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Saturday, February 28, 2009 2:14 am
"Behold, now is a very acceptable time; behold, now is the day of salvation."
- 2Cor5:20-6:2
the time HAS come. (((:
Sunday, February 22, 2009 8:58 am
I want to revamp my house.
I want my own room and MY OWN ALTER.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009 9:59 am
Knees to the Earth - Watermark
Verse 1:
Wonderful Savior
My heart belongs to Thee
I will remember always the blood You shed for me
Wonderful Savior
My heart will know Your worth
So I will embrace You always as I walk this earth
Chorus:
Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high
Be treasured here
Be glorified
I owe my life to You my Lord
Here I am....
Verse 2:
Beautiful Jesus
How may I bless Your heart?
Knees to the earth I bow down to everything You are
Beautiful Jesus
You are my only worth
So let me embrace You always as I walk this earth
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this is how I feel tonight:
small.
figuratively speaking.
I've been feeling so helpless. first, it was overhearing my mum's conversation with my Godsister that my cousin-in-law wants to send her kids to a school of another religion. with all due respect, I have nth against the sch or that religion. but I just cannot bring myself to condone, even the notion of, sending catholic children to a sch of another religion. didnt they take vows before the alter to raise their children in the law of the church? yes, I'm emotional. but we came from a catholic family and if mama is still around, she wouldnt allow it. I am in no position to tell them what to do as parents but seeing it all go haywire isnt the best position to be either.
secondly, reading jiejie's blog made me realise how broken we all are. not just my friends but my family as well. there's sooo much to restore and at this point, it seems, everyone's turning away.
WOULD YOU ALL STOP?!!
I'm so tired of chasing. I guess this is how God must feel everyday when a sheep runs away. it nvr ends. but thank goodness He is patience personified.
Monday, February 16, 2009 6:31 am
valentine's day was awesome. (:
I planned a Javanese massage for both of us. HAHA! I laughed and screamed and laughed... and laughed... AND SCREAMED! till a customer went to tell the manager, "someone is screaming upstairs" HAHAHA. omg. andrew was obviously MUCH more tolerant than I am. (: on the other hand, the therapist said those who are ticklish are loving people. HAHA.
HIGHLIGHT?
baby bought me a nintendo DS... cos I said I was bored last week. (: I honestly feel like I dont deserve it and believe me not, I feel so loved that I wanna cry whenever I think abt it, use it or look at it.
on another note, I just read baby's blog post. I do feel quite helpless when it comes to NS. I know he's not been himself and I know he's not been having as good a time as he seems to be. sometimes I wish he'd grumble to me. but I guess it's just not him to complain. what good will it do right? I know I would do the same if I were him. nvrtheless, if only I could do something to give him strength for the week. I know, if you're telling me to pray, I do. every day! but I wish I could show how much more I love him and wish he'd be well.
he called earlier and said he might be confined this weekend. furthermore, he wont be able to call me for the next 2 nights cos he'll be at life firing. I am getting use to this in a way. well, I have to. I dont wanna be disappointed cos I'm sure he'd be feeling worse. I wanna be strong when he's weak... cos I'm "the helper", right?
Tuesday, February 03, 2009 5:11 pm
oh God...
stop these negative thoughts RIGHT NOW!
I miss Andrew heaps. have got sooo damn much to tell him cos everywhere I go, ,I say, "I tell Andrew ah..." but it's true. I wanna tell him everything that happened over the past 6 days.
for those who are still clueless of his whereabouts, my dearest bf has gone into the jungles to save Jane (cos he's tarzan). though, I wish I am Jane then he'd be chasing me round in the jungle for 6days! :D fun!
but no.
life doesnt always turn out the way we want it to be. on a serious note, I hope he's safe. I've realized that I dont really know much abt his army life and I feel inadequate to be a pillar of support. besides, I dont believe that my voice would be so "full of money".
on a seperate note, my mum just came into the room to nag abt my bags lying around the house; what she failed to notice was, I've alrdy kept 2 while she was at her morning walk! AAARRRGGGHHH... why, do I hate being misunderstood.
disgressing again, I've decided to re-join the band. although, it's not quite the same anymore. in a better sense, of course. I hope I'll be gving more help than problems in this new ministry cos the last thing I wanna do is to ruin it like I did the last time.
baby's field camp operation search-for-jane ends tmr. I hope he calls. I miss his voice that is "full of money" but it's ok if he doesnt cos I'd und that he'd be tired. also, I miss him more than his voice so I'd rather see him on friday... if he's still not too tired.
urgh. NS does wonders to love-birds.