Christmas pressie

Musical waterglobe with self-swirling snowflakes!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!! christmas is NOT the birthday of santa clauses, u fools!!!! nor reindeers!!! who cares wat color their noses are or whether they get discriminated for having red noses... It's not about sturdy christmas fir trees or festive carols. It's about LOVE! about a gift.. from God, and that gift, JESUS CHRIST... Christmas -- "With Christ, Man Are Saved"
There's a time for everything... and in this season, on this day, it's the perfect time to share the Love of God! wahahaha... Almost 2000 years ago, God gave his one and only son, Jesus to come on earth. He was crucified so as to deliver us from our sins...okie, i shall stop preaching ;p
Leave u with this http://www.new-life.net/chrtms19.htm

KungFu Hustle was funny, but absurd..well, tat's what makes it comical, haha.. i especially liked the part where stephen chow tried to throw daggers at this fat landlady and in the end, all ended up in his flesh, heh heh... (for award-winning photo of Stephen, see Dec21's post, hiakhiak...)

After the movie, the 10 of us went Zion food centre for some desserts before proceeding to Zouk. And guess what, we can't go in cos I didn't bring my ID along. YES Yes yes, it's my FIRST time.. (special permission somemore to break my MNcurfew) believe it or not. Anyway no queue was in sight albeit being Christmas eve! Perhaps it was due to the overpriced charge of $38 pax...and the unpopular DJ tat night.. We went Mdm Wong instead. Xiangying lent me her ID as a form of verification, but the authorities didnt even bother to check..
it was so noisy.. and YUKS..the stench of cigarette smoke.. well, i should have known, but i went just to experience something i haven for 23 years of my life. Two big men, instead of girls in skimpy clothes *mind u, were on the platform dancing in the most horrible way u could imagine. swaying and dancing with the music very 'shiok' mehH? haha, and you get odd-looking men coming to ask for your number. I just tell them IM NOT LEAST INTERESTED, THANK U..
Disco wasn't that great afterall... *bleah

I plopped onto bed after i cleared the junk (make-up) on my face the minute i reached home @ 3am. Didn't even bother to bathe even thou my hair reeked of the smoke...cos i was just too too sleepy..zzz

A man walks into a library and proceeds to the desk and says, "I'd like to have a beer and a bag of chips."
The librarian looks at him and says, "Sir, this is a library."
"Oh right. " the man says sheepishly. "Sorry," and he whispers politely, "I'd like to have a beer and a bag of chips, please."

Did that joke make you laugh? If not, you must be feeling way too uptight or have simply lost the instinct to laugh oddly without guilt. Read an article about 'Laughter-Clubs' flowering in the midst of glommy economies and high stress. 'Laughter is the best medicine'.. how true is that! a cancer-striken patient actually laughed his way through 20 more years of life! More people are finding themselves not laughing enough and are joining these clubs.

Personally find it rather stupid to pay someone else so that you can laugh..not as if that person is gonna put up a side-splitting performance for you or act stupid like a clown to entertain your too grave soul... No witty puns or slapsticks, people gather together to laugh like mad cows for no particular reason.. yes, for NO reason.

Actually, i find people who cannot laugh very pitiful. All you need to do is to find humor in every and any circumstance..be it good or bad.. and it will make your problem look really really small, trust me.

Anyway, that article i read while waiting for the queue number to be called at the polyclicnic with grandma. She went for her regular health-check up. We were seated in the pharmacy beside this Teochew ahma who didnt know how to look at her queue-number..well, being the only literate one within her one-metre range, i smiled at her politely and said in mandarin, "Ahma, later i help you see hor.." She was so happy, smiling gratefully at me, she asked pointing to my grandma, "Your PoPO arh?" i nodded.
The ahma stretched forward to look at grandma and said, "Wah..your granddaughter so guai ah?"
They started their dialogue..yes, it is a dilogue.. *note i'm not talking.. damn my poor teochew*

"Ya lor, my granddaughter."

"Aiyoh, my grandchildren dun have so guai one.. Everytime sleep only. Very guai hor she... ."(pats my shoulder) "How old is she?"

"23 liao lah.. she is a TEACHER (that word is particularly louder)"

"WAH, teacher ah? so 'kiang' ah? (people turn around and looked at me. i squrimed down my seat..*oh god, please stop them...)

God answered my prayer. i shot up the seat immediately when my grandma's queue number was called and we proceeded to take grandma's pills. Just then, dear called me on my handphone. What a timing... read on..

"hello dear ah.."
"aey, tomorrow watching KungFu with weiguang they all leh..730pm great world."
"these are your pills, ahpo! everyday take one in the morning"
"okay, so after that where are we going?"
"Aey, are these Vitamin B12 pills? these yellow colour ones."
"most probably zouk. Not confirmed yet leh.."
"Erm, wait ah...excus' me mdm, are these VitB pills?"
"What to wear tomolo?"
"Yes, they are.."
"Up to you. But make up must be nice la...Smoky eyes are in wor...make dark dark.. wah, sexy leh.."
"I only got brown eyeliner leh..how to make??? i dunno!!"
"Then these green ones are the Cholesterol pills?"
"Yes, (looking at the labelling) they are."
"aiyah, later i go orchard and see wat they have...aey, i am so confused now call u back..."

that was it...Hey! I CAN ACTUALLY MULTI-TASK, HAHA..talking to 3 people at the same time, heh....
i gotta go and grab a short nap now...before i go for countdown tonight hehe... B)
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!!!

dinner @ CoffeeClub, Takashimaya

Ivy, Lifang and me :)

see what i mean? it just refuses to publish my red calendar!!!!!!!! >_<

Publish or ELSE!

OH, this is getting up my nerves! trying to post photos through 'Hello', but all that was published on my blog were small irritating red crosses all over... ask me how irritating..yesH it's as irritating as the zits tat pop all over your face the day just before ur prom nite and you just cant seem to rid them!
i want my 'red calendar' published!! 'Hello' must be discriminated against china-looking stuff cos it's ang-moh.. *AH BISH!*
dun believe what i've said?? scroll down and you will find a BIG photo of an angel.. well, angels are angmoh, tats why Hello let it get published!?!
how do you think that looks? wahahaha....the finishing still looks abit raw..my photoshop skills ARE limited.. so i only dare to post it IN PRIVATE *tsk tsk...* (credits:http://www.berenicecrafts.com/p6.htm)

LOOK AN ANGEL!!!! **kns**

Yoo hoo... breezy morning.. and the birds are chriping gaily... wah lao... and i smell the horrible cigarette smoke from my neighbour.. trying to kill all in the vicinity early in the morning! Went NSC with dear yesterday for both of our appointments again.. it has been 3 months... met him at the busstop near his attachment workplace. From his bag, he passed me a small little calendar.. the traditional china-red red kind.. it looks outdated but i still cradled it happily in my hands, much to his amusement... present from him wor... hey it's quite rare that he would give something lor, so i treasured it 8)
We spent the time on the bus removing the post-it tags he bookmarked in his library books on our way to his school when he suddenly asked to check my teeth. When he got me to say "Ahhh....", he threw all the post-it tags into my mouth!!! AAGGRHHH...and he chuckled wickedly at my stupidity while i walloped him... HARD

Cineleisure was having the Movie Gala for Stephen Chow's Kung-Fu Hustle. Dear was so excited to meet his idol--- Stephen Chow.. so we stood at the barricades at where the stars would walk pass. First, it was Taufik and Sylvester. As usual, the latter was clad in a white long-sleeved shirt and black pants.. (the symbolic attire of an ah-beng) heh... posing for the cameras with his classic 'one side of cheek turned-up' smile... the fans were screaming and shaking the barricades at one time i was afraid they would give way...
at around 830, the King of Comedy and his entourage finally arrived! dear managed to snatch a snapshot of him. He even said "Hi" to us!!! wahahhaa... and the photo was so clear i believe his fans would pay loads to get it..hehe..

We left cine satisfied and walked over to Meridian Hotel where Cousin Kaya was selling Christmas lightsticks and stuff. dear was so shy he was reluctant to go at first but i 'forced' him there..dun ask me how, but i've got my own way *heh heh*... we bought 2 battery-operated stirrers that could emit light (nice!!!) and 5 lightsticks for only 10 bucks..haha... such a good bargain!! heh... thanks ah Kaya! So peeps, if u are free, do pay her a visit at the stall *hiak hiak...*

brother flew to HK this morning for a business trip..woke up at 530am just to see him off (only at the back gate lah), ain't I a good sister? hehe..
dad and mom flying back only on the 11th.. they must be having such a jolly-great time over at NZ..going for morning's country trail walks, having bbq buffer meals, visiting wine factories and staying over in the farms...so shiok huh... while I’m munching instant Udon noodles for lunch now… sigh..well, this weekend! THIS weekend would be our turn!! wahaha...going sunway lagoon with aunts and cousins
:D
the ultimate embarrassing moment ... went shopping yesterday with my all-time fave shopping buddy, esther... met Yvonne and her cute 'saccharine-pie' who were transiting to city hall when we reached dhoby ghaut. Had a hard time ridding the young one cos she just refuses to part from us, haha..in the end, esther and i had to rush into the other train going to orchard at the very last second... we ...didnt ...quite make it.. and so you could imagine what happened.. 2 frantic 'meats' being squashed together by the rapid closing doors..and they reopened immediately again.. wide-eyed horrified expressions greeted us in the train…we turned very, very red..and under our breath, we echoed in unanimity, "Yvonne 的女儿... "
took photo stickers again..yes, A..G..A..I..N.. guessed we were both addicted to the machine at FarEastPlaza.. the machine that could make ur skin look perfectly flawless from every other odd angle *Awww...* we came to the conclusion that we have not changed much over the past few months...am getting abit sick of taking photos already, hahaha...
met dear after that..he wanted to watch the movie Shutter...i actually watched it with my little friend aka student, Emily, a couple of weeks ago..hehe... the movie received much high-rated reviews that it only become more popular now.. it was full-house even on a Tue evening! darn! so we ended up in a HK 点心 house.. the chef was full of praises for his delicacies.. dear tried to uphold the conversation rather unsuccessfully with his less-than-average Cantonese.. dun wish upon me.. i guess i’m even worse at the language..haha… after the dinner, dear was telling me how his words were all ‘constipated’ at his throat.. yuck!! how disgusting the analogy! hahaha…
Finally got my guitar restrung… im just an amateur…. brought back memories as i played worship songs into the wee hours… after so many years… all sensitivity was gone… totally… i think God lost me… and i cried myself to sleep

Enjoying Life @ YaKun Kaya toast house

esther...................................me nibbling on the kaya butter toast.. hmmm 咖啡!!

i'm so relieved the 'Habits of Mind' course has finally concluded... My mind has reached to a point of saturation. I’m gonna write down what I’ll learnt these 4 days.. cos I know information taught will soon fade away if I don’t make an effort to retain it. You can say that it’s a form of reflection :) “We never truly learn until we reflect”. I really love this quote!
The 12 Habits of Mind presented to us were heavy stuff… that can certainly jam your thinking. Argghhh…the thought of segregating all I’ve learnt is dreadful! The objective of the course is actually to introduce these good thinking habits to the teachers so that we can cultivate them in our kids… I see it more for my own benefit, hehe… especially the Habit of ‘Managing Impulsivity’ and ‘Flexibility in Thinking’.
:D
Dear met with a car accident on Tuesday. He and his schoolmate were posted to a design company for a month’s attachment. Both of them had not driven since they got their license… this was their first.. and they collided with another vehicle whilst changing lanes. Thank God no one was hurt.. but dear was badly traumatised after the whole incident. Met him yesterday and we ate our dinners in absolute silence. He was listless and clearly distracted… and I didn’t dare to speak. It hurt me to see him like that but I didn’t know how I could help.

Kaya getting all uptight and jittery over her prom-night tomorrow…went over to aunt’s place and helped her and 2 of her galfrens do french manicure..hehe…wahhh… if I happen to get sacked, an alternative career path would be this..hehe.. I would genuinely think she will not be able to get to sleep tonight..she was basically ‘meditating’ on what to wear, shoes to match, bags to go with, complementary accessories… right up to how to wear her hair, make-up et cetera… (why? dreaming of becoming the Prom-Queen ah? tsk tsk...wahahhaa……)
Recollection… *flashback flashback*…
Contact lenses vs Good’O specs.. Straightened ‘set’ hair vs Unkempt locks, Silky satin gowns vs Cottony dresses, Glittery slip-ons vs passé slip-ins. Oh God…I can imagine how ancient I looked back then! If there was a “Prom-AhMa” title, I think I would effortlessly beat into the finals hands-down!
AGRRRHHH….going for a 3 and a half days course on Habits of the Mind tomorrow.. It’s at Bukit Batok SS!!! Which is like..like…more than an hour’s of nodding in the trains! Why can’t they just leave me alone for a month of restful holiday? I need to hibernate!!!!

Highlighted my tresses in ash and flaxen yesterday. The streaks look bright though, didn’t know if that would be acceptable in schools, but who cares? love testing the limits?.. Haha… rushed to meet dear and his friends afterward for Jay’s concert..wahahhaa…Darn! dear remarked that my hair smells ‘china’..it reeks of the chemicals they used on my hair.. ANYWAY, we gotta discounted concert tickets again! *grinz*..128 selling at 80 bucks, hehe.. LeisurePark has closed down.. so we ended up wolfing down indigestible overcooked beehoon by the roadside :_( So pathetic.. The concert was good! Jay’s so talented; he could compose, sing, play the piano exceptionally well and even the flute! WOW… left me all mesmerized..when he sang 開不了口, me and dear were hushed..completely.. we were savoring every minuscule fraction of it as it was a significant piece in our relationship.. oh gosh, getting too mushy.. *delete delete* Yeah, photos taken posted below :) hehe

周杰伦
singing wholeheartedly...... the hip-hop style........................ lover boy

Photoshots 8)

Cindy + ChuanHao............................. Kelvin + me *note the streaks :D*

Poses taken @ The Gardens of Bishan

Mom & Dad ............................................. Me with the cousins

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dunno what has happened to my flobble chatterbox..*wails* ...hmmm, let me count...my last post was 13 Sept..that means.. ...WOW.. that is more than 2 months of inactivity in here! *guilty* oh gosh..no wonder they confiscated my chatterbox :_(
well, never mind..with or without it, it doesn't really matter right? wahaha.. i'll try to get it..hmm,okie..beg it back..soon.. heee went Haach in the afternoon. Was looking forward to clear all the rubbish clogged up in the pores of my face since a month ago.. was too busy with school's opening ceremony that i just couldn't find time to go (remember i have to stay home a couple of days just to 'recuperate' afterward?)
Kat, my prearranged beautician, was on MC. I got abit pissed cos they should have at least offer a tinkle to inform me so i wouldn't have made a wasted trip down. I am especially particular with WHO touches my face..so that made the staff slightly panicky..and tried to smoothen out my annoyance by reassuring me with another experienced beautician to attend to me *wink* heh, and it turned out better than i've expected..hehe An angry customer would be a satisfied customer... A meek customer would be a bullied customer, haha..i've learnt my lesson after years of playing the role of the latter..heee haiz..the dark side of reality..

darn! forgotten all about my tamagotchi and left it in school.. bet it's sleeping with its poop now.. wondering if how many of tat poop's gonna fill up the screen..**evil chuckle** finally figured out how the infra-red thingy worked, my tama made friends with shikin's.. can u imagine? 2 teachers, supposedly matured and fully grown-up, crooning and 'aww-ing' like small kids in the quiet staff room over the thrill of the tamas being connected.. did i forget to mention tat part about how one tama can actually 'transit' over to the other screen to play with the other tama?? wahahaha.... now my Mimco is good frens with shikin's Trix, kekeke..... Trix gave some really nice gifts like flowers, cake and a ball for my Mimco...but the latter actually gave 2 poops to Trix as pressies!! so mean!!!
treated dear to a D-stress massage @ bodyContours RafflesTownClub on Sat.. they actually have this couple room... but i insisted to do it in separate rooms, heh... ANYWAY, it was my first time.. wasn't used to it, got me all ticklish... *hehe* guess i got more tensed rather than relaxed.. haha.. laughed at dear cos he got a middle-aged masseur (those sweet young things were reserved for female customers i suppose! haha..) but he was glad cos he reckon the 'aunties' were much better and experienced, heh
today met again for both our appointments @ NSC.. dunno why he's extremely 'sticky'.. he even asked the receptionist to change my clinic from F to G jus to be able to sit together (even thou both clinics are just opp each other).. i didnt see the need to since it'ld only be for a short while, why the hassle.. but he insisted.. in the end, some nurses and staff have to intervene just to convince him...one even remarked, "aiyohhh, for awhile only lah, later still can be together one mahh.." i was already red in the face, so i quickly thanked the staff and pulled dear away from the reception.. hmmm, sometimes he does silly things like tat which make me want to laugh.. but i told him i appreciated it anyway.. afterwhich went to his place to help him with some illustrations for his project while he snoozed off..overall an enjoyable day i would say, hehe 8)

grandma's radish.. marinated in sweet soy sauce..lightly sautéed..it's perfect all by itself! hehe.. eating it now.. and it just tastes simply heavenly!!! *slurpp* okie, enough of stimulating ur taste buds

met dear for dinner yesterday.. before that we were squabbling over the phone in the morning.. i was the one giving him all the nonsense and stuff lately.. but he never once did raise his voice at me.. i didnt know what came over me.. making me aggravated and unassured..
seeing him, i mellowed. we had a good talk over dinner. he asked why i was giving him the attitude.. but he added something, "..but i kinda like tat attitude! wahahha..." sickening guy!!! but tat made me laugh.
he wasnt sure if there was something fishy going on between me and my CT in school.. he saw the messages the latter had sent me and was taken aback.. but i know myself..i'll never let dear down in any way..
"i know u're very busy lately and have not much time for me.. sometimes i dont even hear from you at all for the whole day.. i tried my very best to be understanding..but.. when another guy came along and showered me with all the care and attention, it made such a stark contrast.. how i wished all that were given to me by you.. perhaps tat's why it made me terribly frustrated.." i explained to him... he nodded in full understanding and agreement... and assured me that all would be back to normal after this stressful week for him.. keeping my fingers crossed..

well, im glad at least he cared enough to ask what was wrong...

finally the long-awaited holidays have arrived.. but tat doesn't translate to having the priviledge of lazily stretching tired muscles in bed on late dreamy mornings... cos have to be up and ready for school by eight :( till evening.. the sch's crazy, one would say.. but there isn't much a choice for us.. all bcos of the opening ceremony in November..so there's a whole lot of things to be done by then.
last wed was teachers' day.. well, i did enjoy myself tat day... we went Sentosa and spent much of our time inside a glass-cable car cabin, Underwater world, on top of the Giant Merlion (hehe) and the muscial fountain.. didnt like the musical fountain.. still prefer the good o'times where there isnt too much of the high-tech laser stuff or the sentosa's mascot--aka crazy monkey.. it's more like a 'laser display' rather than a muscial fountain as the name suggests...
...back home at night, guilt overwhelmed me.. i msged dear, "u are always out with ur frens..today's teacher's day..i had no school.. u had no school too but i didnt hear from u one whole day.. i went sentosa... with a colleague...yes, alone with him....jus the 2 of us.. but do u care even if u knew it?"
dear's busy with his projects and stuff.. i'm so proud of him.. of his work.. and i'm confident he'll shine...

had lunch buffet @ Copthrone Hotel yesterday.. was our teacher's day treat by the school.. the food..hmmm, not totally unpalatable, but it wasnt really fantastic either.. was expecting better tasting food, wahaha... afterwhich some of us went for recreation..LaserQuest @ Bt Gombak.. we were split into 2 opposing teams via 'OABAS'.. darn, the good ones are on the other team! i was the only one who was completely clueless and had no idea how the game was to be played.. cos i jus joined the school like 2 months ago and my colleagues had actually played it a few times before...so i became what u would say..the walking casualty. heh... heh
set off after positioning and straping the sensors and stuff.. wow, was it dark man!! was left all alone after my team members ran off into the different directions. felt a tinge of fear cos of the dark, the blasting music.. and winding maze..u'll never know who's on the other side of the wall... scary.. ehee.. I picked a very good spot to snipe unknowing prey.. but alas, i squarted and waitied till my thighs got all aching...and haven got a target.. hmmm, perhaps it wasnt too sound a spot to ambush..
as i was looking out for the yellows (enemies...I was reds), Jeffrey appeared.. i tried to duck his 'shots' but 2 others, Herwin & Raizal, flanked me from the side and back! I was cornered!! There I was, trapped, the 3 of them taunting me and shooting at me. Desperation loomed over as fear echoes in my head.. i ....SCREAMED... hahhaha...tat worked!! Jeffrey said "aiyah, let her off lah, enough liaoo" and even helped me up by the arm.
gee..
as expected, the first game which lasted only a mere 10 min, i was ranked the last.. this made me determined to go all out now.. heh, dun u dare terrorize me again!! so we set off into the maze the second time.. i decided tat squarting @ a corner wouldnt get me anywhere so i ran to find my enemies.. first was Herwin.. spotted him quietly shooting at me from the back. i turned and charged towards him stronghold with my lasers ablaze! he had no choice but to retreat and run..hey, tat worked!! this became my winning strategy!! i tried it on Raizal and chased him mercilessly around the maze with him screaming helplessly... muahahahhahhaha!!! :D the score on the scoreboard got everyone's eyeballs popping out of their sockets.. red team won and i was ranked the first! wahahahaha... so happy..
we played 2 more games before leaving the place.. i slipped and fell in one while chasing Jeffrey cos i was wearing heels.. luckily i wasnt badly hurt..jus a few bruises on my elbows. heee... eventually KokLeong and Raizal topped the billboard with a total of 1541 and 906 points respectively..kekeke... went dinner @ the nearby kopitiam after tat... was so tired i concussed immediately after slumping into bed tat nite...

i didnt mean to waver... but things jus happened... and feelings got entangled in all tat mess... i know dear's busy, and im not running away.. i let myself sink in.. someone please haul me up, before its too late to salvage.. from more than a year ago, he's tat someone i looked forward to seeing in sch.. .. nothing more than that, really.. things started changing.. we dined, chatted... enjoyed a concert, stars from the sunroof..and it seems he's in pursuit..
esther got worried. she asked me.."should i warn kelvin?"
and i told her "yes, please do..."
i dun wan ..i cannot do this... someone please help me to flee.. dear's necklace will always be on my neck, there wont be a replacement.. becos he is treasured deep down..

having pri sch kids with adult problems.. ? hmm...
got an email from ben this morning...
"ok!!?!?!!? if i hav a prob.. feel free to tell u... well... yea.. i do...agnes, said she prefers the ass that said he'd do IT wif u... than to me... after all i f***ing did.. tried... she still doesnt noe... damn.... if onli , GOD, kills me... and i hope she realizes that i wasnt playing around and i really did love her.. that way.. she'll noe how pain i feel right bloody now!!!!!!!!! i noe... i shld try not to think about her now... i'm trying... but i juz felt like asking her todae... but she juz said she prefers Mr pervert..... i'm sorry bout all the swearing... i'm juz damn in pain... but seriously... if i died... i think she'll noe how it felt..."

wow..exactly one week after my last post.. life's been smooth-sailing since.. but i guess i need to update quite a few stuff, haha.. this week's CA and prelims for my kids, most teachers are busily shuttling between classes, sometimes we didnt even have time to answer to nature's call.. now i know teachers not only need loud voices, brawny hands (for carrying tons of books) and sturdy legs, but they also need a strong bladder, hehe..
last fri was my big day, hehe..wish me a belated bday man!! haha.. went with dear & his sch-mates for ktv..the room was so cold that all of us were practically cuddling together!! tat's how we broke the ice between us, haha.. after tat we went for dinner @ chinatown before leaving home around 10.. didnt have a chance to spend more time alone with dear cos it's too late and i need to wake @ 5 the next morning.. but it's okay great time spent with his frens thou'..
esther bought me a tamagotchi as my pressie!!!..haha.. and u must be wondering why is this auntie so obsessed with this virtual plaything @ her age?! ..well, this is a state called the 'deprived childhood', haha..i reminisce my sch-days when i yearned for a tamagotchi....but didnt have a chance to own one..(yah, got all the 'cheong' and pirated ones, but what i desired after was the original tamagotchi by BanDai..heh...) now my wish is finally fulfilled...after 8 long years...hehehehe http://www.mimitchi.com/tamaplus/index.shtml

this is crazy.... i had the most horrible day in school today.. im not infuriated by my kids BUT by the teachers!! the system is crazy! they advised me to be firm with the kids or else they will climb over my head..well i think they are talking about themselves! climbing over MY head! i'm like given so much duties and stuff within these few days.. im not angry because of the overwhelming duties i have to undertake but of their last-minute notices.. im in charged of this Nanotechnology CCA which i have to do up alot of stuff for the room and projects already.. and here comes this office staff yesterday asking me to work on a dunno wat Green-Project with my P5 class.. The teacher who was in charge is too busy to do it so i have to do it.. i was quite puzzled why i was given it..never mind.. i told the staff i will try my best to carry it out.. BUT he told me the deadline is next week!? i have only a period with my class (which is today) this week so i sacrificed my sleep, rushed like mad last night to digest whatever they're supposed to do before i could brief them today.. After school, I heard from the teacher that the project was supposed to be the office staff's job, not the teachers... this annoyed me already.. i've told myself not to accept anymore 'jobs' in order that i can be stable both emotionally and mentally..
BUT the 'best' is yet to come!! what fuelled my rage was that i was rudely greeted by tons of english, math worksheets piling on my desk this morning..with 8 post-it pads (telling me wat to do) stuck onto them.. and i'm supposed to relief classes on top of my own classes from today onwards.. i've got to give out those worksheets, mark and go through all of them! ....*******(info deleted to protect bloggeress' rights LOL).... personally first instead of 'surprising' me like that... WHY ALL THE SHIT! *pls excuse me** i almost broke down in the staff room.. i couldnt speak....the disgust, the fury, the stress...everything was choking me..went to the hall and another teacher came and told me i have to conduct the CCA myself tomorrow..this is the umpteenth time he got something on and cant come.. i resigned to it.. i've simply no more strength to fight back..
i went to class and could hear my voice tremble.. it was better after my lesson with my P4s.. they sometimes do really have a therapeutic effect on me, haha... well... at least i can still laugh now

lazing around in the staff room...after a long day of ruckus from those boisterous kids, i need real peace now.. this week's gonna be a hectic one so i better get home early for some rest.. haven been sleeping well lately.. the staff room is expectionally quiet this afternoon.. guessed all life forms have gone home..leaving a few panda-eyed zombies staring at their computer screens now, hehe...

couple shot..hee

more pics from dear's cam...

heh heh

attended the Teacher's Investiture Ceremony in the morning today.. dear went to support me, hehe...so happy... but he didnt sleep last nite again.. was rushing his projects till this morning to meet next wk's deadlines..told him to rest at home but he still went with me...so touched.. *sniff*
the ceremony was quite boring.. trying hard to keep my eyes open..well, dun mention dear..he slept thru the minister's speech, haha... only woke up when we graduants went up the stage to receive our scrolls, heh... took the teacher's pledge with immense pride..wahahha.. think dear was proud too cos he hugged me when we met outside the stadium after the whole ceremony.. first time he publicly displayed such affection.. abit taken aback..but was so delighted, heeeee *blush*
took lots of photos...all posted below, hehe...after the ceremony, went with esther, her family, siaolang and dear to suntec for the porridge buffet.. yummMYYYYYY!!!! hehhe...ate alot..cos the food looks so mouth-watering!! wwhahhaha

love...dear+me

cant stand his cheeky expression!

shots with classmates

with esther & yewwee

frens posing for a shot

esther,me,valerie,vivian,juliet

a mad rush getting the right clothes for tomolo's convocation.. a pair of heels, formal collared blouse and my skirt badly needed an alteration.. went combing thru Orchard in search for them, but in the end, bought lots of stuff that were unrelated, haha... got a tank top from Mango, white button-fly tee from Esprit and a tiny canvas shoe keychain (for fun cos it simply looked too cute to resist)..heh heh... well, i AM a typical woman :D !! went back my neighbourhood estate to alter my skirt but !ALAS! the tailor told me it was impossible to rush it out by today due to countless pending 'assignments' on her sewing machine . Despite my pleads and begs, she refused to relent.. was my fault cos i procrastinated...till the last minute, heh...so served me right man!!
called esther for SOS (as if she can help in any practical way, haha,).. in the end, i hurried down S'goon. The first tailor i went dropped a second bomb.. her sewing machine has broken down.. fortunately the second tailor agreed to let me 'cut queue' by altering the skirt for me first. hehe... was so happy..
mom, dad not coming for my convo tomolo cos of work.. so sad.. dear's gonna skip his morning classes to come over and support.. he didnt sleep for 2 days cos he was rushing his projects.. felt so bad to have him waking up so early tomolo just to attend my convo.. told him it's okie if he doesnt wan to come..even thou i know i'll be disappointed.. but i have to understand that he badly needs sleep... zzzzzzz

Fireworks on our Nation's Birthday!!

amateur photography skills..hehe

shot some fireworks yesterday..it was national day.. for three years running, had been going kallang with dear for the fireworks .. dear wanted to see the fireworks from afar, but i insisted to have them blowing up right above our very heads.. (i wan to smell its smoke too mahh...keke) so we went right up to kallang stadium.. to be exact, outside the stadium to watch it.. after staring at the stark nightsky at the stadium's carpark for almos half an hour (legs aching like anything), we were finally rewarded with the magnificent array of fireworks..was a pity tat it only lasted for a pathetic 3 and a half minutes.. hmmm, all was worth it, haha..i was so excited and starting shouting..in the end dear had to remind me to watch my 'unsightly conduct'...
e tribute to PM Goh was so moving it stimulated my tear glands... we love u PM Goh!!!!!! but will give the same support to Lee too... :D

music blasting into my ears now... feeling so relaxed cos of the long weekend, heh!! *grinning wickedly**
went studio with family, aunt and cousins to take photos.. for my bro's and my graduation photos... when we reached the studio, we ladies were 'dragged' (literally!) into this 'make-up room'... and before i could protest, powder, eye shadow... and dunno wat stuff were piled mercilessly onto my face!! felt so assaulted... the 'make-up artists' seemed unaware of my apparent misery... GRRRR... disastrous!! anyway dunno how the photos will turn out, not interested to know too, wahaha...never liked myself in tat gown anyway.. (so 'sai-gong'-style)
went Soup Resturant afterwards, bro treated us to a 8-course dinner, heh.. finally he can feel the pinch, wahahaha.. the soup and chicken dish were HEAVENLY!!!!!!!!!! *slurrrrppppp!!!!!**
met dear yesterday.. had been a week since i last seen him.. work's keeping us apart.. dear got a shock (a pleasant one thou') when he saw my rebonded hair... but he loved it!! well, i went all out to accede to his request so HE BETTER DO!!! or else i'm gonna strangulate him alive!! muahahaha... stayed in his room helping him in his illustration project till we forgot our dinner.. so went chomp-chomp for some great food (supper).. had sambal sting-ray, stir-fried kai-lan, fried kwayteow and chee cheong fun.. slurp again, hehe

"2am.. and the rain.. is falling..." heeee.. slept at 9pm cos i was way too tired.. now i can continue with the preparation for morning's lessons.. went rebonding yesterday, to straighten all my curls.. (!!!) for dear.. sometimes out of the blue he would jus ask if my hair is going to turn straight again.. apparently he still prefers me sporting straight hair.. even thou the whole world has been telling me otherwise..
a friend drove me to the salon after work.. went back to Papilio and the lady boss was so nice. she did try persuade me out of my initial decision to straighten my hair.. she said the curls look sweet.. arghhhh... was in a total dilemma.. but i still went ahead.. so she gave me a discount to rebond my tresses for 80 bucks.. thot it was a good bargain since kimage is doing it for 200 bucks..
sat down infront of the mirror..my curls are screaming back at me, pleading for mercy.. i closed my eyes.. somehow overwhelmed by sadness, especially when a lady sat beside me, asking for a perm.. reminded me of wat took place one & a half month ago.. wanted to cry..
must be thinking i'm so silly to do this for dear.. and i haven told him yet.. but i guess the opinion of tat one person i treasured weighs much much more than anything or anybody else's.. even to the point of compromising my heart desires.. heee, aiyah, nothing very serious.. may go perm when it gets longer (now quite short tat's why curls doesnt look as nice)... not as if all my hair's gonna drop off permanently or wat... ;P gonna do work liao, byby..

it's sunday again.. weather's abit cold.. thinking of lazing in my cosy bed for the rest of the day.. but cant cos gotta work and plan for next week liaoo... these few days had been normal, very normal.. ever since tat dramatic Ben's case, everything seems plain in the light of it. First thing he did on thursday morning was to come and apologise to me again.. and i told him it was alrite..
weekend, watched 十面埋伏 with dear.. not nice one lehh... agreed tat e cinematography was good..(just like 英雄's) ...and i reckon tat's the only aspect of the show tat was commenable... ;p hehe.. and dear's so stressed out with his sch's projects.. we spent e whole day at his place yesterday, brainstorming for ideas on his advertising and illustration projects.. they are killing him slowly, haha.. didnt expect myself to be part of the homicide as well, hehe

feeling terrible.. jus took a couple of panadols.. think gonna see a doc tomolo.. haven been getting enough rest these few weeks i guess.. throat's sore and the headache's preventing my eyes from opening... experiencing the accumulated fatigue all over my body... went sch early in the morning to invigilate the P6 prelimary listening compre exam, was feeling abit giddy and cold liaoo.. then went over dear's place for lunch.. and i slept all the way till evening.. dear's got to piggy-back me home..but only for a short stretch of road, cos me getting too heavy for him liao, haha.. hopefully tomolo will get well... ...nite...zzzz

Racial Harmony Day in school

in malay traditional costume, the sarong kebaya

yo morning...in the comfort of my cosy corner in the staff room now.hehe.. class starting at 8.. yesterday was racial harmony day..got myself a sarong kebaya to wear, wahaha... post up pics later in the day.. went to "Advertising in the Air" @ Fort Canning Green last nite with dear and his art-school mates.. .. enjoyed ourselves alot.. we sat on the ground sheets laid on the big open field and the world's best tv ads were screened. quite a number were humorous and creative.. tats  why they were voted the best ads.. love this one.. http://www.asiapacificadfest.com/01welcome/tvc_best.htm

sat was burnt.. stayed in school from 9 in the morning till almost 7 in the evening... painting murals.. haiz... my sat wor... D: the only day i can relax myself before the new week starts.. cos i get the pre-monday blues in advance on sundays.. hee.. tats why i woke up at 530 today to prepare my lessons for next week.. in order to enjoy myself as much as i can later, wahahha... wanna look for a national costume..maybe a qipao or a malay kebaya (is tat how u spell tat?) for wed's racial harmony day.. all supposed to be clothed in national costumes, haha.. like during our secondary school days..heee...
life's so busy.. getting used to waking up early, having my 'monsters' appearing in my dreams(nightmares?) and howling at them (reality check!!)... sometimes the admin part of teaching really bogs me down.. but the kids can really make or break ur day.. i love my P5 EM3 students.. althou they may not be academically brillant, they are all very nice children.. humble and willing to listen.. (unlike those smart alecks from EM1s who are arrogant and snobbish, haha... ) i told my EM3s they're the best class among all i've taught.. they couldnt believe it.. all their life they have been labelled as hopeless and 'doomed' to failure..
...but i love them and i believe in them

Workplace in school :D

my desk in the staff room, hehehe...

had a talk with dear last nite (after he came back from the concert..) was soooo relieved he wasnt mad at me for venting my anger on him. he knew i was upset, but he said i could have at least tried listening first before howling at him, cos he initially wanted to help me get to the stadium via another route.. but obviously i didnt give him the chance to.. so he got to hang up and let me cool down first.. he didnt understand why i couldnt act or even think rationally under such circumstances..and i tend to get very gan-cheong and hotheaded.. he also had a hard time trying to explain my absence to his friend (who went out of the way to get the concert tickets for us)
swallowing my pride, i had to apologise to dear.. he didnt blame me.. tat made me feel worse.. i felt so guilty i couldnt sleep.. sigh...
..another lesson learnt liaoo..

Bro's Graduation...

shots with bro and aunt

attended my bro's graduation ceremony...took lots of photos with family.. and had dinner @ Ah Yat.. supposed to meet dear to watch concert @ indoor stadium, but the traffic jam was so bad @ Kallang.. bro sent me half way and the car was literally moving like a snail... everybody was nagging at me in the car... bro said i was wasting everybody's time.... i was very very upset.. i didnt want to miss the concert... i didnt want to miss seeing dear.. i was late for the concert.. i didnt turn up.. dear called.. and i shouted at him.. it wasnt his fault but i shouted... but i really didnt mean it.. i didnt. dear.....

had a long long day in school.... soooo tired.. today took a P6 class.. cheeky kids in there! there's this boy who kept playing with a tennis ball after recess in class and he's so disruptive.. warned him a couple of times but he just turned a deaf ear.. had to raise my voice and i said, "Ben! You better keep tat ball of yours in your bag right now!" ...and some smart-aleck @ the other corner of the room mumbled, "Ben cant keep his ball cos its stuck onto him" .... ... ... ... =X

a day of RUSH... rushed to do my lesson planning, rushed to accompany dear to buy digicam, rushed to meet ex-poly frens for dinner... and rushed home to print our my lesson plans... PHEW.. now i jus need a good good rest to rejuvenate myself before i greet those kiddos (*from hell?) for the new week. hee...
dear bought Canon 500 digi.. for his art works and stuff.. heard tat it was good. he did so much research online! recalling, i dun remember doing any the last time i bought my digi.. hmm, thot it was something i should learn from him, hee... esp with the buying of clothes, bags and shoes, haha...i buy lots of them on impulse.. tats why many have cobwebs growing on them liao..wahaha.
met ivy, charis and fang @ MOS for dinner.. ivy flying off to Queensland for studies this wed, so gotta meet up. we got her a bag...and i couldnt resist....so..i... bought..one too.....HEE... it was drizzling..couldnt get hold of a cab.. standing by the side of the road, drenched..it was terrible...
now i just wan to SLEEP.... bed here i COME!!! :DD

haven been posting any stuff up these few days.. reason being, was too busy with work and (*not forgetting*) enjoyment.. its only when one becomes really busy with work will she be able to be realise how precious time spent with her loved ones is.. today's Youth Day!!!! so happy.. :D not becos im still a youth, but school's having a holiday, so NO WORK today! wahahhaa...
had a whole lot of fun during the weekends, thrusting all work and stuff behind my head. watched SpidermanII with dear on sat.. nice plot, nice action.. some 5 pple booked the tickets and didnt turn up..so one whole row of seats beside us were empty.. how wasted!! dunno how many pple were trying to get tickets last minute but in vain.. anyway not my business also, why am i so uptight?! hee..
dunno why, feeling so disillusioned now.. as if my limbs weigh a thousand tons..dun feel like moving.. so sian.. perhaps having the monday blues..even thou no work.. but gotta plan for the rest of this week.. social studies is killing me.. slowly.. honestly, i have ZERO knowledge cos im not trained in tat.. how how how?? gotta do alot alot of research to be more competent.. so sian... dun wan to say anymore.. jus wan to run away.. heee

made a blunder today..stepped into the wrong class and talked for 10 minutes before realising it!! supposed to go into Hope4 but went into Hope3 instead.. tat was actually my former class which i've taught during my attachment last year, i really missed them.. guess tats the real reason of the slip-up i made 'sub-consciously', haha.. and later in the day, their form teacher came up to me and said "ms liang, they were so happy u went into my class".. *blush* wa~lao, those bigmouth kids..how embarrassing..
tomolo would be FRIDAY!!! hurraaayy!!!!!! but..but still got to do my lesson plans for next week *sulk* hopefully can finish them before the weekends so i can enjoy myself to the fullest..wahahhaa... gonna watch spiderman on sat! looking forward to it :D

first time experienced a total blackout for almost 2 hours last nite.. it was quite fun actually, haha..went 'patrolling' around the estate with my bro in our home clothes (without having to worry.. cos it was soooo dark! haha).. went down to sit by the poolside, enjoying the breeze.. the only drawback was the overcast sky..or else would be able to behold the beauty of stars twinkling in their thousands.. :D
adapting to the overwhelming responsibilities in school.. given pri 3,4,5 and 6 classes! wow...how am i going to remember all my children's names?! gonna put in extra effort liao..hopefully everything goes on fine.. heard that some new teachers broke their bonds and quitted the teaching profession becos they could not take the stress being a full-fledged teacher... scary hor? but i know i can depend on God.. will perservere becos this is my calling..."Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it" Proverbs 22:6

turning green in the face on my first day of work.. reported to school @ 655am in the morning.. wow, getting abit not used to waking up so early in the morning... duties briefed were overloading my mind.. *welcome to the REAL teaching world ppm!* it was scary, very... i went home feeling very sick, did not know if it was the weather or the stress.. guess it was the stress... my mind was so unsettled every minute, every second.. today was my first day, was already wondering if i could 'survive' the whole 'ordeal' in the upcoming months, years.. somehow i feel really helpless.. oh God.. i pray for strength, for peace... what i really need now is divine help

was invited to ex-colleague, evelyn's 21st bday party @ PunggolPark yesterday.. wow..thinking back...mine was like 1 and 1/2 years ago... keke..brought back much memories :D back then,i was still an ah-toot(nerd)...althou now still is one..haha... photos taken last nite are posted below...

dear fiddling with my digi again...

candid shots.........................................................& finally giving him a sulken face

Evelyn's 21st Bday party @Punggol Park

shots with eve..........................and ah dear

Morning!! slept like a pig last nite. was so tired after being out the whole day...*yawn* went KTV (again?!) @cuppage with dear.. jus the 2 of us, cos he's so 'gian' to sing...but me... first time getting sick of ktv, haha... had gone for 3 sessions these 2 weeks.. but i still went ahead.. guess i enjoyed it the most :D
in the evening, we met up with dear's bro and fren for Gen-Y concert @ the Expo.. got free VIP complimentary tickets from his fren who is working with UNUSUAL productions.. Artistes who went include: 范逸臣,江美琪,戴佩妮,阿暴与brandy,邱泽,仔仔and 言承旭... i still like 范逸臣..think he's so shuai, haha.. only managed to take a few snapshots of 邱泽.. afterwhich my digi's batt fell flat..arghhhh..*curse* ;p


shots of 邱泽!! hehehe

when the ever famous F4's 言承旭 came out, thousands of hysterically screaming fans rushed forward, armed with their multi-zoom Canons and Nikons...our previously CLEAR view was blocked by girls, aunties, ah-mahs(!?) standing on their seats waving neonsticks.. all in a state of frenzy.... cant even see a teeny weeny bit of jerry, so i slept.. dear was so shocked when he found me sleeping.. he said "all the other girls are screaming their lungs out and here u are, sleeppping?!" anyway we left the concert early.. dear's conclusion :"nowadays.. TALENT is NO fight for FACE"..

*love*~~photo stickers~~
got them 1st thing in e morning.. good boy

long long day.. awaken from dreamland to go KBox with bro and cousin.. wow, we got the K-lunch package.. with drinks, saba shioyaki sets *slurp* and 4 hours of croaking for just 10 bucks per person.. cousin and i went shopping @ heeren and far east after ktv session.. got the 6 inch Elle wallet i had been losing sleep over, haha.. love@first sight wor.. keke.. dear forgot to return me the card-reader i secretly 'kapok' from dad to transfer the photos from the digicam to his pc.. in the end got a dressing-down from my mum.. dear's always like tat. a classic example of a procrastinator, he hasnt scanned the photo stickers which i'd repeatedly asked him to.. and now he's off for 'male-bonding' at the pubs.. grrr.. but he did promise to send them once he gets home tonite.. I've just sent him an sms "if i dun see the photos first thing in the morning tomolo, u will be dead meat!! yea. enjoy ur nite"
well, see if he does.. keeping my fingers crossed, yet at the same time, sharpening my parang.. muahahha...

met sista ade-lian for dinner. had sushi @ feista. wow, love their cheesecake.. had two slices on top of their usual sashimi and stuff.. not seen adelene for more than a yr, she's still so cute and bubbly, haha... but she cant help laughing at my big hair D; grrrr... keke.. if not for the good food i may have considered biting her!!

heehaha..so happy today.. went national skin centre with dear. he went to get his medicine for his back. as for me, the doc advised on another injection to further reduce my bcg scar..but i refused cos after taking so many jabs (ouch, they did hurt like nobody's business!!) over the last 1 & a 1/2yrs, still no noticeable improvement.. was thinking of jus leaving it alone, anyway i've already overcome the irrational fear of wearing sleeveless tops.. all thanks to dear for his unceasing encouragement & support over these years. the confidence i now have i owe it largely to him..keke.. okie, enough of mushy stuff.. dear fell asleep while waiting for his queue number (all thks to euro'04, hahah) and he had a nightmare (in so short a time!?) tat sent him jerking outta his seat.. when he opened his eyes, so many pairs of eyes were on him.. he turned red.. hahahha... i couldnt stop laughing at him..
anyway we took photo stickers!!!! hahahha... dear hate to take photos, so i got to plead him and nag incessantly into his ears..haha.. also 'por' him abit with comments like "aey, i really like the way u do up ur hair today" and "ee? isnt this my fave shirt u're wearing?" haha.. guys are guys..must stroke their EGOs then :D keke.. hmm, today was so enjoyable. perhaps i was in an exceptionally good mood.. we cracked jokes all the way on the mrt train back home, most are lame..but tats our forte, hee.. got a super lame one.. i asked him "现在几点?" and he said "黑黑一点点" so i countered back with a "白白一大点" he went on saying "越看越多点" and i continued, "原来是污点!" in the end he uttered.."你这个十三点!!" muahahha sicko ; j ...

sat..have not been visiting AhMa @ killiney rd for the past few months already.. *guilty* =p so i went over in the afternoon.. and wah..they made such a big hoo-haa over my hair.. haha... my 4 aunties loved my new hairstyle.. well, tats good and bad news for me.. cos my curls are so popular with the older folks.. erm, tat makes me uh-hmm 'auntie' too... sad ahhhh D; went OG with mum+dad in the evening..oh no..another auntie phenomenon (OG!? hhaa..) dad bought the feet reflexology massager from OTO.. for himself as a father's day gift.. wahaha... well, erm.. at least i carried it all the way home for him.. huh? not enough ah? ..okok, will treat him to a father's day dinner tomolo then... keke.. yawn..tired liaoo, gonna zzz soon.. tomolo still got church, having ushering duty.. hopefully can meet dear after tat.. aiyoo my grandma nagging again, cos my bro have been returning home late these days.. almos everyday 'pah-tor'... so xingfu, haha..

feeling super tired now.. gonna doze off soon.. went KBox @ Suntec with esther, juliet and valerine, but went off earlier to go dear's place.. the library book i loaned had to be returned today cos date due liaoo.. by hook / by crook have to find a library.. so went to the one @ Geylang east.. supposedly very near dear's place..BUT i got lost! can u imagine it? despite having visited the library so many times since young, i jus simply couldnt find my way back to dear's block.. in the end have to ask a few malay aunties for directions, haha.. but they were so nice and friendly, heee..
dear gave me alot of DVDs.. mostly anime, haha...cos i love them! and a wooden hp strap with words "相爱符" craved onto it.. dunno wat the '符' means, but as long as i know wat '相爱' means can liao, wahaha.. 8) so sweet..rewarded him with a back,shoulder + face massage, keke
had duck rice for dinner and dear ate duck porridge, cos he's still on medication for his flu and sore throat.. afterwhich we watched 'Dawn of the Dead' with auntie.. wah piang..a crappy show indeed..with an absurd plot..

went for buffet lunch with family @ sakura toapayoh.. next to KBox, wahaha..so tempted to go in and sing, but.. with grandma and ah pa? haha.. anyway was feeling so uncomfortable.. didnt enjoy the food as well.. went home and slept like a log till 7pm..
think i caught the flu virus from dear last nite, met him like 1/2 hour only and now im down with flu :( the bug is real efficient lor.. even thou my body felt so weak, but sweetness resides in my heart, haha...contended to jus think i can share the bug with dear keke...silly hor?

photos taken after visiting the salon, hehehe...

went with esther this morning to the hair salon!! muahahhaha... esther went to rebond her hair..now silky and nice, haha.. and i went to do ceramic perm, hee thot i looked like a poodle..hmmm... anyway post our pics up tomolo, hehe.. went to the airport just now to fetch ah dear.. reached the airport @ 9pm and he came out only @ 1040pm! luckily i brought along my CLEO to pass time.. i was so excited i couldnt stop pacing up and down at the arrival hall.. he finally came out and he put his arms around me, gave a peck on my forehead and told me he missed me wahahhaa....i was soooo happy, hehehhee... wah, and his voice became sexy liaoo, cos sore throat. ate too much 'hoe-liaoo' over there..haha, he told me the stuff there are so cheap tat they cant resist buying loads of them.. he and his frens 'raided' the DVDs shop and cleared almos half of their stocks! cos each DVD costs only around S$1! gotta go off now cos there's an irritating mosquito irking me to death!! update tomolo! =D

oh dear..i cant sleep

excited about tomolo.. going to perm my hair hehe.. keeping my fingers crossed tat all will go well.. hmm, met my agent for dinner jus now. we had chicken rice balls.. to commemorate Euro2004, heh.. and he let me drive his car for a short stretch of road, luckily i got back to the passenger seat fast before we both vomit out our dinner... cos i was jerking the car non-stop!! (bumper-car?) haiz.. think i wasted all my money + effort getting a license afterall, hahaha.. gonna sleep soon, or else tomolo panda eyes meet ah dear liao, hehee..

someting light... bought a pair of slippers with kitten heels @ X:odus. wahaha... have been aiming them since.. :) and their carrier is so nice!!!!! sad..holidays gone like tat..going back sch almost everyday for Batik~painting.. hee, luckily its fun, or else i'ld be dragging my feet to work every morning... when will the holidays ever come......????

yo..guess mood's back on track.. after turning to lots of Aunt + Uncle Agonies for advice and 'free counselling sessions'. heee.. am bit guilty for thinking too much..on the bad side. feeling very silly cos im behaving like a small kid again, having all sorts of ridiculous imaginations in my head tat dear doesnt care anymore.. i have conveniently disregarded the mutual promise we held on before.. last nite, someone told me.. 'Love encompasses lots and lots of forbearance.. its not having to change a person, but to be able to accept his/her bad points..not for him/her sake, but for ur own good.' wow..took me a while to digest..haha but guess all was worth it.. cant say im experienced in relationships, but at least im willing to learn.. Time and Distance doesnt kill love. They are only obstacles tat true love can surmount.
nothing more to say except... im looking forward to meet dear!! counting down liaoo..2 more days! haha..

yeahh..had quite a fruitful day.. had a great dinner with mum dad and bro..and we went SHOPPING!! bought so much stuff! today's pay day for me, mum & dad mah, haha... yesterday went facial. my fave beautician kat was back! hehe.. anyway was glad the redness subsided overnite so i can be out today, wahaha.. wanted to do someting to my hair..perhaps get a ceramic perm, with big curls!! haha, hopefully the effect is one of sexiness, not auntieness! hmm, anyway esther wanted to rebond her hair, so we went PAPILIO @ veerasamy rd to chk it out.. heard from esther that their service is superb and had lots of artistes going there for their hair treatments. wow..sounds impressive, so i gave her the benefit of the doubt, went and WOW, it WAS impressive! i mean the salon, haha...din expect it to be so professional looking and stylish! heh... cos it's situated at some weird and seemingly deserted HDB building @ Little India.. we booked an appt on the 16th June, next wed 10am.. the day dear is coming back to singapore..hopefully the perming turns out well, or else dear will get a shock, haha.. hmmmm.. esther asked wat had happened between me and kel. she sensed tat im upset.. well, isst? i dun sense anything myself.. or am i running away from it? but i know my feelings for dear seems to be fast fading away....away...away.. im scared..seriously. i dun know how to face him, i dun know wat to say when i see him...

hadnt been posting for the past few weeks.. reason being im just way too busy back in school. by the way, I am a FULL-FLEDGED teacher already!! congrats congrats me will ya? haha.. 29th May was my first day..hmmm, cant spell out the acroymn or else pple will find out wat sch it is, keke...and im gone-case. haha.. today was supposedly the last day to be back in school during this June holidays, so the staff had something like a 'party' to free all our minds after 1 and a 1/2 weeks of solid meetings and stuff like tat.. we played games and had fun.. but poor me, i fell and got my knees all blue-black.. ohh dear..cannot wear my mini-skirts for the weekends with both my knees swollen and bruised. sighh... anyway dear's not in singapore, so i wont be able to meet him during the weekends too. He went Shanghai with 5 of his sec-sch mates. someone commented tat shanghai girls are so fashionable nowadays.. pretty and chic, haha.. well, maybe he'll stray, haha... im back here in singapore and i HAD.. opps!
yesterday i sent esther this msg "i also had a bf.. but but its such a special feeling i never felt when i was together with my boy. i remembered the smell of his car, his steadily gaze which has not failed to mesmerise me whenever our eyes met..its such a forlorn feeling i cant fully describe..."
esther was bewildered.. she immediately called and asked if the msg was meant for her..i told her "yes, it was intentional. and i want you to read it." she still was puzzled so i laughed it off by telling her, "well, how do u find this poem i've wrote? pretty impressive huh?" she giggled and believed i was joking..anyway my phone was soon low batt and i had to hang up...
my dear did not call..did not msg.. does he really care? will he remember to miss me? ..doubts and uncertainties clouded my mind.. dear..where are u....

today went for Singapore's yearly event--BIG WALK... but my mood wasnt very good thou'. This morning, i waited wat seemed like ages for bus 158 to take me to the national stadium, and dear is supposed to join me up on e bus when it reaches his place at aljunied. In e end I got into a cab, and the uncle was flabbergasted when he heard i wanted to go over to aljunied.. he said, "u wanna go aljunied? there jam like siao know?? i travelled there 3 times already since morning, ferrying pple to the BIG WALK. u sure u wan go?" errr..i was speechless, so i said "uncle, u just bring me over to aljunied, i wun ask u to drive me to the stadium..then u can go off and have ur breakfast."
So i got off at dear's place...and i called him, but i couldnt get him! i got annoyed when he did not pick up my calls.. we were already very late and there seems no way to go over to the stadium now..heard from the cabby uncle tat some buses were not in service today..(no wonder tat stupid 158 wouldnt come!!)
Finally reached dear, i bellowed into the receiver and he told me he was having his breakfast.. i was literally heated!! i couldnt contain my anger i went up to his place and stood at his door.. He came out, red eyes, sleepy face..tat made me boil even further.. I turned and stormed off downstairs without waiting for him. The atmosphere was tense..i felt like going home..but i didnt of cos...but my mood was ruined.. we got to the stadium, walked e WALK, talked, had breakfast at mcdonalds, went bugis for shopping, and then home to wash up and slept until evening... my mood's still not back on track, felt sooo sian... waiting for him to call me..i wan to apologise to him for my foul attitude this morning

becoming more active in here..haha, creating new posts every other day. today went shopping with esther @ far`east plaza. We bought the same pair of shoes. The shoes looked so fashionable, like those jappy slip-ins. But ALAS, granny told me they look hideous.. HAIZ...well, somehow think she couldnt very much accept the shiny~puffy look the pair were exhibiting.. oh dear, then i couldnt imagine her reaction if she will to see the polka~dotted skirt i bought too. I simply couldnt take my eyes off tat dressy article. It's just so so so ... hippy and i guess it has just started blooming at the fad-horizon. haha..it will take the fashion world by storm!! well, perhaps a tad too ridiculous.. but i really love the skirt!! can imagine the level of my obsession wif it if u realise i actually paid $49.90 for tat tattered piece of polka~dot cloth, haha
today i STEPPED ON A SNAIL!!!!!! i KILLED IT!!!I didnt do it on purpose!!! it was so dark!! i think it became juice wahahahahahhahahha.... D:

yo..today was a long long day :D but a happy one..woke up at abt 5am in the morning JUS TO GET TO SCHOOL BY 8AM.. arghh..but i was still late (as usual) hehe. we went to Paya Lebar Airbase for some National Edu~field trip and wao!! those aircrafts ARE magnificient! :DD
Yesterday nite dear was so down. I was actually quite upset when I heard that my bro and his gf quarelled.. (i actually 'eavesdropped' on her letter to him) and felt that the whole lot of guys out there are all worthless bums who manipulate gals' emotions.. Thus I was quite impatient and i shouted at dear, didnt know he was feeling down cos of his work, his family..and me. He took leave today jus to have a good good rest at home.. I asked if I could go over to his place, jus to be by his side when he sleeps, he was reluctant becos he needed REAL rest. He hoped I wun pressurise him by taking away this treat from him.. I was disappointed of cos but I knew i had to be understanding. So told him tat he can stay in his cave for a period of time until he wans to come out again.I dunno how long but I am willing to do it for him (In the book "Men are from mars, women are from venus", i've learnt that guys they need their own personal space~their so-called caves).
I msged him "Dear sleep tight hor.. know u badly need a break so rest well tomolo.. thanks for telling me how u feel. I will take care so u wun have to worry. hee. dear i wan to be always beside u supporting and not pressurising u. dun think so much, jus enjoy ur bed. i appreciate u really dear.. =) no need reply"
haha..and he did reply me saying "thanks dear..sleep tight tonight too. Sweet dreams".. haha and was so happy... I dun wish that he will be pressurised by me..even thou the whole world may condemn him, i wan to stand by him always..
and today, he send me a msg that sent me flying up to the skies... He asked me to go over to his place and his mum has cooked bee hoon for dinner, hehe...(i expected a much longer period for him to hibernate in his cave) i was elated..u should see my face, haha...i couldnt stop beaming ear to ear, keke...
esther was shocked and thot wat had happened to me..but tat really made my day..
i went over, gave him a good massage and off he went to dreamland.. me too :-) he slept and I DIDNT DISTURB him, he was so glad and I was glad too, keke... i knew he appreciated it :D
Sorry for the long-windedness but im just so happy, heee

downloaded 阿桑's 叶子.. a very very nice song..got me feeling all emotional over.. went KTV with dear, dajie, xiuqi + her colleague yesterday. We had a fun time together.. dear never forgets his sweater..for me :) love him to bits.. last month we had alot of ironing out to do with each other..but it was good..cos we found out that we had too much misunderstandings abt each other. We both promised to always be assured of our love and best intentions for each other. It helped, it really did..becos when we, in our own individual spaces, start to feel insecure, this mutual promise we held on with each other certainly made us feel so secured and loved again.. who says feelings will fade over time? Love is a committment, a choice, an effort put in...for the best of the other person who has a place in my heart. after more than 2 years with dear, i am certain i love him more..more as days go by.. nothing can express my affection for him..

hmmm, just watched Van Helsing...thot it was very nice..fantasy kind of show. dear said the plot's really too far-fetched but well, i enjoyed it..haha... GOT GREAT NEWS, i've won myself 2 free movie tickets from great eastern life, cos i was one of the first 150 respondants who did their online survey, hehe... gonna be another movie treat coming up!:) wanna watch 50 first Dates..heard fom my brother it was a nice and romantic comedy.. **wink!! dear lost his hp today, ..left it at the army market but thank God he found it back.. he gave 10 bucks to this old uncle who returned him the phone..he said must buy 4D liao.. 0992...and we took a cab today, the uncle told us to buy the receipt number..aiyah cannot remember liao, dear say we share & buy, haha

got to this free blogskins webby and browsed thru some templates to use, haha...came across this angel kiddo~style skin, looks cute and so decided to d/l it.. today stayed at home the whole day, watched tv, sleep.. to experience how a full-time slacker feels like. i have not editd the blog's links and stuff, cos im kinda clueless abt how it's done..so hmmm, just treat this place as a source of breather to vent all my thots and feelings. sometimes u jus have to speak to someone ya.. whether or not tat someone responds, its doesnt matter

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