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Monday, July 28, 2008 3:21 pm
what is it like to be a pagan? do they have moral duties to fulfill? will they fit into societal norms? or are they free?
free?
it's been awhile since I've felt that way. what am I?
school's not good for anyone. dont send your kids to school. parents would never know what teachers do to them till it's too late; and likewise. dont. just dont.
I WILL NOT CONFORM!!!
what's the big deal abt SMU? it's huge for me. I've always wanted to be a parvenu-elite. what's wrong with being average? I'm just a grade.
stop telling me that my life would end if my grades would make my heart sink like [E]lephants on quicksand. it's not. my God will save me - a nobody. 'cause I'm precious in His eyes. I'm important in the Kingdom of God. not here. I'm not important enough for Singapore.
that's why I read the bible instead of my notes.
screw the system.
Thursday, July 17, 2008 3:21 am
here's something that I've been holding on to... and I will never let it go.
"He strengthens those who are weak and tired. Even those who are young grow weak; young men can fall exhausted. But those who trust in the Lord for help will find their strength renewed. They will rise on wings like eagles; they will run and not get weary; they will walk and not grow weak." - Isaiah 40:29-31
(: every morning a little girl would drum it into my head at the end of the song "Everlasting God" and each time I hear it, there's a stirring conviction that everything would be alright.
just as i was about to take my medicine, I was looking for a sweet in the fridge and found a mini hamper. so I unwrapped it and found a quote! (:
it said,
"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am you God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 40:10
God knows... ha.
Sunday, July 13, 2008 3:41 am
sigh... it's been almost a week since I've done anything and I still feel like crap. friday was a good day, saturday was even better but today's just been a wreck. woke up feeling like I've been physically carrying a cross all night and then I cant seem to get back to work. I wish this would have been easier.
I wish this would end.
managed to get out of bed to this song to blog and perhaps go into quiet time with God now.
"With All I Am" - Hillsong UnitedInto Your hand
I commit again
With all I am
For You Lord
You hold my world
In the palm of Your hand
And I'm yours forever
Jesus I believe in You
Jesus I belong to You
You're the reason that I live
The reason that I sing
With all I am
I'll walk with You
Wherever You go
Through tears and joy
I'll trust in You
And I will live
In all of Your ways and
Your promises forever
I will worship
I will worship You forever
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Thursday, July 10, 2008 6:16 pm
shiok! I've only been to school for a day this entire week. hur. my head hurts periodically like wave tides. finishing a piece of "school joy" is like a clue to find another! the cycle repeats like "the song that never ends"...
and it gones on and on my fried... ARGH!!!
despite missing 3 days of school, I still havent had the rest that I need. somebody... GOD... urgh...
TERI. maybe I'll write another essay. (:
Wednesday, July 09, 2008 9:24 pm
home again for the 2nd time this week. my head hurts. every night's a damn turmoil in bed.
dont go away. dont get angry. dont mind what I say.
next week's a new timetable. can't wait.
Sunday, July 06, 2008 4:13 pm
HAPPY YOUTH DAY!!! for the last time in my life I'm gonna have the previledge of taking a break on this day. yet, I've an almost untouched list of "school joy" to do despite spending the whole of last night doing case studies.
thinking about revision scares me these days. especially after BT3. my head pounds and swirls like a tribal dance round a conflagration. except, it is not an expression of freedom but it hinders any form of expression I could possible have. I'm at a lost for words.
ok, breakfast now. flu's back! shucks.
Wednesday, July 02, 2008 6:30 am
GOD! I'M SO WORN OUT ON THE 3RD DAY OF SCHOOL!
that wasnt a swear but a prayer. (ooh rhymes!) :D
today was tiring. I left my file in a toilet in J8 by accident! and in it, I had my:
- one day old entry proof
- 6 econs case studies (srsly, aminah would KILL me)
- global economy (IH) lect 2
- results slip (ha! what would people think when they see my grades?
damn she's stupid!- MORE econs notes
gosh. the emotional frenzy was beyond description... I could neither cry nor get violent. fortunately Andrew was there to converse in mandarine for me, then I got a lunch treat! ((: thankYOU again. and I'm sorry... you know why. what would I have done without
you today?
and what would I do without God in any day? despite spending quality time with God, I'm already so vexed. I refuse to imagine what it'll be like if I dont!
I'm gonna sleep and get up at 3 to do ECONS CASE STUDIES...
the horror the horror! - in the words of Joseph Conrad.
Tuesday, July 01, 2008 10:46 am
2.46AM wednesday
ha! came home at 7.30PM and hit the sacks till 1AM. ((: such, is LIFE. fortunately, I've no major hw crisis except stuff to prepare for GP tutorial, and... (let me check my organiser...) nothing else is important enough for me to stay up for the rest of the night. LOL. actually, I have 4 econs case studies to do since june hols but I'm just gonna bank on my luck (that I never ever had).
anw, after school yesterday, handsome bf and I went GELARE! hohoho... like finally? yummy yumm yumm! we had ice-cream waffles! yumm yumm yumm... *salivates* it's been a long long time.
alright, I'm going back to slee..ee... snores...
ps: my boyfriend's not fat!
