaze! he had no choice but to retreat and run..hey, tat worked!! this became my winning strategy!! i tried it on Raizal and chased him mercilessly around the maze with him screaming helplessly... muahahahhahhaha!!! :D the score on the scoreboard got everyone's eyeballs popping out of their sockets.. red team won and i was ranked the first! wahahahaha... so happy..
we played 2 more games before leaving the place.. i slipped and fell in one while chasing Jeffrey cos i was wearing heels.. luckily i wasnt badly hurt..jus a few bruises on my elbows. heee... eventually KokLeong and Raizal topped the billboard with a total of 1541 and 906 points respectively..kekeke... went dinner @ the nearby kopitiam after tat... was so tired i concussed immediately after slumping into bed tat nite...

i didnt mean to waver... but things jus happened... and feelings got entangled in all tat mess... i know dear's busy, and im not running away.. i let myself sink in.. someone please haul me up, before its too late to salvage.. from more than a year ago, he's tat someone i looked forward to seeing in sch.. .. nothing more than that, really.. things started changing.. we dined, chatted... enjoyed a concert, stars from the sunroof..and it seems he's in pursuit..
esther got worried. she asked me.."should i warn kelvin?"
and i told her "yes, please do..."
i dun wan ..i cannot do this... someone please help me to flee.. dear's necklace will always be on my neck, there wont be a replacement.. becos he is treasured deep down..

having pri sch kids with adult problems.. ? hmm...
got an email from ben this morning...
"ok!!?!?!!? if i hav a prob.. feel free to tell u... well... yea.. i do...agnes, said she prefers the ass that said he'd do IT wif u... than to me... after all i f***ing did.. tried... she still doesnt noe... damn.... if onli , GOD, kills me... and i hope she realizes that i wasnt playing around and i really did love her.. that way.. she'll noe how pain i feel right bloody now!!!!!!!!! i noe... i shld try not to think about her now... i'm trying... but i juz felt like asking her todae... but she juz said she prefers Mr pervert..... i'm sorry bout all the swearing... i'm juz damn in pain... but seriously... if i died... i think she'll noe how it felt..."

wow..exactly one week after my last post.. life's been smooth-sailing since.. but i guess i need to update quite a few stuff, haha.. this week's CA and prelims for my kids, most teachers are busily shuttling between classes, sometimes we didnt even have time to answer to nature's call.. now i know teachers not only need loud voices, brawny hands (for carrying tons of books) and sturdy legs, but they also need a strong bladder, hehe..
last fri was my big day, hehe..wish me a belated bday man!! haha.. went with dear & his sch-mates for ktv..the room was so cold that all of us were practically cuddling together!! tat's how we broke the ice between us, haha.. after tat we went for dinner @ chinatown before leaving home around 10.. didnt have a chance to spend more time alone with dear cos it's too late and i need to wake @ 5 the next morning.. but it's okay great time spent with his frens thou'..
esther bought me a tamagotchi as my pressie!!!..haha.. and u must be wondering why is this auntie so obsessed with this virtual plaything @ her age?! ..well, this is a state called the 'deprived childhood', haha..i reminisce my sch-days when i yearned for a tamagotchi....but didnt have a chance to own one..(yah, got all the 'cheong' and pirated ones, but what i desired after was the original tamagotchi by BanDai..heh...) now my wish is finally fulfilled...after 8 long years...hehehehe http://www.mimitchi.com/tamaplus/index.shtml

this is crazy.... i had the most horrible day in school today.. im not infuriated by my kids BUT by the teachers!! the system is crazy! they advised me to be firm with the kids or else they will climb over my head..well i think they are talking about themselves! climbing over MY head! i'm like given so much duties and stuff within these few days.. im not angry because of the overwhelming duties i have to undertake but of their last-minute notices.. im in charged of this Nanotechnology CCA which i have to do up alot of stuff for the room and projects already.. and here comes this office staff yesterday asking me to work on a dunno wat Green-Project with my P5 class.. The teacher who was in charge is too busy to do it so i have to do it.. i was quite puzzled why i was given it..never mind.. i told the staff i will try my best to carry it out.. BUT he told me the deadline is next week!? i have only a period with my class (which is today) this week so i sacrificed my sleep, rushed like mad last night to digest whatever they're supposed to do before i could brief them today.. After school, I heard from the teacher that the project was supposed to be the office staff's job, not the teachers... this annoyed me already.. i've told myself not to accept anymore 'jobs' in order that i can be stable both emotionally and mentally..
BUT the 'best' is yet to come!! what fuelled my rage was that i was rudely greeted by tons of english, math worksheets piling on my desk this morning..with 8 post-it pads (telling me wat to do) stuck onto them.. and i'm supposed to relief classes on top of my own classes from today onwards.. i've got to give out those worksheets, mark and go through all of them! ....*******(info deleted to protect bloggeress' rights LOL).... personally first instead of 'surprising' me like that... WHY ALL THE SHIT! *pls excuse me** i almost broke down in the staff room.. i couldnt speak....the disgust, the fury, the stress...everything was choking me..went to the hall and another teacher came and told me i have to conduct the CCA myself tomorrow..this is the umpteenth time he got something on and cant come.. i resigned to it.. i've simply no more strength to fight back..
i went to class and could hear my voice tremble.. it was better after my lesson with my P4s.. they sometimes do really have a therapeutic effect on me, haha... well... at least i can still laugh now

lazing around in the staff room...after a long day of ruckus from those boisterous kids, i need real peace now.. this week's gonna be a hectic one so i better get home early for some rest.. haven been sleeping well lately.. the staff room is expectionally quiet this afternoon.. guessed all life forms have gone home..leaving a few panda-eyed zombies staring at their computer screens now, hehe...

couple shot..hee

more pics from dear's cam...

heh heh

attended the Teacher's Investiture Ceremony in the morning today.. dear went to support me, hehe...so happy... but he didnt sleep last nite again.. was rushing his projects till this morning to meet next wk's deadlines..told him to rest at home but he still went with me...so touched.. *sniff*
the ceremony was quite boring.. trying hard to keep my eyes open..well, dun mention dear..he slept thru the minister's speech, haha... only woke up when we graduants went up the stage to receive our scrolls, heh... took the teacher's pledge with immense pride..wahahha.. think dear was proud too cos he hugged me when we met outside the stadium after the whole ceremony.. first time he publicly displayed such affection.. abit taken aback..but was so delighted, heeeee *blush*
took lots of photos...all posted below, hehe...after the ceremony, went with esther, her family, siaolang and dear to suntec for the porridge buffet.. yummMYYYYYY!!!! hehhe...ate alot..cos the food looks so mouth-watering!! wwhahhaha

love...dear+me

cant stand his cheeky expression!

shots with classmates

with esther & yewwee

frens posing for a shot

esther,me,valerie,vivian,juliet

a mad rush getting the right clothes for tomolo's convocation.. a pair of heels, formal collared blouse and my skirt badly needed an alteration.. went combing thru Orchard in search for them, but in the end, bought lots of stuff that were unrelated, haha... got a tank top from Mango, white button-fly tee from Esprit and a tiny canvas shoe keychain (for fun cos it simply looked too cute to resist)..heh heh... well, i AM a typical woman :D !! went back my neighbourhood estate to alter my skirt but !ALAS! the tailor told me it was impossible to rush it out by today due to countless pending 'assignments' on her sewing machine . Despite my pleads and begs, she refused to relent.. was my fault cos i procrastinated...till the last minute, heh...so served me right man!!
called esther for SOS (as if she can help in any practical way, haha,).. in the end, i hurried down S'goon. The first tailor i went dropped a second bomb.. her sewing machine has broken down.. fortunately the second tailor agreed to let me 'cut queue' by altering the skirt for me first. hehe... was so happy..
mom, dad not coming for my convo tomolo cos of work.. so sad.. dear's gonna skip his morning classes to come over and support.. he didnt sleep for 2 days cos he was rushing his projects.. felt so bad to have him waking up so early tomolo just to attend my convo.. told him it's okie if he doesnt wan to come..even thou i know i'll be disappointed.. but i have to understand that he badly needs sleep... zzzzzzz

Fireworks on our Nation's Birthday!!

amateur photography skills..hehe

shot some fireworks yesterday..it was national day.. for three years running, had been going kallang with dear for the fireworks .. dear wanted to see the fireworks from afar, but i insisted to have them blowing up right above our very heads.. (i wan to smell its smoke too mahh...keke) so we went right up to kallang stadium.. to be exact, outside the stadium to watch it.. after staring at the stark nightsky at the stadium's carpark for almos half an hour (legs aching like anything), we were finally rewarded with the magnificent array of fireworks..was a pity tat it only lasted for a pathetic 3 and a half minutes.. hmmm, all was worth it, haha..i was so excited and starting shouting..in the end dear had to remind me to watch my 'unsightly conduct'...
e tribute to PM Goh was so moving it stimulated my tear glands... we love u PM Goh!!!!!! but will give the same support to Lee too... :D

music blasting into my ears now... feeling so relaxed cos of the long weekend, heh!! *grinning wickedly**
went studio with family, aunt and cousins to take photos.. for my bro's and my graduation photos... when we reached the studio, we ladies were 'dragged' (literally!) into this 'make-up room'... and before i could protest, powder, eye shadow... and dunno wat stuff were piled mercilessly onto my face!! felt so assaulted... the 'make-up artists' seemed unaware of my apparent misery... GRRRR... disastrous!! anyway dunno how the photos will turn out, not interested to know too, wahaha...never liked myself in tat gown anyway.. (so 'sai-gong'-style)
went Soup Resturant afterwards, bro treated us to a 8-course dinner, heh.. finally he can feel the pinch, wahahaha.. the soup and chicken dish were HEAVENLY!!!!!!!!!! *slurrrrppppp!!!!!**
met dear yesterday.. had been a week since i last seen him.. work's keeping us apart.. dear got a shock (a pleasant one thou') when he saw my rebonded hair... but he loved it!! well, i went all out to accede to his request so HE BETTER DO!!! or else i'm gonna strangulate him alive!! muahahaha... stayed in his room helping him in his illustration project till we forgot our dinner.. so went chomp-chomp for some great food (supper).. had sambal sting-ray, stir-fried kai-lan, fried kwayteow and chee cheong fun.. slurp again, hehe

"2am.. and the rain.. is falling..." heeee.. slept at 9pm cos i was way too tired.. now i can continue with the preparation for morning's lessons.. went rebonding yesterday, to straighten all my curls.. (!!!) for dear.. sometimes out of the blue he would jus ask if my hair is going to turn straight again.. apparently he still prefers me sporting straight hair.. even thou the whole world has been telling me otherwise..
a friend drove me to the salon after work.. went back to Papilio and the lady boss was so nice. she did try persuade me out of my initial decision to straighten my hair.. she said the curls look sweet.. arghhhh... was in a total dilemma.. but i still went ahead.. so she gave me a discount to rebond my tresses for 80 bucks.. thot it was a good bargain since kimage is doing it for 200 bucks..
sat down infront of the mirror..my curls are screaming back at me, pleading for mercy.. i closed my eyes.. somehow overwhelmed by sadness, especially when a lady sat beside me, asking for a perm.. reminded me of wat took place one & a half month ago.. wanted to cry..
must be thinking i'm so silly to do this for dear.. and i haven told him yet.. but i guess the opinion of tat one person i treasured weighs much much more than anything or anybody else's.. even to the point of compromising my heart desires.. heee, aiyah, nothing very serious.. may go perm when it gets longer (now quite short tat's why curls doesnt look as nice)... not as if all my hair's gonna drop off permanently or wat... ;P gonna do work liao, byby..

it's sunday again.. weather's abit cold.. thinking of lazing in my cosy bed for the rest of the day.. but cant cos gotta work and plan for next week liaoo... these few days had been normal, very normal.. ever since tat dramatic Ben's case, everything seems plain in the light of it. First thing he did on thursday morning was to come and apologise to me again.. and i told him it was alrite..
weekend, watched 十面埋伏 with dear.. not nice one lehh... agreed tat e cinematography was good..(just like 英雄's) ...and i reckon tat's the only aspect of the show tat was commenable... ;p hehe.. and dear's so stressed out with his sch's projects.. we spent e whole day at his place yesterday, brainstorming for ideas on his advertising and illustration projects.. they are killing him slowly, haha.. didnt expect myself to be part of the homicide as well, hehe