现实与梦想

成功的人，多数是个一直努力追求梦想的人。而现实，是把不够坚定的人，摧毁他的梦想。而我们，面对现实的“读书就是必然，你的责任就是考好成绩。” 我们就在刚学会说话不久后，便开始走进那个，用分数来考量儿童。成绩好，便表示这孩子，有前途吗？成绩不好，就不会是一个成功的人？ 或许，在不懂事的时候，耳濡目染之下，我们就随着现实，把自己的能力，埋没在书卷里。从何开始，我们，忘了自己的志愿？ 忘了每个人都是特别的，忘了我们也有别人所没有的东西，却花了10几年的时间，去做一个在老师，学校，班上成绩不优异的二等学生。而埋没或许是一流的潜力？

梦想，要勇敢去追。现实，是摧毁梦想的罪魁祸首。只要信念够强，坚持自己的梦想，不放弃，不退缩，梦想会实现。Try it and try it. 没有努力去追求，得到梦想就不会有喜悦。孩子们，如果你也在怀疑为什么要读书，或许退一步，想一想，你是不是，该为了自己忘了的志愿，努力奋斗。或许，你会从中，找到你 生命的意义。

Looking back, all can just be memories now. I had never regret, not a single bit. Why bother to let people who dun even understand a single bit of my effort waste my time on my last semester in Temasek Polytechnic to train BUNCH OF IDIOTS who never understood what the word "respect" means? I have come to realize, I dun have to take it so hard appoint all the defeats the team had faced, as a matter of fact, they are the one that deserves the defeats! How much effort really did all of u put in? complaining about tough trainings and stuff. Do u all had any idea how much time did each and every good players spend every single day on basic, physical and stamina? Ask all of u, if it hadn't been me, who the fuck are u guys now. Who was it who never gave u guys up despite I am not getting paid to see your fucking attitude. STOP INSULTING THE GAME THAT I PLAYED WITH MY PRIDE AND MY LIFE!

Disappointment in Singapore Basketball
-Level of basketball dropping so much!
-Girls who played basketball in the era when the game is only for guys, shoot with one hand and went into nationals ending up into a coach. Which was respected throughout Singapore basketball players.
-To Bedok North Basketball Girls who are shooting with one hand and winning Nationals Champion the first year BNSS inducted basketball girls.
-To now, girls saying why need to shoot with one hand when shooting with two hands can shoot in? And naming Shooting with one hand as BOY's Style. If u dunno basketball, fucking keep ur mouth shut!
-Male basketball from my coach era of shooting 3s without even jumping, despite being short in height yet capable of doing every thing that is required in any positions, to players now in Singapore team who are only able to perform in certain positions to now, teams that have players saying and asking can I dun be in this position blah blah blah!

I have nv said this, but I dun need respect from any single one of u, because, I had been respected for my basketball as a player as well as being a coach, by Official Referees and Experienced Certified Basketball Coaches around Singapore. And looking back at kids like u all, I really wonder, who the fuck are u guys to disrespect me?

I worked hard, playing with my pride, heart and soul for the game cuz this is the game that i played like every single game is my last. I worked hard, trained hard to be who I am today. Having what it takes to move on as a coach. Players who doesn't even have the basics yet showing me attitude of a fucker =) cool!

Thanks for wasting so much of my precious time, where i could be meeting up friends who understand the real peng rui inside and not the peng rui that they see me as, where i could be finishing all my school work with long before the deadline, where i could be spending time with my family members, my girlfriend, where i could be spending my time resting whenever i need to. Yet I burned my sleeping time to train all of u. Giving u girls all the free time I had in between of lessons as u cannot even fix a date for whole team training. Expecting ur coach to be standing there pointing out every single mistake u made? sorry, coaches that have coached me before always verbally says one sentence that summarize the mistakes (eg. Peng Rui, shooting not firm) and u are supposed to figure it out urself. Decades ago, its coach that have expectation for players, where players work hard to meet the expectations. When the hell had the world changed to players having expectations for coach and coach work hard to please every player?

Philosophy of being in my team:
-Being punctual
-Respect, Good attitude (for training and personality), Pride
-Giving 100% effort or even 120% during training
-Ask when you have doubt
-Physical and Basics come first

"If you can't secure your basics, you can't secure your basketball"

I am grateful and even blessed to realize that the phrase "when God close a door in your life, he will keep one window open"
After this incident, I had only come to realize the true friends who understood me for who i really am deep inside. I thank you God and friends who have allowed me to be me! =D

Life sucks, especially when u start wondering, have anyone bother to comes into ur life, and stay on from then on. Have anyone ever bother to appreciate every single thing u do. Understanding every reason behind every thing u do.

I guess its time i dun think things too hard on myself. It nv work even when i put in the effort, working so hard for bball only to have nth but injuries and great memories of games i played so well. working so hard for studies only to transfer course and wasted one fucking year of my life. and putting in so much effort in relationship only to realize i had spend so much efforts on ppl who dun give a god damn shit about who i really am deep in. I am hurt inside, deep in. whatever that had happened to me all this years is just tearing me apart alive!

Thinking back, its funny, whenever one part of my life is getting back to what it used to, the other would be destroyed. how long more will i be able to suffer? I dunno.

I had enough!

Forgive and Forget, I will, until i get my hands on u and fuck up ur life like u had fuck up mine. Karma will haunt u down but i am thinking if i should take karma into my own hands! I am sorry but obviously, u had chose a wrong guy's life to mess with. Better be careful, because the moment i get my hands on u, ur life will be nightmare from that point on. This is a promise I made to myself. So better keep urself hidden and pray i dun get to see u. Because i am not going to get u just once, each and every single time i see u, i swear on my heart and soul i will give u the worst beating u ever imagine. Thanks for fucking up my life all this while. I seriously had enough!

Whenever I thought of whatever my injuries had cost me, I wondered why had I carried on and on, knowing I can never be at my best ever again, yet, giving up basketball is a thought that had went through my mind, yet i couldn't let go. I tried, going away from basketball, avoid going to basketball courts, yet, the passion for basketball just keep burning. The moment I step back into the court, the moment i goes for a lay-up and when i make my 3 pointer shots, any of this just makes my blood boils. I know i can never be at the peak of my basketball any more. I just wanna pass down whatever i had learnt over the years to younger ppl who shares the same passion as me.

Over the years, it started with Basketball as one big part of my life, then it became my life, turning into something I live for. To I wanted to give up that very part of my life, till now, i know i just can't let it go. Its my life in the past, now and in the future, something i would just carry on until the day my legs can no longer move, my hands have no more strength. With the pride i played, I want ppl who had seen me play had no idea or even cross their mind I had been severely injured before. I am glad, I can still play the game i love, teaching whatever i know and helping ppl with the same passion excel in the game. Championship is one thing that i have always wanted, but what I always wanted, is for ppl (coaches, referees and teamates) who have allowed me to be me, to look me in the eyes and say PR, u did the right thing at the end of the day.

对你的爱，世界上没有任何一句话足以形容到底有多深。 这些日子以来，你感觉到的爱，就是我一直以来对你的承诺。无法用言语表达，只能用行动去证明。永远都不回忘记我们之间在一起的时光。海边上抱着你一起看星星，电影院里接吻完全不知道电影的情节。喜欢你温柔的玩我的头发。喜欢你爱家人的个性，让我总是觉得你就是那个，可以和我开始另一个家的人。喜欢你，在我身旁傻傻的样子。喜欢你总是能和我大声笑，大声地一起哭。喜欢在你身边，我谁都不是，只要做自己。 喜欢我们一起开玩笑（feather) 喜欢你，累了靠着我。喜欢你，有上千上万的理由。爱上你，有上千上万的幸福。但愿，这幸福，能延续到永远。

你想逃，我会陪你逃到天涯海角。
你想哭，我会抱着你和你一起哭。
你伤心，我会用尽一切方法逗你笑。

一年多来，我们一起经过许多风风雨雨。只因为我们的心里，深爱对方。你如果需要冷静，我会给你空间。你累了需要依靠，我的肩膀随时让你靠。如果我们之间有界限，我会不顾一切的冲破它。

拥有你，我别无所求，只希望我能永远抱紧你。

对你许下永远爱你的承诺，不会改变。你对我有多重要，或许你从不了解。你就像我的氧气，在你身边，我才能呼吸，做最自然的自己。

我不想失去你，不想让你在流泪。

我的世界，拥有你才完整。能不能，不离开？ 能不能，让我们一起面对一切？

深爱丽婷的鹏锐，
唯一的渴望。。
继续我们的感情，
让你对我重回信心。

老婆，你是我的唯一。我们在一起的时候是如此，现在也是如此。以后更是如此。


丽婷我爱你。。。。。

I am seriously having enough of this bullshit!! first my itouch was stolen. gotten a normal MP3 player as replacement. Now its lost right after i officially ended my internship!! cool! KNN..

I have been wondering, what is the difference of being attached or single right now. or rather, am i attached or single right now. The only thing that seems to remind me i am attached is the display picture on phone/laptop and facebook. as well as the relationship status in facebook. Nothing else seems to let me know i am in a relationship. No smses/ calls. I know how busy are u. yet i dun think a sms to at least care for me is too much. I dun need to see u every single day. Not sms every seconds, minutes. but at least, a bare minimum of reaching office, lunch time and when u are going home. Where is the promise of calling me to say "I love u" at least once everyday? Imagine, if i hadn't go fetch u after work in this one year. if i hadn't been meeting u after bball-ing session which i am dead beat. how much time do we actually have together?

U said its unfair for me as u dun have time for me. I am fine with not meeting up with u. but don't u think its ridiculous for a gf to not sms her bf the whole fucking day? even if its cold war, who had been giving in all these fucking while?

I am tired, tired of feeling i am the only one showing effort. I am not ignoring u but waiting for u, waiting for u to at least make a move....for once to show me how important am i to u.

However, two days straight without a text from u, i guess i am just not as important as i thought i am to u.

我像是一个你可有可无的影子。

what is the whole purpose of results? I seriously have enough of it. so what if i am able to get all As for my certificate? As if it will help me in earning big money! No it don't!! so why keep asking me to retake my english? LOL..come on, its been like 4years and the syllabus is confirm to have changed! what for i waste my time if i dun have the confident to score much better than the previous score i have. LOL

The moment u think ur life sucks, think of ur past, u might realize, what can be worst than u had been through.

Treasure what u have & not remembering u had.
Focusing on people who loves you than people who hurts you.
Loving those who loves u.
Forgive & forget those that hurt u.

Mommy, Daddy & Peng Wei, thanks for all the support, understanding & love. I feel so blessed having u all as my family! I love you all!! =)

I guess this is my heartfelt words that i have nv ever say out. I am glad, in fact, blessed to have a wonderful family. although we might have arguments cuz of my temper. I still love u all!! =) gor gor, we might actually be behaving like kids still. yelling at each other and fighting at times, but u are the best brother i have, glad to have u as my bro. daddy, sorry for being stubborn and even argue with u at times, but i am really grateful to have a responsible father like u are! =) working so hard for the family. I love you! Mommy, thanks for all the chats, love, care and concern u have always given me. the freedom and trust u given me. thanks for all the understanding u have for me! and all of u have been my strength to move on when i encounter with any obstacles in life.

no matter how many I love you i say, would nv be enough to show my love for u! thank you and love u lots!!! =)